#I just want to do this with you ya know

[anneapocalypse]

So, just curious how many writers and creators will have to be forcibly outed by relentless harassment before we acknowledge that "This queer characters was written by a cishet person and that's why they're bad" is not good criticism.

#yes i'm just going to come out and say it i'm talking about sera #not exclusively but i am talking about her #'but her writer actually iS A--' you don't know that! it doesn't matter! and i don't care! #just say that you do not like the character. #people will reblog posts about the latest actor or YA author or whatever getting forced out of the closet and be like #'wow. :( that's terrible.' #and then GO RIGHT BACK TO DOING IT #when are we going to learn #when are we going to stop doing this BEFORE somebody is forcibly outed #because in practical terms #that means you have to be okay with queer characters being written by straight people. #you have to stop weaponizing that against writers you don't like. #you have to be willing to critique the writing on its own merits #without using the writer's (assumed) identity to prop up your arguments #that's how it works #but who wants to actually change the way they talk about media #when tearing apart people's identities for clout is far more entertaining. #gwaren exports #fandom problems #fandom critical

[anonymouspuzzler]

i keep gol dang forgetting to make updates about Things

whoopsie!! hello!! you may remember me, from Internet! I've been very busy lately, with things that Aren't Internet! it's probably gonna be another 2-ish weeks or more (depending on how good or bad my finals prep type stuff goes) before I'm back on here streaming and drawing in full force! this is a little bit sad for me because I both miss my friends and streaming with 'em, and because Haha Uh Oh That's One Income Source Down!! but, I will return...

more specific details if you're interested!

if you currently have an in-progress commission with me, I'm working on them whenever time allows! I hope to finish them soon! If you submitted an interest form (which you can do here!) or otherwise talked to me about a commission, I'll be getting back to you as soon as my schedule opens up!

Jay, the hero of my life, has been uploading things on my VODs channel! (everybody say thank you Jay RIGHT NOW.) You can go watch a lot of my cool old streams there, including a bunch of the Luigi's Mansion and PMD vods, some cool one-offs like Smile for Me and Making Guys In Spore, and perhaps most importantly of all, Putt Putt Stream

If you like what I do and have the means to help to support me Not Going Into Even More Debt while I'm not streaming, you can drop me a couple bucks on ko-fi (if you pay $9 or more and leave a request in the comment I'll do a rough ink drawing for you as thanks!) or contribute to various home goods & niceries on my throne! Never required, never mandatory, always appreciated!!

a few Big Things I've been working on to come in the next couple months. please stay tuned :)

#anonymous puzzler talks #just figured I should make this info Outright ya know! I think I've talked about it in various places but always good to have it in one! #i can't emphasize enough! money is never a requirement! i know how it be on this Bitch Of An Earth! take care yourself first!! #but- if you do have the means and want to toss some bucks my way- wow! always appreciated!! #you are directly feeding me and my kitty by doing this!!!!

[gardenofnoah]

cw: implied sexual trauma, panic attack, intimacy struggles

You don’t notice it happening until it’s buzzing under your skin. Loud and unavoidable, the only thing you can pay attention to is the irregular flutter of your heart and the way it seems that all the air has been vacuumed from the room—

“Hey.”

You blink, and Katsuki is no longer above you. He’s not touching you at all—you turn your head to find him next to you, propped up on an elbow and only worried.

“Too much?”

The panic flares at the question, because what if this is the last time? What if he’s tired of this?

Your exhale is shaky—your laugh is forced and sounds out of place. “No, it was fine, I just—“

“Oi—“ he says, gently, “tell me the truth.”

The truth burns your eyes and keeps them on the ceiling, away from his. You nod, helpless and resigned to whatever comes next.

“What’s goin’ on in your head?”

You feel the tears spill over before you can catch them. You swipe them away with the back of your wrist. It’s still numb. “I’m just sorry. I didn’t mean to ruin it.”

He grunts a little in acknowledgment—a displeased, ugly sound—and then there’s movement that finally draws your eyes to him. You watch him cover himself with your duvet—all the way up to his chin.

“S’it okay if I hold you?”

He reaches for you and you let him pull you in. His hands stay above your shoulders and pointedly avoid your neck—cradling your head, letting you hide in the curve of his throat. His pulse is steady and constant against your forehead—or you imagine it would be, if it wasn’t muted by the fabric.

