#I despise first person

[em-prentiss]

Writing in 3rd person is so funny cause I’ll be writing normally in one person’s pov and then there’d be an interaction with another character and I’d randomly slide into their pov without even feeling it and then I’ll switch back to the first character like nothing happened…like babe stick to one, you can’t know both characters’ thoughts at once😭

#It’s still infinitely better than first person #I despise first person #I used to love it actually #but then at the ripe age of 12 I spent a whole summer reading mcu fics on ao3 #and my brain was permanently altered #I cringed when I read a book with first person lmfaoo #this was the beginning of my pretentious era #fanfic #writing #ao3 #em yaps

[zosanbrainrot]

part 2 of Zoro in WCI

01 02

I tried to write something to sum up my thoughts on this, but then it got longer and longer and tbh I'm itching to write a fic set in this AU djjdkf I think I could develop on their inner feelings more than in the comic form

Before posting the first part I didn't realize people had such strong opinions on how this would play out lmaooo

imo, of course Zoro wants to fight Sanji, not with actual intent to harm (they threaten each other on the daily, come on), but because that's how they are together, how they communicate. He respects Luffy's decisions and their goal here, which is to learn what's really going on with Sanji, but he's gonna be pissy about it all he wants. They both have so many intense and conflicted feelings about this and neither has any idea how to resolve them. So they fight.

ofc yall are free to headcanon this interaction any other way you want <333

#hope you can hear the moment Sanji's heart shatters #you're walking the painful path you chose and then even this stupid marimo instead of playing your usual game of threats and violence #instead of making this easier for you he pierces right through your heart with the tiniest confession #I never hated you #but even if he didn't use to #he sure as hell despises every inch of you now #he must he has to #but this is what you chose #it is what you deserve #ANGST #PAIN #wci zoro au #obvi if I were to write it wouldnt write first person this just got out of hand #i love angst can you tell #zosan #i love keeping them in the 'what if maybe no he would never' hell #roronoa “i love you but I will take these feelings with me to the grave” zoro #blackleg “I need you to hate me because I simply don't deserve to be loved” sanji #rorona zoro #black leg sanji #sanji #zoro #my art #whole cake arc #whole cake island #one piece #one piece fanart

[katierosefun]

pyramid game is such a perfect little drama for the sapphics because you've got a whole demented psychological thriller going on about high school girls creating a whole fake social class system that results because one bored little princess bitch thought it'd be funny, and you've got all these dynamics that can only be boiled down to some kind of love story because like. ye lim and eun jeong's dynamic? the princess idol and her athlete bodyguard. soo ji and ja eun's dynamic? the cold mastermind and the compassionate heart. even whatever da yeon and seol ha have got going on? typical hitter and loyal dog dynamic. the list can go on.

#caroline talks #pyramid game #like da yeon is an awful person but as soon as seol ha spoke up. like her first words were about how she hates ha rin #for having da yeon in the palm of her hand. like. okay. gay. #i also think a lot about ha rin and ja eun. like i despise ha rin so much but there's something distinctly gay about that behavior. #oh you see ja eun happy? you're obsessed that ja eun's happy? and now you want to ruin her for it? #i know that deeper down it's all a commentary about social class and how the uber wealthy and uber powerful will find new and creative ways #to screw over people who come from different socioeconomic backgrounds. because at the end it's really all about power #and how ha rin cannot fucking STAND not being seen as the silent ruler of the class #this got away from me. yes it's all about power. #it is also a bit about gay lust. it can be both <3

[charlieconwayy]

Top 50 OTPs of All Time ☆ #44. Naomi Campbell & Emily Fitch

"I’ve loved you since the first time I saw you. I think I was twelve. It took me three years to pluck up the courage to speak to you. And I was so scared about the way I felt, you know, loving a girl, so I learned how to become a sarcastic bitch to kind of feel normal. I screwed guys to make it go away, but it didn’t work. When we got together it scared the shit out of me. Because you were the one person who could ruin my life. I pushed you away. I made you think things were your fault. But really I was just terrified of pain. I screwed that girl, Sophia, to kind of spite you for having that hold on me, and I’m a total fucking coward because I got these… these tickets to Goa for us three months ago, but I, I couldn’t stand… I didn’t want to be a slave to the way I feel about you. Can you understand? You were trying to punish me back and it’s horrible. It’s so horrible, because really, I’d die for you. I love you. I love you so much it’s killing me."

