darlingtranquility

[darlingtranquility]

17 May 2023

Hi Darlings,

I hope anyone reading is doing well. 

Just a small update as I’m sitting here tonight.

I got back from tour about 2.5 weeks ago. I can honestly say it was one of the most incredible experiences I have had yet. Being paid to travel and do what I love is absolutely surreal to me. I’m not quite up to my dream level of touring yet, but it’s an amazing start. Most of my job was being in charge of backline, but on a few occasions I got to work the audio side of things and was able to run monitors for one of the openers. I can see myself doing this for the long run if I’m being completely honest. Who would’ve thought I would know what I wanted to pursue - and actually be on that path - at the age of 25? Insane.

I will say though, that after being around a bunch of people a bit older than I am (though not by much), I’ve started taking my health very seriously. Witnessing some of the struggles some have, someone else having a huge scare, and myself just not having the strength to be able to do everything asked of me have all had a huge impact on me. I’ve started doing exercise programs involving just my own body weight for just now. I plan to eventually start adding weight and then getting back into a gym to lift again (given I find the right place - there aren’t many options in my area unfortunately). I’ve been consistent for about 2 weeks now and am already starting to feel so much better, both physically and mentally. 

I’m doing this the right way this time. I can admittedly say that myself from 2 years ago, while at the lightest I’ve every been, was not the healthiest version of me. I was in such a dark place. I don’t ever want to see that version of myself again.

Here’s to a healthier future.

All the Love XxX

#tour #audio engineering #audio #travel #stay healthy #mental health #health

[darlingtranquility]

04 April 2023

Ahhh the awaited update to nobody but myself..

Hello My Darlings!

So much has happened since the last update in January. Things as a production manager at the venue have been going really well! Still loving it. Right at the beginning of February I was invited back out to a music festival in Miami to assist in the recording portion of it all. It was super chaotic (as usual), but still incredibly fun nonetheless. I’ve already been confirmed for next year as well. 

That weekend, I was with the band I recorded an album with as they Grammy awards were announced. Low and behold - we snagged the win. My first every album recording and I can say I have a Grammy for it. It still has yet to completely set in and it’s been almost 2 months. 

I’m writing this now from a hotel room in Cleveland, Ohio as I have now been asked to join the group on their first leg of their US tour. So far, it has been absolutely incredible. I’m completely exhausted, but it’s so worth it. I’ve known that I have been incredibly spoiled in my journey so far, but it’s only becoming more and more clear to me as the days have gone by on the road. Everything has been happening so quickly for me and I am forever grateful for it. After being so discouraged for almost 2 years, to making it up in less than 1 - I can’t even begin to describe how incredible my life has been. 

I just want to thank the higher beings and anyone and everyone else who has been with me helping me along in this journey. It almost seems like all of this is a dream. I feel as though one day I’m going to wake up and be back in that dark place I was in last year. I hope I never see that form of myself ever again. 

All the Love XxX

#audio #audio eningeer #grammy #live sound #touring #grateful #blessed #allthelove

[darlingtranquility]

23 January 2023

Hello My Darlings,

It’s been quite a long time, hasn’t it? Just over 2 years to be more accurate. I hope you are doing well!

Things are so much better than any of the previous times I’ve been around. Whether or not I stay again is still undecided, but I figured I would update whoever may see this.

Last you all knew, I was interning with a small radio station in my hometown. I was there for about 2 years. I officially graduated from audio school and continued on my journey with radio broadcast for a little while. 

February 2022, I came across an opportunity through my alma mater. It was another intern opportunity - so even though I had already completed my internship, I jumped on it. I actually got the chance to jump back into the recording industry, even if it were just 2 weeks. I then received my first credit in my career as an assistant recording engineer for an album - and it happened to later get nominated for a Grammy (fingers crossed). Just 2 months after that, my mentor asked me to come to a music festival to help record out in Miami, and then just a week after that, I moved down to Dallas. The venue we recorded the album in had offered me a job in Live Sound.

As of January 21st, I’ve been here for about 8 months now, and I have already worked my way up to Front of House and Production Manager at my venue. I am incredibly happy. I never thought I would ever get anywhere close to where I am today, and I’ve only just begun. 

If you’re reading this, or have read any of my other posts, I just want to say thank you. Thank you for reading, being silent support. I appreciate it more than anyone will ever know. 

