#ANYWAYS idk if they’ll do this but it would make me cry

[onward--upward]

okay but what if in the coma dream daniel was never sick, so buck was never born? and in the dream everyone is calling buck daniel, and he finally knows what it’s like for his parents to love him, but it’s because it’s NOT him. it’s daniel. it’s daniel that they love, and his ‘family’ seems happy without him. wouldn’t that be heartbreaking?

#brought to you by: me wondering who tf is gonna play daniel #what if it’s just oliver stark #and that’s why he’s wearing something so un-buck-like #ANYWAYS idk if they’ll do this but it would make me cry #911 fox #911 spoilers #911 spec

[ongsasuns]

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#nini’s nonsense #sometimes i think about the fact that people around me. even the ones closest to me. know so little of me. because i have a cousin who #recently told me she has a gf and she’s bi and was like. yeah i didn’t think you’d judge but you also never know yk. and i mean. i do know. #better than anyone in our fam probs. but also. it just put into perspective how little they’ll all ever know me because ofc my sexuality is #not who i am at all but it’s such a big part of me as well and the fact that no one irl knows and no one will probs ever know. sigh #it’s an exhausting thought tbh #but i come from such a religious family i don’t ever see it going well. and on the other hand i have made the agreement with myself that i #won’t ever date girls anyway. so yeah. idk. sigh sigh cry cry etc etc #and also. i had a wedding this week and weddings always make me realize i’ll probs never have one of my own. for so many reasons. and on one #hand i am happy but on the other hand the want is there and i know it’ll probs never be fulfilled because i would be a terrible partner #and yeah. idk the passing of time is just fucking me up a bit i guess. it’ll hopefully pass soon. #i really need to properly write about all this. maybe then i’ll finally be able to breathe again. #ANYWAYS. so happy my bby told me so happy for her they’re THE CUTEST omg

[hp-hcs]

Um, yeah, I don't really have a specific character in mind (so you can ignore this if u want to!), but how would some characters react to a male reader who listens to muggle music, but like- metal?? yk

this is the kind of shit i wanna see in my inbox hell fucking yeah

❕i’ll be honest, my vibe has always been more punk/pop punk/metalcore/hard rock 🤷‍♂️ i did my best buttttt these are all just songs from my playlist so- (i adore my slytherin babygirls but they’ll always be second to my lord and savior glenn danzig)❕

also accidentally wrote gn reader again so that’s pretty girlypop

requests open

i’ve never actually written one of these like, group headcanons for a whole bunch of people, but i keep seeing other people doing it so we’re trying it out ig. do we like it? yes? no?

slytherin boys: gn! muggleborn! reader’s music taste is rather…unexpected

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mattheo: die, die my darling — misfits

i’m of the opinion that mattheo would fucking LOVE the misfits (once you introduce him)

he walks into your dorm to ask you a quick question, and you’re just dancing around in your room screaming the lyrics to:

“DIE DIE DIE MY DARLING, DONT UTTER A SINGLE WORD”

“DIE DIE, DIE MY DARLING, JUST SHUT YOUR PRETTY MOUTH”

he’s like 🧍‍♂️😦😍

and that’s when he falls in love with you

jk, unless????

you show him the misfits’ entire discography, and bitch about jerry only (as u should)

he takes a bit too much of a liking to helena 🤨

yk, the song that goes “if i cut off your arms, and i cut off your legs, would you still love me, anyway? if you’re bound and you’re gagged, draped and displayed, would you still love me, anyway?”

🤨🤨🤨

interesting, mattheo. interesting. not concerning in the slightest.

he adores them and you guys listen to their music together when you study <33

y’all start running around screaming I AINT NO GODDAMN SON OF A BITCH

your teachers love it <3

theodore: nazi punks fuck off — dead kennedys

y’all were showering together

(is that really like a sexy thing? i sure as fuck don’t know 🖤🩶🤍💜)

you started singing to yourself and babygirl was like 😳☺️

he loves ur voice <3

even when you’re singing “nazi punks, nazi punks, nazi punks FUCK OFF”

(cause like……yk…….he’s a wizard nazi himself 😬👍)

awkwarddddd

he always lets you put on your music

to be honest, he doesn’t really care about the lyrics, he just loves that you love it

(*cough* simp *cough*)

draco: possessed by satan — gorgoroth

you’d just come back from winter break and had brought one of your holiday presents back with you: a new record player and a shitload of vinyls

you set it up in your dorm and asked your roomie, draco, if he’d mind if you played something

he'd never admit it, but he was wildly curious what muggle music sounded like

so of course, you blessed him with the sweet sweet sounds of gorgoroth 😌🥰

(aww, nostalgia <3)

he just looked at you like 😨

you then proceeded to educate him on gaahl beating the shit out of someone (a l l e g e d l y) and threatening to drink his blood

he’s now even more concerned

(do you or do you not tell him about the gogoroth concert ft. alive ‘crucified’ actors & impaled sheep heads vs. the country of poland?)

((idk babe that’s for you to decide))

blaise: boogie woogie wu — insane clown posse

i feel like blaise is chill enough to give any music a shot before deciding if he likes it or not

you weren’t that close, just acquaintances, but one day you just offered up your other headphone to him in the middle of a really boring class

oh, he’s in love

🎵😍😍🎶

you make him a playlist of songs you think he’d love, and he lowkey almost starts crying and that’s how he asks you out on your first date

(is it terrible to think that this might be your wedding’s first dance song?)

