endeavour stans are the worst people on earth and i will tell you why.
take it in.
this is the worst take I've ever had the displeasure of seeing on endeavor's redemption arc.
let's just. brush over trauma shall we.
remember kids: having a father that bought your mom, emotionally abused your siblings, indirectly caused the eldest's death, caused your mother's mental breakdown that ended in you scarred forever and emotionally and physically abused you is BETTER than having no dad.
be thankful.
to be clear im obviously referring to this kind of endeavor stan, if you are part of the decent ones youre fine
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sorry if you explained this already and I didn't see but why in your profile background or whatever it's called, Hajime is so far away from everyone else?? Like, everyone is close and cuddling and he's just away from everyone else 😭
Alluding to the general feeling of not belonging yet and also the Horrors
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Sometimes self care is having a very stern talking to with the wounded scared parts of yourself that don't want to do the hard and difficult things and reminding them that nothing will get better if the hard and difficult things aren't even attempted
And then as a reward you promise to buy those wounded parts of yourself an entirely hot pink/pastel pink practice set if they agree to do the work required, as a little treat
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just saw a post saying 'if these are on her bookshelf, run' and it had this is how you lose the time war and the starless sea on it??? and like gideon the ninth??? which i still havent read rahhh but like these are not femcel books whatare you talkingggg abouttttttttttt the starless sea is really lovely???? this is how you lose the time war is dark and complex but like????? and it had the secret history on it too and i havent read that either but its a very popular book. the only people who are toxic about that book are the people who romanticise it and i'm pretty sure thats missing the point of that book idk. lots of people like that book who dont think working yourself into a delirium is hashtag aesthetic or liking fiction murder makes you edgy. and if you've missed the point of the secret history surely theres no way you got anything out of the starless sea that book has LAYERS. i dont know man
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Idk if there's enough people talking about what a gigantic energy drain Complex PTSD is. It's not just one single traumatic event, it's having lived in a traumatic situation for a long time. And in the case of child abuse, your entire formative life period. Everything is a trigger, anxiety is your default, and your brain keeps trying to keep you safe by yelling at you about everything you're doing "wrong", which will lead to pain. Your brain is a constant war zone, braced for attack, rarely relaxed, at least some part of you always hypervigilant. The stress it takes on your body is insane. It's why trauma is linked to autoimmune issues, heart disease, type 2 diabetes, and, according to one study, cancer.
Physical disability leaves you even more vulnerable and less able to live up to the impossible standards of control and "correct" behaviour your brain insists on, not to mention the free gift given to all patients of chronic illness that is medical gaslighting and patient-blaming, all of which simply compounds the trauma. Reduced physical and mental health obviously leads to systemic risk factors such as inability to pursue academic and professional qualifications, poverty and financial struggle, malnutrition, becoming unhoused or bad living conditions, exacerbated medical issues and further lack of medical resources, reliance on welfare and care networks, and becoming trapped in codependent, abusive or toxic relationships. The knock-on effects are endless.
This is all to say— if you're wondering why you can't seem to do more than the bare minimum every day when you haven't been diagnosed with a physical illness, or you're "not that disabled", or you think your symptoms are "just psychosomatic" (which means your brain is under so much intolerable stress that it's started taking a chair to the windows and destroying the furniture just to get you to NOTICE AND MAKE IT STOP): the answer is that your body is actually struggling under the kind of stress that kills trained soldiers and disables them for life. So stop trying to convince yourself that you're just not trying hard enough when what you really, desperately need to get your life on track is community, care, rest and ease.
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