#yes I skipped a lot of episodes because I was busy graduating and trying to organize everything

[asmodeusmorelikeassmodeus]

Shadowhunters 3x17 Commentary

I love the beginning of this episode it’s so chill and domestic even with everything going on, the song fits the mood perfectly

Alec, you’re pretty bad at lying

So…the Institute has a head chef who’s capable of better food than pancakes?

I’m sorry but the ring is so UGLY but that also fits perfectly because it’s the Lightwoods and it was family tradition to be boring until Alec and Izzy were born

I probably shouldn’t giggle at Jonathan in that muffler thingy

@ the writers: could you please stop throwing epic but heartless clace lines at us without ever giving us any kind of development of their relationship?? Like…are they even dating at the moment??? Because you’ve never given us anything that looks like a relationship except cliché lines that all account to ‘we were meant to be’

I don’t know if it’s on purpose but since they threw the incest stuff at us I see everything Jonathan says to Clary as flirty and se*xed-up and that makes me highly uncomfortable

Jonathan falls for the oldest trick in the world. But then again, he probably didn’t get to watch that many movies in Edom

Oh yay flashbacks

I actually really like this Edom set but I kind of think that Asmodeus would fit the décor better lol

Okay so…how exactly did it happen that Jonathan was so burned he looked like demonic burned lasagna man??? Because that’s only like…half of his face. Or was he burned when he came to earth?

Exposition Lilith

Izzy doesn’t have a second

I don’t know why but that whole “I’d do anything for Clary” thing Simon has going on is getting pretty old

Alec is A BIG MOOD

This still is not a plan. It’s the beginning of the plan, it’s around 30% of a plan. But they still go through with it and funnily so it kind of works out in the end.

Clave prisons are…charming.

HI HELEN!!!

Oh yay, muffled screams coming from a menacing door this is great

Exposition guard man

Still would have enjoyed Raphael’s character a lot more without the addiction plot with Izzy that the writers and showrunners just can’t let go of

I thought these were telepathy rings?!?! Why are they suddenly talking out loud??! Especially Izzy??? Wtf???

This is such a stupid way of hinting at Aline’s, Alec’s and Izzy’s friendship, that comparison doesn’t work

Now THAT’s how you do a good parabatai scene.

“THIS IS NOT JUST A PHASE, MOM!!!”

And again…exposition Lilith!! Ya know, if you’re only going to use her to tell the viewers random information they need without it making any sense you can just as well not have her on the show

I knew we didn’t see the last of this Aldertree asshole

I really enjoy Helen in this

I want to puke as soon as I see his face and now Izzy has to be nice to him to keep him distracted. Ew.

How exactly was she able to save these sketchbooks after her whole flat burned down in season 1? And in such good condition, no less.

Okay now I’m really confused. So. How much older than Clary is Jonathan?? Because he was grown in the flashbacks and she’s talking about a dream she had of him when she was younger. And okay, maybe his demon blood keeps him from aging further but I also don’t think that there was such a big gap between Jocelyn’s first and second child??

And now Simon will proceed to freely walk around the whole Gard and make a lot of noise and have nobody come to get him because suddenly all the guards are gone and there are also no surveillance cameras or anything

This little thing with Magnus and the grey hair is so unbelievably cliché

“Don’t let him out of your sight” WELL….

Of COURSE Iris is there

Am I the only one who thinks that this whole “taking away their demon blood and their powers” thing the Clave does to downworlders is…really lazy writing? Because exactly the same has happened to Magnus already…twice I might add. Like. Couldn’t you have thought of some different kind of torture or whatever?? Or given Magnus a different plot?? I feel like all we’ve been dealing with concerning the Downworld is downworlders losing their powers in some kind of way. It gets boring after a while. And also kind of plays down the repercussions of Magnus losing his magic because he’s not the only one it happened to?

Victor Aldertree is both the worst and best villain this show ever made

I REALLY love Helen

Bye Iris I guess

This whole plot is so anticlimactic. Like. They solved the whole thing in one episode. Everything went way too smoothly. That’s what happens when you focus the time of the episodes on things that don’t bring the plot forward and then realize you have to solve everything in one episode. This is a mess. The Clave plot was there for a few episodes but all that ever happened were 20 seconds of talking about the new thing Izzy found out and that’s it.

YES KNOCK HIM OUT HE DESERVES IT LOCK HIM UP

*giggles obnoxiously about the Heline scene*

But…especially in the case of vampires, if they wanted to be a vampire again they could just be turned again, right? For them it’s pretty easy to get their demon blood back if they wanted to

Jace’s little grin when Alec excuses himself is like “YEAH MAN YOU GO MAN :DDD”

Sizzy is cute but pretty far from ‘We’re totally in love’ so…how they’re gonna do that is still a mystery to me.

How does Luke Baines always manage to make me feel sorry for Jonathan, he’s honestly just a little boy who was thrown around, left alone, and tortured all his life. Of course he’d latch onto the little hope for love he has with Clary.

Oh boy…Magnus is late…that can’t mean something good.

Oh Magnus…

Magnus Bane shading every Shadowhunters writer who ever was

Okay that absolutely broke my heart but in my opinion, this was way more important than a proposal would have ever been in the current situation. They needed to have this talk and Magnus needed to open up and see that Alec would still be there for him. And Alec made him stay and held him and that’s a way more important bond than a ring on the finger could have ever been. Magnus needed this and Alec needed this and their relationship needed this and even if it hurt like HELL, this scene is one of the biggest proves of their love there ever was.

#malec #magnus bane #alec lightwood #shadowhunters commentary #shadowhunters tv #season 3B #3x17 #this is my second try of posting this to make it appear in the tags #sighhhhhh #yes I skipped a lot of episodes because I was busy graduating and trying to organize everything #but I'll try to do these for all upcoming episodes #sizzy

[literatikoo]

Jess Mariano's alleged communication problems

If there is one thing the Gilmore Girls fandom agrees upon, whether you're team Jess or Dean or Logan, it's that Jess isn't great at communicating. There's just a consensus that he's not great at discussing his problems and that's the number 1 reason why his and Rory's relationship blew up in their face in season 3. But... this is a (somewhat) unfounded complaint? Don't get me wrong, I know Jess can be harsh and rude and really knows how to hit the nail on the head sometimes but there are also multiple instances where he talks after being pushed a little. Like every single time he's talked to Luke about Rory problems ("The girls I like don't give a damn about me," "I told her I loved her" and the infamous swan episode) or when he tells Rory, a girl he barely knows, that his mom doesn't want him back for Christmas.

The problem with Jess is that he picks and chooses who to communicate too. He definitely doesn't talk about Liz to Luke because he knows that Luke just doesn't believe that Liz is a bad person and a neglectful mother. And seriously, we've seen Luke enable Liz' terrible behaviour multiple times on the show, do you really think he would've believed whatever Jess had to say about her? He talks to Rory about Liz that one time and she doesn't believe him either and both we and Jess know that she has a right to that because she's never met Liz, but this is still enough for Jess to never bring her up again (at least from what we see) because he's a 17 year old kid with a terrible relationship with his parents. NO 17 year old kid who's been treated bad by their parents would want to open up about it because it's pretty strongly ingrained in us that having negative emotions against your parents is WRONG. On the other hand, Jess knows that Luke sees his and Rory's relationship and may even help because he has his own unique relationship with the Gilmore Girls, which is why he's much more open about Rory and even seeks advice on occasion.

Now, let's talk about Jess' less than stellar communication moments:

1. Lying about school and Walmart: Jess skives off school a LOT to work at Walmart and save up money. He doesn't tell anyone about it. Why? Because for everyone else in Stars Hollow, and for most of us too, school is important and education is a positive thing needed for growth. But who knows how often Jess went to school before SH, we already know he has a bad relationship with the educational system but why? When he goes back to NY in s2 it's obvious he's not going to school and we know Liz moved around a lot so he may be a lot more behind in school than we know. Yes, he's smart and he reads a lot but that's not enough to do well in school; you need to be able to conform a fair amount and I don't think Jess even went enough to know that. Jess already wasn't planning on going to college and he knows that living with Luke is temporary, which is why he puts more importance into saving up money. He was already working for the future, just in a different way from everyone else. It's obvious that he also wasn't planning to flunk out of school, it happened because he wasn't attending enough not because he was failing (which pisses me off so much don't even get me started). He was going to graduate and then he was going to use the money he saved up while looking for a job that suited him. And that's a pretty solid plan honestly, especially since he didn't have the luxury to suddenly decide to go to 4 year college because his girlfriend told him too like Dean. But this is something else he just couldn't talk about to Luke or Rory, who both think he's capable of great things within the academic sphere. Mind you, once Luke found out he was skipping school he didn't deal with things in the best way either. He stole his car, effectively cutting off Jess' last bit of independence. I really feel like Jess was just waiting to graduate before he had THE talk with Rory about their future, and it was obvious he was thinking longterm ("22.8 miles"). That is before everything goes to shit.

2. Keg! Max!: Let me preface this by saying that Jess definitely made irreversible mistakes in this episode... but it wasn't for the lack of trying. This is the episode that he finds out he's not graduating and we can see him struggling with this information, he's tense and angry and his emotions are simmering. His interactions with Rory, which are usually so easygoing, are surrounded by this air of finality. At this moment, he knows he's going to lose her and his home with Luke because that's what the deal was. But he still goes with her to that party and he still does the bare minimum of mingling. Throughout the party he tells Rory that he wants to leave, I'm guessing to talk to her about what happened. But they don't (this is NOT Rory's fault btw, she had no way to know what happened either) and instead Jess' emotions get the better of him. This is the first of the two instances where we really see how non communicative Jess can be. However I still maintain that if Dean hadn't gotten involved, Jess and Rory would've been able to talk. (fuck Dean)

3. Jess leaves: This is the second case where we see him being truly non communicative, and unfortunately I don't have much to say in his defence. Except that he probably was still reeling from losing his home and meeting his Dad and just didn't know how to put that insane amount of emotion into words. He also probably thought that Rory just didn't want to talk to him anymore because of how terribly he treated her, especially since he was just going to give her more bad news. He could see himself self destructing, and didn't want Rory to be collateral damage.

4. Smaller instances (Swan song, Not calling Rory, fighting with Lorelai): Okay, I think the swan incident was Rory's fault, because he was telling her the truth and just didn't want to get into it in front of Emily. But she wasn't ready to hear it until she talked to Dean, which honestly was a sucky move on her part. The not calling her when he said he would while they were dating in that one random episode was also a similar misunderstanding. The thing in common with both of these instances was that he was ready to learn afterwards; he said he was willing to go back to Emily's house and he bought them tickets to the Distillers and from what the show tells us they had a lot more consistent date nights after that. This was Jess' first proper relationship and he was really trying. Now the Lorelai thing... he just didn't want her in his business. They had no relation to each other and she was very condescending to him the first time they met, he wasn't great either but when an adult talks to you the way she did after you've just been uprooted at your mothers whims, you tend to hate them a little. And honestly I always thought that Jess being weirded out by Lorelai's involvement in his and Rory's relationship was more normal 17 year old behaviour than Dean being overly friendly with her.

So, in conclusion, because he made two big fatal communication mistakes, he's labelled as the broody non talking type. When we see most of the characters actually do the same (Rory drops out of Yale and cuts off ties with her mother, Lorelai sleeps with Christopher after months of miscommunication with Luke, Luke doesn't tell Lorelai, his fiance, that he has a daughter), seriously, they've all made mistakes and this doesn't diminish the mistakes that Jess has made and the hurt he has caused, but he also doesn't deserve to have non communicative as a personality trait. If it was seriously that big of a problem, he wouldn't have been able to grow from it that quickly (by the end of s4) and by reading self help books of all things. I also think it comes off like that because he was in the show for so little time, and that's what the writers chose to focus on.

So tldr, Jess isn't as non communicative as the show wants us to believe and he definitely isn't broody.

#gilmore girls #gilmore girls meta #jess mariano #rory gilmore #luke danes #liz danes #lorelai gilmore #literati #character meta #jess mariano meta #anti dean forrester #not really but my entire blog is anti dean forrester so

[alywrites]

I don’t care that Ju Gyeong ended with Suho. I think it makes perfect sense. She never once led Seojun on, and she was pretty respectful of his feelings when he confessed and tried to give dating him a chance. I actually do love them as friends. What I hate is that Seojun’s entire arc revolved around his love for Ju Gyeong and he didn’t really get a happy ending in the end, because we didn’t get to really see him getting over her. Also I hated that we had a pointless time skip just for some manufactured feels from JK and Suho breaking up. It was so stupid and I didn’t cry once for them because it was so obviously not going to mean anything. He came back, they got back together. Nothing really happened. I cried for Seojun’s heartbreak and when we saw Soojin again and she apologized. I cried a lot for JG when Soojin exposed her and when she rejected their friendship. But the stupid drama of Suho “leaving her” was only annoying.

What I would have liked to see instead:

- Seojun confessing in episode 14, before Suho’s dad gets sick. She rejects him, she’s apologetic, but we can spend 2 episodes watching Seojun moving on from her, maybe falling for someone else? But overall those two episodes would be about HIS growth, not his one sided love for a girl who has never shown any feelings for him besides friendship.

- a real redemption arc from Soojin. She was the “villain,” and I would’ve liked to see her go from being at her lowest to realizing what she did wrong. Still getting away from her father. Maybe we could see scenes of her in Haiti or have her helping somewhere in Korea. Maybe after she gets better a hint of her and Seojun being a thing? Regardless I wanted to see more of her, going back to being the effortlessly cool girl we were introduced to. Her friendship with JG was also so special, and I think it deserved more.

