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teejaysnow · 2 years

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Translation: Manusoverlevering, part 3

Here's part 3 of the youtube video translation, from 43.28-56.40 (one more part to go.)

Any mistakes are there for your enjoyment - I'm a Swede translating Norwegian into English, which gives me two extra languages to føkk up. Ooops.

Also, there are a lot of starts, stops, pauses and unfinished sentences going on during the panel - I haven't cleaned that up, you're getting it just as it was said. So, yeah. Sorry, not sorry.

Anyway, translation (hopefully...) under the cut... part 1, part 2

Christopher Pahle: I see that the time is running away from us a bit and I’m going to… I would like to talk about the end scene in episode three, the one after the rave pre-party where Isak is cleaning and Even comes into the kitchen and they have that talk, that is something really…

Ulrikke Falch: Christmas pre-party, not rave pre-party.

Julie Andem: No, it’s…

CP: Revue pre-party, rave, Robyn as the soundtrack.

David Sjøholt: The Christmas pre-party is…

UF: Yeah. I didn’t really watch that.

CP: Do you have pictures of what’s after… um… picture number three. There’s a bit of dialogue about Sonja and so on where there are some lies about protheses and things like that. Um. And we see here [reads from the script that is shown on the screen]:

Even smiles. Silence settles between them. Isak lowers his guard. He wants to try and meet Even half way.

Isak [somewhat reluctant]: She’s cute, though.

Even understands what Isak is trying to do. Isak mulls it over and tastes the name.

Isak: Sonja.

Isak looks at Even. Even looks at Isak. There’s silence again. Don’t think the world has ever been this silent before. And the silence is unbearable. Isak keeps his eyes trained on his socks. One of the socks has a tiny hole and he can see the tip of his little toe. Isak thinks that he should make a note of today’s date so that when the day comes that the hole is big enough for his entire toe to stick out, he will be able to calculate how many days it takes for a hole in a sock to reach its final form. Maybe he can use it for something. In a discussion about socks or something. Even looks down at Isak’s feet. He takes a careful step closer. And then he calmly slides one foot over to Isak’s. Their toes meet. Isak’s gaze is locked, Even moves his other foot too, taking a step closer to Isak. Isak finds the courage to lift his head tentatively. Isak looks at Even’s mouth. Even looks at Isak’s mouth. And then there’s a thud from the living room. Like someone drops something heavy on the floor. They both turn towards the sound.

[ends script]

And of course it’s Noora that has returned. Typical Noora. But, um… I’m really fascinated by the way you’ve written the scene. Because all that, or, I mean, how should I put it, nothing that is written in that scene description is something that we actually see, but it’s all there.

JA: Yes.

CP: And it is a rather unusual way to write scenes. Or that’s my impression anyway.

JA: I often run very short of time. You have to remember that we film two episodes in three recording days. Which means that the more information, the more I can help the actors beforehand, the better. Like, there are some times when it’s like, I don’t have the time to write a script, I’ll just write that they meet in the corridor and then we’ll think of something while filming. But something like that, when I have to… That scene was hard to write because I had to wrap my head around the scene. I had to imagine what it was like to be Isak and stand there. And then those kinds of images are easier because, where is he looking? He’s looking at his socks, and there’s a hole there, and, like… then you can just write that because maybe it’ll help Tarjei in that scene.

CP: And do you remember, did you talk about it on set? Did he look at his sock?

JA: Yeah, I think he looked at his socks, I’m pretty sure about that. But they didn’t have any holes, as far as I… Did they? Do you remember? If we had made a hole?

Henrik Holm: He often had holes in his socks, but I don’t think he had it then.

JA: I can’t remember if we made a hole in those socks or what we did, or if he just thought about something else, I can’t remember.

HH: No, because you never filmed the socks.

JA: No. No.

HH: It was more that people could almost fantasise about what…

JA: Yeah.

HH: That you helped Tarjei to actually think about something while he looks down. That it isn’t an empty look down there.

JA: Yeah, yeah, yeah.

HH: So that…

JA: He looks at his socks. Yes, because you see, the camera sees everything they think about, so if they just stand there and think that now I’ll just stand like this until Henrik takes a step closer, then… in those kinds of situations, it’s good to give them something to think about. And if you can give it already in the script then that’s even more effective.