#skinsedit #forbescaroline #naomi x emily #naomily #naomi campbell #emily fitch #50otps #gifs: skins #* #the first f/f ship i was ever super invested in (not counting minky bc it ended up being ultimate queerbait) #the lone skins fire gif bc i despise that season but i still love that quote #they were so good for each other #it's such a shame there was so much bs in 4 but it gave us that GOATed scene #so i can't rly complain #w all of the canon f/f ships on here they are here bc of how influential they were to me figuring myself out #“when i'm with you i feel like i'm a better person” is my own personal definition of true love #otp: i'd die for you

[dramarants]

i only want love triangles if it's whatever fucked up polygon junmo kicheol and euijeong have going on

#the worst of evil #ranting #idk how to articulate how juicy it is #junmo's fierce protectiveness of his wife - he trusts her but can't help his jealousy fear or frustration while trapped in the situation #euijeong hurting but putting her own life on the line worried for her husband while unpacking the memories of her first love #she can't help but sympathize with kicheol and what he's endured; haven't seen much of how she feels rn but it must be c o n f l i c t e d #(not necessarily even in a romantic way but wanting to root for a person chasing their goals who was once so important to you) #(all while grieving her mother without the support of her literal goddamn spouse by her side) #and kicheol. also grieving and trying to establish a place for himself and his crew yet drawn to junmo despite the red flags #his panic and desperation when jungmo bled out on him which must have triggered his own memories of losing taeho #junmo who has every reason to despise kicheol barely concealing his general rage but protects him like it's second nature at every turn #all while conflicted as a bystander to atrocities (and now willfully leaving another cop to die to protect himself his wife and the mission #getting mentally and physically pummeled left and right just bc his superiors demand it from him #all to please euijeong's family by using the promotions to prove himself and get rid of the stigma weighing him down #like !!! #and haven't even touched on kicheol wooing euijeong against his buddy's wishes and in such a pure heart fluttering way #accepting the risk for a second chance to bathe in the bright light she used to shine on his life #OMG AND BIBI'S ENTRANCE!! junmo realizing her interest gives him leverage and agency but struggling to use it to his advantage #it's soooo messy and i'm obsessed #that funeral arc is gonna haunt me for years #as is the tension during the pat down which def was supposed to be like a gang pride/dignity/lack of power against the jp folks thing #also testing their relationship and responsibilites as leader subordinate #but felt charged around whether kicheol would protest or junmo would accept the manhandling in totally different 👀 ways #goddamn i wrote an essay and this doesn't even scratch the surface of the meat of the show #tldr; i have many many feelings and for once the 'love triangle' isn't making me gauge out my own eyeballs #it's about power it's about raising the stakes and revealing things about the characters w/o dominating the plot

[peaches2217]

Everyone please drop words of endless praise and gratitude towards my gf in the replies, her attempts to troll me have led me to discovering my new favorite perfume and I once more owe her my life

#I've got so many samplers and she's been having fun choosing a new scent for me to try each day! but she also happens to be chaotic neutral #today's choice (cleopatra by tocca) had all the hallmarks of a scent that I would absolutely despise #musky (every musky perfume I've tried so far I've hated)! heavy grapefruit notes (I have a personal vendetta against grapefruit)! #I even brought a trusted backup to work expecting to wash today's choice off within the first hour #I'm. SERIOUSLY considering getting a full bottle. this shit smells delectable #the muskiness actually plays exceedingly well with the heavier notes of patchouli and blackcurrant #(and coincidentally every blackcurrant-adjacent perfume I've tried I've absolutely adored) #and the sweetness of the grapefruit is made lighter with potent but not overpowering green notes #and then the heart notes! juicy peach and gentle tuberose just - MMN #it smells like fresh-brewed green tea. I'm in tears I love it so much #which means she'll pull out all the stops trying to chose one I'll ACTUALLY hate for tomorrow. I love this woman #peaches screams into the void

[six-eared-gremlin-ao3]

...Okay, fine; here's my 'Sona-

The color of their clothes varies, but the leggings and cardigan stay. Their feet are meant to be more digitigrade- they remind me of a jerboa mouse.

They have Permanent UwU Face; their mouth is just shaped that way. They don't usually show their ears; they're usually hidden under his hair. If he shows his ears around you a lot then he trusts you. And yes, the ears are Pan colors-

Grem is almost always up to Shenanigans, or sitting and listening to his two favorite people hyperfixate on something. They like tea and flowers and rain and tackling people as a love language.

