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natsuyuki-w · 9 months

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Not one of the boys

Twisted wonderland cast realizes that (Yuu) is a girl.

Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 Featuring: Leona, Ruggie, and Jack - Leech twins - Azul

- (Wander) San? Where are you going? No running!- shouted Crewel. - Sorry! 'going to the bathroom! - I excused continuing my rush. - You better not skip PE pup.- - Don't worry professor, they are not. - reassured Ace. - What time... Damn it! I'm already late. - I entered the toilet with the gym bag.

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Period finished a couple of hours later, I heard our Homeroom teacher from afar - (Wander)San again? No running! And where are you going in...- - To the bathroom! - - But...Make sure not to be lat...Never mind. - and eyed me a second time, I was wearing the sporty uniform.

- At least the professors, I'm not asking much right? - I mumbled angrily. - This stupid secrecy...I can't even take a decent shower after gym. - I grumbled some more in the empty bathroom, doing the little I could with the sponge and the water of the sink.

Uncle

- Uncle Leona was so cool at Magift! - Cheered the little intruder sitting on my lap. After the excitement of seeing his relative, since I was the only one giving him attention, he decided to crawl up the sheets and use me as his vent.

- Veeery cool! He was * pwah and then *shwah and then "GOOOAL... Wait...wrong sport. - I recalled the last match. - But you know who's even cooler? - I smirked - The one who can defeat Even your uncle? - I dropped my voice down like telling him a mighty secret.

- Whatch whaddya say Herbivore - threaten the aforementioned. The kid giggled jumping up and down on my knees - Who is it? Who is it? - I cupped a hand to my mouth and waved him closer. - Is Cheka! - And I boopped his nose singing. - 'Cause, 🎶 you're gonna be the main event like no king was before. Brushing up on looking down, and working on your roar! 🎶-

- So loud - groaned the prince. - Hahahhaa yes!!! - The kid's strong cheers covered his lament - Have you heard Uncle Leona? Uncle (Yuu) says I'm the coolest!- Exclaimed the lion cub to the teenager lying in another cot.

- Pfha, She's not an uncle, and I don't care. - - He's right, I wouldn't Dare take that important title from him...- Pause - Wait, what have you just said? - - I don't care - responded the boy -...are we really playing this game? Before that. - - You are not an uncle - and after another suspension added - an aunty perhaps. -

.... - EH????? - Death dropped everyone in the room. Some shocked by the new information, some for the fact that He knew about the secret. I quickly went to his side and bent to face the splatted prince. Cheka followed suit amused by my shocked face. - Wh-what are you talking ab...- but the smirk on his face told me I couldn't deny anything. - But,... How did you know???-

- W-wait, so (Yuu), you really...you really?...- floundered Jack. Deuce and Ace went beside him to pat his shoulders. - I didn't know either. - added Ruggie backing a little. - So, I was actually careful... - I mumbled referring to the astonished duo.

- Hahahhaa Uncle (Yuu) pick me up! - the kid had totally ignored Leona's comment. Too stunned to realize the probable state crime accuse I could face, I hopped him on my hip. - Leona... How,...when?- - Entry ceremony. - - Eeeh? So soon... - - You threw the cape on the cat. That black shirt is fitting.- - B-but,... it was kinda dark.- - I can see well enough. - - But it could've been... a wrinkle of the clothes. -

- The morning after you snooped around our business I saw you two little detectives at the entrance and I eavesdropped. I needed to make sure you stayed in your place ya know? - Then he smirked - Mmmm if I recall it was something about a stunning boy calling you a little lady and a crop top rather than an XXL t-shirt. - Jack was now redder than before, and Adeuce facing each other questioningly. - Phrasing...so misapprehended.- I pouted. Then he nodded towards me - And you smell girly. -

I rolled my eyes. - I may be hiding but I don't wanna smell like..."Refreshing", "Boss", "Sport" - I mumbled - Okay okay you got it right, but next time, don't assume someone's gender. - I lectured. - Ah and please everyone, the headmaster wants it to be a secret, something about management...school stuff.- - Just that?... Not telling me to treat you right? - asked half joking the prince. - Treat me...? It doesn't change anything, I'm still (Yuu). You can treat me like always.- ...

- Well I mean SOMETIMES you could be a little nicer with everyone...- but he quickly stopped me with a daring growl. - Take your uncle good company Cheka - I whispered - Pour on him some more cute... I mean coolness. - he nodded and bounced on his uncle again. - I can't believe Leona beat me at this too. - commented Grim realizing he wasn't the first to find out about my identity.

Squeeze

The audacity of this monster…

- Oh… so it is like that ah? - I rose from the seat at the table. The calm tone in my voice was mismatched by a terrifying shadow behind my eyes. - I wouldn't dare embarrass the Great mage Grim. Since I'm a good-for-nothing human my help would be a nuisance.- I took a breath and pondered - After all you already made the wiser decision, instead of accepting my, free, invitation to study together you went straight to the smart student. - and I flicked the anemone on his head. - I'm sure with your capabilities and sharp mind you'll be out of the situation in no time. - The trio gulped. Not even when they accidentally corroded my potion notebook they saw me that angry.

- Awww Koebi-chan, don't be upset. - chirped Floyd smiling. - Maybe making him work harder would be a good lesson teaching. What do you say, perfect? - added Jade with malice, Grim shivered from head to toe. - You are so cute Shrimpy. Let me help you the best way I know...- and before either I or Jack could do anything he grabbed and pulled my arm towards him. -...a hug to squeeze all this anger away. - - NOOO!!!! - screamed Adeuce.

The strong hold on me soon came loose. My face was flat on his torso, I looked up and confusion was plastered all over his face. - I'll consider your kind offer guys. And thank you for the sentiment, Floyd. - sarcasm dripping from my every word. I slipped off his hold and walked out sending a wave to my friends, Jack in silence followed and threw a glare at everyone left behind.

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The three got dragged away by the anemone while Floyd stood still with his arms held lightly out. Jade spoke up - I swore you were going to give your usual...- - Soft...- murmured the other. - Excuse me? - - I think I'll need another test. - snapped the hugger. - Azul wants us back to the lounge. - stopped him and his brother while he aimed for our direction.

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- So ahem. Do you still want to go? Do you want me to ruffle them up a little perhaps? - asked Jack after a good minute of silence. I sighed - Of course, I'll go, I don't want to let them down. - A minute passed and mortified by my reaction I excused myself - Sorry for that. I was so frustrated. It stings so much.- - Don't worry, honestly, I think he deserved much worse, I could tell you were very hurt, I'm sorry. - - don't be... But thank you, Jack, for everything! You are so kind, I'm glad we became friends. - All his might crumbled in a blushing mess.

- S-so *ah-hem do you think he figured it out? The moray I mean. - - Probably.- I responded firmly.

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- Azarashi-chan...- Floyd crept on the grey cat. - Can I squeeze out of you a couple of things about dear Shrimpy? - said with a toothy smile that Grim knew better to confront with anything but assent.

Debt

- Your voice could be useful, but I'm already in stock. - As we sat on the plush couches of Azul's study we discussed the possible contract to free my friends. Jade lowered himself to whisper in the dorm's leader's ear. - WHAT??? - his collected gentlemanly persona completely slipped for a second, making me and Jack jump on the spot.

Azul covered his mouth looking me up and down, blushing again, and whispered back - Is it certain? - and the twins nodded. - But I would gladly test again... Koeeebi-chan can I give you another squeeze? - I found the heterochromatic eyes bored closely into mine. Jack growled receiving a lopsided smile

- So... (Yuu)san - continued the "mafia boss". - I think you might be already in debt with us, fufufu. - - For what? - I arched my brow. - Well, it would be a shame after all your good work in concealing your true identity...- -...good work...*PFFF...ask the other eleven. - I laughed - And here I thought you did a little digging. - I mumbled - I owe you nothing. I don't care at all to hide that I'm a girl, I'm doing it because the headmaster asked me to. He's worried that it would cause him problems or something. Honestly, I would gladly stop wrapping my chest in cloth and wear ALL the time baggy clothes. They are cute, don't get me wrong, but I would like some flattery sometimes. - I rumbled.