CP: Yeah, and that’s what was a bit of an aha moment for me when I read the script. I understand a bit more where the intensity in these scenes come from. Or, it was really interesting to see that it was there already in the script. And so clearly written in a way. You’re really talented, Julie. [applause] Um… we’ll begin to move on towards the end, and we’re here because there are some very lovely supporters that have collected a lot of money to buy some scripts that they have donated. That is pretty amazing. Um. I thought… it has to be a kind of crazy experience that there are…

JA: It’s fantastic. It is… I began to cry when I read it. I think… I mean, it’s absolutely fantastic, like. I just got a message from someone who just, the script went for one hundred and nine thousand and I just, how is that possible, who could have bought it…

CP: These people here.

JA: And then I understood that… yeah, it was really, really touching.

CP [to the audience]: Do you want to clap a bit for yourselves? [applause] But, what I thought, or, I have, like, a suspicion that the people in the audience know more about Skam than you do. So what I want to do is have a small quiz where we… I thought you could be one team and then I have an agreement with some of the biggest supporters in the script gang who are going to be another team. Do you want to come up, you can go over there and grab microphones, it’s… and now I’ve forgotten your names, it is… Dijana, Stina and Bjørg. Who are the fan team. You can take the microphones over there, maybe? And then you’ll get some questions here, let’s see if it’s possible. We can…

JA: How does it work, how… We don’t even have any buzzers to push.

CP: Do you want a party blower?

JA: Yes. Thank you. [accept the party blower and blows into it]

CP: So. You are one team, uhh… And you are one team. And if you know the answer, then you blow, first come, first served.

JA: I think I’m best, but…

Carl Martin Eggesbø: Who’s best at blowing?

HH: I’m not great at blowing.

CM: You’re not great at blowing.

JA: No, I’m not great at blowing.

HH: I can blow.

CP: The important thing is that I hear a sound, if it doesn’t work then you can just shout.

JA: Okay, okay.

CP: It works, right?

The Fan Team: Yes.

CP: Are you ready then we’ll start. [the blowing continues]

UF [to David]: You’re destroying it. You’re destroying it.

HH: It’s very childish on stage.

DS: If you take it off, then it’s much faster.

HH: It’s like a child’s birthday.

CP: Then let’s play So You Think You Can Skam. The first question is, we’ll start a bit easy… [the cast continues to talk amongst themselves] Are you ready, or?

JA: Yes! You have to foc… hey!

CP: Are you ready? Ulrikke?

JA: Be ready, Ulle. Be ready.

CP: What is… what is Vilde’s last name? I think it was over there [gestures at the fan team]

TFT: Lien. Hellerud Lien.

CP: Hellerud Lien. That’s correct.

JA: No. No. No.

CP: No?

UF: It’s the other way around.

JA: It’s Lien Hellerud. [the cast celebrates, audience applause]

CP: But it says, on Skam Wikipedia it says that it’s the other way around? Either way, I assign one point to both teams. Next question. When is Isak’s birthday? [everyone blows their party blowers, Christopher covers his ears with his hands] I missed who was first, who… [to the fan team] it was you, of course it was.

TFT: Shall we say it together? 21 June.

CP: That is correct, and what year?

TFT: 99.

CP: What… 99, of course. Um… Very good. I’ll just… Here. Two points to you, one point to you. Who has to watch when Magnus and Vilde spit coffee in each other’s mouths?

UF [to David]: Do you want to say it?

DS: Umm… Noora and Even.

JA: NO!

UF: Sana!

JA: David, don’t answer him again.

CP: Question four. Even and Isak’s toast recipe includes among other things bread and sweaty cheese. Name three other ingredients.

HH [to Ulrikke]: You were first.

UF: No, I just did it so we get to answer.

HH: Pottagaldrar, umm… turmeric, and cardamom. No?

JA: Turmeric was cut.

HH: It was cut? [Henrik and Julie high fives.]

CP: I think I have to give…

HH: I can name more otherwise.

CP: …it over to the other team

TFT: American… umm… Caribbean…

HH: Caribbean jerk?

JA: God. Yes.

TFT: Cinnamon.

HH: Cinnamon.

TFT: And rosemary.

CP: Yeah, that’s…

TFT: We’re a bit unsure, cardamom, was that really in there?

CP: Caribbean jerk…

JA: No, it…

TFT: It was lacking, Henrik.