- I do like that we get to see Seojun debut, and the meaningful connection to his past. The whole season should’ve explored his connection to music so much more than they did with Suho. I didn’t see the point of Suho being Leo, and I think the debut scene would’ve been just as meaningful to Suho watching one of his best friends performing the song that his other best friend helped make. Seojun and the desire to debut could be in episode 15 and 16, and we can see it helping him move on from JG, and also making it so his story is more than just his feelings for the JG.

- Suho’s dad can still get sick, and Suho can still leave, but make it less time. I would’ve liked to see JG and him try and make the long distance relationship thing work and actually talk about it in episode 15. And Suho actually contacting Seojun and talking to him, not just disappearing from everyone’s lives for 2 years. Maybe come back after a year, in episode 16. The kids have graduated and are starting their lives after high school. No manufactured drama, but some stress on their relationship from the distance. JG has started working for Selena (I loved watching that in these episodes), Seojun is getting ready for debut, Soojin has had her redemption arc, still. JG and him can continue to be cute the way they were in episode 16.

- update on his dad? He came back to Seoul bc his dad was better but was supposed to return?? What happened to his dad? His dads Health??

- Seojun actually attending the wedding and having fun and enjoying himself with HIS FRIENDS. If he does have a romantic connection with Soojin, that would’ve been the perfect time to show it. Or it could’ve been where they meet again, no longer on opposing sides, maybe talk about how they got over JG and SH, and there could be a hint that there might be something more between them? (Seojun and Soojin are arguably the best characters in the show, and they both deserved so much better than what they got in the end. They don’t have to be romantically involved, but I would’ve liked for them to at least become friends.) But honestly it really hurt that he wasn’t in the wedding when HE WAS IN THE FRIEND GROUP. Seojun was busy with his debut yes, but the SJ we saw would have done whatever it took to be there with his friends (and honestly with JG) in this moment. Esp since JG’s sister is part of his management and then it was also his teacher getting married.

#true beauty #why did they do the best characters so dirty #esp Seojun #he deserved so much better than what he got #like at least he got to do his dream but it would have been more meaningful if the show showed us that it was his dream #bc his dream basically all these episodes was his love for JG #it was so awkward

[galaxina-the-pyro]

How would you improve the episode AYA?

...wait...you’re asking me?

I...I didn’t expect this...

The thing is is that I don’t think I could possibly come up with ideas for this better than, say, @authenticcadence18 or @springsfordays because their ideas are just too good (seriously, check them out, they have the literal best ideas for a rewrite of AYA, holy crap).

But if I were to rewrite it...hm...let’s make a checklist for stuff about AYA that just miffed me:

1. Plot B is fine. Plot B was probably the best part of AYA - Doof’s dilemma made sense for his character (and is hilarious), tied in with the name of the episode, and involved fun little shenanigans. My only gripe is that they didn’t go MONDO insane with it at the end, and said ending felt really abrupt.

(I also wish that, somehow, even Doof was involved with that “everyone knew” bit, but we’re gonna be scrapping that joke for this story - that joke is FUNNY, but it’s also degrading to Phineas, and is sorta a nice way of saying “yeah, you’re stupid for not noticing her feelings even though she’s not entitled to them - you’re the problem. It’s not like the episode is trying to hint at you two having switched roles, no, you’re the only one who was being oblivious and stupid.”)

2. We cut out Plot C entirely. Everyone trying to get Phineas and Isabella together was just...ugh. Why? And they had the audacity to compare what they were doing to all the AMAZING things they did when they were younger, like, guys - you set up some tables, decorations, and cooked them what I can assume to be a run-of-the-mill restaurant dinner - that has NOTHING on a rollercoaster through downtown. And their applause at that sweet but ultimately lackluster confession? Hurt. So much. Now that I think about it, it felt condescending, it unintentionally emphasized HOW uninspired this confession (as much as I love it) was, and it felt like they were taking credit for something they didn’t do.

And if we’re NOT gonna cut out Plot C...have Plot C be about FERB? Leaving for COLLEGE? Out of COUNTRY? Cuz I have a hard time believing that Phineas and Ferb are just OKAY with separating at such a long distance - heck, in “Candace Gets Busted”, FERB is the one who assumes that one day he and his brother are gonna own their own place together. It should at least be BROUGHT UP, don’t you think? (I’m conflicted on whether or not I’d keep Montessa in the ring or at least SHOW US how Ferbnessa happened, because I think what’s weirding people out is that they’re assuming that Vanessa literally waited for Ferb to turn 18 to start dating him - when I think it’s more likely that they kinda JUST started dating during the beginning of Summer? But I think stuff like that really SHOULD be explained because even though I don’t think it’s that weird, I understand why OTHER PEOPLE wouldn’t like the idea)

3. I kinda feel like this should have had more songs? I dunno why, I feel like this all could have been improved if we got a fullblown musical out of this (and...this may be me wanting a “What Might Have Been” reprise, lol) - like, make fun of HSM or something, you can’t tell me you wouldn’t have.

4. I kinda wanted to see more of the “where are they now”. Like, Jeremy, Stacey, Little Suzie Johnson, even that one couple with the lady who’s always like “what did you think, an anniversary dinner was just going to fall from the sky?” - I like stuff like that, it’s so much fun to think about. Also...I legit have so much anxiety over Perry never interacting with him owners ONCE in that episode, and even more anxiety over Pinky never making an appearance at all. Heck, if there was a good time to show us what the HECK happened to Django, now would be a great time.

5. I would have given the episode a unique intro, ala “Night of the Living Pharmacists” and “Last Day of Summer” - like, AYA is as much of a status quo shifter as those two episodes, why was it given the “Phineas and Ferb Get Busted” treatment?

6. Here’s a brilliant thought - NO ONE tells Phineas about Isabella’s crush? How about instead Phineas goes and wants to check in on her, because he really misses her and doesn’t understand why they don’t talk anymore (and he’s tried before, and they’ve nearly had conversations, but Isabella’s just too busy) - did he do something wrong? Is Isabella just too busy now? He needs to know. That should have been his priority, none of this “FrIeNd ZoNe” nonsense.

7. I would have made this into a near movie-length special. With all the topics that this episode brought up, particularly the whole “manipulating the situation” thing, I feel like a longer episode would have given them more time to talk about how stuff like that is...not okay.

[READ THE ACTUAL REWRITE OF THE EPISODE (well, my take at least) UNDER THE CUT!]

Okay, with those out of the way, how I would have written Phinabella the Movie...I mean...Act Your Age (I warn you, it’s not gonna be as good as @authenticcadence18′s or @springsfordays‘s ideas, so if you want quality stuff and not just mushy fanfiction fodder I’d check their stuff out):

I would have sorta made this entire thing take place during the “What Might Have Been” song - what that means is that it’s a collage of memories. How Isabella and Phineas met, how Isabella first got her “crush” (if you can really call it that, girl was full out in love lol), them building stuff with the gang during their canon ages, them going into highschool, Isabella ultimately choosing to give up her crush to maintain her friendship with Phineas (because her choosing to not be as close to Phineas because of a crush isn’t an option), Isabella’s first boyfriend (which probably’s gonna hurt a lot of fans, cuz I envision that to NOT be Phineas; but it’s Phinabella endgame, so relax); the episode just centers on the gang (mainly Isabella since it’s from her perspective) growing up.

Like, yes, all of the memories are gonna be Phinabella centered, but we gotta have SOME side-stories and junk, like maybe how Baljeet gets together with Ginger (and...how they break up...please don’t kill me), what ultimately leads Ferb to want to go back to England for studies (maybe it’s him wanting to be his own person and not wanting people to think he and his brother are just “a pair”), Buford...uh...something with Buford definitely, because I love him and he deserves it. Heck, maybe even the Fireside Girls can have their own arc with a graduation ceremony for their ranks (...what? I’m not linking stuff to the best fanfic ever, noooooo...why would-why would I do that?).

And maybe in this case Plot B SHOULD be different - maybe it should focus on how Doofenshmirtz first got to America, how he first met Charlene, what exactly led him to being evil in the first place, all that good stuff. Though, ultimately, that might be a little angsty - maybe there’s a reason why we don’t see exactly HOW Doof and Charlene divorced, because that could very well be the saddest scene ever, and it’s hard to put that kinda comedic spin on something so tragic (I mean, obviously there are comedies CENTERED on divorce, but like...they always SKIP the divorce part from what I’ve seen). Not to mention that this is a kid’s show, so...I doubt they’d actually show HOW it happened. This is just my thoughts. X’D

Back to the Phinabella.

Phineas and Isabella would have their confession during THIS part of the special rather than the very end (so, like...they’re still in highschool, and Isabella’s already broken up with that other dude in the story, and maybe Phineas had a girlfriend he just wasn’t happy with) - Phineas tries to do something big for Isabella, but it ultimately falls through because of Perry’s current nemesis (we never see who that is, lol), so he settles for something simple (at first he’s scared about it not “being enough” for someone like Isabella, but Ferb’s able to slap that nonsense out of him pretty quickly). He and Isabella spend the ENTIRE DAY together alone, leading to Phineas eventually singing a song he wrote for her to her, and the two have a cute little duet as a result (that has the opposite energy of “What Might Have Been”, so it’s important that somewhere in this episode that “What Might Have Been” is still a thing, it just doesn’t involve Phineas being aware of Isabella’s feelings, and it doesn’t involve Isabella trying to leave somewhere without saying goodbye, this would be more about Isabella, after trying to get over her crush, realizing that she still LIKES Phineas that way). They almost kiss, but they’re ultimately interrupted by Buford being Buford or something, but it implies that Phineas and Isabella are now a couple onwards from here.

Eventually it leads to a small party in the middle of Summer with the gang, with them playing some games and talking about how by the end of Summer, they won’t be seeing each other as much anymore because of college and stuff. They all remanence about the simple times - with Isabella eventually leaving (saying it’s because she needs to check on something, but really it’s because she’s sad that things are ending so quickly and she’s gonna miss everyone especially Phineas), and Phineas going after her to see if she’s alright (he’s oblivious, but he’s always been able to tell if she’s sad for the most part, save for maybe a few instances - but he’s older now, so he’s probably better at telling).

The two go for a stroll outside, and discuss the changes and stuff, how he and Isabella are ultimately going to have to work on a long-distance relationship and how Phineas is going to miss Ferb when he leaves the country, and how he’s gonna miss Isabella. And then they both realize that everything is gonna be okay, because they’ve literally dealt with worse situations and came out stronger for it - Isabella nor Phineas have any doubts in their minds that their relationship with each other or anyone else is going to sever just because of long distance.

Time moves onward, and there are a lot of changes (mainly talking about couples and other stuff - if it were me, there’d be endgame Buford/Gretchen and Ferb/Ginger of all people, and of course Candace and Jeremy would be married by this time). Phineas and Isabella are about to go into their last year of college, and decide to spend one more day together before they, once again, go their separate ways. The gang surprises Isabella by having made an ACTUALLY GOOD AND CREATIVE BACKYARD DINNER for the two per Phineas’ planning (the idea wasn’t bad, the execution was just lame imo), and long story short, Phineas proposes to Isabella. She obviously accepts, and everyone cheers for them as Isabella inner monologues about how change can be scary but it’s okay some mushy stuff about loved ones being there for you when you need them or something.

And finally, we cut to many years later, with Isabella as an adult now, looking out at the backyard of her current home, drinking some tea - this whole movie/special has taken place in this Isabella’s memories (if that makes sense), as she thinks on how she got there. The story ends with a child (we don’t know if it’s a boy or a girl) calling to her and calling her “mom”, and Isabella leaving to check on her kid.

And...that’s how I would have written “Act Your Age”. Again, I recommend this and this over my idea (because again, their takes on this episode are perfect, I don’t think anyone can top them), but if you like it then great. This was still fun to write out and stuff, and I hope you enjoyed it regardless. ^^;

#phineas and ferb #pnf #act your age #phinabella #act your age rant #episode rewrite #galaxina rants #not as good of a rewrite as others but i think it's decent at the very least #but i dunno #what do ya'll think #lol

[welcometotheocverse]

Kirsty and Kit and/or Kirsty and El headcanons?

Kirsty and Kit

I feel like they would have a bit of tension ( through neither of the kids fault tho) on their relationship over Richard because while Richard dotes on the girls he’s very much emotionally abusive to Kit 

( think sorta like that episode where Lorelai was telling him he has to respect her boundaries/judgement and he hits her with “You think I don’t know why you “invited” me here” and proceeds to make it about making her feel guilty instead of apologizing. Or when he pulls the Yale stuff and instead of saying “yes sorry  i shouldn't have  lied to literally everyone in the car” pulls out the “you know nothing about the Ivy league” sucker punch like specifically Richard reacts badly to being challenged or disagreed with and Kit Very Much challenges him at any time he pulls stuff like this so sadly Richard treats him about as well as he treats Lorelai he’s always bringing up Kit’s shortcomings when Kit disagrees with him and lambasting him with them.)

I feel like Richard would kinda reign it back around Kirsty tho ( he does around Rory becuase sorta how he apologized to Rory over Dean he cares very much about upsetting her and he and Kirsty seem close so i feel like it’d be similar)

Kit wouldn’t tell Kirtsy whenever Richard slides back to being bad to him  😭

Kit would probably also go “I have to take care of her” about Kirsty like he does about Rory and try to be there for all the things Christopher isn’t there for. Like he would go to all her dance recitals and events and just “i gotta be her dad” Kit honey tho lol

He’d support her relationship with the grandparents even as his becomes distanced. ( he stops going to Friday night dinners after graduation ) 

Kirsty might  be able to mitigate the sorta fight/sorta necessary sibling talk that Kit and Rory have coming because Kit means well but is ( unsurprisingly) a bit over protective and Rory eventually has to be like “it was never your job to take care of me and also sometimes you make things worse” ( ie bringing up Paris parents because Paris was cornering Rory) and Kit’s just like “wow okay ow” and is kinda hurt about about and neither of them are good at Feelings bc they’re Gilmores just because from what you’ve told me Kirsty’s good at interventions/picking up other’s emotions.

