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that-one-loz-nerd · 1 month

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i finished clone wars what the actual fuck why would they end it like that

#/pos #< i mean it wasnt a positive ending but it fucked me up in a good way ig #i am a broken woman #what do i even do with my life anymore #time to watch bad batch ig #or maybe rebels idk i cant think right now that ending destroyed me #clone wars

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chihuahua-is-a-psycho · 5 months

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i guess i never knew better (discussion) CW: pretty depressing, pls don't read if you dont want to get in a bad mood :[

hi i know i've been dead for about a month but i wanna talk about something; get something off my chest i wish i could go back and change who i was back in 2020-2022. i just seemed like a total asshole, and all i did was do fearmongering and post about me being depressed 24/7 instead of posting actual talent...not like i ever had talent. it sucks. what kind of person was i back then? i was straight up unlikable. no one wanted to hang around with me since i was all political and edgy and shit. it was verryyy cringe. i had so much potential yet i wasted it on edgy art and rant/vent posts 24/7. not to mention i was so fucking dramatic, fucking getting all sad and shit all because i said something that no one saw at all. another thing to add: i have a shitty hyperfixation that won't stop. and its with a cartoon character. its been 4 fucking years. "robo you were just a child" yeah no shit but come on. even 9 year olds would act better than me. i was a troglodyte, trust me. i know i can just move on, but i'm just so fucking guilty of how many people i upset with my posts on ig and twitter back then 3 years ago. im so sorry. i had so much potential but now i just cant start over anymore since im a terrible reminder of how i used to be when i was all over social media. i barely fucking use it anymore because i learned to shut the fuck up. plus i have to learn it the hard way: my old art was ass. if you're wondering if i ever got help, yes i am getting help right now and i am recovering. things have been very traumatic this year for me but i can tell you im handling this a lot better than myself from 2022. cheers

#personal vent #vent post #fml #what do i even do with my life anymore #im just a worthless slob that had nothing to do in my life back then #now i have health issues because i was a fatass sitting behind a keyboard for 3 years #my life sucks

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yrsonpurpose · 5 months

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TAYLOR ZAKHAR PEREZ Natural Diamonds

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sophsicle · 1 month

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time is so fucking scary. because it does not care if you are happy. you will think I wish to stay like this, right here in this moment. i have found my place. but then time comes like a wave and pushes you forward. you cannot stay. and neither can the people you love. forward forward forward. time has ripped the claws from my hands, and the teeth from my mouth, as I have tried to cling to yesterday. but you must move forward forward forward. Forward forward forward. Forward forward forward. Forward forward forw—

#i recently went back to the place in which i was happiest in my life #and it has changed and doesn't look the same #and doesn't belong to me anymore #and quite honestly nothing aches quite like knowing #that no matter what i do i can never go back #that even if i stayed it would have all gone away anyway #that i had to move forward #and i had to let go of the things that made me happy #because time wouldn't stop #soph rambles

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maxthesillyy · 8 months

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this is what neurotypicals do right

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larapaulussen · 5 months

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#gif #why do I have to spend every christmas and every birthday alone #for what am I being punished #I am a good person #and I don’t think this suffering has any sense #it’s just that in life the happy people have good things coming their way #and the sad people always just get more trauma #I know I could have a relationship if I didn’t have such a traumatic childhood #my trauma lets me reject the good guys and waste my time with the aholes #but i don’t know what to do about it #every nice guy I met absolutely wasn’t attractive to me #and we also didn’t have anything in common #so I’m not even regretting rejecting them cause it wouldn’t have worked out #and they deserve someone who actually fancies them #i just wonder why I never met a nice guy that I have common interests with #or who matched my preferences lookwise #it really feels like I’m simply not allowed to ever meet the right person #and gotten to the point where I swipe for hours have a lot of matches and then ghost everyone #as I just know it either will be someone nice but not attractive to me or an ahole #I just don’t have any energy left anymore #I just want to experience love so bad but can’t do these dates anymore #I’m so so tired

