#what else do you need like seriously

[carbonateddelusion]

I know I haven't said much about it, but legitimately, "running away" was one of the most pivotal life decisions I've ever made. Probably THE first major life decision I've made, and also the best. If you have an opportunity to go, leave. Get out of there. If you are not safe at home, emotionally, physically, whatever, and you're able to leave, do it. It's going to suck such major ass for a while because you're going to have to deal with the scars they've left on you, but I wholeheartedly, full-throatedly, with-my-chest promise you that it is going to be better. You're going to be better. If you have the privilege of being able to escape, no matter how difficult it feels, then RUN.

#whatever you leave behind is not your responsibility. sometimes you're gonna have a fucked relationship with the siblings you 'abandoned' #but they have to understand that you had to leave. and that you were actively fighting to take them with you the entire time #it's okay to be selfish. you need to be selfish to start to recover. #if you have to be homeless please look up and do your research on local resources first. plan things out. #i was lucky enough to have family who'd been waiting years and years for this moment to happen #if you can go and have your college dorm as a safe haven then absolutely take that chance #if you can go and rent an apartment with the money from your job then take that chance #plan shit. do it. even if your brain fights you. you do not want to be out there without proper precautions or else you could end up- #-seriously fucked over. #also i know i'm encouraging people to get out but in equal measure: #if it isn't safe to leave you are not lesser for staying. #if it's winter and you can't be out there alone you are not complicit in your own abuse yk? #if you have family you CANNOT leave behind like extremely young siblings then you are not at fault for staying. #i was lucky enough to be able to leave quickly and (relatively) painlessly and i'm aware that not everybody can do that #sometimes staying IS the better choice. but that's a choice YOU have to make not me #assess your situation properly. are you staying for your own safety or because you're scared? #etc etc. obviously take all of this with a grain of salt i don't have all the life experience in the world just what little i have #also: prepaid phones are a godsend. MRIs. canned food. make sure to have first aid kits if needed. plan ahead. have a stash somewhere safe #rox rumblings #me things

[oozeandgoo-art]

had an odd dream that i was reading a comic book. sketched a couple of the pages i could remember.

#i might adapt this into an actual story because i am SO SO SO mad that it isn't a thing i can go back to reading #oc #im definitely keeping the concept of save-bot i fucking love save-bot he's just doing his best. i love a robot who wants to help people #im not equipped to be writing about underground rebellions with any sense of real tact though #besides its in a superhero universe/story so you know it would just be so sucks lol #sketch #god the colors were so interesting. the teal parts were all very precisely crosshatched and the fire was this gorgeous brush pen looking #colored inks that just seemed like they were MOVING #and i mean some of that was because i was dreaming but god even in my halfhearted copy you can see some of the movement #it was a bad scene but a really really REALLY fun dream. i love when a book can *get* to me so i was really enjoying it #put it aside so i could take a break and woke up. instant fury at the universe for not having it be a real book instead #ill reblog with details if anyone's curious. i can explain this scene but i dont feel like it #the green people are in a secret basement though. hiding from the government. blue jacket guy is a speedster robot named save-bot who does #rescue stuff with every fire department so fire suppression technology is not very good because save-bot "can just save you'' #however they're badly over their legal occupancy and the secret basement has One (1) exit so everyone is like really fucked here. #includinig save-bot who is going to do his job until he dies because he is an ai without any sense of self preservation and he cares #which i didn't even CATCH until i woke up and started tryin to frantically note everything down #and then i was like wait. the glitter on that last page before i realized i needed a glass of water to keep reading... what WAS that... #(it was tears suspended in midair because save-bot goes so fast and also knows he's so fucked LOL) #seriously i'm so mad someone else didn't make this.

