#I’m not tagging this just …venting

[ohmuqueen]

Yeah… on top of Jinki paying for his own behind clip to be edited I’m wondering if maybe SM just won’t release stuff bc they don’t care to spend the extra money to get it edited and out to us?

#is that why superm content still don’t have eng subs lol #like don’t make it about being marketed in the US and then never sub stuff #I’m not tagging this just …venting

[honeypleasejustkillme]

#its all i fucking want at this point #everything is going wrong and i just need it to stop #i’m tired of living #i want it to be over #actually bpd #bpd problems #bpd vent #actually borderline #actually mentally ill #bpd fp #bpd #bpd shitposting #bpd favorite person #bpd mood #tw sui thoughts in tags

[ukulelekatie]

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the double edged sword of fandom campaigns. Often, fighting for a prematurely-canceled show’s renewal means the end of said fandom as we know it. When a show gets canceled these days, its main tag on tumblr not only gets flooded with people talking about the injustice of the cancelation, but it also later becomes a dumping ground for other fandoms to share their woes when their show gets canceled too.

And trust me, I get it—we need to talk about it. We need to be loud about streamers pulling the same bullshit every month because they can’t keep getting away with it, and solidarity between fandoms is crucial toward this goal. But I also wish I could still go into the tag of my favorite show and look at gifs of my blorbos instead of a stream of posts yelling about the cancel your gays trope, some of which that aren’t necessarily relevant to my show.

To be clear, I’m blaming the streamers for this fandom culture shift, not the fans. Streamers have now caught on to the power of an organized fandom and commodified it, expecting us to sing and dance and do free promo for them while dangling a carrot above our heads that they may never have intended to give us in the first place. But man it still sucks that the cancelation of a show nowadays means the end of fandom business as usual, because it didn’t used to be this way! Fandoms used to continue on for quite a while past the end of their source material regardless of whether said media reached its intended end. Streaming corporations are sabotaging themselves; they want more engagement for their shows, but perhaps there would be more engagement if we weren’t all busy becoming lobbyists for them

#fandom thoughts #I’m not going to tag any fandoms because I don’t wanna perpetuate the exact thing I’m venting about #just katie things

[i-am-l-ananas]

just because your peers are reaching “life milestones” before you doesn’t mean you’re falling behind in life. You’re not behind in life. You’re not you’re not you’re not you’re not and maybe someday you’ll believe it

#one of those nights folks! #I know when and if a person reaches so called life milestones is arbitrary!!! But why am I so behind??? #it’s just. more people I grew up with are getting married and having kids #I don’t even think I want kids!! #it’s just that it goes along with them having the relationships and stability to do so!! #and I’m envious of that! #and it’s pathetic that I still blame all the bullying I went through for my lack of relationships when I know it’s really my own fault #for not bettering myself and going out and meeting people and instead waiting for a future where I’m no longer disgusted with my body #ack sorry if you opened the tags only to be slapped in the face with vent #it be like this sometimes

[arrozconlecheeee]

I finally finished yippieeee~ the template is by @amoexii (thank you!) ((updated?))

Riley is willing to break rules to keep his friends safe, gain an advantage or just for fun. He shows his affection through teasing and tends to be generally playful. Most of all Riley likes caring for his appearance and coordinating outfits together! Huge romantic at heart and unafraid to show affection platonically and romantically! He feels validated being able to express his love by being allowed to be affectionate. He DOES respect and understand boundaries of course!! If Riley notices the person is reserved and dislikes being touched, he shows affection in others ways like praises and gift giving. He’s a very passionate person! Riley is a very tricky person when it comes to his emotions. He is easily upset and quick to lose temper if he feels like he’s being mocked or humiliated. He holds grudges and he WILL let you know. Sneers, roll of eyes, sarcastic comments and nasty side eyes. Riley is actually quite a considerate person and tries to be patient but he is still young and immature. When Riley gets older he starts to slowly heal from past bad experiences and starts to be much more relaxed and less quick to anger. He feels his emotions intensely and it manifests in his magic control. When he loses control sometimes his spells won’t cast from lack of concentration or he accidentally casts destructive bursts of magic around him. Glass and objects flown around are typically at the scene after a really bad temper episode. But these are rare. Riley feels shame immediately after these. They were what started ‘the rumors and the whispers’ around him before he started attending hogwarts.