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puppyeared · 4 months

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#maybe im being pessimistic abt this. im not saying u should wear a mask every waking moment of your life god knows i cant #but also. hell no i dont trust u if anything i distrust u ppl even more after how things played out for the past 3 years #like there are situations where it might be inevitable catching covid. most of my family members are nurses and in constant contact #but there are also a ton of ways to make that risk low as possible like masking and wearing a face shield and having sanitizer #for me its not enough to just say oh we're in a small group and we're all vaccinated #motherfucker your kid is sick from preschool EVERY TIME WE VISIT. of course ill be wearing a mask she gave me covid last year #also no the fuck it isnt seasonal the cases go up because lack of caution makes the virus spread and mutate especially around times when #ppl gather. add that with virus transmission in cold weather and its a matter of different factors increasing the risk of spread #im also tired of ppl not understanding that i wont be their responsibility if i do get sick. maybe they can help me recover #but at the end of the day the risk of death and long term health is all on me. i cant change that #the govt barely gives me accommodations what makes u think theyll do anything for every individual case of long covid or worse #im so tired. im so tired #i dont even know if its possible to want this to be over anymore i just wish we didnt have to deal with this in the first place #ALSO COUGH INTO YOUR SLEEVE SERIOUSLY HOW IS THIS SO HARD TO REMEMBER #oh its just a cold/dry throat its not like i have covid or anything. no!! its basic hygiene!!! how is this so hard to understand!!!!!!!!!!#and no this isnt abt whether people have the means to protect themselves this is me bitching abt my relatives not taking me seriously #vent #my art #myart #doodles #covid 19

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shannonsketches · 28 days

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Why is the anime so weird, it's not even the same series dude?? It's like,

Anime:

GOKU: I have a great idea to bring peace to the universe, and my leadership and compassion alone will unite us all. I have No Flaws and am A True Relatable Everyman :)

VEGETA: NO! I AM THE BEST AND I WILL CAUSE PROBLEMS UNTIL I AM RECOGNIZED AS SUCH!!!!

Manga:

GOKU: Vegeta what's cornmeal made of? I know it's what the corn eats, but what's it made of? VEGETA: Hey Kakarot let's play the quiet game until one of us dies.

#silly hours #I do not understand this writing it's so bad aklsdlkasjd #Toei wants Goku to be Clark Kent SO bad and he SO isn't lmao #they're so good and dumb and rounded and complex in the manga what is the anime so afraid of #Toriyama said 'no no this man is a detached faux-immortal who has a dear pure heart but he's childlike and selfish even though he's kind'#and toei went 'got it goku's never done anything wrong ever in his life'#toriyama said 'Vegeta's gone through a lot and he's finally settling into his more mature leadership role with the confidence he's earned'#and toei said 'got it vegeta has the confidence of a high school bully except now he can interact with his family as a comedy bit'#girl hWHAT #Toei trying to group Goku and Vegeta as two people who would rather train than be with their families and Toriyama said NO Vegeta wants #to be HOME this is the first time in years that he's HAD ONE and it makes him HAPPY to be with his wife and children!!#Vegeta trains so that he can protect the things he doesn't want to lose again and Goku trains because it's the thing that makes him happies #They are NOT the same lmao And yeah Vegeta still wants to beat Goku but he also knows that Gohan could dogwalk both of them if he wanted #He also knows Trunks and Goten are going to surpass them it's not about being the best anymore he's past that he just wants to Not Need Gok #He just doesn't want to have to rely on Goku to save the day he wants to be Enough on his own he just wants to know he can be #because every time it's mattered he WASN'T and people he loved were lost to his inability to protect them and he carries that #Like Whis diagnosed him with anxiety and cptsd out in the open and Beerus said he was self-centered for feeling guilt #+ he lowkey enjoys the rivalry it keeps him goal-oriented so he can't get complacent and lazy which is what triggered his Buu Saga breakdow #realized how Fucked Up it was that having a home and loving family made him feel like he was failing and went 'wait no I won actually??'#now he's chill as fuck in the manga. cool confident leader.#and sometimes he is childish and dumb with Goku as a treat #you know what rocks about his rivalry with Goku in Super though is that it's Playful. Vegeta is learning how to Play.#You ever seen a shelter dog get introduced to a really playful dog and it takes a minute for the shelter dog to understand it's safe here #And then they're both running around the backyard playing hot potato with one braincell?? That's Goku and Vegeta's relationship #and the way the anime sleeps on that dynamic is so fucking criminal especially when it's literally canon it's in print it's out there #you had the playbook how'd you fumble it this bad #anyway that's my 25+ year blorbo thoughts I love Geets a lot okay #And I love Goku in the manga a lot I'd forgotten that he's actually a great character when Toei's not fucking up his whole vibe

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cryogenicshopetown · 1 year

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I don't think I will ever get over how the cc in portal says glados' voice sounds "seductive" after you incinerate the core because it's right.

