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P.S. this was inspired by the writing below.

Cold from the shower yet not cold enough to quit. I walk to get suited with the burdensome oxygen take and the fish that make me waddle like a duckling, I wear them as they fit perfectly on my tiny feet. I bed down to check the water as a daily routine. the pool temperature is controlled but the water is still bitter like the cold ocean it logs to be. the bitterness of the water that has a sense of pleasantness too. As I slowly step into the vibrant blue of the pool, it envelopes me leaving only a deformed image on the surface. the vivid coolness of the water takes control as I start to shiver even though I am wearing a full-sleeved swimsuit. As I go deeper into the pool I see everything and everyone with me so clearly as the goggles I wear are clean and crisp. the longer I stay underneath the water surface the more I forget how it feels to be on land. looking up from the floor, the surface looks like a place I would never longed to be part of as the weight from above is lost in the flowing currents of the icy water. the longer I stay below the more it feels like a dream filled with magic and fantasy that came true. as quiet nature absorbs me into its beauty and stillness I lose all my worries one by one. As I return to the surface once again the burdens once lost to the current and silence come back heavier and stronger, making me forget the bliss I felt in the water behind me. but this bliss is not something I lost or forgot, because when I step back into the water it gives me a sense of discovery over and over again. As this cycle repeats, a new fresh feeling and understanding absorbs me as I enter the water once more to breathe.

#scubadiving #blog #blue #creative writing #art #color #writers on tumblr

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Once we reached the airport finding a parking place was quite hard. But after that was done we went to the meeting point right in front of MacDonalds. I left my bags with my dad and walked into the crowd of kids going to Jaipur to try and find my friends. I resurfaced on the other side of this huge crowd where our chaperones were talking to the students coming with us. I got acquainted with my chaperone and checked who was in my group. When I saw the list I noticed there were only two boys who were in my group. My mom was checking the list too and when she saw that there were only two boys she told me that she pitied them as the rest of the girls would tease them.

Once all the people arrived for the trip we took our tickets and IDs from the teachers and started moving into the airport. we said bye to our parents and went through the luggage check-in then the security and we all helped each other as we were getting pretty late to the flight. but in my opinion, the teachers were overthinking because we were one time even though we were the last people to board the flight. the flight there was ok. it was mostly me moving from place to place trying to find the right people to sit with in the end I ended up sitting next to my art teacher. we chatted for a while but the trip mainly consisted of me sleeping through everything going on as I needed to wake up at 4 am.

to be continued-

P.S. I think I wrote too much about the ride there. next one will consist of the things we did there and what it felt like.

#blog #trip #dehradun #flight #journey

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The 'journey' all started a day before the trip. I was getting my things ready because I did not start packing. After all, I needed a package that my mom would send from Shanghai because she works there but visits me, my father and my brother every few months. I was expecting a friend of my mothers to drop the luggage. But what was coming next I was not ready, you see my mom was supposed to come after I came back from the trip but when I went down to get the package no one was there I called the driver he said to wait there. when the car arrived, I thought I was seeing a ghost of my mom in the front seat. I ran to the car for a second look and I was stunned. I almost cried. Later after we were surprised my grandfather told me that she did not think I would get this excited about her coming back. That day after she arrived the whole day was unpacking her luggage and packing my suitcases for the trip. We checked the trip requests on what to take and packed pulling the necessary things out of my closet and her suitcase.

The next morning was quick and efficient. So before I explain more I need to explain the house situation because we have my mom's mother and father's parents living with us. Hence, we divided the house into the house on the 25th floor on my mother's side, where grandmother and the maid lived and on the 23rd where my brother, father and father's side grandparents lived. when my mom visits, she stays with my brother because he is young and very attached to her. So that morning we got ready quickly and we were off to the airport with my half-asleep brother in the back seat I asked my mom to switch me so I could sit in the front seat because my brother was annoying me.

to be continued-

#blog #trip #dehradun #flight #journey

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Hi! It has been a while since I posted because I was busy or forgot to. but the past three weeks were some of the most interesting times. to put it short I went on a trip to Dehradun, had my birthday celebration and New Year. In my family we do not usually celebrate Christmas so we skipped that.

P.S. This post is only a recap I will write more in the post about the trip and what we did.

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As I am not able to post that often any more so here is an India school tradition. We call it annual day.

And sorry again I have been quite busy so enjoy kids doing drama.

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P.S. The video is an audio so listen to it with head phones. she sings really well.

This is Lola one of my closest friends. We decided to do a colab. This is to put her work out and i am helping her put her talent to the world. This colab will be going on for a few posts. This colab will be her singing to songs that mean something and i will be doing some normal blog writing underneath about our life together and other random incidents in my life.

Personal experience of dealing with social norms when I was in 6th grade.

When I moved to China I had to join a school that was so new because of the curriculum the people being so international and the place being completely different and strange. but one thing that made me feel the worst I have ever felt was the people bullying me. because I did not know how to act in an international school I was outside their social norm so people even though they were new as well would push me away and not include me in anything. The people who bullied me would every single day come to my desk and talk about me in front of me they would say things like "You don’t belong here" and "I support Pakistan in the war and not India" Being a person that respects my country the most that hurt and they would make fun of my ethnicity. this was also the case with other Indian students in my grade. people even went as far as pushing me onto the other Indian guy because they thought it was "sweet". once when I was in class the bullies sat in front of me. they were talking to me about how I was not Indian enough as I did not stay as long as this other guy was not even Indian. they would make fun of me for watching kids' shows. I was 11 and had every right to watch what I wanted to watch but their opinions on me made me hate everything about my ethnicity and the things I like. but when I saw the extent of this on other people they were bullying I brought up the courage to go speak to the counsellor. She was an amazing help in understanding what they were doing and in 7th grade, it went too far as many people were hurt because of them. I made a list of this and gave it to the counsellor and she expelled the student who started and influenced all the other students to bullying. but after all that, I was still hiding a lot of myself from many of my friends. but the year 2022 changed many things about me. As I found my best friend, I first her in Spanish class and the first thing we bonded on was reading comics and webtoons we liked. the more I got to know them the better I was able to accept what I like and that I do not need other people's other about what I like. One thing I was afraid to tell was about the i obsession I had with Barbie because of the bullying. but when I realised she also liked the same things and was obsessed with the same thing this allowed me to accept it and make it something we bonded so deeply about. I realized she helped me so much when I was writing this and I am so happy about meeting her 

