#yes i have an english degree

[moonlight-prose]

jobs that ask for a cover letter should pay me more.

#yes i have an english degree #doesn't mean you deserve me using it #if i have to devote an hour to writing this perfectly #i should get paid more than minimum wage #witch aunt talks✨

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

the fact that shakespeare was a playwright is sometimes so funny to me. just the concept of the "greatest writer of the English language" being a random 450-year-old entertainer, a 16th cent pop cultural sensation (thanks in large part to puns & dirty jokes & verbiage & a long-running appeal to commoners). and his work was made to be watched not read, but in the classroom teachers just hand us his scripts and say "that's literature"

just...imagine it's 2450 A.D. and English Lit students are regularly going into 100k debt writing postdoc theses on The Simpsons screenplays. the original animation hasn't even been preserved, it's literally just scripts and the occasional SDH subtitles.txt. they've been republished more times than the Bible

#due to the Great Data Decay academics write viciously argumentative articles on which episodes aired in what order #at conferences professors have known to engage in physically violent altercations whilst debating the air date number of household viewers #90% of the couch gags have been lost and there is a billion dollar trade in counterfeit “lost copies” #serious note: i'll be honest i always assumed it was english imperialism that made shakespeare so inescapable in the 19th/20th cent #like his writing should have become obscure at the same level of his contemporaries #but british imperialists needed an ENGLISH LANGUAGE (and BRITISH) writer to venerate #and shakespeare wrote so many damn things that there was a humongous body of work just sitting there waiting to be culturally exploited... #i know it didn't happen like this but i imagine a English Parliament House Committee Member For The Education Of The Masses or something #cartoonishly stumbling over a dusty cobwebbed crate labelled the Complete Works of Shakespeare #and going 'Eureka! this shall make excellent propoganda for fabricating a national identity in a time of great social unrest. #it will be a cornerstone of our elitist educational institutions for centuries to come! long live our decaying empire!' #'what good fortune that this used to be accessible and entertaining to mainstream illiterate audience members... #..but now we can strip that away and make it a difficult & alienating foundation of a Classical Education! just like the latin language :)' #anyway maybe there's no such thing as the 'greatest writer of x language' in ANY language? #maybe there are just different styles and yes levels of expertise and skill but also a high degree of subjectivity #and variance in the way that we as individuals and members of different cultures/time periods experience any work of media #and that's okay! and should be acknowledged!!! and allow us to give ourselves permission to broaden our horizons #and explore the stories of marginalized/underappreciated creators #instead of worshiping the List of Top 10 Best (aka Most Famous) Whatevers Of All Time/A Certain Time Period #anyways things are famous for a reason and that reason has little to do with innate “value” #and much more to do with how it plays into the interests of powerful institutions motivated to influence our shared cultural narratives #so i'm not saying 'stop teaching shakespeare'. but like...maybe classrooms should stop using it as busy work that (by accident or designs) #happens to alienate a large number of students who could otherwise be engaging critically with works that feel more relevant to their world #(by merit of not being 4 centuries old or lacking necessary historical context or requiring untaught translation skills) #and yeah...MAYBE our educational institutions could spend less time/money on shakespeare critical analysis and more on... #...any of thousands of underfunded areas of literary research i literally (pun!) don't know where to begin #oh and p.s. the modern publishing world is in shambles and it would be neat if schoolwork could include modern works? #beautiful complicated socially relevant works of literature are published every year. it's not just the 'classics' that have value #and actually modern publications are probably an easier way for students to learn the basics. since lesson plans don't have to include the #important historical/cultural context many teens need for 20+ year old media (which is older than their entire lived experience fyi)

[acheemient]

Is it really even fanfiction if you don't use the word "ministrations"?

#i submit that it is not! #ministrations #fanfiction #fandom #good omens #supernatural #our flag means death #ineffable husbands #sherlock #cuz why the fuck not #doctor who #all the nonsense #they all use ministrations #tell me i'm wrong #see?? you can't! #i may be suffering exhaustion #idek anymore #and yes i know my quotation marks are wrong but I have an english degree and a tenuous grip on reality #and if i want to abuse that degree #then I'm gonna do it goddammit! #paid more than the civil war cost for it so I'm certainly gonna use it wrong #okay byeeee

[essektheylyss]

Debating if I should go harder on the classification snob shaming. I think I will let my rant sit in drafts overnight. Make better decisions in the morning lmao.

