#tw self consious

[s4turnzbarzzz]

bubba (dead by daylight) nsfw alphabet

requested:no

Tw: smut

A/N: bubbas one of my favorite characters so this will be longer

A= Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

He tries his best to be comforting after sex, especially since hes self consious and wants to make sure youre okay even if you were on top

B= Body part (favorite body part their own or their lovers)

He likes his arms the best since he knows theyre strong

he loves every part of you but if he had to choose itd be your stomach

C= Cum (anything that has to do with cum basically)

Hes usually not messy but if hes had a rough day hed cum on your thighs and stomach

D= Dirty secret (Pretty self explanatory)

while hes a killer he can get very self consious of his body and doesnt mind if you top him half the time

E= Experience (do they know what they’re doing)

hes not very experienced,, like he knows how to have sex but he doesnt at the same time? like he knows the basis of how it works but he doesnt know all the details if that makes sense

F= Favorite position

if youre on top he prefers riding since he knows that you have control of the situation and he feels like he wont crush you but if hes on top its missionary since he gets to see every expression you make and the way his cock forces a slight bulge in your stomach

G= Goofy (how serious are they)

after he gets comfortable with you, he can be pretty goofy sometimes, especially if thats how you are during sex

H= Hair (grooming habits)

Hes not groomed, we all know that. hes from texas and hes busy back at the sawyer household. he doesnt have time for keeping himself kept down there and he honestly didnt think that hed ever have sex with someone like you so he never bothered trimming anything

I= Intimacy (in the moment romantic or rough/dirty)

he tries his best to be intimate but hes not from a household that really shows love in any way other than providing food so he ends up being rougher

J= Jack off (do they masturbate and how often)

like ive said earlier, hes busy and doesnt really have time to jack off, plus he has you so he doesnt really need to

K= Kink (kinks what they like possibly unusual)

praise, oral fixation, pegging, breeding

L= Location (where they like to get it on)

he prefers to have sex in private areas, he doesnt want anyone to see whats his

M= Motivation (things that makes them tick)

if you wear something skin tight hes gonna be dragging you to a secluded area within seconds

N= No (turnoffs or absolutely won’t do)

if he sees you crying or youre in pain hed stop completely even if youre okay, he doesnt want to hurt you even accidentally, if youre not in pain youd have to convince him that youre okay before hed continue

O= Oral (receiving or giving and how skillful they are)

he loves giving and recieving, he might not be the best at giving but hell try his best and would take critisism as long as youre nice about it

P= Pace (how fast they are and how long they last in bed)

he goes at a normal pace but hes rough with his thrusts, if hes pent up he wont last as long but if hes not he can go aout 2-3 rounds

Q= Quickie (do they prefer fast and hard)

he doesnt like quickies, he likes to make love with you and he cant do that if hes rushed

R= Risk (do they like to try new things)

hell try some things but youll have to talk to him about it first

S= Stamina (how many times they can go and how long each round lasts)

he can go 2-3 rounds and they can last from 15-30 minutes

T= Toys (are they game for using sex toys on themselves or lovers)

hes fine with using toys but if you want to use them on him youll have to make sure hes okay with it and talk to him multiple times to reassure him that you wont hurt him

U= Unfair (how do they tease or do they enjoy suspense themselves)

hes pretty fair and if he cums before you hell eat you out or fuck you until you cum as well

V= Volume (are they loud, what sounds, and do they talk)

he whines, grunts, groans, any noise you think of hes made it in bed, and he is loud too

W= Wild card (nsfw headcanon of any sort)

if you let him hed eat your ass and vice-versa, he also wouldnt mind fucking your ass either

X= X-ray (what’s down below in dem pants)

he grew up eating lots of protein so id say hes around 6-7 inches and girthy as fuck, hes uncircumcised and hes got 1 prominent vein on the bottom of his dick thats really sensitive too

Y= Yearning (sexdrive level)

hecan go at it whenever, hes always a little bit horny for you so if you mention that you wanna have sex hes down too

Z= Zzzz (do they sleep after if so how quickly after)

hell try his best to clean you up first but having sex takes it out of him if hes on top so hed fall asleep right after he finishes making you comfortable

#bubba sawyer #bubba dbd x reader #bubba x reader #bubba x reader smut #smut #nsft alphabet #slasher fandom #dead by daylight