#glados #portal #portal 2 #I have a huge crush on her it isn't even funny anymore #I don't know what to do. she's taken over my life #I would do anything for her I'm not even kidding

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hillerska-official · 3 months

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Something that always really resonated with me in The Perks of Being A Wallflower was the line right near the end when Charlie says "there are people who forget what it's like to be 16 once you turn 17" and maybe it's just because I was 16 the first time I watched the movie and I felt like nobody ever listened to me because I was young, but I promised myself I would not forget what it was like to be 16, or any age that I had been, and that I would extend the respect and understanding that I so craved to others. And I forget to do that sometimes, but whenever I play the perks soundtrack on vinyl (cause I'm a 2014 hipster in my spare time) that speech plays into the last track and I hear it and remember that I need to do that. So anyways if you're 16 and you feel like nobody ever listens to you or remembers what being 16 felt like I'm sorry. I promise I do. Relish in the good parts while you have them and know the bad will be over soon 💚

#in the end i look back really fondly at that time in my life #and i KNOW a lot of bad was happening (it was 2016 lmfao) plus i was having a ton of personal issues #but when i think about what i was doing at age 16? i was going to play rehearsal and forming inside jokes that i still laugh at #and i was discovering new music and becoming close with some of my dearest friends #people i consider family now even if we arent close anymore #so i know its frustrating i really do. but dancing with your friends in the theatre will always be stronger #anyways this movie fucks me up everytime so thanks for that G (iykyk)#not yr #personal #the perks of being a wallflower #prince queuehelm

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kakyogay · 5 months

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WHAT

THAT'S WHY TUMBLY GRUMBLY

BUT LIKE

MILK MAKES TUMMY HURT

WATER TASTES BAD (yes my water has a taste and it shouldn't and it's gross and I cannot drink it and I don't understand why no one else in this house understands that)

AND MY DAD RARELY GETS OTHER JUICES

IT'S NOT LIKE I COULD JUST DRINK SODA ALL MY LIFE THAT WOULD SUCK

WHY CAN'T I JUST INTAKE FLUIDS AND NOT FEEL LIKE SHIT AFTER THIS ISN'T FAIR GRRAAAAAAAAH

#I just want to draw the silly creatures why must constant stomach pain this is doo doo water #also why must my body suddenly have trouble with milk even after I've drank it all my life #going to kill going to maul maybe even bite #watever maybe it'll get me out of school tomorrow idfk #barely on that grind anymore what the fuuuuuuuuck why must human anatomy do stupid shit

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matchamabs · 1 year

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hey remember when i was known for 9 stuff back in 2017? good times.

#it has been SO LONG since i drew a stitchpunk omg #9 movie #Shane Acker's 9 #6 #3 #its super surreal being at a place in my life where like #i can draw #and drawing them again and not even remembering how anymore #i can also write now!!!#so all my old fics are cringe sob #9 fans i miss u i promise ill do more 9 stuff soon <3 #contrary 2 what i just drew my favourite character is actually 2

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deathdaydreamm · 7 months

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#i’m still in love with my roommate #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #he cooked me dinner last night while he was drunk #and how all I wanted to do was look at him forever #and all I could think about was how unbelievably beautiful he is #it’s pathetic #and he’s not in love with me anymore #or so he says but it doesn’t even matter at this point because we’re both too fucked up to be in a relationship #I have never in my life yearned like this #this is what makes people turn evil #love is a psyop

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simgerale · 1 month

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me after attempting to get back into sims and realizing i had a lot more to do than play the game