We stan queer Gilmore kids solidarity. Kit would probably come out to Kirsty before he comes out to everyone else ( he does it pretty early) 

They’ve both gotten in at least one fight per school ( elementary , middle, high) over defending each other. 

Kirsty would be one of the few people to know Kit skips school with Zack on father’s day. And that he kinda disappears that day because it hurts him not because he’s being a slacker. ( i mean he IS a slacker but that day has a lot more to it for him yknow but hes not about to disclose that) 

Kit punching Mitchum and Kirsty slapping Shira on the same episode. Yes please. 

He’d probably ask Kirsty for advice on how to help Rory  ( her panic attacks don’t really go away in his fic and she struggles with bunrout/wondering if she wants journalism still and basically crashes at Kit’s while she does so bc “Yales bad for you and so are the Gilmores”) like probably after We Got Magic To Do because he’s never had to deal with anything like this and “i can’t punch it what tf do I do?” but Kirsty being there gives him someone that would actually...know how the anxiety stuff works.

He goes to see her dances in NY and takes her flowers ( yes this is based on that gif but also im not sorry bc babies) 

El and Kirsty

They’re pretty good hanging out nonverbal like just sitting down and hanging out together because they both know words are hard sometimes. 

Kirsty’s probably one of the only  people who know he likes video game scores ( it helps him focus) as well a some of the bands/genres Lane deems “need to go extinct” ( bc i mean hes sure not telling her and Lore and Rory can be a bit judgy about music too) 

Likewise she’s probably the only one he tells that he’s lowering his coffee intake because it fucks with his anxiety/meds specially after Yale. ( he doesnt tell lorelai or rory bc of their whole “decaf is blasphemy”

Rip Paris when she takes El’s scicom assignments in the newspaper after the PJ Harvey debacle lmao 

Rip Paris whenever she calls El “the one who doesn’t talk”

But also RIP Paris’ if she’s ever mean to Kirsty/drags Kirsty into anything because El’s switch from creampuff to verbally shutting someone down no holds barred aside from seeing someone treated unfairly ( ie Brad) are his siblings. ( even if he has an anxiety attack after look, its the thought  that counts)

He’d keep in contact with her when she goes to NY ( specially bc im not sure if he goes to Washington) and go to her dances.

Fights are hard on him but he’d call Lorelai out when she’s unfair to Kirsty

Kirsty would probably be the one to find out that his panic attacks are getting worse during freshman year at Yale ( for him its yeah like Rory hes struggling to find material Actually Hard and the class load is burying him but also “hey turns out when that happens and you and you’re on meds for GAD which you forget to take because you haven't stopped doing homework for hours and also somehow you’re still scraping by and time is a foreign concept so less food and sleep” it uh...comes back to bite you...Hard) he doesn’t tell Lorelai  because like Rory he hates the idea of letting people down/having people know he’s struggling and he doesn’t tell Rory because he knows she's as busy as him/probably struggling too and doesn’t even see her that often anyways bc …yeah. 

Honestly she’d probably  be the one to find him in Shrinking Lorelais since Lorelai and Rory are crying on the married man in their lives. 

I have this feeling that despite Kirsty sometimes feeling left out withb El and Rory and El sometimes feeling left out with Kirsty and Rory ( hes the only boy and also the only one not dating when they're in hs and its just stuff like that) and later with Jess and Kirsty they also have things that are just theirs ( jogging together, knowing when each other’s anxiety’s spike, keeping feelings secret) and it makes me very ;A;. like they would just be so in each other’s corners.

Salt fests about Christopher. Kirsty’s the only one who knows how much he hates getting books from him because its just him lumping him together with Rory and is the only one who’s ever actually head him say “I'm not even worth googling to him” bc like he doesnt even tell Rory that bc Rory likes Christopher but Kirsty would get it.

El respects that Kirsty keeps things that upset her to herself and doesn’t make her open up but also makes sure to give her words of affirmation when he can tell she’s sad/off/upset. 

Kirsty’s the first person he tells both about figuring out he’s ace ( in 2001) and that he’s aroace ( in Yale) 

I’m still very here for El taking hits from Dean in Keg!Max over Kirsty and falling asleep in her hospital bed like yes gimme. 

He tends to go see Kirsty ( and Trista, Logan and Jess depending on timeline) after having to spend time with Christopher to see Gigi because she gets it. And also probably shows up nonverbal sometimes but Kirsty can tell and they just like read or chill ( just El not being alone after dealing with Christopher)

On the heels of that El supporting Kirsty on cutting Christopher out her life ;A; 

[buttered-ghost-toast]

OC background story//Secondary Characters

1: i’m aware they’re sorta boring in a sense (literally all 3/4 profile busts lol) but I couldn’t be bothered to get super detailed about them yet. I was trying to work out a look, and this is the quickest way lol. Lots of mistakes here, don’t focus on that. Just...jive with me.

2: idk that anyone is going to be interested, but i’m happy with my little babies! :) This kept me busy lol. 

Long post ahead!

Okay, so the band, Adria was formed sort of by accident. None of the members thought they were really going to get anywhere and were mostly just learning to play instruments and jamming to escape the pressures of adolescent life. 

Niri--her parents were very strict and proper. “Yes, sir. No, ma’am.” type people who do what they can to keep up appearances. Her father is a police detective and her mother was a homemaker after the birth of her children, but was once an attorney. They expected the same level of success from their children, having picked out career paths before the kids were even a speck in the womb. When Niri and her older brother showed excellence in academics, they moved to a new city, enrolling them in an academy that was known for churning out high level success stories--Politicians, Judges, CEO’s of major corporations...you get the drill. They were happy to practically go into debt forever if it meant their kids would be successful. 

Year 1...Enter KOU. 

Kou’s dad was always business first. He expected his son to be the same. So much so that the day after the birth, he went out and bought a whole building to keep for his son, the future doctor, to house his practice. Being from an old money family, there was never a shortage of opportunities to rub elbows and make a way for this kid to be a success no matter what. Through years of primary education, he was a quiet kid, but there was something under the surface that loved to go against the flow of where his life was forced to travel. His mother passed when he was very young, but she was the reason he was able to have few moments of peace and fun. He and Niri were school rivals, fighting for the top spot on the scholar’s board, but...they wound up giving up the struggle when they realized they had a lot in common and neither really cared to pursue their parents’ dreams. They stopped attending after school programs and chose to graffiti and vandalize the building Kou’s dad bought while it was still empty. When they weren’t tagging, they were listening to “inappropriate music” and that soon became them teaching themselves to play the songs on instruments they bought...with Kou’s dad’s credit card. They didn’t sound bad after a while! 

One day, the pair skipped school altogether to avoid an exam they had not studied for. On their way out of the academy, they were tailed by someone they never expected would keep their secret so well...

KRISS

Kriss and Kou are cousins. Their mothers were twins, so the two share a few features, but their personalities couldn’t be any more opposite. Where Kou is a grounded, sensible person, Kriss is carefree and...kind of an idiot. His mother raised him on her own and as a very open, artistic soul, she taught Kriss to always follow his heart and his dreams. He’s basically never been told “No” in his entire life. He was a very energetic kid, so his mother urged him to try out the drums (maybe it would tire him out enough for a nap) which he ended up falling in love with. It’s one of the few things he ever really kept an interest in despite being pretty flighty with his pursuits otherwise. Once he realized what his cousin was up to, he set up a drum kit within a few hours and was glued to their side ever since. 

Kriss’s mom is the only person who really believed in the band from the start. She would be a big help through their early years and to this day has a reserved spot to watch them play shows whenever she wants (usually stage right). 

Did I mention Kriss was part of the percussion section of the academy band? Well, it was more of an orchestra, but still. He felt there was something lacking in their sound during jam sessions so after a few weeks, he called up a few friends. 

Vash

Vash is a complete wildcard. He’s the sweetest person you’ll ever meet, but it takes a while to realize that because his personality is quite...Sharp. He has no problem speaking his mind, never has, and he’s not afraid to call anyone on their BS. Does an expert job of providing entertainment with his outbursts. His first words when he dropped by the “clubhouse” were “so you expect me to play in this shit hole?” His mouth usually got him in trouble at school so he was somewhat happy to have something to occupy his mind so his mouth wouldn’t run so often. He’d been playing music for many many years, his parents both being famous musicians themselves, so he has mastered quite a few instruments and often provides backup vocals because “none of the rest of you dingbats can be trusted to stay on key.”

He is the glue that holds everything together and his honesty keeps everyone grounded. He expects everything to run smoothly and on time, so he was made leader of the band within the first hour. It’s effortless and he keeps his cool pretty well under pressure, but the one person who manages to make him snippy is Eri.  

ERI

Eri is a mess of a human being in the most endearing way. He’s a walking contradiction and he loves to push buttons. He and Vash have been neighbors and best friends since they were born. They’re the Yin to each other’s Yang and act like an old married couple, always  disagreeing on the most basic things. It has never been an issue and the others love to watch a match go down. Where Vash is hands-on and always on track, Eri is laid back and couldn’t care less if something goes wrong. That’s not to say he’s not passionate about their dream, he’s just more of a “Things will happen as they happen, just go with the flow” type. His easygoing nature lends him a very grounded and rhythmic personality...perfect for a bassist. His favorite thing is spending time with friends and being able to just do what his soul calls him to do. He does, however, absolutely hate attention. It makes him feel pressured to act a certain way or do a certain thing and it just clashes with his entire vibe. He broke out in a rash when they got their first major gig and had to do a meet and greet. He loves his fans, but...can they not want pictures all the time? “I look awkward when I smile.” He really does. The boy doesn’t smile, it’s always a grimace. 

Eri’s dad owns a very successful restaurant and often got the band small gigs like birthdays and weddings that he was hired to cater for. He doesn’t understand what they’re hoping to do, but hey, the kids play some mean covers of songs he grew up on. Besides, if his son is happy, that’s good enough for him. 

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- For the first few years, they snuck around and the others lied for Niri and Kou when their parents had questions. They couldn’t say they weren’t all hanging out together, so once things got real, they moved their practices to Vash’s house since his parents had all the equipment they needed and didn’t really care one way or another about what was going on, too busy with tours and things.

Once they graduated, it was harder to cover. Niri came clean to her father, her mother having found out shortly before but promising to keep it quiet if she just quit and focused on school. Her father was furious and demanded she cut ties with her “hooligan friends” immediately as she was set to go to college and become a lawyer like her mother. Niri refused and was kicked out of her home after being called a failure of a child. This only fueled her fire to pursue her dream. She called Vash, mostly to cry in frustration, but he met her at the front of her neighborhood saying “I just felt something was up with your dumb self so I came by to check. Good thing I did. Let’s go, you’re moving in with me til we figure all this out.” The two soon became three when they got an apartment with Eri two months later. 

Kou had a similar experience once he told his father he didn’t want to be a doctor and had no plans to attend his father’s alma mater (which he only got into after his father wrote a very generous check being Kou’s grades had slipped to an abysmal level) he was removed from the premises by security, cut off financially, and removed from the will within 2 hours. The only thing he managed to keep (for a while anyway) was his car, so he hopped in and drove over to his aunt’s house and lived there for a while with her and Kriss. 

During this time, they still had small shows coming left and right. One night after a few years of a rough grind with no money and shitty daytime jobs, while playing a local club (that didn’t even pay them by the end of the set), they met a small time producer who liked their sound and asked them to record a demo. The producer played the demo to a group of friends that called a separate group of friends and eventually their little song made it to the ears of a real band who had an unexpected opening in their roster for an upcoming festival tour. Adria got the call and had to scramble to get their set list ready. It wasn’t anything big, just a side stage gig, but the more stops they played, the bigger the crowds they drew. 

When they made it home after several stops, they were met by the producer who found them, asked to record a whole album and from there they filmed a very low budget MV and soon after their first single was playing on the radio. They were asked to appear on small time local talk shows. They spread like wildfire once their second single dropped, played on stations nationwide. More MVs and a headlining tour followed with a second album set to drop. Kriss and Niri were asked to be part of a 6 episode arc on a popular TV drama and a second tour.  It was a tough climb, but they’ve been at it for 15 years. Niri and Kou did go back home at one point and faced their parents, attempting to make amends and build a bridge. Kou and his dad are in a much better place now, the old building they used to play around in was transferred into Kou’s name and they now use it as their recording studio/ band headquarters. 

Niri’s family reunion was a little less of a happy ending, in fact, it’s still a work in progress. Her mother apologized and they cried a little over the years missed, but her dad is a very tough man to get through to. He acknowledged he was harsh in his actions but still feels justified in what he did. He says if it weren’t for his tough love, Niri wouldn’t have felt the need to work so hard to get to this place in her life. He did at least say thank you when Niri handed him a check to cover the hit her parents’ savings took when her brother went to medical school. She has weekly calls and video chats with her mom and her brother often makes it out to shows and sends her snaps when he sees her on TV or hears the band on the radio. Her dad sometimes texts her “Heard your new song. It’s loud.” That’s his way of saying he's giving it a chance and doesn’t exactly hate it.

