#AHHHHH AHAHAHHA AHHHHH

[002yb]

AAAAAAAAAAA YOUR DICKJOYFIRE FIC????? OMG IM ON MY KNEES. i love kory and Jay and i grew fond of jayroy and jaydick is my absolute OTP and aaaaaaa. Your brain is justtttt. OmG i love all that you write. Would you consider writing more about the four of them together? Smothering Jay with love and him being the maiden heart he is♡

Anyways, im really a fan of your fics they are awesome

Ahhhhh, you're always so delightful @alexandraisapenguin thank you so much. ///u/// This turned out to be more general ot4 though ;u;

Gym Shenanigans

Friendly competition between the four of them that's really just the boys taunting and challenging one another and being motivating in all their dumbness.

And Kory is so fond as she smokes all of them. Scorched earth policy, sorry boys. ;)

But it's all good because the three of them are so (˵ •̀ ᴗ - ˵ ) because wowie hot damn, look at their girlfriend go.

Something something they all benchpress each other and Jason loses it each time when all of them do him. Which omg what? Hot? Help?

Dick being the first though and it takes so much coaxing and Dick swears he's got this. Which he does. It's only a few reps, anyhow. Still, the moment Dick presses Jason up, Jason panics and flails and ends up throwing himself out of Dick's hold and landing on his chest and Dick wheezes because oh god. Meanwhile Kory and Roy are !!! because whoops, spotting is a thing and Jason is mortified forever because again, omg.

But Dick just laughs through his wheezing and holds Jason to him before he can run off and Jason is sweet and blushy as he hides in Dick's chest and it's cute.

Speaking of chests - Roy marveling Jason's pecs. Like how you can catch glimpses of it through the low cut of Jason's sleeves. Dick following suit once he notices Roy's staring. And Kory following along not long after and wow, she thinks she understands the infatuation with breasts now. Amazing.

Jason spitting and sputtering because wth Kory //A///

Kory saddling up next to her baby boy and comparing chests and laughing because it's impressive! Has Jason ever tried to hold anything in his cleavage? So convenient. Also-

(Also, unrelated thought: Jason laying on top of Kory and their chests being smushed together and Dick and Roy just blatantly staring until they're called out and it's ahahahha)

General muscle appreciation. Like Roy's back. Roy basking in the attention but also being sweetly sheepish about it. Just something with him waving them off and being all, 'oh stop, guys,' then promptly flexing his back muscles. Dorky sweetness and cute flirting ahhhhhhh.

But wait. Dick getting stared at and objectified by other gym goers because he's beautiful handsome gorgeous. And while it's uncomfortable, he deals. Nothing new, right?

Only Jason puffs up and is ready to throw down, just sending the nastiest glares and snarls at men and women alike. He's got Kory right there backing him up too while Roy uses his impressive back to act as a screen and the combination of it all lightens Dick's mood so much and he loves them all dearly. ;U;

Sauna. Where Kory basks in the heat and unintentionally raises the temp until her boys are toasted and she has to drag them out and fan them back to safe temps.

Shower. Where Kory suggests showering together and yeah, sure. Only Jason bails out of embarrassment, maiden at heart that he is.

#dickjoyfire #dickjay #jaydick #dickroy #royjay #joyfire #dickkory #all the combinations; they're perfect #ot4 vibes

[sungbeam]

XNONIE PRESENT (FINALLY) !!!

hi beam! college has been kicking my butt recently ☹️ idk how ppl do it but i'm dragging myself through the week right now LMAO

i don't see anything 😀 when i search up my asks 😀 so i unfortunately 😀 have a very vague 😀 idea of our last convo 😀

but i DO remember that you asked about dc!! i'm glad u asked b/c i'm actually trying to get into dc right now! i'm watching titans season 1 on hbo max, recently watched black adam, saw ww84, & saw the new batman movie a while ago! beast boy is kinda 😍💖💕💗💞 in titans HEHEHE- my favorite dc characters rn are him & starfire but i really wanna delve into the franchise more!! who are ur dc biases so far 🙏 (yes we'll be using kpop terminology for non-kpop fandoms from now on)

also i have NOT listened to 28 reasons by seulgi yet b/c of my schedule i feel like such a fake reveluv but i'm looking into that 😭 AND YES GIVE CRAVITY SOME LOVE ON PARTY ROCK <3 i'm taeyoung biased ever since i saw his tiktoks (all their tiktoks are iconic tbh they keep up w/ trends LOL)

HOW HAVE U BEEN BTW?? and are u excited for wakanda forever? i can't believe its coming so soon alreadyyyy 😟❗️

XNONIE !!! BFF !!! I'M SO SORRY FOR MY LATE REPLY I'VE JUST LACKED SO MUCH ENERGY TO EVEN REPLY TO ASKS THIS WEEK (´Д⊂ヽ but i was so excited to see u active and alive akcnekfnek idk how people do it either tbh :') like i felt that so hard when u said ur practically dragging urself thru the week like me too dude, me too 😔 LMAO SOMETHING IS UP W TUMBLR TAGS 🗿🗿🗿 as there always is tbh, but i went thru and found my latest response so i'll link it here BAHHAHA

AHHHH DC YESYES !!! i actually haven't watched the live action titans series yet :0 but i follow ryan potter on instagram so i've def seen some stuff for it !! he's so hot tho so true 😩😩😩 i kinda wish he was casted as nightwing/dick grayson cuz he would've made a really good one, but the current one i think fits as well :') ahh yes i actually am not the greatest fan of dc movies lmao just cuz their animated tv shows r just top notch and so much better imo but i did enjoy the first wonder woman and robert pattinson's the batman !! ooh my dc biases? it's prob the bat boys AHAHAHHA i'm writing an au inspired by them actually rn hehe so basically nightwing/dick grayson, red hood/jason todd, and red robin/tim drake, but i am also particularly fond of roy harper/speedy and robin/damian wayne @_@ they all make my mind go brrrr (wbu tho 👀👀)