((NOW MURDERRRR))

(((UH OH, HERE COME THE PO-PO TOO MUCH MURDER)))

enzo: custer — slipknot

it’s your ringtone for someone 😌

like ur mom, or something? idfk

“incoming call from: birthgiver” 🎵CUT CUT CUT ME UP AND FUCK FUCK FUCK ME UP🎶

enz:🧍‍♂️

he doesn’t even know how to react

he’s only a bit terrified

he’ll listen to a few other songs you play for him, but will make you play the weird sisters afterwards

tom: reincarnate — motionless in white

he’s bitching about how much muggles suck and muggle music is trash blah blah blah

and ur like “oh really? wanna bet?”

you whip out your phone and start blasting your playlist

he would absolutely eat that shit up

it’s cheaper than therapy ig 🤷‍♂️

he hates being wrong about anything ever so he’ll never admit out loud that he likes it, but he will just show up at your dorm at like eleven pm like:

“do you have any more uh……song recommendations or something…..uhhhh” 🧍‍♂️

babygirl 💞

#harry potter #fuck jkr #hp #hp x male reader #x male reader #gay #x reader #theodore nott #theodore nott x reader #theo nott x reader #hp x gn reader #mattheo riddle x reader #tom riddle x reader #tom riddle x male reader #x gender neutral reader #x gn reader #gn reader #mattheo riddle x male reader #mattheo riddle #blaise zabini x reader #blaise zabini #draco malfoy x reader #draco x reader #draco malfoy #enzo berkshire x reader #hp x enby reader #enzo berkshire #lorenzo berkshire #lorenzo berkshire x reader #theo nott

[padawansuggest]

Writing that fic I made a post about like at least a year ago where Dooku and Obi-Wan are both deaged at the exact same time and Dooku is back to normal while Obi-Wan is in his Melida|Daan era and both feral and clingy (he WOULD likely be clinging to Dooku more than Cody but they told him they’re not gonna let him be alone with Dooku yet so Cody who’s been absolutely doting on him since it all started is the next best option) and a few things happened in this fic that I didn’t expect but I’m obsessed with 1: three clone ocs got caught in the deaging blast with Obi (Crys is an OC right? He’s sorta one of those placement OCs like Helix, right? So it counts. Maybe we should call that FC for fan character… idk) and so Waxer and Boil only avoided babying Obi by boon of them having three cadets to adopt Right There lol. And 2: Obi tried to stand up (and I think I made this cause I was like ‘he needs to have trouble running or he’s gonna dart off and they’ll have to chase her feral ass’ lmao) and Cody panicked and noticed his leg is mega swollen around the ankle and Obi likely can’t walk on it and he asks if he has other injuries and Obi-Wan sorta just gets really quiet for a moment and lists off a few but HE ENDED THE LIST WITH ‘it’s sorta painful to sit’ CODY IS NOW IN PROTECTIVE MANDALORIAN BUIR MODE HES ABOUT TO BEAT AOMEONES ASS OH GOD

And. Yeah. It was what. What you might think (No don’t make me write those words out I won’t even write it in the fic okay I’m skirting all my triggers like a figure skater deal with it) and so. Yeah. There are about to be a lot of people angry with Qui-Gon Jinn very soon.

Normally. I like to forgive and forget. He’s an asshole but that little boy was attached to him by the time he was 20 okay they were very much parent and child by that point and I move on from that much like Obi does, but unfortunately, the last memories Obi will have of Qui will be him cutting his braid and taking his saber and that’s Not Right and Dooku even says so and that it’s horrible that his Padawan, his SON did that to his grandbaby he is. In fact. Pissed. And will be having words with his ghost soon.

Anyways. Cody is about to murder someone and I feel like the shock of realizing what Qui did to Obi-Wan is gonna fuck Anakin up and drive him closer to Dooku and the Jedi who knew Qui around that time instead of further towards Palpatine so they can do some damage control.

#deaging #baby wan #obi wan kenobi #star wars #yan dooku #master dooku #commander cody #for those of you not in the know yes the deaging is actually gonna be permanent 😬 #also Cody is gonna adopt Obi and Obi still has his bond with Ani so Ani and Dooku will teach him a bit

[eddsworldbish420]

Hii pooks :ppp gotta rant for a sec ─┉┈◈◉◈┈┉

imagine saying “W based” to a fucking tragedy because they have an identity that doesn’t align with the conservative masculine culture that you were forced to follow 🫤🫤🫤

(justice for nex bennedict)

It’s kinda weird yk, because it’s hard to tell if they’re being satire or not. It still doesn’t even matter though, bc even if their trolling or not, they’ll never stop because it’s funny to them and idk if they’re sick or what but it has been part of the internet for so long it feels very sadly inevitable that people would do this. And the fact it’s so unfairly politically charged as well 😕😕😕

Why is it that any other meme is unfunny, but when it’s about the death of a trans kid or ‘game is game’ it’s suddenly unanimously funny?

why is it that any other person dies, it’s a tragedy but when they’re gay, it’s funny?

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Erm anyways😍😍😍! Rant out of the way, rate these ships :3 (I included my personal thoughts.)

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TomTord. (VodkaGun)

Interest factor: 8/10

plausibility factor: 6/10

Fans: 4/10

personal comments: Enemies to lovers is some how overrated yet underrated. Such an interesting ship to think about, two guys who have had such a long and complicated history—first friends, then frienemies, separated, then enemies, then somehow lovers—they must feel kind of weird and awkward if they actually have a relationship.

Id think they’d actually forgive each other, like:

“Why would you forgive me for something that almost killed you?”

“Stupid fuck ass, Matt did it better.”

”Wtfdym???”

“Matt was a zombie and took over the city, killing thousands. Your pathetic ass only killed like one person…”

Really fun to think about on its own but the fans are kinda goofy asf, the creation of dear star boy is enough proof. Overall: 6.8/10

EddMatt (ColaMirror) Interest factor: 5/10

plausibility factor: 7/10

Fans: idk their usually TomTord shippers so 5/10?

personal comments: might have a cool dynamic with the fact that Matt pretty much took over the world two times. Don’t really fw this ship tbh. Overall: 4/10

[1/?] (copy and paste if ur lazy :33)

For the rant, I've blocked every person who I've ever seen say shit like that (my block list is pretty full)

AS FOR THE SHIPSSSSS-

Tomtord (Norska)

Interest factor: 7/10

Plausibility: depends on the timeline

Fans: 8/10 or 4/10

Personal comments: I really depend on the eras for shipping these two, 2004-8 is some silly playful enemy friend secret love type beats, 2016 is SO full of angst and makes me cry if I use it right, and future.. chefs kiss, I love slowly rebuilding divorced arcs

Overall: 8.3/10

Eddmatt (colamirror)

Interest factor: 5/10

Plausibility: 4/10

Fans: 6/10

Personal comments: this is one of the safest but most common ships in the Fandom, I can't get myself to be a huge fan of it too because they have a more best friend relationship to me. It's a cute ship but it seems forced due to tomtord being so popular

Overall: 4.5/10

#eddsworld #avocado posts #avocado opinions

[deliriumsdelight7]

4 & 11 for lonely soul, ocean soul for the fic asks:)

Thank you for the ask!

4: What’s your favorite line of dialogue?

