#LITTLE SCARED ABOUT SHARING THIS ONE TBQH

[byjillianmaria]

(tw: violent intrusive thoughts)

Her mother clears her throat again. Alya wonders if she can feel her words stuck in there, jagged as fishbones. “Things will be better here,” she says, faltering. “You’ll see. Back in Iowa… all the things those people were saying about you… you just got confused, that’s all. You always were so impressionable.” Alya imagines opening the door and flinging herself out of it. Not even allowing herself the quick dignity of splatting on the pavement, but clinging to the car as it drives, grinding her body to a streak of red paste and stinging nerve endings against asphalt. Or maybe she doesn’t have to do anything that dramatic. Maybe, if she screams loud enough, her throat will split and she’ll rip herself open from the inside out. “You’re right.” Even at a whisper, Alya Price tastes metal.

Have a cheeky little moodboard and a cheeky little excerpt for the next WIP I'm working on! This one's quite a bit darker than my other books. I hope you enjoy it :)

#project: to consume #mine: moodboard #LITTLE SCARED ABOUT SHARING THIS ONE TBQH #ITS A LOT #i might not even be able to classify it as ya by the time i'm finished with it............like depending on how dark it gets

[octopunkmedia]

Hi! I hope you don’t mind me asking this but you’ve been open about recently being diagnosed with adult ADHD and as someone who is very seriously considering asking my doctor about it, I was wondering if you’d be able to share a little bit about being diagnosed yourself? I totally understand if you don’t but I just thought I’d ask! (Seriously can’t stop thinking about DE, either, so thank you very much for making it. It’s brilliant.)

Sure! I had an unusually easy experience being diagnosed, as I've heard from others that it can take years. It can also be very expensive - something I have dodged due to the fact that I met my insurance deductible on January 2 when I needed my gallbladder removed.

Basically I went to my primary care doctor and told her I was having a lot of symptoms of ADHD, that I'd gotten worse and worse and it was really getting difficult to live normally. I have read ADHD Alien and a lot of other resources over the years that gave me the verbiage to explain how I think: executive dysfunction, rejection sensitive dysphoria, hyperfocus.

She interviewed me with a variety of questions. I said yes to eight out of the nine. The only thing I did not ping was "restlessness" - I'm not a fidgety person. However I told her that I am very restless INTERNALLY and have trouble taking breaks or getting to sleep. She didn't really think that counted which....well, I'll get to that in a sec and why that might have been the wrong call, but for now, I have 8/9 symptoms.

The other important thing is, to be diagnosed, you have to have displayed symptoms in childhood. It can't have been something overnight or recent. I'm 28, for reference. At 15 I would stay up all night writing fanfic. At 10 I was obsessively building LEGO versions of the Taj Mahal. I was fifth in my class and as a child, you would call me "precocious" or "an overachiever." Few people at that age suggested I ever could have had ADHD, because in the 90s, that was "bad kid disease." If you weren't obstinate and a poor student, no one would ever suggest you had it. But in hindsight, I absolutely displayed signs of hyperfocus, signs of executive dysfunction (I have never in my life had a clean room, not for one minute), and other symptoms I've definetly lived with all my life.

My doc diagnosed me with ADHD Inattentive, as opposed to ADHD Hyperactive or ADHD Combined. I was prescribed Straterra, a nonstimulant norepinephrine inhibitor. Stimulants like Adderall, Concerta, and Ritalin are usually first line treatments for ADHD, but my doctor is somewhat hippie/holistic and doesn't like prescribing stimulants. Quite frankly they scare me too and are a pain to deal with when it comes to refills because of their controlled substance status, so I was happy to try Straterra first.

Unfortunately, Straterra was less than happy to try me. I lasted 16 days before having to give up, buried under a myriad of side effects - constant feeling of having to pee but not being able to, no appetite to the point of losing 5 lbs in 2 weeks, burning and tingling in my limbs, COMPLETE limb weakness in the 3-4 hours before every new dose, like walking to the kitchen felt like hiking up a hill. And then the most significant one: almost completely losing the ability to sleep. For the first few days I couldn't sleep at all. Eventually I got to where I could sleep 4 hours a night. But that started to wear on me after awhile. It is possible these side effects would have gone away had I stuck with it. But I was too exhausted to find out. I was also too exhausted to find out if it actually worked on my ADHD. I think it did to some degree, as getting back to normal was definitely....I noticed the change. But since Straterra had me so ill I was basically bed ridden, maybe I was just too sick to notice my usual ADHD brain.

I quit the Straterra under my doctor's guidance and have a follow up meeting next week. We will see if she switches to stimulants, if she switches to a treatment like Guanfacine, or if she wants to try a different dose of Straterra. Or if she wants to refer me to a psych for a full workup and maybe see if there's other things going on (potentially anxiety, OCD, etc).

Circling back around to our disagreement on restlessness...if I had to guess right now, I'd say I'm actually ADHD Combined, not Inattentive. The fact that Staterra specifically caused insomnia in me seems to suggest that I may have more symptoms of hyperactivity than I realize or she realized, so maybe other meds will have more success. But all this is weird and tbqh they don't actually understand how some of these meds work. So who knows. I'll continue to be as transparent about it as I can!

Also just because Straterra sucked for me doesn't mean it would for you, so don't let this account make that drug seem scary. I've read plenty of stories of folks having great results, I just pulled the short straw.

#adhd #adhd meds #adhd inattentive

[seacollectsrivers]

terror 4: punished, as a boy

oh no i’ve wholly forgotten what year anything takes place in. this is five months after what? the last time we saw Sophia and lady Jane or after franklin died??

charles dickens mention!!

ok I assume it's after the events of the last episode, and the terror and erebus is officially not where they were supposed to be

"lady Jane had supposed bylot island" lmao get em!!

I dont like lady Jane on a personal level, but I like how grounded she is. and bold, in that society. she reminds me of grandma Guthrie tbqh!!

fuck them uppppppp

idk if I've mentioned but I really dig the intro. it's beautiful and short enough for me to never skip it

brooding alone in a dark room. a Mood.

is this jopson!! ive heard about this lad. he's a dote!

oh god I dont know WHY but I keep forgetting the tuunbaq's an issue. or like I imagine the ships are safe zones, like some kinda video game??

I dont know Edward. I dont know Strong. sorry to these men.

now hang on this lad is 13 at best?? don’t bring him??

oooh ok I think I know who Strong is

aurora lookin all pretty up there :)

ONCE MORE the sound design!!!! the MUSIC!

hmmm no nope I am Worried this will NOT end well

jesus did it really lay a trap???

oh god this is. this is gonna weigh heavy on Crozier isn’t it :(

.....how much alcohol did they actually bring for this mission. hasn’t it been like, more than a year.

this is such a serious and dour scene, with death looming and alcoholism and all, and yet I'm here like aww.... lookit them. domestic scenes :)

sharing of pained history timmmeee

oh well ok apparently thats just common knowledge hahahaha sorry crozier

"regretted how it had happened" but not that it happened i guess?

brains out man's alive???

I don’t wanna watch this but i’m also scared ill miss something

ugh I don’t like the redcoats mostly bc I don’t like the military worship that it seems some of these lads have

oh worm. ghosts is it.

well I'm once more Worried.

oh worm NOT ghosts that is NOT a ghost!

wait, is that birthday boy???

oop racism in james jumped out

listen i know how racism works but have they completely forgotten they're the ones who killed her da. obvi the creature isn't her doing but like,,,, if you're believing she's acting out of revenge....

wholly unrelated but I love the sliding doors at the ships

oooh look at crozier in his lil embroidered waistcoat! I would like more of it!

"false" ok but 2 of those statements are objectively true.

this might be my aro ass jumping out but I do get Sophia. you kinda had to be practical about stuff like that, esp as a woman. can't live on love always you know.

the Franklins can choke on their classism and racism tho idc lol

o fuck o god

ok but crozier yelling. 😳

aight i’m. I think i’ve been kinda assuming hickey to be a s1 silver type. like I assume everything he does has an agenda, when he hasn't really actually, so far, done anything to warrant that? he just gives off a vibe lol.

like I don’t particularly trust him but I think I'm giving him too much credit. I don’t know what his end goal is here, except a genuine belief that she's the cause.

he’s very theatrical i like his storytelling

it’s his SMILING thats why, anytime he says anything he has this like hehehehe i’m so clever smile

oooh she’s netsilik! Good to know

the only part of the punishment i understand is the lashes. do I gotta look up naval language once more

"bring me a full chart and I'll show you exactly where we are"

disrespect to the girl go OFF crozier!!!

ah, ok, I think I get hickey a little more.

I am WORRIED about this punished as a boy thing!!!!

whippings are. ouff.

ok i’m gonna be honest I skipped the whipping scene, ill look up a recap bc I'm :T

"I know you dream of such things" tf does this mean

goodsir's genuine outburst of no! when asked if he's been lashed skjshd he's a DOTE

oh noooo scurvy? nooo :(

tobacco! from whomst 👀

i’m SO glad its goodsir feeding the Netsilik woman, only man I trust

"this is not how englishmen act" oh boy.... Google how do I tell 19th c earnest men about the atrocities of the English empire

looking up a recap, the whipping stirred up some sympathy from the men for Hickey? so I assume the tobacco was like a we’re on your side kinda deal

#the terror amc #the terror #bo watches the terror

[thetenthdoctorscompanion]

Okay ummmm you know i gotta come in with a 💞+ Emmeline right??? Sorry it’s just mandatory 🤷🏻‍♀️

I know, and I love you for it. Well and truly. ❤︎

1. Hermione Granger: Obvious. I have had a blast writing Emmeline and Hermione. They are so, so different, but at the same time, they are both scared little girls who cling to each other for friendship. In SS, they’re both uncertain and trying to figure out how friendship works. I’m really excited to develop them over the years. In everything I have plotted, they only fight once. They’re just relentlessly supportive and understanding of each other.

2. Neville Longbottom: Neville is Emmeline’s very first friend, and they share so much with each other. They both struggle to be brave, and come from pretty much the same tragic past. There’s a lot that goes unspoken between them, because they both just know. But Emmeline is always in Neville’s corner when he doubts himself, and Neville can find it in him to be brave if Emmeline needs him. They babies. ❤︎

3. Harry Potter: Okay, I know Harry’s only in a quarter of the story I wrote based on the book about his life, but still. I love how kind this boy is. And despite Emmeline’s hero-worship, she also tries so hard to treat him like a normal person, which doesn’t go unnoticed. Like Neville, she and Harry both have the unique experience of growing up an orphan because of Voldemort, and that’s something that pulls them to each other over and over as the series goes on. Their futures have always been tangled together.

4. Severus Snape: This is not a positive relationship, at all. I’m no Snape apologist. But I’m putting it on this list because it’s fundamental and tbqh, I love writing Snape being an asshole. Snape’s mistreatment of Emmeline is one of the things that drives her character development, because she sees the way he treats people, and suddenly finds the fire inside of her to say, “That is wrong, you are wrong, and I will not stand by and let this happen.” 

5. Sirius Black: God, okay I can’t talk about this one too much because I haven’t gotten to it yet and there’s a lot I haven’t posted about. Suffice to say that Emmeline becomes really close with Sirius, and he dotes on her. I added a lot of original scenes into the plot of books 3-5 because I love thinking about them so much.