Awkward from my brutal honesty, he adjusted his glasses to compose himself and ask diplomatic - You're not worried about the consequences with Crowley? - - About you finding out? Because Floyd forcefully grabbed me and felt my boobs? No, I'm not worried. - - You Found Out How??? - sharply asked the mage. Floyd shrugged. - Yeah, and it was very soft. Then I kindly asked Azarashi-chan and he confirmed. - An irk formed on my forehead, today Grim really was getting on my nerves.

- However, you spreading the info around is a willing choice - I turned the table - so... I dunno, aren't You worried about the consequences? - He smirked - Not at all, now I have something else against..eh-hem...to speak to him about. - then sighed heavily -...perhaps this might not be useful for our predicament after all.- returned to his composed self. - L-let's return to our main topic. Shall we? -

I know their surname is Leech… but they are Moray and you can’t tell me otherwise.

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spideysbruh · 3 months

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announcement of all announcements

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tchalamet my angel girl🩷

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y/n i love you my beautiful boy

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y/n my perfect boy 🫶

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ynsdelicate they've been in that honeymoon phase for so long all the haters are maddd !!!

sabxyn no fr like they've been married for what, three years now ?? and they still act the same, if anything they're even more in love !!!!

tchalamet I love you my beautiful wife

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@popcrave just tweeted- BREAKING: a source close to the couple have revealed that Timothée Chalamet and Y/n L/n are expecting a baby that will be due in several months! Sounds like congratulations are in order for the happy couple!!

@ynscurtains replied- sooo happy for them if true but damn you're just revealing all this against their will...

@timolaurie replied- yk there's a lil thing called privacy, right?

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tsgf brooo she's def pregnant lmaooo

lacyyn why can't any of these comments mind their business I swearrr

ynslipgloss the way timothée was like always right by her the whole night 🥺🫶🫶🫶

timotheepaul BROOO I NOTICED THAT TOO he seemed so protective tonight

lacyyn well he's gotta protect her and their child LMAO

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zestyyn BRO 😭😭😭

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amoebayn basically that she's like the center of his world, she means everything to him

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y/n what did I do to deserve you 🥺

tchalamet just being your perfect beautiful self

glistenyn the way all the recent photos are hiding her front side 💀

polaroidtim tbh the second pic DEF looks like they could be hiding a lil belly 😳

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y/n yall are so nosy istg 🙄 (very happy can't wait to meet our baby girl in two months🩷)

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noodleytim this is going to be the cutest baby ever I swear

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@y/n just tweeted- my weirdest craving so far has been the hot fritos paired with oreo ice cream... it's yummy i swear 😔

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tchalamet any day now 😳 I wouldn't want to do this with anyone else.

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zendaya yall are gonna be the best parents I swear

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y/n our daughter arrived a few days ago early in the morning. she's perfect. thank you to everyone who wished us well!

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zendaya !!!! so happy for you two 😭🫶💕 imma spoil her soooo much

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hallebailey congratulations my girl !! 🥰

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tchalamet my wife is a superhero. thank you y/n for giving us our little girl and making me a dad. I know it wasn't easy, but you did it with such grace and beauty. I love you and our little family. you can squeeze my hand as hard as you need to forever and ever.

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timmymyluv · 2 years

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double trouble

FAKE INSTA

dad!timothée chalamet x mother!reader

hope you guys missed the twins au! this is super cute and I love this domestic soft parenting theme so please enjoy 🫂

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our lovely parents out for date night without the kids after a while. 💗

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user7 my parents I think

ynfanbase wait 🤔so if in the first years since yn had the twins they'd accompany timmy for his rare one year projects but now he hasn't accepted anything new sans the movies he's already filmed 👀

dunestimo ok you have a point 😭 word on the street says yn is gearing for her fashion comeback both on the runway and on the magazine

username972 omg what if she goes straight for vogue usa when ur that girl 😌

bestgirlyn when you comeback from ur hiatus after raising kids with thee timothee chalamet strong as ever as the fashion world's darling >>>

datuser even her maternity and post birth clothing was always on point 😭without when trying shed look so good

user789 timo house husband era soon🔜

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ynschalamet YN??!?! WHAT ARE U DOING HERE

yourusername nothing 😁just missed u guys

ynsbulgaria miss you too angel ❤️sending hugs and kisses to the fam

datuser whens the new album? also missed u on the runway queen

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back to work? missed the chaos.

user876 not yn posting an actual candid pic of her backstage

yourusername im ngl it can get real crazy backstage at fashion shows 😭😭never been one to sugarcoat

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yourusername can't wait to walk the runway again with u baby bells 🥺

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papa timmy going on a walk with the twins in central park today! everyone was fairly skeptical and wanted to give the family the space but timo offered to take a few pics to the lucky fans who were so gracious/respectful.

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tchalamet do I have a dad bod yet? *drum hits to a lame joke*

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fan197 when we don't treat them like wild animals and actual humans who deserve privacy like everyone else>>>>

ynsgermany omg where's yn

yn4ever she announced her comeback to the runway remember? the kids are a little older and tim is taking some time off to be with the two while mama is back, still on top of her game 😌

trolls8 he looks a little tired

usernamehere now can u stfu if you were a dad to twin toddlers you'd look tired too you old hag

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usernamehere if you wanna look tired i can give u a black eye or two you punk

odessamay I was the fan who took a pic with him here! he was so nice I felt shy to ask for a pic as I was also waiting for a bagel but he so kindly offered 🥺

laurieschalamet ooh what flavour of bagels did he get?

odessamay he got plain old cream cheese while he got some strawberry and cream bagels for yn!

ynsparadise yes I heard yn is still in nyc just having more meetings/photoshoots but she's not that far off from the kiddos

odessamay the kids are so cute clearly no one took pics of them to respect their privacy but they were so friendly and charming to the strangers they'd meet!! sometimes they were shy hiding behind their dad but they loved hugging/shaking others hands or even talking to them about anything ❤️

user87 yn and timo raised such good natured, well adjusted and polite kids

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first time on set since I had the twins. I admit it hasn't been the easiest and I was quieting down fears even as the cameras flashed. but to make it clear, I only look like this post childbirth bec of my genetics/natural physique, and the resources that allows me significant assistance during childbirth, running the household and a loving, dedicated staff whose main job is to keep me happy and healthy. Our bodies have done such a wonderful thing to bring a child to this world and you should treat your body kindly after, not push yourself to look a certain way after.

Your body changing after childbirth isn't a bad thing, if you don't wear the same pant size anymore, your organs rearranged differently or something changes colour or the stretch marks that form, everyone's body is different and let's celebrate that as long as it's not causing any significant harm, discomfort or illness to your lovely body.

I cannot thank the entire village who was by my side then and now when I welcomed my two little angels and the warm embrace as you've welcomed me back to the fashion world. To my muse, my partner, my other half @/tchalamet I cannot thank you enough for the love and sacrifice you've shown our family and I love love you so much mon amour.

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tchalamet baby mama 💗

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sxtvrns · 1 year

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electra heart

🎶 now playing: bubblegum bitch - MARINA

P: Ben Hargreeves x Fem!Reader

S: A kid at the convenience store becomes a friend. That kid soon has you head over heels. You never got the chance to tell him how you felt; even years go by and you still think about him. Yet you wonder if he'll ever wake up.

W: minor tua spoilers, angst, kinda rushed, possible inaccuracy, mentions of violence, death

N: This is in a similar format to my Finney blurb, and this does not follow the canonical storyline due to plot changes. Also, yes, MARINA inspired the name of this blurb because I had an opportunity and I took it. This fic is way too long for its own good.

please interact if you enjoy!

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On the twelfth hour of the first day of October, 1986, forty-three women around the world simultaneously gave birth. None of the women showed any prior signs of pregnancy.