[waitineedaname]

reading the novel, i love how blatantly indulgent of the juniors lan wangji is. when he was their age, he was duelling wei wuxian over broken rules and lived his life by behaving as precisely as what was expected of him, and now as an adult, he's basically letting the juniors do whatever they want as long as it isn't unsafe and generally letting the kids act like kids

which leaves wei wuxian to have to be the one playing bad cop. wei "has never followed anyone else's rules in his life" "bane of lan qiren's existence" "public enemy number one" wuxian has to be the one being like "oh my god don't burn money on someone else's doorstep, don't you know that's rude. you kids need to focus on your studies more, why isn't anyone teaching you anything useful, do i have to do everything myself around here"

#mdzs #it's really cute tbh #and not at all what you'd expect from a surface level impression of them #lwj has spent so much of his life being restrained and basically never got to be a kid #so he's so indulgent of these kids so they don't have to grow up miserable like he did #meanwhile wei wuxian was very unrestrained and then suffered because of it #so he's like you kids need to learn how to do things properly or else you are going to be Killed #they make a good teacher duo tbh #I love how much wwx seems to enjoy teaching them #I just love the bit when they're burning money on someone's yard #and wwx is like ''aren't you going to tell them to stop??'' #and lwj is like ''you do it'' #and so wwx is the one to go over and scold them #can you imagine being the lan juniors #you go to the mo estate and meet this guy who is notoriously gay and insane #who messes with your spiritual tools and sics some corpses on each other #and then he's hanging off of your esteemed hanguang-jun #who as far as you know has never had any friends #except this guy apparently #and then suddenly hanguang-jun is parading the notoriously insane guy around with his sacred forehead ribbon around his wrists #and the notoriously insane guy is very seriously scolding you for not knowing more about ghosts and is definitely doing necromancy #while hanguang-jun makes heart eyes at him #what would you even do with that

[engagemythrusters]

“Neurospicy” lends itself to those who are able to be viewed as “quirky” by society. By using it as a replacement for “neurodivergent,” you are alienating a large population of the people who fall under that category.

#we have a HUGE problem currently by making ‘neurodivergent’ synonymous with just ADHD or possibly sometimes also a low-supportive needs— #—autistic person #we LARGELY IGNORE those who cannot speak up for themselves—or even those who do. #how many people will have no recognition of this new movement because their problems don’t look like ours? #how many people will have to remind you all that dyslexia and dyspraxia are neurodivergencies? #‘neurospicy’ does NOT help those with higher support needs #and what about children? as in young kids? what of them being called ‘neurospicy?’ #they are already not taken seriously and belittled by adults who seemingly ‘know better’ #and we want to trade off a helpful label for something tiktok has us say to get around censors? #sorry but you cannot call my little brother ‘neurospicy’ #and you cannot call ME ‘neurospicy’ #I do not struggle every day for my issues to be cutesyfied #this is incredibly belittling. use it for yourself. do not use it for anyone else. do not call us a ‘neurospicy community’. #unless you intent to only include people with ADHD. #or low support needs. #like you usually do. #actually autistic #actually audhd

[snekdood]

"if we make america worse and more of a dictatorship that will be even harder to unravel and make it the way we want the country to be, maybe then everyone will join our Glorious Revolution!" bb girl you cant even be in the same room with someone who thinks you should vote, how in tf do you think you're gonna unite people to fight in The Revolution with you? it's gonna be you and your 5 friends, i hate to break it to you.

#i dont think you realize how repelling you and your politics are to everyone else #you get all of your validation for how Smart You Are from your friends and ignore any kind of feedback that suggests you should #change or do something differently. thats the only reason you're so convinced average people will go along with you bc you keep getting #affirmation from the people who ALREADY agree with you- but you have NO IDEA how to bridge the gap between people who agree #with you and disagree with you. you're horrible at convincing people of your side of things outside of straight up guilt tripping them #or bullying them like a highschooler. im sorry but the tools you learned to survive with as a kid aren't gonna help you in this situation. #the ONLY THING you can come up with to bridge that gap is a bloody revolution. thats how bad you are at this. #and you're also so bad at this and unimaginative that you dont even realize how THAT might not even be enough. #you cant imagine ANY kind of avenue to getting people to change AT ALL outside of blood and fire. and thats why people call you #an authoritarian. #i'll be honest- i really do think the world would be a better place if we did incremental change under a democratic president who wont #set the world on fire vs the godkingemperor republican WHO WONT EVEN LISTEN TO YOU AT ALL EVER AND MIGHT KILL YOU #FOR PUTTING UP A STINK. idk if you noticed but if that evil fuck gets into office we are severely outnumbered if he gets police #n shit to go after his own citizens. letting trump win is making this battle so much harder than it needs to be. #you are choosing trying to fix the world while its exploding vs trying to fix it before it explodes at all. #what is this like a procrastination thing? you wanna wait till the last minute to try? idfgi. wtf is wrong with you #throwing minority lives away to prove a point. and then you try to tell me you care. gtfoh. #accelerationists should never be taken seriously.

