#FUCK MAN FUCK FUCI FUCK

[dotted-clouds]

having an absolute meltdown because Volo in Pokemon Masters EX finally really

#txt.post #FUCKKK AAAAUUUUU #THEY'RE FUELING MY VOLO INSANITY #FUCK MAN FUCK FUCI FUCK #AFTER MY BRAIN HAS BEEN POKED BY HIM AGAIN THEY'RE ADDING MORE SHIT INTO MY HEAD #WHAT'S THEIR RPOHNLEM

[borderlinegerard]

i hope i die, you broke my heart

#personal #my posts #so fucking tired oh my god #just yelled at my sister so loud that my throat is sore over a piece of fuciing plastic #sometimes ecerytbinf feels so bad and its like. what do i even do #like ok i relapse and i need a break from someone and they loose their fucking shit on me #taljing about how you always deal with my shit and youre tired of how i see you as the worst in the group #as if i didnt literally repeat to you over and over again that i love you and that i always will even when you kept denying it #all of the times youve left all the servers and the gc and all that and i was there to comfort you #theres a reason im always the person you go to #byt yeah . im neverrrr there for you #like is it just that im not there for you in the Same Way that youre there forme ?? #does it need to be completely equal to be fair #and idk. i know hes struggling too but its so fucking stupid because ive been struggling for months and i dont treat u like tjat #im tired of feeling like i have to do two times more than everyone else ro be worthy of their love #like sorry man but im fucking sick and tired #i know ill be fine without you but like youre so sick right now that i dont know what youll do without all of us #idk im just like. you used to be so kind but now youre writing your name in mu blood #and sometimes i feel bad because i didnt mean evedytbinf i said to you but lets be honest #you didnt mean everyrbinf you said either #and i dont know if you were ever the right person because a lot of the time i think we are just two chemicals that werent meant to mix #but ill always remember you when i hear that one song and im making it sound like this is some kind if goodbye but it Really isnt #but like there was a time when i would tear myself apart for you. mot even because i liked you that much #i guess i just wanted someone that liked me as much as you did??? #and when j say that it isnt even about one soecific oerson. its an amalgamation of ecery person tgat has ever loved me #a little more than they were supposed to #i think i hate ahen people love me Too Much because i dont want to be adored like that it scares me #iknow what thats like and i dont want to be someone fp Its so scary #okay if im being honest i dont know whbat the fuck im saying right mow #byt like. idk. im tired and i think im done. tbh

[yellowhearther0]

girls when they are trying their best but their best isnt good enough 😔😔

#sagittarius.txt #negative #stopped gaming and the horrors have returned #im just so fuciing pissed off. at the circumstances. in general #bc im stuck sittubg here with these shit ass feelings that no one can jack about until im either old enough to do something about it or #like. idek. #bc itsblike i cant say shit to my parents bc they wont take me seriously and lird knows i dont trust any of the adults at my fucking school #and im not going to make the handful of peiple i CAN talk to more worried about me when they already have atuff going on and they cant do #anything abt what im dealing with #but i dont even WANT to go to anyone because i dont wanna get mad at people when they tell me things i alreadybknow because i KNOW theyre #tryijg to help and they cant do much and its liek GRAH #im justvin such a shit plce bc i want to reach out but i have to do it of my own violition or else i'll just fucking shut down #im like a scared dog. in a cage. and he'll come to u if u just leave him be and let him do his own thing #but like. if im the svared little dog than everyone else is the big scary human who i slowly inch closer to and then suddenly the stick out #their hand right as im near them and then i run right back to where i was before and then we're back at square 1. does this make sense #and its litwrally no ones fault but my own #i just never know how to tell what other people are thinking so i think i project how i feel about myself onto what i thibk others rhing of #me and so i go into every potentially vulnerable conversation with my guard drawn high because im just expecting people to get sick of me #always complaining but never actually trying to better myself #idk man #im normal #i peomise

[hellfireeddiemunson]

Listening to The Weeknd rn but now when I listen to him I get to go “HEY I HEARD THIS LIVE”

#god he was so FUCIING good I’m so glad I went Thursday #if u guys are fans of him and aren’t sure if I wanna see him live…..fucking do it holy shit #easily one of the best concerts I’ve been to #also fuck that man is Beautiful irl

[gamersansblog]

BRO why am I thinking of this idea!?