You were one of those kids.

Your mother said she went suddenly into labor in the middle of a date she was on with another guy, with the fact that he thought she was already married and was cheating on her husband. Ever since then, she raised you on her own.

Though your abilities remained dormant until certain situations arose.

2001

The bell of the door rings as you walk to the back of the convenience store, the fridge door hissing as it opens and letting out cool, refreshing air. You brows among the rows and rows of glass bottles staring down at you from their shelves, as if they're eagerly wanting to be picked.

You take a bottle of Crush soda off one of the racks, closing the door and noticing someone standing beside you.

He wore knee high socks, boy shorts, a blazer and some sort of sweater vest underneath with a black tie. "Hi." You greet out of nowhere, certainly catching the boy off guard. He acknowledges you, but hides his face. "You need help reaching something?" You ask, leaning against the glass door. He shakes his head while you respond with a shrug.

He watches you walk away past the shelf where you're out of view, the ding of the cash register and the chime of the door bell meaning you left already.

Every time you went to visit the store, he was there. He was there the next time you went, and the next time, and the next, doing the same thing he does all the time, staring at the soda fridge but not buying anything.

Sure, he could've been a window shopper, but he came back too often for it to be considered so.

The next time you went, you grabbed a drink for your mom, and there he was, staring at the fridge. "Hey." You send him a wave, him only nodding in response. "Um, you... how come you come here all the time but don't buy anything?" You ask. "My dad doesn't allow soda in the house. He doesn't want any of us drinking soda. He says it'll 'disrupt our endurance'." He air quotes.

"So you just come here all the time to stare at soda and torture yourself because you can't have it?" For the first time ever, you see something of a smile. "I just sneak out. My dad would kill me if he found out. I do want to buy something, but... I don't have any cash on me right now." He says, hands reaching into his pockets and pulling them out empty handed.

"I can pay." You offer. His head perks up. "Really?" He looks overly excited for a bottle of soda. Is his dad just super dietary restrictive? "Yeah. This bottle is for my mom anyways, so..." You trail off, gesturing to the fridge to let him pick. He opens the door, the standing there for what seems like ages before picking a bottle.

You toss the dollar bills on the cash register, the cashier handing you change. You give the boy his soda bottle, and he looks reluctant. "Are you gonna drink that?" You ask. "I'll save it for when I'm at home. I'll try to be stealthy about it, though." He looks away for a second, wanting to say something. "Um, thank you." He stutters. "You're welcome. I'm Y/N. You?"

"Ben. Ben Hargreeves." A smile creeps up onto your face at his shy demeanor. "Nice to finally meet you, I guess. I'll see you around." You say, walking away and leaving him alone on the sidewalk.

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Ben sneaks back into his room, shutting the window quietly while being careful to have the glass bottle clank against anything and make noise.

"Hey, man." Diego greets, his face dropping. "Where the hell did you get that?" He points to the soda bottle in Ben's hand. "What– oh my god, dad's gonna kill you." Luther's face is the same as his brother's; covered in pure shock.

"I know. But the girl bought it for me, so..." Ben muttered. His brothers faces lit up mischievously. "The girl you run into every time you sneak out?'" Ben nods at Diego's question. "She talked to me. I got her name."

"Okay? So what is it?" Luther's fully invested in this mystery girl. "Y/N." Ben answers. "She's... she's very pretty." He adds, his brothers sending each other a look. "You've seen her a million times and the one time she talks to you... you finally find her pretty." Diego clarifies.

"Maybe because she was closer to me this time? Or she just seemed more open and–"

"Dude, we get it, you like her." Luther says, stopping Ben from rambling. "Okay, so... when's the wedding?" Diego jokes, both of his brothers rolling their eyes. Ben sneers, "You're so annoying."

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"I think I finally figured it out. Where I've seen you before." You say abruptly, eating a potato chip. "Where?" He asks, curious. Frequent convenience store stakeouts for him helped grow your relationship, and now you're sitting on a flat apartment rooftop with him, legs hanging over the ledge, staring at the moon. He's been giving you hints as to where he was in the paper after claiming he was 'famous'.

"You're a Hargreeves kid. You were in the bank robbery hostage thing." You specified. "There you go, you got it. Everyone's seen it; I'm surprised it took you so long." He says in his usual calm, gentle tone. The heroic act was published in newspapers for weeks after it happened.

"I know this is like a really sudden and weird question but... did you kill them?" His face drops, now full of the panic that lurked closer and closer to his mind. "What?" He says, trying to keep his cool. "Oh, no, I just... I don't know, I just had a feeling. Um, it's a weird feeling but something's telling me that you killed the robbers. Pricks probably deserved it anyways so it doesn't really matter." You try to brush it off, but notice that your friend looks bashful.

"How did you know?" He asks, voice barely above a whisper. You find yourself at a loss for words, wanting to say something but unable to come up with a reasonable answer. "I don't know." You look at him, face darkened with guilt.

"I've had friends like you. They never become good people, continuously hurting people, even killing people on the street when they go out at the wrong time. They've caused massacres. Something about you is different." You pause, struggling to explain. "You never wanted to kill them, did you?" He shakes his head, looking down at the street below. "I'm sorry for bringing it up. It was a stupid thing to ask."

"No, no, it's fine." He claims, nodding profusely but it isn't enough to convince you. "It certainly isn't fine. No one would ever confess to a murder so easily."

"Please don't bring it up again. I-I never asked to kill them. It's something I can't control when... when I'm in the field." He admits. You simply look down with him, the tips of your fingers grazing his. You don't seem to notice, but he does. Though the air his cold, his face is warm, and he wonders if you're fine with it. He doesn't want to move his hand.

It's almost heartwarming. His mother would hold his hand sometimes yet it didn't feel as comforting as mere fingertips from you to his hand did. You do eventually notice, looking down at your loosely laced hands. You take his hand in yours out of nowhere, Ben's face flushing even more.

"Your hands are warm." You say simply. "Did you do that on purpose?" He asks while you look at him confused. "Do what on purpose?" He points to your intertwined hands, your lips curling into a smile. "Maybe. Do you like it?" You ask for good measure, unsure if he was okay with it in the first place. He nods. "If I didn't, I wouldn't be enjoying this as much as I am right now."

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Finding out Ben's abilities was in the most unfortunate of circumstances. He said he had a shortcut to get home, and he said it was down a certain dark alleyway.

Nothing good ever happens in dark alleyways.

You both passed by a group of teens that looked about your age, thinking nothing of it until you felt a hand on your shoulder.

"Give me your wallet."

One of them demanded, turning you around with a knife in their other hand. "I don't have any. Spent it all." You said, trying to hide your nervousness. "Bullshit. Empty your pockets." She said, nudging her head. "I said I don't have anything–" The tip of her knife nearly digs into the underside of your chin with light pressure. "Empty your fucking pockets or I'll kill your boyfriend too." She threatens.

Out of nowhere, a roar erupts from behind you, the knife on your chin being pulled away. You turn to see Ben, tentacles coming out of his stomach out of some sort of void. You run to him but get grabbed by one of the teens, knife nearly impaling you. It's knocked out of their hands and drops to the floor with a clink. Instead of getting stabbed, the person who grabbed you is impaled with a tentacle, blood spraying everywhere.

The other two try to escape, one of them unlucky and suffering the same fate as their ally. The last girl runs off, dropping her knife and running away. You look at Ben whose drenched in blood, tentacles returning to the inside of his stomach and the void closing. He's wiping his face of blood and tears.

"I'm sorry. You never should've seen this." He says, but you hug him rather than his assumption of you running away. "You saved me. And you said those things weren't in your control. You never wanted to kill them. It's not your fault." You try to convince him, easier said than done. He hugs you back, sobbing into your shoulder.

As your route changed from low ground to high to avoid suspicion of the blood on your clothes, a question slips out.

"What was that girl's name? The one who tried to mug me?"

