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sammansonn · 3 years

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No one asked but here are my thoughts and ideas about Fate: The Winx Saga

First of all i loved this show so if you’re gonna say some dumb shit hating on it go do it somewhere else because i genuinely couldn’t care less (also i’m not gonna talk about the white washing because Obviously its a shitty thing that netflix has a clear history of doing but just because its fucked up that they took away that representation doesn’t mean I can’t enjoy the show)

the main thing i didn’t like was stella being turned into a blonde mean girl stereotype and putting her in a love triangle with bloom and

wish she would’ve stayed as bloom’s best friend who is genuinely full of light despite having an abusive mom

i did like the whole thing of her having trouble controlling her powers because she was taught to use too many negative emotions

in season two i just really want her to be a lesbian because Please (i doubt they’ll do it though) but again I wish she wasn’t the “mean girl” because mean girl turns lesbian can be annoying (its the cheryl blossom of it all) but idc give her a gf

in terms of terra i thought she was gr8 (but obviously wish flora hadn’t been replaced by a white girl even though she’s plus sized), but i do feel at times she was put in to the box of “oh that fat girl is really sweet and sensitive and seen as a cute friend” in that way that some media acts like fat girls can’t be bitchy or angry or hot

but i do feel like as the show went on she did become more of a complex character, and i especially liked how badass she was with her powers especially in the scene with riven like Yes Bitch

okay things i want to happen in season 2! (aka how i would write season 2)

first off sky

boy is gonna be having a Difficult time with his father being back and him realizing he isn’t the perfect hero he thought he was

and he also has to deal with silva being gone and despite being mad at silva’s lies i hope he realizes that silva Is his true dad, he’s literally the one who raised him and Cared about him

onto riven (my favorite angsty teen)

so rn he’s obviously working with beatrix and Rosalind but i’m hoping for an arc in which he finally starts to take control of his life, and instead of searching for meaning through others (i.e sky and beatrix) he really works on himself and what He believes and then maybe helps the gang spy on rosalind?? and take her down??

ALSO my boy is bi, or pan, but he is Not Straight, and i Need him to have an enemies to lovers with a guy its so important

but obviously don’t want it to take away from Riven finding himself, that takes priority

i also really want to explore Riven and Terra’s relationship more? because its clear that in his first year Riven was kind of a nerd and he and Terra seemed to be pretty good friends? like they apparently hung out in the greenhouse a lot and i just think emphasizing that relationship would be so good and them helping each other figure themselves out and just being besties

time for stella

again, want her to be a lesbian

also need her to stand up to her mom and show her that she doesn’t need pain and negatively to power her, and that she is stronger than her mom thinks

just want her to be okay and happy she deserves it

she already had so much growth in the last episode, especially her realizing how unhealthy her and sky were, so i just want more of that

okay Beatrix

can i just talk about how much i love beatrix? because i Love beatrix

i feel so bad for her because she is Not a bad person, she’s literally just been brainwashed her whole life by Andreas and Rosalind

i need her to have a redemption arc so bad

i also want her to find out the truth that Rosalind has been keeping from her (kind of akin to Lila in the umbrella academy season 2)

i don’t want her to join the gang right away though, i kind of think she would need time alone to deal with her entire life being a lie, but overall i want her to be okay

but also imagine her finding out the truth, leaving, and then instead of healing she turns into an Actual villain (because we still need the trix from the cartoon and her name is Literally Be-a-trix so???? idk im Intrigued)

my babe Musa

love this girl so much, want her to just learn to open up and be happy with Sam because they’re so cute

also side note although i do love them i wish we got to see more of the beginning parts of their relationship, rather than them just talking one day and then them dating, idk they felt a Little rushed and wish we got to see more of their development

i also really want to see Musa master her powers more, obviously she can sense emotions and is a badass, but i want her to be able to use her powers for More, because mind fairies are bad bitches and i feel like she has to have more powers to unlock

also want her to do some more physical fighting cuz she clearly wants to do it and i think we deserve seeing her punch people

Aisha

something i like about her is that, unlike all the other girls, she looks at things very black and white, while all the other girls are very good at living in the grey

i also want to know more about her life and her family because i feel like we know very little about her and musa (but we know about Musa’s mom now) and i just want to Know her

finally Bloom

i love this girl so much and also she’s So Hot i want to marry her

love to see her let people actually help her because girl be Impulsive

honestly i’m just hoping for more development of her dealing with her anger and occasional selfishness, but there's nothing major in Particular i want for her besides her being friends with all the girls and to kick ass

okay those were my thoughts because i’ve been thinking about this show for the past three days thx

#seriously tho if you're gonna shit on this show do it somewhere else #because i Do Not Care #winx #fate: the winx saga #bloom #stella #musa #terra #aisha #sky #riven #beatrix

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takanova12 · 3 years

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One of the hallmarks of the aot fandom is massive panic everytime leaks drop and mostly the release of full chapter ends up pleasing if not all majority of the readers. Yet, we still don't learn and negatively react everytime even with the understanding that we are missing context for the leaked panels/dialogues. So amid all of this, here I am just trying to share my positive and hopeful interpretation of leaks, which mostly concern mikasa.

I wholeheartedly love eremika. They will forever remain my comfort ship. The leaks haven't changed anything. If anything, they just reinforced the idea that mikasa loved eren till her last breath. I admit that I loved the ambiguity of last panel of chapter 139; does mikasa live by herself till she dies? Or does she find love again and end up being surrounded by people who cherish her and will be there for her until the end?

I am happy that she found happiness in life. I saw people criticizing her choice of finding love again and how they were wrong about her making a selfless decision and living with pride etc. I personally don't see how her having a family cancels out what she did? She did give up the most precious person to her in the entire damn world to save the damn world. To people who wanted her to be a stronK woman who needs no man to live a empowering life, well she was that in the entire series. It was eren who needed her to save his ass 24/7, it was her and not a man who contributed most significantly to saving the alliance and we all know it was her who freed ymir. Not only that but one of the most popular EM moments where she gave eren emotional support (chap 50) ended up leaving such an impact on him that it helped me activate the coordinate and was also shown to be one of his most cherished memories of her. So, at the end if she wants to live a peaceful and simpler life, let her have that. Most importantly, let her have that considering she never wanted this life of a soldier. So, I am glad isayama gave her that. After all the shit she's been through she deserved some happiness, she deserved to be around her very own family. She deserved to be loved and cherished just like she loved and cherished eren. I am happy for my girl. I am happy that she had such a lasting impact on the story and on eren. I am happy that she wasn't alone her entire life. Sure, she has armin but let's admit it armin is with annie. They were not welcome on the island and even if mikasa left with them or they somehow settled back on paradise, aruannie would have their very own family. Sure, mikasa could be the stronK independent who needs no mAn and be an aunt to other kids so she won't be alone (reminds me of what eh wanted for mikasa; her to be aunt of her beloved dead eren's baby that he had with historia). Okay now being honest, I would have no problem with mikasa being single for her entire life and be some govermental figure of sorts if she was ever presented in that way. Never has ever mikasa shown any interest in politics, being some military leader or some princess to hizuru. She didn't join SC because it was her dream. She did because of eren and now that eren is gone and she served her purpose, she has no reason to become involved in nasty politics that she never wanted to be associated with. Also, she always left the strategic thinking, planning etc to armin. She has always pondered upon how many times does she have to lose her family and restart again. It always came down to home/family/love and a sense of belongingness for her. Sure eren was her home but before that her home was her parents and then carla and grisha. I am not saying that with eren gone, she has to find happiness in another man, but out of these other miserable options for her like living alone in the island, I prefer her being with loved ones. She doesn't have her dad like annie or parents like pieck with her to give her that home and sense of belongingness so I find it even more hard to swallow that some people actually wanted her to be not loved and die not having a home even after everything she has been through. Moreover, it's better for her mental health that she stays as far away from dealing with the mess eren left behind. Didn't she already do enough? She killed him and that was the most painful thing she ever had to do. So, I don't understand why people still want her to be some single stronK woman in power who dedicates her entire life to cleaning eren's mess? Hell no! No more misery for my girl! And thankfully yams agrees.