Okay okay so listen so I'm thinking of an au where reader is turned into a monster and has a sibling who was also experimented and made her very pretty like a man or women will fall down to their knees for them

Reader gets turned into this 8/9 foot monster and is very dull with emotion and is somewhat aggressive only to the things they claimed as theirs and is always chain if not their just walking around a cage like their waiting for something or sit down and paint if the scientist gave him some paint and a canvas. Bit team 141 plus Las Almas go on a mission to where reader and their sibling is and they rescue both of them and reader just watches them when both of them are healing.

During the stay the sibling gets really clingy to the boys while reader just watches them not fully trusting then and only giving a chitter or a grumble to them.

And Las almas ad team 141 are really jelly because reader is purring around a new member who just excepted his fate and just gave reader effection and reader loves the new member because he was shiny and gave reader little things.

And laswell decided to put the sibling and reader in training and to everyone's shock reader looked like he knew everything how to shoot a gun, how to load a gun, and how to take down a man. It was like his body knew how to do it bit reader just shrugged and went on their day while the sibling was pouting.

141 is fascinated by what reader paints and reader just looks very confused when they gave him a complement and just chitters.

While the sibling is trying to get the boys attention bit failing so and gets pouty.

After a few months reader still giving most of their attention to the recruit while learning new things (like cooking, dancing, speaking, crocheting, knitting) and the sibling is all fussy everyday because the boys sometimes ignore her because she's fucking annoying and shit but never got annoyed when reader came to them and softly tapped them with their sharp claw on their shoulder make them jump sometimes and nod at reader who signed to them for a bit of help not really good at speaking still and they just nod and help them.

But laswell decided to let them go on a mission and team 141 see reader being a shadow and brutal to the enemy's and sibling being good also and making it quick when they kill.

And after a few months they had to raid a house that sold legal info about the military and team 142 had to go and they did and quickly killed everyone and reader was no where to be seen and they were looking for them until they heard a baby cooing and the turn around and see reader with big pupils like a cat and purring really loudly while holding the tired/giggling baby.

And reader decides to take care of them baby with laswells permission and when she says yes reader is taking care of that baby like holding the baby, feeding the baby, staying up all night for the baby all of that.

And 141 and Los almas (including konig) fall inlove with reader slowly while sibling is still trying to talk with them 24/7 and shit.

Bro I've been fucking thinking kf this shit for a long time and if someone made this I'm on my fuciing knees for them.

I know I know what yall will say "gamer your a writer why don't you make it?" Yes I know I can make it but I'm lazy and currently working of requests and my pacific rim fanfic

But if I have the time and if yall are really interested on this would yall tell me to make it?

But seriously if someone made this before me I'm on my knees for them.

Ps: send me a link if yall make this fic pls and thank you <3

#mw2 141 x male reader #male reader #x female reader #cod x male reader #cod x female reader #cod x y/n #monster #monster reader #cod price #las almas #mw2 141 #konig cod #ghost cod #soap cod #gaz cod #laswell mw2 #cod modern warfare #gender nuetral reader #Spotify

[triflesandparsnips]

HEY FOLKS GUESS WHO FINALLY WATCHED THE FINALE

it's time again for "is it really a good idea to post your uncensored thoughts hahaha just kidding FUCI IT WE BALL" screenshots of my episode livetexting.

Transcribed:

okay so I'm in the AD now

I like the "gong" sounds during the "last time"

then BOOM

also ugh I gotta rewatch the prev episodes on the BIG screen, there's so much happening

oh baby omg the sweet music omggggg

FISH

omg so much NATURE he HATED nature in his previous vibes

awwwww his monologue is PRECIOUS

FISHSCALES that's what FAKE PEARLS are made out of

whoooo the fuck are these PEOPLE

ommmmg lololol

"SIMPLE LIVES" "SIMPLE WAYS"

LOL PUNCH OMG

"I said I CAUGHT a fish ONCE" omgggggggggg

you PRECIOUS BABYGIRL

...........................okay hey omg tryin to be a housewife Ed, ilu

"If you were EVER GOOD AT ANYTHING go and do THAT you bum" -- "YOU GUYS ARE DICKS"

