#I can never see him again

[detentiontrack]

Something about having to go no contact with a parent that people don’t talk about is how with every life achievement, you think about what it would be like to tell them

#I just started a new job and all I’ve been thinking about lately is if my dad would be proud of me #I haven’t seen or spoken to him since 2019 #he has no clue what my life is like right now. he only knows the old childhood version of me #he will never be at my graduation or my wedding #he’ll never see me grow as a person and become an adult #and a part of me misses when things were different and we would spend time together #whenever I was sad or sick he would make me a grilled cheese and tomato soup and to this day I haven’t had a better grilled cheese #it would be dangerous to even reach out and talk to him #I can never see him again #he’s done so many things to hurt me and my family #but a part of me is still the same 10 year old that wanted her dad’s attention #whew sorry for being so personal on here #I just needed to get that out

[bangchansbackohmygod]

The f*cking death grip this post has on my uterus I swear.

The intensity. The commanding presence. Those HANDS.

I feel like I know what it’s like to be a field mouse spotted by a hawk you know?

#bang Chan #I’m dying #it’s not even a new post #it just controls my life #I hate him #I love him #I need him #I can never see him again

[max-fewtrell]

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#i think i know what bothered him the other night #but instead of talking to me he sent other people to deliver messages #and then made me drive halfway through the entire city to meet him just to stand me up #I’m still so fucking mad/disappointed #he didn’t even have the decency to tell me he’s not gonna come #he actually made me wait in the freezing cold for like 45 minutes lmao #i really wish i had stayed at home #been crying all day #i fucking hate that i like him #i will probably never get over this #🥲🥲🥲 #so much pain #sure i got a little pushy bc he wouldn’t give me a definite answer but i had the worst week ever and i was cold #so i get to be mad when he says he will be back to talk to me and then doesn’t show up and sends other people instead #and then seemingly tries to run from me for no reason at all while simultaneously telling me we would go out for a few drinks #i just don’t get it lmao #i can never see him again #rant over #sorry for whining #this is the only place i can actually vent #personal

[catmanbowser]

I CAN DRAW HIM. THIS OLD MAN YAOI. GOTHAM’S SILLY LITTLE DORITO,,,,,

#bruce wayne #dc #catman's art #see guys i CAN draw bruce wayne #<- is never going to draw him eithout a cowl ever again after today #i had a spur of old man yaoi in my head and i say hey lets fucking draw him #and i did #never again <3 #ok bye <3

[cherrirui-official]

I hope u guys don't mind me posting these au doodles while I work on things ahaha

I also gave JD slightly longer hair in these doodles as a funny haha but I don't think it's funny anymore he looks genuinely good with his hair like that ahahaha I hope you're not mad at me for changing his au design a bit

#first of all ahem DONT TAG THIS AS SHIP OR WHATEVER!!! ILL THROW ROCKS AT YOU!!!!! BITCH!!!!!!! #troIlcest (or whatever you call yourselves idk) DONT TOUCH my SHIT! Ty :] anyways... #For context I like to hc that when he was younger Bruce would always have JD brush his hair #and like... whenever lil Bruce was upset it would help calm him down i think ahhauysgjiodk do u guys see the vision?? #and since it's my au i can make reality whatever i want it to be sooooo :] #I like to imagine that it still helps Bruce calm down even tho they're older now.. Big bro brushing his lil bros hair to soothe him UUGH #Let JD be a good older brother pleeease #also gave JD flowers in his hair too bc he deserves them me thinks... Now him and Bruce are matching!!! #i dont have any specific flowers in mind for the ones in their hair i just picked a color for the flowers that looked pretty and ran with i #also saying it again i love love LOOOOVE the crayon tool in mspaint using it to make gradients is so!!!! UUUGHUHHH!!!! /pos #the pattern on JD's jacket fur will never be consistent shhhhh #trolls #trolls band together #john dory trolls #trolls john dory #bruce trolls #trolls bruce #beach bros au #cherris canvas #I made that last image btw #everytime i saw that screenshot of jd it made me think of the spongebob scene where its a pov of flats waking up #and the first thing he sees is spongebob waiting for him with flowers in his hand and smiling