CP: The answer is caribbean jerk barbecue, chilli, rosemary, pottagaldrar, cinnamon, pepper, and ketchup - as you see pictured at the end. But, very good.

JA: Because all that talking, that impro talking, about cardamom is really about pancakes or waffles and then we edited it as if it was them talking about…

HH: I remember when I watched the scene, I thought it was really weird, because… and then it became a thing, but… it was funny.

JA: Yes, that’s why I had to include it.

HH: Yeah, it was so funny.

CP: Question five, what does Eskild bring as a hostess gift to Sana’s Eid party?

CM: Hostess gift to Sana’s Eid party? It’s two börek that Eskild found under a stair at the filming location.

CP: Question six. So, the character that I identify with the most, we’ll see.. there. [picture of Noora and a teacher] It isn’t Noora, even if I got Noora in the personality quiz, but it’s Nora’s ‘chronicle’ teacher and what I want to know… or, first of all, why didn’t he get his own season? But what I want to know is, what colour is his hat?

JA: Oh…

DS: Red.

JA: No, green. Dark green.

HH: I would have guessed red too.

JA: Black!

CP: It’s burgundy. Red.

JA: Who said it?

UF: We said red.

DS: I said red.

CP: At least it’s not black. Or dark green.

JA: I’m sorry. I’m sorry.

CP: Someone took over the question and insisted that it was dark green.

JA: I’m sorry. I’m sorry. Let him answer all questions from now on.

HH: It’s good that you weren’t in charge of costumes.

CP: Last question. Um. What is the last sentence that is said in the series? [Ulrikke blows and points to Henrik] Do we need it word for word?

HH: Are you pointing at me?

UF: No, I just…

HH: I stood so far back that I didn’t even hear it!

DS: It’s Marlon’s speech.

HH: It’s Marlon’s speech.

UF: Oh, yeah.

JA: Yeah, Fear spreads. But fortunately, love does too.

DS: But fortunately, love does too. Boom.

CP: Right. So that’s that, and it ended with three… and you…

UF: Four.

TFT: Did they win??

CP: It’s completely…

JA: No, in that case we need one more question.

CP: But I would like to disqualify the Vilde… the question about Vilde’s last name.

JA: Yeah, we should, because I got very unsure if that is what it says on a wikipedia page.

UF: No, but it’s you who’ve made it up?

DS: But you have…

JA: Yeah, but I… It's been many, many years since I made it up.

CP: But it’s taken…

JA: But I mean…

CP: It’s taken on a life of its own.

JA: I meant…

DS: Use your mobile to check it?

JA: But how do I check it? It’s in the other room.

DS: Mail?

[audience member shouts that it’s Lien Hellerud on NRKs Skam page]

DS: Lien Hellerud? So it was correct then?

JA: Yeah, then it’s correct. If it says so on Skam, then it’s correct.

CP: Right. Then you will be awarded the prizes, which are, chilli, rosemary and cinnamon. That’s what they had, the rest was…

JA: Whooo! Thank you. [hands Henrik one of the spice bottles]

HH: Nice.

#here it is #the promised translation of the manusoverlevering nationalmuseet skam juni 2018 video #well the third part of it anyway #i am not a natural translator #for the anon(s?) asking for it #my shit #my translations

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welcometogrouchland · 1 month

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[ID in ALT] I've made posts before about Talia/Dick co-parenting Damian moments (will never happen but let me dream) and this came to me in a vision. Took me ages to finish for some reason 😭 and then even longer to post