[piningprecussionist]

Tumblr fucking Ate this post so I have to retype shit shckfhsjdhf

Anyway I am posting this (ever expanding) friendship portion of the chart because I need everyone to look at my Envy and Mobile friendship line and start ascribing to it. Why? Uhhh it's Extremely Funny and also Envy and Wallace would HATE IT.

(Also, from the discord: Kim has all those arrows around her because she's Toronto's Weed Dealer /hj but possibly not)

#honestly lucas feels like he would wanna be friends w everyone (Except For Todd. enemies or lovers ONLY /j) #but i dont feel like going back and figuring out how to do that rn so dgdjdhsjdjr #AHHH I FORGOT HIS AND STACEY'S FRIENDSHIP LINE THOUGH #i will be adding that one back in. it is a Must. and he needs a one sided line to Julie #also the line between kim and matthew in the original is what sparked that thread the other day #just for a Fun Fact from behind the scenes #ooc #txt #spto #spvtw #sp comic #kim pine #envy adams #scott pilgrim mobile #and im not taggin anyone else for just this chart! #i do want to note though that my note abt the twins and it being Absolutely Not possible is mostly in reference to any sort of reciprocatio #but i think it would be really funny if they did become friends. and then Kim proceeded to NEVER LET GO OF THE CAGE THING EVER #like ''you guys couldnt even bring me a BLANKET? seriously?'' type concepts at random maybe #headcanons #scott pilgrim headcanons #forgot those whoops

[empty-blog-for-lurking]

I am still thinking about tmagp 2, did you know that ep was written specifically for me?

#empty thoughts #the magnus protocol #tmagp #tmagp spoilers #daria tmagp #Daria if you are out there!!! Daria please if you are out there!!!! #But seriously the way an artist's obsession with perfection is combined with body issues #It would have never been enough girl!!! You would have never been satisfied girl!!! #And just the way she was trying so hard to preserve the one thing that she liked about herself #And that one thing was technically what was destroying her #And she didnt even care! She still believed what she was doing was ok and sane!!! #Girl you kept giving yourself plastic surgeries with your art kit!!! You need that therapy!!!!! #The way so many people would destroy their bodies to achieve the unreachable perfection! #Plastic surgeries! Dieting! Hair plucking eitc etc! Like!!! Like!!!!! #The way artists are never satisfied with their masterpiece!!! Only someone elses art!!!!! #Also! Also! Just the way her pain was literally exploited! First Ink5ouls literally streams her tortorous tattoo session #And she is given such a minimal choices!! Even for the artpiece put on her body!! And then OIAR records her therapy session!!!! God!!!!!!! #Love me a good Flesh episode #Insane episode i love it

[kyouka-supremacy]

One of my shin soukoku reunion theories (delusions) is Fukuchi telling Akutagawa to attack Atsushi, and he does. He jumps on him, and Atsushi isn't putting up a fight, and Akutagawa's going to bite his neck, and then...! He stops, fangs just inches away from Atsushi's neck, and asks, "Why didn't you fight back?" And Atsushi smiles and responds, "I trust you."