[vaguely-concerned]

sometimes I think of all the on-the-surface warm, well-meaning but deeply ineffectual advice and attention john gives harrow through harrow the ninth (make some soup and get some sleep! get a hobby! don't be so hard on yourself! self care harrow! as long as I need take no actual responsibility in this relationship whatsoever I would have loved to be your dad!) set up against the stark truth that with his other hand he has been staging her attempted horrific murder again and again and again like a living nightmare on the logic that it will 'put her down or fix her'. and then I find that I wish there is a hell. a special hell where twitch streamers turned necromantic death emperors go

#the locked tomb #harrowhark nonagesimus #john gaius #harrow the ninth #this is why I don't buy john as misunderstood and initially well-meaning AT ALL #this is a pattern you see with him again and again and again -- right down to his interpersonal relationships #(and indeed it's in the more grounded interpersonal relationships you can most clearly see him as he is I think #the fantasy death empire of a thousand years doesn't register quite as viscerally because it's like. heightened; not quite real #but the emotional violence and manipulation that surrounds him? oh boy that is EXTREMELY real and scarily well-observed) #there's a premeditation to so much of what he does (contracts with planets that only end 'in the event of the emperor's death' anyone? #yeah john we get it you're hilarious and I wish you weren't) #the greatest trick john ever pulled was making anyone think he's just a lil guy. what does he know he's only god #when you first read the book the complete callousness of the other adults is so horrible that john seems like an oasis of care #(though you start to get this uneasy feeling when that care never seems to translate to like... relief or soothing or resolution) #and it makes it feel almost obscene when you find out what's actually going on #it's the mercy & augustine enabler hour but at least they're completely honest in their cruelty there #while john is -- well he sure is being john huh #this is just me being angry with him btw philosophically I don't think this is how the story will or should end #(with john slam dunked right into hell that is) #it's just... harrow is so vulnerable. and what he does to her is so insidious and fucked up #john is very deeply human. unfortunately the capacity to quite simply suck so much is deeply human too

[rowenas-megacoven]

Owen Wilson will never know just how much I love his little ordinary time-man character. In a cinematic universe of super geniuses and sorcerers and aliens and enhanced soldiers and thunder gods, all with crazy abilities, I love his littlest normal human analyst who started out solving time mysteries so, SO much, in my very heart, soul, bones. He’s just some guy but like… he’s NOT just some guy at the same time. Some of my MCU favourites I’ve had over a decade of getting to know them, yet here Mobius is, sitting comfy in one of my atriums like he’s always been there. He’s so soft and soothing and reasonable and safe. If I had to choose between travelling to all sorts of weird and wacky and wonderful places with the Gaurdians, maybe Thor, or sitting in a Burger King gossiping over a Whopper and a Slushie with Mobius, I’d absolutely choose Mobius. He just has this vibe. I totally get why Loki would sit eternally alone to let Mobius live freely. Just a lovely, stand-up lil fella. He is coded like a well-needed hug. Thinking of him right now.

#mobius is like ‘I can fix him’ but actually follows through #I saw a vid of him cracking the ‘That’s showbiz’ joke to Brad and it brought me to tears #then this #what if we never see him again #WHAT IF 😭 #I want more Möbius content #mobius mobius mobius #Möbius #owen wilson #Loki #loki series #Lokius #marvel cinematic universe #mcu #marvel #mwah.txt

[strawberrystepmom]

gojo telling any other sorcerer who is interested in you that they can just fight him for you if they want you so bad

like what are they gonna do??? fight him????

#based off of a dream I had about him saying that to kusakabe #poor guy was like ‘is kendy seeing anyone 👀’ and gojo grinned and was like ‘why? interested’ and he was like yeah kinda and gojo was like #okay meet me outside we can fight for her and kusakabe never spoke to me again #tfw ur bf is creepy #kendy says

[bakudekublogblog]

the way katsuki just IS izuku's first love drives me nutty. like he just had a big ole crush on him with his huge-ass heart eyes and he chased him around with maximum puppy-love smitten energy

#bkdk #bakudeku #izuku chasing after katsuki with the biggest wettest heartiest heart eyes ever and katsuki is like FUCKER IS LOOKING DOWN ON ME HOW DARE YO #like no bby so close he's down BAD for you i can see where there could be some confusion #it just drives me nutty!!! that's his pookie bear bitty baby boy #it just makes every other ship feel so irrelevant bc katsuki is izuku's first love and fiercest #like fr do we think izuku is getting over katsuki especially now #especially after all bakugou has done for him #how many times has bakugou saved him and in so many ways #my headcanon is that izuku's baby puppy love crush faded but never really died #it was always there #and then they're thrust into each other's lives and katsuki starts growing and training with him and izuku is like fuck fuck FUCK FUCK FUCK #and he just keeps falling for him over and over again #izuku sees him standing on the UA island and is like yeah ok i'm never getting over him he's it for me #he's always been it he's always been the one