"Jennifer. I overheard them talking whenever I took this high route."

"She's one real bitch." Ben chuckles at your statement.

"Definitely. One real bitch."

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2006

"Shit, shit, shit, shit, shit–" You push through the mosh of people crowding up to the caution tape surrounding the building. "Ben! Ben, where are you?!" You shoved people aside to get to the front, eyes meeting Luther's who are red from crying. "Luther! Where is he?" He hears you but only shakes his head. Sir Hargreeves stares at you for a second before his attention is focused back on the crowd, the frontline flooded with cameras and reporters.

"Fuck this." You mutter, going under the caution tape and running past the group of crying kids in their uniforms. "Y/N!" You hear Allison cry, but the adrenaline to find your friend is all you can think about right now. Allison looks at her father, who's staring at the entrance you just ran through.

Just as the police push in to go and chase you, he stops them with a shout. They back off and instead guard the entrance so no one else can enter. As much as they are confused, Allison is left relieved and surprised by her father's actions. He never knew about you. He wouldn't help someone who he doesn't have a reason to have pity for, if he had any in that stone cold body of his.

The rooms are dark, only illuminated by skylights in the ceiling. With the little light there is, you find a body laying on the ground, shattered glass around it. You carefully tread towards it, Ben's face aglow in the sun, staring straight up.

"Ben! Oh, Ben, oh my god, you're, you're hurt. How come you aren't– aren't with your siblings? Can you stand, can you see me? How many fingers am I holding up?" He chuckles with a struggle as you help him sit up with his back leaning on the desk. There's blood staining on his white undershirt and it's getting onto his blazer; it's practically everywhere on him. It seeps through the fabric moderately while you try to put pressure on it.

"Y/N... how did you get here? I thought my dad would've..." He winces slightly. His thumb wipes a stray tear you didn't know was resting on your cheek. "I don't know myself. I thought the police would come in after me. I thought I'd be shot dead." Right after the words come out of your mouth, he looks relaxed, tired.

"I think I'm gonna die here." He says so casually with a smile. "What? No, no, Ben, you aren't gonna die– look, the paramedics are on their way! They're coming! You'll be okay!" He shakes his head and looks down at your hands, gripping onto his blazer. "If I'd come out alive, I wouldn't be here. I'd be with my siblings outside for the press."

You're trying to hold back your tears, but fail miserably and start crying while your hands are stained with his blood. "Who did this to you?" You ask through foggy eyes. "Jennifer." He says, the name setting off a spark. "I'm not gonna make it." He groans, sighing with a smile.

"Don't say that. You're gonna be okay."

"I'm sorry, Y/N."

"No, don't apologize–"

"I love you. I always have.

His hand travels up to your face with the last bit of energy he has left in his body, his thumb wiping away another tear.

And it falls.

His arm slowly drops beside you, a small pool of blood on the floor. Your hands move to his shoulders, then to his face, his neck, his arms. "Ben? No, no, no no no..." You cry. He lays limp there against the desk as you scream, sobs spilling out your lips as a sudden energy rushes through you. Your hands rest on him while your head rests on his shoulder, feeling jolts of energy running through your body.

The lights flicker as you hear slow clapping from across the room. There's a figure standing in the dark hallway with a smirk and blood splattered on their face. "I did quite enjoy the show. Did you enjoy my hard work?" She smiles, arms crossed while you slowly stand up, giving her a death stare. The fire in you grows the longer that stupid smirk stays on her face.

"How many of them did you kill?" You ask, the lights flickering. "All of them. Except for his brothers and sisters who fled like mice." She takes a step forward, hand reaching out to the side as if she's reaching for something. "And you... you and your stupid boyfriend killed the last of my gang." Suddenly, a pillar crashes through the wall and flies at you, but you feel nothing on impact. It shatters into pieces that fall onto the ground, decorating the floor with its shared glass.

The lights haven't stopped flickering as a glow rushes through your veins, every projectile thrown at you being destroyed with the touch of your hand. There's panic on her face as you step closer with every object you manage to avoid, and ironically enough, she runs away. Flees like the Hargreeves she made fun of.

But she killed your friend. Your best friend. It was appropriate to not show mercy when she took something that mattered so much to you.

She definitely seemed like a raging narcissist, so what's better than taking away the thought of her being better than everybody else. In fact, why not take away the thought of her thinking at all?

A bolt of lighting emits from your hand, and reaches her, shocking her and causing her to lay limp on the floor. Your hand, glowing white and blue, grabs her by the neck with force and lifts her up in the air. Her airway is cut off, squirming as she does anything she can to breathe. All you do is stare at her, watching her struggle and suffer in your grasp, the fire in you now at its biggest; you can feel it rushing through every bone in your body.

You squeeze her neck, the veins in it flashing a bright white before her face freezes and her head hangs low. You let go of her, her body dropping to the floor with a thump.

She's dead. You killed her.

The lights stop flickering. Ben's body is still left by the desk unaffected somehow, but littered with dust from the pillars that were thrown at you. You kneel down in front of him, his blood staining your clothes being the last thing on your mind. Your hands rest on his chest, gentle jolts moving from your hands and to his chest. Tears flow from your eyes but not even a sob tumbles out of your lips.

Footsteps come from the other halls. You turn your head, panicked, wanting to escape but not leave Ben behind.

You'll see him in the hospital if he's still alive.

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"Good evening, Ben. How are you feeling?"

"Mom?"

"Your father just passed away."

"What?"

"Do you need anything?"

"Where is everyone? Where are my siblings? Where is... where is Y/N?"

"I don't know where your siblings are, but I could ask Pogo where Y/N is."

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2019

The Hargreeves eventually parted ways, while Ben's body remained comatose in the ward of their house. You visited every day, whenever you had time. Sir Hargreeves saw you at the hospital watching over Ben, and took you in for training. For 17 year old you recovering from grief, it was hard. It hurt like hell. Everything hurt.

Sir Hargreeves explained that your time, date of birth, and sudden labor from your mother had developed those electricity-related abilities that you were able to control. You forced yourself to think that it all made sense, when really, it didn't. Kind of like how Ben's abilities made him able to summon creatures from another dimension through his body. That certainly didn't make sense.

To find out Ben was comatose relieved you. They said his heart rate had already been reset with no need for the defibrillators. But he was alive, only unconscious. Grace always saw you come into the house ward, only greeting you with a smile before leaving the room. It seemed... robotic.

You managed to keep in touch with some of the Hargreeves siblings. You'd have chats with Allison during her breaks. Diego always sent you work updates when he worked for the police, but as a vigilante, he never spoke of his doings due to fear of tracing through digital footprint.

You worked as an astronomer, your love for space driving you to pursue it as a paying career. Sometimes it reminds you of when you'd stare up at the stars with Ben from the heights of an apartment building. You're laying on the couch, scrolling through the different channels on your TV when the news displays the death of one familiar person.

Sir Reginald Hargreeves.

Your attention is focused on the broadcast and the claims that were on the sliding title at the bottom of the screen. Your thoughts immediately drift to the reactions of his adoptive kids. He never developed an intimate bond with any of them, so how would they react to the news?

Wow. The age finally got to him. He was one persistent son of a bitch.

Allison, did u see the news?

I'm coming home as fast as I can

I was at a premiere

You shut your phone off, attention grabbed by a knock at the door. Though the face you see when you answer is not one you'd expect.

"Ben?"

His hands are stuffed in the pockets of his leather jacket. "Are you... real? How are you..." You touch his face, then his shoulders, then his arms, proving that this was not, in fact, his ghost coming to haunt you. "I've missed you." He says simply. You try not to gawk at him any longer and invite him inside.

He's focused on the TV, displaying the news of his father's death. "So she wasn't lying..." He mutters, staring at the TV with the same focus you gave. "She?" You ask. "Mom." He replies, standing behind the couch rather than taking a seat. "How did you find me?"

"Pogo. He knows just about everything."