AHHHHH WAKANDA FOREVER I HAVENT WATCHED IT YET I FEEL SO SAD ☹️☹️☹️ it's cuz college has also been kicking my ass and watching marvel movies is a thing my family does together and it's just not the same going to see it in theaters w anyone else :( so i've been holding back skcnekfn have u seen it tho :0 i'm also so very excited for quantumania !!! (ﾉ´∀｀*) IT LOOKS SO SO SO GOOD SKFNKENFKD I LOVE PAUL RUDD PLS GIVE THAT MAN AN OSCAR RN

okok i think i also was gonna bring up the fact that i wanted to write another mcu au for svt?? like ik we were talking abt the xmen au, but i was thinking abt making minghao scarlet witch and basically yn is like the one person who truly saw him and when he lost u, all hell broke loose (like in wandavision), and so it's like him recreating a life w u while his friends on the outside r trying to break him out of it before the stinky government folks do skcnwidn

#sungbeam strikes again #xnonie 💥

[mithrilnen]

bts, hyuna, (g)i-dle, b.a.p & stray kids 💫

as u said, ranking bts songs is impossible for me either lmaoo so yeah. Recent faves: (ok fake love is my no 1 forever and ever and ever and tear my 2nd)

1. Fake Love

2. Tear

3. Sea

4. Cypher Pt 4

5. The Truth Untold

HYUNA: Oof man. Dude. Omg. Can’t. I love em all :)((((/!/&/&/!/!:&/‘s shahausjsnd i cannnnnt

1. Roll Deep

2. Flower Shower / Red

3. Run & Run

4. Blacklist

5. PURPLE (srlst cube cant deny that they knew nothing LOL just listen to this (; )

(G)-Idle: hhhh u gotta listen to 3&4 they’re side tracks and they are ao goood ahhhh i love my girls

1. Lion

2. Hann

3. Put it Straight

4. Maze

5. Señorita

B.A.P this was kinda ez. U know i’m a bitch for my top 3 like ?? These 3 are one of THE most emotional songs ever brb crying bye

1. wake me up

2. Coma

3. Save me

4. One Shot

5. 1004 Angel

Stray Kids: wow this is a very tough one holy shit.

1. Hellevator

2. Insomnia

3. Voices

4. Levanter

5. Double Knot

#ask game #moon of my life #ahahahha #brb crying over all my emo songa #we all know im emo #hahahahahahahahaha #ahhhHh

[rigelmejo]

More dumb progress notes?

Listening to glossika japanese (and duoreader japanese audio) it's cool to hear some words and realize I recognize how they took a rough chinese pronunciation. Then other words in glossika, I know the kanji they use and I can tell they're using a non cognate pronunciation.

Japanese cruel 残酷 zankoku (like canku in chinese), or 両親 ryoushin parents (shin like xin in chinese)

Versus like 子供 Kodomo kids in Japanese (whereas I'd read this in chinese as zigong). I think it's onyomi and kunyoni pronunciation differences of Kanji. And the more I do listening based stuff, the more I recognize when a pronunciation is more similar to hanzi I know.

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Reading along to zhenhun with the audio without stopping is going better than I thought it would. I really just want to get myself to read More somehow. I hope I get to 300 pages;-;. I can tell I'm a better reader than I was when I started extensively reading French. I can comprehend the main idea and some sentences and then I figure out some words as I hear them a few times in a few contexts. It helps I know some of the story, I can usually picture everything going on. Its kind of funny cause even in a paragraph I don't 100% get or a word I don't get I know in my mind what the scene looks like that's going on.

Just like every time I read, the parts I understand most clearly are action portions and dialogue. I clearly know more vocab for those kinds of sentences. Its a good thing to recognize since most of the plot is conveyed by these kinds of sentences. But then there's descriptive parts where I know they're discussing fengshui being bad and the place being moist and dim and then there's something about bugs but I can't tell fast enough if it means "there's bugs here" or "there's not even bugs here" before it moves on. Or when it described how shen wei is like a scholars painting of a beauty with a demonic aura. I can follow clearly shen wei is like.... painting.... beauty.... with demonic aura. But it's unclear to me exactly what the rest of the sentence details were. I could tell zhao yunlan was discussing his old teacher saying he'd grow up to be a thug, then he turned out to be a cop, the biggest thug of all. But I couldn't catch fast enough what kind of teacher or how it connected to his allergic to math joke (though I remember reading the scene before and Know he was kind of telling a joke).

I also find I sometimes catch words in listening but not reading, or reading but not listening. My interpretation of hanzi is generally easier for me to rely on though when I'm trying to figure out new words.

My Chinese very gradually gets better each time I read and its funny but frustrating. I wonder if I could call myself intermediate now. ;-; it's like? I can read what I want but it'll be difficult. I can watch what I want. I can listen to stuff without a visual but honestly need probably a few hundred hours more listening improvement before I can just Listen to audiobooks alone and follow them enough to be decently happy sjsjjd

On the upside. I can read manhua really easily now. I bought myself poyun manhua saye manhua and tgcf manhua so when they come in the mail I can treat myself and read stuff I know is easy and fun and that I've wanted to read ToT

I remember WAY back when starting japanese and just dreaming of like... reading manga. Ahahahha. Ahhhhh how naive I was. I imagine if when I started chinese, if manhua had been like my Dream Long-term goal. And how I'd already be happy and done by now if that had been. But on the other hand? I think striving for novels made me challenge myself faster in chinese, and that's part of why I improved jn less years compared to japanese. So maybe chinese just wouldve progressed slower if I hadn't tried to read novels so much.

Also like. While manga arent easy for me yet in japanese? They are finally doable for the main idea. And its funny because now my goal is reading harder stuff. It's funny in retrospect I ever thought Manga was the ultimate goal. I also knew video games was the ultimate goal ToT. But it's just funny to me I didn't think I'd need a solid reading level. Now the kind of stuff I want to do in Japanese? A lot of it is still video game oriented, but like. Now it includes stuff like supplemental novellas. So reading actual novels is still a skill I need ajsjsje. In fact in a way it's harder than chinese because most of the novels I want to read I can only find print copies of. So I'm going to need to read them without any click dictionary aid.

Eventually I probably should buckle down and read my 2 textbooks literally designed to teach reading skills for novels.