She has already had her fair share of trauma so isayama did the right thing leaving the diplomacy part to armin and others. Also, people making baseless claims that she is unhappy in her married life? Where and how? Mikasa surely wasn't ever gonna marry someone if she wasn't ready to. Did she visit the grave alone? Nope, she had her man with her, which suggests she is happy and can trust him with her feelings for eren and that he very much respects those feelings. She is not sneaking out of the house to visit her beloved's grave but she is living with pride. She is not doing anything wrong in remembering eren because irl we never forget our most beloved person even if we find love again.

On the topic of jeankasa, Idc whether it had 2 panels together or a 1000, it doesn't matter to me either way because aot was eremika's story ( as in I mean the story only told us about their journey of platonic to romantic feelings). Post titan world jk happened, so I find the jk don't have development and armuika makes more sense argument very out of place. First of all jk do have some development, where they end up trusting each other. Mikasa initially didn't like jean always fighting and criticizing eren and just didn't care about him. Later just like she forged close platnoic bonds with rest of 104th, she did so with jean too and most of it happened off screen because it was not needed for the story. I mean we found out sasha and mikasa were bunkmates not through the story but the guidebook. And this is in line with the fact that mikasa is not a very vocal person to begun with, she mostly speaks through her actions and that is why we hardly ever see her screaming how she is gonna help rid the world of titans or how she saved gabi because she is a child just like them caught up in war. About armuika it is a 100% platonic bond. With jeankasa, only mikasa considered jean as just a friend while jean since day 1 has been romantically attracted to mikasa so much so that he jumped right at a titan for the first time in his life when he saw mikasa in danger, before that his legs would shiver at the thought of fighting titans. So, it makes sense if it was him who ended up marrying her because he was in love with her the entire time and respected her feelings. The execution could have been better but I don't have any qualms with it because it doesn't make me ship eremika any less and overall knowing that mikasa was with someone who had always secretly loved and admired her for a long time just she did with eren makes me believe they both have a solid mutual understanding and good relationship.

Lastly, the takes on her still wearing the scarf is disrespectful to her husband is another thing I don't agree with. The scarf is not a romantic gift given to her by lover. The scarf is what saved her as a little girl. The scarf is what made mikasa understand the dichomoty of life at such a young age. The scarf is what allowed mikasa to realize that the world is not just cruel. It is what saved her and helped her save the world. It is a life-changing and beautiful treasure for her that sheltered her from turning into a cold-hearted revenge seeking psychopath. So, I find it satisfying to know that she is capable of embracing that part of her life and being anle to move ahead in life with her head held high.

On a side note I wanted to wait until the official release but I saw some mikasa slander and just couldn't wait any longer. I do think I am immune to mikasa slander now because I got everything I wanted for her character ( of course I would have loved for her to be with eren but I knew after liberio raid that they were never going to have a happy ending) but still sometimes I like to share my thoughts because I think it helps some people who are at times enjoying the content but the fandom discourse and constant negative interpretation of said events makes them hesistant to admit/enjoy it.

I am content knowing that my comfort character found some comfort in her life at the end :')

#mikasa #mikasa ackerman #attack on titan #aot spoilers

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moderate-brainrot · 3 years

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legion lore is bullshit 😐

But first; some disclaimers

First of all, I literally love the entirety of legion so this is not even remotely hate, in fact it’s genuine care. They deserve so much better that it hurts my brain, and I’m going to complain about the lore until they fix it (which they never will so don’t bother waiting for me to stop).

Secondly, I’m a shitty interpreter. Although the story of DBD is left ambiguous and vague on purpose, there are still some set things that are supposed to be in place. I tend to take a humanistic approach, the same way I did with Lisa and Rin’s backstories, so this could sound like I’m sympathizing, or excusing. That’s not really my intention but also I’m probably biased, I make an effort not to be but! We all make mistakes. Small story details and choices of words tend to mean very little when I’m looking at the lore, so precedents that someone else may have identified might not even be considered important to me. I’m trying to piece together a coherent and interesting conclusion.

I also wanted to note that I will not consider “the legion is out of place!!!! they clash with the entire cast!!!!!” in this whole rant because? it’s stupid as FUCK, nobody complains about ghostface being in the game, and they (unfortunately) are very similar in terms of age group (Danny is implied to be pretty young, not as young Frank though). I think legion fits in alongside the other killers just fine. It really wouldn’t make sense if you only had traditional representations of “evils” anyway. These evils are supposed to come from every corner of the world, it would only make sense if one of the evils happened to be a band of delinquents.

Okay, here we go.

I think the legion is a good idea. A nice concept. I think their powers and perks were thought out and nicely intertwine with their personalities/characters.

HOWEVER,

the lore for them is so shoddily put together that all you really have to piece together an actual character is their appearance. That only really works to some degree. I feel like the players know who the legion are. You can feel what they stand for just by looking at them. They are cynical, unforgiving, and callous just like normal teenagers would be. Except these teenagers are deeply disturbed so they solve their problems with murder.

HOWEVER,

You get NONE of this from the lore. It’s an observation. That’s not exactly the best thing. Your killer shouldn’t have to be explained, but when the lore is left with so many loose ends, you’re asking a lot from the player. There is very little to go off of.

The lore, essentially, is this:

Frequently moved around foster kid, Frank, is looking for an escape from his newest family since the new town is so unbearably boring. He tries to get out by finding another adoptive family but he meets Julie, who is also looking for a way out of the bland town. Frank goes to the parties Julie hosts and meets Joey and Susie (who were SUCH afterthoughts that they don’t even have fucking last names). They start hanging out in this abandoned place, and for whatever reason, Frank suddenly wants to do crime and have his new crew trained into soemthing.... “”powerful””???? They become neighborhood bullies and do delinquent shit.💡 Joey gets fired from his job and Frank says that they should all go vandalize the shit out of it.💡 They go to vandalize it but some janitor guy happens to be there and he grabs Julie, she cries out for help and Frank stabs the janitor in the back because of his.:.. “”dark impulses””...ok.💡 Then Frank says “okay now you guys have to kill him” and Joey stabs the guy in the ribs, Susie however refuses and Julie does it for her until Susie actually has to stab him but Frank moves her hands for her.💡They go to mount ormond (hey) to dispose of the body💡 and They’re digging the janitor’s grave when Frank sees some weird shit in the woods and goes to it and then doesn’t come back.💡 The rest of the legion follow his footprints before they even bury the body which leads to thick fog™️ and now they are killers in the realm.

The lightbulbs are for notes I made while reading the tomes.