#hi everyone #I’m going around hugging you all #okay now that we are gathered here today #i will simply acknowledge that i have been gone for a very long time and then also acknowledge that maybe it was for the best #i relied on sims to be my only creative activity even if i tried to write a book at the same time #and also. i prioritized sims over real life responsibilities. that’s just a deadly combination lol #but I recently noticed I just replaced sims with Netflix. with YouTube. with anything that gave me quick dopamine #literally became addicted in a sense. still am but I’ve been cut cold turkey from most everything #I get off work and go. okay I’ve done the dishes and the laundry……..I could read or write or bake….#I try to write and sometimes i get a good hour #then I read for a few hours and then get tired of it #and I made cookies Tuesday so I’m waiting for those to be gone before baking again #I’m just so pitiful that I feel BORED and don’t know what to do #so I said….. okay what if I do sims for an hour.#I downloaded some new cc Tuesday and tried to play yesterday #y’all ……………….. I can’t find the energy anymore to set up elaborate scenes and pose my sims and plan posts #I said wow… this is boring without my intervention and fake story #I said wow…….. all this for what? for tumblr? yes I created cool things and provided joy. but is that inherintly important compared to my #own joy? my own everyday activities I should be doing?#y’all I do not leave the house unless we got out to eat or shop or travel to our parents #.. I have little desire to. I’m trying to find that desire #but my husband is busy with grad school and work and I don’t want to do anything by myself #I’ve found myself in one heck of a slump #I didn’t want to be human for awhile. just had no desires no interests no ambitions #I was slacking off SO HARD at work. I just had no drive to do well #I’m still working on it. I’m still trying to get caught up. I’m still trying to force myself to move every day.#but I am struggling y’all. and I can tell you that sims… sims isn’t helping rn but I want it to so bad. I want to get back into it #I didn’t mean to disappear on everyone. I got married and then life got busy and then I fell into this hole of nothing #I didn’t even WANT to crawl my way out. but my husband has helped a lot. I feel like such a child!!!!#I reached max tags. 🙃 bye love you all. till next time

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swordsonnet · 10 months

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sorry but saying that the accessibility needs of mentally disabled people are just preferences or about "comfort" is blatantly incorrect. if i can't enter a building because the bright lights and loud noises would send me into a meltdown, then i can't enter the building, and that's not less important than me not being able to enter a building because it's not wheelchair accessible. if you genuinely think that mentally disabled people aren't really struggling, and that it's okay to mock their very real concerns, then that just shows that you've been refusing to listen to their experiences. do better or shut the fuck up.

#yeah yeah i know i said i wouldn't post about this stupid fucking 'discourse' anymore #but i keep seeing takes that make my blood boil #physical and mental disabilities are two sides of the same coin! yes there are differences but also a lot of commonalities #but nooooo expecting people to have even an ounce of fucking compassion for those who dont share their exact lived experience #is too much to ask for i guess #i've said this many times before but gatekeeping and infighting will get us nowhere #throwing your fellow disabled people under the bus won't help you #i get people's anger - i have a lot of anger too as someone who is housebound with a physical disability #but other disabled people arent your enemy #and taking your anger out on them is just a dick move #especially if you do so using the same ableist 'its all in your head' rhetoric #that mentally disabled people have had to put up with since forever #disclaimer: obviously not all physically disabled people act like that. from what i can tell its just a small (but very vocal) minority #but it's pervasive enough to make me wary of online spaces for physical disabilities #which is kinda sad seeing as i have a physical disability myself and would love to connect with others #but i'm not super keen on being told that my autism (which has significantly impacted me my whole life) doesn't matter

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azaracyy · 2 months

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today, cupimon prays for your happiness too.

#digimon #cupimon #oc:elise #made myself draw more personal oc art when not working on comms haha #tbh the motivation behind this was a moment of weakness. like. wanting people to tell you you have done well and everything will be ok #but i also want to heal others that way. it's complicated. the world only seems to get harsher and harsher #holy or angel type digis are good picks for such and cupimon are adorable #imma be realistic this is a pretty tough time to be alive. let's not even try to compare with past eras or the like #the truth is so many of us are struggling so friggin hard we don't even know it anymore bc it's become so routine to our life #but it's honestly? really twisted? if you think of it that way. we're so used to suffering in life. it's so sad.#can only hope things get better someway. somehow. may good news even a little arrives to each of yall this week #btw really sorry folks. after the ai fiasco this site has gotten itself into i'm gonna post even lower res version for my newer works jic #artists writers creatives. do stay safe. keep yourselves and your work safe as much as you can #do what you need to do regardless it matters to you or not ok!#png

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