[couchcandy]

t1d rant, wondered if any other diabetics could relate - tw: blood, self conciousness

so i don't usually feel self conscious about visible sensors or pods on my body in public

i have a dexcom g6, i inserted it yesterday and they always bleed but its no big deal cus its not visible. but today after i showered i noticed it watered down the blood and made it seep out under the adhesive. it dried that way so while the sensor is still totally functional - u can see the dried watered down blood all around it.

i know its not un-hygenic in any way and its not interfering with the actual function and theres no way id waste a sensor over it but i couldnt help but feel a bit self-consious about people seeing it on my arm.

does anyone else gets conflicted between what they know and that evil little brain worm that says you're 'gross' ????

#type one diabetic #type 1 diabetic #t1diabetic #t1d problems #t1diabetes #type 1 diabetes #t1d #t1d rant #disabled #tw: blood

[v1ll1anousblackhat]

TW: Self harm/Offenskve Langiage.

ℰ𝓃𝒿ℴ𝓎, ℬℯ𝓈𝒻 𝒻𝓇𝒾ℯ𝓃𝒹 :^D "𝒜𝓁𝓁 𝓎ℴ𝓊 𝓃ℯℯ𝒹 𝒾𝓈 𝒶 𝒻𝓇𝒾ℯ𝓃𝒹" 𝒜𝓁𝒶𝓃 𝓍 𝒯𝒶𝒾 ☻︎

"𝙿𝚊𝚗𝚝, 𝙿𝚊𝚗𝚝!" 𝙰𝚕𝚊𝚗 𝚛𝚊𝚗 𝚊𝚌𝚛𝚘𝚜𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚍𝚎𝚎𝚙 𝚎𝚗𝚍 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚘𝚘𝚍𝚜. 𝙷𝚎 𝚛𝚊𝚗 𝚞𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚑𝚎 𝚏𝚎𝚕𝚝 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚕𝚞𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚠𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚐𝚘𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘 𝚋𝚞𝚛𝚜𝚝 𝚒𝚝 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚜𝚘 𝚍𝚊𝚛𝚔, 𝙰𝚕𝚊𝚗 𝚌𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍𝚗'𝚝 𝚜𝚎𝚎 𝚊 𝚍𝚊𝚖𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚑𝚎 𝚛𝚊𝚗 𝚞𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝚑𝚎 𝚜𝚊𝚠 𝚊..𝚑𝚒𝚕𝚕?...𝚃𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚑𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝙰𝚕𝚊𝚗 𝚛𝚎𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚒𝚣𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚏𝚕𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘𝚠𝚊𝚛𝚍𝚜 𝚒𝚝 𝚑𝚎 𝚐𝚘𝚝 𝚌𝚕𝚘𝚜𝚎𝚛 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚌𝚕𝚘𝚜𝚎𝚛 𝚖𝚊𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚑𝚒𝚖 𝚜𝚕𝚘𝚠𝚎𝚛 𝚊𝚜 𝚊 𝚋𝚛𝚘𝚔𝚎𝚗 𝚍𝚘𝚠𝚗 𝚖𝚊𝚌𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚎 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚢 𝚝𝚘 𝚍𝚒𝚎. 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚙𝚘𝚘𝚛 𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚋𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚑 𝙰𝚕𝚊𝚗 𝚝𝚞𝚖𝚋𝚕𝚎𝚍 𝚍𝚘𝚠𝚗 𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚐𝚛𝚘𝚞𝚗𝚍 𝚋𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚟𝚒𝚕𝚢 𝚝𝚛𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚎𝚝 𝚑𝚒𝚖𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏.