💡(1). The legion start off by doing the most juvenile shit. Graffiti, yelling at neighborhood children, and stealing. They don’t sound like deeply evil entities, they sound like pathetic teenage swine, bullies. They’re supposed to be oppressive and unforgiving, but they are too passive to be taken seriously. They should have made it so they were never really killing people but just stabbing people, lots of them. That’s a lot more violent/evil than petty crimes.

💡(2). Frank’s first thought when Joey gets fired is to dare Joey to GRAFFITI HIS FORMER PLACE OF WORK???? NOT KILL HIS BOSS? NOT BURN THE SHOP DOWN? JUST SPRAY PAINT??? You would think that his mind, apparently attractive enough to the entity, would go to darker places than vandalism.

💡(3). Only Frank had these “”dark impulses™️””, so Why are there even four legions instead of just fucking one. He literally had to guilt everyone else to stab the man. He is completely alone in experiencing this impulse.

💡(4). What happened to “It came to a point where they would do anything he asked. Nothing was off-limits when they put their masks on.” ?? Susie downright refused to stab the man the first time she was handed the knife. It was only when Frank guided her hands that she “did it” (which she didn’t because it was Frank controlling the blade). Sure, Frank is manipulative, but the lore can’t decide if he’s good at it or not. The legion seems less like a group and more like a cult with Frank at the forefront. It’s very contradictory.

💡(5). The legion are chaos fiends. That’s their whole thing. Burying the body creates zero chaos or worry anywhere. The dude was a janitor, if you bury him there’s a good chance that nobody will notice which defeats the entire point.

💡(6). Frank goes in first. I really think that’s where it should’ve ended. I think it would make him more evil. He would’ve abandoned his ragtag “troops” to selfishly escape the possible consequences of murder after he made them reliant on him. But since they follow after him, it seems more like they found him rather than he abandoned them.

I think the legion is seen as a group of muderous juveniles who were so bored of their town that they decided to cause as much chaos as possible to make it less unbearable. That’s pretty evil. Way more evil than killing one dude impulsively and bullying kids less than half their ages. It would make sense with their power, why it’s not so focused on killing, but on the bigger picture, spreading fear and pain across a wide scale. This also ties in with their mori. It’s very quick, boring, and underwhelming. This could be because the legion don’t care for killing people that much, they want action, drama, and chaos. Depending on the strategy, you leave the survivors with deep wounds that take time and effort to patch up, when they can do easily be slashed down again, it’s pretty despairing, empty of hope. It’s also a little charming I think it adds to their overall immaturity, moving on looking for more survivors to hit rather than viciously hound your prey and finish them off.

THAT BEING SAID,

The legion’s power makes no sense when it’s not on Frank. In the lore, Frank is the only one who showed any remote desire to kill, but even then it was presented as an impulse, a reflex even. So Why in the fresh HELL would Susie have this power? She didn’t want to kill anybody . Julie and Joey as well. Julie probably only felt guilty and indebted to Frank for saving her, and Joey was literally presented as the guy who likes to show off. Of course he’s not going to be openly reluctant, it would shatter his persona. I really think they got too carried away with the ritualistics surrounding the murder that they forgot character values are a thing. Sure the fact that they all stabbed him is symbolic but their reactions do not match up with the mechanics. They could’ve done so much more with the characters and mechanics if EVERY LEGION HAD THESE “”DARK IMPULSES™️””

They’re given to us in-game as delinquents. So I think they should ALL be punkish dammit!!!!

That’s the end of my rant;

for now.

will probably elaborate some more later but I haven’t slept yet and it’s time for school so ..

囧rz.. anyways

legion love club:

idc if frank is a manipulator he can come manipulate this dick

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chromsai · 4 years

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Zxl Review

Well I finally got through yet another YuGiOh on this YGO Hell Challenge journey, so I want to quickly sum up my experience before moving on to the final YuGiOh in this challenge. Again, reminding you that this challenge will NOT be including V//r//ains, which means we have saved the best for last. Well, let’s do this...

Also, even though my past liveblogs have been primarily documented here on Tumblr, I opted to express my uncensored opinions on my private Twitter salt account for this show in particular mainly out of respect for those who followed me and didn’t want to see me salt so intensely every single day. For those who enjoy this show, I didn’t wanna be that annoying to deal with. For those who did get to see me salt, however, well...

You know what’s up.

TL;DR: Zxl is not a show that I have ever preferred. I can understand why others might enjoy this show, however I personally can’t find or take away anything that is genuinely deeply substantial or compelling from it. I feel like this show lives off of being superficially loud and boisterous, dragging generic and vague themes out to give the illusion that they carry any real value. Of course that falls extremely flat when those themes are never explored or developed seriously and meaningfully, only being used for the hollow and unimpressive shock-value they can offer on a surface level.

Season 1 (Episodes 1 - 73)

Like I said, I don’t want to make this longer than I already feel it is; I just want to give my overall thoughts. Zxl has a tendency to introduce too many characters, too many high stakes, too many insignificant side stories (which are also meaningless), etc. at such a grueling pace. This first half of the show is plagued with inconsequential filler episodes AND antagonists (and “rivals”) with incredibly melodramatic roles... it’s just... just... so unnecessary to create a genuinely interesting show. Every climax in this show (not just this season) relies on shock-value reveals that tend to contradict characters’ beliefs, logic, and personalities.

Presentation-wise, this show is overall decent as they don’t often have noticeably bad animation, on the contrary Zxl overall tends to remain consistently well-animated. The only problem stems from the gaudy, overly color-saturated designs of various characters and card/monster designs. Character-wise, there are few decent designs like IV and Akari. Everyone else though? This show is consistently.... not a sight for sore eyes, I’ll tell ya that.

The soundtrack design is.... *shrugs*. Not terrible, but also, often extremely boisterous, which I suppose is appropriate. But none of the soundtracks are memorable at all.

As for the main point I suppose I should have mentioned: Yuma & Astral’s relationship and development.... well... this season did a not too bad job at developing their relationship (but no one else’s much), at the expense of copying DM’s Yugi & the Pharaoh’s relationship in terms of concept and setup. However, if it leads to something more wholesome and impactful? Well, that’s to be argued....

Overall rating for this arc: 1.5/5

Season 2 (Episode 74 - 146)

It might be a bit unfair to not break down this season into a series of components, as I did for my 5D’s review, however this season decided it’s overarching plot and its filler were one and the same so *shrugs again*.

This is the part of Zxl that gets good, according to many fans. That’s terribly subjective, of course.

And I’m sure my opinion that this season of Zxl is the worst half is also terribly subjective. Long story short, if season 1 was marred with superficial plot-less messy inconsequential subpar writing, season 2 is that but somehow worse. You didn’t think it could be but it was. With another unfantastic element added to the mix: repetition. Endless repetition in duels, in character “deaths”, in “reveals” (which aren’t reveals if the audience already knows everything that’s being “revealed”), in backstories, in “consequences”, etc. There’s repetition everywhere. Oh and retcons. There are plenty.

This is the culmination of too many unlikable, insignificant, and expendable characters in one 70+episode span, which I didn’t think was possible. And none of it matters because the themes are so convoluted and jumbled up, the ending of this season (and the show) doesn’t actually lead up from the exploration of any of the attempts of surface-level themes presented, it leads into a cliffhanger-teaser for a sequel that is extremely unlikely to ever happen, and a rewrite of anything in this show that COULD have had some consequence. So yeah, in the end, nothing that ever happened in this show matter. None of the characters experienced a growth in persona or self-reflection. The only thing we get is basic themes that can be stated and moved on with like “we can all learn to get along” (and yet nothing that led up to this final “conclusion” ever actually formulated satisfyingly) that stem from no other foundation of any of the so-called values introduced in the show. It’s all very hollow.