"Even addresses? Creepy."

"Listen... when I was in that coma, I could see you. I could see my siblings, I could see who I wanted. I was in a black void and I was able to see anyone. But every single time, it brought me back to you." He says, his hand resting on yours. "You were aware you were in a coma? How?" He moves from the back of the couch to sit next to you. "When you were in the hospital to see me, I heard the doctors telling you."

You embrace him in a long-awaited hug, the first one you've had with him in a while. "Sorry, this is so much to process right now." Somehow, his last words before laying unconscious where he died come back to you. "Do you remember what you said before you passed out that day?" You ask, vividly remembering him saying 'I love you' as his 'last words'.

He pauses for a moment before answering. "I do." He looks you dead in the eye as you play with your thumbs nervously, looking for something to say. "Did you mean it?" Your nerves take control as panic rushes to your head. "I did. I do... I still love you. Even after all these years of me seeing you in a dark void of nothingness, you were always there." Your face is hot. You feel like a high-schooler being asked to a dance.

"I killed her. I killed Jennifer."

"I saw. It's not your fault. It never was. It was mine for killing her goons in that alley."

"I'm sorry."

"Don't be. We've both done things we can't be forgiven for."

Unsure of what to say next, you make the first move and kiss him, something you wanted to save when you were 18. He kissed back, eventually pulling away and looking at you. "How long have you wanted to do that?" He asked. "Since the day I realized I had a big, stupid crush on you." He smiles, kissing you once more on the couch when your phone vibrates in your pocket.

We're gonna meet at our old place

I'll see you there

Allison texted you, Ben reading off your screen as well. "Should we go now?" You ask, looking at his face which is a bit too close to yours. "We have time," he says, grabbing your phone and placing it on the coffee table.

"Let's make up for all that we missed."

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oh, dear diary, i met a boy! he made my doll heart light up with joy! 🎧

#ben hargreeves #ben hargreeves x reader #ben hargreeves x you #ben hargreaves x reader #fanfiction #the umbrella academy

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rotten-hearts-sharp-teeth · 11 months

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I can't just ask for all the smut emoji prompts for barrett,,,Barrett,,,, can I? If not, pick a few favorite you have interesting thoughts for. Pls. I need for science.

Yesss! I'm always excited to give details on my boy!

💦 cum headcanon- Barrett is a typical werewolf. Massive, thick load that seems to never stop flowing. His taste is a little more iron rich than a human and takes some getting used to.

🥺 first time headcanon- boy, this was awkward for him. His father gave him the talk from the moment he hit puberty, but it wasn't the typical birds and bees. It was how to hide his nature from a human lover. So when the time came it was unsatisfying for many reasons. Barrett had to conceal his knot and keep a reign on his instincts despite the wave of new sensations he was feeling. I think his first time was with an older, more experienced woman who he financially compensated for the... bad performance. And her discretion of course.

✊️masturbation headcanon- It's difficult for werewolf men to find self pleasure, though not for lack of trying. It takes a lot of coordination and is not nearly as satisfying. Sex with humans wasn't really satisfying either though so sometimes desperate times and all. Let's just say that poor Barrett has spent a lot of his life pent up.

👅oral headcanon- Barrett likes to give much more than he likes to receive. It was his way of working his partner up to the point they might not notice his unusual traits. Getting a blow job felt nice, but since he had to hide his anatomy, it was never as good as other men hyped it up to be.

⛓️ kinky headcanon- Barrett definitely has most of the typical werewolf kinks, but he is also a little old fashioned. He doesn't drift too far into the realm of the REALLY kinky stuff. Most of his darker desires are instinct driven, nothing else.

🔪 dangerous headcanon- Sex with Barrett is just about as borderline dangerous as you can get without facing any real danger. He loves to play it up as far as he can go, but he's experienced with holding himself back so there is no fear of him losing control. He's a gentleman behind the scary appearance.

🛌 soft sex headcanon- I don't think I would describe sex with a werewolf as really soft, but it can be an emotionally transcendent experience. You can't really get closer physically or mentally than being locked together with your partner. Barrett is also fond of compliments, praise, encouragement and declarations of love and devotion. There is still going to be some biting and scratching while having guts rearranged though.

🎁 birthday sexy headcanon- Sex is Barrett's favorite way to celebrate a birthday. For his partner he gets a little silly. A rendition of 'Happy birthday, Mr. President' is sure to happen and on his birthday, he really just enjoys laying back and being appreciated.

❤️ making love headcanon- There is a huge difference between making love and fucking for Barrett. Pace, eye contact, even the way he dirty talks changes when feelings are involved. He feels that love deep in his soul and it shows through his beastly nature.

🎶 music they have sex to- Music is a core component to Barrett's personality. He absolutely has a playlist for everything, including sex. And different ones depending on what kind of sex. Even if it's not played out loud I can guarantee he is singing along in his head to keep his rhythm.

🌹 romantic sex headcanon- Unlike his father, Barrett inherited his mothers sense of romance. He knows how to wine and dine a woman. Make her feel like she's a goddess. The most important person on the planet. Every bit of his performance would be specifically for heightening her enjoyment. Lots of licking, caressing and rubbing.

⏰️ fave time of day to have sex- Anytime. But in all seriousness, Barrett is still nocturnal so night time is the best time in his opinion.

🐱 how they eat the pussy- Thoroughly. With a very long and very flexible tongue.

🍆 how they give blowjobs- He doesn't 😂

🙈 something they are shy about asking for- Barrett isn't very shy about most things but it's hand jobs and blow jobs. Part of him still feels the need to hide his body so being touched freely has become a bit taboo for him mentally. He also feels guilt at taking selfish pleasure. Like he should be the one pleasuring his partner instead.

📱 phone sex headcanon- It's not really for his personal enjoyment, but Barrett has a voice and LOVES to engage in dirty talk with his partner. Hearing them grow flustered until they can't take it anymore is a real treat for him. And while he might not get off, the knowledge he can do that for his partner is it's own reward.

📷 naughty pictures- This is another matter entirely. Barrett loves sending and receiving pictures. He definitely keeps a collection. Nothing like sending a random pic during the day to catch his lover off guard. He also enjoys seeing his partner at their most vulnerable. Since they are his and all.

🛁 shower/ bath sex headcanon- This one took some getting used to. As a werewolf, Barrett is a much bigger fan of natural smells and washing them away seemed like a waste. At first. Then he experienced the intimacy and vulnerability of shower sex and was hooked. All it took was washing his hair once.

😴 falling asleep after sex- It takes A LOT to make Barrett run out of steam. Only a heat driven rut really has a chance at knocking him out. Otherwise, his protective instincts take over and he stays awake to keep an eye out for his lover.

🚗 car sex headcanon- Car sex should be impossible for someone of Barrett's size, but having an unnaturally flexible body and the ability to shift organs/ body parts around at will has it's advantages. It's not his favorite. He'd rather bend his partner over the hood, but at least in the car they don't have to worry about bug bites or rain.

🎤 how loud they are- Loud. Very. Barrett can be quiet-ish when he needs to be, but growling and even howling is something that comes natural to him. Boy is vocal!

🍌 sex toy headcanon- Not really a fan. He'd rather offer the teasing and pleasing with his own parts. Using toys on himself doesn't satisfy so much as it drives him into a desperate rut.

🍪 an after sex snack- Tube of raw meat for himself. Instinct drives him to feed his partner. Once they regain consciousness.

🍷 tipsy sex headcanon- Unfortunately, being a werewolf means that Barrett cannot get drunk or tipsy. Alcohol burns right out of his system.

🤪silly sex headcanon- Sex with Barrett runs the full gauntlet from intense, feral, romantic, lazy and also silly. He has a wicked, playful sense of humor and loves to smile as much as he loves to growl. Bonding time is meant to be enjoyed with his partner, in his opinion.

