#I've drawn so many piercing recently

[cactus-of-the-dead]

I'm in the worst mood ever but this idea came in and wouldn't leave so I had to draw it

#he kinda pretty tho #I've drawn so many piercing recently #it's making me want some ngl #hypnosis mic #rule the stage #danjo oogumo #itonokai #dotsuitare hompo #bad ass temple #dotonbori divers

[deerspherestudios]

Hey! I just recently met and went through the demo of "Mushroom Oasis", and I already have so many questions! I hope I won't be too intrusive. You may not answer some questions if the answers contain spoilers.

Questions about the game: 1.Will it be possible to choose the MC gender? Is it possible to choose the gender of the cat in the same way? It's just that when I started the game, I named the cat after my cat and it was a little funny to me when the pronoun of the cat was "she" when my cat is male.

Will we be able to choose some kind of "style" for the MC, according to the type of clothing, at the beginning of the game?

Questions about Michael:

Does he see the world like an ordinary person? I mean he has 2 pairs of eyes and 3 pairs of pupils. And it baffles me.

If the MC suddenly goes out alone and doesn't come back by midnight, will Mychael worry about the MC and will he go looking for the MC?

How does Mychael feel about piercings and tattoos? Does he know about it? If so, would he like a piercing/tattoo?

I wonder where Mychael gets things for the house. That is, I saw that he had a broom, thread and knitting needles. Where did he get them???

If Mychael saw me (I'm 164 cm tall and I have red hair), would he think I'm some kind of witch, because of the color of my hair, or something like that? How would he react if he saw me?

And sorry for the mistakes, I used google translator. English is not my native language :( I also want to say that I am your fan from Latvia (I don’t know why I’m saying this, I just want to please you with the fact that you have a fan from the Baltic countries)

Oop!! Ty for the questions!! Let me try and answer em under the cut, since it might end up as a pretty long post hahaha. But hi hello!!! I'm always happy to know where my fans come from, it's always a surprise for me to see people around the globe enjoy my silly little game ;v;

Questions about the game:

1. Will it be possible to choose the MC gender? Is it possible to choose the gender of the cat in the same way?

Being nonbinary, I just choose not to mention pronouns when writing for the game, so anyone can fit in their shoes. Unless it comes to a point where I have to use it, I'll probably code in a pronoun tool but for now it doesn't seem necessary! As for the cat, that's a good suggestion. Perhaps I'll try coding it in for the next update so the cat can be male or female, according to player preference!

2. Will we be able to choose some kind of "style" for the MC, according to the type of clothing, at the beginning of the game?

Probably not, as I'm not really good at setting that up in Ren'Py. I did make an MC design though! But what they look like is entirely up to you. I've drawn a POV shot of them wearing jeans and sneakers but that's about it. They can look however you like!

Questions about Mychael:

1. Does he see the world like an ordinary person?

He does! Trigger warning for unsettling iris images if you wanna look this up, but his bottom pair is kinda what people with polycoria has. Except it's normal for him, and not really a condition. His vision is normal, he just has lotsa peepers.

2. If the MC suddenly goes out alone and doesn't come back by midnight, will Mychael worry about the MC and will he go looking for the MC?

Yes? He didn't save you just to have you running off into danger again. He'd absolutely track you down and find you.

3. How does Mychael feel about piercings and tattoos? Does he know about it? If so, would he like a piercing/tattoo?

He knows about it, but not enough to really understand how it works! He finds it fascinating humans decorate their bodies with shiny beads and jewels, and turn their skin into tapestries for art. He'd probably assume you can take them off any time and that the tattoos are drawn onto the skin.

I don't imagine he'd want a piercing, but he'd probably try a tattoo! (Until he realizes it's ink going under the skin, in which case he might change his mind haha)

4. I wonder where Mychael gets things for the house. Where did he get them???

He has his ways ::-)

5. How would he react if he saw me?

He wouldn't be reacting much to how you look. You're not the first human he's seen! He's been around plenty of them, but you'd be one of the few he's interacted with the longest. And that's what makes you stand out more than anything else.

Phew that was a big ask!! But thank you for the interest :-D!! Hope everything's good in Latvia!

#mushroom oasis vn #mychael ask #cheea chatter #bts

[kindlistener]

(The meme is not by me.)

If you fancy learning more about me and my writing, feel free to venture below the cut.

KindListener/ArcaneChariot are the main usernames I go by on Tumblr/AO3/X/etc.

I write for many, many, many pairings, such as; Borsalino/Taro Midori (OC), Cap Hatfield/Theodore Stanhope (OC), Don Pierce/Kurt Ackerman (OC), Dorian Grey/Basil Hallward, Eli Klaber/Stephan Wolff (OC), Shang Tsung/Liu Kang, The Corinthian/Alistair Moreau (OC), Viktor Vector/V as well as a whole bunch of /Reader stuff and that's just scratching the surface! Recently, I've been writing Henry Christmas/FTM!Reader/George Moody, Herbie (Gypsy)/M!Reader, Nicky Frazer/M!Reader, Tristan Farnon/Gordon Abram (OC) and other pairings involving Petey characters.

Honestly, I don't read all that much that isn't my work because I'm usually writing, studying or planning to write.

I've always been a writer, even back before I was on the internet, back in the olden days. 👴🏻👴🏻 I once made a TA cry after I unknowingly wrote a gorefic when I was 11. I still feel bad about that...

The first fic I wrote and posted was actually a gift for my brother. It was a Dorian Grey fic because we were both into the movie at the time.

My favourite fic is difficult. I've written a lot that I'm very proud of, such as this Don Pierce fic, this Miracle Guy fic (don't knock it til you try it) and my most recent Trissy fic. But, honestly, I take pride in my art and I try to give people the best content possible.

I couldn't really say which one has been my hardest fic. Honestly, I just kind of give the fic a starting point and some themes/plot-beats and then I let it run it's course. The hardest, I suppose, might be 'The Angel and the Preacher' because it made me question my own spirituality and morality which was quite intense.

Hmm... Research... Honestly probably either 'Safe Haven' or 'The Angel and the Preacher' because you may not realise it but there's a lot to giving birth/being a priest who struggles with his faith/etc. I remember watching so many videos on labour and giving birth and just frantically writing down notes. Still, they were interesting fics to write.

Honestly, the fics most near and dear to my heart tend to be ones I work on with friends; whether that be RPs (like I've done with @the-broken-quill and Lu) or fics that have had art drawn in tandem (like 'The Angel and the Preacher' with @bludpudding's beautiful, beautiful stained glass artwork). I really like sharing my hyperfixes with my friends and making art together. 💛💛

My favourite trope (if you could call it that) would probably be writing trans/intersex characters, usually FTM. As a FTM person myself, I can write from the perspective of a trans person (of course, not all experiences are the same but I tell it from my perspective) and I enjoy getting to get those thoughts and feelings down on paper because it's definitely not represented enough in the fanfic community. However, if we're talking about kinks and things that tend to come up in my work, it'd probably be giving oral or face-fucking or like a daddy kink or something. ISAOJVISAJVVUSDJ

This is detailed on my Caard but I don't write straight, necro, rape, scat or underage content (even though I've been asked to write these previously). F/M content; I don't write straight stuff because I can't really relate to straight people RIP. Necro; I feel it's disrespectful. Underage; just no. Scat; is gross (sorry, scat fans). And rape/SA; I have personal experience with so I don't enjoy sexualising/glorifying it. I have written rape recovery stories, like with this Campion fic, but otherwise I can't stand it.