#bags by clairo #music #cover #blog

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I hate change. I hate moving into a new house and always changing everything in that place to something I like takes a while but for the last 5 weeks it has been like we were on the move 24/7 I guess stuff had to be done but could’ve just stayed in china it was not perfect but it was more than enough even though I wanted more but the feeling I got used to it. but coming to India is so... different. I can’t go out of my compound alone, the art supplies I want are not that easy to find, and don’t even get me started on the school. I love the community the teachers and the students they are all so nice and kind and think of people more than the other school did. but not having the comfort of my friends from China who I have spent 4 years with, it feels so weird and does not sit right in my gut. I miss them I miss doing stupid things in the cafe, on the spider web(we actually do not know the actual name so we call it that), and on the field. it feels weird not to see my favourite librarian in the chair in front of the library or see the counsellor's office on my way to my homeroom. I miss the strict teachers who helped me stay in line the amazing PE teachers who motivated us to finish our course and of course, the awkward and disgusting sex education we had to sit through at the end of the year. I guess I miss them really bad even though I keep talking to them on chat or phone. I want to see them and hug them and do stupid things in the cafe while waiting for our drinks.

wow, that felt amazing to write out. I see why writing is the hyp for all the English teachers.

#blog #art #craft #crafts #animals #flowers #butterfly #emotions #change

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Some very cute flowers I found in my new compound

#blog #flowers #cute flowers #photography

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So, it is my second week at my new school. I like the school but feel it is a lot to take in as I just moved back to India and this place is giving me another wave of culture shock. The moving was ok, and I got settled in pretty quickly. the people are amazing, kind, and caring and my new friend even took me into their group just so I would not feel left out, This was not there in my other school but I am so glad it is there here. But I just feel kind of sad that I left that chaperone and went to a new one I know this is going to be amazing too. I am going to miss all those things I did and the people there even though this is all new to me I know it is going to get better I can just feel it and I mean the second week is way better than the first, to be honest. I know my time in China is not gone, forgotten, or taken away I mean I can go back any time I want as my mother is going to be living there but visiting but because of all this change, I have been second guessing my choice without even giving it try as I wanted to go back on my second day. Writing this made me realize that nothing is saying goodbye but just see you later for a time to get back memories. But enough with the sadness and see you later. I finished the Aru Shah book Series and omg it is one of the best things I have read and still holds on to my top favourite book Series Sorry Percy Jackson. But OMG the last book made me cry tears of joy and sadness and I think I was coping with everything around me using that book. I am glad I wrote all this to get things off my chest and sorry for the length of it as it has been a while since I wrote my heart out. This is also because my friends are too busy to be my therapists, but it is a good thing as I get to share the story with you people. I was going to put a picture of the paper cut but I will do that in another post because of this length.

#blog #reality shifting #change #life #writing #emotions #books

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Sometimes trying to be creative has some backside. Because I keep getting ideas at night at 10 which means I will spend the rest of my time trying to either finish it or get to the point where I know I can not go back so I have to complete the next. This is an issue as I need to wake up in the morning tomorrow. Why does this happen only on those days? Is my brain determined to not let me sleep?

Something I did to day which I will cut out and make it like the other paper cuts.

#paper cut #craft #blog #art #crafts #animals #paper cutout #sleep deprivation #creative

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one of my first online works just refound it so I remembered to upload.

#art #online #procreate #digital art

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Do you sometimes just want a change and decide it will be the wallpaper so you spend about 3 hours making the most neat wallpaper. I do

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This is going to be toughest goodbye I have ever said to all these amazing people that I hopefully will keep I touch. I now this is something I need to do but It is just hard and too exiting to stop but also heart breaking to feel. I am going to miss this place and the people and of course the culture and the memories I have created here.

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I am leaving tomorrow back to India and my nerves are higher than they have ever been. I am so exited jet so worried how this chapter of my life will go. And don’t get me started on the new school, I mean it is amazing but I am worried about the stress and the people I meet. And we also have to take care of my brother as he needs a surgery.

#leaving #moving #new challenge #new champ

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Thank you to everyone who got me to 100 likes!

#100 likes #tumblr milestone #thank you

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Woke up at 12:45 some how I did not think it was possible for me. But I made delicious food. I is dry ramen which my own twist. If you want a recipe ask me.

#food #blog #homemade #ramen

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Hi. It has been awhile and finally school is finished so I have some time on my hands. And because I am shifting I will be busy again. So her is something I worked on over a long time. This is a cover that my friend commissioned me to make for her story that won the Hong Kong Young Writers Award. I had a hard time whither the person but I got to a place I actually like so please go check it out at “https://www.hkywa.com/wp-content/uploads/2023/04/ALL-WINNERS-2.pdf”

#blog #art #color #cover #book #young writers