#dc comics #dc #damian wayne #dick grayson #talia al ghul #batfamily #dc robin #nightwing #anyway. yes im a self-indulgent ''dick as damians secret third parent'' truther #like i DO think it's way more complex and nuanced than the schmoopy affectionate fan portrayal of it #they're brothers they're father and son they're partners they're the dynamic duo except only in past tense etc etc #but consider! I'm not immune to schmoopy affection in fanworks. it compells me despite itself #anyway it's technically not that crazy when it comes to dick and damian. they hug! often! at least they did #it's not as big a leap to these types of scenarios #also talia ''somewhat absent for complex reasons on both her and damians part but very loving and loved by her son'' al ghul #you will always be famous to me #son of the demon origin...bwahhh #anyway. someone made a comic kind of like this/like a post i made abt this topic #but way funnier bc dick and talia starting trying to beat each other up #so go look at that as well #anyway. it's been a somewhat difficult few weeks so I'm. desperately trying to take it easy #i got some reading with me (first vol of kevin smiths GA run that i found second hand and jaimes BB run vol 2!)#so we'll see how far i get through those. considering there's demons in my head telling me to re-read things (LET ME OUT!!!)#when i finish GA and BB i do plan on rereading robin 2021. as a treat to myself #it's a run I've really warmed up to as time went on #I'm keeping up w/ the current b&r run even though it is. admittedly very slow w/ some weird dialogue #i read it for the damian content more than anything. also nikas back so that's neat :]#idk I have a feeling that after absolute power shakes out we might get some more creative team switch ups #so if anyone at dc is interested in taking over the reigns on b&r...that could be very neat #(it's me they should hire me. please DC i have ideas listen to my red hood pitch PLEASE-)

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mattodore · 1 year

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everyone say hi jordan ✌

#simblr #the sims 4 #sims 4 #ts4 #ts4 cas #river dipping #jordan lesaint #echthroi #🦇#okay so for NOW this is jordan <3 tho this is subject to change... a little funny i'm already thinking abt switching his eyebrows lmao #but that's 2/4 of theo's friends done now :) jordan is the oldest of the group and he's a graffiti (mostly) artist as well as a musician #he's my little art school drop out vinyl record obsessed flower boy drummer MWAH #i should've given him a backpack bc he's always got one around his shoulder it's where he keeps his art materials yk #i also wanna find inhaler cc for whenever i make his apartment #he's either my oldest (inception not age) or my second oldest oc... actually hang on he'd be more like the second oldest or third oldest...#sunny was my oldest but i benched her years ago rip #i can't remember if jordan came before or after theo so idk if he's second or third but yeah <3 wasn't originally part of echthroi #bc echthroi is theo's story obviously but i added jordan to it later as one of theo's friends #anyway............... totally meant to post this earlier but i got caught up watching love is blind #i disliked last season but this one is really fun. my one (1) guilty pleasure reality show.#khadija mbowe put me on it with their ''love is...produced insecure and completely unhinged'' video essay <3 #me promoting khadija any chance what can i say

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teecupangel · 2 months

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Guess who finished AC Mirage just now XD

I'm still missing a few misc trophies concerning the open world but all story and collectible-related trophies are done. (The worst was the books mainly because I got lost trying to get the last - main story gated - book and my RL bad sense of direction showed itself once more)

Anyway... wanna see the funniest glitch I got?

I'm putting it underneath the Keep Reading because of spoilers, but my god, I could not take the scene seriously because of the 'uninvited quest'

But hey, if anyone wants to see the jinni in better lighting, here ya go.

#teecup plays ac mirage #man the moment the ezio family played #during that moment #well... that scene got me that's for sure #anyway i have feelings for the ending #but more importantly #for those who are waiting for more desmond x basim #as promise i will write a third part as i have finished ac mirage XD #also... really?#there's no modern day ending?#but seriously #my sense of direction is soooo bad #i once got lost in death stranding #EVEN THOUGH I USED THE MAP TO PLOT MY ROUTE

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miscmonstro · 2 years

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welp this got compressed to heck and back

am I going to finish this? no.

#halfa!trio #Halfa!Trio Au #wip #danny fenton #sam manson #tucker foley #danny phantom #ok so I might have borrowed Tucker's hair from the Hamilton musical #I might fight with the compression thing later but i'm not down for that atm :/#mostly putting this up bc my pfp is part of it #or well the second sketch of it anyway #camera on Sam is bc of the Third Time fanfic #go read it its by DarkNymfa #miscmonstro scribbles

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skibasyndrome · 29 days

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the joy of finally finishing a chapter I've been on and off working on since NOVEMBER!!!!!

but also

rip. why must I continuously develop to write more and more in one fic....

#anyways guys uh....#the final chapter of You crave the Applause might be coming in at a whooping 13.8 k words of... how do I say this #pure and unapologetic smut #if you thought lavender haze was intense... well at least that one was like a third to half dancing/flirting #but aaaaaaaah I'm so relieved #even though I know gotta get to the ugly part #I just really dislike editing lmao I have no patienceeee #simon.out.#takes from the google docs

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sunnykeysmash · 11 months

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Dee's the writer and director... stepping into the leader position she naturally gravitates towards... she's casting the roles. She cast wrong in dee day, but this will change.