I do accept drawings and fanart and such; that's why his ref is unshaded.

#gremlin noises #gremlin color globs #'Sona #I- am- very nervous about showing Grem off #but this is the first 'sona attempt that I haven't truly despised #I love Grem; he wriggled his way into a form and went 'I live here now bish deal with it' #There was always a form for myself in my head but it was like... a shadow person #He finally took a form and here he is! #Plz be nice to us we are a Gentle Creature-

[ante--meridiem]

Well. Potentially inadvisable message I sent a few days ago not really expecting a reply to did, in fact, get a reply.

#personal #for those with enough knowledge of blog lore to know what I'm talking about here: #I caved and messaged First Ex/Former Closest Friend again #out of a mixture of the fact that I keep circling back to that friendship breakup on an approximately monthly basis that I knew #I'd never be able to really let it go unless I at least tried once #and the confidence from my knowledge of him that if our positions were reversed *he* would have tried #in any case. He's not sure if we'll succeed in being friends again but he *is* willing to talk #on the condition (which I offered in my initial message) of me not telling any of the people we mutually know #that he ended up having issues with #that we are speaking with #& there is (unsurprisingly since there was clearly a lot missing from the stories I'd gotten) more to said issues than I'd heard about #which it sounds like he's going to elaborate on when we talk #I think the biggest difficulty for me in re-establishing contact like this is going to be accepting that he and my mother #outright despise each other now #which. l mean - I'd never claim she's perfect #she can be very blunt in a way that comes off as just *mean* and hurtful and I've been hurt by that too #but she's also been a much better parent to me than most people's parents seem to be to them #it's possible maybe even likely that if some of our arguments when I was younger had ended in us cutting ties rather than #eventually talking it through that I would see her the same way Former Closest Friend does #but they didn't and she's been at certain points amazingly supportive since #so it's likely I'm going to have a hard time reconciling the version of her he's going to present to me with that #even though I'm totally open to believing that he's justified in how he feels about whatever happened #& I'm not going to be able to process it out loud irl bc that would violate the 'not telling people involved about this' clause #so there may be a lot of venty personal tumblr posts coming soon to a blog near you

[stilllivinginhalliwellmanor]

@maya-matlin @tkandbuck @brionysea @sulietsexual

@bellaaldamas

#charmed #season 1 #season 2 #season 3 #poll #prue halliwell #piper halliwell #phoebe halliwell #this is so hard for me #s3 has my favorite episode of the whole series and i looove my girl prue this season #and it has some lovely piper/leo moments too #but i personally don't like the effect that cole had on phoebe's character and the overall tone of the show #and i looove season 2's sisterly bonding and a lot of the standalone episodes #and s2 is probably phoebe's very best season #but i despise the love triangle and piper opening a nightclub is very meh for me #and in s1 i love the mystery/crime feel and seeing the sisters first come together and discover their powers #and i love quake and buckland for some reason :) #but it's a little clunky at points and random love interests almost every episode lol #polls

[antariqsh]

'ऐ खुदा! तू उसे हमसे मरहूम मत कर जिसके बिना हम रह नहीं पाएंगे, जिसके बिना हम जी नहीं पाएंगे | ऐ मालिक! दुनिया भर से हमने अपने जज़्बात छुपाए मगर तुझसे क्या छुपा है, मेरे मालिक | हम तेरे सामने अपना सिर झुकाते हैं, भीख माँगते हैं , तू उसकी जान बक्ष दे| हिंदुस्तान का शहंशाह दो जहां के शहंशाह से भीख मांग रहा है, इल्तिजा है हमारी |

तू रहमत वाला है रहमत कर, तू करीम है करम कर, तू सबसे ताकतवर है अपनी ताकत दिखा दे |

हम मर जायेंगे जी नहीं पाएंगे उसके बगैर |'

transliteration undercut

ae khuda! tu use humse marhoom mat kar, jiske bina hum reh nahi payenge, jiske bina hum jee nahi payenge. ae malik, duniya bhar se humne apne jazbaat chupaye hain, magar tujhse kya chhupa hai, mere malik. hum tere saamne apna sir jhukate hain bheekh mangte hain tu uski jaan baksh de.