#god i'm like 2 pages away from finishing the first installment #i MUST find the power to finish #stories #hp stories #emmeline marsh #provenance #onthepageoftears #asks

[pretty-volatile]

Thursday, September 10, 2020 5:53 am

Wow, only 1 month and 7 days first of all til my 5 year anniversary with my partner!!!! WOWOWWWW!! so excited. Very stressed financial wise though because I hope I have more school shit and work shit and money shit figured out by then so we can at least have a special night even if that means spending money to stay indoors but make it romantic n shit. Tbqh I wish I could've proposed this anniversary but I don't have that kind of money for a ring and this pandemic really puts a damper on trying to make it a super romantic and memorable and special thing, ya know? So I guess I'll have to wait a little longer. But we're practically engaged to be engaged so like I'm not stressing XD

I still have to get school shit together. I really need my student loans to survive, bro. It's sad but like woe is me, tis my life rn.

Really need new glasses and FML my glasses prescription expired last month.

Really need to renew my ID.

Dad is still down to get me a new phone (I've had this one for 5 years, pre-college) but i have to transfer all my shit onto a separate SD card bc this phone can't open. It doesn't have a chip but for some godforsaken reason I'm have difficulty even being able to access it on my laptop so I gotta do that too so I can get a new phone.

Probably should get flu shots.

Ah, yes. Mental health. Hmm. Fuck that. Fuck my brain. It's so goddamn complicated. It's like I'm fine and then I'm not. I'm good and then I'm shit. And like it's literally never the same. Idk how to describe it. Things can be familiar, but shit never stays the same. At least not when I want it to. But then it changes again. Ugh. So my symptoms from this summer are way different from last winter and even more different than last summer but it's like on this broken, raggedy, record that plays the same thing but each time it passes there's one instrument that's off-key, and that instrument is my brain. I am off key. My symptoms are the piano keys. They play my disorders and my moods and more often then not it's just keysmashing wobfwondlabdkfndlwnalaxowjfnwpns

Thank you thank you I'm here all week

But yeah I know I should go back to my psychiatrist/therapist, but I'm really nervous and anxious. And my ADHD/executive dysfunction more specifically really fucking sucks and my anxiety and my paranoia, which are like all the more reason to fucks go but they're the reasons I can't go or that I'm scared to. Ugh. That and not knowing wtf I'm even feeling or what I'm experiencing. I can't tell if I'm in a depressive mood, I'm not manic, but I'm not suicidal but I'm not like happy but I guess I'm empty rn but also appreciative of my partner and the time with them. Idk I'm weird.

Also picked up on another fun psychosis thing I do lololol somebody here likes to think things that have absolutely nothing to do with each other, have something to do with each other. Edit: lemme elaborate, I sometimes unintentionally think I caused something to happen or something that I did caused another thing which caused another and thinking that they all have something to do with each other. Please don't feed into my delusion, I know about the butterfly affect and strongly believe in it but sometimes it feeds into thinking I caused something when I absolutely did not. Or that one thing cause another when it in fact did not.

I fucking hate my brain bc how is it that I can have BPD, bipolar w/ psychosis, ADHD, OCD, (C)PTSD, and OSFED but also still heavily HEAVILY relate with fuckn schizo-affective or ASD or PPD, like ha, am I really that fucked up ooorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr? It's like either I'm fucked up cause I'm right or I'm fucked up for thinking all this shit, either way I'm fucked hahahahahahahaha hahahahah fjjeicjjwosbfoenwpndkcor

I have a friend with possibly beginning stages of schizo and I heavily relate and we also share some other disorders/symptoms so it's just making me reflect on what I'm experiencing and I just keep going through this cycle of it's not that bad....to...or is it....hmmm....or is it bad enough?

Do I suffer enough?

Am I in pain enough?

Am I drifting away?

Gah, ugh. Fuck.

Fuck my brain.

Edit: Oh yeah and fuck ADHD and bipolar. Okay thanks I'm out

#journal entry

[amberandmetal]

Numbers 40 & 56, Stuckony Get creative here, surprise me 🖤

40 & 56: “I made this for you” & “It brings out your eyes”.

This became long, like ca 1800 words, and woops, it kinda turned ABO with Alpha Bucky & Steve and Omega Tony. There is no smut but mentions of sextoys and a heat. It’s a worn trope but one I have never written and I wanted to take a shot at it. 

Okay so this is the first time I write Stuckony and tbqh I am not really happy with it. But this is good: I’m learning and what I’ve learnt is that more than 2 characters confuse me so that is something I have to work on. Yay for progress, amirite? Anyway, I hope you’ll like it anyway. I realise ships are what I need to work on since I apparently have way easier writing reader inserts. (I do love writing Tony though, because he is both my baby and kindred spirit)

    Ridiculous. Just ridiculous. Grown ass Alphas, tripping over themselves like they’d just barely popped their first knot. Tony sighed, mildly exasperated. He knew he smelled good, damn good thankyouverymuch; he also knew his oncoming heat was slipping into his scent, turning up the cloying sweetness to, as they say, eleven; Tony also knew that he wasn’t the first omega Super soldier one and two had come across so really, there were no excuse for their behaviour.

    He strolled into the kitchen, sleep rumpled and still in his PJ’s, only smiling once he caught sight of the freshly made pot of coffee. Bless Bruce, he thought, just bless him.

    He made grabby hands for the pot and started clumsily search for a clean cup. The scent filled his nostrils and he gave out a happy little hum, toes waggling as he took his first sip and then outright groaned. Oh, yeah. That’s the stuff. He took another sip, and then a big gulp, making little happy noises at the warm feeling in his belly and the prickling in his mind as his brain cells slowly came back to life.

    He downed what was left in the cup, his taste buds having been scorched beyond repair eons ago, and filled it up again. This time around he tasted the richness in the flavour that was very new and very pleasant. Really bless Bruce, he would have to put that on a T-shirt and wear it every damn day, that man was truly a genius. He licked his lips and leaned back against the counter, humming a little with every sip.

    “Ow!”

    Tony’s eyes snapped open just in time to see Barnes retracting a sharply pointed elbow from Cap’s ribs. They both looked slightly odd, and slightly.. flushed. Hm, interesting.

    “Morning, Cap. Sarge.” he nodded, raising his cup.

    “Good morning, Tony,” Steve smiled but looked a little sheepish, “although it’s more like noon.”

    “Healthy sleep schedules are for amateurs.”

    Barnes snorted at that, but still looked slightly.. off.

    “Listen, are you two okay?”

    They both shared a look.

    “Yeah, Tony..it’s just.. we thought,” Steve began, glancing at Barnes as if looking for help but the Sarge just held up his hands, “you smell really nice, by the way, and we-”

    “Hold up. Are you two serious right now? I thought maybe I was imagining things but you’re actually serious? A little bit of omega pheromones and you two just let your hormones take over the by the wheel?” Tony turned to fill up his third cup of coffee with shaking hands, because really, ”I’ll tell you what, I’ll just keep to my workshop and my suite until my heat wears off and you two can behave like people again, sound good? Yeah, thought so.” And then he was gone, storming off down to his workshop, telling Jarvis to black out the windows, locking everyone but family (i.e Pepper, Rhodey, Bruce) out and blasting his music high enough to rattle the walls- if it didn’t scare Dum-E it wasn’t loud enough.

    He had left Dumdum 1 and Dumdum 2 sitting at the kitchen table looking every bit as stupid as they ought to feel. Had they actually fucking propositioned him? Just because he smelled damn near delicious? Thanks but no thanks, he was more than just his biology even if they weren’t, and he could perfectly well get through a heat without an Alpha.

    After all he was used to it by now. He hadn’t shared a heat since before Afghanistan; somehow intimacy had started feeling a lot more intimate after that and he just couldn’t bring himself to share that with anyone. Although he had to admit to having had some rather filthy and sappy fantasizes about the aforementioned dumdum 1 & 2, but he wasn’t gonna give in just because they felt a biological pull. If anything was to ever happen it would be because they wanted Tony, not Tony the Omega. And as that was as unlikely to happen as Tony waking up popping a knot, he’d just have to make do- and keep away.

    He sipped at the quickly cooling coffee and groaned as he started to feel the telltale ache building low in his gut. Just perfect.

              ~~~

    A couple of days, a string of broken toys, 7 showers and 5 different sets of sheets later Tony’s heat finally cleared; and he was relieved to the point of tears.

    It had been a rough one, with his lizard brain chanting at him to go to the very eligible and very wanting Alphas who’d so clearly expressed interest.

    Breed, breed, breed.

    Ugh, disgusting.

    He went through his regular routine before leaving the bed: yawn, stretch like a cat, roll and stretch again, unavoidably get tangled up in the sheets, detangle, yawn, stretch and repeat.

    When he finally emerged from his penthouse, clean shaven and some fresh clothes (yeah, he was not gonna miss the sweating) he was met with two super soldiers blocking his way to the kitchen, and in extension, the coffee.

    “Do you two have a death wish?”

    “Bruce told us your heat had cleared.”

    Traitor. All previous thoughts of blessings of his ex best friend have hereby been redacted.

    “So the death wish is a common theme then.”

    Both Cap and Sarge looked at him like he’d grown another head.

    “Right now you’re the only thing standing between me and my coffee after a frankly unpleasant heat so either move or be moved.”

    Barnes smirked then in a way that said he’d really like to see Tony try but Steve elbowed him before he could say anything.

    “Yeah, alright but can you just please listen first? What I tried to say before, what we tried to say before, it came out all wrong and-”

    “Fine. Coffee first. Then I’ll listen.”

    Steve managed to pull off nervous and completely exasperated at the same time. Had Tony been fully awake he might’ve actually been impressed.

    The two of them sat patiently waiting for Tony’s brain to come back online and when he looked up from his first cup of coffee he found himself in a comically deja vu of a situation.

    “Well, isn’t this familiar?”, he sipped slowly on the scolding but delicious coffee- okay, so he might forgive Bruce, a little.

    Barnes cleared his throat and planted both elbows on the table.

    “See, Stevie here has no game, he is about as smooth as a pineapple, I mean,” he chuckled leaning forward like he was telling Tony something really funny in confidence,” you should have seen him back when, five feet nothing trying to sweet talk the omegas I set us up with. Scent be damned, nobody believed that little punk to be an Alpha.”

    Steve looked less than impressed.

    “Yeah, real funny, Buck. Can you cut to it?”

    Barnes scowled lightly at him but continued.

    “What we wanted to say, tried to say, before was that.. we want to court you.”

    Nothing could’ve prepared Tony for getting a nose full of coffee. He spluttered like an enraged cat.

    “You what?”

    Both of them looked like they could barely contain themselves, their lips twitching as they tried their best to look sympathetic and sincere. Tony was having none of it.

    “You can’t be serious.” He dabbed furiously at the coffee stains on his neck and shirt.

    “We are, we just didn’t know how to tell you and then you started smelling all sweet, syrupy and delicious.” Bucky answered, a bit of heat creeping into his voice. A frankly mouthwatering grin on his lips.

    Tony swallowed thickly, glancing at the Sergeant. Well.. wait, what?

    “We? As in you both? And who courts anyone anymore?”

    This time Steve spoke up, looking slightly embarrassed.

    “We do. Where we come from.. it’s what you did when you were sweet on someone. And we also think you deserve it,” the words started rushing out of Steve and Tony just gaped while Bucky had the look of someone watching a trainwreck in the making, “ you work so hard and you hardly ever get any credit, you’re kind and generous and expect nothing back and we know your heats have been taking a toll on you. But that’s not why we want you,” he hurried himself to add, “even if you never want to share a heat with either of us we’d be just as happy to just be with you.”

    Steve shrugged, apparently done. He looked down, a hint of pink tinting the tips of his ears. Barnes just smiled in a way that honestly just looked heartbreakingly hopeful.

    So this was it then, this was Tony’s life.

    He had a hard time processing everything, and more than half of what had just been said didn’t make a lick of sense, but he’d be a fool to look a gift horse in the mouth.

