#trying so hard to be organized

[emmanuellececchi]

Après avoir jeter un coup d'oeil à mon blog, je remarque que cela ressemble à un enfant dans un magazin de jouet. ça part dans tous les sens! Un peu le foutoire, je reblog à gogo!

bon. on va se calmer. Et essayer de re-organiser ça pour avoir un blog un peu plus... erm... sérieux? En tout cas, je compte essayer d'organiser mon reblogage mais surtout, parler un peu de ce que je fais, entre autre, écrire! ben tiens.

after looking at my blog I realized it looks like a child entered a toy store. Reblog in every direction. Anyway...

I'm going to calm down a little, try to re-organise all that and a more.... serious approach to it. Plus I would like to speak a little bit more about waht I want to do, writing!

#emma et son blog #jamais j'arrive à le garder #trying so hard to be organized #failed

[lotus-pear]

god i love skk sm i wish gay ppl were real :(

#LOTUS DRAWING ACTUAL POSES AND NOT JUST BUSTS??? WOAH #i swear i actually know anatomy and stuff i just never draw it bc it's too much effort #going to bed <<<<< staying up until two thirty to draw your otp #ALSO.. for those of you who know i'm rewatching bsd w my friend whose never seen it before.. we finally got to ep9 #and she IMMEDIATELY clocked in on skk's toxic exes energy😭😭 #also she calls chuuya childe bc hes a ginger and his first reaction to seeing dazai was “fight me >:)” #she was like “omgg..hes part of the evil organization🤭 and has beef w the protag (he wants to fuck them😏) *giggles* wait. TARTAGLIA😨😨‼️” #I WAS TRYING SO HARD NOT TO SCREAM.. I COULDNT LET HER KNOW HOW DISTRAUGHT I WAS HEARING THAT FOR THE TENTH TIME #anyway we finished s1 and chuuya's her fav character so far let's see if she can learn his actual name and stop calling him childe😭😭 #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #dazai osamu #osamu dazai #chuuya nakahara #nakahara chuuya #soukoku #skk #lotus draws

[tei-to-tei]

December 3 - Morning Cartoons

#rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #rise fanart #turtle tots #big thanks to everyone who's been kind enough to encourage me on these so far ;u; incredibly sweet of you guys #kissing all of you on the forehead politely #i'm gonna try really hard to keep it up for december but i do have a final tomorrow and the day after so fingers crossed it goes well #gonna start tagging my personal art challenge as tei's dec23 to organize sjkfjsld #and also to give people a tag to block if they don't want to see it just in case #teidoodle #tei's dec23

[koinotea]

ONE OF MY FAVES AND I THINK I NEVER POSTED IT HERE WHAATTT

#GOD I HAVE AN AWFUL MEMORY WHATS WRONG WITH ME HHHHH #TRYING HARD TO ORGANIZE ALL THIS #IM POSTING OLDS AFTER NEWER ONES IM MAKING EVERYTHING SO CONFUSING LOL #WTH AM I DOING #art #my art #fanart #digital art #digital fanart #luca fanart #luca pixar #luca paguro #alberto scorfano #alberto luca #luca movie #luca disney

[rapidhighway]

uh night mode engaged sparkle on!

#metal sonic #sonic the hedgehog fanart #sonic the hedgehog #sonic #art #fanart #digital art #doodle #eggman #i drew that previous metal and was like #i wanna see him with a black coat #baby dyes his hair #he's SO #he's my son actually #i need to draw organic metal so someone can pinch his cheek #my love for this little fucker grows every day #returning to ps means i get my old brushes back im experimenting i barely remember most of them xdjssjfhdsjf #my ass desperately trying to not make him look like mephiles ITS HARD OK THEY BOTH HAVE NO MOUTHS AND SHIT

[flamemons]

It's alright to scream

I'm screaming too

Why'd you think I do the things I do?