I love him so much

.............oh DANG the republic

wait-- pausing

Ricky is REVERSE STEDE here-- he's "become a real boy" with the praise of his superiors-- except he's the MONSTER Pinocchio from Jim's story

...okay unpausing

"NEVER BE SLAVES" o i see

some CHOICES are being MADE here

YEAH THEY ARE

OH WAIT

PAUSING AGAIN

NO BUT REALLY

HE'S THE REVERSE PINOCCHIO

HE DOESN'T HAVE A NOSE

..........while i die about that a little i'll unpause

"THE MAN I AM TODAY"

You are going to be insufferable about this, I can tell~

YES I AM

WOOOO

awwwwwww oh no, oh no, Auntie

"Did you? Well, don't want to split hairs" STEDE U DICK

awwwwwww he's saying the failure line to ZYS!

STEDE IS WEIRD ABOUT TOUCH

OH MY

FUCKING

GOD

HE SAID IT

HE ACTUALLY SAID TI

HE SAID IT WAS WEIRD

YOU WANNA TALK INSUFFERABLE YOU HAVE NOT EVEN BEGUN TO EXPERIENCE THE AGONY OF MY TOTAL ANNIHILATING RIGHTNESS

I SAID WHAT I FUCKING SAID

HOLY MOTHERFUCKING CHRIST

.........................so anyway, about those curtains

they sure look great

I should climb them

see what the world looks like from up there

..............................................................I'm going to rewind and watch myself be SO GODDAMN RIGHT all over again

"IT WAS WEIRD"

HELL YEAH

omg he jumped on them!

"oh no!"

....pausing just to say, the closeup of his hand against the stone bridge was. unnecessarily.

good.

....for reasons.

whoops I accidentally rewound to him BEING WEIRD ABOUT TOUCH AGAIN

lololol

I fucking love that he jumped on them, such a delight

I'm checking to see if there's a closeup of his ring on that. very good. um. hand. pressed against the--- YEAH THERE IS

"or is it?"

"that went as well as I planned it" BABE

"to skin a prince" she says as she fixes her hair

#our flag means death #our flag means death s2 spoilers #our flag means death season 3 rampant speculation #STEDE IS WEIRD ABOUT #TOUCH

[butchviking]

could you elaborate on your idea of treating dysphoria with therapy. i guess you don't have it figured out yet because if you did you would've already therapied the dysphoria out of yourself. but like. what are your ideas? where do you think dysphoria comes from? how could one fix it with therapy? conversion therapy gets a bad rep, how different or similar is your idea of fixing dysphoria with therapy from the spooky idea people have of conversion therapy? anything else you want add

oh i sure the fuck don't have it figured out. i have no kind of education or training or qualifications in anything like that i am just another dysphoric dyke on the internet. i just wish anyone who IS in that field seemed 2 b listening lol

so im not aware of any standardised therapy to target dysphoria in any way, but ive known & heard from soooo many detrans/desisted/reidentified/etc women that therapy has either hugely helped w their dysphoria or in some cases they've been able to eliminate it entirely. a lot of the time ppl talk like dysphoria is smthn that is just ingrained into you as a person, something you're born with and something that - unless u transition - u will eventually die with. but that's not true! there are often very real causes that can be found out and dealt with. fr example a lot of women have identified the main cause of their dysphoria to be childhood trauma, often abuse and very often sexual abuse (it doesn't take a genius to figure out why this would lead to someone hating/resenting/feeling wrong in/being disgusted by their body. doesn't take a genius to figure out why they'd want to be male instead.) and i mean. listen talking with a group of women anyway there's usually a lot of trauma. but talking with a group of transmascs is like. jesus fucking christ there is so often so much awful shit that has happened to them. (in fact this def applies to transwomen too tbh, ive known a looot of transwomen w a history of sexual abuse. not as many as transmen but definitely higher than the general male population). physical abuse (or witnessing the physical abuse of a mother) can be another cause; that feeling of never wanting to be a scared helpless little girl again and wanting to be strong and able to defend yourself - things that are usually associated w men. these thoughts aren't usually conscious, its not like u think "i want to be a man bc i blame my body for what was done to me and i feel like if i could get out of my skin and be something more powerful i'd be safe and happy" - but thats what ppl often find out in therapy, and after coming 2 terms w that they find they don't have to take it out on themselves anymore and they manage to make peace with their body.