hindustan ka shehenshaah, do jahaan ke shehenshaah se bheekh maangta hai, iltijah hai humari

tu rehmat wala hai rehmat kar, tu kareem hai, karam kar tu sabse takatwar hai, apni taakat dikhade,

hum mar jayenge jee nahi payenge uske bagair

#this scene is from jodha akbar (serial) when akbar prays for jodha's well being. the raw emotions in the scene are so so strong oh my god #i always go feral when someone prays for their loved one but espl when the other person is dying #and rajat tokas absolutely nailed this scene #although i absolutely despise the show for it's blatant glorification of misogyny and abuse. #but i view this segment as an isolated one and it has not left my mind since i first saw it 3 years ago. #ishq karun ya karun ibaadat #autopsy. #jodha akbar

[rainbowsandwhumperflies]

The Winged Servant - 2

cws: royal whump, winged whumpee, manipulation, threats of punishment, whumpee is super conditioned, female whumper, male whumpee, lmk if i missed any!

masterlist

I knocked on Her Majesty’s door and entered as soon as I heard “Come in,” careful not to let any of her food get out of place while I held the tray in one hand. Most of it wasn’t difficult, just the grapes—I’d only ever had problems with the grapes, because they were the only food item in Her Majesty’s breakfast that would roll around with any movement. Luckily, everything stayed in place as the tray passed from hand to hand as I closed the door softly behind me.

“You’re late.”

Fuck. Was I late? I hadn’t noticed, but the edges of my memory were fuzzy this morning, it was early, I-

I hadn’t bowed. That was something I was supposed to do every time I was in the presence of Her Majesty. I really was performing horribly this morning. I could fix this. I could fix this. I knew how to fix things like this. “My apologies, Your Majesty,” I told her, dropping to my knees and leaning forward. My wings were sore, but the sooner I perfected my behavior the sooner they would rest, so I pushed them forward and out until I could freeze in the picturesque bow that Her Majesty liked me to be in.

“Don’t mumble to me.”

“My apologies, Your Majesty,” I repeated, enunciating this time. She was right; it was disrespectful not to speak as clearly as possible to her. “I was awoken earlier than I’m used to, but I shouldn’t have taken so long to get here. It won’t happen again.”

“Christ, Onyx, now you’re trying to pin the blame of your incompetence on waking up early? That’s a pathetic excuse, and besides, you’re my servant. You’re supposed to be able to do the things I need you to. Do I need to remind you of that?”

I would not shake. I would not shake, it made me look pathetic and it would make her breakfast move around on the tray. She hated when it did that, and I didn’t think I could stand her being mad at me for another thing right now, no matter how deserved.

“I have places to be,” she told me as she pulled the tray of food out of my hands, and I released the breath I’d been holding. “Do not think that you’re off the hook for this morning, but I don’t have time for this right now. We'll revisit this tonight. Understand?”

I nodded, standing back up. Maybe if I did everything else right today I could get back in her good graces. I’d still have to be punished for being late, of course—that was deserved and I needed it to become better—but I still did hate it when Her Majesty was angry with me.

At least I managed to keep my mouth shut and keep myself from digging myself into deeper holes throughout the rest of the morning. My only job right now was to dress Her Majesty in the red dress that was currently laid on the bed. I breathed shallowly as I laced up the back, trying to keep my stomach from rumbling simply from the smell of her toast as she ate it. She didn’t usually finish the toast, and her scraps were mine as long as no one else walked in, but not if I couldn’t just be good for the rest of the morning.

“I have an important meeting today,” Her Majesty told me as I clasped her necklace from behind her. “You are not to interrupt under any circumstances, unless I call you. My career depends on this. Do you understand?”

“Yes, Your Majesty.”

She sighed again, turning around to face me. “You’re much more trouble than you’re worth, you know. You’re lucky I take care of you like this, especially on days like today where you barely have to do anything. Just your regular cleaning and cooking.”

“Yes, Your Majesty, I am lucky, I am very grateful, thank you.”

The ghost of a smile played out across her lips. “Good. You should be. Now start cleaning my room, and don’t leave my bed sheets all wrinkly like last time." She swept out of the room, and I was left alone again.

She’d left half of a piece of toast on the breakfast tray, along with almost all of her grapes. Our strawberry jam was running out, but the sugary-sweet taste alone made me practically melt into the floor while I ate the toast.

Her Majesty the queen was fully within her rights to eat every scrap of her breakfast, or to not finish it but not give the scraps to me. That would be fine of her, and I would still be grateful for everything she did for me. I understood that my place as a servant was permanently below her.