Slytherin traits(cunning, ambitious and a drive for success)-

Riley could have easily been placed in gryffindor due to his bold personality and decision making. But he best fit slytherin because of his unashamed ability to resort to manipulation and deception in order to get ahead of others or get what he wants. He’s aware of how important it is to make connections in order to get ahead in life. He keeps in mind everyone’s secrets that he discovers and information he gathers for future use(Just in case…). He’s not above blackmailing either. When he has his mind set on something he will see it to the end no matter how long it takes. He hates failing but he hates not taking initiative more. ‘What ifs’ and ‘but’ are things he tries actively to ignore.

#harry potter magic awakened #hpma #hpma mc #hpma oc #hp magic awakened #I tried emulating the style the best I could but It was a little difficult💀 #Tbh I’m still figuring him out hchdinddkj #but he IS a morally grey character #Daniel and my MC have a friendly rivalry sort of thing going on #specifically in dueling #they do butt heads often #bc they’re both stubborn teen boys with awful communication skills #he gets teased a lot for how clingy he is to Daniel but he’s unashamed about it #Riley loves hearing lottie info dump about art bc of how passionate she is about it but 70% of the time he’s lost #he tends to be a good listener so everyone just sort of gravitates towards him to vent or info dump about their interests #my art tag

[otter-pup]

so I have already been pretty quiet on here recently but uh. i kind of genuinely need to take a step back from sexual stuff for a while - nothing happened, i just think it is maybe a bit unhealthy how much of my time is taken up by Being Horny and Getting Off. like as much as those r both normal I do them too often, like. genuinely. idk when I’ll start being active again but thank u for understanding

#dm responses included in this unfortunately #like look I respect the naturalness of horniness and such. But holy shit #I’m genuinely spending multiple hrs a day. nearly every single day. just getting off. #like that’s not healthy for me #and if I admit it on here it will make it feel a little more like I actually have to commit lol #bc i was saying this this morning. and then spent multiple hours today getting off. #puppybarks #sorry for the vent in the tags im just. really frustrated w myself #and w my relationship w sex/pleasure atm #hoping I will feel better soon

[garoujo]

i’m not normally one to bring negative vibes onto my blog but i’ve gotten a sudden wave of unease being on here tbh so im considering drifting from here for a little bit once more. i’ve thought about creating a new blog but also wouldn’t want to waste the masterlist that i’ve worked hard to build for the people who enjoy my work + support me!

i’ve never had a super close circle of friends as such on here but i’m very grateful for the few friends i have made that continue to interact with me. i do really enjoy tumblr and i love creating, i’m grateful for the interaction i get and i know i’ve been on here a while but there always seems to be a sort of uneasiness that i feel stems from previous problems with other people on here.

it can feel a little silly from a blog like me feeling a little ‘outcasted’ and i don’t even know if i’d use that word, but i’ve just never been one that felt comfortable with the sort of underground, high school energy that i sometimes feel radiate around here. i guess i sometimes feel like i’m walking on egg shells to avoid sub posts / bad energy because i really only want to enjoy myself! but yeah, i’m gonna be less active for a few days atleast because i really need the rest anyway after my holiday + a few things on here have just sort of triggered my mental health.

but just know i love all of u, thank u for everything no matter what <3

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#ʚ・◞📎 — em entry. #cw vent #i’m gonna tag this cos ew it feels so gross to even post this like i don’t want sympathy i’m just spiralling i fear #idk sometimes i just get the random urge everyone is talking about me + normally i wouldn’t care …. #but if it hits at a bad moment w my anxiety / bpd it just sends me off the deep end sob

[zootopiathingz]

First pic with my dog Bella (seven years ago) vs the last (today)

Had to say goodbye to my sweet angel earlier. She was the best thing that ever happened to me. She got me through some really rough times and I’ll always be grateful that I had her in my life❤️