But knowing me... it is entirely possible I eventually just buy a print novel and. Try to brute force it. Just yesterday I found japanese version of Nier Automata Long Story Short novel since its just a novelization of Nier Automata the game, and I am familiar with the game so I figured it'd be easier to read. The same way like... watching a lets play of a game ive played is easier for me to follow in Japanese.

How many years have I been studying japanese? ToT it was 2.5 years then I gave it up. Then I picked it up again. Has it been like... 4.5 years now?

How long have I been studying chinese...? Has it been 3 years....?

#rant #progress #march progress

[inevitably-johnlocked]

how does one know if they're ace or aro?

Hi Lovely!!

Ahhhhh, well, sadly this is a different experience for every individual, and I can only speak for myself. I am not Aro, so I can’t give you that personal anecdote, but I am ace.

You see, I grew up in a very conservative city, and went to catholic school, so you just... don’t think of anything other than boy and girl. Except I didn’t think of ANY of that at all. I thought maybe I was just a late bloomer. I got to college and still... nothing. Just what the HELL is wrong with me?

For me, growing up, I just... never understood why everyone was so obsessed with sex, and why making out never “turned me on”. I genuinely thought I was broken, that there was something wrong with me. I like being cuddled and hugged and just having emotional intimacy, but the second someone wanted to go beyond that, I was like “NOPE”, called a prude and a bitch, and that was that. I wanted all the aspects of a relationship but not interested at all in ever having the sex part of it.

But I never brought it up to my doctors, and I’ve never been in a serious relationship because “Hey, I’m broken, no one will want me anyway”, so I focussed on my career instead. I’ve essentially shied away from relationships because I didn’t want to explain to someone that “I’m broken, I only want cuddles, and it has to move at a snail’s pace”. So yeah.

This was all made worse by a mother who constantly told me “what’s wrong with you, why haven’t you given me grandchildren, HAH AHAHAHHA the movie “40 Year Old Virgin” is about you isn’t that hilarious??” 

No, mother, it wasn’t. 

What clued me into possibly being ace was actually really funny. It was when I got into the Sherlock fandom and people discussed Sherlock’s sexuality, and I believe it was Brönte who mentioned something about asexual Sherlock, since she was a literature major. "Asexual” is one of those terms I’ve heard, but didn’t really know anything about outside of what it meant.

This is where my almost-4-year sexuality crisis began. It has its issues, but I started my journey by reading up everything on Asexuality.org. EVERYTHING including the forums. Then I watched asexual TED talks (there’s one by the founder of Asexuality.org and another by a young person (sorry I can’t remember their pronouns) that are really good and informative) and YouTubers like Amelia Ace and Slice of Ace (Anthony Padilla actually has an interesting “I spent a day with” video with aces that I recommend, and youtuber Ash Hardell came out with a VERY good series I watched when I was learning about myself). Suddenly everything clicked. It was LITERALLY an “Oh.” moment. Then I learned about the split attraction model, which aces use to help clarify where they are on the spectrum, and about 2 years in, I suddenly realized that “Hmm.  I’ve always said I want to be with ‘some ONE’ not some man” so I had another long think, did more research, and thought yeah, you know what? I don’t care about the gender presentation of who I end up with, as long as we’re happy and we enjoy each other’s lives.” So yeah that was a bit of a surprise to me. 

Then I met other asexuals at 221B con.That was what sealed it for me: their advice and help and just genuine kindness and understanding of how I feel. I’ve NEVER had anyone say “yeah, I feel that way too!”, rather than “I just don’t understand how you can’t want sex. Everyone wants sex!”.

So now, I’m 2 years “out” to my online friends, I’m glad I’m not broken anymore, but let me tell you, it’s a fucking scary thing to go through at 34. 

I still am not publicly out, but I don’t make it a secret that I go to Pride week and I support LGBT causes. And I never leave home anyway, and will probably be alone the rest of my life, but I feel at peace with myself, you know? Just simply KNOWING that I’m NOT broken is a fucking weight off my shoulders.

I know the running joke in the fandom is that “Sherlock Fandom Made Me Gay”, but honestly, there is a grain of truth in it. A lot of us just... don’t KNOW until we’re around other queer people. Which I wasn’t ever UNTIL I came here AND moved to a very liberal city. Everyone was very understanding and helpful, and in turn and in thanks, I was able to also help other lovelies who, like me, didn’t know and were scared.

So yeah, Lovely, for me it was a sense of “something’s different, but I’m not sure what”. And then a lot of research. I knew I wasn’t aromantic because I do desire and crave romance probably in the same way allosexual people crave sex... I wouldn’t know, I’ve never craved it, LOL. 

Personally, I encourage everyone to just have a period of their lives where they learn about different sexualities and different types of romance. You always hear these stories about someone not knowing they were homoromantic until they had a roommate they fell in love with. One of my best friends found out he was trans in his mid-thirties... He just thought he was a tomboy who just... felt different. 

It’s a different experience for everyone, Rory, and one that only you can discover on your own. Read up information, watch YouTubers, go down the wikipedia rabbit hole, and talk to other people in the various communities. 

But let me tell you, Rory, remember this term: Split Attraction Model. Discovering this term helped me a lot on my ace journey. Remember Asexuality and Aromanticism are both very VERY wide spectrums and very VERY different things, and it’s going to take awhile to figure out where you belong. But once you do, I think you’ll be at peace. And it’s OKAY to not “settle” on a label. Please know that. Sexuality is fluid.

Good luck Lovely, and don’t hesitate to ask if you have any other questions. <3

#steph replies #asexuality #ace awareness week #about me #my life #chatting with lovelies #hey-im-rory

[cyancherub]

Psssh i love your chatty nature, people can always block tags >3> i followed your other blog but you are allowed to express yourself

AHHHHH thank you rammy ;v; ahahahha i just feel so bad because maybe people follow me for one thing or maybe just my writing and then they're bombarded with spam of a million other things SHJDJHA !!!

#to cherub #👼 sukuna dealer ramskull #ill use it for like commentary and random stuff for anime im watching maybe??? #WE SHALL SEE !!

