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azspicegirlstimeline · 9 months

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some album covers i made for itunes spice fans. for touch i added on to richard blower (the original photographer's) purple edit with the girls names. inspired by @thespiceworld's wonderful hq album covers. rest of the pics sourced from spiceverse sosugary. free to use just dont repost without credit!

#c. u. next tuesday #touch #touch era #is this love?#is this love #do you think about me #do you think about me?#melanie c #victoria #victoria adams #spice girls #1995 #1996 #myedit #i don't wanna be #i dont wannabe #i dont wanna be #spice girls touch #feed your love

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pyropansy · 2 years

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Had to leave work early today because I'm so nauseated I can't stand it. I was really sick yesterday but thought it was just from my migraine, now I'm worried I'm ACTUALLY sick.

#i don't wanna be #i have a lot to do this week!

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ladyshinga · 3 months

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Watching how two dogs who love each other will sometimes still nip each other on the ear, bug them while they sleep, etc... watching how cats will snuggle with their buddy all day and then paw-smack 'em in the face, chase them, play-fight...

Makes me, as a fellow social mammal, feel better about my urge to be incredibly annoying to another human sometimes. Like, yeah. Of course I wanna bug you. Of course it's fun to annoy you. We're social creatures and annoyance can be part of play, something we all need. And I watch these dogs who get their ears nipped, cats who get smacked out of a nap, and despite BEING annoyed, they don't stop loving their packmate. After they finish play-fighting, they're back to snuggling and grooming and sleeping together. BEING annoyed is also just part of being in a social group and having relationships... and that's okay. It doesn't erase love or necessarily make them mad or affect them in the long term... a loved one being annoyed with me is a temporary feeling that's normal for social creatures. An annoyance that wouldn't be possible WITHOUT that love

#and much like dogs and cats #we have ways of saying 'not right now i don't wanna play grr get away for real'#which is when the deescalation kicks in

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willowsfanarts · 2 months

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just a state of mind - latest artwork

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inkskinned · 7 months

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what is with men being mad any time a woman raises her voice where did that even come from. someone posted a video of a small electrical explosion, and the top comment was of course the woman screams. the second comment is women try not to scream challenge, level impossible. i had to go back and watch the video again. there is, somewhat fainty, a little gasp emitted off-camera, more of a yelp than a scream. it is mostly lost in the crack of the explosion. afterwards, you hear her voice, shaken, say, are you okay?

i am helping one of my friends train her voice pitch lower, because she wants to be taken seriously at work. she and i do each other's nails and talk about gender roles; and how - due to our appearance - neither of us have ever been able to be "hysterical" in public. we both appear young and sweet and feminine. she is cisgender, and cannot use her natural voice in her profession because people keep saying she appears to be "vapid". we both try to figure out if our purposeful voice lowering is technically sexist. is it promoting something when you are a victim to it?

a storm almost sends a pole through a car window. in the dashcam, you can hear the woman passenger say her partner's name twice, crying out in alarm. she sounds terrified. in the comments, she is lambasted for her lack of calm. how is that even fucking helping?

in high school, i taught myself to have a lower voice. i had been recorded when i was genuinely (and righteously) upset; and i hated how my voice sounded on the phone speakers when it was played back. i was defending my mom, and my voice cracked with emotion. it meant i was no longer winning the argument: i was just shrieking about it.

girls meet each other after a long summer and let out a little joyful scream. this usually stops around 12-14, because people will not tolerate this display of affection (as it has the effect of being passingly annoying). something about the fact that little girls can't ever even be annoying. we are trained to examine each part of our lives (even joy) for anything that could make us upsetting and disgusting. they act like teenage girls are breaking into houses and shrieking you awake at 3 in the morning. speaking as a public school educator: trust me, it's not that bad, you can just roll your eyes and move on. it does not compare to the ways boys end up being annoying: slurs in graffiti, purposefully mocking your body, following you after you said no. you know, just boy things.

there's another video of a man who is not allowed to yell in the house, so he snaps his fingers when he's excited about soccer. the comments are full of angry men, talking about how their brother is unfairly caged. let him express himself and this is terrible to do to someone. eventually the couple has to address it in a second video: they are married with a newborn baby. he was trying not to wake the infant up. there is no comment on the fact women are not allowed to yell indoors. or the fact that it could have been really alarming or triggering for his wife. sometimes i wonder if straight men even like women, if they even enjoy being in relationships with them.

for the longest time, i hated roller coasters because it always felt inappropriate and uncomfortable for me to scream. one of my friends called me on it, said it was unusual i'm so unwilling. i had to go to my therapist about it. i don't like to scream because i was not raised in a safe situation, and raising my voice would have brought unsafe attention towards me. even when i am supposed to scream, it feels shameful, guilty. i was not treated kindly, so i lack a basic form of self-protection. this is not a natural response. it is not good that in a situation of high adrenaline - i shut up about it.

something very bad is happening, i think. in between all the beauty standards and the stuff i've already discussed - this one feels new and cruel in a way i can't quite express. yes, it's scary and silencing. but there's something about how direct it is - that so many men agree with the sentiment that women should never yell, even in an emergency - it feels different.

is the word shriek gendered automatically? how about shrill or screech? in self defense class, one of the first things they tell you is to yell, as loud and as shrilly as you can. they say it will feel rude. most women will not do this. you need to practice overcoming the social pressure and just scream.

most women do not cry out, even when it's bad. we do not report it. we walk faster. we do not make a scene. what would be the point of doing anything else? no matter what we do, we don't get taken seriously. it is a joke to them. an instagram caption punchline. we have to present ourselves as silent, beautiful, captivating - "valuable."

a woman is outside watching her kids when someone throws a firecracker at them. she screams and runs towards her children. in the comments, grown men flock together in the thousands: god. women are so annoying.