I guess lastly my conclusion is that none of these characters actually are different than who there were when they were first introduced. None. (”But Sai—” THEY DID NOT DEVELOP, THEY WERE SIMPLY WRITTEN SO INCONSISTENTLY AND/OR INCOHERENTLY THAT THEY DIDN’T EVEN HAVE A PERSONALITY TO BEGIN WITH. THEY WERE JUST TROPES FROM THE START.)

Oh and also, I almost forgot: Yuma & Astral have an impactful, wholesome relationship? IMO, no. If anything, I saw so many red flags in it, in particular in this season of the show, in regards to it possibly even being a toxic relationship, but I don’t wanna get into the specifics of it and as I said this is subjective (tho as someone who has lived through some of these red flags, I’m not gonna be arguing with anyone in regards to this because lmao idc enough about them or about your opinion against this).

Lastly, I really despise the Barian designs. I’m happy for you if you liked they’re inflexible faces and gaudy.... appendages (?) but I’m different.

Overall rating for this arc: 1/5

Final Overall Rating for this show: 1.25/5

Final Note: Finally. Jfc. I’m tired. Finally. I am free.

#sai watches zxl #zxl review #okay for sure this time never again #and i know i spoke a bit vaguely on a lot of points (most everything #admittedly)#but like #i'm tired and i have expressed my true feelings elsewhere and this is the last explanation i'm attempting #bye #A5 TIME #(after i settle in after i shower lol)

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iamtonynowhere · 5 years

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So today I got up about 10 and hung out in the kitchen for a while showered, got my stuff together to study and eat breakfast for about half an hour and then had to leave for the meeting with my communal reversal/workshop space group, I took the electric skateboard which was so good to do 4 miles on it, the meeting went great and I'm gonna work on being fund raiser lead, I have a few plans for different styles of events and we have a good idea of rough budget and what we'd want from the space and meet some of the really cool creative's that are going to be involved which I personally love. Its going to help so much with the play project and doing more creative things with people. And for training great and I can make a climbing wall ah so good. Its gonna take a bit of work and ill have to work on it over a few days the events I mean, anyway as its late and I could type about this for ages, here's the paste from the group that I created today.

So for gaining funding...

In the meeting today we discussed a few options and things we could do. There are some things I need some help with but I'm taking lead on fund raiser events. I am in need of people with experience, some people who are willing to be lead on aspects of the events and, people to be involved with shows, immersive theatre, workshops, food, legal stuff, finance stuff,

I also need suggestions of spaces which we could do these fundraisers either free or cheap, what people would like to bring and if you have any ideas. I'm open to suggestions and collaborations to gain as much funding as we can to make this space a reality as quickly as we can so. We shot around are

Gofundme incentives, free workshop £5 one free month £20 free workshops for a year £100 use of the space for an event £200

Patron account same but no incentives long term fund raising

Fundraisers

First idea, 6 hour immersive event for families with a winter theme, walkabout, immersive workshops, art installations, tea, cakes, light dinner bbq/nibbles snacks, tuck shop and cabaret with the kids in it made up of what they learnt in the day..

Evening meal event, bachous (sp Greek/roman god of feasting and wine) theme, food wine nibbles, feast of the senses performance thing with a Greek tragedy style stage show to culminate. Done in three hours.

All day event, warehouse space many rooms winter theme, installed art, workshops, walkabout immersive stuff, drinks and snacks in the day, installed experiences like mixology, art auction, cabaret/renegade/open mic in the eve, pot luck dinner, bring in something or donate to eat, bar and disco evening, some dance workshops? Like jungle ballet, dancehall movement fitness stuff?

These would all make good content and evidence so we can gain community or arts grant funding.

So yeah a few ideas, some things I need to work on so lists and venues, working on it happening in the next few weeks and work if it will make money...

I then skated to tufnel park and got the bus to uni, as it was my first day I have notes on that entire process and my reading notes that I'd like to paste here but overall the experience was good and I'm look in forward to the module to understand feelings and other peoples feelings better so I think that insight is gonna be good

Paste here the sonocent notes and my reading notes.

Oh yeah I'm also supposed to start creating a psychodynamic journal of my reactions to feelings, so today I felt very anxious for the new school year due to the lack of organisation from the uni side, because of the new people, the large group dynamic, the lack of contact from DSA and disability. I've also been feeling really proud of the work I've done learning about autism and my autism, I still don't care for my diagnosis but getting rediagnosed is not the same as recognition as my current certificate gets me the assistance I need without having to balance it out so I'm super proud of all of my autistic talking today about how I corrected my lecturer about it being a difference and not a disability.

Anyway here's another copied and pasted thing from an climate change post as I want to read the sources.

“lower growth” is an odd thing to say: GDP is a fairly bonkers measure of success, when homeostasis is what evolution seeks to achieve.

Yeah, living standards will dip - but if standards = limiting the choice of 15 fondant filled chocolate bars to just five (hyperbolically facetious to make a point), is that really handicapping human progress or capping human happiness?

Sure, some people (naming no names) may have to start pulling their weight, working long(er) hours, declaring their income, and contributing to a nations tax take and “selling their soul” - but the luxury of non-compliance and opting out has always been an exclusively elite luxury, largely restricted to the west, and largely built (ultimately) on a capitalist foundation of wealth expropriated from corporate or imperial hegemony (whether that is East India, Knox-Darcy (latter BP), or Kellog Brown Root, IDK and IDC).

Basically Sean, your argument is rich in rhetoric but, in spite of your vehemence, doesn’t really stand up to scrutiny - yeah the global average of financial success is up (gross dollar average per capita)- but the global disparity in wealth is also up (global per capita). So the system is inherently less fair.

Yeah, ecosystems are expanding - but biodiversity is contracting. So the system is inherently less stable.

I don’t know where you got your meme from - I couldn’t find the author in my admittedly lazy 1 min search - but the meme’s bias and the author’s agenda is almost hilariously transparent: particularly the last paragraph - helpfully highlighted blue.

This isn’t a zero sum game. Just because actions to alleviate climate change cost the economy $x, it isn’t to say $x would be available if such action weren’t taken. E.g. in my local area, flood defenses cost >£10m over the past 15 years and another £20m is forecast over the next 20. If this money isn’t spent, the highly productive farmland on the floodplain will be lost - aside from the loss to private capital (in fact, losing farmland will prob increase GDP - which is one of the bizarre and Machiavellian flaws of that calculation), it will decrease food production - which means that not spending money on climate change will both reduce capital available and reduce food surpluses. And this is just one small locally observable metric in my immediate area. What about Holland? Same situation, factors bigger. The comment in the OP (highlighted blue) is not just blinkered, it is propagandistic in its bias.

Anyway, that’s all I have to say - no doubt you will continue to bark at the night, but I’m off to bed. I just didn’t want your dangerous propaganda to go unchallenged. "

"industrial farming and the industrial fossil fuel industry are probably the main reasons, for why the population has grown exponentially in the last 100 years.

Imagine if we only could live within sustainable means, it would be a better existence for everyone in the long term. How can you deny that?