    He would be lying if he said he didn’t feel a warmth fluttering in his chest the way the super soldiers at his kitchen table were looking at him all expectantly. He licked his lips slowly, nervousness hammering behind his sternum.

    “Fine.. I mean yeah, okay.. Sure, why not?”

    The smiles he got in response were bright enough to put the sun to shame.

    “So you’ll go out with us?” Barnes asked.

    “Saturday good?” Steve added.

    Tony huffed a laugh, rubbing a palm over his face.

    “Yeah, yeah, that’d be great.”

    He couldn’t really stop the mirroring smile tugging on his own lips.

    Ridiculous.

    Suddenly he was crowded against the counter. Barnes put a hand in his left pocket and fished out something silvery and shining. It was a simple silver chain with what looked like a smoky quartz pendant dangling on it.

    “I made this for you,” he held it out in question and Tony hesitantly bowed his head a bit so he could clasp it around his neck.. ridiculous,” Steve drew the design.”

    Cap looked like Tony’d just granted them the world when he looked back up, chain snugly placed around his neck. He took the small pendant between his fingers.

    “It brings out your eyes,” he explained, warmth colouring his voice.

    And then he leaned in, lips just barely brushing Tony’s own, and he would be loathe to ever admit to the moan that he let slip out. Next was Barnes who was a little less sweet and a bit more demanding but just as toe curling. Tony made a little trilling noise in the back of his throat. His cheeks heated but the two Alphas just looked at him like he was simply adorable. He was only a little  annoyed with how good that felt.

    But, yeah.. this could work.

#stuckony #winterironshield #a/b/o #tony stark #bucky barnes #steve rogers #drabble #ask

[junk-yard-hearts]

Poly Bowers Gang HC’s

o lookie lookie 

Belch (I prefer calling him Reg or Reggie to Belch tbh)-

·         I see Reggie as more of the enforcer within their group dynamic.

·         The other guys can get kind of carried away and he’s the first to tell them to leave you the hell alone if he thinks they’re making you uncomfortable

·         After a thorough fucking he’s the one who’d gently kiss your temple and tell you how good you were

·         He always lets you sit in the front seat and glares over his shoulder at the others when they whine about it. As far as he’s concerned, it’s HIS car and you deserve the front seat, dammit. (He actually just wants to watch the sun hit your face and keep you away from Patrick)

·         The other guys give him hell because he’s so sweet on you but he just can’t help how much he adores you awe

·         The others laugh because you would never call him Belch and he blushes every time you call him Reggie

·         He’s the one you’d call after all your best friends stood you up for your girls-night-in sleepover plans. He’d hear your disappointed voice and the sniffles and sigh. He shows up at your house 20 minutes later with the fuckboy squad in toe.

·         You ask if he’d do a face mask with you and he looks panicked as fuck

·         But the second you hit him with those lovey eyes, he relents

·         The other guys sit around and snicker as you apply cerulean goo to his face but he couldn’t care less because the smile on your lips is everything to him tbh.

·         Henry tells him he’s such a girl, and Belch hits him with some “a real man would do anything to put a smile on his girl’s face” shit and Henry just slinks tf away

·         He drives you to school every day, and sometimes when your parents aren’t home, he comes in and eats breakfast with you and helps you finish getting ready.

·         He helps you pull your hair back and ties your shoes for you awawawe

·         Always opens your car door for you

·         You wear his t-shirts to school after spending the night with him and he gets all heart-eyed and thinks you look so cute.

·         He sees you in your faded jeans, with a bow in your hair, and his ratty Judas Priest shirt on and his cheeks get all hot cause he just thinks you’re the cutest.

·         For his birthday, you go to his house while he’s at work and you and his mom cook him his favorite dinner (chicken parmesan and fettucine), and you and the gang hang up a banner and surprise him.

·         You didn’t have much money so you made him a cassette mix tape and take them to the bakery on main street for cupcakes, and you all serenade him right there on the sidewalk outside the shop.

·         He tries SO HARD to keep up with your friend drama because he likes that you come to him to talk but fuck, you have so many friends. Who’s Trish?? Where tf did Emma come from? When the hell did Lisa come into the picture?

·         Takes care of you on your period like his mom told him to.

 Victor  

·         Vic is the one you go to about your friend drama and knows exactly what you’re talking about.

·         “Oh my god who does Lisa think she is talking to Gemma about you like that? I’ll kick her ass idc.”

·         Says goodbye with a firm slap on the ass

·         Smiles at the tiny squeak you make every time he slaps the ass

·         Always gives you candies out of the pockets of his vest

·         He says he keeps them to put a smile on your face and you know he stole that shit

·         Loves to rest his head in your lap and let you play with his hair

·         He gets this blissed out, barely conscious look when you gently scrape your nails across his scalp

·         Stares in slack-jawed appreciation when you wear those little skirts that sway when you walk

·         When you’re having a bad day, he paints your nails

·         He notices you getting nervous and scraping the polish off and just grabs your hand away and squeezes it.

·         Smacks Patrick over the head for making lewd comments about your body in public

·         “Dude, watch your fucking mouth, she’s a lady.”

·         You have study hall together, and you sit with your Walkman cassette player in between you, listening to KISS and holding hands, and reading your English class assignments

·         KISS is so not his cup of tea but he doesn’t mind them.

·         He knows you love them so he sits put and listens anyway

·         He learns all the words to all the songs on Smashes Thrashes and Hits from how often you listen to it.

·         You two smoked weed together and the guys found you laying outside staring at the clouds together being sappy

·         But he kicked their asses for making fun of it

·         You bleach his hair for him because he tried to do it himself and got burns on his head

·         You teach him how to put coconut oil through his hair to prevent burning, damage and uneven processing

·         Henry and Patrick laugh and look on, telling him how soft it is to dye his hair.

·         You turn around and tell them how harsh and dangerous bleach can be to the body and offer to put some on THEIR heads.

·         They scurry tf away

·         He loves to watch you masturbate, and loves when you wear lingerie for them.

·         When you and your boyfriends crashed a party, they went off to torture some people but you and Vic were making out on the stairs while all the girls with crushes on him watched

·         He lowkey loves showing you off at all times

·         For Christmas you made him the coolest sneakers he ever saw

·         You bought a pair of canvas kicks from the thrift store and spent hours painting them, and he fREAKED when he saw them

·         He loves when you wear that peachy smelling lipgloss but he always ends up with shimmer all over his mouth and the guys laugh at him. Worth it tho.

 Henry

·         You tell him you got your nails done and he gets this “The fuck are you tellin’ me for?” look on his face.

·         You frown. He realizes you just want him to act interested and suddenly he’s like AH YES, THE NAILS, THE FINGERNAILS YES THE NAILS ON THESE PARTICULAR FINGERS ARE LOOKING MIGHTY SPIFFY TODAY YES INDEED

·         He notices you painted them his favorite color and has to physically restrain himself from squealing like a schoolgirl because he loves that you love him lmao

·         Talks a major talk about what a ladykiller he is but the first time you take your clothes off and he sees your body in only soft lingerie he just stares in awe and appreciation

·         He thinks you don’t know (but you definitely know) he stole one of your silky pink camisoles and keeps it stuffed under his mattress.

·         He actually wasn’t being pervy, he holds it to him when he sleeps and breathes in that precious smell of delicate perfume and something distinctly you and it blisses him out no matter how stressed he is.

·         Always puts his arm around you in public or holds your hand

·         When its cold and you didn’t wear a jacket to school, he scolds you because he’s concerned for your health and comfort, and puts his jacket around your shoulders.

·         Will beat someone up just for looking at you wrong

·         Always is the guy who says he needs to “Defend your honor”

·         Its endearing but can be a bit much.

·         Always hitting Patrick for disrespecting you

·         Always being hit by Reggie for disrespecting you :^)

·         Is 90000% outraged when you confess an insecurity

·         “What on god’s green earth would you hate your tits for?! Have you fuckin seen them? Your body ‘so fine I’m havin to chase off every man in this damn town, cause they all want my girl.”

·         I think he’d be that boyfriend who if you wore a low cut shirt in public would walk around with his hand covering your cleavage cause that shits his eyes only thank you very much.

·         “Only yours?” you’d tease. “Damn straight.” he’d reply. “But what about Belch? N Pat n Vic?” you’d say, laughing. “OK, now listen here.”

·         Is totally fine sharing you but constantly refers to you as HIS girl.

·         Likes you to know who’s in charge.

·         One time you sucked his fingers clean after he fingered you and he is still recovering tbqh

·         Also one time you called him daddy in public and he came in his fccuccking pants.

·         You didn’t know what to get him for his birthday so you just had him over to spend the night and wore pretty underthings and had a night just the two of you.

·         You cut his hair. You’re always begging him to let you cut the fucking mullet off but he just won’t hear of it. He thinks he looks badass.

·         His hair is really soft tho and you put the mullet into a tiny braid and giggled endlessly.

·         He just quirked his eyebrow up at you and asked If he looked sexy.

·         Lives for validation

·         Tries to offer you aftercare but lowkey useless at it

  Patrick

Patricks are the dirtiest

·         Rarely allowed to be alone with you

·         Loves to say creepy shit just to watch you squirm

·         By far the most dominant and thinks aftercare is stupid lmao

·         He likes that you somewhat want to impress him

·         JEALOUS as hell of how much Henry adores you

·         And really, how much they all adore you

·         One time he got the sense that you might actually be real

·         Which freaks him out, and he can’t shake the feeling

·         He compensates for this by going out of his way to make you uncomfortable

·         Says creepy shit in public

·         Puts his hand up your skirt at the lunch table

·         More or less only touches you because he’s allowed to

·         He likes your hands a lot, he likes holding them, he likes when you touch him with them because they’re so gentle and soft

·         Comes and visits you at night because he just likes to be near you

·         At first it was unsettling but now you’re used to it and know he won’t try anything

·         As scared as everyone already is of the whole gang,

·         They’ll never fuck with you because Patrick is too damn scary

·         You had a one-on-one night once

·         The next day, the gang came over to hang out and you had welts on your chest from where Patrick dripped candle wax on you, bloodied bite marks on your collarbones and were limping

·         Belch punched him in the fucking face

·         He knows you probably liked it but the idea of Patrick getting too carried away without anyone there to stop him worries him

·         (I honestly think he’s just always looking for reason to punch Patrick lmao. If asked why, he’d shake his head and say “that boy ain’t right” mister fuckin hank hill)

·         He likes to brush your hair which is weird to the other guys but you seem ok with it, so…

·         The first time you met his mother she was visibly shocked that someone actually wanted to spend time around him yikes lmao

·         You wear one of his rings on a necklace because it slides off your fingers

·         Gets the roughest with you during sex and the guys are always wary of the fact that you actually seem to enjoy it.