for a lot of women their dysphoria was caused by simple social restriction - ive no doubt in my mind that a huge reason for mine is not being able to be topless in public or have my shirt unbuttoned or jesus christ even just. just fucking EXIST without them having to be an ISSUE. i weaned myself off binding years ago and for a long time i managed 2 get to a place where i didnt even think abt my chest that much. and then some guy makes one comment abt how i never wear bras and its like. oh god i had tried to forget that you people can SEE them. and that sent me into a lil spiral for like a month lol 👍 pair that w going to mcr nj and forgetting to wear a bra the first night and finding my movement severely restricted due to not wanting my tits flying everywhere and i came back from that trip like. can someone just fuciing cut them off. (mcr PLEASE stop transing my gender im not strong enough...) (actually i was going to say that after that trip i wore a binder for the first time in years but i think im getting my timeline mixed up. i think that was before the show actually. bc i distinctly remember that i packed it for the trip 'just in case' and that was after i'd already worn it once around the house & once to a wedding) and obviously idk what the solution is for me there but i think a combination of therapy & lifestyle changes could help me get at least somewhere. i know that for other women lifestyle changes have been a huge factor - living & being around only women has been so healing fr a lot of detrans/dysphoric ladies & ive read some really moving things abt the impact going to womyns land has had fr some. misogyny in general can really wear down how u feel abt ur body over time, without u ever necessarily attributing your feelings to that. and when i say 'misogyny' im also including the simple existence of gender in that! to be born and to be separated into a category based on your body and to have that be something thats supposed to dictate how you live your entire life - you have a vagina so you have to wear this and act like this and people will have these expectations of u and you're limited by these restrictions and if you step out of line, if u dont do femininity or dont do it well enough, you will be punished. by god of course u grow to hate your body and your role in the world. of course u wish u could be a man and just fucking. live and breathe and exist without all these stupid fucking made-up rules & requirements! for a lot of ppl, recognising that & recognising that the problem doesn't lie with them, but with a society that made them feel that way, is huge. & after that realisation they can begin a process of forgiving their body. turning the blame out from where they've internalised it. & this is definitely why so many detrans/desisted/reidentified women get so hard into feminism. that's what brought me to radblr in the first place & started my own process of reidentification!

now obv i can't cover every possible cause of dysphoria here bc its as many & varied as ppl are. and listen im on mobile so i cant see how long this is but jesus christ i know it must be fucking long. and its still going to get much longer! so there is one last obvious cause of dysphoria that no-one likes to talk abt, but which is probably THE most concretely linked: being gay! for at LEAST hundreds of years (im sure there are some ladies around here who could attest to older sources tbh, it could be millenia for all i know) lesbians have written about feeling like they're a man's soul in a woman's body. sexual inversion theory was the default belief for how and why people were homosexual for a long, long time. and that theory is so completely alive and well. im not even going to say any more on this one. it's obvious and i think almost every single butch lesbian (& plenty of non-butch lesbians) feels this at SOME point. the proportion of homosexuals in the transgender population is definitely higher than in the general population. however even if ur het that can induce dysphoria too, cause u get ppl who say they don't want to date men as a woman, they want to do it as a man - which a lot of ppl put down to gay fetishisation but i don't think its all about that. i think its abt wanting to be on equal footing. so no-one is safe really!

ok. so what is the difference between this and conversion therapy. conversion therapy in my mind is smthn that seeks to 'correct' your behaviour/identity, rather than smthn with the goal of alleviating distress. like i don't think any of the stuff ive talked abt should b done w the goal of making someone not identify as trans anymore - idk identify how u want i guess. the identity isn't really the thing that matters. u don't even need to identify as trans in the first place for any of that stuff to b helpful - it's all abt lessening the distress u feel w ur own body. and the main thing 'trans conversion therapy' means 2 me is trying to force gender conformity on someone. like trying to get them to accept their assigned gender role. to get a gnc female who identifies as transmasc to ditch not only the identity but the gnc behaviours & presentation and accept their 'place' in the world as a woman. and gender (a word which to me is synonymous with the phrase 'gender roles' like they dont exist separately that is literally what gender is. its roles.) is my greatest enemy in the world FUCK gender and i don't ever ever think anyone should b forced to abide by it. i think it is the greatest evil on this planet. to me, the comparison of therapeutic dysphoria treatment to conversion therapy is like. say if someone was gay, and was severely distressed by being gay. they couldn't accept it and they hated it and they were depressed about it. this person would definitely benefit from therapy to help them ACCEPT the fact that they're gay and to help them feel comfortable with themselves about it. which is very very different from a 'therapy' which aims to make them not gay anymore. u know?

