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I find it difficult nowadays to have myself focused on any book that I'm reading. I'm refering not only to one, but also to multiple books I've been trying catch up with. I could never seem to regain the strength to alot some time to conclude those pages. Although it might sound silly but I bet the real culprit behind all those odd habits is when I've come to an end on this certain book I've read. My mind's like pulling a trick on me in which I keep on denying that I'm over it, despite that I've been so hooked to it for over a year to the point I keep on reading through it all again but it seems like I just keep on skipping some parts while also proceeding on examining where my exact favorite scenes are placed. That repeatedly happened, so, I took it as a sign for me to try and find out what seems to be the problem? My mind wonders through various timelines, different settings yet it always leads me back to where we've used to had. You see, I'm quite picky when it comes to books, but when I see something which I think that is worth to read, I'll gather up all my knowledge, spare all the time I have just to get to know the book and it's narrative. I've tried countless of times to prove myself so I would take a chance for you to trust me and let me in through you. Whenever anything is associated with the word "love" I've always thought of us and the plot we're both building. I've collected dozens of infomations that are new, some are not, some things are on the edge but it doesn't affect my perspective and the mutual feelings developing, it's even quite amusing that most of it felt destined, that is enough to be easily mesmerized and be able to even memorize. Days and nights became fully dedicated throughout hours of scanning each words written on papers that creates a beautiful piece ensembling our bond.
Not until, those became irrelevant, a lot of words just happens to not make any sense, suddenly I have no idea where this storyline will lead. That's when I realized, those patterns we've established no longer creates a thrill and excites one another. The book that once my highly recommended, the reason why my heels keeps on heading back on the library turned into some sort of distraction that my mind cannot seem to get away even when I keep on trying to get engaged on new books and even on other things. It left a questionable ending with no particular answer which only makes me want to go all over again on this same old book, stuck with all the memories attached deeply into my heart made by you and me. For sure it will take a lot of time for me proceed and start reading another book, knowing the way how our story ended still doesn't feels real, and I'm holding on, like a fool hoping that a sequel should be given a shot, to make it up to all those books I didin't quite comprehend because our tale still lingers very clear in all of my heart, mind and soul.
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