𝙷𝚎 𝚑𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚜𝚎 𝙿𝚊𝚗𝚒𝚌 𝚊𝚝𝚝𝚊𝚌𝚔𝚜 𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚊𝚗𝚝𝚜 𝚝𝚘 𝚍𝚘 𝚒𝚜 𝚛𝚞𝚗 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚑𝚎 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚗𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚍𝚊𝚛𝚔𝚗𝚎𝚜𝚜 𝚌𝚑𝚊𝚜𝚎𝚜 𝚢𝚘𝚞. 𝙰𝚕𝚊𝚗 𝚌𝚞𝚛𝚕𝚎𝚍 𝚞𝚙 𝚒𝚗 𝚊 𝚋𝚊𝚕𝚕 𝚕𝚒𝚝𝚝𝚕𝚎 𝚍𝚛𝚘𝚙𝚕𝚎𝚝𝚜 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚜 𝚜𝚝𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚖𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚎𝚢𝚎𝚜. "𝙸 𝚗𝚎𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚖..𝙸 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚗𝚎𝚎𝚍 𝚑𝚎𝚛..." 𝙰𝚕𝚊𝚗 𝚜𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚌𝚑𝚎𝚍 𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚙𝚑𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚒𝚗 𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚙𝚘𝚌𝚔𝚎𝚝 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚙𝚞𝚕𝚕𝚎𝚍 𝚒𝚝 𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚑𝚎 𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚗𝚎𝚍 𝚒𝚝 𝚘𝚗 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚜𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚌𝚑𝚎𝚍 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚃𝚊𝚒𝚜 𝚌𝚘𝚗𝚝𝚊𝚌𝚝. "𝙱𝚎𝚎𝚎𝚎𝚎𝚙!.....𝙱𝚎𝚎𝚎𝚎𝚙!!....𝙱𝚎𝚎𝚎-

"𝐻𝑒𝑙𝑙𝑜?" 𝚃𝚊𝚒 𝙰𝚗𝚜𝚠𝚎𝚛𝚎𝚍. "𝚃𝚊𝚒.. 𝙷𝚎𝚕𝚕𝚘.. 𝙸 𝚗𝚎𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚔 𝚝𝚘 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚙𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚎 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚖𝚎." 𝚋𝚎𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚙𝚑𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚃𝚊𝚒𝚜 𝚎𝚢𝚎𝚜 𝚠𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚎𝚍 𝚜𝚘𝚏𝚝𝚕𝚢. "𝙾𝚑 𝚘𝚏 𝚌𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚜𝚎! 𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎?" "𝚂𝚒𝚕𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝙷𝚒𝚕𝚕" 𝙰𝚕𝚊𝚗 𝚛𝚎𝚙𝚕𝚒𝚎𝚍. Tai got out of her bed and stopped for a minute before she slipled on her converss "Maybe I should actually get dressed...." Tai can get qute self consious abou her aplearance around Alan although she knows he doesnt judge her she just feels she should prettify her self out of infatuation for Alan Orion. She fluffed up her curly hair to give it a bouncy tone as she first out on her light foundation, then lightly taps her eyes with black eye shadow after her lite make up session is done tai dressed up in her usual adorn black ripled up jeans,studded belts tilted sideways huging her hips, her baggy band shirt then she slipped on her two arm warmers she was set she put on her converse and ran out the door she didnt know why she was running but she was..maybe it was because she didn't want to make Alan wait "I hope he's okay he sounded worried on the phone" Tai thought out loud ~𝑨𝒍𝒂𝒏 𝑶𝒓𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔 𝑷𝑶𝑽~ Looking up at the starry night sky Alan looked over next to him where he should have seen his best friend...but she wasn't at silent hill yet "What is taking her so long? Gosh I hope shes carful out there.." He stood hinself up still sitting and looked out at the distant moon lit forest in front of him "pant!, pant! Alan! Im h-here-" Tai was lut of bresth from running endlessly trying to arrive at silent hill as fast she could "Tai!? Holy shit! Are you alright?" Alan placed a hand on tais back and held her hand "U-uh yeah im ok...that doesnt matter what the fuck is going on? your worrying me Alan" The two shared worried stares at eachother Alan spoke. . . "Please lay with me and look up at these stars" Alan gave tai doe eyes as he smiled the smile clearly looking fake Tai blushed and her eyes glowing she loved when Alan had those pretty boy eyes looking at her. Tai quickly averted eye contact as they sat on the grassy plains, Admiring the dim stars and dark sky above their head "So.....what's up?-" Tai asked as they looked at Alan's fingers which seemed to have new marks on them, Tai only suspected that maybe Alan was trying to feed a bear again? Either way Tai was concerned for Alan regardless, Alan chuckled nervously as he laid down against the ground next to Tai, as his eyes laid on Tai, while Tais eyes laid on the stars. "Wellll...- I just haven't been entirley myself lately and...you can understand..." "O-Oh...uh yeah of course I do....I know that feeling alot..." Tais eyes grew teary because she disliked Alan being so down "H-Hey Alan?" "Yes doey eyes?" "Those scares on your hand...did you try to feed a bear again?" Alan started biting his knuckls "Ermmm...well uh y-yeah it kinda bit my hand ...heh" Tai didnt believe it if Alan tried feeding a bear the bear could easily tear his whoke hand to shreds. Tai hugged Alan and rubbed his back Alan didnt know what to say a gentle hug from a girl he loves was all he needd. "I know your self-harming again..."