now im not going to pretend i know or even believe that everyone's dysphoria can be alleviated or erased with therapy. i have no idea how many ppl this would work for. maybe it would help 5% of ppl, maybe it would help 50%, or 95%. honest to god i have no idea. and sometimes figuring out the root causes of your dysphoria doesn't really do jack shit. there's a lot of things in my life i could point to that explain mine. but the trouble is that knowing that doesn't make it go away. it's a mental illness & it's as complicated & often stubborn as any other. chances are that therapy would help some ppl and not help others. and if u try it out & it doesn't help & u still think transition is the right path, then cool! if that's an informed choice and a medical risk/commitment you're willing to take then honestly i believe in giving ppl that right. but like i said the other day, the big thing is that without the OPTION of psychological treatment, there's really only the option of transition. well that's not tru actually, because some people do choose to simply live w their dysphoria, much as one might live w many other mental illnesses. i feel like that's also not an option spoken about often. u can actually just live with it. learn to manage it rather than try to cure it, let it ebb & flow. a lot of the time that will suck, but what mental illness doesn't? for many ppl, learning ways to manage & live w their dysphoria is a more sensible choice for their lifestyle than transition, which basically makes u a lifelong medical patient. for some ppl it's better than taking the health risks. sometimes u just gotta power thru.

anything else i want to add - yes, of course there is. there's a million things i could probably add. i could talk abt this for hours. actually i probably have bc i kept coming back 2 this on breaks at work so im sure ive put a couple of hrs into it by now. i didn't even mention eating disorders and how commonly comorbid they are w dysphoria; how it's all just different forms of body dysmorphia (but as many ppl have said, when an anorexic tells a doctor their body is wrong the doctor tell them no, your mind is wrong, and you need psychological treatment. not so with dysphoria.) the transwomen ive seen basically turn into plastic surgery addicts always seeking more and more changes bc they don't reach the end-point they'd imagined, where they're happy w their body now, bc the discomfort always came from inside their head and their body was never really the problem. the transmen who plan on just taking hormones but not getting top surgery, or vice versa, and then end up doing both AND getting phallo and often still finding themselves unsatisfied at the end. the unrealistic expectations people often have in the first place when starting transition, and the doctors who, instead of being realistic and helping patients to manage their expectations, promise the absolute world - leaving ppl completely mentally unprepared if things don’t go so well, where perhaps some therapy beforehand could have helped them accept what they’re getting into. the studies showing that although ppl REPORT being happier after transition, their life satisfaction scores on assessments aren't actually any higher than before. but i just got home and got to my computer and it turns out this reply is already. my god. over 2,000 words long. and holy shit even viewing it on desktop it’s enormous. so u gotta know when to quit i guess.

thank u so much for asking this. y’all know how much i love to talk abt this topic. i know everything is split into ‘sides’ on this sometimes, like it’s just some discourse, but it’s real people’s real lives and it’s so so important to me for everyone to see that. i want trans & dysphoric ppl to have more options, and to know about the options that they do have. there may not be any standardised dysphoria therapy but as i say, many women HAVE had life-changing results with other kinds of therapy, and there are many professionals out there who will absolutely work with you to the best of their ability if you want to get to the bottom of your dysphoria and come up with ways to lessen it or manage it. unfortunately, there are also many who will run for the hills because they don’t want to endanger their licence or reputation by being branded as conversion therapists. and i want feminists who see this as a solely political issue to see the humanity here and to recognise that dysphoria is a very real and often very debilitating mental illness that can’t always be cured by just explaining to someone that gender is made-up and bad. and no-one is a traitor to the female sex or an inherent misogynist for the choices they make to deal with that mental illness and live their happiest life.