[lou-the-switch]

Ooo! Can you write a Steven Universe fic of Steven getting wrecked by the gems and Connie? I love your writing btw!!

AHHHHH! THANK YOU SO MUCH! I love your stuff too!!

Sooo this is my first fic with Steven universe, let’s see how this goes!

We’ve missed you!

Summary: When Steven comes back to visit Beach City, so much has changed, but most will always stay the same

Word count: 869

“He’s coming!” Connie yelled, as she ran to the temple where Garnet, Amethyst and Pearl awaited her. They kinda already knew.

“We know Connie!” Amethyst said with the biggest smile, snickering, “Garnet told us”

“Oh yeah, haha” Connie giggles, scratching the back of her head, blushing nervously. Hearing sand crunch on the beach, the gems and Connie rush outside and see Steven’s car rush up.

“GUYS!!” Steven yells, jumping out of the vehicle and literally sprinting to the gems. The gems on the other hand just jumped down from the porch, diving onto Steven. Connie watched, with the biggest smile. Embracing in a hug, tears everywhere, they were finally reunited.

“I-I.. *sniffs* missed you so much!!” Pearl attempts to speak, trying so speak somewhat clear enough so Steven could understand her.

“We’ve all missed you” Garnet explains, wiping tears from all three eyes, “Let’s talk more inside.” The gems and Steven walked back up to the house, with Connie waiting there. She went over to Steven and placed a gentle kiss on his cheek, having a little giggle escape from his mouth. From the corner of her eye, Amethyst sees this, raising an eyebrow and showing a smirk, and sitting on the couch. The couple followed,sitting on the tall stools by the kitchen table.

Amethyst doesn’t stay seated for too long though, as she gets up and walks towards Steven and Connie

“So uh Steven… How does the place look? Does it look nice?” She asked with a grin. Steven was confused. What was the face for?

“It’s um.. Great! A lot of things are different! A good different of course!” Steven said like he meant it, and he did.

“Well uh… just so you know,” Amethyst walks towards Steven. “I’m glad to say that a lot of things are the same, don’t ya think?” When she asks this, she nudges her elbows up and down his right side. Uh oh

“EEEEP!” Steven let out a huge squeak.

“Yup! I knew it!” She said, pointing at Steven, “He’s still the ticklish little boy we all know and love!” Steven flushed, making him as pink as his gem. He was hesitant of what to say next, because if he said the wrong thing, he would be wrecked for sure.

“No need to speak Steven” Garnet spoke, breaking the silence. “No matter what you say, We’re still going to tickle you.” She had the most calming face, turning into the most playful grin, almost Amethyst like. Connie knew exactly what was going down, so she literally jumps out of her chair, out of the way. Steven was all alone, no one to defend him but himself.

“Wait! I’m not that ticklish anymore! You just caught me off guard!” Steven tries to explain, but it was no use, all of the gems, with hands reached out, wiggling their fingers towards the poor boy.

“We will just see about that!” Pearl exclaims, and the three of them pounce onto Steven, bringing him to the ground.

“Wahait! plehehease!” Steven giggles, already squirming.

“Awe Steeeeeveeen, we didn’t even touch you yet!” Amethyst said, tilting her head. She then dug her fingers into his sides, with Steven having an immediate reaction.

“AHAHAHHA STOHOHOHP PLEEHEHEHEASE!” Steven laughs, but the purple gem did nothing but that. She then sat on his hips, trying to keep him still, but he bucking like his life depended on it.

“Uh guys! Little help” Amethyst asked, and Garnet was gone. Only because Ruby and Sapphire were there, pinning Steven’s hands to the ground. Then they both put each of their hands into an armpit.

“HAHAHAHHAHA OH MY GOHOHOHOSH!” Steven yelled. It was now pearl’s turn. She wrapped her left arm around Steven’s ankles, and wiggled her fingers all over the soles. The gems were literally ganging up on the boy, and he was almost on the brink of tears.

“CONNIE! HEHEHELP MEEE!” Steven pleaded, wanting his girlfriend to save him.

“Sure Steven, but let’s just say it’s not the help you wanted,” Connie begins to walk towards the group and sees that Steven’s shirt has ridden up, showing a bit of his gem, and Connie shows a smirk. His weakest point, exposed. Connie begins to lift the shirt more, and draws small little circles all over Steven’s gem.

“AHAHAHA CONNIE NOHOHO!” Steven chuckles, wanting it to end, but sadly, they aren’t finished with him. Connie takes a breath, and blows the biggest raspberry on Steven’s gem, laying about five seconds, and he completely LOST it.

That was the final blow. Once Connie had finished, the tickle team stopped and took a step back. Garnet had been fused once again, beginning to giggle to herself.

“Yes, some things had definitely stayed the same.” Everyone laughed at the comment Garnet made, even Steven, while he was getting up from the floor. Connie helped him up, putting him on the couch. He was so tired from the attack, he could sleep then and there. He then leaned onto Connie’s shoulder, falling asleep.

“At least Amethyst was right, Steven is still as ticklish as he was years ago,” she laughs,and nobody minded it at all. It was the Steven they all knew and loved.

All done! so very sorry that it took so long, but kinda proud how it turned out for the first fic about SU. Hope you enjoyed!

#steven universe tickle #tickle fic #this took a lot longer than i thought it would #ticklish #lou writes

[livcosmos]

CHAIN OF GOLD booktalk

You guys I can't even... that was oh my God soooo good. I know I always say this but I don’t even know where to start like there was so much going on and ahahahha I loved it so incredebly much!!! I wasn’t sure if I wanted to read it because I thought that it would be to painful because of my love Jem but I am sooooo incredebly glad I did read it and I can’t wait for the next book I am fraking out so hard I need to know what happens kjkjkjkjk... Can it please be March already???Please!!! I had so much fun reading it, it gave all the feelings from laughing out loud to screaming and crying and wanting to throw the book out the window, it was amazing! It was so intense!! I also want to say how much respect I have for this woman she created such an amazing world with such amazing characters and she never stops to amaze me she never disappoints! I want to thank her once again for everything!!! She is a freaking genius!!! Now let’s get started!