“Nothin’ is ruined,” he murmurs against your hairline, “s’my job to keep you safe.”

Your chest shudders against the cushion of the blanket and you feel a little guilty about crying all over it but Katsuki keeps you there, tethered to him. The ringing in your ears subsides, just a little. Just enough to hear the panic in your own voice.

“I promise I want it. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I’m sorry—“

“Hey, hey,” he shushes you, careful not to tighten his arms around your shoulders. “Nothin’ to be sorry for. S’too much today—that’s all.”

It’s quiet, then, save for your sniffling. He keeps his mouth pressed to your hair, and his arms wrapped around you. There is a noticeable absence of his fingertips tracing along your skin—you don’t feel them there at all, and it’s on purpose. He’s considerate and it makes you anxious.

“Can hear you thinkin’.”

“I just—“ you inhale, trying to be brave, “I don’t want you to leave. I know I can’t—give you this—“

“Oi,” he gruffs, a little sharply, “I don’t give a shit about that. M’not a barbarian.”

You feel the expansion of his lungs as he draws in a slow exhale, and lets it out against the crown of your head. “Don’t think so little of me,” he murmurs, tone laced with hurt.

“You’re right,” you whisper, because he is, “I love you.”

“Love you.” He kisses it into your skin, soft and barely there. “Always will.”

#i have beat this horse to hell but I really do love writing about struggles with intimacy #because ~i~ struggle with intimacy and I write for me ya know #but idk i think it would be hard for him!! he just wants to care for me and keep me safe and i have a tendency to self sabatoge. #if you can believe that. #he just wants to help and he knows that what happened before him is not his fault of course. but it upsets him when I project onto him #which is like. a very human thing? #i have been thinking about that post from the other day a lot about believing the people that love you #bakugou katsuki x reader #bakugou hurt comfort #bakugou comfort #bakugou fic #mha fic #bkg it’s the little things

[twisting-in-wonderland]

Ace has a front row seat to the soon-to-be greatest event in NRC history-

based on this pic--

the energy this exudes will always crack me up-

heres a wip btw >_>

fun fact! originally grim was gonna be O_O at Jamil too, but then i remembered that grim doesnt have an ounce of awareness in him rip

#twst #twisted wonderland #art #ram's art #azul ashengrotto #jamil viper #ace trappola #deuce spade #twst grim #uhhhh yea this is like. messy and stuff #i just wanted to break my art block that ive been stuck in for over a month with a joke lol #can you tell that i drew azul in the first pic without a reference---- i hope not lol??-------- #i /was/ gonna do the bg as the scarabia dorm - like they all got invited to a meal or something but i needed to finsih this man -- #-its been a wip for a literal month p l s #also- shout out to the cherry pie and table that were gonna have more stuff done to them but sai straight up said 'no more layers allowed:] #anyways rip azul - nice knowing ya

[napping-sapphic]

NEED someone to let me pull them close and spend hours telling them all the things I love about them

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #sometimes my brain just NEEDS to compliment ya know #like i have all these thoughts about people #and how much i love little things they do #and!! i want to say it all!!! #but sometimes that’s weird!! so you can’t!!! #and it’s like ughhhh just let me be affectionate with you PLEASEEE #im gay and i like sleeping

[sketchy-tour]

A wilting flower is not always beyond healing. It'll just take time.

#a small doodle! Just a little one! Wanted to draw but also didnt want to draw but also needed to draw #you know? idk if that makes any sense #dont mind me- #if anyone is worried I am okay please dont take this as some big vent or anything! #just art I needed to get out of my head. Ya kno??? nothin crazy!!! #anyway anyway im gonna go play a game or something!!! Drink water. Eat a snack! Sit down in some quiet for a moment #Yall should do that too! You! Drink water! Eat something! Sit and be calm for a moment. #welcome home oc #dandy leon #I always feel bad tagging my art of dandy alone with the welcome home tags??? uh- #my art #sketches

[eatingsomegreeneggos]

I cannot wait for Wish to come out this year! Some crossover art with the original wish lady because we love pretty tall women ✨️💙