🚨 sex that sent me to the ER headcanon- It took a little while for Barrett to gain control of his body during sex. Some scratches could be a little deep. His teeth clamped down a little too hard. He was a little more vigorous with his size than he should have been. Werewolf sex is it's own hazard for anyone without supernatural healing.

⛱️ sex on the beach headcanon- He's not a fan of sand in uncomfortable places, but will absolutely take his partner into the waves for some privacy. Or on a rock. Or even just standing above a beach towel. If the opportunity presents itself he's going to take it. No matter where they are.

🎇 orgasm headcanon- Literal fireworks. Not only does he feel the throbbing relief in his balls and his knot, but instinctually he feels a deep satisfaction for finishing. Especially if it's inside his partner.

🌄 morning sex headcanon- Barrett is not an early riser. He's actually usually just about to go to bed when the sun comes up, so he's drowsy and less incoherent in the morning. That definitely plays up for some groggy morning sex though, since he's more beast brain. No words, only growls.

🎥 filming or making a sexy movie- Absolutely not. What is his is for his eyes only and he doesn't want to take that chance. Private pics are one thing, but the act itself is a hard no.

🎉celebration sex headcanon- Being a creature driven by instinct with little inhibition means that Barrett's mind usually goes to sex when he is experiencing joy or achievement. Any kind of celebration equals sex. If he has the right partner.

💌 sending/ receiving nudes- Barrett knows he has a nice body and is more than willing to show off any chance he gets. Looking at his partner is something that fills him with pride, even if it is a double edged sword. A wolf man can only take so much teasing.

💋 making out headcanon- Barrett is big on public displays of affection. Mouths and tongues are huge deals for werewolves, so lots of kissing is a must.

#thanks for the ask!#hellsing oc #barrett #werewolf #character headcanons #headcanon meme #long post

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perexcri · 8 months

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8, 12, and 140 🎶

if no one's got me for music-related matters i know Juno does can i get an amen

8. What is your favorite concept album?

ok allow me to bend the rules here but i do think bts's entire love yourself era (ly her, tear, and answer) all stand out as one conceptual Thing to me that i treasure very much, partially because of nostalgia, partially because it's great music, and 100% because it hit me right at a time when i needed it

it follows a very loose emotional arc, but it's one that has a strong throughline through all 3 of the albums from this era: ly: her is about the giddiness of love and how happy and light and exciting it can feel, but it ends on a slightly ominous note with outro: her talking about masks and the narrator feeling like they're not being their true self. ly: tear picks up on those themes of hiding, repression, and lies with songs like singularity, fake love, and the truth untold, ending with outro: tear, which is largely about the dissolution of the relationship that was established during ly: her. we then move on to ly: answer, which provides a comprehensive overview of the narrator's dual relationship and personal arcs that ends with them having to accept that they are imperfect, but that can be a beautiful thing, and that to try and hide one's brokenness in an attempt to appear full and happy to those around us does more damage in the long run

anyway that was long :') but um green day's american idiot is also easily tied with the ly era lol

12. What is your favorite song of each decade?

i'm gonna start with the 30s, if that's okay :D (also this is not very comprehensive bc now that i'm trying to answer this i'm realizing how woefully unprepared i am for this lasjfkl)

1930s: Stop Breaking Down by Robert Johnson 1940s: [ok so i'm uncultured and apparently don't listen to a lot of 40s lol] 1950s: That'll Be the Day by Buddy Holly 1960s: Norwegian Wood by The Beatles 1970s: Fat Bottomed Girls by Queen 1980s: Bad by U2 1990s: Sassafras Roots by Green Day 2000s: Hum Hallelujah or GISNASFS by Fall Out Boy! 2010s: Hard Times by Paramore or Let Go by BTS 2020s: hmm right now it's gotta be Not Strong Enough by boygenius

140. What’s a lyric you’ve horribly misheard?

ok this one isn't too bad tbh because i can't think of any of my worse ones, but i always thought taylor swift was singing "he looks up grinning like a devil" in cruel summer instead of "he looks so pretty like a devil"

i ALSO misheard the word pretty in the fob song "i slept with someone in fall out boy and all i got was this stupid song written about me. where it says "douse yourself in cheap perfume / it's so fitting, so fitting" i always thought dear mr. stump was saying "it's so pretty, so pretty." maybe i just like hearing the word pretty in songs idk :')

i'm awful at mishearing things so i KNOW i've had worse ones, but i am coming up blank right now

anyway!! thank you so much for the music ask!! i always like talking about music, and it's fun to talk about it with you because you know so much :D 💜

#ask

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itsjeonjk · 10 months

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bubbie! happy 300 days, my love! we've come a long way from where we were almost a year ago. it's so insane to think that our relationship is going so smoothly despite our contradictions in schedules. to this day i still think about your flushed face when i admitted that i was interested in you, too /t.. now you're hardly ever shy (and honestly too blunt for my heart). i love you so much, adore you so much, and honestly cannot wait for the next 300 days to show how else we can grow together. maybe this time around don't be so mean to me tt. i'd write you a long letter, but i think i should save those theatrics for our one year in 65 days. hehe.

also! i can't believe that your solo debut was also on our 300 days!! let alone about— mature.. things.. you're really hurting me out here, mister. the song was amazing, though. i loved it so much. i'm going to be streaming it all week! monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday, friday, saturday, sunday, 7 days a week! 🎶

i love you bunnie. come home to me soon, mhm? 🐰

@baebe

There you are! Hi, my sweet love~

I've been waiting for you to drop in, it feels like it's been much too long since you graced my inbox with your presence. Happy 300 Days to you too, Jiwonie. It sucks we can't be together much lately due to our conflicting schedules, but you know what they say—distance makes the heart grow fonder. Still, I don't like it and I miss you a ton.

Distance isn't enough to break us, though, not while we're still dedicatied to giving each other ever free second we have. Even if for just a quick text or an hour+ video call. We've gotten passed a lot together and our schedules is just another hurdle that we will easily overcome. Tease me all you want, but I've grown comfortable and now you, baby girl, are the shy one. As it should've been ~ You're much too cute with pink cheeks and your adorable habit to hide behind your hands.

I love you.. more than I've ever loved someone or something and I'm so excited that we're quickly approaching a year together—that's a huge achievement and I used to worry we wouldn't make it this far. But not anymore. And i'm not mean! It's called playfully teasing/bullying and you adore it because you do it to me too, hypocrite /t.

I'm glad you liked the single <3 I was, to say.. inspired. Both when I saw the song and when I was recording it (yk what i mean~). Suffice to say you're always on my mind? and not always in the most innocent ways. I'll be home before you know it, wait for me, okay? 🥺

#╰ ✩ ⸜⸜ ﹙ 𝗺𝗶𝗰 𝗱𝗿𝗼𝗽 ﹚ ╱ * answered asks.#🌸 ❜ ꒰ my baby squirtle ! ꒱

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ally i need to know who are ur favs in project sekai

asking me my favs about anything at all is a mistake because i can and will list basically everyone except for like 2 people that i have neutral feelings towards

but you have asked and i shall answer to the best of my ability

keeping in mind that i've only read some of the band main stories: here's a list of where i'm up to for every band

L/N: 17/20 MMJ: 13/20 VBS: 20/20 WxS: 12/20 N25: 6/20

but i think my favs as of right now... definitely Rui, Mizuki, Ena, Akito, Airi and An! They're the ones that stand out the most to me so far.

As for why...

