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I find myself sad when I'm alone

Yet I'm so hype when I explode

Yes I'm happy because I chugged drugs

And no I'm not thinking clearly because I'm manic

I'm sadder than I ever have been before

Because I find that my friends are all dead

Completely pretend.

#dextromethorphan #drug addict problems #dxm #artists on tumblr #art #weird core #black and white #collage #electronic #hip hop #female poets #addiction poetry #short poems #poets corner #dead poets society #poetry #poetsofinstagram #short poem #poems on life #sad poem #love poem #drug poem #poemsaboutlove #poem

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everything can wait! / it’s time to rest…

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frozen etchings inked within the iris, the link of darkness, harsh mind & harsh eyes, bloodshot dilation, awareness & suppression, that which is, repressed by the remains of such, trauma & terror, akin to the first dying lights, of life & of hope, dwelling within such endless withdrawal, such self loathing, the corruption of innocence, a naive notion of self narration, the darkened markings, pestilence & patience, feeding upon the corpse, marked as sinner, solution of acidic dissolution, akin to such illumination; forevermore, the endless moments, etched within my mind, forevermore, unable to express such hollow decay, forevermore, sharpness which dwells within my hollow mind.

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As soon as I wake each day

I regret opening my eyes

Sleep is death without commitment

And I know it's selfish but that's where I like to stay

I wish to be far away, in a land I can call my own

But when the nightmares come I see my headstone.

I try so hard to block it out but I want to know what living is really all about.

See I've spent so much time dying inside, surviving long enough to go to sleep again.

So now I'm here learning a new way because I really don't want to merely float away.

#poets on poetry #poets on tumblr #addiction poetry #short poems #dead poets society #poetry #poetscommunity #short poem #poets corner #female poets #new poets society

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I miss robotripping and it sux because my DOC is a "kiddie drug"

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She's a sad girl with a broken soul

Her hearts in pieces and she gives them all away

She would like to stay

But like I said she's crumbled away...

#rehab #broken #sad girl #addiction

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I know what's right

Though times are tight

I don't need a line

To get me through the night

I'm fucking sick of the thoughts that surround me

Every day

So I'm going to grip the bed I lay in

And cry once again today.

They say the best thing and worst thing

Is I get my feelings back,

But I'll deal with it because I have to get my life on track.

I can't disappoint again,

But I'm telling you FUCK THIS DEPRESSION!

But regardless I'm here sober as shit

I'm not losing myself again

Even if that means

Crying for three hours and feeling like I'm off the walls

But it's just PAWS Destiny

So take a deep breath

Because you don't want to make a decision permanent.

So cry let it all out then wipe the tears away with ink stained fingers, and start a new day.

-the mind of an addict pt.I

#drug addict problems #dextromethorphan #dxm #art #artists on tumblr #black and white #electronic #collage #girls who like drugs #hip hop #depression #self esteem #self care #just for today

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"The relapse Of the mind"

I don't feel right,

My chest feels tight

I have a pit in my stomach that doesn't exactly feel the greatest.

I've always been the latest to feeling the pain

Cuz all I do is erase it,

Make it go away with the red paint,

Falling out I fainted,

According to my calculations this is when I get aquatinted with the bad thoughts in my mind

Feeling like I can almost trace.

But I draw the line,

This is the last time,

If I can't get it right I guess I'll have to say goodbye.

-D.M Rose

#drug addict problems #art #dextromethorphan #dxm #artists on tumblr #black and white #collage #electronic #girls who like drugs #hip hop #drug addict #poets on tumblr #poets on poetry #addiction poetry #dead poets society #poems on life #sad poem #short poems

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Self esteem post ✨🖤

#self esteem #prettty #drug addict problems #dxm #dextromethorphan #black and white #art #artists on tumblr #electronic #collage #girls who like drugs #hip hop #recovering alcoholic #recovering addict #we do recover #clean energy #clean af #follow for follow

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"Poetry of an unproductive princess"

I fell in the dirt a few too many times.

The cuts and bruises are still there from the briars of lies.

10,000 showers can not wash away the dirt. It's a stain now.

It's part of me, it shows my worth.

I'm looking for my tiara, I don't know where she went,

Maybe I lost her when my knees hit the pavement.

The princess who cannot be crowned queen,

Because shes the black sheep of the kingdom and the royal family.

The path is long and she takes it with longevity,

But she's shaking, she's so wobbly,

Dehydrated and she cannot speak,

Her vision is blurred from the lack of sleep

From staying up all damn week,

Obsessing about this stupid tiara that doesn't really matter to me/her,

Because she/I know we'll never truly be crowned queen.

(The unproductive princess sounds sweeter to say than the dry teenage drunk/junkie. I'm okay don't worry this is just something I wrote in detox)

#poets on tumblr #addiction poetry #mental health #non fiction fiction #art #artists on tumblr #black and white #collage #electronic #girls who like drugs #dxm #drug addict problems #hip hop #dextromethorphan #princess #sad poem #dust yourself off

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This is me high as shit on certain substances *cough* meth *cough* dxm *cough* alcohol *cough* and completely suffering.

This is me now 2 weeks clean off of all substances 🦋

We do recover 🕊️✨🌄

#drug addict problems #dextromethorphan #icebunny #recovering #detox #recovering addict #recovering alcoholic #18 #teenagers #we do recover

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And back to detox we go because I lost my chill and hope and did a lot of shit that makes me feel shameful and my body hurts every wear and my mouth is sore and my jaw is very painful and I cannot sleep no matter how hard I try

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I live my days

Brick by brick

It makes me sick

I build then tear down the walls

Every day

As the needle stings my arm and warms me completely.

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I cried in the shower tonight listening to "it's been a while" by Staind and "Sober" by tool and "the thrill is gone" by bb king because my friend died and I found out today when my dad took me to his grave.... I hate my life

#mind fucked #drug addict problems #fenty #make things go away #numb #impulse #dxm #depression

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"To the windowsssssss to the walls"

#give me attention #girls who like drugs #dextromethorphan #dxm #drug addict problems #artists on tumblr #art #black and white #bad bitches #bad girl #bdsm #tweak twack

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I make random quotes people are never meant to see lol

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Sweating alone in your room trying to get the courage to function as a normal person is the biggest struggle I face everyday...