Ok I think I’m going to start with my boy Matthew, he was and is my aboulute favourite, I knew he was going to be from the moment I read the short story about him in “Ghosts of the Shadow Market”, cause yes apperently I have a weakness for sad damaged boys, my hearth breaks for him and I just want him to be happy more than everything he is such a sweeatherat and I am so so scared that something is going to happen to him I saw some theires about him... I’m telling you if something happpens to him I burning the world down if I may quote Sebastian!

Through the whole book I was screaming for more parts from his point of few because I needed and I stilll need to know exactly what he is thinking and what he is feeling I need that so bad and when we finally got the first tiny part from his point of few the one with Grace... I am going to talk about that...girl in a miunte... first I started crying cause I was so happy but than of course that bitch, I’m sorry I normaly never swar but oh my Lord I hate Grace and the things I said to her God forgive me, had to ruin it and hhjhfjfgfgf poor Matthew! I really hope Magnus helps him, our sweet Maguns our mother Theresa bless his soul I love how he is always there to help and all my hope is in him that he helps Matthew too as he helped Will, I am so happy he is present and in the action, let’s be honest what would be a Shadowhunter book without him seriosly now?

As I mentioned Will, first his parenting omg is helarious😂😂 I love him so much! And second of all Matthew remeinds me so much of him and I really really hope Matthew finds his light as Will did!

Matthew needs to talk to someone about what happend he needs to talk about it and frogive himself for what he did ahhh it breaks my hearth to see him suffering! When he told Thomas and Lucie about what Alastair said as mean as it sounds cause I do felt really sorry for Alastair in that moment, I was glad Matthew said at least a part of what is so heavy on his hearth, I mean he didn’t said what he did because of the rumor Alaister speed but it was a step forward in my opinion! AAAHHH and I read the things we can expect in Chain of Iron and that he probably is going to tell Cordelia what he did aaahhhh... bless him I am so excited to see what happens!!!!

Heres is the thing, this is probably an rather unpopular opinion but even tho I of course ship James and Cordelia, I mean obviosly they are made for each other there is no doubt in that, but there is still a part of me that ships Matthew with Cordelia.... I mean THE DRAMA, I know but ahhh and I read that they are going to be very close in Chain of Iron and aaaaaa I can’t say it often enough how freaking excited I am for that book!!!!! I loved the easiness in their conversations, they always were somehow comfortable around each other and the dance at the ball tho omg that was something, I loved it so much!! How they danced together and talked that was the moment I started shipping them!!!

And here’s another thing, I also shipped Matthew with Lucie like... hgckgfgfk don’t get me wrong I love Jesse and I do ship Jesse with Lucie, like how could I not and bless him when he gave his last breath for James how couldn’t I love him? I cried so much reading that scene! How could I not ship him with Lucie they are also made for each other but than agian Matthew and Lucie ... that would be interesting I mean now it’s obviosly never going to happen because Matthew is over her but still! And my hearth BROKE like it litterly shattered when James talked to Lucie about Matthew and she was like yeah but I don’t like him in that way... Like girl I love you you’re amaizing but what is wrong with you? We are talking about MATTHEW FREAKING FARICHILD here !!!!! Oh or at that part where she was talking to Matthew and she literatly called him a drunk, like yeah he do has that problem but she didn’t had to be so harsh! I loved tho how much Matthew cared for Lucie how he was concerned about her well being he is so sweet!!!! But I guess have a more brother and sister relationship, unfortunately.

The only thing I fear is that Matthew is goin to end up alone because obviosly James and Cordelia and Lucie and Jesse will stay togetehr forever, and I don’t want my baby to be alone forever! I read that there is a new charachter in Chain of Iron, a girl from Italy maybe she will be the perfect match for my Matthew? Who knows?

Another thing I ablolutely fraking love about Matthew is also that he loves fashion and that he carse about how he dressed and oh my lord he is wering RINGS!!!! like ok every Shadowhunter has their family ring but he is wearing other rings too and he has so much style!!!! He owend my hearth anyway but those things made him even more lovebale for me ahhhhhh and the fact that he is fangirling over Magnus.... omg!!! And of couse the fact that he loves reading I mean yeah Jamie and Lucie they also love reading and I love them for that too but the fact that he is reading in combination whit his other traids... he went right up on the second place of my book boyfriedns list!!! And of couse his dog, I love Oscar even tho he didn’t apear that much but aaaaa how he tried to save Matthew when they were attaced ...my hearth. And the fact itself that he named his dog after his favourite author.... just... I always love an artist boy but Matthew is something else! He can’t quite reach Jem because Jem to me is more that everything but he is right behid him! Jem is the love of my life and Matthew is my soulmate how about that,that seams sounds good.😂😂

As I already mentioned my biggest love of all times Jem, I also have to say a few words about him! So I cryed so much at that part when he came to see Will after his parents died, I was so emotional and ahhhhh every time they all were like oncle Jem here onlce Jem there... I had tears in my eyes I always cry for Jem and and he owns my hearth forever and ever, his faith always makes me cry, how sad he must have been all this years... how sad... finally seeing him happy with Tessa and Mina makes me more than happy and again I am warning everyone here if anything happens to him in the Wicked Powers anything... to him or Mina... I’m going to react even worse than if anything happens to Matthew!!! Oh and another thing I can hadle “oncle Jem”, it hurts but I except it, “cousin Jem” tho is a whole other level tho.. that I can’t handle it’s so wired omg it’s so wired that Cordelia is Jem’s cousin ....and overall it is wired to see all of them as parents not only Will and Tessa but also Cecily and Gabriel, Sophie and Gideon ahhhh my hearth, knowing everything they have been through and now seeing them have kids...but than it was also so interesting and funny and I loved that they were there but that they let the children do their own thing, that even tho they were present they weren’t the focus of the book. AH and I loved how Magnus was like: “I am going to help you all but if something goes wrong I am going to tell your parents!”, I love that he is so close to Tessa and Will everytime I think about the fact that he and Tessa are so close to this day ahhhhh....so sweet!!!