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[annthercatlady]

The more I read about Herm, the more it upsets me in the first book how Harry couldn't see that her attitude was because she wanted to prove her worth as a witch. Yes, their personalities are different, but they both have the same fear of not being magical enough. I cannot remember but I'm pretty sure they did know she was muggleborn from the beginning. It makes me really sad that it took a troll for Harry and Hermione to become friends - I am excusing Ron because for him, she is really just annoying; what is so great about all these? He wonders, when it is so common. He does the same to Harry, but since they are talking he know why and he is nice about it. So, Ron did needed the troll -. She just wants to prove herself, she likes knowledge, she used to be considered the smartest of her class - probably - and that's all she had, and suddenly she may have lost that, so what is left? She is scared. And she is doing what she knows best. And so, she cannot fathom why would this boys chance their opportunities at the school by not studying enough. It is true that her standards were always too much, she learns. But she is eleven, an eleven, friendless, smart, alone little girl. In my own experience, it is so easy to come off as annoying and know-it-all when you are talking about something you like, so easy. One does not notice, believe me. Our reasoning is that by sharing, telling you what we know, we are helping. And shouldn't you be grateful? Social interaction is hard. And Hermione didn't just change schools, she did the equivalent of leaving Britain to live in any LA country, for example. They are talking about different food, costumes, traditions, ways to behave and it probably feels like sometimes they speak another language too. As a fellow annoying smartass girl - or woman, can't tell when it the change, tbqh - I understand her. What is going inside her head it probably isn't pretty. It is canon that she didn't have friends before. She thought, now I will have something in common with my peers. Just for them to dismiss her the same way his previous peers did. Dean is the other only muggleborn - in Gryffindor, I think - and even he doesn't show any kind of need to belong. For heavens sakes, he brought football posters. He just doesn't care that much, he had friends - football club, maybe? - he has his art, magic is just something more. Magic for Hermione is everything now. Magic for Harry is everything as well. It is so frustrating, but like I said. They are eleven years old.

#Hermione Granger #Harry Potter #Ron Weasley #Wizarding World #Muggleborns #Philosopher's Stone

[artswaps]

for the character ask thing: allura!

Do I like them:

My second-fav character after Keith. She’s so kickass, an absolute angel, when she smiles I smile, the light of my life, princess of my heart etc etc. I love Allura with my entire heart and soul??? Yeah. 

5 good qualities:

So fierce and brave and willing to fight for her vision of peace. She’s obviously scared and unsure at times, having such a massive burden on her shoulders and without her father there to help guide her decisions, but she has never once flinched away from the task in front of her. Remember when she was captured by Zarkon in s1 and when she was brought to him the first thing she did was scream at the guy and try to charge him???? My girl’s got guts. 

I love that she has mouse friends she plays charades with and lets do her hair up into ridiculous styles, and she has a box of jewellery and likes sparkly things and got excited when she found out there was another girl on the ship and immediately tried to bond with Pidge when the mice told her, and aaah… I just adore that softer, girly side to her. She has such intense responsibilities and so much that’s expected of her, but underneath it all there’s this youthful energy that reminds us that Allura’s just a kid who likes to have fun just like the rest of them. She’s?? adorable????

Compassionate and selfless- she just wants to help people!! She just wants them to have the chance to live in peace. She’ll do whatever she can to give them that chance, even if it means risking her own life. Allura is someone who has had so much taken from her, but she’s always willing to keep giving away whatever she has left in her if it means someone else will be safe. It’s not even a question for her, she just has that much compassion in her heart.

Said that the Alteans were very good diplomats largely because of their shapeshifting abilities, but one of the very first things she said when she met Lance was how hideous she thought human ears were. Ruthless. asdfjgfhk no but she’s really come leaps and bounds when it comes to her diplomacy skills. It wasn’t really touched on much in the show how being a diplomat was something Allura had to learn, rather than a skill she already had. But one thing that does come across as pretty clear to me is that in the more recent seasons, she seems to have more confidence in the way she delivers her words in those scenarios. I might be imagining that to some extent, though.

Very stubborn and independent and won’t let anyone talk down to her. A lot like Keith in that once she’s decided that she’s gonna do something, no one in the universe can change her mind. Like hell she’s gonna let anyone bench her in this fight- she knows how capable she is and she’s always gonna fight tooth and nail to help people however she can. 

3 bad qualities:

Kind of idealistic. Puts a lot of faith in Voltron being the One True Key to winning the war because and how it’s “a symbol of hope”, despite the fact that at the end of the day… they really are just one small team of people, and can’t be everywhere at once. Also her worldview prior to s3, the whole Altea=good and Galra=evil mindset she held was a pretty naive view of the universe. It was absolutely understandable what with the trauma she was dealing with and all the Empire had taken from her, but it was a conviction fuelled by her own losses and the grief/anger she was feeling, rather than one that took in the bigger picture. Not at all saying that her feelings about the Galra were unfounded or childish, just that the black and white outlook she had on the war was a little naive. (The fact that she was willing to challenge that mindset and admit she might be wrong, despite her trauma and all the inner turmoil it must have been causing her, just proves how strong she is tbqh. I admire her so much)

Can be a little too reserved. Loves the team dearly and cherishes the family they’ve become for her, but has trouble expressing that when addressing people on an interpersonal level rather than a practical/professional one. Comes across as a little stiff in such scenarios. 

Puts too much pressure on herself; she’s scared of being vulnerable around her team, expects herself to carry the burden rather than let others share it. She rarely breaks her composure around the others, worries too much about seeming strong and self-assured, and doesn’t like asking for help. This is something she’s actually improved on a lot since she became Blue’s paladin, I’m so proud of her aaahh. She seems to have become more open emotionally since s3, which is great!!! But I still think Allura is someone who is too hard on herself for her “failures,” and when she doesn’t meet the high expectations she sets for herself. 

Favourite episode/etc:

Probably The Hunted, because to me that really marked a massive turning point for Allura’s development. It was when she was finally forced to ask someone for help, rather than expecting herself to carry the burden alone and somehow succeed on her own grit. 

Plus, Paladin!Allura is just really, really cool. It makes me so happy? It’s awesome seeing her as a more integrated part of the team, and that was the first episode where that really took off. She seems so much more comfortable and open around the others, now. There’s been quite a few scenes in seasons 3-5 where Allura’s been shown openly talking about her doubt or anxieties around other team members, and it’s just so wonderful seeing her break down some of those walls. 

Also, Crystal Venom is always a classic. A very sad one for Allura, but very important. I found the corrupted AI a bit silly, the way it kept switching between moods or whatever… but the scenes of Allura running through her memories of her with her father were beautiful and heartbreaking. 

OTP:

Hmmmnnn I’m more interested in Kall/ura just because I’m more invested in both their characters, but I gotta admit I actually think the chemistry Allur//ance have started to develop in the last few seasons is v cute. 

Brotp:

I’m not sure if it counts as a Brotp cos it’s more familial than anything but I love the Coran+Allura dynamic, I think it’s underappreciated and very, very good. They’re so important to one another.

If we’re talking more in the way of friendship than Keith+Allura….. let my introverted awkward alien kids be best friends, dreamworks!! I also really like the thought of Pidge+Allura and Hunk+Allura…. wow I just really really want Allura to have a close friendship with everyone on team Voltron don’t I lmao. 

OT3:

*chanting* Kallu/rance! Kallu/rance! Kallu/rance!!! 

Notp:

idk I don’t really have one for Allura cos I don’t see much ship content for her. Sh/allura, I guess?? Eh. 

Best quote:

“No. I won’t give up on you. I won’t give up on any of you, no matter the circumstances.” 

hhhdsjfkg if that isn’t Allura in a nutshell I love her so much

Headcanon:

Allura 100% puts on secret fashion shows in her room with the mice as her audience. She wishes she had more chances to wear all those beautiful dresses she owns, but she’d feel a bit silly being the only one in the castle all dressed up when everyone else is in casual wear.

The mice and her have fun, though. She lets them pick out the accessories for each outfit. (There’s no way they’re touching her makeup, though.)

#voltron #allura #post #hc #i love my girl i'm so excited to see her again #my heart swells with love for her + keith my 2 fav kids aaah #i'd take a bullet for them.... <333 #anon #asks

[survivorsunsetrodeo]

Ep 8 Pt 1 | I Am The Loop! - Taylor

THE WAY I PLAYED MYSELF OMFGGGGG

If I had just fricken voted for Chloe lmfao!!!!! God I am the worst Survivor player ever.  The good news is that I think everyone kept me on the revote????

Frankly, I may have fucked up my game, but at least it was the round before merge maybe??? I don't know if jury will start after this next tribal, but my goal was merge and I am PRAYING to all that is holy that I made it.

Holy fuck!!! Megs going and two idol plays!!!! We love the drama!!!!! I manifested Megs going before merge and here it is! 

Just so y'all know what went down....

I voted for Jacob, BUT I told Jacob I voted for Ali and I also told Ali I voted for Ali.... lmao BECAUSE ALI SAID HE VOTED FOR ME!!!

This is honestly the most crackheaded thing I've ever done. Ari knows that I voted for Jacob.... which could be bad? but I trust them not to expose me just yet. 

Y’all making merge is such a fricken relief honestly. But also I’m scared af. I think there are a lot of eyes on me. I’ve survived so many tribal councils. People have to know I’m connected. I am not gonna down play it necessarily but I’m gonna try to blend in.

It seems like there are quite a few people mad at each other frim the other tribe. I can see Nic and Brandi being targets quickly bc of their tribes last tribal council. I need to minimize my target as much as I can now. I need to like meditate on it and see what I think is best.

First impressions of the two people I haven’t met yet are:

Jabari - very outspoken, had great energy. I think jabari is likely fiercely loyal but not afraid to play dirty when she has to. I wanna pick her brain a little bit about her swap tribe dynamics. TSL - I really like her! She has a good spirit and seems like a really strong social player. She is someone to watch out for but could be a good person to have on my side.

My plan moving forward is to stay swap tribe strong for as long as I can, but also, if Ali needs to go home.... he needs to go hone 

WE DID IT I MADE MERGE I CAN FINALLY BREATHE AAAAAHHHHHHHHHH

oh my god oh my god okay. so tonight HAPPENED and i sure did predict it right from the start! i sure did tell ali not to do it and he sure did it anyway! but it's fine this is actually kind of excellent because it means me and jacob look entirely innocent, dan now trusts me even more fully and feels guilty for not telling me what he was doing, i have less of an obvious connection to ali, and we can go into merge with the idea of drama / discontent in order to more effectively mine intel.

so anyways. all that aside, let's talk about MERGE itself! here's where i am at, should i choose to believe everything i've been told: -jacob and i are bffs final 2 until we die -ali and i are also obviously gucci always -dan allegedly trusts me more than anyone and constantly thanks me for being so amazing -josh and i are a secret pair beware where we'll have each other's backs even if we end up on different sides of the numbers -taylor is absolutely thrilled to have me back and acts like she's just regrown a missing arm about it -brandi wants to get to know me and is working with tsl so might actually mean it -nic and emma are ???? dont really care tbqh sorry -jabari is also very ?????? that's [checks notes] six out of nine people who at least have expressed interest in wanting to work with me, if not outright proclaiming their undying love & affection. do i believe all of it? hell no - but it's a pretty good starting point!

i think this season twist is actually going to work really well for me because usually when i make it to merge, the sequence of events is: a) ari wants to work with everyone, b) ari tries to work with everyone and play the middle hardcore, c) ari eventually gets caught playing the middle and sent home for being a threat. BUT this time there's so much more room to maneuver about the votes because i can literally tell anyone i voted however they wanted me to and there's no proof against it. so i guess my primary objective = get everyone to love me and be my bff jenna-style, then tell them what they want to hear, then pull all my puppet strings to get all of them out. listen, it's the first night of merge and i am allowing myself to dream big. while we're at it then, let's have my ideal bootlist!!!!