#butter's OCs #the band Adria #OC backstory

[gottaenjoythelittlethingzz]

5 Things you may not (and should) know about: The Reaper’s Only Daughter

I was tagged a while back by the always intriguing @themildestofwriters

The aim of the game is simple: list at least 5 lesser known facts about your WIP and/or the OC of your choosing!

1. TROD is based off of the completed TV series Sons of Anarchy (yes, FF. No, I’m not clever or original, haha!). The series itself consists of 92 episodes spanning 7 seasons and roughly 5 years in in-universe time. What makes my WIP so different from the original series is that I have created a character with a family lineage that spans over thirty years. The novel itself will be expanded to cover closer to 10 years in-universe time which will naturally lead my story to stray from the original.

The first chapter begins a few days before the pilot episode. Each chapter, as it stands, is a revamping of each episode. Some chapters may be consolidated to cover two episodes, likewise some episodes may span multiple chapters. Some episodes will be glossed over entirely as they do not pertain to the story (or adaptation) that I am trying to tell. There are also some considerable time skips in the series which I will use as opportunities to write new content and “fill in the blanks” so to speak. As a result, I’m expecting no less than 70 chapters and 200k words (I am hoping for more, but we shall see how much gets deleted from later drafts). My hope is that fans and strangers to the series alike will be able to enjoy this novel.

2. Croweater is the name given to a woman who is more or less a “devote fan” of the SOA MC. Croweaters are women who hang around members (mostly at parties), work in club owned businesses, and “entertain” club members with no strings attached. Croweaters are not in romantic relationships with any one member and are not considered “Oldladies”. Croweaters are more often than not wonders passing through, looking for a place to crash, a quick buck, or a thrill. Those who stick around develop a reputation, become accustomed to “the life”, and become part of the family. 

All the men are regularly with these Croweaters. The club, the men, give these woman protection, some housing, some jobs, and the women in turn serve them in a number of ways. Schuyler, the only female member of the club, has never once been with a Croweater in any charter. And it isn’t for a lack of interest on her part or a lack of trying on the Croweaters’ part. Similar to the reasons why she has never been with a patched brother or with very many business associates, she sees them on a regular basis and feels a sort of responsibility for them. 

She sees them as employees who entertain and care for her boys, her family. She views them as club associates that can be used to protect the club and in turn need protecting. She sees them regularly and doesn’t want any of the women to get too attached. She sees them as family and she is unwilling to cross that line. 

3. Tattoos are embedded into the culture of the club. Almost every member in every charter has at least one that is specially customized to represent the club in some way. There are dozens of designs, some are repeatable and are applied to many, some are unique to the individual, but all represent unity, loyalty, trust, and family. These tattoos can only be worn by patched members meaning only men are allowed to bare them. Ex-members who are kicked out of the club are made to “black out the ink” or suffer consequences for an idea of how important tattoos are. 

The only exception to this rule is the “Crow tattoo” also known as the “Oldlady tat”. It depicts a crow with a collar and a red heart. A banner underneath the crow reads “forever”. The tattoo is meant for life long partners of patched members (be it married or just committed) and represents loyalty, devotion, trust, commitment, and love. Both Samantha and Christy (two of my female OCs; one married, one in a relationship for 5+ years) have one. Samantha was one of the first Oldladies to ever get the tattoo and it is in the center of her chest. An important step taken on her part as she is the Oldlady of the first chapter President of SAMTEX. Christy’s is over her left shoulder blade, showing that woman through the generations continue to get them.

4. It’s a tradition that a member’s first “mugshot” be hung somewhere within the club’s headquarters. It’s a sort of “right of passage” to end up on the wall of fame. Doing time for the club shows devotion. 

For many technical reasons that will be explored, Schuyler has never been processed or served jail time. This is to the club’s advantage.

5. Schuyler is a certified veterinarian. While she was in a sense predestined to join her father’s MC, her parent’s always hoped she would go to college. In fact, graduating was one of Edward’s last requests. Schuyler independently chose a career that was vastly removed and starkly different from any of the work the club is involved in. While there are many benefits, this trade comes in especially handy when someone is shot or severely injured and a hospital is either too far to reach or not an option for legal reasons.

Feel free to send me asks for any clarification on those listed above as it is not one of my more elegant pieces (as if I’ve ever written such, haha!). Lots of Schuyler “has never” and “does not” it seems. Kinda makes you wonder what exactly she has done...

I tag: @inkspilledqueen, @alixismad, @writingonesdreams, @thatfizzyyyy,  @aspire2bu because I specifically really want to get to know more about your WIPs. This is a queued post, so apologies and ignore me if you’ve already participated! Anyone else working on a WIP who sees this is welcome to say they were tagged by me and play along.

Tag, you’re it!

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[thevagabondvantage]

8.31.2018

“Large Iced Americano!” The clear plastic cup gives off a cold-sweat, anxious to meet its new friend. I hand off the middle-class man’s chalice and continue to the next order. Please, God, let these people tip more than their spare change. My left shoulder is probably out of socket and my feet are sore, but what else is new? 

“Vanilla Latte - skim milk, half the ‘sweet stuff’!” Some bitch with an aggressive bob sweeps up to the bar for her barely-coffee. She looks at me in angst, as if saying, “I know your kind - a sorry fuck who jerks off just to fall asleep at night.” And she’s right, isn’t she? She grabs her collared cup, and bitch-walks her way out. Joke’s on her, though; I used whole milk.

I wish someone would have warned me that a Master’s degree in Philosophy qualified me for only one career: disgruntled barista. I’ve worked at Saint Espressõ since I graduated. Has it really been three and a half years already? It’s not that I’m not happy, but I’m not happy with not being sure if I’m happy or not. It’s not hard to understand! Or is it? I guess what I’m trying to say is, I’m lonely. God, I’m lonely. The only lady friend I’ve made this year was a damn sexy cappuccino, and even she grew cold after about five sips. It’s a sad existence, but I’m getting over it.

“What can we brew for you today?” We’re required to say it, and I hate it more and more every time. Ninety-nine out of a hundred customers don’t understand the pun and continue on with their dumbass lives. I wish I could continue on with mine, but I have to waste a second of every transaction using that shitty line. My therapist says I should try to be more positive, but he doesn’t work for tips.

“Oh, I need just another minute, please.” She can have all the time she wants.

9:45 AM. I started work at 5:00 this morning... I was fine with the morning shift for a while, but it dawned on me recently exactly how strangely time moves. I can be at work for five hours, and it’ll still only be 10:00 AM. 10:00 in the morning! I clock out at noon-thirty and still have an entire day to fill. I should go to bed earlier, but there are just so many episodes of Frasier I haven’t seen and so little time to binge them, so I’m just in a perpetual state of exhaustion, RBF, and witty sitcom-style comebacks. 

Life as a sitcom would be so much easier; you can afford a lavish apartment, all your problems are solved in twenty-two minutes or less, and - most importantly - people have to laugh at your employer-mandated puns. I look back at the clock on the register; 9:46 AM - joy.

“I’ll take a spiced chai latte!” Finally.

“Anything else for you?”

“That’s all!”

“$5.45.” She pulls out exact change - at least someone’s making my job easier.

“We’ll have that for you in just a moment.” She grabs her receipt and finds a chair near the window. The woman and her wallet look so content - the lucky bitches. Luke, returning from his break, nudges me aside to clock back in. 

I quite like Luke. He’s only worked with me for about six months now, but we’ve grown fond of one another, I think. He’s a pretty chill dude; I like him because he minds his own business. Our other regular barista, Danielle, is a squirrel of a girl; her hair scatters upward into a loose bun - making her look somewhat like an acorn... She scurries in for the second shift, just as mine is ending. This leaves just enough time to exchange pleasantries and go our similar but separate ways. She just started a Bachelor’s in Communication at Cal State, which only encourages her nosy demeanor. We’d gone on a few dates a couple years ago, but we prefer to never speak of it.

“When you finish the chai, can you start a French press of the Italian dark roast?” I give a simple nod in response. When we work together, Luke usually mans the register while I tango with the espresso machine. It’s an unspoken rule, and I’m really grateful for it. He’s a lot better with the general public - his “bro” mentality definitely comes in handy. We joke around and like to grab a beer when we don’t have the early shift the next morning. 

I’d never tell him, but I consider him a close friend. He’s one of the few people who can hold a conversation on any topic without bullshitting the bejesus out of it. My only other regular friends are Will, who I’ve known since middle school, and Trish, who dated my college roommate for a time. He dumped the poor girl like a bucket. I tried to grab the rebound, but she shot into the friendzone. She’s bitchy and hilarious, so I’ve claimed her as my own. I’d consider my roommate, Tristan, a good friend, but he’s just so…so Tristan...

“Spiced chai latte!” Exact-change Bernice says a quick word of thanks and prances away. I get the French press going and sit down for a minute. There are only two other people here: Bill, who sets up his office in the corner booth, and a teenage girl who’s most definitely skipping school. Since we’re pretty slow mid-morning, Luke leans onto the counter while I claim the stool. I take a sip of water - my first since before the morning rush; Luke stares at his green tea, grinning like a fool. I’ve had some damn good teas in my twenty-six years, but none have ever made me smile like that…

“You’ve got the worst poker face in existence,” I jeer at him. He chuckles.

“Like yours is any better,” he mocks in response. It is, but that’s beside the point. He takes another sip and sighs in contentment. “Can you keep a secret?”

“Always.”

“You can’t tell anyone. Like, anyone!”

“Just get to the point!”

“Alright!” He takes an expected breath. “I’m proposing to Rose tonight.”

“Shit, man!” This isn’t what I expected to hear. “Congrats and all, but you’ve only dated for a couple months - pretty quick...”

“No, I know, but I know. You know?” I hate when people say shit like that. “Rose got a job in Houston and we’ll never last the long distance stuff. I can’t be the one to hold her back, so the only way we can make this work is if I go with her, and the only way she’ll allow that is if I give her the ring. We’ve talked about it a lot, and I think it’s the right thing.”

“Wow. Uh, wow. When do you move? You know, if she says yes…” Thankfully, he laughs at my awkwardness.

“Oh, she’ll say yes! She practically planned the whole thing. End of the month. We’re excited to take it to the next level! I think I’m finally ready to start settling down.”

“Dude,” I sort of sigh. I’m disappointed as hell. The one guy I thought I could count on, leaving. I’m not upset with him - that’d be dumb. I’m just… You know? I swallow the news, take a breath, and move on. “I’m happy for you - honestly!” He smiles in relief.

“I’m glad you say that, because I have a favor to ask.” No, Luke, I will not cover your shifts while you play house. “I want you to be in the wedding!”

“Me… For real?”

“For real! You’ve been a great coworker and an even better bro, and I can’t think of many other people I’d like standing by my side for this. What do you say?”

“Well I’d be one massive dick if I didn’t say yes…” We chuckle. “Of course, man. It’d be, as they say, an honor.” I pull out a distasteful British accent, accompanied by a royal curtsey. He punches me in the shoulder.

“You’re the best, Walker - really.” 

“Someone needs to tell the ladies that, too…” I’m dead serious. We seal the deal with a quick slap-hug, like grown-ass men.

“Just wait, you’re gonna see major changes in your life. You could meet your girl any minute!” He grabs the French press from the counter and goes to deliver it to the rightful customer.

That bastard; he better be right… I check the time - 9:55. I’m the most impatient person I know; this day might actually kill me.

The door opens - in walks another customer. I normally don’t notice or care, but Luke’s words play on a loop in my head. You could meet you girl any minute… I keep my head down to keep my composure. I want the first time I see this girl to be perfect. I want to be confident and cool and collected. She scurries to the register and stops. I’m so nervous, I could die. 

“What can we brew for you today?” I recite, still looking down. A sitcom laugh track would have been great right about now... Okay, here we go….

“I asked for skim milk.” A cup is shoved into my face. I’m practically breathing non-biodegradable drinkware through my left nostril.

“Excuse me?” I look up to meet the scowl of the aggressive-bob bitch. 

“I asked for skim milk.”

Well, shit.