For shadows haunted me like ghosts

So I became what I feared the most

I conduct fear like electricity

A manmade monstrosity

Killer — The Hoosiers

i woke up from a nap with this song stuck in my head and. yea

#kouichi kimura #koichi kimura #digimon frontier #digimon #AGH ok drawing to a song is. a new level of vulnerability for me and im trying to get past the mental block of OH THATS TOO CRINGE #because cringe isnt REAL #((but it sure feels like it)) #i fucked up and accidentally made a kouichi playlist and so many of my favorite edgy songs ended up applying to him #and i was like....hmm ok.....this kid is suddenly very interesting #...not that he isnt already very interesting like. he is but hes still sort of hard to grasp since he never had time to really be himself #....anyway #i have. so many thoughts about songs i associate with takuya but. i cant draw that #because i would go through organ failure #like i would literally explode and die #oh the struggle of admitting i have human emotions

[spaciebabie]

in a separate universe where spinel didnt become a royal guard she became a fitness trainer but she is still a huge bitch and if she saw you using the equipment wrong she would give you side eye and not help you at all.

#i mean she actively does this in canon so #she dragges citrine ta a workout and as shes workin out shes lookin at other ppl like ''what the fuck is that idiot doing.'' #''thats not how you use that. you seeing this guy citrine?'' #citrine: *trying so hard 2 be normal in public and not freak out on her bitchass sister* oh my god i dont fucking care. #shut the fuck up. why are you looking at these other ppl. focus on working out #all of that is said in her head btw. she cant say it out loud Or. You Know. #anyways #oc stuff #spacie scribbles #two #the war organization #oc: spinel hino #every once in awhile the gem sisters cross my mind again and i hafta be autistic abt it #much ta everyones dismay

[16ozicedcoffee]

les mis fic writers who write really really great stories about the amis where political organizing is one of/the main plot (especially stories that feature such realistic organizing experiences) i want to give you all a kiss!!!!! many kisses!!!!!!

#i organize in my city with a really small group #we live in a very conservative area #sometimes i think it's too easy to feel like your actions don't make much of a difference #when i find myself feeling overwhelmed by all the things that need to change/burnt out/etc etc #i just read some really good les mis fic with a great organizing plotline and then i'm back at it in my community #it's like oh right #this is why we do it #even when it's hard #even when we feel like we've been working on the same issue forever #even when we feel like nothing we do is enough #this is why we keep trying!!!!!!!! #idk you folks just get it! #and i appreciate the art/work/labor that you are putting out into the world so much!!!

[askxigbar]

Y'know what they say, uh, working hard or hardly working....

#xigbar #kingdom hearts #kh #organization xiii #organization 13 #luxu #braig #askxigbar #ask xigbar #heart-of-light-and-darkness #xigbro is on vacation and trying to get their fucking brain back to normal so we'll see how this goes SO HARD A FRESH OFF THE SCHEDULE ASK #blows a kissaroo from me to you

[baalzebufo]

THE WEIRD AL-CANA - 0. THE FOOL - DARE TO BE STUPID

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what better time to start a dumb little project based on your most recent hyperfixation than mere weeks before university starts again? haha, what-

anyway. i woke up from a nap in a bleary haze today with the idea of redrawing the tarot major arcana but with weird al songs and what started as a fun doodle has evolved into a dedication in my soul to do more of these. so lets see how many I can finish?? i've already got my song list established (with only a couple of ones im still undecided on) so im ready and rearing to go

the fool was an easy pick. while al is always a fool, dare to be stupid is THE fool song imo. spontaneity, recklessness, risk-taking. being a silly billy

#alloyart #weird al #weird al yankovic #weird al-cana #is the collective tag im gonna use for these for organization purposes #i feel like i will be torn asunder if i put this in other tags like the main tarot tag or anything so it stays here #im trying to reference the rider waite art the most because its the Default in my brain #the art for the fool has that barking dog in the corner so i thought it'd be fun to put harvey there #all i need to do good art is to get autism brain blasted hard enough to make me productive lol

[bonefall]

Ashfur eats Clear Sky?!

fitting end for him tbh

Yepp. Ashfur eats him and gains access to an insane amount of power, on the level of a small god. Something about the fact that Skystar, Patron of War, is trying to prevent the oncoming tide of peace... only to be killed by someone stronger and more ambitious than him in the end...

It's poetic. That the only time he ever worked with others was to save his own skin, dodging the jaws of One Eye, only to end up in someone else's gob. He won for generations, he was on top of the world in the most literal sense possible.