10th place: jabari. nothing personal, i just think she's the hardest person to connect with socially and strategically from my past experiences. maybe she'll prove me wrong, but from what others have told me about how she's been on the new beeho, it doesn't seem like it. also this round jacob wins immunity. 9th place: emma. i said it day one and i'll say it again... galapagos has spoken and they've gotta go. i win immunity this round and tsl buys a gun and tells nobody but me about it. 8th place: nic. this is mainly because i think dan has some kind of attachment to him that'll be hard to shake for a bit but by this point nic will have gotten himself into enough hot water and dicey scenarios that dan won't find him worth the trouble and will be happy to let him go. jacob wins immunity again, probably in a really cool big-brain live challenge. 7th place: this is where we get down to people i actually want to work with so it'll be interesting to navigate but i think josh has to go here. he hasn't been doing enough socially and i was never gonna take him to the end anyway. sorry host bestie! we'll mix it up this round and let dan win immunity just to feel good about himself bc he's probably had a rough few days and needs a break. 6th place: ali. ily bb but you gotta go sis, you're gonna drag me down with you if i let you get too far! i'll act like this is a big shocker to me but jacob will have found out about it. also i think an idol will get used this round for sure and maybe even another secret advantage. 5th place: this is the last time i can use my gun and by chance it happens to also be an idol so i am going to use it to shoot tsl outta this game. we'll let jacob win immunity again. 4th place: brandi. honestly you stuck it out way longer than i expected and it's been an honor getting to know you but you're far too likeable to get close to ftc! there will be some unnecessary drama but it won't actually matter that much. oh and jacob won immunity for the fourth time but he gave it up to me. 3rd place: i can't believe i let dan get this close to the end! sneaky sneaky! if it's a final three that's fine because i can attribute his early survival and merge moves to myself, but if it's final 2 then he's gotta go and tell the jury how great i am (i cried during the live tribal it was very emotional). i think we all forfeit immunity here as it's the only fair thing. 1st and 2nd place: ari and jacob will split the prize in a first-time-ever deadlock tie and will both share the rodeo crown. i win the fan favorite though obvs. tsl is player of the season and ali is the best villain and brandi is the hero that everyone loves. all the hosts pick jabari as their fave.

I made merge!! Yay! Me and Ari bout to secret pair beware this game #TeamLasagna

me josh and nic are the cutest alliance i feel so bad for megs but oh well she gonna win retirement home second chances she highkey ate thats why she had to go i feel like rn my chances are low rn of winning but im here to cause chaos have some fun and have me or my allies win special shout out to josh without them i would wanna quit but that would suck and shout out to nic too i am kinda scared for merge but im really excited i dont think these people would take the easy route if not thats not trying to win but who knows tbhh i kinda want old pearl back together lowkey but im not sure im trying to think of my target list rn so rn im just gonna try to be more social then i was a few rounds ago make sure that i can get my footing back like i did pre swap!

mmmmmm MMMMMMMMMMMMM this is starting to look very fun and festive over here! the more intel we gather the more it's becoming clear that this first vote is gonna be a taylor/brandi versus nic/emma/josh/jabari bonanza with the four of us sitting pretty getting to decide who we want to work with. i'm personally more inclined toward the taylor/brandi of it all, what a coincidence that the four people i was least enthused about are also all working together... gonna call with dan and compare notes more later but i am feeling very optimistic

also people i want to work with to people i want out v soon OG: Pearl Josh> Nic> Dan> Brandi this is tough i really love og pearl probs the fav og tribe i ever been on like ever...

og beeho Ari > Taylor (she a threat i think taylor is lovely and like them alot )but i dont wanna go super far with them ) > Jacob > Ali >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> Jabari.. Jabari is nice but idk if i can work or trust with them tbh i like everyone left haha also im aware or think that ari is the biggest threat but would i maybe die on my sword for them.. if i work with them yeah.. im not that person that i was a few years ago 

Why is everything I know a lie? Apparently Megs never wanted me in her alliance of her, Brandi, Jabari, and Taylor to begin with and only added me because Jabari requested it? Which I guess is why they thought her and I were a duo? I'm having trouble understanding what Meg's vendetta was against me. I literally have spent the entire game trying to socialize with her and Brandi and I thought it was going well?????????????????????????????????? What did I do to her?????????????? Genuinely????????????????????

Anyway. Jabari is so kind. I really feel like I can trust her now. I feel like this merge vote will come down to Me/Emma/Jabari/Josh vs. Ali/Taylor/Brandi with Dan, Jacob, and Ari somewhere in the middle. I have the most confidence of Dan working with us but even with his vote it'd be 5-5, not to mention Brandi has a double vote. But atleast our side has an idol.

It seems like I am once again on the bottom for no reason. Even in her absence Megs is fucking me over. 

My headspace is so fucking bad rn about this game. I just feel like even tho I’m probably in a decent position that this competition will be won by more dominant people than me. This challenge definitely doesn’t play to my strengths and idk wtf to do.

I talked to Ari about it and they really want me to try hard but I just like really don’t care... if I’m the next to go, I’m the next to go. I must be such a horrible ally bc I am seriously checked out rn.

Dear Jsh, if you have any brain cells now is the time to use them. I need to speak to Brandi and Dan and solidify something with them. I also have to reach out to Ari to see if working with them is an option moving forward. I got the vibe last round that Taylor was only using me to survive the Megs and I mean....fair I was doing the same to her but I’m hoping she doesn’t find out that I’ve been lying to her by saying I voted Nic. I really hope Ari doesn’t snitch. I don’t think Ari is a rat but...you never know!

The way I see it me, Emma and Nic have two options. Work with Ari, Ali and Jacob or work with Brandi and Dan. Working with New Pearl seems like a no brainer since we hold majority easily but the question is if they ARE willing to work with us. The problem with solidifying an OG Pearl alliance is Brandi doesn’t trust Nic and I don’t trust Dan. What Nic wants to do is bring in Jabari and kick out Dan and have a 5 person alliance with AARP (me Nic and Emma) + Dan and Jabari which I am defenitely not on board moving forward. I can work with them for one round but I honestly would rather work with Ari and Jacob both who I actually talk to regularly. I just really need to make this alliance to happen because I like to work with people I actually get along with.

As far as the vote is concerned...Ideally I would like to vote out Taylor or Ali this round because I can’t figure out where they stand but Ali is an unlikely person to be voted out because Ari is protecting him.

first merge boot be lookin good for me if people dont put in effort into speaking to me why should i try? jabari i dont want to target them anymore its not smart i need to talk to brandi alot more also idk im kinda tired thank god i got the idol.

dan is having a rough time today and i feel bad :( it also doesn't help that ALI decided to tell nic that he thinks dan is a threat which ofc nic ran and told dan right away so i had to be like ali wtf don't do that!! and he was like no but its good for us bc they'll think we aren't close...... that is NOT THE POINT RIGHT NOW ALI!!!

#confessionals #AintNoGloryInTheWest

[crimsonrevolt]

Congratulations Chloe you’ve been accepted to Crimson Revolt as Sybill Trewlawney!

↳ please refer to our character checklist

Your application was such a treat to find in our inbox, Chloe! From the expanded traits to the wonderful headcanons you gave, your Sybill is so wonderfully fleshed out. The love you have for her is amazing and we all loved just how well you captured her - ‘she’s always been unafraid to march to the beat of her own drum‘ completely sold us. It’s so clear to see from you application just how much you’ve thought about the role that Sybill has to play in the war and gone into so much detail about her involvement with Aversio it’s such a pleasure to see! We think that Sybill will fit in just wonderfully and we cannot wait to have you both in our roleplay!

Application beneath the cut 

OUT OF CHARACTER

INTRODUCTION  

Chloe, she/her, GMT, from England  

ACTIVITY  

Well it’s been a little while since I’ve actively roleplayed so I might start out a little rusty, but given the preference you have for longer threads and your lenient activity limit I’m sure I’ll be around fairly often, like three times a week at least. (to give you a number I’d say like 7/10 on the active scale)

TRIGGERS

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HOW DID YOU FIND US?  

I was looking through the hp rp tag, and to be honest I was looking specifically for a Sybill Trelawney to play that I felt was actually a good representation of her character and also sat within an rp that had a good plot aha

WHAT HARRY POTTER CHARACTER DO YOU IDENTIFY WITH MOST?

Maybe a cliché but I really loved Ginny (in the books of course, don’t EVER get me started with the mess they made of her character in the movies dear god) she was spunky and confident (and ginger like myself, which tbqh has made me slightly bias in favour of the whole Weasley clan. Like you’re telling me not only do they deal w/ shit for being blood traitors but they redheads too??? Hard knock life, my man.) And of course my dear Sybill, who was just trying to be understood in a world that wasn’t quite ready for her.

ANYTHING ELSE?

Nope

IN CHARACTER

DESIRED CHARACTER  

Sybill Trelawney  

FACE CLAIM

Alycia Debnam Carey isn’t an fc I’ve ever worked with before but after browsing her tag and doing a little research she seems an excellent choice for Sybill in my opinion, and since she’s your chosen fc too I’m sure you’d have no problem with me picking her. (I am also partial to Juno Temple as Sybill, but I kinda feel that’s getting a little overdone)

REASON FOR CHOSEN CHARACTER  

Uhhhh this is just a general comment but I really love that you’ve made Sybill a big of a fighter and actually self confident like all the time I see her portrayed as this scared little thing and I don’t think that’s accurate, like I’ve always felt that (at least in her younger years, before the world beat her down a bit) Sybill would have been a passionate and confident woman with faith in her gift and a desire to set the world to rights. Her words aren’t always tactful, sure, but I think everything Sybill says she says because she thinks it needs to be heard.

When I first read about this Aversio group you’d created I wasn’t sure that putting Sybill in with such people was the right choice but after a little thought the idea really grew on me. I think Sybill’s visions have forced her to witness so much death and destruction that she has been powerless to prevent, and who wouldn’t be made angry like that? Who wouldn’t grab the first chance that came along to take back some of that power, to try and defend the people she loved? Sybill is part of this group for all the right reasons. She’s fighting for freedom and safety, but she’s not naïve, she doesn’t think the order sitting around and just waiting to form counter attacks are doing enough. I also feel she was something of a loner in school and despite being quite clever was never really invited into or considered for the order and so perhaps this comes from the ever so slight niggling urge she has to prove herself, because despite being a hippy dippy seer she’s also capable of affecting change and taking part in things. (If anything her visions and prophecies have only made her more determined to change the world, for she will have seen how truly tits up everything could go.)

I just have a longstanding love for Sybill, she’s always been unafraid to march to the beat of her own drum. Like, refusing to take on the name ‘higglebottom’ and so causing the end of your own marriage?? That’s hardcore. That’s a woman who won’t take no shit. Yeah, I love Sybill and I am forever searching for an rp with what I feel is an accurate representation of her. This is getting long so I’ll wind it down now, but if you’d like to hear anything more about my love for Syb pls just do message me lmao.

PREFERRED SHIPS // CHARACTER SEXUALITY // GENDER & PRONOUNS

Sybill has always been wary of romance and love. With her gift it is easy to see the multitude of ways things can fall apart. Not only that, but it is hard to find someone with complete faith in this gift of hers, someone who truly believes all her madcap ramblings and feels the power of nature and the universe as much as she does. (Of course, she would only ever settle down with someone who believed in this power as much as she did and yet like her was not afraid to question it.) Sex is different to romance, though, I think Sybill views sex as something much simpler and it’s very much a pleasure she indulges in without ever feeling guilty about it. Honestly I think she can be quite the flirt when she wants, not ashamed of her desire to lure a man or woman into her bed for the night, because why should we deny ourselves such a simple craving? We shouldn’t.

As far as ships go I’m very happy just to go with the flow, nothing prioritised. Sybill goes by she/her pronouns, did consider them/they for a while but after some contemplation in the forest realised her energy was decidedly feminine in its nurturing and care, even if it was a little wilder and more adventurous. (Sexuality I touched on a little above, i feel like she’d be very fluid about it and call herself bisexual if pushed on the subject)

CREATE ONE (OR MORE!) OF THE FOLLOWING FOR YOUR CHARACTER:

-EXPAND ON THE TRAITS

Self-assured- Sybill has gotten comfortable with her gift of sight, and by extension- since she’s long felt like that was the most drastic aspect of her personality- the rest of herself. She’s confident in who she is and the doubts of others can no longer throw her off her chosen course.