#dont mind me casually making crossover shipart like 5 months before the movie comes out sshh #I take pride in providing yall femslash content!! <333 #also yes I DID make the blue fairy taller/bigger than shes supposed to be what are you gonna do about it 😌 #anyways Im so not normal over the blue fairy like aaaaaa I looove her 🥺💗 #and the new princess she seems so cute!!! so so cute!!! I want to learn more about her!! #Asha #disney asha #the blue fairy #pinnocchio #wish #disney wish #wish 2023 #fanart #my art #femslash #disney femslash #asha x blue fairy #I hope this doesnt age terribly well see haha! #also just saying this was intended as ship art like ya know just a lil crack ship for fun #but also of course the work isnt that romantic so if you dont like the pairing like thats fine you can just consider it a cute crossover! #because honestly thats really just it

[identifying-cars-in-posts]

now that you can reply to posts with a side blog without reblogging i think i’m gonna start doing that for the plethora of posts i get tagged in where i’m being asked to confirm that a car is what a post already says it is. no fun to put an id on a post that already has the answer. idk what do y’all think

#not a car id #idk i like just got tagged in one where it was a drawing of a car and they said what car it was and ppl reblogged it asking me to confirm #and like. that’s fine but what do you want me to do with that #it happens very frequently and i’ve humored some in the past but i feel like it misses the point ya know? #on that one i just got tagged in i just replied to the post with ‘yes it is’ lmao

[xenomorphicdna]

On the string propaganda

Heeellll yeah

Bestie is an entire PLACE

I look at those guys and let me tell you the soul of that thing ain't just in the puppet, it's in all the neurons carrying the thoughts and emotions, it's in the power rails that serve as the heart. All the memories in the memory conflux and all the numbers we see flicker across displays, the flux condensers, the puppet; a little avatar.

No way these massive machines see life the same way we do. They have their own experiences and senses and things they hold dear. A world we can't imagine, a way of living we couldn't even comprehend.

I could never tear an iterator apart to be just a puppet. Who am I to decide how's life supposed to be enjoyed or perceived?

You treat your creechurs however you want- I ain't gonna dictate that. But damn, hearing the thrums and buzzes of the linear systems rail? They are alive with so much power, these mechanical beasts are exactly what they should be.

#sorry im just a really passionate on the string believer #you cant tell me that these massive structures kilometers wide capable of things we cant even image would look at something thats #thats comparable to a speck of dust and be like #yes i would like to rid myself of practically my entire body to be that tiny #this aint no “if i were a supercomputer i'd be sad i couldnt see the sky like i do now” #thats only because you have something to compare it to #if i were to suddenly loose everything to be just some microscopic creature i'd be miserable but only because i know what im loosing #id be loosing the ability to think like i do now id be loosing the ability to enjoy the things i do now #i dont know what life is like as a microscopic creature but i wouldnt be willing to give up my life as i know it now #and i think with iterators are the same #just how different is their life from ours and what things can they see that we are missing out on? #give up everything comfortable and known and for what?? #to feel the sun? they absolutely have various temperature sensors #see the sky? those overseers were made to see things those visuals are in 4k #other animal comforts?? what about computer comforts?? #what makes a lil creature happy may not necessary make a massive supercomputer happy #sorry big rant in the tags um just wanna say this is no hate to anyone who wants their creatures off the string #these are fictional beings and you do whatever makes you happy take them off the string set them loose yess enjoy little robots running #around be happy i love reading ya alls off the string shenanigans #rain world #iterator #drawins #oc veil of dreams #rw talk #rain world oc #iterator oc

[aroaessidhe]

2023 reads

The Spider And Her Demons

YA Australian urban fantasy/horror

about a Malaysian-Chinese girl who’s half spider-demon, just trying to keep her head down and survive high school

when she accidentally kills and eats a man in front of the most popular girl at school, they strike up a strange friendship and she starts to learn more about herself and the supernatural world