#know that if you have an LIS degree and you're snobbish about color organization i have it out for you personally #like oh I'm sorry. i thought we were all sporting anti-dewey pins and stickers now. or was that just for the vibes. #some people think better in color and space than topics or genres or the fucking english alphabet. MANY people even. #wonder why that might be! can't imagine. gee. lets all think about it real hard. #also my genre system is so fucking imperfect i sometimes think my spouse would have no difference in use if i switched to color #I am increasingly a genre anarchist frankly. i am getting FED UP #yes i am having a lot of fun in KO in particular and i am making it everyone's problem.

[milo-the-professional-yapper]

I will say- despite the controversy surrounding it, I still think Hazbin has so much potential. The fandom only really knows about the first half of the season (most of it leaks out of context, at that), and multiple critic reviews have said that the show does get a lot better the more it goes on (even if they’ve technically only seen to episode 5).

That’s is why I won’t let other people dictate how I interpret the show. Especially some random person on the internet who didn’t like the show to begin with. I will watch it in full and come to my own conclusion with the writing and story direction. I know I shouldn’t be concerned with peoples opinions on the internet anyways- but, I’m usually very open to discussing criticism against something I like. For instance, there’s a few things with the creator in general I’m very much against- but that doesn’t not damper my love for the show itself. The show and the creator are two separate entities. That being said- With the amount of unnecessary hate this show also gets, I am going to take most people’s opinions of it with a grain of salt.

There’s potential here for Hazbin to be amazing- and I really do have faith in it. It may be off to a rocky start, but I think once it’s all out there- it’ll settle down. It could also be terrible- who knows? We won’t until the full season is out.

Anyways, I apologize for yapping so much. I may come back and edit this once I actually watch the full season- but right now I have a lot of hope for the future of this series. The only thing really bringing it down right now is the rampant unnecessary hate.

#hazbin hotel #opinion #my favorite thing to do ever is analyze media and interpret it in my own way #so you better bet I’ll be doing an analysis of each episode that releases #I have a professional degree in yapping fr #actually it’s chemistry but I did really well in English in high school trust #yes I have many thoughts about that one Angel dust scene as well #you will hear them #if you don’t like the show that’s fine #just don’t invalidate people who do/actually resonate with the story #vivziepop #vivzieverse #helluva boss

[astrxealis]

btw to filipino moots im gna be an arenean B) or iskolar ng bayan who knows!

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #my only choices for college r the big 4 personally i'm so sorrey ... but minus ust tbh bcs i rlly dont want to be a thomasian LOL #IT'S JUST REALLY PERSONAL i don't like the culture of ust & etc . i have my reasons. dlsu is ok but ateneo or up is my Dream #may be a surprise but i've always been a straight a student and real smart :3 even in anything to do w filipino #but that is the one thing that drags my grades (slightly) down ..... but my math is so exemplary and i get perfect computer anything always #bs cs future major hereee but since i want ateneo i'm going for dual degree cs bs-dgdd #yeehaw i never talk abt really real life stuff like this but this is still okey #one day u might get a face revea but only for my eyes bcs im sorta obsessed w and unfortunately think im really cute. so #ANYWAY !!!!! excited for college tbh. scared. but yes! #i havent finished my admu app but it is due friday i am so crazy LMFAOOOOOOO but i have recos alr <3 yay <33 #rlly confident in myself but i want to be careful and really get what i desevre. gna do my best and try to get top 15% AND MAYBE even 200 #but that one specifically is sorta crazy but tbf i could achieve it if i study a bit more :P so ya #it's amazing bcs ... english is literally second nature to me BUT i am and have always been amazing at math & sci #always been a math kid and sci kid AND art kid AND eng kid and music too and computer #idk. just proud of myself. i love me lol #there's a lot to it but no need to get into specifics :3 im just happy w myself yay!

[dullahandyke]

sigh actually whatd fix me is getting into shit that nobody i know knows abt so theres no expectations or whatever. my blade of the immortal arc was soooo good for me

#^ he is literally doing an english degree because he likes having opinions on shit #and KNOWS hes smart and even better at it than some people in his course #but he gets scared that fandom-types are gonna think he has the wrong interpretations of shit #girl get the fuck over yourself #^ this is representative of a greater issue where whenever hes talking to anyway he kind of just says 'yes sure' #because its easier than actually finding out what he thinks and articulating it #not even in a people pleaser way i dont think! literally just. #if i agree with someone then i dont have to battle these fuckshit words and come up with a coherant answer #bcos whenever i start cooking my own shit im like 40% incoherent which is bad odds when youre saying more than 3 sentences #girl you need to stop masking you need to get weirder. take pauses and shit #but whenevr i take pauses all other thoughts vanish in favour of #'wow you are taking a pause look at you not talking' #shut UP back there!!! #conversation is sooo hard u guys....