Free-spirited- spends a lot of time out in nature, but its much more than that. Sybill is very unassuming and so as long as what/who you are is not a cause of harm (for example, unless you are a death eater) she is quite happy to not only let you continue with your life and hobbies, but likely also interested in learning about it. She is happy for you to be in love, she is happy for you to mindlessly fuck, she is happy for you to abstain and spend all your time writing. As long as your soul is good and warm, you can be counted as a friend of Sybill’s.

Crafty- well, there’s the obvious definition of her being artistic which is true, Sybill likes to paint and tell fanciful stories and take one mans trash to make into her own treasure. But her crafty mind also  makes her quite statistical, she can wriggle her way out of almost any problem and really earns her keep as one of the strategic minds of Aversio.

Genuine- Another fairly obvious I feel. Some of the stuff Sybill says may be odd, but she means every word of it. This applies to her actions too. She has not one conniving or manipulative bone in her body, she never lies. Everything Sybill does is honest and true to the core of who she is.

Dreamer- constantly lost in her own world. Idealistic almost to a fault, often too optimistic about the future. Sometimes too optimistic about the present and so gets herself into dangerous situations just because she underestimated the circumstances.

Emotional- oh GOD if you criticise Sybill’s shoes she will CRY for a week. If you call her pretty in passing it will make her smile all year. Let me be clear here I don’t think Sybill holds grudges or has preferences, but I think she remembers everything that people do and everything impacts her as much as it did at the time it truly happened (does that make sense? Every time she remembers that Lily once complimented her hair it fills her with the same joy as the initial compliment did, for example.) I think this is why her gift takes such a toll on her, every bad thing that happens (whether it really ends up happening or not) affects her psyche terribly.

Dramatic- it’s very up and down with Sybill. I think being dramatic is good and bad, because every small show of kindness is an absolute joy but also every little negative moment or action is the worst betrayal imaginable. Nothing is done in halves by Sybill.

Weird- I mean self explanatory. She talks to plants, she’s constantly blabbering on about the energies of nature and the universe. She relies too heavily on her inner eye to guide her rather than just watching and responding. It’s a weirdness she’s comfortable with but that doesn’t mean everyone else is so ok with it, sometimes she makes people uncomfortable with her frank statements and odd habits.

-A FEW HEADCANONS

Sybill can play guitar. Yeah, she loves music, I think she plays guitar really very well and finds it quite relaxing (can’t think about anything else if you’re trying to master difficult songs y’know) but it isn’t a talent she often shares.

She writes poetry too, doesn’t call it that, just calls it writing. Often times her visions and prophecies can be a lot to digest and so writing about it all can help to sort her crazy imaginings from what might actually be possible.

Not adverse to substance abuse. She lives alone, and sometimes being part of Aversio leaves her incredibly amped up and angry, so it can be difficult to sleep. A few glasses of whiskey or a couple of joints sort that problem out, though.

Can get aggressive with fellow Aversio members. See she knows they can handle it and all the negative energy has to go somewhere (where else would she take it out? Nature? Absolutely not.)

She meditates because it helps focus her inner eye.

-A FEW POTENTIAL PLOT POINTS

This aggression with Aversio members might be an interesting one- like, does she think some of them are really just death eaters afraid to admit that? Are some of them scared of her? Do they think she’s too pushy with the people she’s supposedly aligned with? Yeah, lots interesting to say there.

Of course as an Aversio member there’s always the chance that the order or DE might find out that she’s part of such a group and try to sway her one such way (the DE would have no chance, and i don’t really see the order being much luckier, though she may be willing to form some kind of cooperation with them.)

There’s always the chance of her abandoning everything to just live in the forest.

More prophecies or visions! Are they always accurate? Who knows?!?!?! No one really.

IN CHARACTER QUESTIONNAIRE

The following section should be looked at like a survey for your character. Answer them in character and feel free to use gifs. Or, if you’d rather, answer them in third person or OOC without gifs. Answers do not have to be extremely lengthy.

♔ If you were able to invent one spell, potion, or charm, what would it do, what would you use it for or how would you use it? Feel free to name it:

I think I’d like to invent a potion that would make me immune to all poisons. To be honest, that’s one of the few things that forces me to buy actual food from shops and stops me from living purely off the foods nature provides. I’m quite worried about being poisoned by something not meant for me you see, so if I had a potion that meant no such poisons affected me I would live only off the bounty provided by nature.

♔ You have to venture deep into the Forbidden Forest one night. Pick one other character and one object (muggle or magical), besides your wand, that you’d want with you:

I think Xenophilius Lovegood would make for very good company. He’s easy on the eye and we’re both the types who see more in the world than most people do. I don’t suppose i’d pick anyone for their ability to keep me safe- I’m quite capable of that, thank you. Rather I think I’d pick Xenophilius because we would not run out of things to talk about. Ad far as objects go, maybe a sword? They fascinate me to be perfectly honest- so violent, so pretty- and I think it would be most useful should magic fail me.

♔ What kinds of decisions are the most difficult for you to make?

Who to send on missions or counter attacks. It’s never very easy to decide if you need stealth and logic or aggression and strength, you know? And always I am so fearful that by sending the wrong type we will do more harm than good.

♔ What is one thing you would never want said about you?

That I am a liar. That’s easy, people can say much about me as long as they always believe I am true.

WRITING SAMPLE

Sybill could not sleep. This was not a rare occurrence. More often than not she’d use alcohol or drugs to knock herself out for the night, acutely aware of all the work that there was to be done the next day and so too focused on being alert for that to be concerned with her own body. Tonight, however, she chose the forest. And drugs. There was a lovely little wood right by her house (would Sybill move anywhere without nature close by? Of course not.) And so she meandered through the trees until a small clearing came about, settling herself with a joint and her notebook for a sleepless night.  

See, tomorrows attack did not directly involve her. It was more an urban stealth mission, not really her style, and so she saw no harm in turning up to the meeting a little tired and out of it. Hey, she was usually ‘out of it’ as far as the others thought anyway, and so what was the harm really. So for this plan she had taken more a strategic role, using her gift to her advantage to help plan the timing, who she be where and when they should be there. It was something of an arduous task to be honest, left her a little drained to look so closely at individuals, but Sybill would never complain about it. Her inner eye was a gift very few possessed and she intended to use it to it’s full potential.

Besides being out here among nature’s glory with her writing and a joint would be sufficient to restore the balance of her energy. She took a drag and sighed into the quiet night, shifting to lay on her back and feel the full flow of the earth against her body. Her fingertips tingled and her toes curled. God, you know what would really help her sleep? Sex. But so few were as interested in no strings in the same way she was. Still willing to form a connection and truly bon with each other, just not so insistent that such a bond be permanent. It was okay to need someone only for a night or two. The summer she’d bounced around muggle music festivals had spoiled her, obviously. Maybe most wizards were so interested in commitment because it carried on the family name.

Not that she could blame them for such. Cassandra Trelawney had claimed the gift skipped three generations after all and by golly the family had seen to it that her point be proved. The idea made her giggle, bright energy pushing out against a dark sky.

Whatever the case, she was antsy and restless and worried about tomorrows plans. Worried about tomorrows’ people. If things went wrong those few were the ones who would pay most dearly. She closed her eyes, trying to feel the influence of the universe move through her and search for the answers she desired. Would tomorrow be okay? Had they chosen well? The universe, as it so often was in what it considered small affairs, had little more to offer than a small reassurance that Sybill wasn’t driving towards utter disaster.

#Accepted App #illness and timezones worked against us but we're thrilled to have you!

[pharaohsparklefists]

Episode 96, part 1! A(nother) DUEL to the DEATH

“You’re going right over the side of this blimp!”

BUT FIRST!

This is taking place after the Kaiba-mandated Duel Bedtime(tm), so let’s see how everyone’s getting on with that. Some people are sleeping like normal people... 

Okay, just one person. One person is sleeping like a normal person, and unsurprisingly enough, it’s Isis. And two people are currently in comas.

Some people are sharing a bed:

aww! #buddyshipping #nohomo #Joujustpunchedhiminhissleep

#aww! #puzzleshipping #technicallycountsassharingabed

Some people are sleeping Incorrectly

Shizuka! Go to bed!! Someone needs to be taking better care of her, and by “someone”, I mean her fucking mother who never should have let her come on the murder-blimp in the first place!

Anzu!! Go to bed!! Malik was VERY RUDE to just ditch her there. She could at least be asleep in Ryou’s bed!

And some people aren’t sleeping at all...

KAIBA! GO THE FUCK TO BED! You should focus on GOING TO BED and SETTING A BETTER EXAMPLE FOR YOUR BROTHER.

But he’s actually not the only one getting things done tonight...

GAY THINGS #rainbowpuzzle

Yugi “wakes up” in his own ... are we calling them “Soul Rooms”? That’s what they were called in the dub, but here Yugi just says he’s inside his heart.

His heart is a mess, ever try picking up your toys after you’re finished playing with them, young man?

Yugi isn’t sure why he’s here, but...

At least Yami’s side looks a lot less dark and scary than it used to! I wonder if it really changed? It may have lost its darkness when Yami decided to stop murdering so many people. Or it may just be that we’re seeing things from Yugi’s perspective, and it looked dark because Yugi was a little scared of Yami, but he’s no longer afraid.

Anyway, he heads over to pay his other half a visit, and his other half sneaks up on him and makes him jump.

And then Yami gives this adorable little relaxed laugh! It’s so cute! And apologises for scaring him! Ahhh they’re so sweet together and Yami’s so much more relaxed in here with just Yugi than he is outside.

“What, I can’t just come say hi? There has to be something wrong?”

Yugi did say he felt something was “off” about Yami’s soul room, but now that he’s here he just says that now he knows he’s going to help Yami get his memories back. 

(SO CUTE)

He says the thing that was “wrong” about the soul room was that Yami’s memories were missing. But they’ve been missing this Whole Time, so it seems unlikely that that’s actually what Yugi sensed tonight.

It’s more likely that Yugi sensed that Yami was unhappy. They said goodnight in a very sad way: Yugi brought up the memories thing, then got upset and ended the conversation, pretended to be okay but then cried himself to sleep. Yami could probably tell how upset Yugi was and, knowing him, probably felt horribly guilty for “causing” it by needing Yugi’s help to restore his memories. So Yugi subconsciously willed himself to the soul rooms and realised when he saw Yami that Yami’s sadness was what felt “wrong” about the place and they needed to talk.

And talk they do, on a flight of stairs hanging off a wall, bc why not

goddammit how are they so fucking adorable tho

Yugi’s clenching his little FIST that’s so cute and an A+ reaction to Shadi tbqh

They reminisce (I imagine fondly) about that time Yami almost killed Shadi and talk about how Yami’s memories must be behind one of these fuckin doors. And Yami, for the first time, enthusiastically determines to grip his destiny with both hands...

ahhhh!

AAAAHHHHHHHH!!

Alright that’s enough sweetness for one recap, we’ll give ourselves a tummy ache. Time for some savory spoopiness!

... well that’s unnecessarily sexual.

Bakura: Unnecessarily Sexual is my middle name...

Malik: Then what’s your first name?

Bakura: .... shutup.

Interestingly, Yami Malik can see Malik (not all the time, but when Malik hovers into view for the viewers, it seems Yami Malik can see that animation #fourthwallproblems)

even more interestingly, he calls him his “dominant half” (although he spells it wrong half the fuckin time). Does that have a different connotation in Japanese? Cause he thinks of himself as the stronger, more powerful half, which would usually mean “dominant” in English. Except in a kink situation, I guess. ... Were they playing kink games in their own head this whole time? #notrulingthatout

Yami Malik says Malik made a “nest” (okay weird metaphor) of pain and hatred and fear in his own heart...