God, though. There wasn’t anything I wouldn’t do for a steady supply of the strawberry jam.

taglist: @kaleidoscope-of-thoughts (lmk if you'd like to be added/removed)

#this was so unnecessarily difficult to edit #i despise editing. but anyway #the winged servant #onyx tag #lucia tag #rainbow's whump #rainbow's ocs #royal whump #non human whumpee #onyx's wings actually do get mentioned here when he's bowing. i might draw something to convey what he looks like there. we'll see #whump #whump writing #female whumper #male whumpee #i was honestly gonna go with gentleman whumpee for a bit there to go with lady whumper because it'd be funny #but tbh onyx cannot be called a gentleman at this point in the story. he is a servant that's his only purpose in life haha :) #first person pov

[sskk-manifesto]

(´･ᴗ･ ` )

#I really like the “We're the bad guys' enemy” line. For someone I generally despise Dazai has all my favourite lines in this show… #Idk I can't really vibe with the unbalance that there is between s/kk. #Like when push comes to shove‚ Dazai has the power to keep Chuuya alive or let him die. #I understand why they make a compelling dynamic in their complexity‚ but it just doesn't do it for me. #I'm a little sad my opinion on them hasn't really changed since I watched the anime for the first time... #Also; I really can't vibe with Chuuya allowing Dazai to kill Q. Yes I know Chuuya cares about his comrades deeply. #Yes I know it can be interpreted as Chuuya seeing himself in Q as a living weapon and being disgusted by it #(though I honestly don't think that was intentional of the author). #Yes I know Chuuya is a mafioso and kills people. No I don't think your personal issues justify you being a dick to other people I'm sorry. #Back to my main annoyance with the episode: I must have already talked about this but I hate hate hate the narrative #“the mafia works for the city” “the mafia deeply loves the city too” it's so so sickening and insulting please stop I'm begging. #Please visit any actual city with a rooted mafia presence for once in your life (signed: someone whose hometown was destroyed by the mafia. #The writers really don't know what they're talking about and‚ politely‚ it's offensive.) #Also b/sd keeping being extremely nationalist with Mori (who's largely depicted unsimphatetically for the first part of the episode)– #bringing up western thinkers and subtly mocking Fukuzawa for not knowing them– #and Fukuzawa (the righteous man. the noble spirit and just soul in this episode and Mori's antithesis)– #stepping forward to say that he knows strategists from the east (because who else would he need?) #I don't know if it's meant to symbolize the conflict with an hostile and invading foreign power (the Guild). #But it does come across as. A very isolationist way of thinking. #I know it's subtle but it's really evident for me. And I didn't want to talk about this any further… #But by bringing actual examples of this I hope I can better explain why I think that b/sd holds nationalist views– #and that I'm not just making it up out of nowhere. Otherwise I fear I'd only come off as pettily hostile to b/sd in everything #That's it. I feel like I've been losing a lot of mutuals over my main recently due to not shutting up (sorry) #so I suppose it's only fair I lose them on here too pffttt. #Tune in next week for more bad takes #random rambles

[witchcraftingboop]

Me, sipping tea after texting my boss for a vacation to go see my dad: Damn.. he's taking a while

Boss, popping his head into my office: I didn't know you had parents!

#when I tell you I almost Choked #corporate shenanigans #I returned from vacation to ask for another vacation... god I love being me 💀 #first day in ofc this week and I'm already like hey... not gonna be here again bishesss #in his defense I refuse to talk about myself or my family here and I Despise small talk #he'll ask me what I did on the weekend and I'll flatout be like Breathe you? #Mans has 0 expectations when it comes to learning of my personal life or really anything not directly related to work #the one time I told him I have 3 grandmothers and 2 grandfathers his only response was a long blink and 'that's confusing' #and we haven't talked about familial shit since lmao

[foolishnpd]

i have been CONSISTENTLY posting on my art blog for YEARS and i'm not even a quarter as popular as some other artists' untagged first posts

at what fucking point does my effort make me worthwhile, what on earth am i doing wrong, don't I deserve more attention by now-?