And it still wasn't enough for him. He ends up creating a greater villain than he could have ever imagined, and finally pays the ultimate price.

It's a justice a long time coming.

#I've always felt bad about asking for help but now that I'm back in school #I think I really should start asking around to see if anyone can help me organize OTL #Because I now have 5000+ posts on this blog and organizing has never been my strong suit #In spite of how hard I've tried #And this project is so very large that I know it's hell on earth for a newcomer to find all the strewn-about details #And like I could TRY to power through organization BUT then I can't make NEW content #Which is the most fun for me and everyone else I'm sure #BB!TBC #better bones au

[puppyeared]

31!

31: are you messy or organized?

#i also have a hard time organizing things in a way that ill be able to remember where i put everything months later orz #i try to keep important stuff where theyre visible so i can see them easily even if they fade into the background #but sometimes ill put stuff away and forget exactly where and its such a pain in the ass #though it doesnt make it too hard to walk around in my room.. i save a lot of space with my loftbed and closet #but it would be nice to make room for new stuff when i learn to let go of old stuff. sigh #ask #ask game #answered #yapping #doodles

[alchemiclee]

been trying to figure out what exactly it is about aventurine that feels perhaps relatable, or what it is that makes me want to study him like a bug...

and camr to the thought that he's pretty pessimistic for am optimist...but also ob the other side of the same coin, he's optimiaric for a pessimist. kinda both at the same time,.or depending on the day or how you look at him maybe.

he's an optimist becuase he knows he's going to win. he always wins. he has always won his gambles. he knows it will happen again and again. his luck, or gift, or blessing, or whatever you want to call it ensures that. but he's also a pessimist becuase he knows that "win" also always comes with some kind of suffering for him. he wins all his gambles, but at what cost? a lot, actually. so is it really a win? he knows he will win, but he also knows he will be used, abused, sacrificed, broken, or in pain. he expects those to be a consequence of his winning luck, to the point of making sure it happens and becomes self-destructive because of it. he acts calmly like it's ok and is the outcome he wants and calls that a win because it's what he plans and expects. he bets on it and it happens.

but at the same time, he's slowly breaking and seems to want it to end. he tests the limits of his luck to see if it's a real "gift" or if it is all a coincidence and has an end. he probably wants to meet the end to end the pain and suffering, but knows his "luck" won't allow it. he wants to be against the luck and see if he can win. a whole contradiction it itself. his luck kept him alive so many times and continues to do so. it will always do so, unless perhaps his end is the goal. what if he bets on losing this time? bets in meeting his end? he needs to get lucky enough to achieve that goal. flip his lucky fate by turning his luck around, make his end the final lucky win.

but it seems like he either lost for once and didn't meet his end....maybe his luck truly does intend on keeping him alive...or he changed his mind in the end and got lucky enough to get out of meeting his end once again...

he's still a bit of an enigma to me and i'm not sure exactly what happened. but he's for sure a complex and amusing character (even if I still want to put him into a snow globe and shake it as hard as I can) and this whole penacony story is too complex for my soggy trashcan brain lmao but i'm enjoying the ride

#hsr #hsr aventurine #hsr spoilers #kinda spoilerish tbh #lee text #i could be very much misinterpreting him but this is just my brain trying to work things out so its not too deep #its a ramble for brain to try organizing thoughts #this quest left more answers than questions #like. FIREFLY?! is she even real! what is she who is she. why did they leave us on TO BE CONTINUED there! #also not to be a rock nerd but aventurine is a very pretty rock. i enjoy that pretty rock #also i reread this and its basically a nonsensical ramble and doesnt really make sense #its vague and doesnt really grasp him. hes too complex to fit neatly into my rotten worm brain so dont mind me and my rambles lmao #am too sleepy to use brain. make me do dailies and go to bed #ah. a thing i forgot to add to my ramble: hes always been alone ever since his sister left him. he only has himself to rely on #hes a very lonely character who doesnt have anyone to trust or rely on. no true friends. everyone uses or betrays him #perhaps hes afraid of this and further chooses to not trust and rely on anyone too much. he only has himself in the end #that part of him is very relatable. i also find it hard to trust and rely on anyone and am forever alone.....

