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26zcl · 2 years

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genre : angst. just angst.

"Hey, angel what's with the long face?" Your boyfriend – Donghyuck asked in a worried tone, bothered by how painfully silent you were over Valentine's dinner. It was difficult for you to muster up enough courage in telling him - No, not now. Guilt invaded your entirety, how can you hurt such a perfect man? Or even think of doing so? "Hmm, a penny for your thoughts?" He gave you a warm smile and waited for you attentively across the table. Whether you wanted to tell him or not, he made sure not to show a hint of apprehension. Donghyuck never wanted you to feel pressured about telling him anything, he respected you above all. But even so, this was far more complex than a simple bad day and it killed you. Not knowing where to start, you bit your lips and looked down at your plate, attempting to stop the tears that threatened to fall. "Hyuck, I fell out of love" Lies. "I just– can't do it anymore" Another lie.

You felt your throat closing up, an ominous silence filled up the reserved bistro. He remained calm, proceeded to eat his plate of strip steak frites with bearnaise butter, after he froze for what felt like an eternity. "The food is great, we should come back here for our 6th Anniversary next month." There, the same warm, soft smile that once gave you comfort - but tonight, it felt somber and foreign to the both of you. The clock was ticking as he fell into silence once more. "Lee Donghyuck–" "Baby, are you feeling cold? Here have my jacket, just give it back whenever" A chuckle escaped his plump– now, quivering lips. He was deliberately ignoring you, even more so when he tried drastically changing the topic. "Hyuck, please. Im begging you to let me go." He now looked at you– but this time, tears welled up in his eyes, he replied with a cracked voice. "Do you wanna go home?" Desperately gathered all his strength just to give you the same smile. "Hyuck, Please." "Where did I go wrong?" The smile was gone - all there was a fragile man, wanting to turn back time.

"We made love last night, Y/n. I just, cant believe it. Up until now, we were talking about getting married and having kids of our own." It shattered him, but it was the only way to protect him from you. Even so, you were also hurting. Because of the fact that no matter how much you wanted to be with him, there was no future for you– for the both of you. It was unfair and cruel. He then collected himself, whatever ounce of strength was left. "You don't have to give back my hoodies, I can pick them up myself one by one on different days – whenever I start missing you even more." He stood up and carefully took your bag with his free hand. "For the last time, please let me drive you home. It's late." It was too painful, you couldn't stop your tears from falling no matter how hard you tried.

The whole ride felt like a blur, both of you weren't on your right minds to even say something logical. You were now leaning against the door frame, standing across the man you absolutely wrecked. Before you could say goodbye, he handed you a small box – a ring box. You feared of opening it, but still did without thinking. Alas, It was an engagement ring. "I planned on proposing tonight. But... you know, I can't force myself on you. Even so, please, I want you to keep it." You responded with a nod. "I know Im asking too much, can I kiss you for the last time?" Though a bit hesitant, a nod was received from you. He leaned in with a trace of sadness, your eyes locked and met his. Maybe time stopped when your lips met, but the longing and fear of losing each other only intensified. He kissed you, It always felt like the first time. How addictively he tasted, how soft his lips felt against yours, how he consumed your whole being– It felt like home.

You felt a hot liquid streaming down his face, you knew he was hurting. Both of you were. But then again, you were a sick– dying woman. You could only lie and keep it from him, maybe it'll hurt less after he find someone new.

Maybe, just maybe in another life. Both of you could have a happy ending.

A/N : I will be writing more angst on tumblr!! If you have any plot suggestions, pls do submit it and I'll probably bring it to life (if i have the time, that is) I hope you liked this!! its my first ever angst hihi and Im happy to learn more <3

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