Rui, his eccentricity is what makes him so interesting, it's fun watching him torture wxs come up with different ways to make shows more interesting. I think apparently he didn't have a great childhood? Not sure about that part I might be remembering wrong. I also just really love that expression he makes when he knits his brows but then he's also smiling like that is the smile of a madman I love it sm (and i would be lying if i didn't say his character was attractive)

Mizuki is just such a fun character... they're someone that basically puts on a persona as far as I know to hide something (based on the single episode of the Exciting Picnic thing that I read, haven't read Secret Distance or Exciting Picnic yet because school has been kicking my ass) that they don't want to show to others? Also I fucking love pink characters! Omg! And I absolute adore their friendship with An, and also because they have an interest in textiles is what really drew me to them. Their fashion style is everything I want to have, and I especially love all the bows and ribbons and frills mwah mwah

Ena Shinonome the Artist Ever I think I just really relate to her struggles to get recognition for something she doesn't have a talent for and?? Ouch my heart?? And I really love the more shallower side of posting on social media to get likes, because on one hand that's not great to base your value as an influencer OR an artist on how many likes you get, and on the other hand I relate to that too much to just ignore it... Also her outfit?? Is so cute?? Also I think for both Ena and Mizuki I relate to them both because they cannot get up in the mornings and I love them for that ALSOOOO PANCAKES AND CHEESECAKE IS THE BEST

Can't really talk about Ena without thinking of Akito too, I just love his like... way of telling the truth as it is, always working hard to match up to his peers because when everyone else has talent, you need to work just a bit harder to catch up. And to backtrack a little bit on telling the truth as it is, I genuinely would rather someone tell me the hard truth than to sugar coat things, because I don't really see the point? Like I get that it hurts but the truth however harsh it may be is something I really value

Airi I think similar to Akito I enjoy her more hard headed nature? To be honest what drew me into her was her voice acting I think, it's just so well done and not to mention a really unique voice you don't see a lot in Japanese media, but then also her whole pink heart theme and and the 🎶tsundere girl ai-ri~🎶 which is so cute lmao idk I love her because she's cute and motivated and willing to get mad at people for her friends but chooses not to because she is an Idol™ who brings hope to everyone and I respect her for that fr ALSO the love of cats?? I feel so bad I hope she can hold a cat one day

An!!! For An her personality is who I want to be... she's so outgoing and fun, and I think her love for singing as well is amazing, and not to mention her hair?? Is so pretty?? her theme of all these stars and the whole Summer vibe she has is just, so nice and she looks good in both a suit AND a dress she is the moment!! also as an aside my friend told me that I reminded them of An which I hope means that I'm getting close to my goal of being that kind of friend/person :D (i thought about this for a bit longer and I guess my feelings towards An are very similar to Kohane's "I want to be just like her" lmao)

I think recently though I started following a daily Shinonome siblings account on Twitter and I've been brainrotting over them for the last week so as of this very moment Ena is my fav but that'll probably change in like... a week or two

I dunno, I just love them all ;A; (and thank you for giving me an excuse to brainrot over them and explain why I like them!!)

#tbh i haven't read much of n25 #mostly because someone said they go into rly dark topics and #i am a bit iffy w that bc if i consume too much of that at once i will literally question my life and be unable to function #so yea #also i'm so sorry for not answering this sooner!! i rarely go on tumblr </3 i promise i will start writing #i just think i hold myself up to too high of a standard when writing #um i'm rambling again #i'll probably make those rambles a different post #project sekai

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Solas and Lavellan Playlist! :))

This post is just my interpretation of the lyrics and of course not the initial meaning of the songs, just my silly lil thoughts and how they are applicable :) hope you babes enjoy♥️

🎶I want to hold you hand🎶

“You had sealed it with a gesture…and right then, I felt the whole world change”- Solas

From the moment Solas held Lavellan’s hand to seal the rift, he says himself he felt the whole world change. The mark that is on her hand, and its connection to the Fade, has Solas wanting to hold her hand and is best shown in the lyric, “And when I touch you I feel happy inside/It's such a feelin' that my love/I can't hide.”

🎶Journey to Skyhold🎶

[next chapter in their relationship🏰]

🎶Just the Two of Us🎶

“I’m willing to take that chance if you are”- Lavellan

Having made the journey to Skyhold, Lavellan wants to get to know Solas better in which they return to Haven in that dream-state lil date. After they had a lil smooch and talk about it back at Skyhold, Lavellan is willing to give their relationship a shot which made my silly lil brain think of the lyric, “Just the two of us/We can make it if we try.” ALSO, i thought it was neat that the line “Building castles in the sky” made me think of Skyhold and how Solas showed the inquisitor the location of his castle :))

🎶Daydream in Blue🎶

Solas reflects on their relationship, where best but in the Fade, and of course within nature (“I found a quiet spot and went to sleep. I visited the place in the Fade…) - related song lyric, “Daydream/I fell asleep amid the flowers/For a couple of hours, on a beautiful day.” BUT its not any lil dream in the Fade but rather one of Lavellan methinks😏- “I dream of you amid the flowers/For a couple of hours.”

🎶Howl🎶

Now, bestie Lavellan is thinking over their relationship, the lyric that best comes to mind from this song is “Hold a little tighter, boy, 'cause I Am falling from behind/Walk a little lighter, boy, 'cause I Can't get you off my mind.” As we all know Solas REALLY went in on that kiss (Exhibit below😳) and Lavellan is just thinking about it when she wakes up “Cold sweats off drippin down my bed.”

🎶Dream a Little Dream of Me🎶

LITERALLY its just Lavellan daydreaming about Solas, miss girl is deeply in love with the man; HALP. Really reflected in the lyrics, “Just hold me tight and tell me you'll miss me/While I'm alone and blue as can be/Dream a little dream of me/Stars fading but I linger on, dear/Still craving your kiss.” Lavellan cannot get over the moment had in Haven, literally kicking her feet and giggling, and she hopes Solas dreams a lil dream of her hehe

🎶My Love🎶

Overall the song is upbeat in tone and happy, similar to the love blossoming between the two. But Solas keeps pushing away, not fully committing to Lavellan and continues to make excuses saying “it would be kinder in the long run.” Now Lavellan is just like babes just let me love you, similar lyric “My clown, let me love you/I’m not afraid of all the reasons why we shouldn’t try/I get excited when I think of climbing into your eyes.”

🎶No Other Heart🎶

Again, Lavellan is just trying to get Solas to open up to her, “Then come on give this lover boy[girl] a try/I'll put the sparkle right back in your eyes/What could you lose?.” BUT hmm i wonder what he CAN lose; as we know Solas is on a mission to restore his people, and unfortunately it seems nothing will stop him, “Well for one, her[his] heart belongs to another/And no other heart will do” :((

🎶You say Im in Love🎶

BUT WHATS THIS?! Solas is still definitely falling in love with Lavellan as she continues to ask him questions about the fade and just shows a keen interest in knowledge! 🤯“I've been so unafraid/To die alone/I know what I've done.” First pretend unafraid=afraid, as seen in the Fade we know Solas’ fear is ‘Dying Alone’ , and he knows what he’s done to bring about this sense of loneliness-creating the veil :(( BUT he realizes he's falling for Lavellan and he cant believe this cuz its making him stray from his plan, making him think himself a fool, “You say I'm in love/I say you're a fool/Look away from me now”

🎶Cant Help Myself🎶

This is honestly my favorite song ever !! . “Soft kiss, my baby wanted it/I could sense it from a mile away/He wants a bit of this sweet melancholy and/He can get it any time of day.” Now, during the balcony scene Solas says “It means I have not forgotten the kiss” solas do be wantin a bit of elven melancholy😏 thus the lyric “Sweet lips like pink lemonade/When he's feeling generous he's gonna give me a taste” is so fitting during this scene *chefs kiss*

🎶In my Life🎶

“There are places I'll remember/All my life though some have changed/Some forever, not for better.” Solas says, “I lay in dark and dreaming sleep while countless wars and ages passed” since he's ‘explored’ the Fade he has seen many places and how they have changed dramatically over time. And with this, those he loved, his elven people (and his spirit friend),“Some are dead and some are living/In my life I've loved them all.” ALTHOUGH he’s losing himself completely in Lavellan now, thinking hmm maybe i shouldn't carry out my plan- “But of all these friends and lovers/There is no one compares with you/And these memories lose their meaning/When I think of love as something new.”