and im. so sorry for all of ur dashboards. but hey, if u can scroll past 79 images per day of my chemical romance, then im sure u can scroll past this too if it’s of no interest to u. i hope not tho. if u read this all then god bless i am so thankful. everyone have a wonderful day <3 i am going to go have a nice big glass of mead bc it’s been a long night & all this thinking make hal head hurt. peace ✌️

#ask #anonymous #that's 2500 words. thats literally an entire essay. thats insane. llisten.. i just hve a lot of feelings ok :( #and. a lot of opinions. #trans #← tag just so i can find this in future. i spent so long on it i feel like i shouldnt let it just get lost in the archive lol

[dyketennant]

i have not even finished bbc staged season 1 yet (i'm about to watch the finale instead of going to bed like a crazy person) but this series shows something about human connection that is genuinely going to stick with me forever. michael on the phone asking about his neighbor, who up until this point we have pretty much only heard him bitch about, and him listing all of these complaints about her only for his voice to break as he says "she's kind" and starts crying gives me such fucking chills. like. yes we as humans forced to live on this weird planet together bicker and get caught up in little things, but ultimately we have so much love to give and we care so much even in all of the places we never express it. even when david and michael spent all of episode 4 fighting, at the end michael agrees to give up the name debate and let david have it because he's too focused on his worry, and david recognizes this and tries to reassure him that it'll all be okay even after they've been pissing on each other the whole episode and michael just offered to end the petty debate they've been having and let david win. david chooses to support michael. him coming to sit next to georgia during episode five for the two of them to silently lean into each other and kiss each other's shoulders while michael is frantically calling people. fuci=kng. hell man. i am Unwell. jesus christ

#bbc staged #michael sheen #david tennant #how am i supposed to go to bed and go to school after this. i havent even done my workshop letters or my theory analysis due tomorrow. #jesus christ

[evansbby]

I have a writing assignment due tomorrow and instead of doing it I'm watching someone react to catching fire

man I fucking love this movie and I know we've talked about it before but PEETAS JUST SO FUCIING GOOD

like.

gale: I'm a jealous bitch cause you kissed peeta in the games where you would have died why don't u like me pls love me

peeta: hey I've been unfair to you and I'm sorry, I know what you did during the games was to keep us alive, it's not fair to be angry at you, let's be friends

like. Peeta the king of apologies

I've officially spent an hour watching someone watch a movie I've already watched instead of doing my work. also, 1989 Taylor's version comes out tonight and I am VERY excited about it at the expense of said assignment.

also. Loki episode 4 comes out tonight. Slay. I fucking love Loki and I love Tom Hiddleston (ik this is a Chris evans/his characters blog but u know what it's Loki I can't NOT mention him)

YES YES YES

I love the hunger games sm 🥺🥺 I reread it all the time and it makes me cry every single time bc it’s so good and yet so unfair and what happens to Peeta is so unfair and just the whole thing is so……. Harrowingly realistic depiction of war and ptsd and propaganda and just… I wish I could kiss Suzanne Collins’ mind!!!

The way she wrote the best male character ever (Peeta, like the perfect example of a man written by a woman for women) and also the most evil male character ever (Snow, especially in ABOSAS, like the way she almost makes you root for him yet quietly hints at his selfish, possessive and shallow tendencies throughout is so INSANELY good, oh my god I cannot wait for this movie to come out!!! I loved the book so much especially the final third which takes place in district 12🥺 and those final ten pages are INSANE they left me feeling sick and empty and heartbroken omg)

ANYWAYS BACK TO PEETA! Ugh listen I totally get you bc Peeta in CF is so hot and perfect and cute and just!!!! Gale could NEVER compare!! Peeta actually took a step back and stopped being angry with her, apologised, gave her space and protected her 🥺🥺 also i love procrastinating and watching people react to stuff on YouTube like all the girlies do this!!! There’s this guy I watch on YouTube who does movie commentaries (basically reactions) and his name is Dylan and I wish he reacted to THG movies but he doesn’t react to things if you give him the suggestion to react to it djdjdjsj

ANYWAYS yes bestie I agree with everything you said, Gale is a pussy ass bitch and the thing is most people hate him bc he dropped the bomb that killed prim but honestly the parts that made me hate him were how controlling and weirdo he was and how he was always pressuring katniss to be with him and kissing her when there was a literal war going on like PLEASE let her live!!!