She always wanted the lead role before, which got in-between mac and dennis, but if she steps back (behind the scenes), she won't be their buffer anymore and then...

I rewatched aluminum monster vs fatty magoo and noticed how bad mac is at being controlling and manipulative (he follows exactly what frank says, doing things that he's still trying to apply to this day, like announcing dennis' announcement), how dennis can only ever see himself as filling the role perfectly, and how dee naturally stages a strike and everyone listens to her.

I also rewatched gets held hostage and noticed how it heavily features frank's will and how his gun saves the day, both elements that are coming back in tandem in ep2 of s16... and hostage is a very interesting ep in analyzing the group dynamics and how they interact with each or betray each other. It's also like... its talk of stockholm syndrome, because due to dee's monologue I feel like "why are you doing this to me?" will be a theme, in s16. Because it's like... well ok, no only is it also in gets whacked p2, but it implies that you fell in love with the other person because they did something to you...

look, I'm being rambly (as usual), but what I'm saying is that I feel like s16 will pull a lot from s3 specifically... I guess we will see more clearly when it airs, but I wanted to put it out there. It's not just THAT season tho there's like, season 9 too. and 14.

#iasip #s16 spoilers #it's always sunny in philadelphia #always sunny #bro i dont know where i was going with this... im writing analysis posts like they're journal entries lmaoo #and also like forgive me for this lol but i feel like they're using liam and ryan to parallel macdennis a bunch but especially in hostage #i feel like theyre the data jumper refers to when it comes to like. having a gay couple on the show???? cuz like. well yk. it is what it is #and now they're in the bowling episode saying mixing things is strictly prohibited idk maybe im seeing things but mayb not anyways #yea um no comment. this isnt my most coherent post #i like the part abt how dee isnt gonna be between mac and dens' story anymore tho looking to be the lead bc shes STEPPING BACK from actress #to control it from behind the scenes like a director #which will leave mac and den without a third wheel..... damn. dee is the wildcard huh?#i really sincerely hope we have the whole gang scheming mac and dennis shit behind their backs in s16 #like thats hilarious come on #and they all have different goals and methods in mind and dennis is like the lil lab rat unaware victim of it all #then the veil is pulled and BAM!!!! the gang broke dennis. it's genius

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kindaorangey · 5 months

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so like whether someone enjoys eeaao or not generally breaks down to their ability to accept sincerity and absurdity in rapid succession, basically having elasticity when it comes to things that break your immersion and things that require your full immersion, and anyway i think the reason i can do that with so many things (not just eeaao) is because i grew up watching pantomimes

#thunder rambles #wrote this post in a few different ways. decided there was no good way to get my point across. decided on the 'i refuse to elaborate' part #part? sorry i meant method😭im on mobile and im not retyping #anyway heres the elaboration if ur interested #pantomimes are built around a broken down third wall and are largely very superficial and comedic #however you still have scenes where you are immersed in the comedy and forget that its just actors on a stage #and then you have scenes where the actors are talking to you (or forgetting their lines!) and that immersion is broken but that breakage is #owned by the actor #and i watched a lot of these #and yeah yeah everyone nowadays loves absurdism because of the sociapolitical state of the world. so im not special for liking absurdism #but i think i am relatively alone in my ability to switch between absurdity and sincerity so rapidly?#and its the thing that endears me to something the most #so bojack horseman miraculous ladybug eeaao #that back to the future parody that got claimed by incels #all of it has complete tonal whiplash but often carried very well #like i never laugh harder at anything than at an episode of ml #and i am laughing at the intentional jokes but most of the time im mocking the sheer ludicrousness of it all #the plotholes the animation the characterisation whatever #but i do it out of love and im still down for the more serious scenes because they are SOOOO earnest and sweet #anyway yeah same is true for eeaao. hot dog fingers i will defend you forever and always #broken down FOURTH** wall. i swear to god im not drunk😭

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du-hjarta-skulblaka · 7 months

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Rewatching an LP of 9 hours 9 persons 9 doors for the umpteenth time (nor sure if I'll watch the rest of Zero Escape yet) and. God. I truly cannot emphasise enough how much these games shaped my views on philosophy and psychology, or how well fucking implemented they are as narrative driven games. Just thinking alot abt the concept of being able to receive knowledge from alternate timelines in the form of Vibea or dejavu. Like. You got Bad Vibes on someone and ydont know why? That's cause an alternative version of you got severely fucked over by them babieeeee.