So Yami Malik isn’t anything that Malik isn’t. He’s a subset of Malikisms. He wants to do, on day-to-day basis, anything Malik wanted to do in his darkest moments; lash out, hurt his family, control people, kill. But it all originally came from Malik. And Yami Malik says he “helped” even when he wasn’t in control: he’s been suppressing Malik’s ability to feel guilty this whole time.

“Jeez, kids today have no manners!”

So then it TURNS OUT, Malik didn’t fuckin know what happened to Ishtar Senior! Rishid never told him! Who did Malik think killed dear-abusive-old-dad?

FUCKING SHADI. HE THOUGHT SHADI WAS THE PHARAOH (which doesn’t make much sense bc Shadi spoke repeatedly of the Pharaoh as a separate entity to himself but whatever the kid was having a rough day) AND THAT HE KILLED HIS FATHER BC HE SAW HIM GHOST OUT FROM BEHIND HIS FATHER’S BLOODY CORPSE!! #Shadiruinseverything

Yami Bakura is intrigued that Malik mentions Shadi because

“...um ... definitely not murdered, if that’s what you’re worried about.”

Malik confronts Yami Malik with the truth

“No, Malik, I am your-- no, you’re right. That was me.” 

I mean, legally, yes. Most places don’t allow a diagnoses of Disassociative Identity Disorder as a full defense at trial, even if only one of the alters committed the crime.

Also Malik admitted he did come up with the idea.

“I only kill other people’s fathers!”

Bakura demands Malik’s attention back because he wants to add to their deal, he does still want the Millennium Rod but...

Because he now realises that without the knowledge Malik carries...

The tanned, muscular door.

And then he’s like “oh, btw...”

... “Wait, what??”

#WHY WOULD THAT HAPPEN IT'S A FUCKING CARD GAME #ygo problems #Yu-Gi-Oh! #yami yugi #yami #nerd herd #Jounouchi Katsuya #Hiroto Honda #shizuka #Anzu Mazaki #seto kaiba #Yami Bakura #Marik Ishtar #Yami Marik #puzzleshipping #Thiefshipping #episode 96

[thetenthdoctorscompanion]

gimme that sweet, sweet emmeline/harry action you know i'm always craving

Hey QUICK INTERJECTION this is the first provenance prompt i’ve ever gotten and i’m in love with you. cool.

Gives nose/forehead kisses → Harry. In part because he is the tol and Emmeline is the smol, but also because he’s a cheeky little shit and loves to fluster her.

Gets jealous the most → Emmeline. Harry is The Boy Who Lived and no matter how much they grow he always has that mantle, and people staring at him, and men and women giggling. She’s always been incredibly insecure, and that generally makes matters worse, even when she knows the fame means nothing to him.

Picks the other up from the bar when they’re too drunk to drive → Harry. Not only can Emmeline not drive (she’ll get her license eventually, she’s determined, but she finds driving very nerve-wracking) but she’s also got an incredibly low tolerance. Two glasses of Firewhiskey will have her slipping out of her chair.

Takes care of on sick days → Emmeline. Harry will do his best, of course, but his skills tend to stop after a good can of soup. Emmeline will fret and fuss with all the home remedies she learned as a girl.

Drags the other person out into the water on beach day → Emmeline. She loves the water, but grew up far from the shore. She’s ecstatic about being able to go to the beach. She goes for the thrill, Harry goes for the calm.

Gives unprompted massages → Emmeline. Though Harry is more easy with PDA, Emmeline sees it as a personal responsibility to keep his stress at bay. Whether he’s working on schoolwork or Quidditch plans or work for the office, if she notices that he’s getting tense, she’ll usually wander over and massage his shoulder to put him at ease.

Drives/rides shotgun → Harry drives, Emmeline rides.

Brings the other lunch at work → Emmeline. While they are working at the Ministry, she’ll do her best to visit the Auror department on lunch to make sure he hasn’t drowned in paperwork. When they’re both teaching at Hogwarts, it’s not unusual to find them in their old favorite courtyard with a basket of sandwiches. Students are always welcomed to join, and it becomes something of a free tutor period for them.

Has the better parental relationship → HA. Emmeline.

Tries to start role-playing in bed → Harry. Tbqh I don’t see this cropping up often at all. Not that Emmeline is beyond suggesting something new, but I definitely feel like this would be a foreign concept to her. She’s generally more naive in that sense.

Embarrassingly drunk dancer → Harry. And Emmeline. The difference being that Emmeline will dance essentially the same drunk and sober, and Harry is only embarrassing when he is drunk. Largely because the boy has to be drunk before will venture outside of a step-touch and a twirl. 

Still cries watching Titanic → Emmeline. You don’t even have to wait for the sad part. She’ll happy cry through the beginning and sad cry through the end.

Firmly believes in couples costumes → Emmeline. She’s not sure what it is. It’s not necessarily romantic, or that it makes her feel whole. But there’s definitely something about matching Harry in any way that makes her feel happy. Whether it’s matching the colors of their robes or donning Muggle Halloween costumes as inaccurate vampires. It just feels nice to let everyone know she has a partner in crime.

Breaks the expensive gift rule during Christmas → Harry. Not that either of them is particularly careless with their money, but as Harry grew up with virtually no money, he enjoys spending what he does have on people he loves. He knows Emmeline would do the same for him, but he’s hard to shop for because he’s happy with the bare minimum.

Makes the other eat breakfast → Emmeline, technically. It’s a tricky situation, and something Emmeline doesn’t notice until they’re well out of Hogwarts. Harry is very good at making breakfast - delicious scrambled eggs, perfectly cooked bacon, fluffy muffins. But he rarely eats anything he cooks. It takes her a while to realize why, but as soon as she does she threatens to charm him to his chair until he’s eaten his proper share of breakfast. Work be damned if he’s late. She’ll fight his entire department.

Remembers anniversaries → Emmeline. She’s definitely got a brain for the tiniest details, and she remembers a lot further back. Harry always feels bad, but Emmeline doesn’t mind. She assures him it’s just because she’s got “less going on upstairs.”

Brings up having kids → Emmeline. In my head, it’s not for a few years, but earlier than they’d expected. She has something of a pregnancy scare, but doesn’t tell Harry anything until she’s certain of the answer. She decides they need to have a conversation, because her scare was not as scary as she’d thought it would be. Harry’s the one who’s got second thoughts about being a parent. He spent a good portion of his formative years without parental figures, and he’s not sure what a father should do. But Emmeline assures him that’s exactly what’s going to make him the best father a child could hope for.

Again. This got long because it’s my first Provenance prompt. ILY.

#musiciatee #asks #look at these children #i adore them so #emarry #stories #hp stories #provenance #provenance series #provenance prompts

[gemsofthegalaxy]

Yknow tbqh i am a huge sucker for domestic stories and family narratives, particularly ones involving having babies, so I would sort of like to read or write a fic where like... Doug and Renée start having sex (post-canon, back on earth) and she gets pregnant*

Like she definitely didn’t think that at her age and after space travel, (althought she stopped her birth control), that she would be getting pregnant. Yet, here they are.

And Doug is like “I can’t believe this has happened to me twice” and Renée is like “You know what has happened to you more than twice? Getting stranded in space. I think this a much more typical human experience.” And he’s like “Okay, yeah, whatever.”

And after a lot of thought and discussion they decide abortion isn’t for them, so they start on getting their shit together to bring a child into the world.

Doug, who gets to see Anne from time to time now, has to break the news to not only his daughter, but his ex as well. Renée hasn’t seen her husband since her return to Earth because he has been out of range of contact so that could get a little messy buuut they’ll cross that bridge when they come to it (they always were poly but never had to discuss the sceanrio of her having a scare or actually becoming pregnant with another person, so it’s a little out of the scope but.. what can she do?)

And like, I’ve thought about this a few times and in my mind they call the child Madeleine Minkowski (Renée almost regrets it when Doug starts calling her ‘his little M&M’). And while Kate keeps her thoughts and opinions pretty quiet, Anne actually quite likes being a big sister.

And since I also love Minkowski/Lovelace, ideally Isabel sticks around and helps them coparent because she’s still Renée’s girlfriend, right?

It’s definitely not easy but, parenting never is, but they’re actually pretty good at it at this point. They’re settled, loving, there are at least 2 adults plus a sophisticated AI with eyes everywhere present nearly all the time. It’s a little strange when you put together all the pieces but the picture really works because of it. They’re happy, all of them, baby included

*Also ftr i definitely acknowledge that not every woman’s narrative has to include children or being maternal etc so this isn’t some grand desire I have for Minkowski, it’s just something I personally really like to think about in p much all my fandoms and ships (even if i don’t always share it). and also like “accidental pregnancy” (while pretty common I would think..?) can also be sort of messy I believe? I still think this is a fun idea to play around with, tho, so I try to do so in a nuanced way. but yknow at the end of the day i also just wanna have some fun with this lol, i just wanted to like be clear where it was coming from?

#minffel #pregnancy / #kidfic sorta anyway #idk guys i was just reminded of this tonight and wanted to share

[odrseasonone]

Lauren’s Plans for Kate!!

So I was reading through old odr asks and I unearthed some moments Lauren had in mind for Kate!  It’s not much, but it can at least alleviate some of what we’ve been struggling w in terms of taking her on and at least guide us in the right directions, yknow?  Also, some of these moments that are Kateric we can either use for that obv or, if she eventually moves on, we can transfer them to a potential future lover.  We may or may not want to use any of them, but here’s a collection of things she said about future Kate things!!

Though tbh I’m sure Cedric thought she’d continue to think he was joking until the end of their days, I’m thinking it’s at some point during the rebellion, maybe after Kate has her scare with the guards burning down her bakery, that he says it to her to get her to calm down as she’s stressing/freaking out about what to do now that she can’t be of any use to the rebels/to the villagers who had looked after her. Cedric just starts saying “Kate, look at me. Kate… Kate!” and takes her face in his hands to make her look at him and gives her that brilliant smile and asks her to marry him for the millionth time. And she doesn’t know why, but for some reason, maybe something in his eyes, it’s the first time she believes he mans it. So she says yes. And I bet Cedric doesn’t believe her at first. Doesn’t think he heard her right. But Kate probably swallows and puts her hands over his and says yes again and then aLL THE SMOOCHES PROBS NGL.

i said in my tags, he’d say something like 'you’ll always have me, kate.  no matter what happens, know that.’

and

laurenplayspeople wondered, CEDRIC COMING TO SAVE KATE AFTER ROWENA/HER SOLDIERS/WHOMEVER COMES AND BURNS DOWN HER COTTAGE/BAKERY/HOME/ETC BC THEY HEARD SHE WAS HELPING THE REBELLION. I CRY.

AND YOU KNOW THAT KATE IS PROBABLY HALF-SINGED HERSELF FROM TRYING TO SAVE ~TRINKETS THAT WERE MEMORIES OF HER PARENTS, PROBABLY HAD TO BE FORCIBLY DRAGGED BACK FROM THE FLAMES, TRYING TO SALVAGE WHATEVER SHE COULD BEFORE EVERYTHING WAS DESTROYED.