You’re gonna make me go back into my fic and PERCEIVE MYSELF? The outrage!

Anyway - I love me some angst, so here’s my favorite: “Fair?” He rounded on her. “Fair? Life hasn’t been fair to me since *day one*. You got a home in a boring little town, with parents who loved you. But guess what?” He jabbed a finger downward in an angry, jerking motion. “I didn’t get that shit! I got fuck-all. So don’t you dare tell me about *fair*.”

11: What do you like best about this fic?

I guess I like the sort of blend of traditional gender roles in this fic, and how I wrapped abuse survival in the metaphor of the selkie. I mean, yeah, Barb is doing a lot of the emotional labor here, while Billy is the emotionally-constipated man with the angsty past, which is fairly typical for the genre. But usually, if there’s going to be a character with a history of domestic and/or sexual violence, it’s the female character. Usually if we see a character cry or run away from their problems, it’s a woman. It’s been interesting taking those sorts of qualities and putting them in a male character, because characters and readers alike will view those things differently depending on the sex of the character experiencing them.

As for the selfie part… as someone with a less-than-ideal upbringing, it absolutely changes you, and makes you say or do things that other people might think are strange. It separates you from people who haven’t experienced things like that. You get little behaviors, like flinching at loud voices and sudden movements, or refusing to go down a set of stairs if there’s someone behind you, that are just… instinctual. Taking those things and wrapping it in a sealskin kind of shows that, while you can talk to someone about these things they never experienced, they’ll always be sort of… foreign to them. And ultimately, we don’t need our loved ones to understand our strange, arbitrary boundaries - but we do need them to respect them. Idk how well I’ve gotten the metaphor across, but it’s what I’m going for, at any rate.

#tmi tuesday #ask answered

[macfrog]

walking through fire came at the perfect time for me. i'm so happy that i can come to your ask box and send you a message about it! i'm currently going through it, and the feeling like i'm constantly failing those around me, my future self, my past self, just generally always failing is just making everything worse. today was such a hard day, such a low day, and it would have really helped to have some understanding. your words were that for me. it's like they personified, arrived at my door, and gave me a hug. people in my life don't really understand me on days like this (and sometimes, like today, it feels like they're right), so the guilt is always mixed with shame and hurt and yearning. yearning for someone to understand, to be gentle, and to be there. to help soothe all the dark feelings and voices. i wanna thank you for writing this one shot with so much care. you have a deep and gentle understanding of every single feeling, of everything that hurts or is numb, and i thank you for giving reader that person in joel because, through reader, i was able to leave my world for a little bit, and find comfort in hers. i can't really cry right now 'cause i'm not somewhere where i can do it and not be questioned haha, but imagine me sending this to you with a quivering lip (that will turn to tears later), and lots of gratitude. your one shot helped me replace the voices in my head with words more loving, more tender, and made me feel like i'm not all these things days like today say i am.

hello, friend!

i’m glad you’re here. glad you reached out. it’s so lovely to hear from you 🩵

i’m sorry today was difficult. bad days can feel like major setbacks when you’re struggling. it’s important to remember that you deserve the same care and patience as anyone else, and to be gentle with yourself. you are not failing anyone, ever, but especially not when you’re surviving a rough time. you are not your worst days, baby. you’re so much more than them!

stories are a super powerful survival tool. there’s a lot of love and joy, hope and resilience, and a lot of self-reflection to be found in these guys. if you saw even a sliver of yourself in that fic, that’s cause you’re already there, bro. you can do exactly what she did. it’s just taking it a step at a time.

some days, you might make it to the end of the driveway and think, that’s enough. maybe tomorrow you’ll get to the gate at the top of the track road. maybe not. that’s cool, too. maybe one day without even noticing, you’ll make it to the fields. who knows. but just take it easy.

not every day has to be about pushing yourself to do better, be better, feel better. some days feel like garbage. let them. they’ll pass, too, cause they always do — and you’ll be better for it. just be kind to yourself. treat yourself the way joel treats reader. love yourself with the same protectiveness. i promise you that you deserve it.

also: cry! cry it out. crying is great! get all those emotions outta there! run a shower, let yourself feel em, let them pass.

anyway. i think you’d be hard-pressed to find someone who hasn’t felt the way you’re feeling right now. you are absolutely not alone. i’m here with you; i’m holding your hand and resting my head on your shoulder via the internet as we speak (as long as you’re cool with that idk). you got this. i love you.

hit me up anytime. i wanna hear how you’re doing. :)

#chats w max #anon

[if-i-was-a-cucumber]

gmmtv 2024 predictions!!!

the gmmtv 2024 presscon is in 3 days and will i be at school while it happens? yes. will i watch the livestream anyway? oh absolutely.

here’s my bingo card:

too lazy to explain most of my ideas but i’ll write some that i think need a bit more elaboration. explanations (and template) below the cut bc it got too long <3

parn nachcha x an our skyy 2 boy — i know this literally comes out of nowhere but y’all seem to have forgotten how much i love parn nachcha. i watched her in “why you… y me” and literally fell in love, she’s so pretty and talented and was so cute/endearing in that show. then her announcement as a new gmmtv talent, and she was in the “please be mine” MV, it literally made me scream. this is literally just wish fulfillment but i would cry if she got a drama with pond or joong or something

attempt to recreate the gemfourth magic — gmmtv would be silly if they didn’t try to put two mostly/completely brand new young actors together to try to re-make another young cash cow superstar CP. idk if it will work, but i’m sure they’ll try

season 2 of a 2022/3 BL — my response to the my school president season 2 rumors. me personally i’m not all that into the idea, but let me tell you the wonders a heartliming spin-off would do to my heart. also it just seems possible

mafia BL (w/at least one of the joylada) — idk but a lot of gmmtv actors have said something about wanting to be in a mafia BL. i think firstkhao and gemini all said somewhere they’d like a big-boss mafia role; as for the joylada, i just want to see clowns acting serious. y’all know phuwin or joong would slay a mafia boss

gem or fourth in a straight drama/CP — gem said in an interview he wanted to do a straight drama bc he wanted to see if people would ship them as hard as they ship geminifourth. also, their MVs were both straight. and they have massive individual fandoms as powerful as their ship fandom. and they’re super young. i can see gmmtv pairing gem or fourth with one of their new female actresses to try and boost their popularity, or just testing the waters with how possessive the geminifourth fandom is

firstkhao in a comedic/not heavy role — this is wish fulfillment. y’all know gmmtv can’t give our boys a break. the eclipse was super heavy. in moonlight chicken, alan (first) was literally just *emotionally draining the Character™* and gaipa (khao) was just there to get rejected by jim and have his mom die. in only friends, sand (first) is a light breeze away from crying every episode bc of how hard ray (khao) is toying with him, and ray is just a mess slowly unraveling from the inside out. in f4 thailand phupha (first) just existed to get punched and bullied and backstabbed; in the shipper kim (first) literally died and pan (also first - well in his body - it’s a long story) had to deal with the consequences; in not me yok (first) got betrayed by his love interest and sold out to the police, and almost thought he was about to be kidnapped/deported/exiled from his country and leave his disabled mom to die…………… y’all it’s just been a lot for them.