This scenario lives in my head rent free

HOW TO GIVE ME AN HEART ATTACK VIA ASK A GUIDE BY OP

No seriously, your mind, this is amazing and the best concept ever and the perfect scenario and I'm fully ditching canon in favour of this. The Atsushi growth it expresses I'm on the floor screaming!!!! The oh so needed character development, Atsushi truly starting to trust Akutagawa the same way has Akutagawa trusted him!!! Consolidating Atsushi's act of faith of chapter 87 instead of erasing his development! Atsushi's growth in finally letting go of the prejudices he holds against Akutagawa! Them being the perfect team Dazai always knew they would have become. I'm sobbing. Op I trust you to handle the characters more than author themselves

#MY GOOOOD MY GOD THIS IS SO GOOD???? I'M FOAMING OP YOU'RE THE TRUEST PERSON #KEEP TALKING FOREVER #ryūnosuke akutagawa #atsushi nakajima #sskk #shin soukoku #bsd #bungou stray dogs #people asks me stuff #fave #Asks sent from heaven to save me personally #No but seriously that's what I've been saying‚ we do need a Fukuchi vs. sskk rematch. #To the price of reading redundant‚ but nothing could be as narratively satisfying as it; #besides for Fukuchi to be defeated any other way just wouldn't sound right? #More exactly: Atsushi is the protagonist. #And he's been shoved to the side enough times already‚ but to have him definitely lose against the main villain– #just to later have him defeated by someone else... It would just be very unsatisfactory narrative wise you know? #It would be disrespectful for Atsushi's role of protagonist beyond what is forgivable. #And they've BEEN teasing sskk as the powerful team who's capable to even surpass skk and the main power to win over Dostoyevsky #and the only team who can maintain stability in the world in Beast like. c'mon. C'MON. #The occasional signs we got of vampire Akutagawa restraining from killing give this even more sense– #and now I'll actually be upset if this doesn't happen #Sskk reunion wheeeeen I've been WAITING #Thank you again for sending this am going to think about it for the next week

[designernishiki]

brings me great joy to remember the fact that (aside from serena) the main bar kiryu frequents is a queer bar hosted by drag queens and run by a trans lady. like legit that fact sounds too good to be canon but it literally is

#the main one he frequents by personal choice anyway as opposed to serena (and sometimes shellac) where he’s usually there because someone #else frequents it or needed to meet him somewhere or someone working there is connected to him etc #earth angel initially doesnt really have any predisposed big plot reasons for him to go there let alone recurrently for decades #he just. likes it. and likes ako’s company. and they never really explain anything further than that #honestly it screams repressed gay guy seeking community without knowing it to me. like as in: he’s more comfortable there than most bars and #knows that probably but doesn’t know why or doesn’t try to think too deeply into exactly why #I mean… he says to goromi he feels more comfortable talking to her/him than most women #so I mean. that tracks doesn’t it. #you could argue it’s has to do with him being incessantly hit on by straight women to an uncomfortable degree but I don’t really think #that explains it becuase he’s hit on/flirted with by queer folks as well- ako herself outwardly flirts with him #but of course never to that uncomfortable a degree in my opinion (especially considering he already knows her and whatnot most of the time) #but yeah so I think it’s a little deeper than that. #anyway gshgdshfh rambling. this is just. god I seriously wonder sometimes what the studio is thinking when they do these things #the combination of this + what he says/does with goromi??? ghagghgsggh how do you NOT read him as queer/mlm what the fuck dude #kiryu #yakuza #rambling

[imminent-danger-came]

*me crying* No you don't understand. MK ran away from LBD in 2x05 ("Run along now, destiny will find you soon enough"). He tried to run away from the curse in 4x07. But in 3x10, when everything was on the line, he ran towards Mei. He ran towards her to save her.

#He'd never abandon his friends when they need him #AND THEY ONLY KEEP MAKING THAT MOMENT BETTER #4x11 you sly dog #''No that's you! You're the one always running off!'' like holy shit you care about me #;...ll.;;....searching for more power....or more sources of immortality..... #you're the one who wouldn't quit while we were ahea.ddd.......not the great sage.....he has to drag everyone else into his mess......k;.;.. #seriously people talk to me about lmk anytime. I'm losing my mind #lmk #lego monkie kid #lmk rant #imp tag #me when MK would (and does) run away from most things but not when his friends are on the line #I'm sorry. Thinking too hard about the ''What no fair! You can't run away when I'm right about to win!'' line too hard again #This show is so mean to me specifically. #Like he complains when the DBK family does it but he then proceeds to do it over and over again (ROTSQ. 2x10. all of s3. s4) #Hypocrisy? In my lego show? It's more likely than you think.