"W-what do you mean Doe eyes-?" Alan trying to fake his truth "Alan....please tell me the truth It's okay you know I'd NEVER judge you I love you you mean so much to me" This made Alan breakdown into a stream of tears breaking the hug and hiding his face into his palms "I-im sorry Tai...Im so so sorry..please don't get mad at me" Tais eyes turned sympathetic "Oh...Alan please don't cry you know I won't get mad at you ever..." Alan sat silent for a sec and gained his bearings... "I started self harming again these past few days....I felt like I didnt have anymore options to feel a release to feel relived...so it made me do it again...I know...I promised doe eyes and I wish I hadnt broke the promise...I feel so ashamed of myself..." Tai gave Alan a soft smil and gave him a meaningful long, hug. "Shhh...Its okay Alan it isnt okay your hurting youself but its okay to always come and talk to me when you need somebody I wish I noticed all this sooner please dont do it again if you'd like some company while you get some rest how about you spend the night at my house?" Alans once sad frown turned into a warm smile "You'd let me?" "Of course and if you cant sleep we can watch movies or talk about random things anything." Alan leaned in closer to tai and suddenly the two had a passionate kiss under the moonlit sky "Some say all you need is a friend but...all I need is this girl I need you tai..." "I-I need you to" and the two walked out of the forest ready for their friday night sleep over. 𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝐸𝑛𝑑 ❥︎

#fanfic #alan orion

[idkhowtoactaroundfood]

TW: VENT, SH, ED

Soooo I was "recovering".

I'm back.

The thing is I really thought I was trying but somehow i couldn't convice myself that I was ready. I have gotten so much healthier this year, I stopped cvtting myself and broke up w my toxic ex and got a new, fantastic, bf and finally got aroung to going to therapy. I was very happy to have a kind of new family (my bf's family) and they all really care for me and my mental health. I started doing better and eating more. Until about three weeks ago when they went on vacation and I was left alone with my fatphobic mom.

I thought I was doing better for myself but actually, no, I was doing better to make my bf's family happy, but I havr been myserable, knowing that I'm gaining so much weight. I have been so self-consious ever since that I think I'm going back on track.

So thats it.

#tw ana diary #ana trigger #ana meal #ed meals #an0r3c1a #ed not ed sheeran #tw self destruction #tw for self harm

[zerot0hero]

potential triggers ahead. tagged accordingly. 

FAMILY

Hercules is aware of ‘Greek Mythology’ and the stories told on Earth about his relations and fellow Gods. It confuses, stresses and upsets him, he does not like to talk about it and he himself finds its very difficult to process, especially when it comes to his birth parents.

Aceleme and Amphitryon were the perfect parents, even though they didn’t quite know how to handle raising a God they tried their hardest and rooted for Hercules all his life. They are good honest people who raised Hercules with excellent manners, patience and kindness. Hercules loves them very much and calls them everyday even if there isn’t much to talk about, he wishes to make them proud.

Hercules has a complicated relationship with Uncle Hades, mostly because he had Hercules kidnapped as a baby, took away his birth right and tried to have him killed, however Hercules has another reason to pick a bone with Hades and that is the treatment and imprisonment of Megara. While Hercules does not have a bad bone in his body the anger he feels towards his uncle is unsettling. The vengeance he carries keeps him awake at night, sick to his stomach knowing deep down he has to be the one to destroy Hades.  

Philocetes is the uncle Hercules wished he had, a protective father figure who stepped up to show him the ropes and teach him the ways of life. Hercules looks up to Phil with a great deal of respect, he is another person Herc wants to make proud, he feels as if he owes Phil that much.

