Psyche, she was meant to be weird this whole time (Patreon)
2018 “Cure” like: Lol you thought
It really is hard to translate her design to paper! Even just trying to get her body type down and decided on was tough - is she a bean? Not exactly, but she’s not hourglass either, or exactly chubby or round, but not just a rectangle?? I don’t know how to describe her, and that’s completely discounting her face. I do remember that she’s both very short (a little bigger than your average teddy bear but not by much, so around 2′6″?? Maybe??) but also rather wide so her proportions are all weird
The original look at her wide eyelash concept - still not sure :0 I imagine they’d be brightly coloured as well, probably hot pink or maybe a gradient of colours. She’s definitely meant to have some elements of eyestrain in her design
Shaking things up with a poll! This is Purely a curiosity thing, it is not meant to find some Trueism of systemhood or whatever, just a discovery I had about our experience makes me wonder how mix-and-match-able some things are! We may do more polls like this as a way of learning more, about ourselves and about others' experiences!
Note: If you are unsure/don't understand the question, read more under the cut for our experience and how we're using that to define the parameters!
Our experience below for clarification:
Our system identifies as polyfragmented, and alters do not consistently recognize others emotionally. However, we are able to "share" memories with each other so there is an intellectual recognition. It took us a long time to realize that we can "recognize" someone without the alter fronting actually sharing any sense of familiarity or emotional attachment, due to a lack of time interacting one on one. We always sort of assumed that if we 'recognized' someone we felt a consistent emotional response to them (if somewhat seasoned based on additive experiences or sentiments brought up with the alter).
But now we've found even if multiple alters are near the front and Recognize the other person, if the alter in front doesn't recognize them then there's no emotional connection felt. So even if we recognize our mom as Mom, know her by name, can recall our history with her and know how we generally feel towards her... If the alter in front had somehow never directly met her, they hold no feelings towards her, and may even be more likely to react to her like one would an overfamiliar coworker - even while knowing who she is to us.
So now we're curious if this is something others run into, and while we doubt there's any consistency it'd be interesting to know if this is more likely to happen in larger systems or not!
Maybe this is a very uneducated questions but do you give any thoughts at all when writting to the now popular pop culture "writting advice": like "show dont tell" (if this was popularised by the CIA is another questione), making charachters "likeable"/engadging, "plotholes", "3 act structure", "rising action" etc?
Is there any value, any sense that one atleast should know these primitive things and trueisms in some sense, like one has to now basic grammar and spelling in some sense?
Or are they all so low level and missing the point of literature that they are not worthy thinking about, like an architect laughing at lego building techniques as eternally childish.
You can't learn these things as a list of rules and then mechanically apply them to a piece of fiction. (I mean, you can, but the result won't be worth much.) What you actually have to do is to read a lot of fiction, preferably when young, so that you internalize structures and techniques and can deploy them at will when demanded by the unique rigors of each new project and idea. David Lynch had a point when he said, "I don't think about technique. The ideas dictate everything. You have to be true to that or you're dead."
so i don’t really care for hazbin or helluva boss anymore but I did this have this idea once like
hell is fake like a fake hell make by Lucifer for Charlie well Charlie is still the anti-Christ but she wasn’t first this is like the tenth attempt but slight problem Lucifer grew to love her and to him “too sweet for her own good” so he make this fake hell for and make a connection, so some sinners would end up there
he also make copy of his fallen and etc but that changed and etc he even make Lilith a copy because he never got over her and the exterminators thing is actually demons he make to. Do the whole extermination because overpopulation and real hell is infinite because well hell
etc and yeah he spend more time here because he really love and happy for charlie happy to see her grew and make a gf vaggie and etc and then boom the hotel where sinner can go to heaven and etc at first he amused “too sweet for her own good” but overtime more people come to the hotel and more people in the pride ring start to complain and join up with her well he gets paranoid they turning her against him and why are those to complain they in red LA not hell (also real is just hellish like floor are flayed skin and shit a real scared straight think people would use)
so basically, it would blow up at a even or something where she ask him and everyone of her friends join in and like I’m not gonna get involved I am Lucifer Prince of darkness but then Lilith and Stolas and etc join in he gets annoyed it’s like we’re not having this conversation
until charlie start a speech or something how he being unfair and he explodes everyone that they should be happy and if they want change i well give hell and he rambles his form change into a more trueism one like black goat all the white gone and goes real biblical that it’s time for tough love and summon real demons real hellhounds like silent hill and faith like demons and order them to go house to house and kill and tortured give them true hell
Also or something he grab an choke Alastor that he not special he’s not important it’s just some other murderer sinner
now it up to Charlie and friends to stop this and stuff
This is your permission to vent if you want, or not, but genuinely, how is the strike going? How are you holding up? How long do you think you'll be at it/how's the response from the university so far?