And now that I mentioned Mina I have to say this too, I how painfull must it be for Tessa and Jem and even Maguns to have seen all those beautiful children James, Lucie, Matthew all of the live, and love and grow and than die! Like it hurts me so much because I learnd to love them all so much and I am sitting here screaming at every on of them to stay alive and don’t die but than if you thing about it they are all already dead.... and that hurts and if that hurts me how must Tessa and Jem feel, who have seen them every day.... that is so incredebly sad and it breaks my heart! And than I think about the fact that Jem is now also going to die ant some point and Mina too and I can’t even think about it that is unbareble for me I don’t want to think about a world without my Jemmy in it!!

Anyway coming back to this book I think it’s time to talk about our manipulative, annoying, mean, evil, I fraking hate her so much, Grace Blackthorn.... aaahhhhh were do I start......I KNEW IT from the very beginning!!!!!! The moment, the moment James metioned that damned bracelet the first time I knew that there was something wired about it, I knew it had some kind of influence over him I knew it and than she came andjbsdhbfsdhfbsdhf I can’t even I am sooooo mad soooo sooooo mad!!!! I love Jamie, I realy do and I know it’s not his fault but still I am also a little mad at him that he let himself get triecked by that lunatic!!!!! I was so happy and releaved when she took that bracelet back from him I was so happy that she was finally out of the picture and I also was sooooooooo happy he realised even a little bit that there was something wrong and that he didn’t actualy loved Grace and that he actually has feelings for Cordelia!!!! Because my god Cordelia was there first he liked Cordelia first when she read to him when he was ill, that was so sweet and he had a crush on her but didn’t realise it and than the lunatic came and gave him that freaking bracelet, and she said herslf that James was obviosly crushing over Cordelia but of cousre she is a manipulative bitch and she made him take that bracelet and than made him wear it ahhhhh bsdgfkjhgfkhgljkg

It was a trap from the very beginning and I had red flags all over in my head flying around the moment she first apeared, of couse I felt sorry for her, because of the other lunatic, her mother, and I thought that it’s not her fault that she was raised by Tatiana and that she maybe has a little good in her but noooooooooooo she knows what she is doing!!! Even if Tatiana made her do some of the the evil things she not only agree to do them she also made her own bad bad bad things!!!!! God I hate her so much!!!  It was a trap for James the moment Tatiana came and was like “Can you plese help me cut the throns?” nooooo he can’t!!!!! Get out!!!! James should have sensed that there was something wired going on, but bless him his heart is to good to sense that!!!

I love how Matthew never liked Grace and that scene with her when they talked I got sooo mad so so mad!!!! I love Matthew but he needs to tell James or even Cordelia about what Garce said and did!!! And Matthew how could you let them alone at the end how??? When I read that part, when the evil thing but the bracelet back on James’s wrist I was beyond furios that was the last bit, I wanted to throw the book on a wall!!! vfsdjhfgdhjsgfdshgfsh!!!!! And pleaseeeeeee someoneeee I don’t care if it is Matthew or Cordelia or anyone elese PLEASE TAKE THAT DAMED BRACELET OF JAMES!!!!!! They must see that there is something about that bracelet please please please Magnus, anyone plese!!!

According to the family tree from Clockwork Princess our Miss Grace is going to be with Christopher PLESE NO! Christopher is to good for her, he is too nice he deserves something better than Grace I love Christiopher plese don’t let her ruin him! I know that that family tree isn’t reliable but still I went in fulll on detectiv Mode through the whole book checking that tree  and making theories and everything!!!! And I need some awnsers!!!!

When Barbara died ( I didn’t know her that well but she seamed so nice I liked her and I fell so sorry for Sophie and Gideon!!!) an alarm in my head went on because in the epiloge of Clockwork Princess, when Will died they said that Sophie’s girls where there and I was like nooo there is a mistake how?? How can Sophie’s girls be at Will’s death of Barbara just died!And than it occured to me that Cassie changed her mind and decided to kill Barbara then, we can’t trust anything!!! Anything is opssible anything can happen and I am so scared!!!!

Returining to Grace and Tatiana.... why on earth does no one acknowledge that Tatiana is mad??? She is wearing the same dress she wore when her husband died every freaking day??!! They must see that there is something wrong with her! And letting her adopt a child who she obviosly ruined is another crazy thing!!!! Why does no one see that??? Why??? James sweetheath the moment you met Grace you should have run to Tessa and and tell her that crazy Tatiana is keeping a girl in that run down house!! He would have done a good thing for her if he had told anyone about her but than again Grace is crazy herself and maybe she would have stabed everyone in the Institute in the middle of the night! And Tatiana is now going to the Iron Sisters and I am so freaking scared of what she is going to do...

Poor Jesse she seams so nice comapred to his crazy mother and sister how can he be so nice when they are so out of thier minds??? I am dying to know how Lucie is going to bring him back to life, God forbid Grace makes her do something to carzy I mean it is crazy enough they want to bring Jesse back with necromacie and I guess it runs in the family *cough cough Ty* to bring back the dead but I fear joing Grace in this thing isn’t good for Lucie! Omg but I loved that scene where Lucie compared Jesse to Snow White that was hilarious.😂😂😂

Speaking of Luice I really love her, I love that she wants to be a writer, I love how Tessa and Will teached their children to love books! And Lucie she is so funny and god she and Matthew would have been so beautiful together... but again she is made for Jesse and as I also like him may they be happy together! I also have to say that she gave me especially in the beginning Anne with an E vibes she kind of reminder me of Anne.