[sskk-manifesto]

Atsushi's back in the game!!! ۶( ˆ o ˆ )

#And Kouyou!!!! #Also. I can say Steinbeck is kinda 👀👀👀 #King of the specific category of “I forget I like him until he's on screen” #I'm seriously unlocking memories with this rewatch. Like I haven't thought about it in two years– #but I just know when I was watching the anime for the first time I was being like #“Of COURSE the villains need to spend several minutes each episode explaining in detail how their own superpowers work so that the– #protagonists can get a perfect idea of how to best counter them. Why are villains made so freaking stupid in this show” aljhvwslchvqliyqwb #But. Eh. I guess that's just bsd to you. #Alsoooooo random thought of the day: I don't really favour how Tanizaki's ability was adapted in the anime. #I very well understand they were going for this green Matrix-like illusion effect‚ but every time someone says “... Snow?” #I'm like please explain where do you live that has snow glowing green. #Aamsjgvfaskjhfv sorry this is me being very. Cranky and nitpicky and having terrible audience etiquette in refusing to– #engage in suspension of disbelief. It just bugs me akvakcvqkyb I just feel like... Green is such a non-snow color– #that quite of completely disrupts the Light Snow / Sasame Yuki aesthetic. I would have liked it much better light blue or simply white. #What else. The way the Guild just goes on at stereotypes still troubles me a lot. The “usamericans can't be touched by laws– #because they use money to corrupt anyone” “foreign criminal organization come in our country to corrupt our pure and untouched soil” #Idk. Maybe all of it is true. Can it still be deemed a stereotype when it's objectively something that's happened before– #and will probably keep happening? #I suppose I'm just not a fan of the constant hostility against any foreigner. Idk. #This situation besides is extremely ironical. If you meet me irl it probably won't take long to see me being very outspoken about– #how much I despise usa cultural colonization of all other countries. It's something that really bothers me‚ how rooted and pervasive– #their influence is. So in a lot of ways I can relate to the author's sentiment #I just feel that. If you start treating them as stereotypes and ignore the complexity of a country and the wide spectrum of causes– #that contribute to its attitude in international relations. You end up practicing precisely what you're trying to criticize. #Okay this is the last time I'm getting into the politics of the Guild arc lol #random rambles #This time I took watching the episode slow I feel a little late

[stop-breaking-my-heart-dragonage]

Me, when Sebastian joins my party for the first time: Okay, this time I'm not going to forget about you, Sebastian. I'm going to make an effort to use you a lot this playthrough so I can better understand you.

Also me, immediately forgetting about Sebastian while finishing Act 2 and making it halfway through Act 3 before I finally notice his Faith quest: ......................Oh. Right. My bad.

#da2 #dragon age 2 #sebastian vael #listen in my defense..........i don't like bringing sebastian anywhere sksksks #okay look i seriously tried but every time i bring him somewhere i always think man i wish i had brought someone else #and also i do just forget about him! i finally added him to my party at one point and he had 24 points to spend... #that's how long i neglected him after i promised myself i was gonna use him more and then i didn't #it's not that i don't like sebastian as a character though i do tend to side eye him A LOT... it's just that i like everyone else more #even aveline like i'd take aveline over sebastian any day and that's saying something... or is it? i have a lot of feelings about aveline #whereas my feelings about sebastian could maybe fill a thimble...it doesn't help that in my canon run as a mage hawke #i romance anders and well... sebastian wants me to kill anders and my hawke is like 'do i approve of blowing up the chantry? complicated.' #'am i breaking up with anders for this? absolutely. do i still love him? mmhmmm. am i going to kill him sebby? i'd sooner set varric aflame #then sebastian threatens to bring an army to kirkwall and leaves so i can't say i have the greatest opinion on him #even the time where i did kill anders and he stayed in my party he was just... there #and then he glitched out and started t posing while asking if ed ever found out what anders wanted to do in the chantry so..... yeah #but even this playthrough where i'm playing as a lady warrior with a different personality and everything... i'd just rather use anyone els #also keep him away from bethany i do not approve sksksks she's too good for him #i want to understand and see the different angles of him like with the other companions but i've yet to convince myself to do it #also sebastian romancers out there can you like... explain? genuinely can you explain the appeal? i'm curious #because of all the love interests in da2 i look at sebastian and you'd think i'd maybe be more interested? but it's like... #i know about the chaste marriage and everything like that's fine i don't need sex to be a thing in the relationship but it feels less like #an asexual romance and more like... y'know... being with a priest and i guess that's just not one of my kinks? sksksks #i guess there's also the prince angle but i romanced alistair in dao and kept him a grey warden i don't really care about royalty power #and i don't have issues with him being a part of the chantry [well i do but yknow what i mean] since i romanced cullen in dai #and his whole deal with the chantry and magic and shit makes his romance interesting to me but sebastian is just.... a bit too much i think #i don't know i'd like to understand because i really don't but i also keep forgetting about him