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

I think the funny thing about my being a youth leader is that I basically just Hang Out with a bunch of middle schoolers. like I just pal around with them and play games and then sit down and ramble at the youth pastor when it's time to discuss the Biblical topic of the night and somehow this has charmed like half a dozen of them into considering me A Cool Person despite the fact that I'm actually Introverted And Awkward at all times

#actually part of my goal in youth leadership is to show that like... you don't HAVE to be all together and chill #like when I was in youth group (briefly bc I was only in a location where it was an option for like 6 months tbh) #all the youth leaders — especially the female ones — seemed so Cool and Calm and Put Together ALL THE TIME #and it made me (frumpy and 16 and trying so hard to make friends) feel REALLY inadequate and insecure #and like I still have to work through the insecurity that caused in me!! bc the girls a few years older than me #who were youth leaders all seemed so CALM and RESPECTABLE and MATURE #and I STILL don't act like that! and I'm certainly not cool and calm and put together skskfndksnf #so I just want to like... not hide my awkwardness too much with these kids. not try to project Coolness or Looking Put Together #because I want them to see that like... they're fine just how they are? I want to be an example of what it looks like #when you're NOT the naturally calm and organized kind of person! when you're Awkward and Loud and Goofy and Hyper sometimes #because if you're following God then that stuff really doesn't matter. He made us a certain way and that's fine #idk. I think about this every so often again though akdkdkfnsk #Lu rambles

[rapidhighway]

🧍🧍🧍but boy I was WAYY too op for that titan what's up with that

#i have what maybe level 58 strength? and i did that shit first try #i do have an obsession with clearing out the maps so idk if organically i was supposed to have this level rn #like i don't like everything being hard but id like it to be a challenge uh #can i change difficulty mid game idk ill see later #rn im going to get some fucking SNACKS as is my right

[themanwhowouldbefruit]

my doctor was sooooo fucking worthless and unhelpful im going to masturbate and i hope it fucking kills me

#“no need for follow up” #“yeah you did have several cysts we scrapped off your remaining ovary but. dw about it. idk why they were there. dw about it. oh also your #ovary on that side was freakishly huge but. dw about it. it might go away. dw about it #*doctor shrug emoji* “ #“go see a gyno next year maybe. but not me im too important for that. go find and onboard a gyno to your situation. next year maybe idk lol” #he barely even looked at my incision like #this fucking appointment could have been an email. or a phone call. or they just could have let me start driving again. also i forgot to ask #if i can stop drinking ensure now or after the 6 weeks? cause that shit cost $$$$. but he probably would have been super unhelpful if i had #fr fr this guy only wanted to give me the time of day when he thought i might have fun cancer inside and now he's like gtfo!!!! get your #fugly cancerless ass out of here!!!! recover from a major surgery on your own you swagless cancerless loser 🤣 we arent helping your #swagless ass!!! #anyway it seems weird and fucked up that im was never offered to see a physical therapist and i guess am going to have to blindly trust my #abs they sliced thru are healing or whatever and to rawdog my own physical recovery of my muscles? even just dumb shit like. my center of #gravity has drastically changed since the mass removal and my back hurts like shit all the time because all my posture muscles were built up #for when i had an extra 30 pounds of cyst hanging in the front and my posture and walking reflected that. and i lowkey don't know how #hard i am able to be with my healing incision because its really tight and makes me hunch forwards still. like i would really like to know #how much i can safely or maybe should be forcing my skin and incision to stretch. without damage? is that crazy #am i crazy??? #this shit is why i didnt see a doctor for 2 years until my problems had snowballed into a 30 pounds ovarian cyst that was crushing my other #organs and had one of my kidneys all backed up with piss. and even getting emergency treatment for it everyone was like. how did you like it #get this bad?? how could you not know you needed to seek medical treatment???? like. bro. seeking medical treatment isnt even a guarantee to #get medical treatment. #anyway he said my “remaining ovary seemed low key polycystic but dw about it. don't quote me on that im not dealing with it.” #bro i dont want to doctor google it i wanted an actual doctor to deal with it. fuck you. #like. maybe even a doctor who knows my situation so i dont have to struggle with getting someone to believe me and take me seriously. #but whatever. back to trying to figure out the daily protein and extra calories my body needs for recovery via doctor google i guess. #its fine 🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