aroacespec/sapphic ish

#The Spider And Her Demons #Sydney Khoo #loveozya #aroaessidhe 2023 reads #you give me a teenage girl with giant hair spider legs who scuttles across her bedroom wall on page 3 #and then eats a man and i am already sold. #also aus books are always so familiar compared to US books :) #and yes sexuality stuff is ambiguous but basically: a bunch of discussion on relationship hierachies (ie friendship equally/more important) #themes of feeling unlovable bc you're different and different forms of love #multiple times the MC says she has no interest in dating or relationships and also is touch (and maybe sex) repulsed #- but of course that Also has to do with the whole Being A Monster thing #and it definitely shows some kind of attraction to dior - ie looking at her lips/bare skin; blushing; etc #and ends on sort of hand kiss / 'is this something??' vibes #I asked the author and they said they see them as QPR / platonic soulmates but are not at the point where they would know what to call it #which makes total sense to me! #the part of me who wants more obvious aroace YA wishes it was a little more specific #but also I DO love ambiguity and I think it wouldn't be true to the characters #who are clearly not even ready to start figuring that stuff out. #and also. aroacespec sapphics is like. also something i want #also like. I think it's reductive to assume just because 'looks at lips' is a common allo attraction trope....doesn't necessarily mean #it has to be that. yknow. #anyway. i loved it a lot. #gross spidergirl (affectionate)...... #also dior is such an interesting and complex character. like another book could have made her nicer or less fucked up

[kaidanalenkosprmanager]

THE VIRMIRE SURVIVOR SURVIVORS

Spectre Ashley Williams & Spectre Kaidan Alenko "Not a lot of other people have had my back since the beginning..." Mass Effect: Legendary Edition (2021)

#mira makes gifs ✨ #kaidan alenko #ashley williams #mass effect #mass effect legendary edition #dailygaming #this set has literally been cooking in my project files since before i started priority: mars and i finally figured out how to edit it!! 🥹 #i swear i think i had at least 8-9 different drafts trying to figure out how to organize the video in the frames #i hated like every draft i had bc none of it looked like the picture i had in my head and my original plan was just not gonna work lol #but ya know if bioware and EA won't give my faves any content then i'll do it myself! #and they can tell me only one survives virmire as many times as they want and i will continue to ✨not listen✨ #no one could ever make me choose between them #kaidan alenko and ashley williams you are EVERYTHING #they could NEVER make me hate you #if the world is against y'all then i am against the world

[moeblob]

I am really tired of a situation rn.

#fe three houses #felix hugo fraldarius #me using felix on my angy days because he is my angersona? you bet! #anyway if you want to try to get someones money or something bc you hurt your own car banging into mine #can you try to be a bit more timely with it buddy come on you hit me on feb29 ! #why am i getting your insurance company calling me today ! #also i would like to point out i didnt do it and neither of us were hurt and i filed a claim with my own insurance comp #and also filed a police report bc he didnt even suggest calling the cops to the scene #so like yeah hey man maybe you and your insurance company can move a lil faster or smth #literally everything that happened the day of is - according to my dad - an intimidation tactic #i look like im 15 and he probably thinks he can take advantage of a new driver but ya know! tough luck! #im just really tired and stressed over multiple things not negative so getting this on top of it was like #bro .................... anyway my phone didnt pick up for some reason so i called back and then nothing got resolved #cause the person who actually called me wasnt around to connect the line to from the guy who answered #idk man just its a lot despite my v minimal energy #got a job interview on monday tho ! and then also next week is an eye exam #and you might be thinking isnt that a good thing to get your eyes checked? you are correct but i am horrified #there are two body parts that give me absolute anxiety and eyes are one of them #and i know my eye sight is declining and im just v anxious #its fine im going to be fine i just have to be anxious about it

[just-a-creep-babe]

Taking A Break!

Hey y’all!!

Unfortunately, as I’ve mentioned, I’ve had little to no time to write between school & work & everything, and recently I’ve been getting sick (likely because of stress) and!! I’m worried I’m going to burn out if I keep this up :<

So! I’m going to be taking a break until at least January, and maybe even a tad longer after that. I might stick around to answer some asks here & there, but I don’t think I’m going to be as active as usual

As for the commission queue, the order of the wait list is going to stay the same, and if, throughout my break, you become interested in a commission, you can still message me and I’ll add you to the wait list ^^

I think that’s all I wanted to say for now—thank you all so so much for always being so supportive & interactive ❤️❤️ I appreciate all of the asks, tags, reblogs & messages so much, it always keeps me going ^^