If we continue on this trajectory of consumption, deforestation, destruction of our environment and pollution of just plastic, let alone every other material we use, it is pretty obvious we will be living in a pretty rotten world. We can already see the rot now after all.

Therefore is not our duty as a civilisation to have a hypothesis that we can make a difference, in the long term with a global strategy on the subjects we have been discussing intensely;

Pollution, global warming, C02 emissions, fossil fuels, Deforestation, etc."

Anyway I have the dentist in tower hamlets tomorrow morning so I'm kinda done for tonight goodnight I'm gonna make some food to eat now eat a good breakfast and just buy out tomorrow.

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darkmindsthinktwistedthoughts · 5 years

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Senpai!!!! May I request a gaming evening with the warlords and Sasuke either always winning or losing? Idc which game 😘😘😘 i love u

@colivara The possibilities for this tickled me. I have a mind for a certain game that was driving my family a little mad this last holiday season. I hope you enjoy my little musing.

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Writer: In a wormhole far far away... oh no sorry hang on a minute I'm getting my tales messed up with some other long popular saga. Clears throat. That’s better, now where was I? Oh yes.

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Azuchi castle had been a hive of activity all day. News travelled fast around the servants that they were to play host to some visiting warlords. No one had expected it to be these warlords though.

“I fail to see the benefit to being here.” Shingen muttered as he pushed around a cube of bean jelly on his plate.

“I agree.” Agreed Yukimura who was sitting next to him in the audience chamber.

“Feel free to leave at any point.” Ieyasu wasn’t exactly pleased to see the Tiger of Kai or his little puppy. In fact, he was practically bristling.

“I think I might stay here forever.” Shingen heard the young warlords remark and decided to meet it with a teasing joke. He made a show of popping the sweet bean jelly into his mouth smiling as he looked over at the enemy.

“Over my dead body.” Hideyoshi called out. He was even less pleased. The presence of so many of the enemy in one place was one thing, but they were inside the castle right now. Lord Nobunaga could be in danger.

“That can be arranged.” Kenshin’s icy tone cut through the already tense atmosphere. his hand twitching on the hilt of his blade.

Nobunaga and Mitsuhide were sipping sake watching the verbal tennis match unfold. Neither said anything to anyone else except occasionally to each other. Masamune who had been helping the staff in the kitchen arrived at this point with a platter of food. Mitsunari had his nose in a book sitting like a rather cute, all be it oblivious, statue by Ieyasu.

“Lord Kenshin!...” Sasuke called out putting himself in front of the blade happy warlord halting his advance. “My Lords, I apologise for my late arrival. I see you were able to remain entertained.”

“That is one way to put it.” Yukimura crossed his arms and leaned back against the wall.

“I suppose there is a reason you called us all here ninja?” Nobunaga addressed the one that was responsible for that note on his desk resulting in this pantomime in his castle.

“Yes. I was talking to Mc and we both discovered that we were part of extracurricular games groups in school.”

“Extra Kur-ick-u-er?” Mitsunari attempted to repeat the new foreign-sounding word. Ieyasu had the strategists glasses in his hand so Mitsunari looked a little like he was coming around from a trance as he adjusted to the world.

“Sounds interesting.” Masa joined the group smiling.

“Sounds like an illness.” Ieyasu stated flatly.

“Oh if it’s an ailment Lord Ieyasu is sure to find a cure. He is a very gifted healer.”

“Mitsunari?”

“Yes, Lord Ieyasu?”

“Shut up.”

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After a short while of explaining things to the gathered warlords, and dropping in the fact that Mc looked really happy with the idea that they were all going to have a games night together. All of the warlords in assembly suddenly became a lot calmer and decided to choose a game they liked the look of.

Sasuke had spent a great deal of time working with Mc to try to recreate at least a few games. It had been fun sourcing the materials and then attempting to make everything as close as they could to the modern versions.

There was Battleships which was left resembling the original game. The only difference was the ships. The ships they were using were modelled on Pirate and the Portuguese trade ships.

Monopoly was created and adjusted. The areas were names of domains, there were tea houses instead of hotels. Community chest cards became cards from the Emporer and the cards of Chance became fate and fortune cards. The figures were a little different too there was the usual dog, cat and boat. But the rest were a ground spike, a katana, a horse, a cooking pot and a Ladle. The money was different coloured dried beans.

Cluedo was changed so it became rooms around the castle. The players were just coloured figures. The weapons had minor tweaks for historical understanding but was otherwise left.

And there was one surprise finishing game that was perhaps the easiest to recreate. Pictionary.

Sasuke made his way around each group of warlords explained the rules and how to play each game and then joined them for a few games on each.

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“There is no way you can keep finding them like that!” Yukimura exclaimed as Sasuke once more made a direct hit on one of his boats.

“I’m sorry but the board is basically a grid in a series of rather simple mathematical equations you can...” Sasuke began to explain how it could be done unaware of the glazed over expression Yuki was making trying to keep up with what he was being told.

“Ok ok I get it YOU can do it. why don’t you just move on the next guys huh?” Yuki gave Sasuke a little push as he tried to get him to move. After that, he sat and stared that the board in silence as if trying to figure it out.

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“How did you managed to buy up all that domain?” Ieyasu asked looking at the three slots that should have been the prime locations that included Mayfair.

“It is luck with the dice and knowledge of what to buy where.” Sasuke pushed his glasses back on his nose as he replied devoid of expression even if his heart felt like it was going wild in his chest speaking to his idol.

“But the rest of the teahouses are all scattered what makes those three up there so important?” Masa looks down at the board a little confused. He understood gaining territory and how it could affect others but this game had no war it was all money... well beans.

“I’m afraid if I explained to greatly I might risk upsetting the balance of the game in the future.” Sasuke looked away from the game as he tried to think how best to continue but his thoughts were interrupted.

“Hey don't just put your hand in the coin purse!” Ieyasu cried out and smacked the back of Masa’s hand as he reached for the coin purse that was acting as the bank that held all the beans.

“What? I passed that space there that means I get 10 beans.”

“Yes, but you can’t just go helping yourself.” Ieyasu chastized his friend before becoming aware that he had just smacked him over a stupid future game and became uncomfortably embarrassed about it. “I can’t believe you decided to be the Ladle that is such a dumb piece.”

“Hey, Man don’t underestimate the power of a good ladle.”

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“Why is there no dungeon on this board?” Kenshin asked as he looked over the rooms once more.

“Probably because the Princess might play it. Do you really expect an Angel like her to walk around a dungeon in a game?” Shingen scoffed as he drank from his sake cup waiting for his turn on the board.

“I don’t see what is wrong with it. Dungeons in Kasugayama are practically guest rooms.” Kenshin said proudly. In his opinion, no other castle could reach the level of his beloved home.

“Funny that’s what Mitsuhide calls ours.” Nobunaga chuckled as he finished moving his figure on the board. “Mitsunari exactly what are you doing?”

“Oh, I’m terribly sorry I was just reading the cards I had closer.” Mitsunari had been leaning over engrossed in reading and rereading the details on each card, nearly missing his turn.

“Well, it’s your turn.”

“Can I make a guess without rolling and moving anywhere? I’m gonna say it was Mitsuhide in the Tenshu with a rifle.” Mitsunari beamed brightly as he made a guess.

“Why exactly am I always the prime suspect?” Mitsuhide asked acting hurt by the accusation.

“Probably because out of all of us you are the most suspicious.” Hideyoshi replied back as fast as ever.