I couldn't tell you about my favourite scene but I do enjoy the scene in this fic where the Second Corinthian returns to the grave of one of his victims and is approached by the victim's brother. It's a scene about redemption and it was really nice, expanding on the Souvenirs comic like that.

I get my inspiration from many different places. Sometimes it just kind of pops in your head and you're suddenly planning out dialogue for a specific scene and sometimes it's just little scenes like this (where Tris is pretending to be a dog and, of course, I get thinking about pet play)...

The hardest scene I ever wrote... It may be the beginning of this fic, where Devon (my OC) gets the idea to pick up a homeless person and dress them up for a gala they're going to, in order to keep themselves from being forced out of their rich family. It's difficult juggling the struggles of not being accepted by your family, disability and homelessness. Of course, none of them are equal and all are horrible issues to have but trying to keep the main character sympathetic in such a situation is definitely difficult.

My favourite characterisation might be in 'Safe Haven'. Seeing Don Pierce go from being this rough, tough mercenary to the caring father of twins was definitely a journey that I had to go on with him.

God, I want to write continuations to so many fics. The first choice would be writing a continuation to 'The Angel and the Preacher', which is in the works but it's a very emotion-heavy work so it requires absolute concentration and I'd be scared of it not being as good as the first chapter. Possibly a sequel to this fic but, again, I'd be scared of it not being as good as the first part.

This is all my OC work ever. Because OCs take a lot of getting used to and a lot of characterisation and a lot of lore-building, I feel like a lot of readers just want something they can pick up and instantly know what's going on. But I'm also guilty of being lazy and not wanting to do all the world-building and character design and lore so I'm just as bad. But, whenever I post a Character/OC work, I'm always scared that my views will go down and that's definitely reflected in my stats. Still, when I do write for my OCs, I really enjoy it.

"Mmmnn... You're not a shark, you're a puppy, but I can work with that. I'll make you the cruelest, most devious mutt at the firm... Soon enough, you'll be able to rip your colleagues apart and you'll thank me for it. Isn't that what you want?" (from an unposted Callahan WIP.)

'WOW that was amazing! the story, the characters and of course the second part. i was giggling and blushing like a little innocent girl. thank you very much it's a great work!' Honestly, it's the little things. People don't have to pour their hearts out to me and gush about my work. Just little comments like that make my day. 🥹🥹

I have so many WIPs and discontinued works, whether that be from just switching hyperfixes or being booted out of a fanbase. 🥲🥲 But, for the most part, I manage to finish my fics, even if it's like getting blood from a stone...

Personally, I'm subscribed to bludpudding, FanFicReader01, QuoteMyFoot and ZeroEchoBravoSeven.

I would recommend some fics but I just spent ages doing the links and Tumblr didn't like it so like just here's the link to my bookmarks. Go wild.

This was really fun! I hope you got something out of this and maybe even added a couple fics to your reading list.

If you got this far, I love you and I hope you have a wonderful day. 💛💛

#on writing

[pangolinheart]

I was tagged by @irisopranta so here's a little trivia!

Share your wallpaper: It's... just the default MSI wallpaper (I have commitment issues lol.) I could probably use a screenshot or a commission of a suitable dimensions, but meeehhhhh.

My mobile wallpaper is this Dragon Age Tarot-style commission from @needapotion

I've been thinking about changing it, but I'm not sure to what.

The last song you listened to: The Sharpest Lives by My Chemical Romance (I mostly listen to music while driving. Shockingly this song is not on any of my many playlists)

Currently reading: Uuuuhhhh I don't read as much as I should, but when I do I've been bouncing between: The Death and Life of Schneider Wrack by Nate Crowley, which I really enjoy but have been trying to finish for like a year and half (it's not long i'm just lazy). An inventive nautical zombie romp with a dash of social commentary.

Asian Ghost Short Stories: An Anthology of New and Classic Tales. The intersection of folklore, horror, and culture was the topic of both of my undergrad senior papers, though they mostly focused on Japan. I've already read most of the traditional Japanese stories in this book, but I don't know very much about ghosts in other Asian Countries, so it's been an interesting read! I was also drawn to it because it contains translations of new short horror stories by unpublished Asian authors. The Black Bestiary: A Phantasmagoria of Monsters and Myths from the Phillipines by Budjette Tan (Author), David Hontiveros, Kajo Baldisimo (Illustrator), and Bow Guerrero  (Illustrator). See above. This book is really interesting, because it's an illustrated compedium of myths and monsters, but the entries are written from the perspective of modern-day monster hunters recording their experiences in a journal. Apparently it's a sequel to a book called The Lost Journal of Alejandro Pardo, which I'll have to pick up sometime. The art is very cool. One of the illustrators, Kajo Baldisimo, is the main illustrator of a comic series called Trese that semi-recently received an animated adaptation with audio available in both English and Tagalog. I've been meaning to consume both of these at some point as well.

Last Movie: Uuuuuhhhhhh.... I'm not much of a movie person, so I don't really remember, but I guess maybe Dune?

Craving: Curry and rice (I'll make some the next time everyone else is out of the house >_>)

What are you wearing right now? Black leggings and a sweatshirt with the word "Catnip" over a collage of images of cats and slogans like "Cheap Thrills" in the style of an old-school Reefer Madness poster.

How tall are you: 5'4 (164.56 cm) (People always say "I thought you were taller!" Including someone i worked with in-person for more than a month-and-a-half.)

Piercings: Just the boring regular ear piercings.

Tattoos: None, sadly. See: fear of commitment

Glasses? Contacts? Neither.

Last drink: Ice water (I'm trying to drink more water, but I'd rather gargle metal shavings than drink room-temperature water.)

Last show: Hmm this one was also a while ago. I think it was Dragon Age: Absolution.

Last thing you ate: Pork roast (bleh) and potatoes for dinner.

Favorite color: This is a cop-out but I like lots of colors. I guess maybe green, orange or red? But I also like white, black, most shades of blue (navy can get fucked), purple, yellow, pink, silver/gray, etc.

Current obsession: FFXIV

Unrelated obsession: Dice! I love hand-made ttrpg dice sets! They're so pretty and unique! Sadly, not playing in any actual games has not put a damper on my bankruptcy-inducing dice habit.

Any pets: Two cats (Hansel and Gretel) and a dog (Isabella).

Do you have a crush on anyone? Nah.

Favorite fictional character: This one is really hard... There are probably so many I'm forgetting. The Justice of Toren/Breq from the Imperial Radch series, Matthew Swift from the Matthew Swift series, Alistair from DA:O, Anders, Fenris, and Isabela from DA2. Garrus from Mass Effect. Esteem from FFXIV, Alisaie from FFXIV (though I also really like Haurchefant, Y'shtola, Hilda, Ysayle, and Fordola.)

Honorable mentions to the characters I used to have keychains of on my pen case (I would try to encourage shier, nerdier students to talk to me by watching/playing things that were popular with high schoolers and putting my favorite character from the media on my pen case, which students would get very excited about): Chuuya from Bungo Stray Dogs, Childe from Genshin Impact, and Cu Chulainn from various Fate-related media.

The last place you traveled: Uhhhh I guess my last major trip was to... here (America)! My last "vacation" was to Sapporo (that was right before the pandemic.) I do occasionally take shorter day trips to towns around my area, but the furthest afield I've been recently is Grand Marais in the Upper Peninsula of Michigan.