I hope you all are doing well and that this year and the future holds only great things for you. 

XxX All the Love XxX

#audio #audio engineer #front of house #grammy #thankful #allthelove

[darlingtranquility]

20 January 2021

Jesus it’s been a long time, hasn’t it?

Happy Holidays and Happy New Year to you all. 

I can’t remember (and I probably should have looked before attempting to update everything) if I told you all about landing an internship? Either way, I am now a broadcasting intern at a radio station in my hometown. While it’s fun and I am beyond grateful for the experience, I can’t help but look forward to the days where I can finally leave my hometown again and move on to bigger and better things. 

I miss being in recording studios. I miss working in live sound. I reminisce with my co-workers a lot about it and while they’re some of the best memories and experiences, it puts me back in such a dark mood. It’s hard to look back at something that I worked so hard to achieve and had grasped in my fingertips, only for a pandemic to rip it away like it was nothing. 

I have no doubt it will come back. When it does, I plan on getting right back into it. This isn’t going to stop me. It’s just an inconvenience at the moment. 

I hope you’re all doing well and staying safe and healthy.

XxX All the Love XxX 

#all the love #audio #audio eningeer #audio engineering #live sound #broadcast

[darlingtranquility]

7 September 2020

Hi Darlings, 

How are you doing? I hope you’re all well. 

I’m doing a lot better mentally than I was last time I posted, so I suppose that’s a good thing. I’m not 100% okay, but I’m getting closer. Still no luck with my internship and I’m getting super anxious and frustrated. My deadline for my hours due is getting closer, but it seems like my coordinator isn’t too concerned. What happens when I don’t get there in time? Does anything happen? Am I going to be punished for the lack on interest from other people? I’ve only gotten one interview in the past month. Am I doing something wrong? Just in the wrong place? What do I do?

Hopefully something happens soon. I need to do something. I’m going insane being cooped up in my room all day. It’s not like I’ve got anything else to do, ya know? I’ve been mixing for some supplemental hours, but that’s not going to get me through the internship program. I’ve gone hiking, I’ve explored my surroundings, I’ve been reading, and I’ve even dabbled a bit in songwriting, but I’m here for audio engineering. If my coordinator doesn’t think I’ll have luck out here, maybe let me know so I can figure something else out..

ANYWAYS! I hope you’re all doing amazingly. I believe in you, you’re doing great in life. I see you working hard for what you love. Stay healthy, stay safe, and please wear a mask. 

All the Love XxX

#allthelove #audio #audio engineer #wear a fucking mask people #internship #anxiety #Stay Safe #stay healthy

[darlingtranquility]

31 August 2020

Hello Darlings,

How are you today?

Truthfully, today has been one of the roughest I’ve had in a long time. 

I woke up this morning to the news of a friend from high school and work passing away last night. They think it may have been a brain aneurysm. I’m heartbroken and numb. I don’t know how to process this news. She was truly a ray of sunshine in this world and was taken home way too soon.

Later today I got word about my interview with the studio I mentioned previously. Though I thought I had done well during the interview process, I was passed on. The position had been given to someone else. This was honestly just the last straw. 

I’ve been in Nashville for a month now and I have had no luck in securing a spot for my internship. I’m behind my classmates now and am now falling behind the cycle below me. I am beyond frustrated not only with myself, but with everyone involved in the process thus far. I feel like I’m just not good enough for everyone. I’ve been doing my absolute best since I had started school and have continued working hard since I left, but right now.. it just feels pointless. Everything is stagnant for me and I’m just so frustrated. Am I really not good enough for people? Is it because I’m a woman in this industry? What am I doing wrong? Am I doing something wrong? I just want to know what I need to do so that I can keep moving forward. 

Sorry for my little rant, but I just needed to get this out somewhere. I hope you’re all doing well and staying safe and healthy. Please remember that you deserve nothing but this best in the world. If you feel like you’re alone and no one believes in you, you have me. I’m with you. I believe in you with all of my heart. 

All the Love XxX

#allthelove #audio #audioengineer #stay healthy #Stay Safe #intern #internship

[darlingtranquility]

29 August 2020

Hello Darlings!

How have you been? It’s been such a long time, but things have been absolutely insane on my end. I’ve finished my classes, moved across the country, and have started the internship portion of my school’s program. 