“Why Hideyoshi I had no idea you thought so much about me. I’m sorry to inform you though I have plans later this evening so I won’t be available for any little trysts.” Mitsuhide smiled meaningfully in such a way as to purposefully give the wrong impression whilst leaving just enough confusion so he could innocently wriggle free of any repercussions.

“Well, tha- what tryst!?” Hideyoshi blushed furiously as he glared at the castle kitsune.

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Games night was a success. well, a success in the sense that both sets of enemy warlords had gathered and remained in the same room as each other without it resulting in a bloodbath.

“So who wins?” Masa called out to Sasuke as all the games came to an end.

“Wins?” Sasuke felt a little like he had missed part of a conversation. In the future, they had very different ideas about games.

That wasn't to say people didn’t win or lose but it was not something that typically came to the end of the night where you declared an overall winner in order to prevent a very real declaration of war.

“Yeah, there has to be a winner or else what is the point?” Masa nodded and several of the other warlords agreed.

“Well, I do have one final game.” Sasuke picked up the last box of games. “What you do is...”

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Mc came into the audience chamber after the warlords had all made their way to rooms for the night in the castle. Breakfast in the morning was going to be fun. Moving to Sasuke’s side she started to gather the various parts to games and returned them to the boxes.

Sasuke was standing there hardly moving at all. for a second or two Mc considered the possibility that he had somehow fallen asleep whilst standing. But she could see him blinking behind his glasses.

“Er... Sasuke?”

“Oh! Mc.” Sasuke blinked several times as if trying to regain focus on her.

“Are you ok?” Mc asked still a little concerned for her friend.

“Yes yes, I’m fine. Thanks for helping with the cleanup.”

“No problem. So how did it go? Did you win any of the games?” She happily asked as she stacked the boxes at the side of the room out of the way.

“Oh erm no not exactly.”

“Oh... that’s a shame.” Mc looked as if she was thinking about something before continuing. “Still, I know how competitive the guys can get so its probably really difficult to win against them even with brand new games. Better luck next time huh?” Sasuke silently nodded he wasn’t trying to ignore her he was just preoccupied right now. “I’m going to go to the kitchen and see if there is some onigiri or something are you coming?” Mc walked to the door and stopped waiting for his reply.

“Yes. I’ll be there in a minute.” Satisfied with that she left in search of food.

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It was during clean up that Sasuke had made a discovery. In his hands, he currently held not an autograph but a drawing made by his idol. it had missed being torn up after that argument broke out about it looking nothing like what it was supposed to be.

He might not have “won” any of the games showcased tonight but at this moment in time, Sasuke felt like he was holding in his hand the grand prize of the evening.

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runtosleepdreamer · 6 years

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Rewatching SPN 5x04

I don’t know if anyone noticed, though someone probably did, but honestly I’m surprised even I caught it, but when Dean wakes up to the end!verse and looks out the motel room window, there was a sign reading “now playing route 666” and HAH wow just. Idc if that’s the same name as another movie or whatever I’m calling that as a throwback to season 1. But then Dean later saying sympathy for the devil and I KNEW it was an episode title and whoop Callback!!! 🤣

Continuing on the cheery note before I go all angsty, though I never do it the other way around being beyond me (maybe cuz the happy part is easier and shorter.. yeah that’s it) stones!Cas, while sad, was still hilarious. His voice is much higher, as opposed to being all Castiel he’s more jimmy/Misha, whichever... and he laughs at past!Dean... right in front of endverse!Dean’s face... stupidly daringly brave... but funny.

But okay dark moment, I don’t know if this registered around the first time I saw this episode but woah... fuck Cas died didn’t he - in that honest to god suicide mission... woah goddamn endverse!Dean is so... dark and...battleworn

And that brings me to Dean though I wanna point out a couple quick things that are.. eh neutral and then relatively dark

1. Dean in in actual 2014 s9? Totally had a beard but that was probably because of the whole MoC and the thing with Sam... but I don’t know that guaranteed a beard.. though still totally cool that the writers nonetheless wanted him to remain completely similar to past!Dean, more of which I’ll talk about later

2. I found it (inappropriately) ironically hilarious how apparently Bobby is dead in 2014, and sure enough his status is still dead in s9 anyway.. I don’t know man stupid thought that had me surprised at myself but still.

Right. Now. Dean. Jensen. Can I just totally take a moment to appreciate how damn well Jensen acted??? Like, okay, I know, that for some reason Jensen felt like his entire episode’s worth of acting was blown away in comparison to the bit Jared did, and yeah, I’ll get to that, but dude. It’s like. Okay, momentary appreciation/recognition to every good actor/actress, but right now, totally dedicated to Jensen and Jared, for making me completely unable to see or even relate these people to Sam and Dean. Like. When they don these characters, they may share a face, they may share characteristics or personalities or certain behaviors... but it’s as if Sam and Dean are completely their own people vs Jensen and Jared. Like. How

Are

Those

The

Same

Frigging

People

Because dude Jensen especially like... he almost had me crying because I couldn’t even frigging associate past!Dean and endverse!Dean to be the same person, because they were both. So. Completely. DIFFERENT!!!! They were supposed to be the same people but NO Endverse!Dean is so much more battle hardened with all the extra years worth of experience and knowledge and pain and trauma and responsibilities (which again, totally far more similar to s9 Dean.. though s9 Dean was still lighter than s10 Dean so maybe s10!Dean and endverse!Dean was the closest but whatever anyway) that compared to him, past!Dean seems so much more innocent and lighter, even though standing alone he still has his own share of burdens and pain, and yet it’s nothing to what endverse!Dean had endured. Just.

And because of that. It makes them both. Completely. Different. People. And Jensen? He did a frigging amazing job - more than! No words in my fairly limited vocabulary can describe his outstanding skills, because it physically boggled my mind just to think that this was both the same person... and yet portrayed by someone completely different who still manages to more than just capture the essence, but deliver it with quality that exceeds anything and everything.

On a few more side notes, again, one light and one dark with a neutral one in between if you ask me:

1. The scent between past!Dean vs endverse!Dean when they first meet was awesome, nerve racking, tense, jittery inducing... and. Hilarious. For the life of me I will never be able to keep a straight face, nor will I be able to stay still when Dean reveals the one thing only Dean would know.. with that frigging smirk and everything, to which endverse!Dean replies with, ‘Touche’... just.

2. Of course Dean wouldn’t believe himself - duh! (But you’d think that because of that, he would know better and that obviously, he’d still find a way out...)

3. But then, when they’re at that cabin with the map and Cas being hilarious and all... but then they leave and it’s just the Deans and such a heart wrenching moment between the two and killing me with the performance... AS IF THAT WASN’T ENOUGH, they gotta add in some painful piano music as well, and dude, let me tell y’all something, there’s a reason I love the piano even though I can’t play worth shit, and that’s because it’s like. Almost always the perfect instrument no matter what, and heightens the visual experience...

But when it’s angst playing out on the screen?

I might be considered to be lost if I’m paying attention to the music in particular as opposed to what’s happening in front of me, but dudes, that’s only to acknowledge it and let it fill me with the pain.

Torturous.

Anyway.

I think.. I can move on to Jared now? I think... I covered everything...

Dude. He’s still a good actor though. Like. He definitely. Was not Jared at that moment. And calling him Sam also was like. Okay maybe it struck to close to Sam on demon blood.. and I don’t know I’m just used to seeing lucifer as Mark Pellegrino... but...