[love-rats]

me when the academically challenging degree at the academically challenging university i prayed i'd get into turns out to be academically challenging

#rambles #before you come at me yes i know an english degree isn't technically the hardest thing but i'm drowning here folks pls let me complain #plus this university is so out of touch it's insane it's pissing me off #i've been doing so well with getting all my essays in on time but i'm SO TIRED and my mental health is the worst it's been #not that i have imposter syndrome because i have no right to feel that in this fucking institution but i could do with a second of rest

[smute]

so im moving back home next month to save some money during my last semester of grad school, and as grateful as i am for even having that option, a not so small part of me is very scared that it may turn out to be... not quite as temporary as i am currently hoping it will be🙂

#i am looking forward to getting rid of this expensive apartment #and im just extremely grateful that i get to have a little grace period #where i dont have to worry about making rent for a little while #but im also wondering if i might be putting myself in a situation that will potentially be very difficult to... well. escape #my financial situation is less than ideal #(thats a euphemism) #the interest rate on my student loan has exploded since last year #(up from 3.7% last september to 8%. yes. eight per cent. i actually had to increase my monthly payouts just to cover the interest payments) #and its forcing me to rethink all of my plans #for the future #rn its looking like that might be the final nail in the coffin for my phd plans #(just as i was starting to get over my impostor syndrome too) #so. what the hell do you do with 2 english degrees when you suddenly cant afford to do the one thing those degrees are actually good for? #the answer is not a whole lot #finding another place to live in the near future will be harder than ever #and as much as i love my parents #i cant stay with them for more than a year #i will lose my mind #or what little is left of it lol #so yeah #the sky seems awfully dark all of a sudden #ill be fine once they take me out back and shoot me etc etc #but anyways #just a little life update i guess #do me a favor and ignore this #i dont think i can handle any sympathy rn #and i definitely cant handle any antipathy lmao #i just needed to get this out #tbd

[gaast]

Would you rather batch all your farts for your whole life so you never fart once except at the end of it all you get to hear yourself let loose the single most profound, bowel-defining, amazing fart of your entire life (with the risk that maybe the best fart of your life is still a shitty fart) or would you rather fart all your farts when you normally would as you live but you go in ascending order of fart quality all-time.

#i have a masters degree in english #and yes the premise accepts a certain level of fart fatalism which is the concept that all farts are preordained #also i realized midparagraph that not everybody watches jabroni mike and therefore not everybody will have a frame of reference for batchin

[hella1975]

im being so serious besties i am not cut out for academia

#like yes i know ive had a very uniquely shit experience in doing a degree i actively not only hate but also am BAD AT #but also i just. cannot hack it #'but hella you go mental and pessimistic every single exam period' i know that but. im right also #like the other day i said to my mum how much ive just been enjoying my job recently #and how huge a deal that is bc i HATE my hometown and ive never ever considered my time here as possibly being good #and my 20s will hopefully be a lot of travelling but in between that to save easier im gonna live at home #so i dont have to worry about rent so alas that means when im saving up for my next trip I WILL BE IN MY HOMETOWN #and as excited as i am for my twenties that is one huge downside to me but i was really cheerfully saying to my mum #that literally for the first time ever ive considered it might not be too bad bc lately i have just enjoyed my job #like i enjoy the people and the work and the lifestyle of it and while it's never gonna be ideal as a means to an end it's actually good #and instead of focussing on that she went OFF on one about how she wants me to stay in education and keep getting qualifications #and she was like 'you could do an english degree you've always wanted to do english or how about open university-' #and i was just sat there blinking at her like girl.... no #like i could FEEL myself shutting down like the terror of having to return to this environment when ive got my sight so set #on that 'one more year and im done one more year and im done' mindset like that has been the only thing getting my through #is that im halfway through the course now so im closer to the other end than i am the beginning and if i can just push through #ill be free from it for the rest of my life. so the thought of immediately returning to academia even for a subject i adore? i felt ILL #and my mum apologised the next day without me even having to say anything bc she realised she kinda bulldozed me there #but i just know whether it's the adhd or ive actually been traumatised by this econ degree #(<- and im being serious there like ik 'traumatised' is a big loaded word but idk what else to use #and this degree has done so so much damage to me like it has convinced me that i am fundamentally a stupid person #to the point i refuse to add up bills when with friends or do answer any sort of intellectual question even if i KNOW i know the answer #bc ive just gone so so long of being bad at the only subject im studying like just SURROUNDED by it and being bad at it relentlessly #and i dont think people realise how damaging it is to very simply just... feel stupid all the time. but oh my god i used to be so confident #and bright and now i wont even do basic addition in front of people) #i really truly dont think i can do this again in any capacity. like the constant exams and studying and assignments #i just cant do it. maybe i just need a year or two away from it after this degree but my goddddd rn i cant see it #yes it's exam time for me can u tell. it always makes me existential and on the verge of vomiting at any given moment #i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here i dont care about iterated deletion of strictly dominated strategies shut the fuck up #hella goes to uni