[hajihiko]

listen idk how to tell you this, and please do not take the tone of this ask to be aggressive, but you have got to start questioning yourself a little more. why are all your least favorite characters the most visibly mentally ill? why are you comfortable saying a character will need several years of therapy before they are able to have friendships? i know youre going to reply to this saying like, oh, i hc other characters as mentally ill, or oh, i'm mentally ill myself - i can't possibly be ableist! and then all your followers will be like yeah ur fine we love you, but im begging you. its okay to dislike characters, but its such an obvious pattern that the ones who have visible, uncomfortable mental health problems that make them unpleasant are, mysteriously, the ones you have the least sympathy for. i do not care whether you consider yourself ableist, whether you headcanon more pleasant characters as mentally ill, whether youre mentally ill yourself - you are posting ableist things. someone doesnt need to be cured or fixed before they should be allowed to have meaningful relationships

Okay, I've read this message over a few times and have it under consideration (? I think that's the phrase).

I do think you got some information wrong, I could be mistaken but after looking through my own posts I think you might've misread something. What I *have* said (before I watched the OVA) is that I dont think Hajime and Nagito should specifically date *each other* until they get therapy / work through their problems (although I do think that, thematically, they make sense as eventual love interests). Again, hadn't watched the OVA, so I was basing it on their interactions in game only, the OVA sort of changes directions from how the game left off.

Never said anything about anyone not having meaningful relationships until they get therapy, and have actually said that a good social net (meaningful relationships, friendly or romantic) are integral to healing from traumatic events. Not saying I haven't given off a bad impression maybe or implied something, if so do tell me because it was probably not intentional and might've slipped by me, but I'm speaking from a factual search of my blog. Not something I have ever said, as far as I can see, and not something I believe anyhow.

I actually mention pretty frequently that I think Nagito (I assume this is mostly about him) is an interesting character that I like, but find complex. My least favourite characters are Hiyoko, Mahiru and Teru (sorry fans of those! I dont mean anything by it it's literally just the vibes) that's why I don't really draw them. The OVA endeared Nagito to me, which is why I've been drawing him on a friendship journey lately, so if you're assuming I don't like him that's more incorrect now than ever.

By all means if you wanna talk about this more openly in chat, I'm down (though my timezone tends to clash). I feel you've put some words in my mouth.

#I'm not saying I *havent* said something shitty somewhere but I searched my whole blog and I couldnt find typed examples of what you said #So if I did I'd need a directory for it. #Idk what else to say rly this is kind of vague and despite the disclaimer kind of aggressive #But I'm not dismissing it and am considering it. For what that's worth #I feel like considering just isnt the right word uh. Taking it seriously I guess? #Not an art #Readmore for clogging. Oh shoot should I tag this #Lmk if it needs a tag #Also this is personal grievance not a factual one so I'm not pissed about it but I DO need to express it: #Stop putting words in my mouth. 'I know what you're gonna say' you do not in fact know me that well ok

[literaila]

hii, if you don’t mind, could you share what you’re working on next for “a typical family”?? i love the series so much and i think your depiction of satoru, megumi, and tsumiki are just brilliant! cant wait to see what you write next ❤️

yeah so… uhhh…. i mean. they have to confess right? so that’s on the docket. and i’m imagining a bunch of little one shots (i have a list of ideas somewhere) about them. but, i mean, it all just comes as it does you know?

i’m terrible at planning. i do have a request or two about them that i need to write. i also have ideas for other characters so

lots to come (i think???)