Hearing the story of how Satan became Satan from a frigging tv show should not have made me that thoughtful or emotional.

And yet. He managed it.

So yeah. I felt my heart break right alongside Dean’s at that moment, though of course never to that extent.

Zachariah sure does have a thing with zapping Dean to places - like alternate universes (😉😏😏😏) though, doesn’t he..

And Castiel saving him right. On. Time. And just. That satisfied smile or whatever just had me cheering for Castiel because god it was just.

Don’t

Ever

Change

But HAH when Dean picks up the phone and he thinks it’s Cas and the way he replies “dammit Cas I need to sleep!” And it’s all gruff and he’s still pretty happy relatively speaking and more.. not elated but loose limbed I guess, hunting with Cas, and it all disappears the moment he realizes it’s Sam speaking, and hence commence the angst fest.

And ah. That’s what I wanted to talk about since the beginning of the episode.

Honestly, I felt like they were just pushed into working back together again, and because of everything that was happening around them, with Dean working so fervently towards changing the damn future.. again, I might have mentioned it before, but if I haven’t, well. It’s like Sam and Dean were forced to reconcile because of external circumstances, which, I may not be well versed in psychology or all that, but it still didn’t strike me as healthy.

Like, yeah, Dean not talking to Sam ended up in him saying yes to Lucifer or whatever, but that ended up with the Croats and all (Croats!!! Dean and lingo and confused Dean but then comprehension dawning on him!!), so because of that, it’s like Dean has to work - no, muddle and struggle through to hurry up and salvage their relationship, just for the sake of/because the damn world and it’s future rested on their shoulders. So yeah, the way they had to push through all that... while I mean, it worked in the end?

Maybe it also didn’t. Maybe.. maybe it could have been better if they actually did spend some time apart (and wait, before y’all attack me for saying this) because Dean had to work through his pain of betrayal, and Sam through his own pains as well, but they were forced to do that together, and maybe it worked, maybe it just went to pushing them closer together all the way in the end...

Or maybe they should have been able to work through some of their problems on their own. Granted, it obviously could have also meant that they never would have reconciled ever again, but that was also another aspect of the apocalypse, wasn’t it? Dean decides they should never be together again, resulting in Sam saying yes to Lucifer, but that’s only because Dean thought they’d actually have a chance if they weren’t fighting together

But take out the MAJOR apocalypse factor (in which case honestly I don’t even think this problem would have been there in the first place but anyway)

But say that for the time being it wasn’t there, and they had sometime to figure out their problems on their own. Okay, yeah, chances are apart from a bunch of angsty moments where Dean recalls Sam’s memory, because mo matter what he’s only ever truly happy with Sammy by his side... but overall, in the hunting life? He’s a lot a more relaxed/less stressed, more likely to smile when he didn’t have to constantly worry about Sam and the demon blood and the secrets and the lies and the broken trusts which okay no apocalypse no demon blood none of this but still

But still. It could have soothed the pain enough, because yes, Dean is one to hold a grudge as much as he forgives easily, depending on the situation and this calling for both cuz it’s his brother but the deed committed was as bad as they are close as if to get their relationship... time still would have weathered away at Dean, enough to chip away at least enough anger for them to work through it somewhat more easily than they did.

And the same goes for Sam. Yes, he’d have maybe felt even more guilty, or maybe he’d have found another way of redemption, to find peace within himself, but eventually... eventually he would not only be more on par with wanting to make amends with Dean, which in a way, he already does, though in 5x04 no that wasn’t his main concern... but not only that but he’d be more at ease.. more easily susceptible to having a proper conversation, without as much as the angst that tore our hearts as it did in the show.

..yup. That’s about it. I’m surprised if anyone even read this far, honestly, this was just a way to get my own thoughts outta my head, but hey, if anyone read it 🤷‍♀️😁👌🏽😄😅

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antthonystark · 7 years

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To add to the clary post: expect help when ur stepfather is dying or ur hand is rotting off, spend thirty seconds making out with ur boyfriend after going through a shit ton of trauma, and act a little reckless towards popular characters

i mean…..true lol

like i said in one of my posts on the matter, sometimes it’s not “making” someone else to help, but sometimes that someone else cares about the person or the matter at hand and actually wants to help them….u know…..

okay i was trying to be chill and vague but whatever idc let’s get into it lol so esp. with the 2x09 scene everyone’s like oh magnus was visibly annoyed and didn’t want them there bc he hates them but like chill if you look at it for 2 seconds you can see his annoyance phase out to concern literally the second he realizes that there’s actually something wrong bc….he cares about clary…..(and like more importantly in the narrative of that episode, clary and jace do solve the problem themselves. like, magnus was basically like ‘yeah idk man fix it yourselves’ and nobody was like ‘oh magnus how dare you not help us’? lmao?)

and with luke in 1x06 everyone’s always like oh man magnus and downworlders he protectes them and #g//arrobane and all that jazz…and then suddenly it’s magnus saving luke only as a favour to clary and for no other reason lol? like magnus is capable of, like, making decisions and having his own personal motivations to do things you know lol to me it’s weird that people just strip down his personal stake and motivation in so many of the plots because they want to bolster this weird narrative tbh…..honestly im just addressing the examples you named but for a number of them these are at least somewhat the case (some but not all obviously)

and like…yeah…should she/they say thank you every once in a while? of course they should lol. politeness is a good thing lmao and magnus helps them out a ton and he deserves appreciation not saying he doesn’t (and not saying it’s got nothing to do with shadowhunter superiority pls read the linked post). like i said before it’s not just one thing or the other but people just view it as one extreme or the other, and also o f note i elaborated on how niceties like that between established good people™ are usually not included bc they’re seen an extraneous unless serving a higher purpose (also that post includes some stuff about magnus and his relationship with the protags which also is maybe important lol idk)

magnus is an extremely good person lol and like i said in that post i made that i just linked it is definitely complicated and definitely is sometimes informed by shadowhunter/downworlder dynamics and people have taken advantage of him and his magnanimity so it’s not like it’s a non-issue but…. lord people need to chill sometimes tbh

and finally the whole 2x09 thing with madzie…….honestly i agree with people about that. because it comes across as though they only cared about the fate of this little girl once it started posing a threat to their own well-being. but i’m going to maybe posit an argument that i don’t often consider, which is just….that maybe that was an instance of bad writing. bc, my guy, everyone was at the party, everyone knows (including magnus, high warlock who protects his kind, and alec who were also just chillaxing before clary and jace came in) the issue with madzie, so honestly it was just a dumb choice to put that lull in between the end of 2x08 and the start of the save-madzie plot in 2x09 because it makes everyone come across as selfish, clary most of all. like i guess you could argue that i shouldn’t make the excuse of the writers and just take it at face value, so i’ll agree that taken at face value it was a dick move by clary specifically, since iris was talking to clary and it’s her blood oath, so the onus was largely on her. but it just doesn’t come across as a deliberate dick move like clary’s other dick moves, which are in order to establish her flaws, but more of as a writing oversight. to me at least. but that’s up to interpretation. like i keep saying, i’m never gonna argue that she’s perfect b/c she is far from

and then there’s the whole white saviour thing which i think - as usual lol - that this is complicated but overall holds probably less water than most ppl interpret it largely b/c of the function of the white saviour trope for the white people who consume it and also the way that the SH narrative is structured around clary in terms of other literary trope as well so that the common interpretation ppl have is kind of oversimplified and also how the quasi-racial tension in SH isn’t the main thrust of the narrative or clary’s motivation, b/c the narrative is largely very personal for clary as well outside of downworlder/shadowhunter dynamics and etc etc etc. like i said im not completely refuting the assertion that it plays into white saviourish trope but it’s….quite complex - in my view, at least, but what do i know lol im gross and ignorant apparently - and these are by no means my complete thoughts but lord jesus i really dont care enough to write an essay lmao it’s just sort of annoying when one person says something and then everyone echoes it and no one knows what it means tbh