[mknwaywardwanderer]

As usual, I have not written in a while. As a matter of fact, I have not written anything not related to work or my graduate studies since 2016. I have been feeling like I have a lot to say, but nobody to discuss it with. So who better to talk to than myself? #onlyslightlycrazy. To be honest, I have struggled a lot this year and it is somthing, I think, that should be shared. If anything at all comes from my writing other than catharsis or plain, simple release, I want people to know that they are not alone. That struggle is universal. That pain may be so overwhelming, stifling, and sharp that sometimes not even your closest loved ones can quell whatever turbulence has been stirred up within you. Whether you have lost someone, lost a piece of yourself, made a mistake, or just royally fucked up, you can choose to fight against the forces dragging you down. I was in a relationship for five years with somebody who I still love very much. Somebody who, at the inception of our relationship, was breathtaking. His intellect and his confidence were charming. From the moment we met, we could barely bare being away from each other. But there were concerns. My family disliked the age gap between us, they disliked that he dealt poker illegally for a living, they disliked the fact that I had just finished my first year in college and wanted to see a man who lived back home. None of these reasons persuaded me from being around him. We could talk for hours, lay in bed all day just laughing and watching movies, sleeping through the sunlit hours and sitting by the fire drinking until we couldn't see anything other than each other's faces. I felt weak and very unsure of myself then, but he had this enormous energy whenever he spoke to anybody. A power and light I came to rely on. Thinking about our relationship, its hard to believe we are those same people. He was there for me when my family wasn't, when they turned me away, and kicked me out, when they walked out on me he was the one who bought my school books, who drove me upsate for the beginning of my semester, who helped me get my first real job. He was there when I called him drunk and hysterical after wandering away from my friends in the middle of the night. In college, I drank almost every day until I met him. I was running from myself in this perpetual race against catching a glimpse of the girl in the mirror. I would wake up in cold sweats, dreading the day, dreading the thought of trying and failing, so I skipped class and finals and quizzes. I drank for breakfast and showed up to classes drunk. Until I met him, I didn't have anybody I felt I could talk to about how much I hated myself and feared evaluating who I was. As soon as I bared myself to him, he found ways to build me up but break me down simultaneously. Something he had patience in sculpting. He would praise me for my intelligence but chide me for being foolish, overly eager and trusting. He would compliment my beauty but point out what I ate with him in public. He would tell me he wanted to flaunt me but the clothes that I wore embarrassed him. Over time, I tried to fight back but I doubted myself. Every time we fought, every time I felt upset, he asked me if I really felt that way or if I was just letting my emotions cloud my judgement. I could see the logic in his judgements, yes maybe I could dress better, yes technically he was right and I was obese. Yes I was often overly sensitive and even though I worked, went to school full time, and was in and out of the hospital for my sister who tried to kill herself every three months, I shouldn't expect his help with chores because he too was busy. It took me 5 years to really understand the deep psychological toll our relationship had on me. I left him three times, each time feeling that I couldn't take another minute of living under his pressure. Overwhelmed by his presence, and silenced by his logic that he used to berate me into silence. But twice I reached out to him, needing him, wanting to be near him and I went back, thinking things would be different because I was different. I perceived myself to be the weak link, this problematic, over-emotional wreck that had forced his hand. I blamed myself for his resentment and anger, I pushed back and pushed him away. But each time I returned, I felt stronger and capable of rising above his argumentative tactics, the way he broke people down when he was angry and frustrated. I thought I could swallow my fear and the flashbacks to my childhood when his rage brought him to break and throw objects, or punch holes in walls… because what was the harm? He wasn’t actually hitting me. He would just walk out, or walk away, or ignore me until he begged me to take care of him. I felt needed. Yet, slowly, I slid back into being silenced. I tried repeatedly to stand my ground, I would refuse to do chores, refuse to answer his questioning of me when he was aiming to back me into a corner where only he could win, when I allowed him to upset me I would walk out so he couldn’t see how deeply his words affected me. I thought I could win. Sometime after dealing of 5 years of a very intense, passionate, love hate relationship, I started to drown. I was in school full time, working more than full time hours, cleaning and doing laundry for myself, my boyfriend, his friends who he let live with us rent free, and running to take care of my sister who continued her various suicide attempts, intermittent overdoses, alcohol poisoning, and severe self-harming. I asked for help from his friends, but they could only do so much. I asked my boyfriend for help, I begged him, nagged him, pleaded with him, flat out demanded him, and explained to him why I needed his help, why it made sense for him to pitch in, how his behaviors were affecting me. Nothing worked. I suddenly began experiencing downswings of depression that were worse than my most severe panic attacks where I was gasping for breath, grabbing my arms, and silently screaming, the heat from the tears raking down my face while I locked myself away. Mortified to be seen. Avoiding help because I blamed myself for allowing the stress to build and overtake me. I could barely speak to people at work. On the days when my moods were the lowest, I would hide in my bathroom, my car, or empty closets sobbing for hours, unable to move because every fiber of my being was pushing me towards hurting myself. I would see old anti-depression pills in my nightstand, bottles of Nyquil, loose razors, shards of broken mirror. All I could think about was ending everything, while I rocked there back and forth, paralyzed with the horror that I was trained to deal with this, I had helped friends and family through this, and yet I had never felt such a rooted pain and urge to quiet every criticism and doubt thrashing around in my head. The closest thing I could compare it to was when I found out I was pregnant at 20, just starting a new university. I missed orientation and work because I couldn’t leave the house without becoming ill. I was six weeks when I found out, and although my boyfriend was impartial, I knew what my family would think. They expected this of me. To fail, to succumb to the mistakes every stupid young girl makes. I wouldn’t let them win. So I decided to take pills for an abortion and do it at home. For weeks afterwards, I was barely myself. I forced myself to go to class and get to work. But whenever I had the chance I laid in my bed in my dorm room, and forced myself to sleep because the waking reality was too much. Every moment I thought about it. Every moment I felt this urge to punish myself. The last episode I had I couldn’t fight anymore, I was alone. My boyfriend and I had a huge fight. I had papers due in a day that I hadn’t started. I was supposed to be working overtime on a new project, and my boyfriend had told me he’d been sleeping with somebody else. I couldn’t breathe. It was as if nothing else existed besides my pain and the solution I’d taken out and left on my desk, debating if that was the answer. I took three pills at a time, pausing to choke while trying to breathe and making every effort to keep my sobs silent. 15 pills later I stopped and wondered if this would be enough. I wasn’t brave enough to continue. I went out and tried to talk to my boyfriend about how I was feeling, but he turned me away. I again started bawling like a child. I told him I had to go to the hospital but I couldn’t say anything else. I just kept whispering how sorry I was. He shook me until I told him what I did. He told me to throw up, but he wouldn’t take me to the hospital because “I knew and he knew it wasn’t going to help me.” I was so thrown that I took the week off from work, and completely abandoned my school work. I told my boss it was the flu. I didn’t email my professors until I absolutely had to, explaining in light detail my mental break and hoped for lenience. That week we had to move to a new apartment, but in that time I wouldn’t let my boyfriend touch me. I stayed as far away from him as I could. I saw him suffering, needing me, resenting me, but I needed space. It was slow, more like a gradual wave carrying me to some semblance of clarity. I realized this was it. This wasn’t for me. I couldn’t live like this anymore, and I couldn’t come back. I told him I was leaving, he begged me to stay, he loved me, pointed out he couldn’t pay for the 1 year lease without me, asked me to give him a month to change. But this was the same pitch he gave every time I left. And in 5 years, our relationship had only soured more each time we tried again. I was determined and clear, but completely torn apart. Heartbroken because he was a love like nothing else I had ever had. I left because if I didn’t, I think I would’ve taken my own life. Because I finally realized I deserved better, and needed better. Today, 6 months later, I still love him. I dream of him when I find myself worried about him. I know even now he is bitter and struggling, but I don’t want to go back. Because love is not always enough, and honestly it shouldn’t be. Self-worth, happiness, independence, and self-love should never be taxed or lessened by a relationship with somebody you love. Each time I came back because love trumped all logic, defied all odds. But the reality is the only person you should love so fully, without abandon, is yourself. Even though today I still question my sanity, I question my abilities, and whether I’m good enough, I find the strength to fight through those negative thoughts and let myself feel free, I let myself let go and walk away, on to better things. I recognize my accomplishments, I take a moment to decide when I need to go easier on myself, I give myself a break. Self-love is an endless journey, one I’m not entirely sure I will reach the end of. But I know the end goal of every day is to make some progress towards it, because my happiness matters.

[ollis-beard]

please do all of the aesthetic themed asks C;

My goodness.. let’s do thisflower crown: when did you last sing to yourself?A few minutes ago, i sing to myself all the time. It was the baby song Finn sings from the Adventure Time episode “The Jiggler”

fairy lights: if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about anything, what would you want to know?What my life’s purpose is, what i’m meant for

daisies: what is the greatest accomplishment of your life?Graduating from high school? Lol i haven’t done much

1975: what is the first happy memory that comes to mind, recent or otherwise?I was playing with my dog a few minutes ago, she always looks so happy and cute, it makes me want to explode

matte: if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living?I would try to go out and experience more but I’m still dependent on other people for adventures.. so i guess i’d get my driver’s license and explore on my own

black nail polish: do you have a bucket list? if so, what are the top three things?I don’t have one, i’ll have to put one together

pantone: describe a person close to your life in detail.My favorite person, we used to be super close and talk everyday. They’re super silly and goofy and one of the only people i can be really open and honest with. We used to have so much fun and we’re getting back to being close again

moodboard: do you feel you had a happy childhood?Yeah but it wasn’t really exciting either

stars: when did you last cry in front of another person?A month ago maybe

plants: pick a person to stargaze with you and explain why you picked them.A friend i’ve had for a few years but haven’t gotten close to until recently. We’ve actually gone stargazing a few times before and each time is magical, everytime we do it, we see shooting stars.

converse: would you ever have a deep conversation with a stranger and open up to them?Probably because i love deep conversations and probably couldn’t stop myself no matter how embarrassing it might become

lace: when was your last 3am conversation with someone, and who were they to you?An ex lol we’re friends now though

handwriting: if you were about to die, and you could only say one more sentence to one person, what would you say and to whom?I would tell my youngest brother to keep working his way through life, he has so much potential and a lot of people seem to put him down, they don’t realize how hard he’s trying

cactus: what is your opinion on brown eyes?I love, love, love them! Any kind of brown, a bright golden honey colored brown, a soft muted medium brown or a deep dark, almost black brown that has the most beautiful flecks of red and gold. I love all of them and think they are absolutely gorgeous on both men and women.. its probably even part of my “type”, i just think they’re the most adorable feature

sunrise: pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally.“Keep moving forward” - Monty Oum, just him telling people to keep living their lives and doing what they want even when things don’t go right or get tough

oil paints: what would you title the autobiography of your life so far?“Why did I do that?”

overalls: what would you do with one billion dollars?Spend some of it on a little house for me and a business to make more money, then use whatever’s left and whatever i earn to spoil my friends, family and pretty much anyone who needs it

combat boots: are you a very forgiving person? do you like being this way?I think so, i think i know when someone deserves my forgiveness

winged eyeliner: write a hundred word letter to your twelve year old self.All i have to say is don’t be afraid. Make new friends and forget about your old ones. You’ll learn to love your new life and you’ll hate yourself for not accepting it sooner and spending your time being miserable. Your bitterness now will only hurt yourself in the future. Stay away from asshole guys, you will be happier on your own and their love is not real. They will only hurt you. And please.. please for the love of god.. skip your emo phase. Its nowhere near as cool as you think and loving bright beautiful things does not make you weak. Try to enjoy everything.

pastel: would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel?I’m like perfectly in the middle right now, i’m transitioning into pastel but i still have a lot of punky hottopic shit

tattoos: how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? explain.I love them, they are art to me!

piercings: do you wear a lot of makeup? why/why not?On a daily basis, no. I wear makeup like twice a week but when I do, I wear about a medium amount.. tinted moisturizer/mineral foundation, light eye makeup, light contouring and lip liner. I’m just not good enough at makeup to do a lot, only what i need

bands: talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way.Rammstein helped me get through a very abusive relationship. It just made me feel strong and empowered. I loved how elegantly vulgar they are, using poetic songs to tell terrible, disgusting stories

messy bun: the world is listening. pick one sentence you would tell them.Just stop, everyone needs to lay down, stop fighting and listen to each other.

cry baby: list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel.I went to a Maroon 5 concert with my best friend when i was in like 4th grade, i don’t remember it much lol. I went to a Between the Buried and Me concert (mostly went for Animals as Leaders) a couple years ago, it was my firs real metal show, i was dressed like a slut and got pushed over by a drunk guy so thinking about it makes me anxious. I went to an Animals as Leaders concert (With Plini, yes!!) a few months ago for my birthday, it was excellent and i was there just holding hands with my girls and crying so it makes me feel warm and loved.

grunge: who in the world would you most like to receive a letter from and what would you want it to say?An ex, just telling me he loves and misses me like i know he does. I just want to hear a lot more from him

space: do you have a desk/workspace and how is it organised/not organised?Lol i have a desk but i don’t do work there. There’s just makeup on it so that gets out of hand when i need to use it, especially if i’m in a rush and will be gone for a while

white bed sheets: what is your night time routine?I take a shower (use the oil cleansing method for my face), moisturize, brush teeth and watch youtube in bed until i get sleepy

old books: what’s one thing you don’t want your parents to know?I almost got period blood on my parents’ new couch one night, my mom loves that couch more than me and my brothers, my youngest brother isn’t even allowed to sit on it lol

beaches: if you had to dye your hair how would you dye/style it and why?I want to dye it a lighter strawberry blonde or a peachy color and cut it short with wispy bangs, i think it would look cute on me

eyes: pick five people to go on an excursion with you. who would you pick and where would you go/what would you do?Three of my sister-in-laws and my two best friends. We would have a Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas style trip

11:11: name three wishes and why you wish for them.I wish i was super fckn rich so i wouldn’t have to worry about money anymore, i could take care of my friends and family, pretty much anyone that needs itAnd that animals could never get hurt, everyone treated them well and didn’t use them for whatever evil needs people haveAnd hmmm maybe that people aren’t hating on each other all the time about things like race, sexuality, religion, then people could work together better and solve the real problems

painting: what is the best halloween costume you have ever put together? if none, make one up.I dressed up as Dipper Pines the halloween before last! That’s when i decided that i don’t like trick-or-treating anymore because even though i was dressed in a totally non-sexual costume from a children’s show, i was still getting weird stares from older men, one tried to look down my shirt… bleck

lightning: what’s the worst thing you’ve ever done while drunk or high?I can’t even say.. so instead i’ll say something funny, i pissed in the bushes of my friend’s apartment complex when i figured out that i couldn’t get in her place

thunder: what’s one thing you would never do for one million dollars?Hurt an animal.. there’s not enough money in the world for me to do that

storms: you on only listen to one song for the rest of your life, or only see one person for the rest of your life. which and why?I’ll choose to only see one person, and we could listen to all the music we want! I love music too much and people are overwhelming, this sounds great

love: have you ever fallen in love? describe what it feels like to realise you’re in love.Yes, its scary because you know it’ll hurt when they leave, no matter how hard you try to hold on to them

clouds: if you’re a boy, would you ever rock black nail polish? if you’re a girl, would you ever rock really really short hair?I wish i could have short hair.. it just wouldn’t look good on me

coffee: what’s your starbucks order, and who would you trust to order for you, if anyone?S’mores frappucino right now boooiiii

marble: what is the most important thing to you in your life right now?Keeping myself and my friends happy

Thank you for the ask.. my hands hurt lol

#ask

[emprezz48]

Midnight Thoughts Part it’s-about-my-oshimen-graduating-soon-so-I-need-to-let-it-out-somewhere

Haven’t done this ever since Murai Junna grad... and here am I doing another one about Sakai Mei... 