experiment w/CPs (partner swapping) — legit just seems interesting. you guys remember that weird ass shipping square with first, khao, gawin, and podd? i want more. do that shit again.

cyber/techy series (w/new cast) — idk what this even means. but i want it.

here’s the template i used in case you want to make your own! courtesy of @icouldhyperfixatehim. hurry tho the presscon is in 3 days

#gmmtv 2024 #bl predictions #gmmtv 2024 predictions #literally so excited #i need more GLs and more of my OLDER CAST #like there is a graveyard of skeletons in gmmtv's closet just waiting to be cast #that's definitely not how the saying goes

[oceandiagonale]

Viewpoint is such a cool name, I'm definitely using it! Thank you so much for suggesting it.

They mostly go by Vi to avoid people asking about origins of nickname Viewpoint. He grew tired of having to explain that yes, Viewpoint is his real name and no, his parents aren't weirdos with strange name ideas.

He starts his journey in Sinnoh. As I already said he definitely catches a shiny zubat and names her Moss (she has naive nature). She is his precious baby and he loves her with all his hearth. They even get a custom jacket or hoodie (I'll decide later which one) inspired by shiny zubats. He decides to try out contests only because Moss wanted to. Unfortunately, one contestant started saying mean things about zubats. Unfortunately for them of course, because Vi doesn't allow anyone making his baby cry. Let's say that the contestant had a not so nice contact with his fist. After that Vi decided that he doesn't like Sinnoh so he opened a portal and went to try contests in Hoenn.

I think he should get a Feebas. While at first it was only because of the fact that he definitely would befriend any 'ugly' pokemon that no one likes, now I kinda can see a bit of symbolism in this pokemon. Feebases need to go through many hardships to evolve and grow into a beautiful Milotic. Vi also will need to go through many hardships to grow as a person and start to stand up to baddies even if it doesn't involve him directly, because it is a good thing to do. Idk if this makes sense to anyone except me. Anyways, the Feebas is named Queen and he is definitely a little devil and will bite mean people (impish or sassy nature, can't decide). Vi caries Queen around in a fish tank backpack thingy.

Also I propose that we name the universe in which legendaries look at Gene and are like 'Give me more of those hand made heros' the Geneverse. Because he started it all and also he deserves to have a universe named after him.

OH I’m glad you liked the name suggestion!! Vi is a great nickname (he came up with it himself too, very fancy 🕺🕺🕺)

MOSS THE ZUBAT MY BELOVED...... THEY EVEN USE HER IN THEIR OUTFIT OMG....... (good for them though, sinnoh contests are way harder than hoenn ones so they’ll probably be less judgy in hoenn sdjkfhsjkdhf)

so like a pokemon version of a cat backpack, but for water-types!! that’s great, I bet the Pokemon world has a bunch of those that might even use Pokeball or Warp technology to let Water types swim between a backpack and an aquarium!

KJFSHDJSF everyone’s worlds are still unique though!! other legendaries hearing about what some little Celebi did in some little corner of the pokemon multiverse is more like a club for legendaries I think -- they could have a little meeting world though, something like “So You Made A Hero” 😂😂😂

#oceandi answers #viewpoint protagonist #others' ocs #long post #sun-creature

[chim-chim1310]

While yes Jk is being way too cocky in his lives I’m so glad he finally is telling people to cut it out with treating him like a baby. He went after an army who asked why he would be like a western artist and make a dirty song. He started talking about how old he is and how armys have had a certain perception of him.

My hypothesis is he was shown this song and the explicit version is why he chose it. He’s a grown man who’s tired of weird infantilizing armys. I think the whole payola and everything after this release is wrong but I do understand why he’s doing some stuff he’s doing.

He’s still giving off immature vibes but it’s giving off straight frat boy vibes. And if you notice in the gma performance he changed the pronoun to her in lotto’s verse when he didn’t even have to rap that part. (He didn’t rap her entire part) I think that definitely was intentional.

But armys still think his back hug with that tattoo artist woman was platonic so I doubt they’ll get the hint.

It's pretty clear the image he's trying to portray is that he's some mature, rebel, straight Fuckboy or whatever. Fine. Good for him. But I don't have to like that.

He's trying to break out of his baby image but the way he talked in the live.... Idk about you guys but it sounded like an immature, defensive manchild throwing tantrums. I know that must be hard for you to read but this is exactly the vibe I got.

Yeah they must treat him like a baby (even though i rarely see it these days) but at least they are defending him when he's literally using fraud to get #1 and still being proud of it.

If he wants to break out of the baby image then maybe do that by actually acting mature?.

I don't care if he talked about sex or whatever. But acting cocky and arrogant is just gonna make people dislike you. Only horny, teenage girls like such traits in boys lmao.

He shouts about how he's grown up. I already knew he had grown up. But guess some people still don't think so. Ok I get it. But the fact that he thinks singing about sex is what makes you mature just shows to me that he's kinda immature. And he gets everything handed to him on a silver platter like a spoiled child, and then he brags about it like he's bragging about his father's money and then he cries about people treating him like a baby.

People like me who see him as a grown up adult had dropped jungkook after seeing how much he has changed. He's not the same anymore. He's changed in a bad way and let's accept this and move on. You wanna keep pitying him and liking him. Okay good for you. But I don't like him anymore. Let me be.

Only his stans are still stanning him because they don't really care about the music and just likes to brag about numbers. And armies have always token staned jk anyways so what can i say about that.