[tomurakii]

I like bloodweave. Okay. But I DON'T like the version of them in fanfic where Astarion is a dick and Gale is like. Whining and pleading for him to be emotionally vulnerable (or just. Nice to him) prior to the relationship being established. Because that is just not accurate. Gale needs the player to express interest in him during his weave-teaching scene before he even considers hitting on them properly. Gale is entirely resigned to his fate and needs someone else to pull him away from it. Gale only starts being sweet and romantic and devoted after you accept his love confession and give him hope for the future. Gale says fuck all and then slinks away to cry privately if you break up with him.

Like he isn't chasing after people lmao. He isn't dropping to his knees and crying about anything much less this dickhead he met a week ago. He is overwhelmingly passive about literally everything personal to him up to and including his own death (provided there are no casualties/there is a good reason) until after the player expresses that they care about him. Astarion is not doing that in any of these fics.

Like Gale is friendly and a dork and doesn't wanna get murdered but he fully has a suicide plan. He thought the artefacts would help him survive but he didn't believe he'd ever truly live again. If Gale confessed and Astarion said/did like one (1) mean thing afterward Gale's romance is closed off forever. He's wandering into the forest to cry. He's killing himself immediately. His fragile ego and self worth can't take it. You have to understand that when we joke about him being pathetic it's not bc he's like. Sopping wet and chasing people down and begging for a scrap of attention. It's because he craves affection but would literally rather die than ask or even hope for it until someone else forces that hope back into his serotonin-deficient tadpole brain.

#i feel like u can tell when a bloodweave fic is written by an astarion stan vs a gale stan lol #because the astarion stans are just using gale as a vessel for like. their sopping wet meow meow #who screams and cries until astarion becomes emotionally vulnerable with them #which gale would not do. realistic bloodweave is astarion tries to fuck him in act 1 and he refuses because of the orb #and then astarion is like “boo what the fuck. change of plans” and gale is like “okay” and they never speak of it again lol #anyway #please god the gale characterisation in this place. half of you make him the soppiest most pathetic loser and the other half make him evil #he's not ACTUALLY a loser. when i joke about it the reason its funny is because its not true #hes just a regular guy with depression lol. hes not out here debasing himself begging for some old twink to care abt him #bg3 #gale dekarios #bloodweave #gale of waterdeep #does this make sense. i havent slept #i just mean that if you want gale to be sappy he needs to have like. prior assurance that his feelings are reciprocated #because if he doesnt have that and astarion is a dick to him he WILL just give up on the relationship #like hes not hunting people down after they deliberately upset him. i see so many fics where they create tension by lime #*like #having astarion openly fuck someone else after establishing a sort-of relationship with gale. for the drama #like hey. gale fully dumps you if you do that in game!! you have no way to convince him not to. he will dump astarion for that permanently

[mattodore]

somehow managed to make matthias look even more bitchy

#''river what happened to working on your werewolf oc? the one from yesterday?'' ……let's not discuss it i simply can't bear to talk about it #river dipping #matthias evanoff #echthroi #ts4 #ts4 edit #simblr #did not need to edit this but we'll never see him with this hair again so i figured. sure why not spend a little bit of time on this #this looks very similar to his hair from when he was a child..... he had swoopy bangs and a middle part back then #...............staring at him like this i kind of want to eat him #kjfgksjfg #the messier his hair is the more i'm like Oh? #like italicized /Oh?/ #….i have nothing else to say here like there was rlly no need for me to post this i just thought hm. he looks pretty <3 #i changed his jaw a bit and made his chin smaller… idk if it’s noticeable #theo is untouched (by the veronicas… classic) like i didn’t change his sim at all #…….can i be honest the reason why i abandoned ria’s sim is bc i realized fuck. i do NAWT have decent fem frame clothing #especially not for a butch lesbian sim like. why is everything a crop top…. #tbf tho. i’m not mad about getting to look at alessandria’s happy trail #.................deep sigh. but i'm gonna go back to it rn. #i think i'll just leave her outfits like they used to be for now even tho i don't really like what she's wearing