Thank you for asking!!
Once again I'm not a union official or strike captain or really plugged into the leadership, this is just what I've heard from the official updates all UAW members get and what people are rumoring on the ground. This is vibes and not official in anyway.
Except for one official thing: DONT VANDALIZE PROPERTY, DONT SKIP CLASS, DONT USE FORCE TO PROHIBIT INGRESS/EGRESS FROM LOCATIONS!!!! Ask your profs to cancel class in solidarity, instead. ;)
It's going well I think! The University (system) has a slow response time to what's happening on the ground, so I think right now we're seeing the response to the strength we showed at the end of last week (which was record, phenomenal, Solidarity). The University has quit stonewalling certain topics at the bargaining table. It seems really promising that we're gonna get some historic deals that might...reshape what these outdated models of "apprenticeship" look like going forward.
We're never gonna meet an industry level of compensation and no one is asking for that, we know we're doing PhDs for low pay, but we have limits that we just can't take anymore. "you can't eat prestige" and "passion doesn't pay the rent" really are just...trueisms.
The new deal the postdocs are getting progress with looks...astonishing honestly, in a great way. We'll see what happens with the other units!
I'd say my campus is the most conservative and complacent of the 10 campuses, and we still managed to get amazing and astounding and thrilling amount of turnout. Even in STEM, which is well paid by general standards (relative........$30k is still not good 😂)
Every time we make gains however the University then sends out new waves of threats. Departments like mine have been threatening their TAs and GSRs (illegal threats and threats of illegal actions) in a variety of ways, in particular with regard to the empty/fake "research units" we are forced to sign up for *in order to be employed by the university*. It's a blatant effort to discourage and retaliate against strikers, and illegal, and unfair labor practices have been filed. But unfortunately it sucks to have to live through. Even if my advisor doesn't go through with it, even if he does and it then gets *undone*, it's still a stain on our relationship going forward. And fuck the department.
Fortunately (?) the threats are what actually pushed a bunch of people who were anti-strike or just complacent into being like "wtf, department/university, that's evil" and made them join the picket line
I hope we'll be able to reach deals for all the units next week. The University will likely hope we lose steam over the holiday so we definitely need to keep the showing strong next week. I'm hopeful!
On a personal note it's...been really strange finding myself leading chants and being asked to make speeches. 🙈 I have given serious side eye to many people in my department who got involved with DEI and other activist initiatives just to...have something they can rule over as king or queen. They want to be known for something without doing anything substantial, and edge other well meaning people out because they consider others to be a threat to their monopoly. There are people who cry racism and sexism and corporate corruption at every little thing, just to scare people into giving them what they want, and it's kind of...ruined that reputation for anyone who wants to get involved. It makes people like my advisor think that any sort of activism or mentorship is just distractions from work, or SJW stuff in the worst sense. I agree when it comes to those people! They make it really hard to want to be associated with any sort of activism or outreach!
So I really don't want to be strike captain and I really don't want to be The Lead or The Contact, but I've ended up in that role...because no one else wants to, or can, on my side of campus. I'm literally getting "so and so from chem?! it's you!!" and it makes me want to not be here. It puts a target on my back and it puts more microphones in my hand, and it leads more people to look to me for answers that I don't have (fortunately my first year room mate and I are still right and she's a lead organizer, so I can get answers or direct people).