I will be in Las Vegas for the FFXIV Fan Expo this summer though!

Tagging: I think everyone I interact with has already been tagged in this, but if you haven't done it and want to here is your unofficial tag!

#rambling #about auggie

[celestialhighwind]

The Song Begins

There. She had stopped just to the left of the fire that I had kindled but only a few bells ago, the fresh stew aroma wafting in the scent of Ishgard spices and the snow wolf who had also wandered too far into the cave this morning for my comfort. Was she, too, after my food I wonder? Nay, this woman had eaten recently, a feeling, or a word, bleeds from her aura and plants a warm whisper in my hair. 

She is looking around the camp, her emerald eyes shimmering from the angle of light, wandering to the furthest mountains of which the cliff overlooks, seemingly enjoying the same view that I regularly do, the reason that I've taken to settling here many nights at a time. Her red hair is striking, looking black in the shadows of the cavern walls, but the evening sun giving its final peak just over the shorter, western wall, allows the golden undertones to pierce my eyes, reflecting the sun’s climax just before last light is extinguished, glowing vibrant hues alike to the fire beside her. Rays from individual strands reflect like a crystal back to me, almost giving away my position above and North of the camp. 

I should make haste back into the shadows. But if I do, surely she would see the movement from the corner of her eyes from this angle. Deciding there is no way to keep from being detected, I quickly make the decision to confront her instead. If she turns out to be an enemy, well, I'm prepared. With a deep breath of the frigid air in anticipation, I leap to the ground in one swift, stealthy motion, the earth forcing out a sigh in response. Clearly she either has good hearing, or sharp senses as well, because she was quick to leap backwards, weapon already drawn before my feet hit the ground. Who exactly is she? Before I could speak, I felt what could only be described as a low familiar hum throughout my veins. There is no sound, but it calls to me. To listen to its song. Celestial. One word coursing through my blood, making its way to the small vessels in my lips threatening the name to be spoken. 

As still as the Coerthan ice, she remains silent, studious. Should I ask why she is here? Nay, an image of Alberic overlays the scene as a brief slither across my mind. I knew he would send someone after me, but this was sooner than I had anticipated. Before I could say anything, a sudden electric sensation tugged at my chest. A warm sensation, growing burning hot, what is this? A light glowing from inside my armour, but how is it…. Nay, why is it reacting now? There are no dragons about currently, and it usually glows red, not white. The only time it has ever shone so brightly was when Alberic had presented it to me! Surely this can’t mean…. How??

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I came upon a clearing with a fresh fire and something cooking. It smelled pretty good, and I almost wished that I hadn’t filled up on knight's bread in Dragonhead instead of having something with fresh herbs like I used to enjoy in Gridania. Whatever was in the pot definitely was NOT bland smelling, that’s for sure. Trying to pick out the flavors that overjoyed my senses, I stepped closer to the fire. That sensation has overwhelmed me yet again. Not quite like the echo,  I’ve grown accustomed to pushing it away in my mind since childhood. So many times have I been picked on for having an active imagination, never knowing what was normal and what was not. All I knew how to do was put on a mask of normalcy. I was a chameleon, mimicking the normalcy around me until nobody gave me a second thought. I'm sure that's why I always agree to help others, to not be seen as queer.

Waving those emotions away as I always did, I am taken aback, as I step further into the clearing and see the breathtaking view in front of me. Now absent of the walls that my eyes had just grown accustomed to, a picture perfect scene of the marbled grays upon whites and blues of the mountain range consuming all but a small upper portion of the sky, which the marbled clouds threatened to consume in a symphony. Whoever built this camp is not one to take the essence of the natural world for granted, and is definitely well experienced in ventures themselves. 

A soft melodic vibration within my body makes me turn quickly to my aggressor, akin to two opposing magnetically charged stones…. Is he an aggressor? No, this is who Alberic was talking about. A man in onyx armour had appeared, seemingly out of nowhere. Why does he seem so familiar? Have we crossed paths before? He takes something out of his armour that blinds me in an all consuming, vibrant light, though I am unsure what it is. A soulstone? A crystal of light…? As quickly as the man had appeared, he was gone before any words could be exchanged, leaving behind only a bluish purple hue with his name impressed upon my aether. Estinien. 

#estinien x reader #estinien x wol #first fanfic #be gentle #slow burn #very slow burn #angst incoming

[sunball]

WHAT IS GOING ON IN YOUR PERSON'S LIFE RIGHT NOW + A MESSAGE FROM THEM

𖦹 this reading includes what is going on in your person’s life right now, what they (or their higher self) want to say to you at this moment and songs they'd like to give you. this reading is more about your future spouse or your future partner, someone who you may not be in contact with but you're curious about what they're doing.

𖦹 so there will be two paragraphs for each pile (what your person is doing and what they want to say to you). you can choose more than one pile. ex: pile 1 for what your person is doing and pile 2 for the message.

𖦹 how does this work? close your eyes and take deep breaths, pick the pile you are most drawn to. If you aren’t drawn to any pile then that’s okay, these messages aren’t for you.

𖦹 take what resonates.

THE PILES

PILE 01

now playing:

now playing:

pile 01's songs

THEIR LIFE

hello pile 01, welcome to your reading. I'm getting a lot of fire energy here, especially leo. I'm hearing Leo in 1st and 10th house, aries in 8th house, aries mars, mars in 10th house and also Venus in 2nd and 3rd house. I'm also getting gemini and capricorn. capricorn mars, aquarius venus. If these aren't your placements then they're most likely your person's placements. or perhaps, those are their transits. I feel a lot of confident energy from your person, I think they are at a good place right now. Your person has been betrayed and heartbroken quite recently but I feel like they're not trying to let that get to them. they're keeping their head high, focusing on their goals and working really hard. the pain motivated them to work hard, maybe as a way to get revenge? In their head, they may think that if they work hard, they can show off their success to the person that broke them like "hey, look at me now!". for some others, it's possible that they're working really hard because the work distracts them from the pain and the situation. they're acting like the pain isn't affecting them, I'm seeing them just laughing and hanging out with a group of people (their friends?) acting like theyre not dealing with any problems. your person is definitely at a period of time where work is only on their mind, they're hungry for success. success is the only thing your person is heading towards, it's the only direction they see. love isn't on your person's mind at all so I doubt that you've crossed their mind. but little do they know, the direction that they're heading towards will also lead them to you. your person may have travelled somewhere recently or maybe they're thinking of travelling somewhere else. there is change on the horizon for your person, maybe they will be promoted soon or moving countries, going to university, etc. they are so ambitious. I'm seeing piles of paper on desks, papers stuck on walls with dates and notes on them and also quotes. motivational quotes perhaps. your person is also working out, they could be getting up quite early. 6 am? I'm getting mad mars in 6th house vibes from your person. they're feeling burnt out, they have so much on their plate but they're not stopping anytime soon because they like it and also because they have no choice. they're also taking many responsibilities, I'm hearing house chores, work and looking after their parents or siblings. your person could be a student, a business person or they could work in an office. they're organizing their workspace and keeping track of their schedule, getting ready for the next chapter of their life. laziness is not in your person's vocabulary!