[lonepower]

for shits and giggles (and also just because i kind of hate the official steam version lmao) i am slowly working my way through my own translation of noel the mortal fate (even though i can BARELY read japanese. like i can read hiragana and approximately four(4) kanji. and that's. it asdf) and man. it is SO interesting from a source/target perspective

obviously there's the fact that japanese grammar is NOTHING like english grammar and its... information density?... is a lot higher, so a lot more connotation can fit into a much smaller amount of sentence and there just... Is Not a way to translate it without taking pretty significant liberties

but also i'm learning so many fun idioms. cybilla says that stella stage "entered the competition with their shoes on" when she's talking about them tampering with the results, which is just. a very japanese idiom. (I suppose the English equivalent would be "dragging it through the mud" which isn't That different conceptually?)

anyway tl;dr i love translation theory

#really this is an exercise in 'how well can i approximate a translation from a bunch of online dictionaries and Q&A forums' #and the answer is 'not very well but i'm having fun with it' #also it BOTHERS me that both versions took out all of the english that was already there! especially since it was so interesting!!!! #i am ROTATING jililan's original title being 'puppet cinderella'. WHY'D THEY REMOVE THAT #this has been a post #look man i can't get an advanced degree in Just Translation Philosophy and it's my favorite part of linguistics so i have to enrich myself #omehow. yes i'm a giant nerd. shut up. shut up

[sad--tree]

keep saying i don't want 2 work another retail xmas but canNOT 4 the life of me make myself finish my goddamn fucking job applications !!!!!! death & dying & despair etc. etc.

#i dont dislike the application process for gc jobs on principle BUT #it does not mesh well w/ my difficulties re: starting & finishing tasks #but like i understand why u cant just send in a resume n hit done #NOT that there are many IT listings up atm...... and ill apply 4 clerical/admin stuff too #but an IT-1 STARTS a good $10k a year higher than a CR-5 soooooo :/// #which is whatever its fine money isnt everything!! ill gladly make less if it means not hating my job!!! #but i also wanna. u know. LIVE. move out of my parents house. buy brand name snacks occasionally. maybe -gasp- go on a vacation #(not 2 say i dont make an attempt at travel now but thats with very finite savings that are def only going down not up) #also extremely frustrating 2 me the emphasis put on having a degree that completely locks me out of certain job categories #like. yes. there are for sure some where having the bg knowledge is important eg. an AU (auditor/accountant) or MA (methodologist) #and there are certain skills a degree (in theory) provides eg critical thinking research etc. #but not all of us have $40k+ to get tge fancy piece of paper saying we have those things. and u can have those skills w/o a degree #and smth like an EC which needs a degree in economics sociology or statistics is so arbitrary #and maybe not necessarily actually based in the majority of work done by the majority of positions in that category #ANYWAYS not me being bitter abt education standards YET AGAIN lol #idek if i could go to uni even if i could afford it. even tho i have 2 college diplomas id probably have 2 redo my grade 12 english 😶‍🌫️ #also if money were no object id probably go for like. film studies or smth lol not sociology #tho. ngl. if i had the willpower and determination 4 smth so rigorous (i 100% dont) accounting does seem. interesting asdffhkkfdghh #ANYWAYS pt. 2 all this 2 say this is why i instead spent $10k+ on the only possible 2 yr diploma #that can still get u in2 the higher paying public service jobs. even tho ive discovered i Dont Particularly Care for programming. :( #thats an understatement actually i was actively in hell for like 80% of that program and the remaining 20% mostly wasnt coding

[moregraceful]

obviously when writing is hard, it's HARD but i think i don't talk enough abt that moment where i'm reading back something i wrote in a wip and i go, damn, this kicks butt. you know? that moment when you're reading back a scene and you're like, this does what i wanted it to in a way that i am pleased with. those smalls wins, that's the kind of thing that keeps me going during the early draft process

#not that these wins will not have to be edited ofc! but it's nice when it comes together in a way i'm proud of #like yes i AM a capable writer yes this fanfic IS a good use of my english degree #cool stories with kasper