#anonymous #mavra answers #can you see the exact point in this answer where i literally stopped giving a shit lol #my thoughts #discourse //#shadowhunters #i really don't care that much #clary fray #this is incredibly incoherent i wrote it up at 2am last night and saved it as a draft and i cba to make it better lol #text post

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outsider looking in is absolutely beautiful. not just because of its happy ending and overall love in the story, but in its undeniable growth from ulma in terms of everything and how tightly it tied the the three little foxes series.

suna’s perceptiveness has always been a given (stupid ass middle blockers smh) so him immediately taking note of mika’s superficiality is something that i shouldn’t be surprised with but is pleasantly so. to be honest, it made me so glad that suna has looked at yn first and has appreciated her; not mika first then yn as an afterthought. it portrayed the genuineness of his feelings whether it be about their friendship or his crush on her.

the details of this story is immaculate. and so, so heartfelt. him putting a band-aid on his heart and trying to hate reader which i think was just him trying to mask the frustration of her trying to act like she’s okay which was (in my defense) evident on that part in ulma where reader got sick and his emotions subconsciously leaked— a part that has always stood out to me because as much as suna tried his hardest to defend reader, it always come across as him not being okay with what atsumu was doing but that part has always got me thinking that perhaps he has something more that he is not letting on. and of course as mentioned, his self-hatred for not doing better. though, in a sense, i doubt he could do better at that point in time. sure, he himself could try more but it’s pretty much useless if the person you were trying to reach is not gonna reciprocate. at that point in their life, yn was pretty adamant about shouldering the world on her shoulders alone, so even if suna has reached out and tried, i doubt it would bear any fruition. but bonus points for him blowing up on atsumu, i might’ve fell in love a little harder and want him to tell me what you revealed in the preview (ummm??? jk... ha ha... unless 😳)

speaking of growth, suna’s growth is painstakingly slow but not in a bad way. in fact, it is very realistic how he handled himself and slowly worked on his put-up nonchalance and indifference and decided to be less of a coward for both himself and his first love. baby steps, as mentioned in the story once again. the way you handled suna dealing with the shadows of both their past along with his insecurities? impeccable. the parallels of his own feelings for reader with reader’s with atsumu. especially when reader’s a bit... how do i say this? oblivious to atsumu’s feelings for her still. suna as an “outsider” who can see everything that unfolded and of course, like we alr established his acute perceptiveness over things and he knew all along just how in love atsumu was— no, still is— with reader.

as for reader, oh my! did reading everything gave me butterflies. her growth is the most beautiful thing in this whole series. from her openness with her emotions and freely smiling, shedding the mask she carefully and professionally put on as a teenager. her therapy really did help her a lot. most notably, with her relationship with rin and her standing her ground and not giving up on both rin and her. don’t get me wrong, she’s still as strong as ever and would definitely put a shirt on people’s (she care about) back before her own but whereas before where she would’ve let rin get his way and give up cos a break up would be what rin wanted; she put her foot on the ground and decided that instead of being passive and letting the other party tell her where she stood, she chose to fight for the both of them if rin was not capable of that yet, not blaming herself for not being good enough and feeling sorry towards rin for not being able to do more. instead, letting herself carry his heart on her hands because she knew that rin can’t bear the heaviness of his own. but knowing that this time it’s different. because it’s rin. the person who loved— no, loves— her first. rin, who loves her first and foremost. rin who, despite the shadows of their past and his insecurities, is and will always be worth any risks on her fragile heart.

growth, in the natural and casual build up of their relationship was amazing. again this is all part of their growth. love in all its maturity. rin risking his band-aided heart to get to know his first love deeper and again since he did run away from them and his feelings. the casual but very heartwarming way he asked her out. to slowly progress into the strong relationship they have to going over each other’s house and finally moving in. [and also, rin getting called pretty boy is my favourite thing in the world idc! sunarin walked so all the other hq pretty boys could run!]

as for meeting the family part, i knew the extent of kaoru’s protectiveness. but even so, i did feel a bit of disappointment because kaoru, during this whole ordeal, was even more of an outsider. kaoru, uncle, mika, and mom was always protected by reader. kaoru even more so as he was the one who’s there and was also very close to the miya twins. and as a result, kaoru would always think that atsumu would be a better fit and end game for reader because kaoru has always been shielded from atsumu’s flaws, faults, and stupid pride. especially that promise atsumu made to him about doing something about reader when kaoru found her secretly crying in her room, not knowing that the cause of that very pain is the asshole standing before him.

also, the reunion! the seniors being all happy and of course, reader’s lifeline just being precious and glad that their baby sister is finally getting the love she deserves and more. ahhh, i love them so much. i wish we could’ve gotten yoshimichi and asano’s reactions too! ik yoshimichi will run her mouth but i feel like asano could be menacing on her own.

did i mention how much i love this and the growth of everyone? cos i love outsider looking in and how much it showcased the growth of reader, suna, and everyone else. thank you so, so much for another heart wrenching masterpiece. it was an amazing end on the three little foxes series.

(sorry for getting carried away and rambling so much. i am just so enamoured by your story and couldn’t help myself really. i hope this was at least coherent enough for you and everyone else to read hahaha)

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR KIND WORDS SWEETPEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU REMIND ME OF MY ONE READER IN AO3 WHO DISSECTS EVERYTHING SO WELL ;W;

As for the title, for some reason I thought of 'outsider looking in' and gave it a thought, realizing that it can mean a lot of things: Suna's POV as someone not from Hyogo, and Suna being an outsider looking at his own relationship, the overall feeling of an outsider, himself.

I'm so glad that you all are seeing Reader's development from ULMA, I was so worried that I didn't do it right the whole time I wrote it. Part of her theraphy to get better is Art Therapy, hence, why she does Shodo, or Japanese calligraphy, but she does it at her university, because there's a Shodo club and everything.

I really want to thank the writer of '16 chapels' because she wrote a really raw, vulnerable Suna, which was something I also wanted to try. I thought of rereading the story again, but was disheartened to find out that they deactivated/left Tumblr last year :(

For Kaoru, he has this blind idolization for the twins, especially Atsumu. So he thinks that he can never do wrong and perfectly matches up with his sister's uptightness. However, he doesn't realize how much his idol was the cause of his big sister's hurt.

As for the kits' reactions? Read here!

I'm honestly thinking of writing one last chapter, for all the fics but also give something for Atsumu, since I've bullied and hurt him a lot in this series. Just a send off of his feelings for Reader, his forever person and first love :">

Fun Fact: 'July' by Noah Cyrus was also an inspiration for me to write this song, because it made me think of Suna hoping that Reader would leave him, thinking that she still wants Atsumu and he's just a rebound. 'you remind me everyday i'm not enough but i still stay' did it for me ;"D it's also the very same line for ULMA, for Reader staying in the club the whole time.

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