I hope everyone has a fun, safe & happy Halloween & holiday season—and I’ll see you in the new year!! ✨❤️❤️✨

#i loveeeeee yall #🥺🥺🥺❤️❤️❤️ #also hoping to do some patreon stuff during my pause #so that it’s ready for the new year #the only damn issue I keep having #is that #I’m torn between wanting to make art & writing fics for it #and I’m torn between making it more on the cuter/emotional side #or just having it be pure #😳😳😳😳 #if ya know what I mean #😳😳 #sO! #I’ll be working on that #and I wish you all the best for the following few months!!!!!! #💕💞💝💘💘💖💖💗💓💗💘💝💞💕

[phatcatphergus]

you tubblings shitting on phil for not letting “chayanne be a kid” but tubbo is not any better

he’s literally reinforcing chays sense of duty by putting his life in a childs hands

that’s worse I’d argue?

I was going to make a long ass post about the difference in chays behavior w his dad and his behavior with Tubbo and how Tubbo plays into the egg bit as a joke and uses it to help chay play pretend and act out his want to keep people safe in a childish and innocent way while making sure chay knows he’s safe but I think you just wanna argue so I’m gonna go finish my donut dough

#ya anyway #tell me you don’t know how being a kid and acting your age are two different things without telling me you don’t know #I could also make a king ass post about how the parents of the older eggs view them in a specific way that makes it hard for them #to not want ti be strong and pretend they’re okay in a way that the newer parents don’t bc of different experiences #also tubbo is just closer in age and you feel more comfortable doing certain things with people that are close to your age #in a way that you aren’t with your parents #anyway #donuts #qsmp #tubbo #qsmp tubbo #qsmp chayanne #anon asks

[nano30cm]

ain't they cute?

#reprise reprise #total drama fanart #td sam #td dakota #td dakotazoid #if brick and jo are my '500k slow burn enemies to divorcees' pair #then sam and dakota are my 'coffee shop au fluff rated E for everyone' pair #they just like each other and they want to hang out and get to know each other #like they deserve a normal beautiful relationship and ya know what! they get it even when dakota is a kaiju! #idk what to tell you their love is simple and straightforward and struggle free #theyre both streamers obviously #sam streams vidya gaems dakota streams mukbangs and cute farming chill streams #did i mention they live on a farm? they do #neither one of them does any farmings i just think dakota should be allowed to snuggle lambs sometimes #her dads a billionaire you get it. theres nothing complicated about this

[acewizardinspace]

I think the 'the jedi use child soldiers' thing is stupid for a lot of reasons, but among those is that this is a complete misunderstanding of how children's media works. Kids want to see themselves doing amazing things and giving that an in depth analysis that boils down to 'all these adults are evil' is poor, bad faith, media criticism.

That being said, if you compare Star Wars to just about any other YA work, the jedi are miles better as far as child care goes. Canonly every single one of these 'kids in danger' has a dedicated adult who is ideally supposed to be with them to teach and protect them. Very uncommon for the genre.

So if people are mad at the jedi for this, I can't fathom what their reaction to other YA literature is. And if they hate YA literature, idk, maybe they shouldn't be reading YA. Just a thought.

#in defense of the jedi #pro jedi #the other reasons the child solider thing is dumb is that most padawans are not children #like ahsoka was considered young. Dooku was what 16 when he became one? Obi-Wan was 25 and knighted earlier than planned #even if they were knighted early because of the war (which i think is stupid and there is no evidence for that) #that doesn't make them all kids... #and the character we see as child padawans are clearly there for children to watch and enjoy #I mean unpredictable things happen but child padawans are not supposed to be facing danger alone #but eased into it by a trusted adult which is not what happens in ever other YA book #Honestly if you hate the jedi for this but don't equally hate every other adult in every other YA book #maybe you are just LOOKING for reasons to hate the jedi. In which case idk maybe examine why that is #and if you do hate all adults in YA maybe it is time to move onto adult literature because you grew up #which is awesome! I love adult books but judging kids media by these standards and hating people for wanting simple stuff #in their book created to be simple is kind of rude you know? #i realize this post is probably hitting a wasp's nest but I mean if you want to take what I say out of context #(because in context I didn't do or say anything wrong) #well that says more about you than me doesn't it #my thoughts