Quick thing about James I want to learn more about his power with the shadow realm and also about Lucie’s obviously but I have to say that in the beginning when he was constantly jumping throw the realms... that reminder me soooo hard of Stranger Things!!!😂 I know it’s crazy but here me out, to me it sounded so much like The Upside Down and James reminder me of Will from Stranger Things like I don’t know maybe I’m just crazy but I also imagined that one demon the one from the greenhouse who multiplied looked like that thing from Strager Things who also left those baby monsters everywhere!😂😂

I think it’s time for Cordelia now, but before I go on with her I want to also say a word about Alastair. So I can’t forgive him because of what he did to Matthew and I am still not sure if I like him but I do understand him now. I loved seeing this other side of him, seeing him somehow vulnerable and I loved that he cares about Cordelia and that in a wiered way he truly is a good brother to her! And I do understand even tho that doesn’t excuse his actions, why he was so mean and that it was all because he was alone and feard to be bullyed and that in some messed up way it was because of his dad. I do beleve there is good in him and I am so here for him chainging into a good person and apologiseing for what he did and said that hurt others. Speaking of his father tho... I don’t now what to think about him... he didn’t want to se Jem after he became a Silent Brother even tho he was his only relative.... I think that says enogh about him... I am curios tho to see how he is when he cames back in Chain of Iron. Ahhhh and if we are already at it... Sona... I didn’t like her in the beginng she was so stiff and somewhat mean but that thowords the end I stated to sympathise her I felt sorry for her in a way and I realised that she only wanted her children to be well.

Oh God and also the other big thing that made me go into a next level detective mode was Cortana, because.... so Cortana belongs to Cordelia, it belongs to the Carstairs family AND it remains in the Carstairs family because Emma has it and her father a Carstairs gave it to her.... and if we check the family tree John Carstairs Emma’s father is Alastair’s son BUT and here comes the big thing how is that possible first that Alastair has a son ( maybe he adopted???) and than second how is it possible that Cortana remained in the Carstairs family because if Cordelia marries regardeless if it is James or not, the sword isn’t going to remain in the Carstairs familly unless Cordelia decides for whatever reason that she wants to give HER SWORD the sword that CHOSE HER to her nephew and not to her own child??!!! What is going on??? I want to know??? How does Cortana remain in the Carstairs family HOW??? I am so intrigued I want to know this so badly!!!

Now that we have that of the table we can talk about Cordelia, so first I love how she is friends with Lucie, I do want to see more of their friendship tho! I do like her, I wan’t sure in the beginning because in the beginning she was so focused on her father and on making a good inpresion that I don’t konw.. but than I learned to love her, I love how fearless she is and how she loves her friends and risks her life for them, she is so great! And I love her with James, I do like all the drama with Matthew ahhh but she and James they need to be toghether! At the end when she “saved him” from Tatiana’s acusation I was like “GIRLS WAHT ARE YOU DOING ARE YOU INSAINE???” but than I understood that that is just how she is, she protects her loved ones and I love her for that! But damn it hurt so much when James said that he doesn’t love her because of that fraking bracelet ahhhh my heath poor Cordelia!!!! James do loves her he does he just neds to take that damed thing of his wrist and they can be togehter!!! It is so obvious and after the Whisper Room thing like people you could have stoped but you didn’t just please talk about your feelings!!! But no our evil Grace neded to come with her bracelet!!! I have to honest from the moment she put that thing back on his hand till the very end I felt sick I felt like I was going to throw up that’s how much the whole situation shaked me.😂😂

And if there is one thing I leared this summer from the books I read, especialy this and Again but Better, it’s that for god’s sake you should always say what you feel when you feel it regardeless of the conseconces just tell the people you love that you love them because there is so much to lose if you don’t! So much can happen not within days but within hours, like for example crazy Grace putting on a bewiched bracelet on your crush, and you will regrett not have said it before when you had the chance! I am so excited to see how this fake marriage thing goes, it’s definitely going to be very interesting! 

Ah and another thing I loved about this book is the friendship between all of the cousins! I love how close they all are, that they grew up togetehr and that they are so close it so beautiful! I love the Merry Thieves and I love how they now included the girls ( I don’t know what I feel about the new Italian girl I need to meet her before I approve her into the group) and I love how everyone is everyones cousin even tho they are not actualy cousins and ahhhhh the friendship between Anna and Matthew their trips to the Hell Ruelle omg I live for that!!! I love how they meet at the Devil Tavern and plan their moves, it so beautiful! I love that Tessa and Will and all the parents made their children all grow up together making them grow so close!!! They are one big family!

Thomas I haven’t said anything about him yet, I love him I realy like him and I love how close he is particlary to Christopher! I love how kind he is and I also love how like his father he went to Madrird. And I love Anna, I love how observent she is, that she sensed a wiredness between James and Cordelia and I love how she gifted Cordelia all those dressed like omg!

Ah and I also do need to say how much I dislike Charles, like how was it possible that out of such nice people as Charlotte and Henry (I loved seeing Henry again in this book bless him) somone so awful as Charles can come out? I rellly don’t like him! Not that Ariadne cared but how could he leave her while she was dying? Who does that? I guess he truly deserves to be with Grace tho I feel sorry for Charlotte and Henry to have to welcome her into the family!

I sorry this booktalk got so long but had a lot to say and I still have a few more things to say one of which is about the London quarantine in this book, like the irony in it the fact thate we were all in quaratine when this book came out is just... I couldn’t ’t belive my eyes when I read it! Overall I love that the book took place in London, London is my favourite city in the world and returning there through this book esspecial at the time ahhh it was perfect, I loved returing to the London Institute, I loved the dresses andthe fashion everything! I loved the way they all spoke and they sayings it was all so perfect!

This book was just everything I needed right now and I am more than gald that I decided to read it! I can’t let it go yet tho I am still to attached to everything my crush on Matthew is still buring bright and I can’t let it and I don’t want to let it fade! I’m also more than excited for Chain of Iron, March can’t come soon enogh! I dying to see what happens and how all this drama is going to be solved!

Oh goodness and I almost forgot thanks to everyone who makes Shdowhunter memes, esspecally the ones about Chain of Gold like really they make my day! I am sometimes sitting for hours looking at them laughing!😂😂Some of them are pure gold! Thank you!

And I also want to thank everyone who came this far and read all of this you are true legends!