[paint-it-dead]

-"Start Here" by Caitlyn Siehl

#berserk #griffith #guts #griffguts #berserk manga #words #my posts #i have soooo many quotes that remind me of them that haunt me im going insane #i post more of them eventually #for now this is all the display of mental illness yall get #idk how to tag lol #guts berserk #griffith berserk #this very obviously is refering to how guts percieves griffith and the immediate change in his stance when he saw him again as the human #that he loved and cared for very deeply to the point that he forgot that this was actually “the monster” he had sought to kill all that time #im not at all implying anything abt griffith's nature changing #just about hoe you can never truly see someone as simply “monstruous” if you love them hard enough #how*** #SPELLING MISTAKES MY MORTAL ENEMY

[ja3honey]

Tw // talk about r*pe/SA and underage p*rn

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I'm sorry, but people who still like HyunA and support her decisions to date a disgusting man like him. Please block me.

I was devastated during the burning sun scandal because I was such a big fan of beasts, and he was my bias! Imagine finding out your bias is a creep that likes watching r*pe porn of minors. 💀 it broke me.

There is no middle ground here. Hyuna isn't "innocent" in this situation. If she is friends/dating a man who has admitted to watching illegally filmed videos of women(and children) being r*ped while dr*gged. And would joke and make comments about them say "its not a big deal." Then she is a horrible person for turning a blind eye. End of story.

Shes only a feminist when it suits her.

#hyuna #hyuna controversy #and to add as well. this is coming from someone that was a big fan of hyuna ive bought merch from her. this is so heart breaking #TW // SA #i could never understand how someone can look at sa and think its “not bad.” its an inexplainable thing and it haunts you #SA leaves trauma scars that cannot be fixed. #so again block me if you do not see a problem with him or her. #ja3honey #ja3honey posts

[iwasbored777]

You know what effs me up it's that when Gwen thought she's not welcome in her home before talking to her dad she takes the picture of her and Miles and leaves, as the only thing from her home that she wants to keep, and when she reunites with her dad and they're happy together the first thing she does is going to find Miles cuz she just doesn't feel complete if she doesn't have Miles no matter homeless or not or whether she has a device to travel through dimensions or not or happy or not she will keep any part of Miles that she has with her and that's what matters most to her.

It just makes the fact that she was cornered by her father who didn't let her move on after Peter and Miguel and Jessica who were forcing her to stay away from Miles even worse. And the fact that her dad knew she found happiness based on that photo had so much impact on his character development. She's a child who wanted nothing more than to be with her friend and that was the one thing that she wasn't allowed or wasn't able to do, some failed to see that, and those who saw that took advantage of not just her feelings but also her personal problems and demonized her for having any feelings and problems.

And it's so great that she has all her friends now, the real friends, who actually care about her.

#rewatching atsv and or gwiles scenes to keep me alive before i go to see barbie these days #gwen's character arc effs me up every time #and the fact that miles didn't know just how much he means to her #he didn't know half of it #spider man across the spider verse #across the spiderverse #gwen stacy #miles morales #spiderverse #no he didn't know any of this #he thought she doesn't want him #he can die or decide that he doesn't want to see her again he will never know #leave me alone #i forgot to tag #gwiles #ghostflower

[pineappical]

i love drawing ted smiling because i can just scrunch him up SO MUCH

#ted lasso #ted lasso fanart #I JUST!!! AHH!!!!! #its about his dimples. its about the way his face smushes and his cheeks puff out because of how big his smile is. its about #the way his stache curves upwards to follow the smile. the way i can draw more lines to his face AHH!! AAAAHHHH!!!!!!!!! #FEELING VERY NORMAL ABOUT HIM AGAIN!!!!!!!!! #pn.art #i have a folder on my phone where i save ted lasso images in and its. nearly at 700 pictures um. #praying my irls never goes back to check my tumblr account because theyll just see me going insane over the same middle aged white man agai #AGAIN*

[soup-child]

In the live action version of dndads I think scam likely would have a different actor every time just a true grab bag of anyone and everyone they can find

#like of course the first time you see him hes just glenn again but then hes benedict cumberbatch and then for the well actually fight hes #anthony burch but also i want him to be just some guy off the street whos never done a voice in their life as scam one time but also like #one time hes just brendan fraser or like actual real life glenn close #get just a full child in there one time like just find some middle schooler they can be scam likely #dndads #scam likely