(Ironically, the people I mentioned who want to be Known as activists and as The Most Woke and stuff...aren't striking. 🙄 they are comfortable with the establishment because they have set themselves up as the token minority yes-man for the establishment.)
I'm really touched and honored and just trying to listen to what's needed and do my best and ask for what I can do that would be most helpful. But I'm exhausted and it feels like this is... something I have been inextricably linked to. It makes me worry about employment in the future and what the rest of my time in my program is going to look like.
Also my department (student wise) is still so complacent or anti union. It's lonely.
A friend of mine defended her thesis recently and her dad, conservative from Texas, was talking at her going away party about how good it was that we were striking and solidarity and stuff and...it was so awkward because I was the *only person there* who is striking. Everyone else is too scared of their advisors, or doesn't want to be associated with Cringe People, or just doesn't care enough because we have it good.
(we have it good at the moment.... But the department HAS denied us raises before arbitrarily, and they HAVE been scummy, and their generosity is not codified in writing... What they give they can and do take away to control us)
🥲 I really don't hold it against people and people are constantly surprised that I don't have hard feelings against the people who aren't striking. But people just have a variety of personal situations and frankly striking hurts me and my progress more than it hurts my advisors research program, so I get it. I'm not out here calling people scabs or getting bitter about people not striking. I'm mostly striking for other people, who I know, at other universities or postdocing and not being able to afford to live.
But the fact of the matter is that just by standing alone, they have set me apart as Us Vs. Them. Friends assume I think they're cowards or that I think I'm better than them, and it's made things strained.
I'm confident it'll smooth over but. It's a little lonely.
I tore off a chunk of my toe tripping while leading a chant on Monday, I have lost my voice completely and have a gunked up respiratory system from so much shouting and talking and speechifying, and my brain feels utterly empty and coming home to an empty house just feels cavernous and echoingly overwhelmingly empty most days.
Also I put my hand on a literal stove and have an electric burner branded on my palm 🙄 I am glad right now for the break, I'm so tired. I wish I could write but my brain just has no words for myself, so I'm trying to find words for others. Holiday cards. Letters.
A very dear friend of mine gave me a call in the middle of the night because I said I missed him and we'd been promising to catch up for ages, and I didn't say it but I'd felt like. we were slipping, like I didn't mean much to him in the end after all, but he was there for me. Makes me miss him more (the one with the dog I drew as a Tintin homage in #my+art tag) and all the friends who've moved on already from here.
This campus has never been my home and I have been so, so unhappy here. I hate suburbs I hate socal I miss Public transit and the Bay Area and Santa Barbara and I can't wait for the next stage of my life when I get paid what I'm due and have real person hours instead of this 60-80 hr, 6 day work week that I've had through all of grad school.
But I've survived and I really, really hope I've helped make this a better place to be for the next sucker. I've been thinking about it a lot lately and I've been intimately involved in...a lot of efforts to reshape my department and the concept of a chemistry PhD in the UC system, over my five years here. We changed the demands put upon TAs in my first year. We demanded a better deal upon arrival, when the department used to withhold our pay for a full 2 months after our program started (putting so many of us in debt right at the start of our PhDs!). We reshaped how switching labs works. And now...
This historic movement.
It's something to be proud of, and I've really enjoyed getting to know more of the people who are helping make it possible, out on the picket line. I think I've made some friends with some math grad students who actually know what it's like to party 😂 we played beer (water) pong yesterday at the picket and I hope we're gonna be friends even after all this is done.
Thank you again for asking! I haven't had a chance to see my therapist since I decided to strike so. I haven't really allowed myself to reflect on things.
The trueism that "children's hearts are pure", "children instinctively know the Truth, and Right from Wrong" is very wholesome when applied to, like, acceptance of gay and trans people and rejection of racism, and disgusting to the same degree when it is used for kids holding up banners at "pro-life" rallies and protests against same-sex mariage
But since adults use that argument in such opposite ways, it is worth pointing out the obvious that, by necessity, children are open-minded: they have to take the world, and what their parents tell them, at face value.
