Just about all my life, I have struggled with imposter syndrome. I worked very hard in school and all extracurriculars, but I never felt quite good enough. My grades and achievements have always said the opposite. I even went to University of Miami for undergrad, and then got into Harvard for my PhD… you would be surprised how often I played this off as ‘luck’ or ‘a happy accident’.
The truth is, as a Black Woman, I’ve frequently been told or regarded as ‘not enough’. This just fed further into my inner feelings of imposter syndrome. I had this nagging voice in my head telling me I didn’t belong, wasn’t good enough, or, and the most horrible of them all, I’m only here because I’m Black.
Impostor Syndrome impacts my science everyday. I frequently would go into the lab, intimidated by my tasks for the day, or being so nervous of messing up that I would do just that. In classes, I would frequently compare myself to other students. I took note of their additional achievements and accolades from their gap years or upbringing from a science-affluent background, and further convinced myself that I wasn’t good enough.
Deep down, I have always felt like I had something so impactful that I could give to the world… My imposter syndrome limited my ability to see how I could help others, in addition to making me feel unsafe in an academic/lab space.
Until one day it hit me like a truck: my grades and work ethic have always been outstanding, and truthfully I didn’t have much evidence that I ‘wasn’t good enough’ to be in the positions I have achieved. I had various remarks from other students or faculty that recognized the quality of my work. I started to change my internal narrative where I focused on all the positive things I bring to the classroom and lab. I started becoming less anxious of speaking up in class, sharing my personal experience, or attempting a new protocol in the lab. I became proud of my background instead of ashamed of what I ‘didn’t have’ in comparison to others, because my background is what curated my character as a student.
Now, this is opening doors for me I couldn’t even imagine! Having a limitless mindset makes me unstoppable, and whenever I can fill my cup, I can also help others more than I could even imagine!
If you have a similar story, I would love to hear it! Want to feel limitless? Send me a DM and lets chat!
Why Are All Humans Unique? Meiosis: Crash Course Biology #30
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Dr. Sammy is my best Black Indigenous Scientist in the world even though I am much older than he. We are going to talk about sex because most of the world is scientific illiterate and this is something that is shared by most Black Scientists worldwide.
Black Scientists hate being called the so-called white people world, but let me be the first to tell you that science is Black and African, the so-called white people took science and made it to be in their own image.
Some of us are coming up with a new creative Way to teach science today by destroying everything that resembles whiteness, simply because whiteness is a myth and it needs destroying.
Let's get back to the video topic today, which is all about sex and our natural world of Black Indigenous People globally because we are the children of the sun and every human on our planet comes from our Black African skin.
A new Tokyo Ghost cover revealed as Rick Remender's Giant Studios kicks off a line of reprints and collected editions
A new Tokyo Ghost cover revealed as Rick Remender's Giant Studios kicks off a line of reprints and collected editions #comics #comicbooks
Comics titan Rick Remender’s Giant Generator Studios line of bestsellers will see a number of exciting upcoming releases next year—including a long-anticipated reprint of the Tokyo Ghost hardcover co-created with artist Sean Gordon Murphy—all published by Image Comics. Image has revealed new cover art by Murphy to grace the upcoming Tokyo Ghost hardcover reprint which will land on shelves in…
The New York Times: A Statue of Henrietta Lacks Will Replace a Monument to Robert E. Lee
A life-size bronze statue of Henrietta Lacks, the woman whose cancer cells were taken without her consent and were used for research that ushered medical discoveries and treatments, will be erected in her hometown, Roanoke, Va., next year in a plaza previously named after the Confederate general Robert E. Lee.
Roanoke Hidden Histories, an organization dedicated to acknowledging Black history in the community’s public spaces, raised more than $183,000 for the project.
In a news conference announcing plans for the statue on Monday, a local artist, Bryce Cobbs, presented a preliminary black-and-white drawing of Ms. Lacks wearing a blazer and a knee-length skirt with her arms folded. The sculptor, Larry Bechtel, will use the drawing as a reference to design the statue on a stone base.
Mr. Bechtel said he would first make a two-foot model based on the drawing and then make a second, six-foot model that will eventually be molded and cast into bronze. “Hopefully, if everything goes right, we will have an unveiling of this splendid sculpture next October,” Mr. Bechtel said.