"oh just post consistently and you'll eventually build an audience who loves you" how about you kill yourself <3 because clearly nobody likes my stupid art, they'd rather give their attention to those undeserving ungrateful artists instead

#lilyroaring #actually npd #actually narcissistic #narcissistic personality disorder #cluster b vent #vent post #art community #literally doesn't matter what platform i use #even if i suck up to the algorithms and post only my best #i get NOTHING #I'll always fucking despise other artists #uwu sorry if i'm not being a good sport about it #popularity isn't everything <3 #how about I just get what I'm owed by now instead -_- #I dump my efforts into the void and get nothing back #it's so easy for someone in that position to say it doesn't matter and you shouldn't want ti #but it really feels like my talents and effort just go unappreciated. not just in art. but in everything I do really #and after years and years of that. it fucking HURTS #thinking back. my first time considering suicide was because my art wasn't good enough #those people don't appreciate their privilege with thousands fawning over everything they make #while I pour my heart and soul into it only to want to off myself when I get nothing back over and over and over and over and over and

[justarabidlittleyingzhao]

Went on reddit last night, looked for LBFaD discussions.

I'm tired. I'm angry, but I'm also tired.

Gonna rant in tags.

#like okay a show is subjective #it can be hit and miss #i know this #and characters can be hit and miss #i also know this (very very well as the weirdo who thinks Yunzhong could have been a better emperor if he just got some) #(and Ronghao should have got grief counselling because then almost all the bad stuff would *never* have happened) #but if i see one more criticism of Yu Shuxin i'm gonna scream #she's playing a character #she's an actress #they're ALL actors #they're ALL playing characters #why were there so many people conflating the two #and then there were the really nasty personal insults of some of the actors that i read with my own two eyeballs #everyone has their favourites but to go out in public and insult - not just the characters - but the actors playing them??? #why are people like that #was it too much to expect intelligent discussion #i mean objectively i can make myself see some of the points made #but i got real tired real quick of reading the same things over and over #i don't know if the rejection of Orchid is cultural or if we've just been conditioned to 'despise' certain portrayals of femininity? #when i first watched LBFaD i was SO into it #but then i think i implicitly understood what the dynamics between Orchid and DFQC were supposed to be and i absolutely loved them #to me they were the embodiment of persephone and hades #and the development of Orchid's relationship with DFQC is exactly everything i ever headcanoned that particular greek myth would be like #in the end these are actors who took risks and made decisions with their director about how to perform their characters #and i appreciate the risks they took because they would have *known* these were Risks in terms of audience reception #anyway #after emerging from reddit feeling sadder #angrier #and like i needed a bath to wash it all off #i'm reminded once more why i *do* prefer this hellsite better than others

[aq2003]

series 3 is so frustrating because there is like a shining core of pure diamond underneath the problems . like conceptually it rocks so incredibly hard. but the problems

#dr who #i am being so honest when i say ten should have gotten on his knees and begged for simm!master's life #they should have framed the bit between him and martha's mom so different #like yes it is 10000% in character that the doctor with his bleeding heart and loneliness wouldn't want to kill him #even after everything that happened. because he's the only person he has left. 'i forgive you' was PERFECT. #but literally anyone else that suffered from what the master did. Deserves to rip him to shreds. so very obviously #and like i know.i KNOW that i am watching the 'funny immortal alien saves people through time and space' show #but i actually despise the doctor being framed as like an all powerful savior. or treated like one. even for a little bit. is Annoying #the first part of the series 3 finale having martha be humanity's last hope was SO GOOD bc it like kind of set her up as like #having to grapple with all that responsibility and attention like the doctor does. everyone's lives are in her hands. so crunchy #but when it like slides into 'everyone pls believe in our specialest boy in the world The Doctor <3' it just. falls flat #i feel like with a couple tweaks here and there in the execution and like actual fuckinnn people of color in the writer's room #series 3 would be PEAK media. but as it is it's just. falling short. #i do really appreciate martha deciding to leave ten on her own though. first of all. qpp down. second of all #she's realized that she can't keep traveling with him. bc (as i mentioned) hes someone who simultaneously needs saving #and refuses to be saved in the ways that matter. Yes im fucking ignoring the unrequited romance angle i think #it does a gigantic disservice to martha's character if u boil her down to that. fight me i dont care if that was the authorial intent #martha in the end is too kind to ten and ten keeps making her watch his meandering path of self destruction. toxic doomed qprism to ME. #anyway fuck. idk man series 2 consensus was that im dead inside and series 3 consensus is that the version i have of it in my head is peak #series 2 is better but i think because of my ten martha insanity i actually enjoyed watching series 3 more than series 2. #even if i got mad at it more than any other season. i think something is wrong with me. um. lmao #ten and martha #10 era