#idk how to tag this really I don’t want anyone reblogging or anything #just wanted to show off how beautifully she aged and how much I adored her #I miss her so much already #saying goodbye was the hardest thing I ever had to do #but I’m glad I did cuz I didn’t get to with my last dog #I wanted to be the last thing she saw and I was. and that’s all that matters #I’m glad I gave her a last good Christmas too #anyway y’all can ignore this I’m just venting #might delete later too idk

[thefanciestborrower]

Man,,,I’m so tired

#there’s always something going on somewhere in this community that I need to care about #Some problematic person or friend groups who hate each other #Characters you’re allowed or not allowed to draw #You have to like vore one of two hyper specific ways and if you go outside of that then YOU’RE the problematic one #Each part of the community keeps splitting off smaller and smaller and they all hate each other it feels like #Main fandoms hate you for existing and OCs get headcannoned beyond recognition #Idk how to tag this I’m just having a moment #I don’t even want to be in the ‘vore community’ I just want to post stuff #And not fear for my life if I post something slightly out of the norm #Like I like fatal and reformation and I like slightly spicier stuff between couples and I like familial and teens being goofy and #It just feels impossible to exist like that idk #Might delete later tbh #I’m just tired of all the rules and the feuds and the fighting #vent post

[honeypleasejustkillme]

i don’t think anyone could love me. there's so many things wrong with me,, im too broken. it hurts so much, i just want to be loved by someone..i want that safety

#actually bpd #actually mentally ill #bpd shitposting #bpd #actually borderline #bpd favorite person #bpd mood #bpd problems #bpd fp #bpd vent #i just want him to love me and be happy #i wish it was just us #no one else to take away his focus #then maybe he’d love me like i’m his #tw unrequited love in tags #unrequited pining #unrequited feelings #borderline fp #borderline fp mention in tags #beloved.txt

[interdimensionalvoid]

Having ex friends that you left because they hurt you is strange. I hate you and never want to see you again. I wish we could still be friends. I wish you the best. I hope you get fucking payback for how you hurt me. I wish I could make the hurt stop for you. I know how you’re feeling. Maybe i should reach out. I never want to talk to you again. Remember that one time we had fun and were friends. Did you ever like me. I miss you. You’re a fucking piece of shit. I need to let you go.

#I’m just ranting #this post is about someone specific but I’m not tagging them #friendship #ex friends #rant #vent

[trans-androgyne]

Genuinely what is it other people are seeing from transandrophobia that I haven’t seen all the months I’ve been in these tags. Has anyone reblogging the posts calling it transmisogynistic actually looked through the tag or read about the theory from any one who uses it. Now it’s calls for violence and saying trans men choose to be men and are immoral for it. I am screaming into the void.

#transandrophobia #where is the transmisogyny. please fucking point to where #what alternate definition are these people using #bc I use & have only ever used ‘the intersection of transphobia & misogyny’ with the newer addition of ‘+ non-hegemonic masculinity’ #not trans women are oppressors or trans men can’t be transmisogynistic or anything even having anything to do with trans women #I feel like I’m going insane #how did literally just wanting to talk about my experiences as a transmasc who experiences misogyny got me here somehow #intracommunity issues tag #vent #mine

[starswirly]

[ * Pros of self indulgent art: making what you crave and want to see in the world! ] [ * Cons: It’s not everyone’s niche ]

#Random Ramblings #And it’s totally fine! #It just stings when I have to remind myself of the fact I am in a very very niche area #Like being really proud of something and how it looks #posting it and the only people who pay it mind is like. Mutuals. #Okay this all sounds really ungrateful and bitter and I’m not!! I appreciate the fact that even one person is seeing it and bothering to #interact in a small way #But I create and post to SHARE these things I enjoy #and it feels like sometimes like I’m one of those newspaper boys in movies where they’re shouting and everyone is just running by #And more people notice than I realize I’m sure!! But. GSHSHDJDHJSD it’s hard to get out of my head #vent #the tags are #kinda

[theshadowrealmitself]

Really wish everyone wasn’t like “don’t go to college if you aren’t passionate about what you’re majoring in”

Like unfortunately I am not blessed enough to really have a passion, much less one I can major in and get a job about, and I am not privileged enough to just do fuck all until I somehow find that passion