Anyways bestie I don’t really watch Loki the show but I like the character from the movies!!!! And I used to read fics about him lol

#crokitheloki

[kassiekole22]

The Smell Of Heartbreak 💔

Warning: Swearing, The Reader Thinks That Jason Is Cheating...

I came home from a hard day of work, as I pulled into the driveway, I noticed that Jason's truck was already there.

'Oh! He must have got off early!' I thought, as a smile grew on my face. Even though the day was stressful, I knew all of my troubles would disappear, as soon as I was in his arms.

I opened to door, as Jason came nearly bolting out of the bedroom, which caught me off guard.

"H-Hi, Darlin'!" He stuttered

"Jesus, Jase! You scared me!" I stared at him with wide eyes, trying to figure out what his problem was. I walked over to him, wrapped my arms around him, and placed a gentle kiss on his cheek, as I took a deep breath. Then my eyes shot open.

"Jason-" I leaned my face closer to his body, inhaling deeply.

"-Who's fucking perfume is that?" I growled, as I shot him a glare that could kill him.

"I-I-… I don't know what you're talkin' about." He stuttered, as he shifted his eyes.

"Jason!" I warned him. 'He better have a damn good excuse!' I thought, as if anything could change my mind from the worst scenarios I had playing in my head.

"It's nothin', (Y/N)! It's fuckin' nothin'!" Those words that came out of his mouth, made my heart sink. I knew that he repeats himself when he lies.

"Bullshit!" I cried, as I pushed him out of the way, and ran to the bathroom. My heart was pounding so fast, it felt like it could explode. Tears ran down my face, as I felt my heart literally break. The man I loved, with another woman. I couldn't bare it. I slammed the bathroom door, pressed my back against it, and sank to the floor.

Of all people, I never would have thought, Jason, the man who swore that he'd never hurt me, that he'd always protect me, was the person who hurt me the most. It felt like a stab in the heart. What twisted the knife, was the fact that he probably had her in my bed. OUR bed. The bed that we cuddle in each night, that we make love in. I felt a sudden burst of rage. I wanted to break everything in this fucking house. I wanted to punch all of the mirrors, smash all of the plates, take a baseball bat to all of the furniture. And, oh boy, did I want to take a knife to that precious fucking hat of his. To shred it, and throw the pieces in his face.

Suddenly, a knock at the door broke me away from my violent thoughts.

"(Y/N)!" I heard Jason call out. I could tell from how shakey his voice was, that he had been crying too.

"Jason! Go away!" I sobbed, feeling my heart ache as I said his name.

"(Y/N)! Please!" He cried.

"Jason, I really, really want to hurt you right now! So please, get the fuck out of here, before I do something that I MIGHT regret!" I yelled, feeling my blood boil even more.

"(Y/N, PLEASE, JUST LET ME EXPLAIN!!!" He begged. A small part of me wanted to let him in. So I did.

I opened the door, allowing him inside, getting ready to punch him in the fuciing nose when he blurted out the dumbest excuse.

His eyes were red from crying. Even though he hurt me, my heart still broke to see him in pain. He wouldn't look me in the eyes, which scared me.

"Ok… So today, I went to the store… There was some perfume on sale, and I had the money for it… So I bought you a bottle for your birthday… But when I got home, I was hiding it in my dresser, and I dropped it… The bedroom reeks of flowers now… I'm sorry…" He finally looked up at me. I arched a brow.

"I don't wear perfume…" I narrowed my eyes at him.

"I-I know… It just smelled very pretty. And I know that you like the smell of flowers. I just wanted to do something nice. Listen, once the bedroom airs out, I'll show you the bottle."

Something inside told me that he was being honest. I bursted into tears, and threw my arms around him. He wrapped his arms around me, and kissed the top of my head.

"I'm sorry, Jason!" I cried.

"Shh-shh-shhhh, it's ok, Sweetheart. I don't blame ya for assumin' the worst. But I'd never hurt you. I promised you that, and I intend on keepin' that promise." He murmured, into my hair.