THEIR MESSAGE

you know, I am so busy right now. I'm too exhausted to even think about love, to think about you. I don't think about it anymore unlike before. I know at times you feel like we're nowhere close and you doubt my existence because of how distant I feel and I'm sorry. It is partially true, we're nowhere close to eachother and we're both individual human beings. let's live in the present and experience things and meet new people without having to think about eachother. I don't feel right about thinking of the future and just hoping for something to happen, hoping to just end up with someone like you. It doesn't feel right. I need to do something, I need to take action. that's exactly what I'm doing now. It gives me a sense of stability knowing that I'm taking action and there's a high possibility of my dreams coming true. I've promised myself that I won't stop working until I've achieved everything. I can't do all of this by myself, I need your help too. I'm asking you a favour, do your part. I'm doing mine. work hard and don't slack off. I'm sorry again for sounding cold, I'm not like this on a daily basis. I'm just really tired. I need to get my point across. don't slack off. please. I'll keep saying that. oh, that reminds me. at times I will definitely sound like a teacher or a boss, it's just a habit I got from work. It's not my intention to make you feel stupid, I know you're smart. I wanted you to know that because I don't want you to think I'm generally a cold person. I'm not. when tarot readers or psychics or astrologers or whoever says that I'm cold, they only mean when I'm at work or when I'm busy or serious. I would never be like that to someone I love, especially you. truthfully speaking, you don't know much about me at all especially if you think I'm a cold person. that thought you have of me stops now. I'm guessing that you're curious about me now. I like to look neat and clean, I don't like bright colours, they look unprofessional. I hang out with my friends sometimes and we just have lunch at a café or a local restaurant. I'm on my computer a lot so my back always hurts but I'm doing exercises to help me with it. I have too many cookbooks that I don't use because I don’t have much time, I end up freestyling my food and cooking up some eggs. I need to get better at managing time. I don't like people that don't practice what they preach, it irritates me. now for my appearance. this, in no way is useful information that will help us in any way but I suppose I'll just tell you. I have a sharp nose, it's pointy and a little wide. I don't have any piercings. I don't have bangs. as for my eyes, they're brown and deep-set. my lips? they're just lips. you'll love them anyway so it doesn't matter. my hair? neat and brown. you'll love it too. that's enough. you can stop trying to get to know me now, leave that for when we meet. you can know me more yourself when the time comes, I like the process of getting to know someone and the effort someone puts into getting to know me. until then, keep working hard.

PILE 02

now playing:

pile 02's songs

THEIR LIFE

I’m getting cancer energy from the pile, also pisces and gemini and libra. I’m hearing cancer/pisces/ libra venus, venus in 5th/7th/12th house, pisces moon, mercury in 7th house, cancer in 2nd house, gemini rising. if these aren’t your placements then they’re most likely your person’s, if not then these may be their transits. right now I feel like your person is trying something new, especially a hobby. I’m getting ‘painting’ for some of you. for others, your person has started something new like a project or they moved to a new house, something like that. there’s this feeling of ‘newness’ in your person’s life right now. they have so much passion for whatever this ‘newness’ is. they’re excited for this change, they can’t wait to move to the next stage. I’m feeling a positive energy coming from your person. their creativity is flowing through their blood, they feel inspired and joyous. some of you may not like to hear this but your person may have gotten in a relationship with someone or they want to get into a relationship with someone. they have a crush. I feel like there’s still an important choice to be made and your person has waited such a long time for the next stage, the relationship stage. I feel like their crush or their partner isn’t showing them that much attention, it feels quite one sided (your person giving more), they’re doing so much for their crush/partner but I feel like your person isn’t seeing it right, they’re just so blinded. like a little kid when they have a crush. If you don’t like what you’re hearing, don’t worry, they’re your person for a reason. anyways for others of you, I’m seeing your person listening to music while they’re doing their new hobby. painting is coming really strong, I’m seeing an easel. If it’s not a hobby then your person is feeling in love, whether it be a person or something else. their head is in the clouds, they’re listening to love songs, feeling so inspired by everything around them. love and venus themes is really important in your person’s life right now. If you’ve been listening to love songs recently or if you just feel all lovey-dovey, it’s most likely because of your person, you’re connected to your person. or if you feel inspired out of nowhere, it’s probably because of your person too. I just felt like I had to let you know that. sooner or later though, your person will realise that the relationship is one sided and they will give up on it. this will hit your person really hard, it will be a hard lesson for them. perhaps even the last lesson because I feel like your person has always done too much for people that don’t deserve their love. your person has experienced a lot and learnt many lessons except for this, when they learn this though, they will have learnt all the lessons. they can tick this off their box. I’m getting such wise Pisces vibes from them. for lots of you, your person is already in the 'realisation' stage and there's about to be a change in their life.

THEIR MESSAGE

It’s been challenging these days, maybe even these past few weeks and maybe even months too. It’s fine though, I can get through it. you don’t have to worry about me. I have a gut feeling that something is going to happen soon, disappointments? I’m not surprised, I’ve been so stuck in my own head. I don’t know why I keep giving people more. so stupid of me. maybe it’s not my fault? maybe it’s their fault for giving less, who knows. I don’t know how to stop. why do I do this? I keep getting disappointed over and over again, I’m starting to not have hope anymore. despite this, I still think love is beautiful. with the right person. love is not only limited to romantic love though, which is what I’ve learnt recently. I’ve been so fixated on romantic relationships that I’ve forgotten about the beautiful things around me. surprisingly, there’s love everywhere. do you know what I love? I love the stars, I love flat white coffee, I love the smell of fresh grass, I love nature and the sun, I love dogs (especially small dogs) and I love experiences. experiences that shape me into a better person, painful or not, I love those. not to sound masochistic – but I love pain. I learn from pain. love has always been painful for me but I’m still giving people my all, wrong people to be precise. Is that why I keep falling for people that don’t care about me? because I love getting hurt? now that I’ve thought of it, it sounds terrible. I need to fix that. I feel embarrassed now that you know this, please don’t shake your head. I will fix it. I want this cycle to end. don’t be worried about me. you should continue living your life, there’s yet so much you can experience. places to go, new people to meet, new activities to do. so much. I’d love to experience so many things with you. do you like road trips? I’d love to go on a picnic date too, does stargazing sound good? we could travel around the world, that’s on my bucket list. so many ideas but there’s still so much distance and time between us. I feel excited thinking about it, I want to do so much right now and experience so many things. by the time we meet, I might already have a long white beard because I’ll be so wise *laughs*. who knows, white hair does look awesome. I think it might suit me actually. on a serious note, I want you to know that you should not be afraid to try new things. don't be afraid of change. regret is scarier than change, staying in the same place and not growing is scarier than change. you may lose something good but what if you gain something even better? I’ll be there for you every step of the way, I’m always there for you even though I’m not there with you physically. do you feel me? I’m so proud of you. If you see an opportunity, take it or you’ll regret it later. don’t be afraid of saying no or saying yes, you deserve to be heard, assert your dominance *laughs*. I love you, take care of yourself. you can do it. [:

PILE 03

now playing:

pile 03's songs

THEIR LIFE

I'm getting mutable and fixed energy here, especially scorpio, virgo, leo, sagittarius. maybe scorpio rising and sagittarius rising with pluto in 1st house. I'm hearing saturn in 8th house, saturn in 22°, scorpio sun or moon aspecting saturn, pluto and sun or moon sitting in the same house. if these aren't your placements then they're most likely your person's. these could be their transits too. your person is going through a transformation, something had recently happened in their life that has caused this transformation. I'm thinking it's death, a death of a loved one like a family member, a friend or a pet. someone close to them. If it's not a death of a loved one then it's a death of a cycle, a death of a job, a relationship, something like that. something that came to an end. it's affecting your person badly and they feel so much guilt. they're missing and mourning over whatever this is. they're pessimistic, they feel like the whole world is against them and that their would turned upside down. they have no hope anymore, they're not seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm seeing that image of Yuu Otasaka from the anime Charlotte. I think your person is exactly like that right now. depressed. I see tissues, dark rooms and hoodies and blankets. also gaming for a number of you (interesting how the picture you chose is a picture of keys). they're going through it right now and they need support. your person is not communicating with many people or interacting with anyone at all, they're pushing people away. looking at the picture of the pile you chose, I realised it says "wish you were here". now this could mean that they wish that the person they lost were still with them or they wish that someone could come and support them or comfort them, or for a few amount of you, this could be meaning you. they wish you were there with them. however, I don't think love is a thought that comes in their mind in this period of time. it's more like, they're screaming into a void wishing someone could hear them, not directly meaning you. for others of you, I'm getting a different situation. your person may have gotten fired or they tried something but it didn't work out and they had so much hope for it. they badly wanted it to work out and now your person is feeling disappointed in themselves, like someone just ripped away something really valuable to them. your person doesn't know that the reason this, whatever this is, didn't work out is because it wasn't meant to. It's not part of their divine plan. It honestly saved your person from future problems but they don't know that. It's a blessing in disguise. I'm strongly feeling it's something related to their job or maybe love, 'right place, wrong time' is what I'm hearing. your person is blaming themselves for it all, thinking it was because of time, lack of planning or they didn't try hard enough. It isn't true, they should be easy on themselves.

THEIR MESSAGE

I don't know what to say. I don't feel like saying much. why do you want to know anyway? do you care? am I interesting? I'm not all that special, you know. here I go again, making sh*t sad. I'll try and make this light-hearted as possible because you shouldn't see this side of me, not so soon. not like this. *silence* I'll start off by saying that you can't control whatever life throws at you. but you can control your reactions and how you deal with it. I'm not doing very well, not dealing with it the way I usually do. It hit me hard and I don't like being sad like this and not doing anything, not wanting to get out of bed, not wanting to talk to anyone, not finding joy in the things I love doing. I hate this f*cking feeling and the way I'm dealing with it. I heard that you should let yourself feel everything once in a while. I'm f*cking feeling everything alright. why did I not let myself feel before? now it's all consuming me. all of my problems and emotions, this darkness inside of me, erupting. I regret this. I regret acting like I was fine before, finding distractions. now I know that being distracted doesn't necessarily mean that it's gone, the problem is still there. don't do what I did. let yourself feel. or it will all build up and eat you alive. you don't want that. I don't want that. I don't want you to be sad, god no. definitely not like this. but if being sad will help you then that's certainly fine by me, just don't act like you're fine. that will hurt me much more. just do what I say. showing emotions is not a sign of weakness. look at me, I'm so f*cked up because of not thinking that. this feeling will go away, right? right. If you need to let it all out, do it. I can feel your sadness, the nights you cried, I felt them. those tears of yours, I want to wipe them away but I'm not there. it sucks. I need you here. I need a good f*cking hug right now. I want you to be happy but I don't know how. I'd do anything to see that smile of yours. that precious smile that I have yet to see. I know it's precious. listen to me. I need you. I need you to stay strong. you're so strong and much more emotionally intelligent than I am. I am so in awe. your strength gives me energy, you give me energy. you're the light of my life. I hope our kids will be as beautiful and as amazing as you. I'm glad I was given the chance to talk to you like this. I love you, sunshine.

#pick a card #pick a card reading #pac #tarot reading #pick a pile #pick a pile reading #pick a card tarot #astrology observations #pick a pile tarot #sunballtarot #pac reading #pac tarot #free readings

[hardoncaulfield]

Speech Time, Hera Lindsay Bird

Transcript under cut

Four score and seven years ago our fathers brought forth on this continent, a new nation, conceived in liberty, and dedicated to the proposition that all men are created equal. That's how Abraham Lincoln started the Gettysburg address and he got murdered in a theatre. That's also how I have started my speech but I won't be murdered in a theatre When I die, it will be an old-time injury, like falling into a threshing machine.

I am always making speeches, but speeches are a waste of time The only useful speech is one where you enumerate someone's many failures until they burst into tears But if anyone is bursting into tears today it will be me I just want to lie naked on a deckchair, fanning myself with divorce papers

I have called this speech 'speech time' so you will know it's time for speeches. Anything can be a speech if you say it out loud for long enough This is not freedom of speech, this is just extreme oratorial leeway It's hot piss, melting the toilet ice

Speeches exist for the purpose of making other people think what you think But I don't want just anyone to be able to think what I think It's like if paisley were a natural resource, and people had to mine for it You have to be stupid enough to want to

I've been making a lot of speeches recently because I published a book And more than a book people like to hear you talk about your book People don't like books they like speeches But not this speech .......

People don't want to hear poetry, they want to hear people talking about poetry People don't want to hear poetry, they want to go home and not read poetry and so do I The only reason for poetry is to have a meadow in which to burn yourself alive in A picturesque meadow, with bonus violets

I am bored of making speeches I have to say so many things I don't care about It reminds me of life It reminds me of when you are a cowboy and your hat gets too heavy

There is nothing in this world really worth saying Being clever is a waste of time I just want to sit around in Swarovski earrings and let old men debate my literary merits ...but I don't even have my ears pierced

A speech is the opposite of a poem A speech is telling people what to think, but I don't know what should be thought Sometimes it seems to me like other people aren't even trying to tell the truth Like, when I watch porn I like it to be the retro kind when you can't see the dick go in

Forget this speech, I'm changing the title The new title of this speech is 'poem time' because this is poem time not speech time It's like when it's your first day as a soldier and you show up to the wrong war Or like sexily cleaning the coliseum with a black feather duster

It's like panicking because your castle is too beautiful Or an advent calendar for atheists full of empty windows It's like pouring cold champagne all over your thighs Or an evil piano that can only be played at midnight

A poem should never be a tourniquet You have to let the blood goes where it wants It's like trying to log into your email account but your password makes you too sad It's like Shakespeare ...................................... etc

I love writing poetry because it gives me casket pleasure I can feel my death somewhere far off It's like doing a shot of semen after sex and calling it a chaser Or when you're a ghost and can feel the wind blow in through your sheetholes

Poetry is like a tuxedo that zips off at the knee It's my pet boredom...... I sit in my room with the rain coming down And I start to wonder about my life

Poetry is like pushing a pram through the dawn But the pram is on fire, because the fire is your baby It's like having an orgasm every time you hear middle C on a piano Mozart is just elaborate foreplay to you

It's like upgrading your horse drawn carriage to a better, more technologically advanced horse drawn carriage Or squeezing your mop into a tropical fish tank It's like being the Monet of blow jobs .................... and losing your boyfriend to the Toulouse-Lautrec of blowjobs Or a bedside drawer packed with snow

Poetry is a luxury behaviour Like crying because you're too clever and nobody understands you It's like cutting your hand at a party and referring to your blood as 'party blood' It 's like: welcome to good behaviour town, population 0

#poetry #hera lindsay bird #this is why i hate those dismembered poetry-quotes so much #the snippet from this i saw earlier today bears as much relation to the whole poem as does a lost eyelash to a whole body

[postmodernbeing]

Shingeki no Kyojin Headcanons: 104th training corps (College AU - Outfits pt I)

Hello, Postmodernbeing here. I decided to continue writing about this College AU , only this time, I'm making some outfits HCs, since I'm working in a oneshot and this visuals could be helpful. Also, it seemed like a lot of fun so I've decided to give it a try. Hope y'all like this. Much love.