As usual, Imma put the “keep reading” thing after this so you can skip this post and have a nice day (if you want to read this, feel free to waste your time)

Enjoy~

It all started when I watched the first episode of ebi calcio which was aired in late 2014 (but I watched it like really early 2015). It was a danso episode and Mei participated in it and MAI GAWD SHE WAS IKEMEN AS FFFFFF!!! My weakness is danso, so Mei really caught my attention... It wasn’t the first time I heard of her name (I found out about NonMei combi first but I never really paid much attention???) but after watching this episode, I totally could remember her.

2015 was a busy year for me, so I only had time to focus on a few SKE members (with my oshimen being Rena at that time) but months later after Rena graduated (and when I gave up being busy lololol) I started focusing on more and more members, with Mei being one of them. I found out how cool she is, but at the same time really cute and pretty, and quite a chikin XD (and also how she’s a 97 liner like me whaaaaaaat???) and that was the time when I really like NonMei as a pairing and shipped them like a delulu fan I am lol... I really started to like Mei more and more and she became one of my favourite members.

This photo was back in Fuyucon 2015? I stumbled upon this and I asked myself “Oh? Isn’t this Goto Risako? Wow she’s actually so prettyyyyyyy~ I wonder if she’s close to Mei?” I did my research and found out that this two same-aged girls get along pretty well despite being from a different gen and team, Risako appointed Mei as the leader of gorisa children, Mei calling Risako “Gori” despite the seniority, and there are few others cute moments here and there. If wasn’t for this photo, I wouldn’t have gotten soooooo into Risako, the member whom I can relate to the most... 

Also, being a DD then (without me realizing actually) I like a lot of SKE members, like really a lot. I couldn’t just stick to a member or two, pretty much I didn’t have an “oshimen”. But I was really really really following this two, commenting on their SNS, reading their blogs, digging up their older times in SKE, so on and so forth that it led to my decision to support them equally in 2016 (IT WAS ONLY LAST YEAR WTH) It was a gamble tbh. Despite being the youngest in their respective gens, they belong to the old gen of SKE. They’re also underrated as fuck (oh my god don’t get me started talking about Mei especially, wait you know what? I’ll actually get into that soon.) but I still decided to make both my oshimen instead of finding young buds (I DID FOR A WHILE BUT JUNNA...........)

I never felt so happy for an idol before. SSK is something that I have mixed feelings about, but when Mei finally ranked last year, I was so overwhelmed with emotion that I eventually cried. 63rd was a nice rank, and although it was just ONE vote, I was proud to be part of the meiteam (name of her fanbase) that helped her rank in^^ A part of me wished I had more money to spend on votes, but in general I was really happy because Mei was happy. In 2015, she managed to rank in during the preliminary round, but not getting ranked in the actually was really a frustrating moment for her. Getting ranked in SSK is one opportunity to get exposed, and I must say I was glad Mei had quite a number of jobs last year. 

I started to think “Wow, 2016 is really a good year for Mei” and everyone was like “RISE MEIMEI RISE” thinking she’ll continue getting chances to shine. Too bad, what we all thought was WRONG.

16th February, that was when Mei announced her graduation during Team E kouen in order to focus on achieving her dreams in becoming an actress. It’s a dream she had for a long time, and her thoughts of graduation wasn’t a sudden one. She has talked more in her blog (I translated it here) Basically this will be a positive graduation as she’s taking one step ahead in her life. 

To be honest, when she said she has thought of graduating since a year ago, I really didn’t know. All the good stuff happened in 2016 made me didn’t realize that she could leave just anytime. Then again, I can’t say that I wasn’t prepared for this. In fact, a day before her announcement, the list of members being able to participate in P4U event was released, and aside from members who already announced graduation before, Mei’s name was the only one not in the list. I must say, her fans got really scared and worried, and watched kouen the next day in fear. I was in that situation too, but I told myself to just think positively. 

Of course, even with that hint, I still cried. I barely heard what she said after the “I will be graduating from SKE” part that I had to find a clip and re-watch it. I thought to myself “I wonder if my reaction would be worst if I didn’t found out about the P4U thing” but after a while, I realized that I’ll still feel sad no matter what. Yes, I am happy that Mei is starting a new chapter in life, I already told myself I’m still gonna support her and try to follow whatever stuff she gonna do in the future. But Mei being in SKE played an important role in how my wota life went for the past year. I was never SO gachi before. Yes, one year is so short, but in one year, a lot of things can happen. So I think things will change a little for me once April starts.

Ok, if there’s one thing I should be frustrated about, then that’s about the fact that she’s a freaking underrated member. Although I did say that a lot of good things happened in 2016 for Mei, that’s just because for the past years she’s in SKE, there was absolutely nothing for her. I guess it was because she was young or something, but I’ve seen her performances at least way back to 2014, and I must say, she is arguably a really good performer! No matter what she does, she looks cool. Besides that, she’s also a fun person who not only just perform, but also “interacts” and play around with members during kouen. MC, excellent. She’s good at tsukkomi. Despite overall being a good performer, it just gets me sometimes seeing her dance positions during kouen.... It’s always at the back... On top of that, never had a chance to center any unit before!!!!!! This is insane to me tbh... There were so many times I saw chances for her to center a unit (for eg. Ame no Pianist unit during TeTsuna shuffle kouen) BUT IT NEVER HAPPENED!!! I WAS SO DISAPPOINTED LIKE THERE WERE SO MANY CHANCES!!!!!!! Like come on... if we can see bad dancers being put up as center (not pointing on any member btw) then why can’t we see members who are clearly capable to center, not getting a chance? Like seriously, all I wanted was just ONE chance... 

Which is why, when Suuchan started her own Suumelo Senbatsu (or what she name it as Melodies) and appointed Mei as the center, I was on cloud nine. Mei never had such opportunity for the past 6 years, yet her own fellow team member could gave her that spotlight. I could never thank Suuchan enough for this, although sadly, Melodies hasn’t fully formed yet (Suuchan still haven’t announced all the members) so they can’t start any activity. With Mei graduating already, we can never get to see her acting out as the center of the unit... but nevertheless, the title still counts, so I’m really thankful to Suuchan, really.

I may have sounded like I’m complaining a bit too much, but overall, I think Mei had a really really great time in SKE. She definitely learnt a lot in the past 6 years and grow up to be the best she can be. I know she love her fans a lot, she’s nice to everyone, even though she don’t give kami taiou during HS or something. In my case, since I’ve never been to HS, I could see her kindness through her replies in 755 (ok at least back when she often uses it before having twitter) I could be asking something specific, or commenting generic stuff like “have fun during kouen” or “how’s your day?” and she would still reply to them^^ Seriously nice. Like really. Cuz I do know that my japanese grammar is kinda horrible, some sentences sound weird, but she was really nice^^ It maybe ridiculous, but I screenshot all her replies to me, since I’m just an international fan who does not have $$$ and freedom to go to HS .^. SIGHHHHHHHH but anyways, I really treasure those replies as those were our ONLY interactions~ I actually wanted to write a fanletter (like legit write one and send it) but there’s way too much problems in my hand so I regretfully decided to leave it out... 

ANDDDDDDD I should wrap this up since it’s already so long......... 

As I’m typing this, it’s roughly 5:10 AM Japan Time so there’s around 13 hours till her graduation kouen? Obviously gonna watch it, but I’m gonna have to sleep first lol. I don’t know what kind of emotion I should have, but I hope the kouen will run smoothly. I also hope she’ll have fun and have a memorable last kouen, and although it’s weird to say this, I am looking forward to it.

Bye.

#sakai mei #SKE48 #midnight thoughts #i should sleep now #good night #thanks for reading #if you made it this far that is #i think this is a really messy structure #sorry about that #i think i've said all that i want to say #i hope so #but whatever #it doesn't matter this is supposed to be some random midnight though #*thought dammit #ok too much emotion going on #i'm sleeping now #bye

[sb69orion-blog]

okay im just gonna finally make a post about my life as orion since i might as well start off here

putting it under a readmore cause idk how long it’ll be

from what i remember of my early childhood, jii was always the one there for me, bringing me snacks between lessons (seeing i was home schooled by the “best teachers”) I was always an only child, and while i never complained i secretly wanted siblings to keep me company and I guess lessen the harsh expectations put on me

then when i was about 6-7 my parents had me pick up the violin to help me be more “well rounded” at first i hated it because my teacher was so harsh but now that i look back on it, i wouldn’t be nearly as skilled as i was if it wasn’t for her. my parents probably had me start learning just so i could be their “gifted child” and perform for their rich friends when they visited. I didn’t enjoy playing the pieces they had me play. I also enjoyed playing outside in secret, i wasnt allowed out much after i rolled in dirt but it was so worth it

but starting around 13-14 jii let me start composing my own pieces in secret and that’s when i finally started enjoying the violin

when i was 16 around this time is when the boy’s academy sent the letter saying they wanted me to join, it took a lot of work but i managed to get my parents to let me go, i had to live on campus which was such a breath of fresh air from the same building and land i was stuck at, and free to go out when i pleased. with a bit of extra cash thrown at the school i was allowed to have jii come with me which was a blessing because i would not have survived without him. Before i left my parent gave me my golden violin as a sending off gift. 

my time at the school was wonderful, i made fast friends with titan, argon, and once selen skipped enough grades to be at our level we accepted him in our little circle, maybe it was cause he reminded me of my younger self i dont know. I always was top of my class, working hard and studying harder, i needed to impress my parents after all.

by the time of graduation i was about 18-19, and at that time ARCAREAFACT was born, and almost instantly signed under judas. behind the scenes between our appearances in what would be the anime canon aspects of the episodes happened, with me trying to quit ARCAREAFACT happening before our rematch with shingan. some point between this all i decided one day (it may have been in what would be episode 4 from the app, since i was out that day) to go to this new hit cafe everyone was rushing to get into, since apparently the band dolly dolci was having a meet and greet, and well it was just in my nature to want anything anyone else had, so i bribed my way into getting in to see anyone, the only one open at the time happened to be cream teddy’s table. we started talking and really just clicked? we both agreed for another date, and then another, and then a while or so later we were officially an item

afterwards life continued, our relationship grew, and after a year or so i proposed to her, she said yes in a heartbeat. our wedding was simple but elegant, i really didn’t want to go too all out despite having the cash to do so.  fast forward another year or so and then came our first child, a bison who took after her mother in a lot of ways, a sleepy but kind girl. then two more years later came a lil bear who took after me more, being readily excited to take on the family business one day.

i ended up traveling a lot, both for money and music reasons. cream teddy and the kids were always so happy to see me when i came home i was always greeted with a ton of kisses and affection from all three of them. then life just continued from there, with me and cream teddy supporting our kids through whatever they wanted to do.

#orion tag #this ended up so long

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[RO] Life in chapters (First Draft)

Premise: Things are finally looking up for Sebastian. He and Tyson have landed their first real start up client for their marketing agency, and now they look forward to meeting the new hires. But Sebastian would never in a million years guess that the new Lead Web Developer would be his ex-wife.

Episode one:

A failed marriage.

Weight gain.

Unhealthy lifestyle.

Sebastian could go on and on about the negative things that have happened to him in the last year. Life sucked.

Why waste another day, hour or minute living…

He never thought of doing “that”, but there have been times he wanted to lie in bed all day. If Sebastian never saw the sun again, that wouldn’t be the worst thing to happen.

But if he did that, he and Tyson wouldn’t be standing in their very own office. The one positive thing to happen.

“It’s about time we’ve got our own place. No more apartment work.” Tyson said.

They stood with their heads high and hands in their pockets. They’ve been in business for about a year and a half. Recently they landed their first “real” client. A startup company that created mobile games. The company wanted to go all in with their ideas and they set aside a huge marketing budget.

That’s where Sebastian and Tyson come in.

Sebastian was the copy-writer. His job consisted of persuading the hell out of people. Try to sell the next flappy bird through email, landing pages, etc.

Tyson handled the face-to-face meetings and kept the clients happy. He also loved crunching numbers — an analytical mind.

Until now, they’ve been doing everything themselves for small mom and pop companies. Now they’ve entered the big leagues. The time came to make some hires. Another thing Tyson excelled at.

“Bet you never thought we’d have our own employees, huh?” Tyson asked.

Being a boss terrified Sebastian. He swallowed.

Tyson noticed. “You’re nervous.”

“It’s just… you know — that kind of stuff ain’t my thing. That’s why I had you do all the hiring. I guess I didn’t give much thought until now how all these recent hires will look at me as a leader. It will take some getting used to.”

Tyson patted Sebastian on the back.

“You’ll be fine, bud.” Tyson said. “You always sell yourself short. We wouldn’t be where we’re at now without the skills you contributed.”

And with that Tyson moved off, heading to his office. He was right. The constant worrying would come to an end. Sebastian could use this to turn his life around. No more looking for a pity party or looking for handouts. Life gave him a chance to start new.