I had my first interview yesterday with a studio. I personally think it went really well, but I won’t know until Monday. It’s with a big studio on Music Row in Nashville. An absolute dream to even be considered. Fingers crossed and positive vibes. Hopefully I make the cut. 

The world is crazy right now. I hope you’re all taking care of yourselves and staying safe. Wear your mask, keep your distance, wash your hands, love one another. 

Stay safe, stay kind.

All the Love XxX

#allthelove #audio #audioengineer #recording #music #intern #nashville #music row #stay safe #wearadamnmask #stay kind

[darlingtranquility]

2 July 2020

Hello Darlings,

How have you been? I hope you’ve been well. 

I’ve been back in classes for about a month now. Let me tell you, I’ve missed it so much. Two and a half months of sitting around, not on a console... man. It’s not something I would like to do again.. 

I have been quite anxious this past week though. Living in a hotspot with everyone throwing all caution to the wind does not help. Nobody cares about the pandemic, everything has been shut down again, and let me tell you, not a fan. 

Please please please take this pandemic seriously. We won’t be able to get over it if we don’t take this seriously. Masks are great. Wear them. Distance is great. Stay away from people. Don’t like it? Stay home. 

I have finals next week, so I’ll be super busy with studies for a while. I’m hoping to ace them all. 

I hope you all take care of yourselves. Stay healthy, stay safe. 

All the Love XxX

#allthelove #hi #finals #audio #audio engineer #pandemic #stay safe #stay healthy

[darlingtranquility]

4 June 2020

Hello my Darlings,

How have you been? 

I’ve finally started classes again and I couldn’t be happier. Nearly 3 months away from a sound board is not a good thing for me. Everything is coming back fairly quickly - Thank God. Hopefully things stay on track from now on. 

ANYWAYS! I hope you’re all doing well and taking care of yourselves. Your health is super important. Stay safe as well.

All the Love XxX

#allthelove #audio #audio engineer #stay healthy #stay safe

[darlingtranquility]

29 May 2020

Hello Darlings,

It’s been such a long time since I’ve posted and I apologize. So much has been happening here recently.

I have returned to AZ about a week ago. It’s hot. Averaging about 105 daily already. 

Things have gone a bit crazy, and it’s completely understandable. George Floyd’s murder has sparked an outrage - rightfully so. I am so sick and tired of seeing innocent men and women dying due to the color of their skin. Why is it that we are still fighting this fight? Why are we accepting the fact that there are still people who FEAR going out of their homes, fear being themselves, fear walking home with skittles, fear of being pulled over, fear of playing like a normal child? I am so sick of it. 

I am sick of people putting more value on materialistic things and jobs than they do living, breathing human beings. Buildings and jobs can be replaced, but lives cannot be. 

If you’re reading this, please be active. Stand up, fight, sign petitions, protest, educate the people around you. DO NOT JUST SIT QUIETLY! Please for the love of all that is good, don’t just sit there and expect things to get better, because they won’t. This is not just a trend for the weekend, this is a real problem that has been happening daily for longer than a lot of us have been alive. Our country was founded on this behavior and built on this racism, built on the fear we have given others. IT NEEDS TO END NOW!

For those out there in the protests, thank you, please stay safe.

To George Floyd, I am so sorry. My heart broke when I found out about your murder.

To George’s Family, my love and prayers go out to you. I will not stand by and let his death be forgotten. I will fight with the rest to ensure that this does not keep happening. 

I have not and will not forget the names of the black men and women who have wrongfully lost their lives. I stand with you. I fight with you and for you. Always. 

I hope everyone is staying safe and healthy.

All the Love XxX

#blm #blacklivesmatter #fight #i stand with you #i fight for you #i fight with you #silenceisviolence #love #peace #i am so tired #i love you #allthelove #stay safe #stay healthy

[darlingtranquility]

15 April 2020

Hello Darlings,

Long time no see. How have you all been?

I’m decent I suppose. My mental health again is not so good, but I’m trying to get through it. Not much has happened since the last time I posted. Just quarantine, nothing more, nothing less. It’s quite boring. 

I hope you’re all doing well and staying healthy. 