So I’m gonna keep doing what gives me a direction in life, and maybe I’ll never find that passion, maybe I’m not someone who was made to love working, but if I can find a career that doesn’t overwork me while paying me enough that I can take a few days off every week and get vacation time to do hobbies, I’ll consider that the jackpot and it’ll be enough for me

#like some of us suffer from depression #and just don’t have passions #so a dream career was never on the table for us #and constant advice of ‘don’t do college if you aren’t actually passionate’ is not helpful #you wanna know what my first action is if I just stop going rn? hop off a bridge #you wanna know what my option is if I keep going? #I keep having a schedule #I have options around me to get internships #those internships will ideally lead to jobs #either directly or because it buffs up my resume #and then I just keep working #and maybe it’s not a job I love #but that was never the goal #the goal is to keep living #and it’s depressing but life is depressing when you have depression #the goal is just to get enough time to do hobbies that keep me happy and to afford living #which seems insurmountable rn but at least I have a direction for it #no fandom #I think this ended up being a vent post rather than a minor peeve #so I’m gonna tag it as #vent post

[traumatizedjaguar]

Some of my thoughts, do you relate?

You ever feel like you’re tricking or manipulating people into liking you? Like you believe you’re bad and ugly on the inside and need to expose it?

You can never be honest enough no matter what? Like you need to give every little detail and yet no matter how much you retell the truth it’s never enough?

You ever feel obsessed with the truth? Not just your story but everyone and everywhere too.

Injustices give you rage like when you see someone getting hurt you’re raging over it and desperately trying to help them no matter the cost it has on you? You don’t care if it fucking ends you, you’ll help no matter what? Like seeing bystanders makes you fill with rage, like how could they fucking just stand there and let something happen? Feeling like you don’t care what abuse, torture or anything you’d go through, you’d help the vulnerable no matter what.

#my text #but I’m not #I’m literally perfect and beautiful and deserving of all the love in the universe #I was made for and out of love #cptsd #cptsd healing #cptsd tag #cptsd vent #just cptsd things #cptsd thoughts #obviously though you know you’re not manipulating people consciously then you’re not manipulating people #its just a nagging thought but it isn’t true if you know you’re trying to be honest #anybody relate? #actuallyabused #ahhhhh

[welcometogrouchland]

[ID: a sketch page of various drawings of Willow Park from the owl house. From left to right the drawings are: timeskip willow playing flyer derby, Willow in her season 1 casual outfit next to her in her season 3 Halloween costume, Willow as Anne in an amphibia au, young willow doing pottery with her dad Gilbert, young willow and amity holding hands/hugging and smiling, and willow looking at clover, who's perched on her finger and wearing a dress and wig made of yarn so as to resemble Willow. Willow is trying to hold back laughter while clover looks unamused. In the center is a drawing of Willow drawing a large spell circle with her staff, and the title of the sketch page reads "willow week 2023", with each drawing labeled as a specific day/prompt, such as day 3: flyer derby/fav on-screen outfit, day 1: crossover, day 2: childhood/father-daughter, or day 1: palismen bonding. Drawings 2, 6, and 7 are coloured while the rest are uncoloured. The background is a scribbly green. End ID]

hi I’m only a month or so late to it BUT! Nearly out of the mines (finals) and that means i can post the sketch page i worked on for Willow Week! Hosted by @agrebel18

#the owl house #toh #willow park #willow week 2023 #gilbert park #amity blight #eh yeah. They’re there too #anyway i had. So many issues regarding the quality of this drawing man #I MADE THE CANVAS TOO GOTDANG BIG!!! #im gonna draft this first and then do a quality review #anyway i wanted to do willow week back when it was actually running but like i said. Ihave been in the mines #almost out though! Just gotta get through Wednesday #still kinda going insane in my enclosure though. Idk if its a period mood swing or if imjust drinking internet pond water #and thats why I’m starting to think evil thoughts #ive just been watching jerma play simpsons hit and run #fr though I’m being digitally waterboarded i need to go to a social excursion so bad #god. I missed posting art just to vent in the tags. Exhilarating. This is my therapy #anyway hope you enjoy this aggie and all other willow enjoyers #also i missed posting abt the 2 month anniversary of the finale #im not coping <3