IMPORTANT: I do not own Shingeki no Kyojin nor the trend of this outfits-displays, only this HCs belong to me. // Contains spoilers (for the icons that I used in some characters) // English is not my first language, so I ask for your patience and understanding.

Eren Yeager

Chains and rings of stainless-steel. Combat boots matching faux-leather jackets with studs and pins from bands.

Has a few flannel shirts (that he stole from Zeke, his brother doesn't mind, tho). But for the most part, Eren's shirts are from merch of bands with a few (handmade) changes.

Eren likes to sew badly on purpose some patterns or figures by following quick tutorials. All his clothes are modified or drawn over.

While his main looks are metal head alike, he also wears snickers, hoodies, sporty pants, and jackets to class. Pretty laid back, he looks as he just woke up from a nap all the time tbh.

Sometimes goes skating but he’s not that good, his skateboard is more of a fashion statement really.

Has both ears pierced around (lobe type) and tattoos on both arms.

It’s pretty obvious to this point, but I’ll say it anyways: Eren wears black religiously. Definitely he’s open to darker shades of any color, but must wear something black at least.

Mikasa Ackerman

Our girl wears black clothes mostly. She doesn’t have a preference between skirts/dresses or pants, but you’ll rarely see her wearing jeans.

Many skirts and ripped tights to match with platform boots or classic converse. Also owns a large wardrobe with different hoodie and shirt sizes and designs yet mostly in dark shades.

Lots of necklaces and rings with perforations to match, none in her face yet lots in her ears. Mikasa has only one tattoo: Azumabito’s clan logo.

Speaking about Azumabito’s, whenever she’s working with them, she wears faux leather jackets at most, and her classic red turtleneck. Nothing too exaggerated nor formal.

A total goth since middle school, and even though in college finds it a bit unpractical, she tries to keep it as loyal to her style as possible.

Books and notebooks are part of her attires. She’d be writing or reading at any time that’s possible. Not always about her classes, tho. She also likes novels and arts. An artsy goth, perhaps?

Armin Arlert

Sky blue is his color. Matching it with classy pants and blazers in clear colors.

His wardrobe looks like one that belongs to an aristocrats’ son. Some light-academia realness.

He can pull off some casual looks with sneakers but it’s more common for him to wear his oxfords, cap toes or moccasins to class, or anywhere really.

Cardigans, vests and blazers are his best friends as soon as autumn arrives. Always in colors such as beige, green, brown, and grey.

Armin is easily the best dressed from all his group of friends, and I’m not even open to discuss this. Let’s just remember his canon outfits throughout the four seasons. Even in a Modern AU he’ll keep being the king he is.

Not a big fan of accessories though. Except for his handkerchiefs that match his blazers. Since his grandfather used to choose his clothes, he taught Armin that a handkerchief was a gentleman’s must carry. Now he wears them only to pay his grandpa honor, as a lesson more so.

Jean Kirstein

King of brown jackets and turtlenecks. Really, his wardrobe is in such color harmony. It’s impressive.

Little to no accessories besides an occasional scarf or a single ring matching some bracelet.

Although he’s used to wear a consistent type of clothes and even colors, he wouldn’t dare to define a style for himself, is it boho? art hoe? dark academia? Maybe we’ll never know.

Zero perforations only because he’s scared of pain, but Jean is really drawn into them, so he uses fake ones for his ears sometimes. Has only one little hidden tattoo, made when he started college and lost a bet against Sasha and Connie.

Jean’s always stylish, clean, and smelling like cologne. He also has an extensive routine for shaving, combing his hair and trimming his beard.

Second best dressed of all his friends. Lowkey loves fashion but keeps it for himself (and Marco). Plus, in her mother’s house he keeps more clothes than his dorm' wardrobe can storage.

Marco Bodt

Colorful, youthful, and casual, that’s his style. Marco’s clothes reflect his joyful personality and every time he enters a room, he brightens the mood so easily.

A lot of denim and if he’s not wearing bright colors, you can be sure he’s caring something white with him (a bandana, a baseball cap, a scarf or his sneakers).

Shares with Jean a special appreciation for clothing, except Marco prefers more laidback and casual outfits.

Has no tattoos but recently got both ears pierced. He decided to since he really likes the earrings that k-pop idols wear.

If spring was a wardrobe, Marco would have it. I can’t stress this enough. Just so pretty and genuine.

Also, he definitely uses accessories (small jelly or colorful rings, bracelets of all kinds and simple necklaces) but there's more, he uses objects that are not meant to as accessories too. Such as band aids and small stickers around his face, skates in his backpack and flowers in his pockets.

Sasha Blouse

Unironically messy style. No matching patterns nor colors, different textures and sizes that made little to no coordination in her outfits. Unaesthetic is her aesthetic.

She likes baggy jackets and jeans with big pockets for snacks obviously, midi-skirts and graphic tees. Sasha is the definition of zero fucks given and still looking cute.

Of course, she knows how to pull off some cool outfits, it’s just that she doesn’t care that much unless is specifically required.

Not a big fan of accessories besides belts (maybe) and her backpack. Unless we’re talking about bucket hats that became a must wear thanks to Connie.

“Borrows” Nicolo’s hoodies/shirts that wears with her favorite threads. Then plays dumb when her bf asks her about his clothes. They both secretly love that dynamic.

Sasha plays it safe when it's about her hairstyle, also not a big fan of makeup -at least not the way Mikasa or Historia do-, but she’s open to try new things if her best friends dare her to.

Connie Springer

King of striped shirts and golden chains. His style is mainly urban and youthful. Conniegod remains unmatched in his awesomeness even in a Modern AU, if you ask me.

Owns a collection of sneakers that wears with his numerous printed socks. So creative and colorful.

Also, Connie has a small collection of unique shaped tinted glasses, also bucket hats and simple stainless steel chains.

Has small fun tattoos around his legs and arms, ears pieced but nothing too grunge. Speaking of which, he matches religiously his earrings with his chains that hang of his belt.

Usually wears dress pants or cargo pants. Anything but denim or really skinny fitted pants. Coincidentally, most of his shirts are loose too.

Definitely brings his skateboard with him all the time so it’s part of the outfit, really (Eren tried to copy that from Connie, let’s be honest). He’s so good at skating, and when he doesn’t feel like walking around campus, skating is always a good idea.

Part II here

#shingeki no kyojin #attack on titan #snk headcanons #aot headcanons #headcanons #college au #eren yeager #eren jeager #mikasa ackerman #armin arlert #jean kirstein #marco bodt #sasha blouse #sasha braus #connie springer #snk #aot #aesthetic headcanon #outfits headcanon #part 1 #outfits headcanons part 1

[whumpster-dumpster]

Okay, so this might be a but silly but since I've recently gotten into object shows fandom, I have (living, with limbs and faces and all) object whump on my mind, and damn it's good stuff so I wanted to share some prompts

Like paper objects getting very easily torn, causing so much pain and needing help from others to be repaired. Especially if the pieces have to be stapled together, which pierces through body again. Getting soaked and barely able to move from any liquids. Humiliated by being drawn on.

Or all kinds of electronic object malfunctions. Bugs, glitches, water damage, fand especially running out of battery.