RELATIONSHIPS

Dating in Greece was hard as Hercules was the ‘weird kid’, always feeling like the odd one out, being the butt of the joke, having people actively avoid him didn’t do much in helping his self esteem. Hercules had been on a few dates but always ended up getting nervous and falling onto a table, or pressing on a fork too hard and smashing a plate in two pieces. When he got to Elias he found it was easier to get dates.. but soon realized it was only because of how he looked, nobody wanted to get to know the real Hercules, the guy under the abs. This set him back in the dating game as even though women were throwing themselves at him it was lust.. and he wants love.

Hercules didn’t have any friends at all when he moved to Elias, Philocetes helped him get set up at the gym and after he got a job he began to socialize more often. Things changed quickly for him after he met the Charmont Brothers, three lovely guys who helped him out of his shell and gave him the confidence boost he desperately needed. Without their compassion and companionship Hercules would have been lost and definitely wouldn’t have had the confidence to continue making friends; like Fred, Reagan, Buzz and Thackery.

ELIAS

Hercules lives alone in a small apartment in midtown Elias. It has a kitchen/living space, a small corridor with a bathroom on one side and a bedroom on the other, there’s a little balcony where he keeps his weights, some succulents and airs out his gym trainers.  There’s a small bookcase that’s missing a shelf where he keeps DVD’s, books and a nice smelling candle. There is a chunk missing from his coffee table and his sofa is made up of a washed out blue fabric. He is always hitting his head off the light hanging down over his kitchen.

One of Herc’s favorite places in Elias is the docks. He likes the peaceful view of watching the boats come into the harbor to the sound of waves. Ideally he would like to take a girl on a date there, get some ice cream and watch the sunset together. It’s a special place in his heart and he doesn’t really know why, it brings him comfort.

Hercules jogs on the Walt Academy athletic track, sometimes when he visits the campus he wonders what it would be like to have gone to college and live the life of a regular mortal. He takes brochures and trains with the athletic team and sometimes likes to pretend he’s on a sports scholarship to Walt, Phil tells him its a waste of time.

Hercules joined the firefighters not long after he arrived in Elias. He loved the idea of learning first aid, the physical side of training and the sense of pride and overwhelming relief that is felt after you have saved a person’s life. There is nothing more heroic than throwing yourself into a burning building for a civilian and Hercules was born to save the people in need of a savoir.

SOCIAL MEDIA & MISCEALOUS

Hercules has an instagram account and a youtube account. On his instagram its mainly selfies, work out videos and pictures with friends. He mainly uses it to like other people’s photographs or promote Phil’s gym. He likes to hype up his friends. On youtube Herc teaches basic self defense, first aid and work out tips. He doesn’t really get the time to do it often but he likes to think that somewhere in the world he has made somebodies life a little easier with his videos. He is very awkward on camera.

Hercules can be seen alone at movie theatres or at plays. As a teenager he spent a lot of time on his own and found it hard to make friends, his parents tried but they didn’t like the movies he did so he would often go by himself. At first it was lonely but as he got older he began to enjoy the peaceful quiet time of shutting off from the world and engrossing himself into art. He also likes not having to explain to someone the plot, because that is annoying.

Hercules has a very basic sense of style, growing up he just wore what was comfortable he already stood out so he tried to blend in wearing jeans and dark t-shirts. He tries to experiment with bold colors and patterns now that he is older but sometimes it makes him feel insecure. He is still trying to figure out what makes him feel good.

Hercules isn’t very tuned in to pop culture or whatever is mainstream. His playlist is mainly lots of old songs, stuff he work out to and soft alternative rock. He streams some tv shows but he doesn’t watch a lot of television or is invested into tv series. He likes to read books at nighttime and prefers a phone call to texting, however he really does like emojis and adores facetime. He facetimes his parents almost everyday.

NEXT GEN

Hercules is the most faithful man you will ever meet, during their relationship Hercules never faltered or strayed. Everyday he tells Megara how lucky he is to have met her, he constantly admires and praises his wife. He is not insecure, even when men stare at his beautiful wife or flirt with her he keeps his cool, he loves his family and his life. He trusts Megara with his whole heart.

Hercules loves his daughters with all the warmth of the sun. When the girls were young he would spend hours with them learning how to braid their hair, having tea parties, teaching them to use crossbows and playing dress up. He throws himself wholeheartedly into the role of being a Dad and adores every single minute of it, he thought he needed to be a hero and receive the praise of millions but nothing compares to the feeling of his three children look up to him for fixing the door on the dollhouse.