🎶How Are You True🎶

Solas is really struggling to carry out his initial plan, he knows its either his people or Lavellan, “And I try to find the will to carry on/Wonder how much longer I can carry on.” Although, he acknowledges how Lavellan is not what he expected and that he loves her saying, “you have shown subtlety in your actions a wisdom that goes against everything I expected” therefore the lyric, “Hey, how are you true?/Well there's one thing that you should know/Yes you should/You need love.”

🎶Wicked Eyes and Wicked Hearts🎶

[They visit Halamshiral,, let the party begin!!🎉🥳]

🎶Can't take me Eyes off of You🎶

Now with this, I picture Solas staring across to Lavellan doin her thing at Halamshiral, in his lil pose leaning and everything. Almost dreamlike, he is entranced by Lavellan in her attire, “You're just too good to be true/Can't take my eyes off of you/You'd be like Heaven to touch/I wanna hold you so much/At long last, love has arrived” (ok but not the red suit worn in the game but a beautiful gown instead, shes all dressed up looking ethereal methinks 💃🏻 ).

🎶Kiss Me🎶

After all the drama with Celene and such, Lavellan is standing outside taking in the fresh air when Solas approaches her and says, “come, before the band stops playing, dance with me.” As he’s reaching out his hand to her and they do their lil dancy dance under the moonlight I feel it is really exemplified in these lyrics, “Oh, kiss me, beneath the milky twilight/Lead me out on the moonlit floor/Lift your open hand/Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance/Silver moon's sparkling.”

🎶Loves the Only Way🎶

The main line of the song “There's gotta be a place/Love's the only way” correlates to Solas continuing to struggle with his love between Lavellan and his people, but he ponders that maybe it’s ok to let go and letting someone in his life, letting love in his life, could be the best way to heal. He figures ya know what, i wanna reveal myself to Lavellan in this special lil place in Crestwood perhaps somewhere where the ‘fade is thin here, can you feel it tingling on your skin’ hehehe …..Meaning that there HAS to be a place for him to finally be happy right? RIGHT?! 🤔💭

🎶Thedas Love Theme🎶

[THEE moment, the Crestwood Scene]

🎶Fade Into You🎶

First off, the song has the word Fade in it so its literally perfect hehe but if I were to crazy analyze it, fade into you is more like Solas intense love for the fade is possibly equal in measure to his love for Lavellan or something like that :)) but there is one line,“I look to you to see the truth” I cant HELP but relate this line to what Solas says “Then what I must tell you…the truth,, I look at you, and I see what you truly are and you deserve better than what those cruel marks represent” *SOBS*

🎶Space Song🎶

Now besties, from here on the beat of the songs get much slower, and a bit sadder. At Crestwood, they both share a smooch in the moonlight-“It was late at night/You held on tight…Somewhere in these eyes I'm on your side”- Solas is like imma be real with her and spill the truth. BUT he steps back and realizes he can't-“Fall back into place.” And with this, ends the night with a sad and alone Lavellan-“Tender is the night/For a broken heart.”

🎶I love you so🎶

But if Lavellan chooses that one option, she says “Solas…dont leave me. Not now. I love you” in which OF COURSE he responds “I cant”😐,, related lyrics- “But I love you so (please let me go).” Now, despite the heartbreak we know Solas has had his plan forever, an old feeling and duty that he must carry out-“I'm gonna pack my things and leave you behind/This feeling's old and I know that I've made up my mind.”

🎶Sparks🎶

Ok now poor Lavellan is like what did i do wrong?- “Did I drive you away.” And she continues thinking that after that she will probably still love him-“My heart is yours/It's you that I hold on to.” overall just big SAD☹️☹️

🎶Falling🎶

Ok now Lavellan is like solas really just left me alone and maybe even feels that he played with her emotions perhaps 👀- lyric “Oh, why'd you have to go and do me that way?/You know I'm done playing with all of your games.” But despite it all miss girl did in fact fall for him, though she is a girlboss inquisitor, she still cried over him- “I said, ooh, I fell for you/But baby since when did I cry over you.”

🎶Heartbeats🎶

Once again reflecting on the crestwood night, she knows they were in love and he told her the “truth” but what went wrong, he had left her feeling confused- lyric “One night to be confused/One night to speed up truth/We had a promise, babe/Four hands and then away” The truth of the vallaslin that he took away in one magical moment with a spell as his hands moved over her face- “One night of magic rush/The start a simple touch.”

🎶Lost Elf Theme🎶

[We’re in Trespasser DLC now bb😼💥]

🎶The Wolf🎶

Ruh Roh the big reveal, Solas is Fen'harel. 😟 If choosing the angry option solas says, “What would you have me say? That I was the great adversary in your peoples mythology” he realizes that he’s the enemy, the being the dalish fear- “I'll never be more than a wolf at your door for dinner.” Solas will fulfill his plan now even if that means the world of Thedas must die- “You know, the blood that I'm owed is all yours/The wishes I've made are too vicious to tell.”

🎶Take Care🎶

During this confrontation, Lavellan could tell Solas that she would have had him trust her and could even be willing to join him- “It's no good unless it grows/Feel this burning, love of mine…I'd take care of you/If you'd ask me to” In one last attempt Lavellan try’s to convince Solas that their love will prevail “Var Lath Vir Suledin.” ✋🏼😔

🎶Dark Solas Theme🎶

[end of confrontation; post trespasser]

🎶I Cant think of anybody But U🎶

“Woman I think I love you/'Cause I can't stop thinking of you/It's too late/Now you're gone”, Solas cant stop thinking of Lavellan but he knows that he cant just return to her, for it is too late and Lavellan is already making plans to deal with him. Despite their split, Solas will even visit Lavellan in her dreams to see her- “In my mind you're all I see/Baby like a dream/It's only make believe” but its not like he’s there with her in person in the dream/Fade, it isn’t real … but he would say “that is a matter of debate” 🙄

🎶Chamber of Reflection🎶

“Spend some time away…Spend some time alone” Solas is away from his love and is once again alone. The song repeats over and over again “alone again” almost like what solas is thinking in his head, another mistake he's made that has resulted in him being alone. He’s living his greatest fear. ☹️☹️☹️☹️

🎶She Needs Him🎶

“My heart takes up all my strength/No more can I think of them/No more can I hold her in my thoughts” If Solas wants to carry out his plan he knows he cant have a ‘weakness’ being his persisting love for Lavellan. The song ends with the lines, “I want her to know/He don't have it all” and in the end of the day Solas doesn't, at his one chance of happiness he throws it away because of his pride.😐

🎶For the First Time🎶

Solas misses Lavellan, the only person he had trusted in a long time- “While she's been away/Living day-to-day has been tough/Without her at my side” he longs for his vhenan in which the only way he could see her is through dreams and as he stares from a long distance he knows his love for her is still present like the day they first met- “It's just like seeing her for the first time again”🧍🏻‍♀️

🎶Everybody's Changing🎶

Ok now the ball is rolling, the inquisition are making plans to stop Solas through agents or anything to get him. But at this time, Lavellan cant help but still think of Solas and why he is doin what he’s doin trying to restore his people- “You're aching, you're breaking/And I can see the pain in your eyes/Says Everybody's Changing” She knows that Solas is sad about the journey hes embarking-the dina'shiral- and hopes to change his mind. Because if he continues down this path there is nothing but pain and suffering ,, like babes what do mean you are gonna bring about the destruction of the world cuz everything is different and you seem like you have to fix it????🤨

♥️🎶Saw You in a Dream🎶♥️

NOW for the essence that is sovellan post trespasser, this whole song is the embodiment of Solas visiting her in her dreams and Lavellan trying hard to reach out to him,, continuing to dream in hope of seeing him again

“I saw you in a dream/You had stayed the same/You were beckoning me”/// “Tried to keep my eyes closed/I want you so bad/Then I awoke and it was so sad”//”You came to me/You were the sweetest apparition, such a pretty vision/There was no reason, no explanation”

Thank you for coming to my Sovellan Ted Talk, he’s a lil treat 🤲🏼🍬 <3

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