Rust on metal. Glass, screens shattering. Being used like an object despite being alive is a good one too. So many opportunities, unique for each object! :D

Ooo, nice! Honestly, all fandoms can find whump somewhere if you try hard enough. I'm a bit of simp for the Aesthetic of characters with object heads, so all of these ideas are welcome 😂

#whump #non human whumpee #object head #answered ask #anonymous

[ghostie-galaxi]

I feel bad for sending so many requests 😭😭 but we have to get the obligatory drippin soulmate aus out of the way (I promise I'll stop requesting so much after this LMAO sorry)

Lol I don't mind you requesting so much, I enjoy having a regular person that likes my writing and requests a lot. My masterlist said previously not to worry about sending in multiple requests after another since I'm always willing to write for everyone so you're fine!

Also I feel like there's not a lot of good soulmate AUs so I'm just going to reuse a lot that I've already used but for Drippin specifically, I tired to base then off their superpowers from their Villian MV, and this is once again in the POV as a Foreign reader

Drippin Soulmate! AU

Yunseong

Your soulmate feels your emotions and feelings

You always felt like you had another person inside your head since you were young but you never knew what it was. When you asked your parents about it, they said it might be your soulmate mark. You were confused, not with the concept of soulmates but on how you were supposed to find them like this.

Your had really depressive thoughts when it came to potentially not ever finding your soulmate, since you didn't know how you'd ever find them like this. They could sense your bad feelings and tried to comfort you, which worked since they had hope you'd find each other.

You got into Kpop and had been drawn to Yunseong for some reason. He did a solo V-Live once, and slightly talked about his soulmate mark, even though they weren't allowed to discuss them. He mentioned feeling their soulmate feel sad recently, and he would feel them and try to comfort them with sympathy and hope, and they always felt better. That sounded and awful lot like what you had been doing as of recent.

You had to find a way to talk to him to see if he really was your soulmate. You've never had a lead like this as to who or where your soulmate was, so if what he said was true you had to try. Your only option at the moment was to try and video fan call and see if you had the chance to talk to him. When you got it and started talking to him, you asked him if his soulmate mark was feeling emotions, he couldn't confirm it but you switched to thinking the most depressive thoughts you could. "Did you feel that?" You both got silent before he smiled, you both were happy to finally confirm that you were most likely each other's soulmate.

The process of meeting each other was hard but you finally managed to have a chance to go to Korea and finally got into an in person fan sign. There was an arrangement made for you to meet up after the fan sign. When you both got a chance to be alone, you tested the emotions again and made sure this was real. You both hugged each other and afterward he told you, "See, you knew I had hope we'd find each other."

Hyeop

Cuts and marks appear on both your bodies

You didn't know what your mark was until you randomly had bruises on your knees while you were outside, they weren't from you, and you ran over to your parents happily instead of crying like any other kid would.

However though, from that day you felt bad if you ever got hurt and your soulmate had to to endure the pain, any bump from something that hurt you also gave you a twang of guilt whenever you did so. It stopped you from being able to do anything you wanted to do. Any tattoos or piercings you wanted, you couldn't get due to not wanting to put your soulmate through that pain.

One of your friends showed you Kpop and while ago and you finally got a chance to attend a Kpop concert for one of your favorite groups. However, a few weeks before the concert, you had an accident and broke you arm. It hurt so bad and you felt so awful that your soulmate had to go through this as well. But after you got your plaster cast you were still going to the concert.

During the concert, Hyeop accidentally slipped during one of the dances, falling directly on his kneecap. You felt a pain shoot through you when he landed, you falling down slightly. You looked back up at him and he luckily made eye contact with you as he got back up. After the dance was done and then came down to sit at the edge of the stage for their next song. He came right in front of you and noticed your cast.

He had figured it out himself that you possibly were his soulmate, you feel slightly when he fell, and that cast explained the huge pain he felt in his arm the other day. You didn't noticed him get a staffs attention to come down and retrieve you after the concert. You told him when you hurt your arm and said you felt the bruise when he fell. He felt your arm break and figured you might be a candidate for his soulmate. And you, in fact, were soulmates.

Changuk

Time freezes when in the same room

You had no idea what your soulmate mark was and this lead you to believe that you didn't have one. You grew to be a generally soft spoken person to avoid any conversations with anyone. Kpop became your comfort as it made you forget about your soulmate situation

There was a group you weren't familiar with that your friend was taking you to, since she didn't have anyone else to go to. Your tried to get to know the group a bit before the concert so you weren't completely clueless.

When you finally arrived at the venue of the concert, the second your foot entered inside, all time froze. You had no idea what happened, but as you looked around, you were the only one that wasn't frozen. You wandered around confused, not knowing what to do.

Meanwhile, the same thing was happening to him. All time froze for him and he didn't know what happened. He walked around backstage in the dressing rooms and didn't find anyone who was moving. Against his better judgement he went out onto the stage, to see if his the fans were frozen too.

You wove in between people on the floor, walking towards the front of the stage. You didn't want to go backstage to find anyone but you saw a movement which caught your eyes. As Changuk ran out on stage you made eye contact. The second you did so everything started playing again. You both took a minute to realize what was happening but soon when the other fans saw him on stage and started cheering for him. You both had a moment of panic and didn't know what to do. He looked towards a staircase at the edge of the stage. You followed his gaze and as quickly as you could, ran up them, him running to you and ducking you backstage, hoping the least amount of people saw. You'd worry about that later as now you were finally happy knowing you had finally found your soulmate after not thinking you had one.

Dongyun

Number on your wrist shows how far away they are

The time around your wrist counted down everyday, and you couldn't wait to meet your soulmate. You got excited thinking about it but also didn't want to rush it. You started getting into Kpop and noticed a member of a group always worse a think bracelet around his wrist you didn't know what it meant.

After you had discovered them, you hadn't realized it at first but your timer on your wrist has changed from black numbers to red numbers. You looked at it confused but didn't know what to do. The thought of your soulmate being dead popped into your head and you were terrified. But the time was still counting? So, what did that mean?

You had just found a new group, a member had a band around their wrist in every video and you knew companies avoided idols soulmate marks being revealed to not have any dating scandals, and this was the only groups you had looked at in the time being, and the time timer was for when you met, so maybe this meant you knew who your soulmate was before you officially met?

You didn't know what it meant but since the timer was still counting, you didn't try to think too much into it being bad. You let everything happen as it was meant to be and your friend had invited you to come to Korea with them, and as the time to go got closer, the timer on your wrist got closer to zero. When you arrived the days there was more than the days in your timer and you knew you'd meet your soulmate here.

You friend took you to a coffee shop when you were there and you noticed your timer only had a few minutes left on it. As you stood there someone bumped into you from behind. You turned around to look at them and they apologized, and your timer hit zero. You looked down at it and looked back at them. Their eyes widened as they brought their wrist up, their timer covered with a band. You had a moment of realization before the person even brought his mask down to reveal it was in fact, Dongyun was your soulmate. You told him about your timer turning red and now realized that it did most likely meant, you knew about him before he knew about you.

Minseo

You meet each other in dreams, but can't share your information inside of it

You were really sick one day when you were young, sleeping on and off throughout the day since you couldn't do anything else. During the day of sleep you were constantly being put back into a weird dream world that was different than any normal dream. It was so realistic and you felt like you'd actually been teleported to a different world. The plain open field you were in seemed to go one for miles, and that's when you spotted him. Both of you were young, and when you tried to talk you couldn't understand each other due to a language barrier. After that day you spent time figuring out what happened, and you figured that was your soulmate mark.