Theyre just the pinnacle of multiverse science fiction to me. Only rivaled by Everything Everywhere All At Once. Like frankly I'd you want to understand me on a base level you just gotta be familiar with these two medias and alot of big picture stuff will click into place

Also Seven and Lotus are incredible. Just saying.

#its like #nothing matters. which is the same as Everything Matters.#therefore you choose what matters to You #honestly the/a third section of this Venn Diagram is Who's Lila for the psychological element of what You even meana #idk thinking about the media that vibes with me and what that means about me as a person #i feel like i have a pretty solid concept of myself in part because of exposure to alot of philosophical concepts #even if its a shallow one #anyway 999 is a spectacular game and i cannot recommend it enough if youre not familiar #ots sequal Virtue's Last Reward as well although its a little more Out There #not a huge fan of the third part Zero Time Dilemna but it still has fun things to say #zero escape

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samglyph · 8 months

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Insurance is so fun I love living in America anyway any one familiar with any witches I’m looking to invest a hex

#this is a joke post #first women I spoke to on the phone today was so underhanded in less than a minute #I said yeah I just graduated college and just got a part time job so I don’t have a big income atm and she was like #well you will have an income soon right that’s what college was for #and like. yeah but man her tone she just spoke down to me I didn’t like it #text #second guy was slightly more helpful but ended up not going anywhere #third guy was useless #WHY DO I HAVE TO CALL YOU THIS SHOULD BE ON YOUR SITE #anyway #personal

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kakusu-shipping · 1 year

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The Mario movie has gotten me obsessed with the Mario Extended Family and general Mario History, to the point that I made myself a Mario Cousin Self Insert

#Emile's Arts #Mariocest #They're kissing on the mouth and it's part of the self insert so I'm tagging it #He's basically a third Mario Bro sense he and the twins are so close in age #Well not SUPER close like 6-7 years-ish #He's Uncle Tony's son because I like Tony I think he's funny he steals off Luigi's plate and that made me laugh #His full name is Emilio but he goes by Emile and he's the only family member who knows the Bros are dating #Because he walked in on them once and REFUSED to be lied to about it #Contemplating making his mama Pauline because that would be INCREDIBLY funny #If Uncle Tony had a kid with the hottest woman in Brooklyn and then she dumped him #fvgkfjgkfdjkl It makes me laugh #He likes Mushrooms and Ghost Stories #He doesn't live with the bros post movie because his mom still has custody every other weekend and he's still in school #But I think he'd skip a lot of school to sneak into Mushroom Kingdom education instead anyway #He gets bullied in school and lot and gets in a lot of fights usually but that doesn't happen in Toad School so it's much more fun #I mostly just wanted to draw the bros as teenagers and see if I can make them distinguishable #Because I might be eventually drawing all my own Mariocest stuff #Cause writing is not going great for me rn #Would love to read a Mariocest fic if anyone has any Thank You #Self Insert #Proship Selfship

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myundeadgayson · 2 years

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Spoilers for Double Life SMP!!

man, i just finished watching Joel’s episode and while i’m literally so excited about SmallEtho, i can’t stop thinking about Lizzie not being there. and all i keep thinking about is that Lizzie wasn’t in 3rd Life either, and Joel had her back, only for her to be gone again.

to be clear, i love Joel and Etho being soulmates!! i couldn’t be more excited bc this couldn’t have been a more perfect duo to bring havoc to the server, but also,,, imagining how back in 3rd Life, Joel feeling so lonely. it always felt like something (someone) was missing, but he couldn’t figure out what. so he built himself a place and surrounded himself in pets bc perhaps the company will help?

however, no matter how many blankets he had, or how many wolves he befriended and laid with him at night, he could never shake the ever present loneliness and the cold, emptiness in his bones that something was missing. and it stayed that way until Last Life when he saw her.

he was drawn to her instantly. he couldn’t explain what it was. perhaps it was as simple as she was beautiful, and he wanted to know her. and in a world of death and vicious games, he tried to gain her attention the best way he knew how— pestering her and trying to steal her lives. and maybe it wasn’t the best way of getting attention, but it worked, didn’t it?