But that's just things from my perspective. It may sound harsh but I'm not gonna feel pity for him just because he's crying about how people treat him like a child when my bias literally got r#pe jokes thrown at him by jk stans. Call me petty or whatever but if jk stans don't feel pity for jimin even after righting the most vile things about him then why should we feel pity for rightfully calling jk out?

[punkwixes]

i guess a better life update is like

so i’m graduating this spring. it took me a while to get an internship + i got rejected from the first one i applied to. that was okay, though, because it was smth specific that only took One student in each department, so like 4 students total, and you had to specially apply to it. i found another internship actually working for the school itself, which i’m pleased with. it’s very close to my home, and i can get there easily. they’re very casual about dress code too, so i dyed my hair again earlier this month :3

i quit working for the nursing home like 6 months ago, after almost 6 YEARS of being employed there. it was pretty on the spot lmao. we got new management that sucked + a resident started screaming at me and i was just like. well. i’m done.

currently: unemployed! or “full-time student” according to, like, my taxes or w/e. contemplating applying to some stores in the area but not too worried about it. money isssss pretty tight rn, but luckily i was able to save a LOT over the pandemic so i’ll be okay until i graduate and have to start paying back those student loans. i would like to think i’m pretty good at budgeting and money management, luckily.

ummm wedding is happening in may of next year, hopefully. move is happening ????? idk whenever it works for both of us. it’s gonna be scary but i can’t complain or worry about it too much because my wife already did that move Alone, so , like,

made this post because i was just thinking about like, idk what the gap will be between graduating & moving — not really worried about it Too much, because i know that’s smth we will figure out later haha. but i was thinking about how it’s smth we will figure out because i am Acutely aware of what happened when shit got bad in june 2017, where i was going “i’ll be moving out soon, i can’t get a job NOW!” and then i didn’t move out till december 2017. but then i was thinking about how i haven’t really talked about my life Extensively here since all that happened — maybe a bit, but most of it happens in dms (hi jess) (the ONLY person i use the tumblr messenger for) or in my discord server(s?) lmao.

and i realized that i have a lot of people (relatively, i guess.) who have been following me since i was like. 15? 16? and who maybe saw all that go down but don’t know what’s happening now.

anyways. on that front. my parents and i have… idk. kind of a relationship? not really sure. they have more of a relationship to me than i have to them, which is funny. they text me about every other day, but i don’t really answer that often. they know if they make negative commentary abt anything i’m doing they’ll just lose contact with me for good. they know i’m gay & that i’m getting married, and they’re Forced to be supportive Or Else, which i also find funny. they’re not attending my wedding though, On God.

had a weird thing happen a while back where my mom apologized for like. a lot of stuff. for the homophobia, for Some of the physical abuse she did, for some of the physical abuse & other abuse my dad & brother did to me. on their behalf, i guess? idk, being apologized to doesn’t really mean anything to me — or it didn’t, for a long time; i’ve only recently had Moments where someone apologized to me and i felt that it meant a lot — so i just felt weird about it. she was crying really hard, so i know that she knows that it was Bad. i still wish i could impart on her or on other people who don’t believe me Exactly what it was like, but i can’t.

for a large part it doesn’t really affect me, other than like, a desire to bury my head in the sand rather than Confront anything negative. so like. it doesn’t make it better but what i’m trying to say is like… idk, i’m doing fine, it could be way worse.

i guess i’m just biding my time until graduation. i almost wish i was working, because it feels like time passed a lot faster when i had work looming over me every two days. my class schedule for the next week is… fun…. i have a class from 2-4 and 6-8 on mondays, and then class from 6-8 on wednesdays. my fourth class is just my internship credit, and i don’t really need any more classes [that are offered in the fall].

so i’ll have plenty of free time, which is nice. i want to do more around the house, helping w upkeep and stuff. i have housemates & friends who i Love, which is not smth i would have expected like five years ago. so. time flies, i guess.

#VERY long rambly update but like. again i just can’t find my journal. #i’ve had various parts of this sitting in my drafts as well bc i Meant to make an exciting life update and forgor. #this isn’t That but i wanted to post smth substantially less depressing

[moddersayethstuff]

Inkling Bonding/Relationship Headcanons woooooo

Hey its Modder here and I’m thinking way too much about Splatoon (no surprise there tbh) and also I’m currently sick as a dog. fish. idk what would the exact equivalent of a dog be in Splatoon welp that’s more to think about later ANYWAYS I’m just gonna ramble a bit, also to establish quick I use Inking as an interchangeable term for both Squidlings and Octolings, this is stuff that applies to the general race and not just one or the other :)

Firstly I gotta establish two real important words: “Squad” and “Mate”. Remember these guys they’ll be important. A “Squad“ refers to a group of usually Four Inklings. No one knows why it’s Four specifically, but it just clicks sorta for most Inkling groups. There’s a difference between a team of Inklings and a Squad of Inklings. A team is a general term for a group of Inklings with a common goal, most commonly Play Turf War And Win. The members of the team might not know each other, and it’s pretty much just a profreshional relationship. A Squad is a group of Inklings who know each other and consider each other friends or Mates. They hang out often, grab a bite after a Turf War Battle, basically they’re brought together by something more than just a common objective. More on this later. A “Mate” is basically a friend but More in some way. There’s sorta five tiers of Inkling bonding: an acquaintance; a friend; a Mate; a Special Mate (more on those in a sec); and a Soulmate (more on those also in a sec). So yeah friends are like “Yeah I know this guy, we hang out sometimes” and Mates are like “YO wassup my guy *cool secret handshake*”.

More details under the Read More, this got long.

There’s four types of Special Mates. You got Lovemates, Trustmates, Matchmates, and Squadmates. The details are as follows:

A Lovemate is the Inkling term for a Romantic Partner. Basically someone you love and would usually make out with. This is where an Inklings Sexual/Romantic orientation comes into play, pretty similar to the way it is with Humans. They usually show affection with good ol’ lovey-dovey stuff, ranging from kissing to making out to... ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) y’know. Other terms that they’d use to describe each other would be Boyfriend/Girlfriend/Datefriend, Partner, and if their relationship is far enough along, Husband/Wife/Spouse. It’s not too uncommon for Poly relationships to form, with three or sometimes four Inklings who call each other Lovemates.