Besides, how hard would it be to lead a group of employees?

____

They were all so young. What the hell was Tyson thinking? Sebastian examined them as they settled into their desks. He greeted them at the door earlier and talked to a few of them. Sebastian was 26, but talking to them, standing amongst them, he felt old.

Ancient.

His assistant, Dale, the 19 years old, spent one year in college before dropping out. He said the experience took too much brain power and time.

What did he think work would be like? And he’s supposed to assist me!

Then there was Audrey. Sebastian felt his cheeks warming up.

Snap out of it!

She was 19 and didn’t even go to college. She would be the social media manager. Did she know what she was doing?

Audrey had this school girl, innocent vibe about her — it would affect a man’s thinking - Tyson's thinking.

This wasn’t like Tyson at all to make choices like this, but they came this far trusting each other.

“Hello, sir?” Dale poked his head into Sebastian’s office. “Is this desk right here going to be mine?”

He pointed at the desk resting on the other side of the glass wall.

Sebastian nodded.

“Perfect,” he set his things down, entered the office, reached out his hand. “I didn’t get to say it earlier in front of everyone, but I look forward to assisting you, and learning as much as I could.”

Sebastian shook his hand.

“And I look forward to teaching, Dale. Do you have any experience at all with copy-writing?”

“No,”

“Okay… Do you know what a copy-writer is?”

“Is it alright if I am honest? I didn’t know what that meant before the interview.”

“Well, what did you think you were applying for?”

“I saw that it was a marketing agency, and saw the word writer, so I figured I’d be writing a couple articles here and there.”

“That’s a content writer,”

“Yes. Tyson informed me of that… during the interview. But he looked over some of my work and -”

“Give me one second... I gotta go talk to Tyson.”

“Please, sir,” Dale said. “I need this job and I’m a fast learner, I promise.”

“I’m sure you are. Just um, don’t worry. You’re fine.”

Sebastian exited his office and made his way to Tyson, but Audrey popped up out of nowhere.

“Good morning!”

“Uh, good… morning.”

Keep your eyes up.

He didn’t remember her cleavage bulging out earlier. She must know what she’s doing, yet she stood there with glistening eyes, hands cupped in front of her.

Now Sebastian felt like a pervert.

“I didn’t get a chance to get to know you, when you talked to us earlier… kinda wanted to introduce myself a little more.” Audrey said.

“I’m headed to Tyson’s office but we can talk later.”

“I’ll walk with you!”

“You don’t have to do that,”

“It’s okay, I don’t mind.”

They started walking. Well, Sebastian walked… Audrey skipped. Which would have been fine if it wasn’t for the unhooked button on her blouse.

“So, this is like my first ever actual job,” she started. “I don’t really know how things work in offices, other than what I’ve seen on shows and read in books. It’s kind of embarrassing. But anyway, I try to be a friendly person and I want to be friends with everybody here at the office. Even the boss…”

“That’s good. We want a friendly environment here, so that’s perfect. We can use more people like you not only in the office but also in the world.”

“Wow, aren’t you philosophical? I like that.”

Sebastian smiled and glanced down at her.

Oh, boy.

He stopped, and she followed suit.

“Um, I hope I’m not overstepping, but you might want to, uh…”

Sebastian acted like he had an unhooked button on his shirt, and with imagination hooked it back up. It looked stupid, but she got the point. Audrey glanced down at her breast and blushed. She buttoned it up, and giggled.

“Is that why you were blushing the entire time?”

“What? No... I wasn’t blushing. I wasn’t even staring or anything-”

“I’m kidding,”

The moment became awkward. Sebastian swallowed hard.

What’s with this girl?

“I take jokes too far.” She gives a cute smile. “Sorry,”

“It’s fine,” Sebastian fidgets and gives a smile.

“You’re the jittery type, huh?”

“Okay, let’s talk about you…” He steered the conversation away from his awkward social skills. “You said you didn’t go to college earlier… What highschool did you graduate from?”

“I got my GED from the community college down the road from my house.”

“Really?”

What the hell, Tyson?!

“I imagine being young and all, you got a lot of experience with social media managing, huh?”

“Just with my stuff,”

Tyson was walking back into his office from the break room.

“Tyson!” Sebastian yelled out.

The entire office went silent. Audrey squinted as she got the brunt of the yell. Sebastian apologized to her and excused himself.

___

Once they got into the office, Sebastian closed the door behind him. Tyson sat at his desk and took a sip of his coffee.

“You didn’t tell me you were hiring high school musical,”

Tyson chuckled, “What?”

Sebastian gestured to outside the office, but Tyson still wasn’t following.

“Everybody out there just graduated highschool,”

“That’s a bit of an exaggeration, Seb.”

“Is it? My point is everyone out there is younger than us!”

“And that’s a problem?”

“C’mon you know what I mean. I thought the people we hired would be our age or older. Maybe two 19-year-olds here and there… What I’m trying to get at is, where are the credentials? Almost everyone I talked to dropped out of college. What experience do they have?”

“To be fair, you’re a college drop out too.”

“Yeah, but do you see what I had to do to get a job? I had to start my company earning peanuts because no one wanted to touch me without experience or a degree.”

“And I thought because of that, you of all people would welcome these guys.”

“I am. I just wasn’t expecting the entire staff to be like that.”

Tyson grinned. The grin that could calm storms.

“It’s gonna be alright, Seb. I promise. I wouldn’t have hired these people if I didn’t see something special.”

Sebastian nodded, then smiled. “What did you see special in Audrey?”

Tyson burst into laughter, “I’m gonna be honest, man. I don’t remember much about that. I know she was mad cute and very persuasive.”

“Yeah, I bet,”

They share a laugh again. Sebastian stared through the glass. The group of inexperienced people littered the open area. Sebastian and Tyson had their work cut out for them. But together they would overcome it like they’ve done with everything else.

“So did we really have nothing the experienced people wanted?” Sebastian asked. “Are we that bad?”

“There were a few that wanted the job, but the salary budget happened to be much lower than I thought. We can’t afford them. No degree and no experience comes a lot cheaper.”

Sebastian nodded in agreement. Tyson set his coffee cup down. A sigh escaped his lips..

“I got to tell you something, man. We hired one person with a degree, and a sizable chunk of the budget went to her… But I’m gonna need you to keep an open mind about this-”

“What the hell is she doing here!?”

Sebastian felt like the floor beneath him became the ocean, and he would lose his footing any second.

Why the hell is Valerie here?!

To Be Continued...

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I’m Not a Robot (로봇이 아니야; Robosi Aniya) is a South Korean television series starring Yoo Seung-ho, Chae Soo-bin and Um Ki-joon. It is written by Kim Sun-mi and directed by Jung Dae-yoon. Producing the series for MBC is May Queen Pictures. It aired on MBC from December 6, 2017 to January 25, 2018 on Wednesdays and Thursdays at 21:55 (KST) for 32 episodes.

The Cast

[Main] Yoo Seung-ho as Kim Min-kyu (28 years old) Chae Soo-bin as Jo Ji-ah (28 years old) / Aji 3 Um Ki-joon as Hong Baek-kyun (34 years old)

[Minor] Santa Maria team Park Se-wan as “Pai” Angela Jin (30 years old) Song Jae-ryong as “Hoktal” Kang Dong-won (33 years old) Kim Min-kyu as “Ssanip” Eddie Park (31 years old)

KM Financial Kang Ki-young as Hwang Yoo-chul (28 years old) Hwang Seung-eon as Ye Ri-el (28 years old)

People around Ji Ah Seo Dong-won as Jo Jin-bae Lee Min-ji as Sun-hye (28 years old) Yoon So-mi as Hong-ju (28 years old) Lee Han-seo as Jo Dong-hyun (8 years old)

The Plot

Kim Min-kyu (Yoo Seung-ho) lives an isolated life due to a severe allergy to other people. He develops extreme rashes that rapidly spread throughout his body once he makes any form of skin contact. Jo Ji-ah (Chae Soo-bin) is a woman who is trying to make it in life by creating her own businesses. However, after an encounter with Min-kyu, she ends up pretending to be a robot in place of the supposed Aji 3 robot. The Aji 3 robot was developed by Ji-ah’s ex-boyfriend, professor Hong Baek-kyun (Um Ki-joon) and his team. The robot was meant to be tested by genius Min-kyu, however an accident caused the robot’s battery to malfunction. As Baek-kyun modeled the robot after Ji-ah, the team ends up recruiting her to take the place of Aji 3.

First Impression

I’m Not a Robot didn’t strike me, at first, as anything interesting so I skipped it. I’m not really a fan of robot stories, much less one that mixes romance with it. Well, not unless it’s anything close to Transformers or Iron Man (I’m Team Tony Stark, sorry) or something akin to it, I’ll probably buy it.

Besides, what are the odds that someone can write some robot shit and love story in one without ruining the story line? Many attempted to do so but failed, so I had my own share of doubts about the drama. From it’s summary, to the choice of cast, the genre and themes. There are so much to worry about.

Plus, the ratings are really low when it aired and people’s reviews were bluntly realistic in a sense. Well, it made sense to me when I haven’t seen the drama yet, but now I think they are just being plain mean and judgmental or just had too much expectations since it’s an MBC produced drama and Yoo Seung Ho is the lead.

I don’t really enjoy criticizing a drama not unless it’s that bad. And I’m Not A Robot isn’t a failure, if you ask me. Finishing it put all my doubts and worries to rest.

Review

Cutie Min Kyu with the Human Allergy

I think that starting the drama with a question and a mystery was a good way to buy the viewers interest.

During the first episode, we see Kim Min Kyu enter a room, I guess, to an interview for his mandatory military enlistment. He must have been in that kind of situation in the past and all the time they think he was just making up excuse not to fulfill his duty to his country, but it’s quite funny to see the officers’ reactions when he revealed the reason why he can’t fulfill his enlistment–he is allergic to humans when his skin merely comes in contact with them. They think it’s a contagious disease and almost bathed in antiseptic.

I thought it was pathetic for people to think that, but at the same time I felt sorry for Min Kyu for getting the kind of rare skin allergy. Nonetheless, this caught my curiosity. I had my own question: why is he allergic to human contact? Is it even possible to be allergic to humans? If so, what caused for him to turn out the way he is? I have a clue as to why but I didn’t really want to get too ahead in the game. All I knew is that it has to be psychosomatic; meaning, he exhibits physical symptoms because of a psychological cause or stress.

On a brighter note, I am blessed to see a really cute side of Min Kyu after his visit to the base. Call it cliche; Min Kyu is a filthy rich 28-year old bachelor, but has the rare character that of a child. He’s so serious, snobbish and untouchable one moment, but has the naivete of a child. I’m not sure if people realized why he’s like that when they watched this, but I’m sure that it rooted from the isolation his allergy to humans caused him.

Just imagine yourself unable to touch another human. Imagine yourself putting up with it with no moral support around you, just an empty house in your inheritance, a huge company to one day rule, a gardener to be your guide, an awful lot of pretending people around you whom you couldn’t trust. I guess, it would really result to him depending on his own, learning on his own–with only books and movies to guide him through, resulting to a man with less knowledge of what life is really like. He was enclosed in a box filled with darkness that he didn’t know what it was like to be under the bright sun or how it’s like to love someone or what it’s like to do things. I think this is the reason why he was so dumb to realize that Aji 3 isn’t really a robot but Ji Ah, who is a human.

Not realizing this might make the story look really dumb, so I’m trying to make a point here if I even make sense to anyone else. Because of this, it made everything else really amusing; the fact that because it’s Min Kyu they were fooling that the plan of putting Ji Ah through the robot act made it foolproof and the fact in which even Santa Maria and Ji Ah are so frustrated and dumbfounded he wouldn’t get a hint she isn’t the real deal. It makes the entire mood comical and light.

And I guess, because it’s Yoo Seung Ho acting that I didn’t find Min Kyu annoying for being so dumb. In fact, he made Min Kyu a really sensible character, adorably charming even. His smile is always so precious and the moment he did that during the first episode when celebrating ‘Pretty’s birthday was so cute I wanted to pinch his cheeks. The depth of his character isn’t nonsense at all, in fact his backstory is really believable for me.

Ji Ah the Human Aji 3

If there is one thing I am really good at, that is doubting. Chae Soo Bin isn’t really a favorite of mine since her last antagonistic role in Sassy Go Go, where in she acted as the backstabbing and lying best friend of the main lead (played by Jung Eun Ji).

That’s also part of the reason why I avoided watching I’m Not A Robot as much as possible, because I felt like once I hate someone because of a particular role they played in the past that truly annoyed me, I would probably hate them forever. Nonetheless, I think I am getting over this pace just like with how I used to criticize Suzy or Park Min Young and I don’t regret any second I spent watching and giving Chae Soo Bin a chance. There’s no doubt she is an actress, a versatile one at that, that you know will do well whether it’s an anti-hero or lead female role.

She proved herself with being a double role with Ji Ah and Aji 3.

Getting to the point, I think she portrayed the misfit Ji Ah really well. At first, we come to learn that Ji Ah isn’t really bright and looks probably dumb to her peers, even her brother who graduated law; this is quite emphasized by her low IQ. That is really fine, though, with me since Chae Soo Bin didn’t really make Ji Ah seem annoying unlike a couple of heroines I’ve seen in the past who has the innocent character but are just really dumb.

Though this emphasis doesn’t really back up the fact that Ji Ah is innovative in her own way, where in she has a way of creating simple inventions, albeit as eccentric looking as how her brain works, she can make it work. She can’t just sell her inventions because of her lack of knowledge how to make a business out of it as President Jo, but because of her simple brain, she gains a little fan–who will later be revealed as our cutie Min Kyu!