#chain of gold #the last hours #tlh #shadowhunters #chain of iron #matthew fairchild #james herondale #lucie herondale #cordelia carstairs #jesse blackthorn #jem carstairs #tessa gray #will herondale #grace blackthorn #tsc #magnus bane #tid #emma carstairs #herondale #carstairs #lightwood #blackthorn #alastair carstairs #thomas lightwood #christopher lightwood #anna lightwood #the merry thieves #cortana #book talk #the shadowhunter chronicles

[choerrypuffs]

H-HI 👉👈

UGHHH DUDE MY ASK DIDNT GO IN ABOUT THE HYUCK FIC BUT PLSSSSSSSSSS

I LOV IT SO MOCH 😭😭😭😭 THANKS TO YOU MY CRUSH ON HIM GOT EVEN BIGGER 😩😩😡😡😡 BUT YOURE FAB SO ITS ABSOLUTELY FINE BUT UGHHHHH

UNDERWATER KISS???????????????? MANS COULD DROWN ME AND I WOULD (probably not actually but if you did it then i would rise from the dead to thank you) THANK HIM HDBSFBEJF AAAAAAAAA Y/N AND RENJUN MOMENT GOT ME SO PROUD AHAHAHHA I LOVE JT 💖💖💖💖💖 AND AND THE BAKING THING HMMM YES I HAVE NEVER WANTED SUCH A LOVE LIFE UNTIL NOW EHEHEHEHEHHE

THANK YOU MISS LANA FOR THE AMAZING FICCCCC 😩😩😩💖💖💖🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰😻😻😻😻😻 SO PROUD OF YOU AND HOPE I DID NOT ANNOY YOU HAHA 😃

AHHHHH THANK YOU SO SO SO MUCH <33333 (and i’m sorry your ask didn’t go through the first time tumblr needs to get it together 🤬) 

JHSGREOOWIE YES THE UNDERWATER KISS IN PJO WAS THE BLUEPRINT AND IT WOULD BE AN ATROCITY IF I WROTE PERCY HYUCKSON AND DIDN’T INCLUDE THAT SCENE 😤 i hate all men but i too would let hyuck drown me 😌 

FUN FACT: the shrek cake thing is inspired by real life bc i did actually bake a shrek cake 

PLS MY LOVE YOU WOULD NEVER ANNOY ME!! YOUR ASK MADE ME SUPER HAPPY ILYSM 💕💖😍✨💘💓🥰

#ask #anon #answered

[k-l-a-n-c-e-a-c-a-d-e-m-y]

A pinch and a sting

#AHHHHHHHH!!! AH AHHHHHH #ARRGHHHH #AHHHHH AHAHAHHA AHHHHH #WHAAAAAAAAAAAAA #WHAHOO #WHAZOO #WHAAAAAAA AHHHHHH #GAAAHHHHHHH #ARRGGHAAHHHHHHHHH #HHHHHHHHH #AJHH AHHHHHHH AAAAAAAAAAA #EIEEEEEEEE #WHA WHA WAHAHHHHHH #WAHHHHHAHHAHA #wah #AAAAHHHHHHH #GAARGHHHHHH #AUGHHHH #HUHHHHOHHHHOHHHAAAHHHHWWWWW

[hyyunjinn]

7, 9, 12!!!💘💘

7. Favorite 3racha song?

Subway pt II!! but before that it was For You, and before that it was Small Things and before that it was Hoodie Season LOL

9. Have you gotten anyone else into Stray Kids? (spread the love!)

Oh ummmm, kind of? My cousin is sort of into them but that’s because we talk about anything and everything and if one stans a different group, we end up learning about that group haha. But other than that, I don’t think so. Stray Kids was harder to get people into vs Day6 or Seventeen or Astro. 

12. If you chose the fandom name, what would you choose?

OH MAN THIS QUESTION IS EVIL AHAHAHHA

I personally really liked the suggestion of Polaris but it’s already someone else’s fandom name? Plus,,, what’s the plural form of polaris fjkdsfs I also loved Windrose! Like a compass rose but it’s just a different name for it ahhhhh IT SOUNDS SO NICE + it adds to the meaning of stray kids + Broken Compass. We’ll be their compass jfskdflsa There was also Freedom that I liked. But Windrose was my favorite

[soulwillower]

Lmao u calling him a little shit is so funny😂 Also idk why but my phone (literally) always autocorrects he’s to HES and I have no clue why so sorry bout that but anyways awe that’s so fun! I hope you have tons of fun with ur family! I’m good currently in bed and it’s 4:45 and I have to get up at 8:45 so that’s not ideal but I’ll be fine lmao I’ll probably take a nap later on. Idk if I told you but I met a boy???? He’s absolutely precious????–⛈

ahahahha its all good! i hope u caught up on ur sleep omg!! and YES i remember how is that going!?!? ahhhhh!!!

#⛈

[meowmerson]

Your Bellamione succumbs AU IS POSSIBLY ONE OF THE MOST AMAZING THINGS I'VE EVER READ AND I LOVE IT AND THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SHARING IT

AHHHHH AHAHAHHA THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR LIKING IT!!!!!!!!!! 

#ask meow #Anonymous

[namelessayakashi]

G & R hehe💕💕💕

babe you know we have the same decision making skills....

i cant--

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G. longfics or shortfics?

Okay, so. I write and post shortfics most frequently, but i really do love longfics for both reading and writing. this one is a hard question.

bc for reading it really depends on my mood and how much time i have.

for writing, i love both, but i finish shortfics MUCH faster, so those make up the majority of my fics. almost all of my longfics are STILL wips.

R. link your favourite fic of all-time.

jkhdflahdsf you suck for this question it is literally so hard (pls ilysm dont take me seriously) ahhhhh okokokok

look let me just

ahahahha fuck FUCK

i literally cANNOT pick favourites haskdjfhaskjd

im so sorry i have literally been thinking about this and looking through fics for almost half an hour and literally have no idea what one to link im so sorry hsjkdhfakjasj i am just genuinely incapable of picking a favourite fic, fuck im sorry--

send me a letter

#ask #ask game #fic writer asks #fic writer ask game

[yourlovegoals-blog]

AHHHHH

Hey guys! So I decided to start a new blog kinda thing all about relationships posts and all, because I dunno about you but I’m single as frick and well, this sorta makes me feel better (not really) AHAHAHHA but it’s fun to dream about what I’d want in the future :)