The day Adelphie came out to Hercules was after dinner on a Friday night. He just smiled wistfully, placed an arm around her, gazed towards Megara and said “I get it-- women are enchanting.” Meg slapped him with a wash rag and Adelphie cried a little. He was the last to find out.

#tw family #tw family drama #tw kidnapping #tw attempted murder #tw self consious #tw unrequited feelings #tw lonliness #tw fire fighter #walttasks #walt tasks 18 #walttasks 18 #tw long post

[casssidian]

I hate it when ppl criticize others for not looking perfect during a literal fucking pandemic

Like,, i have distance learning all day everyday and homework on weekends, i cant follow any of my classes when i used to get straight A’s, i’m contemplating suicide every ofher day bc i cant deal with all this shit and there’s no way i’m going to contact a therapist over skype with my parents two thin walls away

Now get off my ass about my weight

#😤😤😤 #suicide tw #pandemic tw #probably delete later #i’m just so mad rn #like i have a doctors appointment any my weight is about 69kg atm and its usually more around 65 or highest 67 for these appointments #and i know for a fact hes gonna mention it #not in a mean way tho #i’m just suuuuper self consious about it anyway #and i always hate it when he brings up that i should maybe do more exercise #like i know but i’m in a crisis like 24/7 #i cant do cardio for an hour if i have this many lessons and homework and things i actually WANT to be doing so i dont fucking kill myself #jesus fuck #rant

[snowe-zolynn-rogers]

🕊️💘🎂

🕊️- 3 habits you have?

I’ve answered this before here. But three other habits I have are that I tend to hum when I’m listening to music I like regardless of where I am or what I’m doing, sometimes I blink really fast when I’m confused and tilt my head, and I tend to space out a lot so I’ve implimented a “Processing Rule” for myself with the people I love aka ‘if I say what one time, don’t respond and assume I’ve heard you, but if I ask a second time, repeat yourself because I actually didn’t hear you.

💘- 3 ways to win your heart?

Give me food, take me dancing (even though I’m bad at it, it’s still fun), and/or watch a show with me that I love to pieces. If you do all three, you’re officially my soulmate.

🎂- if you had 3 wishes, what would they be?

A pet snake or snakes, money to magically appear in my account whenever i need it (ya know, so I can donate to my favorite creators more), and, a nice house somewhere I can be happy in (aka in either New Jersey, my birth state and where I lived half my childhood, Tennessee, where I lived for the other half my childhood, or Florida, where I am now).

#snoweyanswers #ask meme #anon #actuallyadhd #actually adhd #adhd #attention deficit hyperactivity disorder #that's the reason for the 'processing rule' #tw food #tw food mention #snake #snakes #and if you compliment my singing #hoooo boy #you're officially my favorite person for life #because i'm very self-consious about my singing #(because of my dad constantly telling me to stop) #i mean what? #i don't have trauma #i have...character

[bicherub]

why do ppl feel the need 2 tell u when u have lost or gained weight like bitch i KNOW i ain’t blind

#she was like ‘u have put on weight’ #‘not in a bad way’ #‘u look healthy now’ #like dont do this to me!!! #or to anyone!! #it makes me so self consious n makes me wanna starve again like dont do this pls thank #ED tw #p #🙄🙄🙄

[abs-synth]

tw// vent

i lost over twenty pounds so far.... in three and a half months (including the two months that i was eating at a normal loss rate before the гelapse), i have completed over a fourth of my ultimaтe goal. i really can do this. i just have to do it. i just have to make the consious decision to stick to my goal.

something tells me this would be much easier if i were actully on medication for my ad(h)d, the medication that would help me like, function. which i do not. i showered a second day in a row today and that was an accomplishment. i'm a total wreck and a shell of a human being and i'm not allowed to be on medication because it's "dangerous". well, sunshine, so is not completing school because of a complete inability to function!! so are suicidal thoughts caused by a nonexistance of pride or self worth!! but yknow. conservatism. because tradition is inherently good, change is inherently bad, no matter how much it hurts people, because.... because what??? give me a good fucking reason. being old fashioned of mindset isnt cute or aesthetic it's just being a closeminded asshole. i hate my mom.