A Trustmate is basically a term two Inklings would give each other if they trust each other immensely, hence the name. You know the phrase “I’d trust them with my life”? Yeah, that’s Trustmates for you. There’s often few, if any, secrets between Trustmates. If you’re feeling down, your Trustmate is usually the best shoulder to cry on. If you’re feeling stressed, your Trustmate is usually the one you’d vent to or chill with to calm down. Sometimes, someone’s Trustmate might know more about them then their Lovemate. They usually show affection with physical contact/closeness, such as leaning on each other, hugging, cuddling, or sometimes even napping on each other (and I mean on each other, ranging from having an arm or tentacle draped over the other to one of them straight up curled up on top of the other like a cat (sometimes even in Swim Form!)). Other terms they’d use to describe each other differ greatly from Trustmate to Trustmate, but one of the most common is The Guy Who Keeps Me From Killing A Fish IRL. Unlike Lovemates, having multiple Trustmates is virtually unheard of, and this fact is often attributed to the extremely secretive and personal nature of the relationship.

A Matchmate is. Complicated To Explain but I’ll try my best. Say you got someone who’s good at what they do. And something about them just makes you want to be better. And they feel the same way. But you also have some sort of respect for them, and they have a respect for you. So it’s kinda like a friendly rivalry, in a way. It’s a relationship that revolves around using your rivalry to better yourself in a way. You ever heard that song that goes “Anything You Can Do I Can Do Better” that people use in a lot of fan animations and stuff? Yeah that’s pretty much the Matchmate Anthem. They usually show “affection” by sparing or otherwise competing. Other terms they’d use to describe each other include Rival or Nemesis (depending on what kind of Anime they prefer). it’s not unheard of for multiple Inklings to call each other Matchmates, more common than Trustmates and not as common as Lovemates.

A Squadmate is where the two real important words I mentioned come together. As I mentioned before, Inklings naturally group together in Squads of four, and “Squadmate” is the term they’d use to refer to each other, with teammate being a lesser version of this. However, on rare occasions a Squad becomes so close they become what’s known as a “Soul Squad”. Instead of functioning as Team But Closer, they function more as a single unit. Most of the most well-known Turf War/Ranked Squads are Soul Squads, a testament to their unbreakable bond. Soul Squads are the only form of relationship to commonly cross over with others, as it’s common to be in a Soul Squad with your Lovemate, Trustmate, or Matchmate, and the most rarest and strongest form of Soul Squad is one where each member is the Lovemate, Trustmate, or Matchmate of one of the other members! Despite being the rarest form of relationship, the loss of one member of a Soul Squad can be Devastating to the others. Such a strong bond doesn’t form easily, but when it does, it can usually never be rebuilt.

A Soulmate is a special term given to whoever you feel closest too. It’s usually used between Lovemates, but can also apply to Trustmates or in rare cases Matchmates. It often comes from a feeling of almost predestination that can form between two individuals, like a sense of unbreakable kinship.

In rare cases, sometimes one relationship forms into another. This usually occurs when Trustmates or Matchmates end up becoming Lovemates, though it can also happen the other way around.

Anyways now that you’ve read to this point some of this relationship stuff might be feeling a little familiar. And if it does, please know I am not sorry in any way and also thank you A.H. for giving us the coolest fictional Romance System ever that I can apply to whatever I want because No One Can Stop Me

Also shout out to my bestie Snail for hearing me out as I was developing these ideas while we played Minecraft together you’re the coolest ever

And if you’ve read all the way here Thank You So Much for reading my insane brain-ramblings, feel free to steal as much of this as you want for your own Splatoon Headcanons :) aight thanks gonna go pass out now

#splatoon #splatoon 2 #splatoon 3 #Ramblings #they don't call me Modder Sayeth Stuff for nothing #i do be Saying some Stuff that's for sure

[shadowfromthestarlight]

self-pity party:

i don’t have it in me to celebrate or even be a remotely pleasant person right now. i had a cold starting on december 11th, which never progressed into anything worse but never entirely went away, then i must have caught something on the way to florida on the 23rd, because on christmas day i came down with what felt like a cross between covid and strep throat (maybe it was lol; i didn’t test). eating and drinking became a chore because of my swollen lymph nodes. my whole body hurt. i got a plush toy to remind me of my cat because i wished i could have my cat to cuddle with. the sore throat and aches gave way to a massive sinus infection. on wednesday morning, everything just started coming out. i had to work, but i also had to blow my nose every couple of minutes. falling asleep was hard because it was hard to breathe from the congestion. normal cold & flu medicine didn’t help. by friday night, i’d lost my voice. saturday morning, my eye hurt and there was never-ending green gunk coming out, my voice hadn’t improved, the congestion hadn’t improved, the sinus pressure was barely tolerable.

i spent the last day of 2022 feeling the worst i’d felt all year, unable to speak in anything above a hoarse whisper, a never-ending headache and pain all over my face, my eye clogged with goop, weak and fatigued from days of illness. i spent three hours of the afternoon waiting to get prescribed antibiotics at an urgent care. my head throbbed more and more as the night wore on. i was in so much pain and discomfort and frustration from being sick for three weeks and all-around misery that i wished i was a child so it would be okay to fall on the floor and scream. i watched the fireworks (at least 2 dozen displays) from the balcony and kissed my plush toy and went to bed. 

medicine and sleep marginally improved things; i can now think without a pounding headache and my eye isn’t oozing every minute. i might be able to travel home without people freaking out because i look like i’m patient zero for the next pandemic. i can still barely talk. i woke up coughing from post-nasal drip. i’m so over it. i’m over being asked how i feel, i’m over being told what to do to feel better, i’m over being asked if i’ve taken my medicine, in fact i would like to not be spoken to at all. i just want to go home, pull the covers over my face, and hide in the dark with my cat.

[i don’t even feel happy about the new year; i actually feel nothing much at all. i had never looked forward to 2023 anyway because i didn’t like the number. besides, from a global standpoint, it’s going to suck. we have possibly the greatest concentration of “leaders” who don’t know how to lead in human history. they’re all either weak-willed, stupid, or just plain psychopathic. there will be zero accountability for the people who just from a moral standpoint deserve to be hanged for crimes against humanity over the past three years. they’ll just come up with creative new ways to abuse us. can’t wait to see what the next annual propaganda campaign is!]

i feel awful because i’m a walker and a hiker and a step counter and i’ve barely been able to do anything for days. i haven’t had 10K steps since the 22nd. i’ve had one meal i would consider satisfying in the entire past week. i look scrawny. i have to do a lot in january to make up for it, but right now, instead of excited, i just feel exhausted.  

i think i’m gonna try crying and see if that helps get more... you know... out. 

happy new year same shit, different digits. enjoy it while you can, before WWIII hits. 

i might be back in a few days. idk.