Consider the two characters above. See, as a kid it never occured to me that there was supposed to be a joke here, that the mouse character is big and the elephant character is tiny. I just accepted - had to accept - that The Mouse was big and The Elephant was small, because that's just how they are. Exactly like I accepted that the man in that TV show kissed another man on the mouth because he was gay.
And while I bet you can tell me there is a million ways this can go wrong, my proposal today is that, even as an adult, and regardless of where you stand on anything, maybe from time to time try letting the world once again come at you as it is, without judgment and boxes to sort it into.
(Anybody tree man)Be kind to one another Cinderella man antidote Coombiares fosby flops harold holts fractious colts from 1979 to 1983 every thing @termints went in he won overall but honoured no “now Termints” tut tut attitude and effort bully beef for you Boston brief ucken indigo thief’s unkempt govenours brown stuff shoveling truss cutting expletives defeatism beastism reality thieves no reprieve go to jail start back reset the silver surfer returns with silver Tung tungsten Tom bowlers noon day strollers fly by nighters occasionals #nogoogles quick steppers all day preppers percolating precocious viewers @TheNewYorker @scottmorrisonmp #vicgov #vicpol #trueism the leaf didn’t fall far from the tree didactic #karltodayshow09ism @hawthornfc (Anybody tree father) (at Kokoda Track) https://www.instagram.com/p/CCRX3fUJBqq/?igshid=17iqnaivaykqw
Rules: Take this quiz for one of your OCs. (Only 8 questions, some of them are a little… U-Quiz-y, but I liked the results.)
Tagged by @helila because they bully me all the time by tagging me
you have always hurt.
you hold it carefully, and twisted in such a way that other people don't have to see it. you don't choke on it. you don't drown. you just have it, the way some people have freckles, this is a thing that lives in your bones. you fold instead of fighting because you know how to make yourself small, tuck away the places where they have clawed at, swallow the bruises so you seem clean. nobody needs to see it. you will live through this on your own. you know what you need, and relief isn't it. this doesn't mean you cannot reach out - it means it is not in your nature to do so. you should. hiding does not mean you won't be seen.
i tag @whataboutbugs @thegingerjedi and @galacticmenace
Whitefem @mandragores trying to lecture me, a Black french citizen who grew up in a poor upbringing in a HLM in France and bullied by Muslims (me, a non Muslim) during school, arguing that I know nothing about what's happening in Sarcelles or what suffering from social violence is... The caucasity.
You know who has enough brain to grasp Palestine isn't freaking Sarcelles and that Palestinians aren't responsible of the shit happening in France?? Yall sound dumb as heck trying to conflate Muslims in France and Palestinians -who aren't all Muslims- acting like they were both one in the same and projecting their peculiar experiences onto one another. We all know Israelis aren't hanging around much in Sarcelles. Unlike Palestinians, they can roam free and travel anywhere they want.
"b-but the Hama-" Palestine is not the Hamas.
Defending Palestine ≠ supporting Islamism. Again: not every Palestinian is Muslim.
I literally don't give a crap about our government! IDC about that manifestation that's been canceled as it won't remotely change our support for Palestine! Sarcelles isn't Palestine! There are Christians and Jews in Palestine. Anti zionists Jews stand WITH Palestine. The religious narrative shoved in the Palestinian struggle is inaccurate and fallacious.
Yall Whitefem who've been supporting Israel are clowns and hypocrite. Bitching about Muslims bc of their poor treatment of women but be dead silent about the IDF routinely bragging about purposely targeting pregnant Palestinian women (allegedly "breeding terrorists"), and routinely brutalizing/humiliating them at the borders. Interesting how suddenly those women are none of your concern... Radical feminism, where?
Your hate boner for Islam is so strong you don't even realize how inconsistent your position of standing with Israel terror is.