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Excited to share this item from my #etsy shop: Green Aventurine and Citrine Ring, Hippie Ring, Spiritual Ring, Wire Wrapped Ring https://etsy.me/3kwIAZa

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Which pills are hard to swallow for you? ❤️❤️ #spiritual #spirituality #1111 #spiritualawakening

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Avoidant (or Anxious) Personality Disorder

This is very similar to generalized social phobia. Those with the disorder think of themselves as being inadequate, unlikeable and socially inept. They fear being rejected, criticised or ridiculed and would rather avoid most social situations. The reasons can differ may be related to emotional neglect and peer group rejection in childhood and/ or adolescence. Symptoms may include the following:

- Hypersensitivity to rejection/criticism

- Self-imposed social isolation

- Extreme shyness or anxiety in social situations. (However, the person still has a strong desire for close and meaningful relationships)

- May avoid physical contact with others (because it is associated with emotional or physical pain)

- Painful feelings of inadequacy

- Poor self-esteem

- Intense feelings of self consciousness

- Self hatred or self-loathing

- Mistrust of others

- Emotional distancing/ fear of intimacy

- Highly critical of their ability to relate naturally and appropriately to others

- Do not feel they can connect with others (although others may view them as easy to relate to)

- Intense feelings of inferiority.

In more extreme cases, may suffer from agoraphobia.

Treatment approaches include social skills training, cognitive therapy, gradually increasing exposure to social situations, group therapy and, occasionally, drug therapy. Gaining and keeping the client’s trust is essential for progress to be made.

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Okay. Gardening 101; or “Auntie Sys I have a yard that’s currently a yard and don’t know SHIT or FUCK about how to make it not be a boring-ass yard.”

Step 1; go to your local landfill and get all of the newspaper you can. Cardboard will also work. If your neighborhood puts them out for recycling, go around and grab them all like a little newspaper goblin.

Step 2; acquire mulch. If you WANT, you can go pay for it at a garden store, but we’re all cheap lazy bitches here so screw that. Most landfills will collect yard waste and branches and chip them into woodchips, which you can get for PENNIES or FREE. Go load up on that good shit.

I like straw too, which I can get for barter because I am related to half the people around here and a solid 65% of my extended family are farmers. I give Uncle Daryl three quarts of elderberry jelly or a couple pounds of morels in spring and he loads me up with straw bales.

Step 3; figure what parts of grass you want to be not-grass, and cover that shit in newspaper, good and thick. 5-10 layers. It helps to wet the newspaper to keep it from blowing away as you work.

Now, cover that newspaper with a good thick layer of mulch.

Congrats, you’re removing the grass. It’ll starve to death under the mulch and newspaper and rot into compost. You now have garden beds and have not dug one single bit of sod.

If you can’t wait for six months to plant, pull the mulch aside, cut a hole in the newspaper, and dig out a plug of sod the size of the planting hole. Throw some compost in there and plant. Tuck mulch back around plant. Water well.

There ya go. Garden beds. In a year, when you pull back the mulch the newspaper will be almost rotted away, and the soil underneath soft and loamy.

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sometimes i feel like i don’t know who i am

#text #my feelings #rants and rambles #thoughts #my feels #words #my words

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having a relationship is not what will make you whole!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#shouting this as loudly as i can to MYSELF #love suggestion #suggest #suggestion #positive suggestions #self care #love yourself #self love

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i don’t wanna love you anymore

i don’t wanna feel love for you anymore if i can’t give it to you

i need to love myself right now.

#problems #ugh #love #i dont love you #i dont love you anymore #i dont wanna love you anymore #vent #rant #rants n rambles #internal ramblings #ramblings

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decided i’m only going to do beautiful things from now on

#sometimes hopeful #words #thoughts #my thoughts #rants n rambles #internal ramblings

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sometimes it’s like the smoke never stops leaving my lungs

i’m not totally empty

#words #poetry #spiled thoughts #spilled thoughts #spilled journal #spilled poetry #spilled words #my words #my work #yeah #stuff

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HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO FEEL ALIVE AGAIN?

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my heart is an open door

held inside a barbed wire cage

#spilled words #spilled feelings #spilled journal #spilled thoughts #poetblr #my poem #words #written #love #my heart #feels #my feels #feelings

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pain aches in waves of intensity

coming in steadily but quickly

the pain will ring so loud you can hear nothing else

but soon the pain washes away like the tide

like waves rolling back

like an animal crawling back into hiding

pain fades away

don’t let the ringing blind you

#idk #vent #rant #rambling

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surrounded with love.

#love #spilled thoughts #words #my words #rants n rambles #ramblings

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you can’t start a fire with wood from the creek.

i miss the touch that felt like home, my muscle memory remembers it so well it feels like something is missing.

like a ghost just breathing down my neck, you’re there but you’re not.

i miss the laughs i had laying on your chest, nothing was really that funny but we were just laughing at each other and nothing felt funnier.

i miss your love, although it’s still there and still alive, there is nothing i can do with it.

what feels like an anchor pulling down on my heart in my chest is really just the lack of you, the constant lack of you.

i can’t do anything with my love to give because it feels like i throw it in a bottomless pit, and i’ll never see it bounce back.

i need a love that is like a match and a brick, because i’m ready to strike.

you can’t start a fire with wood from the creek.

#my first poem #my writing #mine #ramblings #my poem #my poetry #my poetic life #my poerty #poem #writing #original writing #original poem #my art #my art shit #tumblr diary #diary #online diary #my words #spilled poetry #spilled words #spilled wisdom #spilled thoughts #spilled poem #loss #love #heartbreak #boyfriend #ex #sad

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surround yourself with what you want to be. if you want to be at peace find things that bring you and make you feel peace in your life. surround yourself and fill your head with good things and good things will come from you. joy is our natural state of being but so many things drive us away from our natural being. find yourself in what you choose to surround yourself with- fill your life with magic. life is what we make it, our thoughts dictate our beliefs and our beliefs dictate our croons so watch what you tell yourself and watch how you think.

#rambling #ramblings #spilled thoughts #words #my words #writing #my writing #spilled journal #spilled feelings #feels #vent #rant #rants n rambles

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i hate that you’re still on my mind

you’re out of my life but i can’t get you out of my head.

#get out #spilled thoughts #spilled words #words #my words #heart break #heart broken #sad #moving on #break up #relationship #poetblog #poetblr #spilled feelings #spilled journal #feels #feelings #my feels #my feelings

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my bed is made neatly

and i sit on top of it and cry

i scream silently

and hear my heart breaking

in my state of solitude,

i feel like everyone is always leaving.

what is supposed to come of this?

what is supposed to come of this?

#lonely #sad #poetblog #poetblr #my words #my feels #feelings #spilled thoughts #spilled feelings