#warm up #writeblr #this one has bothered me for a bit #any time a woman does something even passingly annoying we treat it like a fucking crime #hey man. women are allowed to be annoying. everyone forever is allowed to be passingly annoying #as long as they aren't hurting anyone/thing #like u wanna know something? i find it super annoying that men don't wear seatbelts #why arent there thousands of comments on driving videos thats just like : men try not to die in a car crash challenge #''this briefly annoyed me''. okay??????? AND????????????????? go get ur self a cookie and calm down about it #ur not entitled to control other ppl's experiences and emotions just so u can maintain ur own peace #if being briefly annoyed ruins ur whole day! you! need! therapy!!!!#men try not to become immediately angry about nothing challenge: level impossible #ps author is nonbinary. we didn't even get into the gender presentation thing #the fact men think it's SEXY that my voice is on the lower end....

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brilokuloj · 4 months

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recreation of a dream I had where my friend sent me this video and then apologized for not watching it first because it "wasn't funny"

#thomastheplankengine #thomas the plank engine #196 #sorry for the lame tags i just want it to find its audience and i don't wanna post on reddit!!!

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switchthedragon · 3 months

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Fuck it

If this post gets 30k notes I'll ask to go see a therapist.

#switch the dragon #switchthedragon #switch rambles #the number is high for a reason #I don't wanna ask lol #but whatever you guys can convince me if you want #I've never been to therapy #i take pride in that fact

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thottybrucewayne · 5 months

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I don't think people realize that critiquing the media you enjoy is fun too.

#thotty speaks #I don't wanna turn my brain off I wanna do close readings and analysis and see the seams of this piece and discuss it at length

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mermaidstede · 7 months

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Nathan breaking after getting slapped in the face by a sammy.

#shoutout to bee for noticing it first... i was NOT breathing throughout these eps lol #ofmd #our flag means death #ofmd gif #ofmd edit #my gifs #wanna make more but my computer is at it's limit tonight and i don't feel good :(#*#ofmd s2 spoilers

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ayo-edebiri · 3 months

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It's happening

#charles iii #i don't wanna think about his prostte

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excali8ur · 7 months

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When you meet your past lives but they're all ignoring you and freaking out over this one guy?

I've seen a few versions of this floating around with the different Leos and I wanted to have a go at doing one for Mikey. They're all collectively realising what a bus sized bullet they dodged by not ending up as messed up as Ronin

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pansexualnoodle5 · 1 year

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#I DON'T WANNA SAY GOODBYE #the owl house spoilers #the owl house #toh spoilers #luz noceda #camila noceda #hunter noceda #vee noceda #amity blight #eda clawthorne #lillith clawthorne #king clawthorne #willow park #gus porter #raine whispers #dana terrace #watching and dreaming

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10969mfs-sinro · 7 months

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I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be you

I don't wanna be mistaken for you

#my first story #maifasu #i don't wanna be #lyrics #spotify #song of the day #jrock

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salamispots · 8 months

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dream wip

#wip #artists on tumblr #flotsam diaries #arrhghhgg happy I got the textures I was aiming for #I was gonna go sleep but eve's song kororon really got me :'D #cough you can see the full image on uh instagram story if you don't wanna wait haha #technically this one's not a wip but wanna draw some others/make it a set #might tweak the octo though #anyways nOW I will sleep #muffled laugh #edit: oh!! thank for you radar tumblr staff :0 #but also radar putting my post tag ramblings on bLAST LMAO

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layzeal · 6 months

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ok I'm curious so put in the tags what country you are from and whether or not you own/use a rice cooker

#i'm brazilian and yes!!#tho only now bc my roommate brought hers #back at my parents house we still ate rice everyday but NO RICE COOKER #now that i now the wonder of rice cooker i made them buy one #you just can't go back to the darkness of babysitting rice on the stovetop #edit: almost wanna add a ''and how much do they cost'' cause they're crazy cheap here #and i kinda assumed they'd be everywhere else #but in countries that don't eat a lot of rice i can see them being more expensive

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apollos-olives · 4 months

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honestly if you don't outwardly show support for palestine, i'm automatically assuming you're a zionist. no one has an excuse about being uneducated anymore. everyone who does not support us, either out of ignorance or genuine malice, is complicit in our genocide and i do not trust them at all. if you have not spoken out about what is happening, you are not, and were never, our ally.

#i don't wanna say “zionist until proven otherwise” but it genuinely is basically to that point #im sick and tired of people using the excuse that “it's complicated” because it's genuinely not #and they're willfully contributing to our genocide by staying ignorant #i'm sick of this and i'm going to refuse to respect ANYONE unless they outwardly show their support for palestine #palestine #free palestine

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