"I love you, Jason." I whispered, as I nuzzled into his chest.

"I love you too, Darlin'. And I always will. Forever." He murmured back.

#dark pictures anthology #dark pictures house of ashes #house of ashes #HOA #jason kolchek #jason kolchek x reader #jason kolchek x you #KassieJalimFanFics

[scrivenger-arts]

You cannot tell me that idia does not dress like this, this man is required by law to be dressed by someone else, because this is what happens when he don’t, he’s a fuciing disaster (affectionate) he's a mess and I love him

Also Lazarus taxa, same year as idia and they are friends. Idia used him as a human interaction shield, and Lazarus was like yeah sure why not? Anyways, they’re both ignihyde, and Lazarus was really good at runes, which was a third year elective. The teacher Hans was a jealous mother fucker, and used an untested rune array to spirit Lazarus away. Idia knew something was up, told teachers Lazarus was gone, but dismissed his concerns because they’re Ignihyde. It was months until idia had the courage to tell the headmage, who conducted an investigation and fucking gutted the school staff. Lazarus wasn’t found until after canon.

Idia came up with a digital check in system for the entirety of ignihyde to stop more missing persons, and that is why he was given the house warden role. But since ignihyde is kinda isolated not many outside of ignihyde know.

Azul absolutely knows.

Lazarus is a crow-dragon, Crowley’s half brother, share the same mother, but are very far apart age-wise. Their mother was a crow avian, Crowley’s father is fae, while Lazarus’ father is a dragon.

(Human form Lazarus under development)

#idia twst #idia twisted wonderland #twst idia #twst fanart #twisted wonderland #twisted oc #original character #art #art blog #artists on tumblr #grim is drawing #artwork #my art #current wip #art wip #idia shroud

[gcthbitch]

yall ive never wanted to give a man head while hes driving so fucking Badly in my Life holy fuciing ejfjejjgnfmw

#im fine im okay im normal #nfsm/w #long time since ive used that tag djcjsnfkkwme

[myownprivatcidaho]

dont text in my feelings to shes like the wind from dirty dancing but its about a he/him manic pixie ginger marketing major

#🚬🚬🚬🚬🚬 #SHES LIKE THE WINDDDD #man i started listening as a JOKE it was A JOKEEEEEEE #BUT THE WORDS WEFENT SUPPOSED TO ACTUALLY HIT LIKE THIS FUCK ME FUCI KE FUCKFJKDJRKSDJDSND #im. unwell

[radiotorn]

Oogufifofjdje oouuugugu it's 3 am time to long for a gorfriend.....ooguffi...fuuf.....

#god ..i just wanna love and cherish a gorl man.... #FUCK...gorls are so pretty...please i want to hold one in my arms ans kiss her forhead #i wamnt....girl......my god..... #this bitch is gay! good for her. good for her #godn mFUCK FUCI MAN AAAUAUAUAUAUA #i would let my gf wear my clothes ... especially my hoodies bc i wear larger clothes bc of my body and its comfy so i uust AUAUAUAUUUUAUAU #WAAAAAAAA IT WULD LOOK SO CUTE ON A GIRL AUAUSJDJDBAIA FUCKCKCJCDJU #IT ISNT FAIIIRRR BRO I WANT A GIRLFRIEND SO I CAN SMOOCH HER AND MAKEE. HER. FEEL LOVED. AAUAUAUWJAUSJS #JHSUSUST M .AUSUAHA....I CAMNT BRESTTHE...I WANT A GF SO BAD BUT GOD IS HOMOPHOBIC ANS HAS CURSED ME #TO NOT FALL IN LOVE #i havent had a crush in my entire life bro..not on a real person at least snd i just 🥺🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭 i want to LOVE like that so badly.... #thise is not faiiiirrrr i wanna hold a girl in my arms and be all cheesy n sappy and loveydovey with her aauaaa waaaaaaaa

[cody-gakpo-archive]

#im sorry hes so fucking idiotic man what the fuci #memphis depay

[jawd]

1 brain cell: anxiety attack mostly over wat u wana do

2nd brain cell: hill house

1st brain cell: fucking wack sis open up netflix

#and its gonna be fuciing episode 5 man like what the fuck #yall not helpful