Ji Ah gets the courage to join a contest to get herself a sponsor for her new invention–her heart lamps that simultaneously light up if you touch one no matter how far the pair is from each other–but she is hit by ups and downs along the way, including a low blow from her very unappreciative older brother, who will later admit Ji Ah must be a genius behind her dumbness; this was a notable scene where the eccentric-looking Doctor Hong Baek Kyun explained how Ji Ah used quantum physics in making her heart lamps without her realizing it.

On the other hand, as the robot Aji 3; the real one, I am quite impressed at how believable Chae Soo Bin acted as a leggit AI robot. As Aji 3, she fascinated me how she managed to act and speak like a robot. Aji 3 is quite refreshing and adorable with her innocent and blunt robot responses that sometimes frustrated Min Kyu for the lack thereof emotion from her.

With Ji Ah pretending to be Aji 3, I think this is where I get the most comedy from. Ji Ah’s reactions are just so precious, like that time when she reacted out of surprise of seeing Min Kyu after their unexpected squabble over a toy that they almost killed each other for, that I can’t help but anticipate for the next dumb and un-robot like thing she will do.

Min Kyu made the situation even better and even laughable by believing her poor acting as a robot that it’s hilarious. Plus, it is always so much better whenever she is in ‘friend mode’, as Doctor Hong called it, and is either fearlessly swearing at Min Kyu and the latter letting her or just being a friend to our lonely hero who apparently only has his appliances as friends.

With Aji 3 in the picture, Min Kyu finds a precious friend in the human he thinks is a robot. The friendship and trust Min Kyu allowed himself to give Aji 3 credit for, made it possible for him to get cured from her disease, not because of the thought she is a real robot, but instead because he thinks he finally found something real; something that will not betray him.

Chae Soo Bin is able to create a picture of a female lead in Ji Ah and Aji 3, who is filled with warmth, hopes and dreams, and a brightness that sets the mood of the drama to a really lighter note. She’s really pretty too and can really act as a nice girl apart from her old image that I stuck to.

A Unique, Bright Concept and Romance

I’m Not A Robot is arguably going to be your favorite in terms of concept and the adorable, bright, albeit unconventional romance of a human and another human pretending to be a robot.

There’s no dull moments in this drama and the heart fluttering romance is surely something you can indulge on if you’re up for some light romance with a touch of drama. It is so simple yet so complicated you will laugh at the thought of Min Kyu thinking he fell in love with a robot, though unknown to him, he is in fact right in liking this robot because she’s definitely a human. This really brings me back to the old Hana Kimi feels where in the second lead doubted himself because he was crushing on another guy, not knowing that this guy is in fact a girl pretending to be a guy. Ironic, right? Possibly dumb, but very effective to create laughs.

Then on one side, you will totally sympathize with Min Kyu as he starts learning other feelings because of Aji 3. Watching him grow and improve, with his human allergy almost gone, does really make me proud like a mother watching her son grow up. He’s just so cute and innocent, but with a secret angst about betrayal that I watch with a broken heart when he found out Ji Ah is in fact his Aji 3. He thought everything is a lie. That all they went through was too and this really almost killed him. That was probably one of the saddest parts of this series, but I guess, because Min Kyu learned to love Ji Ah as her, that it outweighed the mistrust and eventually he learned to move on from the shadows of his past, curing his illness in the process.

I love that the drama is able to use the robot concept well, in a very refreshing light that doesn’t feel too much or too less. The graphics or effects are absolutely stunning and realistic that I can give five stars for the visuals of it as a whole. And I am glad that they were able to remain faithful to the concept, not wavering one bit throughout the entire storyline

I think to this point that everything is just right. Just perfect that I still feel my heart flutter with thoughts of the story from time to time. Being reminded of I’m Not A Robot makes me fall in love with it over and over again because of these reasons. You won’t get bored every single moment of it.

Chemistry & Bromance is Real

In the beginning, I am not really sure whether Yoo Seung Ho and Chae Soo Bin will click, but I have not seen any moment in the drama where they became awkward or anything. In fact, Yoo Seung Ho as Min Kyu, with googly eyes and an adorable puppy personality, made me believe he truly likes Ji Ah as a robot and as a human. It’s so real I don’t mind them dating.

Then here comes my second and third favorite pair in respective order. (1) Sun Hye and Hoktal – this pair really only proves that opposite attracts. Sun Hye definitely has a unique taste with boys. She comes off as a playful character that doesn’t seriously date, but then when choosing between the cool Ssanip or the conservative Hoktal–that says the opposite of what he really means, she sees beyond the facade and chooses the guy everyone would probably think she won’t choose. (2) Doctor Hong and Pai – the relationship of these two took years in the making. You can probably relate their progress to that of a walking turtle; slowly but surely. Probably Doctor Hong’s lingering feelings for Ji Ah also became a hindrance for him to realize too late his affection for the timid Pai, who later takes the advise of Sun Hye and learned to come out of her own shell. Nonetheless, they are just as cute as the other pairs.

Let’s also not forget the cute bromantic pairs! Ssanip and Hoktal is probably my top bromance pair, leaving me in a heap of laughter with most of their antics. They are quite an unseparable duo to the point Ssanip thirdwheels even when Hoktal and Sun Hye already started dating. It’s like they were a package deal and he can never be left behind.

I also like the Min Kyu and Jo Jin Bae pair.  Together they are a mix of hot and cold. In terms of work, Min Kyu is the boss and Jin Bae is his loyal subordinate. On the other hand, when it comes to Ji Ah, it is fun to always watch whenever Min Kyu’s personality mellows and he resembles a puppy around Jin Bae, his future brother-in-law, always trying to please him. Even going out of his way to hire him again when Jin Bae tried to end his contract with Min Gyu.

Of course, the Min Kyu and Hong Baek Kyun pair also fairs. Though I won’t mind if there was some kind of tension that escalated to some sort of fist fight between them because of Jia, I’m not complaining that they got along instead. It seemed anticlimactic though that it didn’t happen, but it’s not disappointing that Doctor Hong became Min Kyu’s hyung instead and everyone is happy.

Lovable Supporting Characters

I think I have not loved supporting characters as I loved the ones in this drama. They just have very rich character and backstory that I felt more connected to them than not. It made the encounter with these characters even more personal and more human as the store went on, because despite the allegorical portrayal of some themes, these people’s emotions, words and actions made it simple for us to understand their point in a very relatable manner.

Santa Maria Team. I am dumbfounded every time these people bond, because their jokes aren’t really that funny, but their skills are so superior I believed they are real inventors that can do anything and everything. Santa Maria, on top of that, isn’t just a group of people with a hobby of creating robots, but instead a family that has loyalty for each other, is humble and really hardworking.

Doctor Hong Baek Kyun. Though I still can’t believe he’s Jo Ji Ah’s ex-boyfriend–who she calls ‘Fungus Guy’ by the way–I am hands down that Doctor Hong is a genius. Aji 3 is probably his most notable work, but I think there’s no doubt he can do so much more. Plus, I think you know now why he named the robot ‘A Ji 3’ and even created her in the image of Ji Ah; he was so hung up with his ex that is!

Nonetheless, Doctor Hong may be smart, but because he’s so focused at his craft that love always came second to him and eventually since Ji Ah isn’t really in the same league as him that they grew apart. Sharing something in common with Pai made them both more compatible with each other, though there’s no doubt constant bickering is expected of two very common personality.

Pai. To be honest, I found it a little hard to empathize with her character at first because she was too quiet and it looked like she didn’t like Ji Ah very much. But when I realized the reason is because he likes Doctor Hong, all I could complain from then is how annoying her curly curls were and how plain she dressed up. I could tell she is really pretty without the curls and the glasses that I am really happy she changed her appearance for the better but maintained her simple personality. She’s so enduring and so loyal to Doctor Hong that I am also quite happy her one-sided crush with him didn’t end in vain.

Sun Hye. I was thinking that this girl is going to be the typical sidekick that has no real depth in the series, but then it turns out Sun Hye is our modern cupid. Her looks makes her seem intimidating, but it is always quite fun whenever she opens her mouth and says something poetic and predictive and it always comes true. Truly, she is a love guru, who gladly found her own happy ever after with Hoktal. And also a loyal best friend that has a bag of wisdom that often help our protagonists clear their heads.

Ye Ri El. She comes off with a common bitch vibe at first glance, especially when she treats Min Kyu–who liked her for years since he was a kid–coldly and doesn’t acknowledge his efforts of winning her with his sincerity, but I guess it wasn’t really her fault Min Kyu misunderstood her. Her father was the one who continuously wrote to Min Kyu, anyway, pretending to be her, paving her fate by being Min Kyu’s first love and probably last.

I was just happy, though it made the build up turn anti-climatic and kind of get to waste, that she didn’t got with her daddy’s plans and followed her heart when she realized it wasn’t Min Kyu but Yoo Chul she likes and decided to pursue her own path.

Hwang Yoo Chul. I was determined Yoo Chul was going to be the ultimate villain with some vengeful plan in store for Min Kyu that will probably bring him to tears and make him pay with revenge at some point, but his role is almost similar to Ri El, where in he draws back and finds his conscience and admits to his own faults. I find it really  cool though, how he found the strength to ask for forgiveness and do the right thing even if it will compromise his father’s position. It made me respect him and cross him out of the blacklisted characters’ list I kept in my head,

Jo Jin Bae. I found older brother such a jerk when he got mad at Ji Ah for doing what she wants, because though it sounds too far-fetched and fruitless, an older sibling shouldn’t discourage their less privileged younger sister, right? I mean, he should have at least supported her not make her feel like crap more than the situation already was. Gladly, I think Jin Bae grew a pair and came to appreciate Ji Ah and saw how beautiful her her heart was beyond her 80 IQ.

Over All

If you want a cute and light romance, with a set of bright characters and superb acting, that has an easy and steady approach to its overall plot, I’m Not A Robot is going to be the perfect choice. Not only it is sweet, but also filled with underlying lessons about love and life figuratively placed across the story line.

I especially love that they tackled about the lives of different people with almost the same dilemma in the world; people who can’t find a place to belong to and who are struggling all the same whether it was about their dreams and aspirations or simply with getting by life in its tendency to put you into a loneliness that can break you or just finding someone who will sincerely love them. Because they were people yearning for these things that somehow they must have unconsciously found each other, somewhere to belong to.

Notably, I truly appreciate, too, the philosophical take on love; how sometimes the truest love can be in the form of the sweetest yet ugliest lie. This kind of love has seen negative effect most of the time, probably due to the motive of the doer. But I guess, not everyone has bad intentions towards the recipient of their actions. Sometimes you love someone so much that you have to lie to them in order to prevent them from hurting, but you basically hurt them in the process after all, especially if it comes to the point where in they learn about the truth in the most painful way.

“There are times when lying to a friend is better than telling them the truth.”

That’s why I was able to totally relate with Min Kyu when he found out Ji Ah was really his A Ji 3. I mean, it was nice he found someone that really is a mirror image of Aji 3. The idea of it was so dreamy and too impossible that wishing and looking from a distance at something you don’t think can happen and is too far-fetched would be great until it last. I am just glad that his love for her reigned and he was able to see the truth past the big lie.

I know lying may hurt and looking past through it takes so much courage, but if the person is worth it, why not?

“The deeper the love, the deeper the wound. He must have liked you more than you thought.”

In terms of the plot, I must say I commend the drama for having such a light story despite incorporating corruption and politics in the business sense, it’s a relief the story didn’t dive deeper into exploring that area and having our cutie Min Kyu turn into another protagonist fighting for his position in the office or battling for his inheritance for his parents’ sake or something like that. It will only make the story darker and I guess that’s not what the production is aiming for. Since the story have to be easy to watch and light for the heart, I love that they focused more on the romance and the relationship of the characters with each other. By doing this, I think we see a more graspable human story.

What I think  I will call an only ‘miss’ for this drama is the sort of sweet, but really fast-paced and mediocre ending. I guess, because I have invested so much time and emotions during the first 31 episodes that I didn’t expect the ending to just show a few seconds of heaven with how our team is doing. Yes, everyone seems happy and all but it doesn’t really say much or I might have expected so much more. But then, seeing Min Kyu finally get discharged from the military after two years, Jo Ji Ah finally doing good business with her heart lamps, and that sweet ending kiss made up for the miss.

Anyway, I think I got what I signed up for. The drama has hinted on a couple of ideas to which they left it open to the imagination to fill in the blanks. Just like what does Aji 3 really look like after the makeover? They said they will change her face and I guess they turned her to a male robot that they named after the late President of KM Financial. If so, does this mean he will look like the late president or…? Another example is when after all what happened, they didn’t really reveal the identity of Madame X. This mysterious character helped Min Kyu a lot with his battles against those who wished to take over KM Financial, but it isn’t really clear who she is, right? My only guess is that she is either the gardener or the lady Min Kyu talked to and said she is only there to represent Madame X. But then a guess can only remain a guess and we can only wish they will spill the beans.

See my point? They left some questions unanswered not because they want to leave us hanging or they just have a way to end it properly, but instead I think they did it to give us the liberty to find out for ourselves or imagine what comes next. So, even if some were left unsaid and it’s truly quite frustrating, I am not really that upset about it, it just makes me think from time to time what the answer to those questions are.

Nonetheless, I really had a fun time. I say it’s cool and if I will revisit this drama one day, I won’t really mind. Giving it a rating, I think 4.8 out of 5 is perfect.

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