#negative on main #buh bye

[hyunjinspark]

SCREAMING RN HOW DO I EVEN BEGIN TO EXPRESS MY LOVE FOR YOUR WRITING!!??! THIS CHAPTER HAD ME FUCKING SOBBING OMG LEMME BREATHE FOR A SEC SO I CAN FORM A COHERENT THOUGHT

okay first of all: yeonjun ily so fucking much i love his friendship with yn and i’m excited to hopefully see more of them in the future. yn being able to comfortably talk to him about everything, and yeonjun not discrediting her feelings i’m :((( it’s literally like the bare fucking minimum but people have been using my girl yn as their punching bag lately and i’m so glad she can turn to yeonjun without fear of her feelings being invalidated or being told she’s being annoying/selfish pls someone hug yn 🥲

if i talk too much about the ynbokkie fights i’ll cry but holy shit THE TENSION??! the entire party sequence so intense my girl just wanted to draw stars on jinnie’s cheeks and hang out with him but lix was like nope. side note, but i’m in awe of how you wrote felix in this chapter. like??? we’re all so accustomed to seeing him as sunshine personified but you did an incredible job at describing his frustrations, and you could tell these feelings had been building up for a while. super excited and also nervous for their future confrontation and i hope they’ll be able to sort it all out 🥲 i’m just dreading felix’s reaction when yn tells him she’s moving to the city

AKDJJSKSKS THE PARALLELS HOLY FUCKING SHIT I NEEDED TO PUT MY PHONE DOWN TO STOP MYSELF FROM SCREAMING BC ITS LIKE 3AM BUT HOLY SHIT?!! okay okay so i don’t remember which chapter, but yn said that she wanted a first date at the chateau. but when she tried to organise this with her ex, he bailed which caused her to blame herself for choosing a “boring” date and not taking into consideration that he didn’t like art. it makes me so sad that yn constantly thinks she’s selfish for wanting to do something she likes (god forbid she even THINKS about putting herself first for a change) but hyunjin !!!! when he was talking to chan about wanting to take yn on the EXACT same date she wanted to go on 🥹🥹 the way they’re the definition of soulmates, why would you even raise my standards this high?? my sweet boy was so worried DON’T WORRY HYUN YOU’LL HAVE THE BEST TIME ON YOUR DATE (also “friends” my ass, they’re practically married at this point. super excited to witness hyunjin.exe to malfunction when yn is all dolled up for their date 😌)

also idk how you manage to make hyunjin even more cute and adorable every single chapter istg it’s giving me unrealistic expectations and it’s honestly ridiculous how much i love him 😭😭 my sweet baby was so confused and upset when yn said he didn’t “have to” sit with her, like it was some sort of obligation instead of him genuinely enjoying her company. and then we had a kkami cameo (kkameo?) pls kkami always choosing chaos and making hyunjin’s life so difficult but i just KNOW he was the embodiment of boyfriend material when they visited the store. also the contrast between him quickly managing to finish his painting (after gaining inspiration from what i presume was him having fun with yn at the party) and then getting art block when he’s confused about his feelings/where he and yn stand ?? that’s poetry right there yn is his muse. and CHAN !!! CHAN MY BELOVED HI !!!! pls he’s so funny and chaotic; i love that hyun is basically proclaiming his love in the group chat every other day and 3racha has a fucking bet going on to see how long it takes for him to realise his feelings 💀 i love them your honour. i think that a key reason why hyunjin didn’t kiss her (despite VERYYY obviously wanting to) is because he’s seen first hand the difficulties of dating an idol and he cares too much about her to put her though the constant scrutiny of the media. but i’m super happy that ynjinnie are slowly starting to finally realise and unpick their feelings for each other. anyways this was such an incredible chapter (as always 💖💖) and i’m so sorry for rambling lmao i just have a lot of thoughts about them akdjjsksks (also can i be 🎐 anon if it’s not taken)

hi!! thank you so much for sending such a detailed review. 🥺 had a long day and finally got the time to reply to everything !

i loved reading this so much. you’re so very right, yn has been a punching bag as of late and to hear her feelings are valid is so important to her, especially from yeonjun !! he’s doing the most right now. 😫

the party sequence was intense indeed and im so happy you liked the way i wrote his character 😓 clearly he’s been feeling this stuff for a while, he just was finally able to say it.

good catch ! yn mentioned she always wanted a date to be at the chateau in the first ever chapter, but nobody she knew would ever be interested in that,,,, so hyunyn soulmates confirmed 🔮

a trait of her character definitely is feeling that she may be selfish for wanting and doing the things she wants to do, taking into account her future plans for the city 🫥

i love that you love hyun’s character, sorry he can be too perfect 😪 kkameo indeed ! but he definitely was the epitome of boyfriend material then, and he will be more so in part 10 too 😗

his conversation with chan generally is pretty important to get an insight into his character. he does not want to be in love or in a serious relationship because of the way he’s seen things around him, and things with chan’s life, so it is kind of his fear and he’s holding back despite having feelings.

don’t apologise, i loved reading this ! and sure, but what emoji is that even ?? i finally found it but what is it 😭🎐

#star lost with you #🎐 anon

[coconutcows]

if you dont mind the ask, what happened with you 2? you said you talk to them every day so that must be hard

Hello Anon, no I don’t mind lol, the thing is I don’t Fully know??? And that’s a big part of what makes it hard.

From what they told me I didn’t do anything it’s just them, they had to break up with me for personal reasons. But I also know they always tried their best not to upset me or make me cry so I know there’s a very low chance of them actually telling me if I did something. So for me on my end, everything was going well, our relationship was at its best I thought, then it suddenly felt like they couldn’t be around me and then they had to leave. And that’s okay, as painful as it was (and still is truthfully) it’s just…what happened. They’ve said some things after some time about coming back tho I don’t know if they still feel that way. Our relationship did happen kind of rushed, even if it did last over five years and was good. It was still rushed.