All the Love XxX

#quarantine #allthelove #darling #mental health #hi

[darlingtranquility]

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[darlingtranquility]

6 April 2020

Hello Darlings,

This is technically my second post today (go me), but the previous was made at about 1am. I’m terribly at falling asleep. I wasn’t able to fall asleep until about 5:30am, but that’s alright, it’s not like there was much to do today anyway.

I finally got myself to workout today. That’s been the most difficult thing about being back home. I don’t have the self discipline that I had while living alone. I’m not sure what’s different, but I can never seem to make myself be as healthy as I can when I’m living by myself. 

I also went for a lovely walk today - just myself and my music. There are few things that top that for me (my standards aren’t very high, are they?).

I hope you’re all doing well and staying healthy. 

All the Love XxX

#allthelove #darling #cant sleep #music #audio engineer #stay healthy #health

[darlingtranquility]

6 April 2020

Hello my Darlings,

How are you all doing? 

Since my last post, I’ve been doing a bit better. I went on a walk and got out of the house (alone - social distancing my friends) and learned a new dance. (More background revealed - I danced for about 7 years)

I’m going stir-crazy still and I miss my classmates dearly. I wish we could start the new normal sooner rather than later. I don’t know how I’m going to stay cooped up without classes for another 2 months. The world is in a crazy state right now. 

I hope you’re all doing well and staying healthy. Please stay indoors at all possible times. 

My prayers go out to everyone in the world and I hope they find you well my darlings.

All the Love XxX

[darlingtranquility]

4 April 2020

Hello Darlings,

I hope this finds you well. 

I’m going to be completely honest with you all. My mental health is going down the drain at this point in time. As a bit of background, I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety quite early on (anxiety when I was around 8 years old and depression at 15 years old) - so this whole situation isn’t going well for me right now. 

I think it has a lot to do with the fact that I am now living back home with my family and I have fallen back into the same routine that I had WAAAYYYY back. I haven’t been able to adjust to the time change and I’ve been back for over a month now, and I’ve fallen into the bad routine of eating whenever I’m bored, which then causes me to feel shitty about myself, and so on. Sheltering in place is not a good thing for me. Who’d have thought such an introverted homebody would have such a difficult time with this?

Anyways! I am however starting a project with a friend because technology is wonderful nowadays. I didn’t bring any of my equipment with me because I wasn’t planning on staying for more than 2 weeks, but with classes out until at least the second week in June, I stayed put. (Side track, sorry. BACK TO THE COLLAB) He’s found a site that we can collaborate on and I can help on the mixing side of things with my lovely trained hearing. :D

I’m hoping this helps me at least slightly. I don’t know what I’m going to do if I don’t find something sooner rather than later. 

I hope you’re all staying indoors as much as possibly and staying healthy. 

My prayers go out to everyone.

All the Love XxX

#isolation #stay healthy #love #mental health #allthelove #audio #audio engineer

[darlingtranquility]

30 March 2020

Hello Darlings,

Normally my double posts are more positive than anything, but unfortunately this one is not. I need to vent just a tiny bit, even if no one reads this. 

I am not the most confident person. I like to think that I don’t care what people think of me, but obviously that’s not true. I have low self esteem - though it is a lot better than it was going through school. 

So far, I’ve been doing pretty well, and I don’t get bothered too often. I’ve been going to the gym and eating healthy since I moved out almost a year ago, and have lost nearly 20lbs. 

Now I am back home - have been for about a month and I haven’t been able to go to the gym, eat what my parents cook, and have went back to my old sedentary, over-eating ways and have been feeling awful about myself. 

Normally, I would just start doing home workouts - which I am, and I would be totally okay (or as okay as I usually am). This time is different though. My brother said some extremely low and hurtful things under his breath to me today and I can’t get it out of my head. All regarding my weight/appearance. He’s quite quick witted and likes to pick on people in a joking manner, but he’s never said anything nearly as hurtful as what he’s said today. 

I’m not sure what’s gotten into him, but I’m not okay with it. I don’t know what to do about it - if anything. 

Anyways. End of rant. 

Good Night, Good Morning, or Good Afternoon wherever you guys may be. 

All the Love XxX

#mental health #love #allthelove #darling #self esteem #health #stay home

[darlingtranquility]

Hello my lovelies

I just wanted to drop in and check up on you all.

I hope you're all taking care of yourselves and staying indoors as much as possible.

I'm going a bit stir-crazy right now, but it will all be alright.

Much love to you all. 💗