#can you tell i have no idea what im doing #seriously i just come up with something random in the shower or at work #and then fit it into the story #but i do need reader and satoru to have their moment and admit some things #so that’ll happen #i’m wary about writing going forward for them (because we ALL know what happens and i’m afraid) #god i’m so terrible #like just never ever compare me to anyone else because i am doing the LEAST always

[16-jarrah]

i get why people would opt to say walter was a terrible person since the beginning, but i think that's like, the most boring takeaway you can get about his character. he was already insecure and prideful from the start, and it's what would hurt him and keep hurting him. but like, being insecure and prideful are regular traits any regular person can have. the actions that he makes because of these traits, which in turn keep fueling his ego more and more, are what makes him an interesting character. and he was already pretty capable of hurting other people, but he wasn't doing it out of malice, but more because of careless selfishness at first. what makes walter terrifying is that the more he does it, the more he becomes aware of what he's doing, and the more he keeps going and keeps being more and more meticulous and deliberate about what he does that hurts people and even to the point when it was specifically to hurt people.

i think the traits were there in walter from the beginning—the pilot did a pretty good job of establishing how powerless he's felt all his life and just how susceptible he is to letting this newfound perceived power get to his head so easily. he even says this explicitly in 5x06 "Buyout" when he tells jesse "i'm not in the money business, i'm in the empire business". but saying he was this monster from the start kind of implies he didn't undergo through a character arc throughout the show when it's quite literally what he did. he got worse. so much worse. through mostly the fault of his own fragility.

#idk if i put it into words right but i'm just musing #was walter a good person when brba started? up in the air. but his family genuinely adored him. despite feeling like a loser teacher #some of his coworkers actually really liked and respected him. he was just as much of a regular person as anyone else was tbh #you know it's interesting that he and gale basically have the same motivations. why jump to meth of all things. why go from 0 to 100 when #it sounds COMPLETELY ridiculous. but they were both very passionate about chemistry who felt like their potentials were wasted and felt #like they were finally putting their skills to good use again. getting to flex their muscles and shit. whenever they cook better purer meth #than most other people. i think it's a really genius idea to have this premise for the show lol #cz as much as walter is motivated by him feeling like he desperately has to take control of his own life he also is a scientist at heart #who desperately needs to apply his knowledge and skills somewhere where it would feel gratifying #seriously dude you could've tried to get a paper published or two or something. djhdidhd #but the academe has its own Politics and whatnot. so one could only speculate why walt didn't get to pursue that any more #(aside from the whole grey matter industries thing) #anyway uhhh i hope i get the post across lol not to sound cheesy cliche but brba is a corruption slash character deterioration arc #quite literally the whole point is that he Didn't Start Off Like This And He Gets Worse #again. he already had some of his bad tendencies and traits but it's like. we all do that's not necessarily inherently make or break #it's what he DOES and KEEPS DOING. CONSCIOUSLY that turns him into the horrifying man he is by the end of it all #so i just think if your biggest takeaway is Walter Was Always A Monster then you're just missing the whole damn point #op #brbaposting

[strwbrymlkshake]

It's difficult dealing with so many people who think we aren't meant to be with eachother. I don't get why someone else's relationship can mean so much to bystanders. Can't you find something else to do?

#mine #yandere #yancore #irl yandere #yanderecore #yandere vent #yanposting #i just. self confidence can only get you so far. surrounded by people who are saying awful things wears me down so much #i hate them so much and i wish they never existed. its making me stronger supposedly but the only thing i feel like its actually doing is #making me violent and miserable and angry and nauseous. please stop saying those things about him #i try to block it out but its literally everywhere. this is all i have. this is ALL I HAVE. BUT IT DOESNT MATTER HUH #and it feels like theyre all against me. and the only thing i can do is cry and hate them more and more #and the only thing i can do is love him the most. but only by myself. because no one can comprehend the lengths i would go #and no one takes it seriously and appreciates that its the only thing keeping me sane and the only reason why im here rn #but then again. they dont matter do they? #i just need to permanently kill that part of me that cares what they think. because nothing else and no one else matters!! ok??