There’s a 2.5 year age difference between us, they’d only been out of high school about a year and I was stunted due to my depression I’ve had since… 5th grade if I think about it. At the beginning they wanted a long term relationship but I think as it went on it was a situation of too serious too soon maybe. That maybe that wasn’t fully what they wanted, or what they want right now changed. Idk

Talking to them everyday isn’t the hard part though. Now if they had another partner, yeah it definitely would be, seeing someone else in that position wondering what you did to fall out of that position. But aa far as I know that’s not the situation rn. And I like checking in on them, making sure they’re doing okay because they still are and always will be extremely important to me. I like hearing them talk about the games they’re playing, they send me memes, seeing how the weather is where they are etc. and I send pictures of our cat (my moms and mine) and my shiny Pokémon, and some pictures and memes. We talked about more stuff before when we were together but I don’t want to overstep anything so I try to just stick to basic small talk stuff.

Anyways yeah I have hope, but I’m doing my best not to get them up too much, and to be prepared to fully let them go someday. But they’ll always have a piece of my heart, and if they do want to come back and try again whether it’s in two months or ten years my arms will be open.

#Anon #Asks #thanks for the ask! #long post #if they do want to try again someday it’s gonna be different #im gonna do my own thing when I want like if I want to go on a walk and they don’t I’ll go #to be clear about doing my own thing when I want I didn’t before because of my own fears #I’ve always felt paranoid that if someone is away from me for too long they’ll realize how much I suck and abandon me #that’s faded quite a bit now tho

[midnightmisadventures]

Ive had so many fun dreams lately but for some reason i’m coming to write about the scary ones

Um been having nightmares. Last night and today. And they feel really heavy, but important. And frankly i do hate them. Please no more nightmares. But maybe if i write about them i’ll prove to spirit that im listening and then they’ll stop 

First Dream: 

Last night i had a dream where the fam of 5 was traveling, driving road trip vibes probably to florida. We were all together packing the car and idk how but all of a sudden erikka was missing. And we knew immediately there was foul play. We were in a sketchy area ad there were cars going in and out and we were afraid she was kidknapped for trafficking. It was so anxiety inducing, and i tried to keep praying and have a positive attitude that she was strong, she would find a way out, she would show make it home. I kept hoping she would show up any minute. But as hours past i kept getting more worried that i’d never see her again, that something terrible happened. And i was crying and and already grieving. In this dreamverse apparently something similar had happened to dalvin a while back. And erikka used some sort of manifestation power to bring him home safely. So i felt like absolutely garbage that i couldnt do the same for her, i was beating myself up. I kept saying “im supposed to be good at this, i feel useless” 

Next Dream: 

This one was so so very odd. Basically we were at chip and it was the anniversary of this well known historical environmental event. And it happened near the west end fairgrounds or something. So there was a lot of hype and press in our area during this.... 100th anniversary or something like that. I don’t really remember, but there were 10 guys all brothers and they won a contest? or something? from someone in....ohio or some random state. Back in the early 1900s. Anyway, an almost catastrophic event was witnessed by a bunch of people. A huge asteroid hurdled towards earth and grazed the side of it (near west end fairgrounds) and chipped a piece of land. It was marvelous that only a few inches kept it from hitting earth directly and splitting the earth in half. Or doing dinosaur level damage or something else crazy. It couldve killed a ton of people or been an end to humanity. So whatever....a hundred years later or so, they were able to do a super techy demonstration and show what almost happened and what didnt happen through like a hologram projector and the whole town watched and it was really snowy outside and i wasnt wearing pants. It was just trippy to think about how something like that could happen at any moment and kill us. For some reason i made the comment “it always scared me that the fact that an asteroid hasnt hit earth with humans on it is completely by chance and hasnt happened yet which means odds are it WILL happen soon. But i always forget about THIS historic moment, which makes me feel safer in that something technically DID happen” 

Final Dream: 

Okay so again, at chip present day. And i wake up with a bunch of messages from people from high school saying to call....our class prez. Which was so odd, ive never had a personal relationship with him. But everyone was blowing up all socials and talking about something crazy that happened. His twin sister reached out to me and said to call him. Like PV social media was going bonkers!! So i was busy all day, it was always ET’s birthday maybe for a date reference? And the more i ignored it, the more people hit my line. Even claire, messaged me by the end of the day saying “call class prez he’s really not doing well” and i was like WOAH. Cause that means people wanted me to call him so bad that they had reached out to my friends who didnt even go to pv to get my attention. I told erikka “idk why they want me, is it because im good at saying calming words” and she said idk it seemed more specific like he wants to “apologize.” SO then im like what?? By time i call him its 1:03am. But he answered and apparently. A couple of kids from our grad class passed away and class prez was really emotional about it. I remember one being Austin H. And he was so sad and unstable that he made a comment online saying something along the lines of “this is worse than gilaine maxwell creating slave camps for black people” ???? Bro i have no idea. 

So class prez gets ALOT of flack for this comment. I mean its career ruining, he’s getting death threats. So maybe he wanted individual calls from black peers to hear their genuine opinion? So we’re on the phone and he’s profusely apologizing, saying what he said was unacceptable. He said “im sure youve heard my ghislane maxwell comment” i said no...havent got the chance. So he plays me a historic video about supposedly the “actual history” of these slave camps he was referencing. The video had this eerie 1900s black racist cartoon vibe that makes my blood curl. It was about these talented black people being condemmed and found guilty for things they didnt do. The evidence was so blatantly there and still everyone convicted them and sent them to be tortured and die at these camps. It was EXTREMELY unsetteling to watch and to be watching with class prez. Also in the dream, it felt inescabable and scary and for a little it felt like i was there. Like it was playing in my chip bedroom but i went top bunk and i could feel the sticks they were beating the black people with. It felt soooooo evil and sinister, and seriously idk what ancestors are communicating with me via dreams or what they want because this was DARK. So then class prez is asking for my take, and why it matters, and why its bad. And im saying he obvious stuff. The videos message was basically like “it didnt matter if black people were educated, doctors, laywers, scientists, hey were gonna slaughter and torture us anyway” so i didnt know if the vibe was like “be greatful that black people are allowed to have careers?? or get vengeance on white people....it was just so intense. 

So when the video was over and i got off the call, i was so uncomfortable and unsettled. Felt like i had waken up from a nightmare or finished a scary movie. So i desperately tried to turn all the lights back on but ofc it was a dream so everything was dim. Still didnt catch it though. I tried finding my parents for comfort. 

Awful right? No more nightmares