You didn't know how to communicate with him, since for a while you didn't see him in your dreams. Every now and then, you'd try to go and see him, but you still couldn't figure out how to communicate with him. You didn't know what language he spoke, and he didn't seem to know how to tell you what his language was. After not seeing each other for a while was when you got into Kpop, after a while, you stumbled upon his group. You were overjoyed when you finally knew his name. You prepared to see him again, staying up all night when it was convenient and went to see him again. You ran up to him and shouted his name in front of him. His face lit up instantly. You tried to tell him your name but the words made no sound. You weren't able to tell him anything about you, but you knew so much about him.

From that day though after finding him, you started learning Korean, and after some time passed you went to see him again and were able to communicate better. He had also picked up a little bit of English, and you'd both spend time helping each other. You had plans to go to him after highschool was over, and you couldn't wait to see him. You still couldn't tell him anything about yourself and it made you said, but he thought of it as he gets to fall in love with your personality before anything else.

You had been counting the days you got to go to Korea to finally meet up with him. You were anxious and excited and so many other emotions were going through you as you waited for him.

The time finally came when you got to meet up with him and you finally got the say "My name is (Y/N)." And this time the words didn't carry the silence.

Junho

First words on wrist

You had gotten your words on your wrist but they weren't in English, you spent time figuring out what it looked like and found it was Korean, since then you were very determined to learn the language and found Kpop was a good way to help with that.

You had the theory that 'what if your soulmate was an idol' which you kept in the back of your mind since you didn't want to seem delusional. You finally got into a video fan call with one of your favorite groups and we're excited.

You were waiting patiently for the call to start, fixing your hair in the small window of your face when suddenly the screen flashed without warning scaring you. You backed away laughing at what happened. "You scared me, hi." You said, laughing as Junho was smiling at you from the interaction. "You're cute when you're scared." He said to himself. You had a moment of realization that this is what your wrist said.

"Wait, are we soulmates?" You asked him in Korean. His eyes widened before he whipped this sleeve down and started at him. A smile broke out on his face when he realized you really were.

There wasn't much you could do since you had limited time and couldn't share your information. But from that point on you were determined to go to Korea and meet him in person. Throughout the whole process that took, you kept trying to get into video calls and online fan signs, in order to keep touch with him. You finally awaited the day you got to an in person fan sign and got to see him in person. You both secretly shared your personal info and started talking from that day on.

Alex

Drawings appear on both of you

You randomly draw on yourself all the time as a child, but you started noticing drawings on you that you didn't recognize or remember you doing. When you asked about it you were told that this was your soulmate mark. You tried writting 'Hi' on your skin to see if there was an answer, but you were met with a different language you didn't know.

However, after a while when you tried again, there was English and you finally could communicate with each other. You'd both spend so long talking to each other, you knew his was Alex, where he was from, what he was doing, and you could do the same.

When you started to become a better artist you would always draw on your skin, and from the other side he would always watch you. Sometimes though he would draw on the other arm, so you both would have a sleeve with each other's drawings.

He told you about him being a Kpop trainee and you both became a source or comfort during stressful times, you were able to talk to him when he needed somewhere, and you could talk to him too. You both had a weird sense of comfort without even knowing each other in person

You had the idea to ask if you could write down each other's phone numbers or whatever else you could to try and talk normally, and neither of you could believe you didn't think of that sooner. You were finally able to text each other. When his group was final revealed you got to see his face you were happy, and through texting you could also show him what you looked like. Being able to communicate like this didn't stop you though from drawing on you skin, and with having a better sense of communication, you were abel to make arrangements to go to each other in person.

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[blessedarethebinarybreakers]

I'm sorry if I'm bothering you, but I needed to get something off my chest. I'm a trans man, and have begun taking interest in Catholicism. It feels right and I'm mostly happy. But I've been scared as well. I really want to go on testosterone, but I'm scared itll be considered 'bad' to do so. I've been praying and praying but I feel like I'm just telling myself whatever I want to hear when I think I feel God's approval. I just want to do right by God, and for some reason it's just t that(1/2)

(2/2) that makes me feel like this. I don’t get as weird or squirrelly when I think about surgery or presenting male, it’s just t. I mean, push comes to shove I probably could try and live the rest of my life without it, but it just makes me so sad that I can’t look like other guys, and that everyone will only see me as a girl in guy’s clothing. If you or anyone else has any helpful ideas or prayers or really anything at all, I’d be truly grateful. Thank you so much in advance.

Hi there, anon. As a trans nonbinary person who is on testosterone right now, and who has also gotten top surgery, and who considers themself a “Catholic Protestant,” I really feel for you. 

There is so much that’s beautiful about Catholicism, so I think it’s beautiful that you feel drawn to it. Sadly, there is so much harm preached by the Catholic Church about LGBT+ persons (among other things). It breaks my heart that the tradition I love so well teaches harmful things. 

You’re not alone in feeling some tension between your Catholic faith and your identity as a trans man. Here’s a post I wrote recently for a queer Catholic feeling that pain. You have a lot of choices to make about what you want your Catholic faith to look like and be like, as that post describes.

Moving on to God’s love and affirmation of you as a trans man.

I promise you, you’re not just “telling yourself what you want to hear” when you sense God approves of your desire to go on T or transition in any other way. God delights in diversity – that is why living beings come in such variety, why we experience night and day as well as dawn and dusk, why the vast universe is dotted with incredible phenomena. That’s why human beings come in so many different colors and shapes and develop diverse cultures and languages and ideas. 

And part of that diversity is the growth, the changes, that each of us undergoes throughout our lifespan. God did not create us to be static beings, exactly the same from the moment we are born. No! Babies become toddlers become children become adults; we learn to speak and walk and drive and whistle and paint and sing; we get fatter and stronger and taller and change in so, so many ways as we grow. For trans people, part of that growth and change often involves the changes we make to our bodies in order to better fit our vision of the gender we know ourselves to be. 

Life doesn’t just enact changes upon our passive selves; God invites us to be co-creators in the activity of growing and changing. We can cut or dye our hair, exercise our bodies, get piercings, and decide so much else about our bodies on top of all the creation we do in terms of our ideas and art and interactions with others. Trans people are invited to be active in changes to our bodies like surgery or hormones, if that’s what we need to live into the full life Jesus desires for all of us (John 10:10). 

God longs for abundant, transformative life for all of us. Sure, maybe you could “live with” never going on hrt. But if going on hrt could help you become more joyful, thankful, open to relationships with others….then God will support you going on hrt. 

More places for you to look on this blog:

This post answers the question of how I “know” that God created LGBT+ folks exactly as we are. It has some links to great stuff for you, such as Austen Hartke’s Transgender and Christian videos. 

What does the Bible/God “say” about trans people? Answer 

My #God doesn’t make mistakes tag, which responds to that comment as frequently used against trans people

A post addressing the worry that you’re just trying to “justify” what you want to hear from God or from the Bible

Also, I have a video about how I see God’s presence in my transition, particularly in top surgery and hrt. You’ll hear me talk about all the good fruit I have experienced through these things, as well as about how I see being trans as part of my God-given calling, too. Like you, I “could” have survived without hrt – but on hrt I have experienced so much thanksgiving and grace; I feel more connected to God and to the people in my life. 

Best of luck to you, anon! Please know I’m praying for you and you are welcome to ask more questions here, any time

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