for some reason, he would always find his way back to her. and eventually, he remembered why.

on those rare nights when he’d actually be able to sleep, he’d dream of massive, colorful structures made of vibrant oranges, greens, and reds. he’d dream of a seemingly endless ocean wrapping around the shoreline, its sparkling, ever clear waves beckoning him in. he’d dream about what lies across those waters, pristine white towers with their rich, lovely pink tops lined with bright blue. he’d dream of lilypads that were large enough for shops and tiny homes. he’d dream of walking along the paths. he’d dream of spotting flowing pink hair out the corner of his eye, and turning his head to see a figure, only for the silhouette to disappear.

as the weeks went on, he would slowly garner more and more pieces. he could still sometimes hear the echo of fond giggles in his ear upon waking up. the sound would settle like a comfortable warmth in his chest. and when he recalled images of blurry-faced figures in fine suits and gowns amongst rows of church pews, and glimpses of pink hair standing beside him, he awoken with a newfound interest in the golden ring on his finger that he’d simply accepted the moment he’d awoken in that strange server.

and of course, he had questions. even though it felt as though he had all the pieces, it still felt like he was fighting for an answer. it was as if his mind wouldn’t let him see past the fog. and he could remember asking Grian about what was wrong, only to not be given any straight answers, as if he was too stupid to notice Grian was having the dreams too. he wasn’t that oblivious. he could see the way Grian was always watching Scar, as if trying to put together his own puzzle.

and then, it happened all at once.

Lizzie was a Red Name like him, and suddenly it was Lizzie.

she was Lizzie — his beautiful wife, the person he loved most in all the universe. suddenly, she was a Red, and she was finally within arm’s reach. and seeing her smile, even if slightly crazed from the newfound bloodlust coursing through her veins, he was reminded again that was she was so, so beautiful. and her giggle sounded like music to his ears, and so, so familiar until it all became clear and she was Lizzie, and he got to remember truly how lucky he was.

and as quick as he remembered, she was gone.

he had only so much time to mourn, to be angry, to fill any type of rage for whatever Gods had cursed them to that forsaken server before he was gone, and then he was awake in a whole other server with all those realizations gone.

he’s back at square one without even realizing it, but this time he’s not so alone. it didn’t shake the feeling of wrongness and the aching loss from his bones, but at least he could say he had a friend to keep him company— a soulmate, even!

and while he’s happily platonic, he can’t help noticing the golden band on his finger that he can’t bring himself to remove. and he thinks of his other hand with a ring made from a strip of a hanging vine, twisted around itself and knotted into a tiny circle. it matched the strip of mangrove bark around Etho’s, both of them makeshift and made more as joke than anything else.

Etho luckily doesn’t ask about the actual ring that he wears, and Joel doesn’t ask about the obsidian one that Etho wears on a chain around his neck, and looks too similar to the one Bdubs tries hide on a necklace beneath his shirt.

and he feels happy, but it still feels like there’s always something (someone) missing, but he supposes he’ll never know.

and if his dreams are full of pink hair and fantastic builds again, he won’t remember bc the Gods demand entertainment, so maybe this 3rd time’s the charm to forget what he’s left behind.

…and i mean, that’s one view of mine bc i very much love imagining an AU that connects all three Life SMPs via the players forgetting their pasts to start the game with a “clean mind”, only for Joel to keep trying to remember Lizzie even after the resets.

the other theory i have for Lizzie not being there tho was bc the trade Joel made in the 100 Hours SMP. when he traded Lizzie for a Nether Star, and imagining that perhaps since he essentially traded her soul and life away, she wasn’t able to be brought back. (and when you combine those two ideas with Joel remembering, only to remember trading her soul away,,, i’m just saying it’d be hella rough and i’m highkey considering it.)

#trafficblr #double life spoilers #double life smp #joel smallishbeans #lizzie ldshadowlady #hints of scarian #just as a heads up #it’s very minor tho. ethubs as well #neither are specified as romantic and can be seen either way #but Ethubs was married #i’ve been thinking about this idea forever and this new series was just an excuse to get some of it out #if you guys want to know more tho let me know!#i’d be so happy to and i have so many more thoughts about Grian’s part in everything #anyway!! thanks for indulging my rambles #last life joel #third life joel #jizzie #i swear that ship name will be the death of me agsjakdffj

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