Ron Lacks, Ms. Lacks’s grandson, said the effort to honor his grandmother had been a long time coming. “This means a lot to my family,” he said, adding that he was looking forward to seeing “the sculpture that will honor her forever in this beautiful city of Roanoke.”
The finished statue will stand downtown in Henrietta Lacks Plaza, where a Robert E. Lee monument once stood. That monument, erected in 1960, was scheduled to be removed after it was found damaged in July 2020. Plans to rename the plaza took shape after the monument was hauled away that summer. At least 230 Confederate symbols across the United States have been removed, relocated or renamed since the murder of George Floyd in 2020 and the rise of the Black Lives Matter movement.
Mr. Cobbs, the artist, said in an email on Tuesday that he aimed to capture Ms. Lacks in a way “that reflected her personality and also respected her legacy.”
He said that Ms. Lacks’s family had been in touch with Roanoke Hidden Histories throughout the process and offered to help capture her likeness in the final sculpt. “Which was very generous of them, seeing as how the amount of photographs of Henrietta Lacks are extremely low and limited,” he wrote.
Mr. Cobbs said he had been involved with the project for more than three years. “Being a part of history in this way, working with this group of people to bring this to life, is something that I’ll never forget,” he said.
Ms. Lacks, who was born in Roanoke and later moved to Baltimore with her husband during the 1940s, died from cervical cancer at 31 in 1951. She left behind five young children and an unrivaled medical legacy.
Just months before her death and without her knowledge, consent or compensation, doctors removed a sample of cells from a tumor in her cervix. The cells taken from Ms. Lacks behaved differently than other cancer cells, doubling in number within 24 hours and continuing to replicate.
The cell sample went to a researcher at Johns Hopkins University who was trying to find cells that would survive indefinitely so researchers could experiment on them. The cells derived from that sample have since reproduced and multiplied billions of times, contributing to nearly 75,000 studies.
The cell line named after Ms. Lacks, HeLa, has played a vital role in developing treatments for influenza, leukemia and Parkinson’s disease, as well as advancing chemotherapy, gene mapping, in vitro fertilization and more.
According to “The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks,” a book about her life that was turned into a movie starring Oprah Winfrey, Ms. Lacks’s family members did not learn about the use of her cells until 1973, when scientists contacted them for blood samples so they could study their genes.
Last year, 70 years after her death, the World Health Organization honored Ms. Lacks for the contribution that she unknowingly made to science and medicine. A life-size bronze statue of Ms. Lacks was also erected last year at the University of Bristol in England.
I've been relistening to Reverse Transmission by Param Anand Singh and Wham City recently. I've been relistening to it several times over in fact even to get a real handhold on it all the little things left unanswered, projecting my own ideas onto it to fill the gaps.
If you haven't yet, it's common core material for this blog as far as I'm concerned. I'll spare any spoilers and leave you to interpret it. It's really its own thing that doesn't line up at all with Delta Green, but as I try experimenting more with breaking outside the mythos it's had a significant impact on how I think of and adapt the concept of Black Science. Black Science is a term that's been batted around a few times in the community for a few different systems, usually interchangable with Fringe Science, but it's never actually defined. I could right down and explain how I think of it and plan to build stories, and intend to, but Reverse Transmission is an excellent story I recommend if you want to feel what it's like to encounter it.
It's not something you can always neatly cover in an exposition. It has a dreamlike logic to it. It's an anamorphic image of new, disruptive ideas across spacetime you can't understand until you know how to look at it. It's developing something without a hypothesis, no longer limited by imagination or logic spreading out horizontally around you not knowing what it is you're making until the clear picture appears-- with very little control of what it might be.
It's black sky thinking.
These are all just ideas free-floating around for me right now as I think about how to build a new setting. Please consider giving it a listen. Maybe you'll find it pretentious, but for me it gave *feeling* to an idea that I could only spin my tires coming up with *words* for.
Making my way trough my Comic Book TBR and god for once I would like to get to the end of a Rick Remender series and not experince a 180 tone shift or have it make me feel really sad