[yuribalisms]

Essentially what it is all boiling down to is I have fully realized I am bad at being a person, that will always be true, and I don’t know how to handle that

#I’m going to be depressing and self depreciating in the tags so. fair warning to anyone who reads them #I’ve known for a while now that I don’t know what to do with my life. I’ve thought of a few ideas but none of them seem to be working. and I #think a good chunk of what it’s boiling down to is that I am quite literally just stupid when it comes to an actual useful real life skills. #and it’s frustrating because I can’t even talk to ppl I know and confide in them that I feel dumb and stupid without them being like ‘nooooo #don’t say that! you’re not stupid! you were top of your class in hs!’ (that is their favorite thing to fall back on) but like. the thing is #I wasn’t even smart in hs. sure I did good but that’s because I cheated my way through and got lucky a lot. I never actually learned anythin #I never understood what I was being taught or how to apply it. I was good at English and art classes and that was it those were the only one #I truly felt I knew what I was doing in and grasped the subject matter well. I know I’m good at those two things and smart when it comes to #those subjects. but the thing is. in real life. both of those are useless skills. I can’t make money with them and it is highly unlikely #that will ever change. and yes I know not being able to make money with it doesn’t mean it’s useless but like it kinda does. capitalism #sucks. I know that. we all do. but that doesn’t change that we live in a capitalist society and it’s unlikely to actual change in my lifetim #so I’m stuck to try and figure out how to live in it. but I have no skills I can make money with so I will live my entire life poor and #miserable and working dead end jobs that make me want to kill myself. I’m not good at socialization I’m so fucking bad at it so I can’t work #any kind of job that hinges on networking or sales or human interaction which is MOST JOBS but I’m also too stupid for anything related to #STEM. I tried two different stem degrees and flunked out of both of them because I am a FUCKING IDIOT and I know there’s no point in trying #to go back to school for another one. but no degree in anything I naturally have a knack for will help me find a decent well paying job. ill #just be wasting my money to go to school for something like that. and then like. I don’t even think I’ll ever get married and I def won’t #ever have kids. so I can’t even put any hopeful stock in just being happy with a family one day. I know a lot of ppl who don’t like their #careers but they’re fine with that because they’re happy with their family but like I don’t even have that and I won’t ever have that. I #have NOTHING to strive for and NOTHING I am good at that’s meaningful I’m going to fail at having a career and a family and I know that #doesn’t mean I won’t be happy in theory but by societal standards I am and always will be a fucking failure of a person and since I do live #in this society yeah. it’s kinda fucking true. and I don’t know what to do about that. I’m just tired. I’m tired of being afraid and #struggling and going through patches of wanting to kill myself because of this because like what’s the point. I’ll never have anything #better so what in the actual hell is the point of me existing. and I know I’m being ridiculous and my brain is eating itself and none of #this is probably even true but that doesn’t change that it FEELS like it is a lot of times and esp right now and I don’t know what to do #to anyone who reads this I’ll be fine tbh prob as soon as tomorrow like dw about it I just need to get it out so I stop stewing in it. #I’m just. yeah. not having a great time rn but I left work so I’m gonna cry and then maybe sleep for a bit and hope that helps #kaz rambles

[simmonsized]

I've been thinking a lot abt fanfiction lately

And that like, beyond just saying "anyone can write it" because anyone can, one of my favorite parts is that sometimes, your favorite fanfiction author is a person working at a fabric store with no degree who you think writes smart, and sometimes the person has a bio-engineering degree and only writes filthy, beloved PWPs, and how both of those things are SO good, and maybe a little funny in some ways

But I also think about how like, a lot of the time now, as fandoms age and time passes, sometimes your favorite writer is actually a 50-year old mother of four who was writing in webrings before I even discovered LJ and how I actually know people who used to pass fanworks through email and watch their favorite shows on VHS mailed to each other and it's just really cool like

All these things that connect us, and how age and occupation and even generation doesn't necessarily matter, how some fanfic writers are published authors but they still post on ao3 and how cool it is for people to love something so much they do it for free

#part of this is about how many of my friends have english degrees and how intimidating i find that #part of it is how nice people have been to me even before i went back to school and started my degree #and part of it is how many people i have actually met who write fanfic and have actual bio-engineering or medical degrees LOL #this is specifically about fanfiction like yes i mentioned the fandom space thing but like specifically fanfic writers #because its SO much work to do for free #sometimes people work 12 hours shifts and still sneak in time to write so passionately and i really truly love that