[junipeach]

went to the market w no makeup and my legs showing but a boy was flirting w me and im like ?????what

#i never get hit on when my scars are visible so it was nice i guess haha #i went in rly self consious bc i forgot i was gonna have to get out of my car and go out in shorts but he was nice #and i honestly dont care if he just saw me as a peice of meat bc i mostly get looks of disgust when i go out in shorts #dermatillomania #self harm tw #scars tw

[strangerays]

Amber!! Do you know how hard it is to choose a few questions out of 93??? But! Is 10 too many to ask? I don’t think so, but like, maybe? Anyway, I have 10 asks for you! (I hope you are having a wonderful weekend!)

For Ray: 6, 11, 18, 24, and 78

For Brooke: 8, 15, 29, 80, and 46

Hey, thanks for all the questions! Sorry that it took me so long to get around to answering this. Had a GREAT weekend but it was also one of the BUSIEST I’ve had in months!

Ray:

6: Ray probably isn’t literally willing to give her life to anything/anyone, but she would do just about anything to meet her favorite photographer.

11: She would like to be a famous photographer someday, meaning that she could travel the world and recount history and all sorts of happenings!

18: Ray can speak English and a little bit of French! English is her first languege, she picked up French from classes at school. She isn’t fluent, but I imagine she kept learning out of love for it and wanting to travel.

24: Ray is an advocate (INFJ-A). She’s very quiet, but a lot goes on in her head.

78: Lonan is her best friend, along with his sister Brooke! The three of them spend quite a bit of time together even though this changes when Lonan leaves for college.

TW: mentions obsessive thoughts and parenting (not in any detail, but just in case)

Brooke:

8: Religion or anything like that isn’t a huge part of this story, but I don’t imagine Brooke is that religious like the rest of her family. She doesn’t tend to think about what will happen to her after life ends.

15: Although she doesn’t agree with this anymore, Brooke’s mother taught her to be very consious of how she looks at all times. Over time, she became obsessive over this in a lot of different ways. Now that she has grown distant to her mother, she is getting better at managing this with help from others.

29: Brooke thinks she is one of the funniest and most interesting people alive. This doesn’t mean that she’s self centered, but she loves the way she is with people. She’s very much a people person.

80: Brooke is a night owl! Even though she wakes up early for work on the weekends, she still stays up until midnight and even later.

46: Brooke is really good at hiding emotions. Ray is bad at dealing with her own. I think this makes for a really cool dynamic between them, seeing as they’ve mostly never seen each other at their lowest over the years that they’ve known each other.

Come ask me questions using this tag game! :)

[zerot0hero]

FULL BIOGRAPHY HERE //

Amalthea is the middle daughter of Megara Dimitriou & Hercules Zervous. Sister to Artemis & Adelphie Zervous.

20 years old, part time barista & full time art student

Superhuman strength that she inherited from Herc, very self conscious about it & about how she looks in comparison to her sisters. 

Accidently breaks everything she touches. 

Crushing very hard on best friend Stefan McQueen

Likes the color yellow, old records, converse, wild flowers & sea shells. 

Amalthea is looking for;

Friends & close friends

Co workers & class mates

An ex maybe or a childhood bully?

anything u think could work!!

#waltnextgen #tw body negativity #tw self consious #when amalthea is PERFECT but doesnt see herself like that :( #god i love this child so much #hashtag relatable

[lifelesshoe]

S3LF H4RM TW!!!!! and weirdly specific saddness:(

(side note) I do not at all promote s3lf h4rm tumblr has gotten very strict with certain content deemed harmful. I am totally not saying this is a bad thing either, i remeber in 2017 you could literally post whatever you wanted on pinterest and instagram like it could have hashtags like " # s*icide and " # s3lfh4rm and they definitely negatively affected my mood and tendencies. But sometimes it helps to be able to share your thoughts with other people and be able to express your emotions creatively and freely. so if topics that are related to mental illness trigger you in any way then dont read this post.

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bro im always so fucking scared of judgement like no matter what i do i feel like im always doing it wrong like i just get so sad and still get that stupid feeling like "oh im never gonna fit in im never gonna make it far in life because i dont fit the typical form of like anythingng," ok but rn i am letting my mind speak comepletely freely like im rllly high rn lol and like im letting my deep sob consious and shit like im actually pretty fried rn and im ughfhf im such a self consious person but whatever fuck it im gonna just say whatever i think and shit so yeah.