TBQH, IF CEDRIC TOOK HIS EYES OFF HER FOR TWO SECONDS SHE’D PROBABLY DASH BACK INSIDE.

i said: I CRY BC YOU KNOW HE’S HOLDING HER TIGHT, ONE HAND BEHIND HER HEAD TANGLING WITH HER CURLS, AND LOOKING DEEP INTO HER EYES AND GOING, “Look at me, Kate, Kate, look at me.  There’s only one thing left worth risking EVERYTHING to save.  You’re the only rememberance your parents ever treasured.  You’re all that matters, now.”

lauren: I’M NOT CRYING, YOU’RE CRYING. THIS IS TERRIBLE. EVERYTHING HURTS. BC YOU KNOW SHE’D JUST HAVE THIS ~LOOK OF DEVASTATION ON HER FACE AS SHE LOOKS BACK UP AT CEDRIC, TEARS IN HER EYES, AND SAYS IN A VERY QUIET VOICE: “I am all that matters? How can you say such things? Without my bakery… how i will be able to make enough bread to feed everyone?? Your camp will have no bread to keep them sustained when supplies run low, there are children in the village who will starve without what little scraps I could give them. What will they do now if I cannot feed them?” BEFORE SHE JUST BREAKS DOWN AND LEANS INTO CEDRIC, SOBBING UNCONTROLLABLY BECAUSE IT IS ALL GONE AND SHE CAN’T GET IT BACK. 

lauren: I KNOW RIGHT?! I’m sitting here in bed crying a lil because it is sO CEDRIC AFTER PULLING KATE FROM THE FLAMES, I JUST. “Please, come with me.” i’m killing myself slowly here. Probably says it too, bc he knows that if he doesn’t, Kate’ll just stay here, sifting through the ashes of her entire life that’s been burnt to the ground, trying to find any little piece of her past that is left, most likely to later be set upon by whatever soldiers were lying in wait for her to do just that. And she’ll be so shell-shocked still, so weary from crying until she had nothing left to give that she’d just go with them. Probably become bait for the Rebellion. (bc lord in heaven above knows that Cedric would most likely come after her.) And honestly…. This would be the one time she would listen, though. The one time she would go with Cedric, because even though she doesn’t realize it, for whatever reason, she knows that being with Cedric always makes her feel safe and protected and cared for.uGH.

#ALSO IMAGINING THAT DESPITE KNOWING HOW IMPROPER IT WOULD LOOK/SEEM #KATE QUIETLY ASKING CEDRIC IF SHE COULD SLEEP NEXT TO HIM IN HIS TENT THAT FIRST NIGHT #JUST BECAUSE SHE DOESN'T WANT TO BE ALONE AND WANTS THE COMFORT OF A WARM BODY NEARBY #BUT STILL TRIES VERY HARD TO KEEP HER CRYING V QUIET WHEN SHE CAN'T HELP HERSELF FROM THINKING ABOUT HOW SHE WILL BE LETTING DOWN SO MANY #*PEOPLE THAT DEPENDED ON HER FOR SUSTENANCE

me: NO BUT LAUREN HE ABSOLUTELY WOULD  He lost his family and his home as well, and he knows what that’s like and how it impacts a person and he knows the one thing that brought him back was making the Resistance his family and he wants that for her, too.  He would lay down his life in a second for her and he would absolutely come for her if she were taken, but he’d never willing allow her to fall into enemy hands, either.  So he’d take her back and care for her and help her rebuild her life, however he can, bc she’s his life, too. EVERYTHING HURTS LAKSDJFKLJSAD

lauren: aUUUUUUUUGHHHH.BABIES.I JUST.Because I think something like that would be such a wake-up call for Kate, too? Like I think she’s going to be very much in the dark about her true feelings about Cedric until he’s dying and she has to rush to Dezod bc she’s at the end of her rope and cannot imagine a life without him.Especially if something like that happened where she no longer had her bakery or her home–having nothing by Cedric and the Rebellion and the camp they all share. Losing him would be like losing the one piece of her past and her life she had left, and Kate finally realizing that she couldn’t bear it for so many reasons, not the least of which is just how much she truly loves him, and i’M CRYING. NOTHING IS OKAY.But ugh, those hours right after when she lets him lead her away. Cedric probably has to half drag, half carry her through the woods because she’s still so shell-shocked she can barely move, all wide-eyed and barely-there breaths, fire still bright in her mind. And once they get back to the camp, I can see her just sticking very close to Cedric bc his presence is such a comfort. Perhaps even more so than Guin or Alaric, even despite them also being good friends of hers. AND STILL NOT OVER THE IDEA THAT SHE WOULD V TIMIDLY ASK IF SHE COULD SLEEP IN CEDRIC’S TENT WITH HIM LIKE: “I–I know it’s not very seemly, and I’m not certain Alaric would approve, but I…. oh, I just really don’t wish to be alone right now, Cedric, and I would be very grateful.” ALL WRINGING HER HANDS AND LOOKING AT THE GROUND, STILL SO KNOCKED OUT OF SYNC BY THE EVENTS OF THE DAY.AND HER TRYING SO HARD NOT TO CRY WHEN THE NIGHT COMES AND LEAVES HER SILENT WITH HER TERRIBLE, HORRIBLE THOUGHTS ABOUT HOW SHE CAN NO LONGER HELP THE CAUSE OR HER PEOPLE, FOR WHAT USE IS SHE IF SHE CANNOT FEED THE ONES SHE LOVES??? AND HER JUST LYING THERE, HANDS PRESSED TIGHTLY OVER HER MOUTH AS SHE TRIES TO STIFLE HER SOBS, BUT CAN’T HELP BUT TO PRESS HER FOREHEAD AGAINST CEDRIC’S BACK BECAUSE KNOWING HE IS THERE IS THE ONE SMALL THREAD STILL KEEPING HER TOGETHER.

and she said this (maybe she wears it after he dies or smth idk if this was in response to smth or just smth she wanted kate to have but 100% he wOULD <3

kaTE nO.

CEDRIC’S MOM’S RING.

FOR KATE.

AND HE CARRIES IT AROUND.

JUST WAITING.

I CAN’T HANDLE THIS WHILE I’M ALSO LISTENING TO A BUNCH OF INDIE-FOLKSY LOVE SONGS.

lauren: You always know what you’re doing” she said muzzily. “You’re important with your green eyes looking at me like I mean something. It’s okay that you have better things to do. It’s enough that I get you sometimes. Once in a while. I know I’m lucky for that, to get you just a little. —Denna, The Name of the Wind by Patrick Rothfuss

#JUST HAD TO SHARE THIS SLICE OF THE MOMENT I'M READING #BC IT FEELS LIKE SOMETHING KATE WOULD SAY TO CEDRIC #ONLY REALLY THO IF FOR SOME REASON SHE WAS DELIRIOUS OR DRUNK OR JUST NOT QUITE IN HER FULL MIND #BUT IT'S WHAT'S IN HER HEAD AND IT'S SAD AND BEAUTIFUL AND I JUST #DENNA AND KVOTHE REMIND ME SO MUCH OF THEM I CAN'T HANDLE IT

uGH.I can just see it so clearly too. Kate sick with the fever or dozily full of some fruit wine that one of the Rebellion snuck away from one of the nearby Lords. Curling up in a small pocket of warmth against Cedric’s side (something she does much more often than she’d ever admit–it’s comfortable and warm and feels like a place that was made for her, whether she’ll let herself think about why or not) and just mumbling half-mad under her breath that she understands. He doesn’t like her like that, he’s important and doing important things and has no time to think of her, but she’s content with having him sometimes. Sometimes is better than not at all. and just slowly falling asleep or shivering into that fitful sleep of the sick and mending, holding onto Cedric’s hand tightly–because after all, she has to hoard those sometimes whenever she can.

me: !!!!!! And you know he’s absolutely stunned & overwhelmed that she thinks this & tells her how important she is - how he couldn’t do any of it w/o her, none of them could - and AsdhncDBJKFFAC also laughing bc the local lord is Dmitrei

lauren: uGHHHHHHHHHH.And Kate just half-smiling in that droopy way of the half-asleep, squeezing his hand a little and nodding with eyes closed. Thanks him for saying these things to make her feel better. That it helps a little in the in-between times when she doesn’t get to have him, when he’s off being important and saving them all from reckless tyranny. But she knows what she is, who she is. She’s a simple Miller’s girl, grinding wheat and making bread. Just one lucky enough to get to brush greatness every once in a while.aND OMG HOW DID I FORGET. THAT’S BEAUTIFUL. (Just imagining the Rebellion randomly sneaking things away from Dmitrei is the best. His fACE.)

#I S2G MY OWN OTP FEELS HAVE JUST DEVOLVED INTO KATE HAVE ~SUPER SECRET SUBCONSCIOUS FEELS FOR CEDRIC #WHICH I MEAN I GUESS I KINDA HAD ALWAYS PLANNED ON??? #I JUST DIDN'T EXPECT IT TO BE ANYTHING SHE'D EVER VOICE EVEN IN A ROUNDABOUT WAY #BUT SHE KEEPS TALKING ABOUT IT WHEN DISTRACTED OR IN VERY SIDEWAYS MANNERS OR TO HERSELF IN HER HEAD #UGH #BABIES

and finally, [ this ] tho i don’t think we’ll use it hahaha

#kate #cedric #kateric #katheryne #character arcs

[franeridart]

Welp looks like this is something I spent my time on - Class 1A and their first pokémon! Some of them more obvious than others, look at me go off blabbering about the hows and whys under cut~

Bakugou’s got a Quilava, for obvious look-alike reasons - just like Bakugou himself his Quilava is already pretty damn strong (he’s been training with him for as long as he’s wanted to be a hero, after all), but not as strong as he could be, which is why he’s not evolved just yet. I’d say Baku’ll manage to evolve him by the end of his first year of highschool, after the whole process of growth he’s going through in the manga right now, once he’ll know himself and will be kind to himself enough to let himself pull out his full potential

Kirishima has a Lycanroc! Again, because I’ve never seen a pokémon looking more like Kirishima than Lycanroc’s Midnight form. She’s been training with Kirishima day and night since Kiri got his small child hands on a super small pretty anonymous Rockruff and evolved about a week before entering UA - about at the same time Kiri got his own makeover, actually. She loves Kiri so much and you never see Kirishima without her beside him. It could nearly be intimidating, weren’t it that they’re both sunshine incarnated

Denki and his Joltik! Most people like to link Kaminari to a pikachu, but personally I think a smaller pokémon would work better for him. Something so small that can easily go unnoticed, a bit, sadly, like Kaminari himself. Anyway, it was more Joltik the one choosing Kaminari than the other way around - actually, Denki has at least six running around his room at home, but this one specifically bonded with him the most. He likes to feed off Kaminari’s own stored electricity, and when Kaminari runs out he doesn’t mind sharing his own. It’s still a Joltik because Denki just... procrastinated on putting effort into training him. He’s probably gonna evolve sometime during Denki’s second UA year, cause he really has to nearly start from zero here.

(okay were done with the too lenghty blabber, shorter ones from now on)

Uraraka gets a Timburr, because to be honest, there’s no pokémon that fits her better. He’s the son of Uraraka’s father’s Conkeldurrs, and he’s just about to evolve! Ochako can feel it! They’re just about there!!! It still hasn’t happened though. They wonder why?

Iida gets a Ninjask because it’s the fastest pokémon, as easy as that - he got her from his brother when he was a little more than just a kid, and he’s been diligently training her ever since. She’s been evolved for a while, now

Deku’s Treecko! Choosen because of resemblance reasons - even though Izuku’s been trying to have him evolve for as long as he can remember, it just isn’t happening. It’s an incredibly clever pokémon, but strength just isn’t on his side (...Baku might or might not have used to make fun of him, too). Since entering UA Izuku hasn’t tried to use him to fight anymore, and maybe that was the right thing to do to finally let him grow enough to evolve. Who knows.

I’ve been debating on Todoroki for a while, but in the end his first pokemon had to be an ice type. She used to be his sister’s, but young Todo bonded with her so much that Fuyumi gave her to him. Endeavour does not approve. Todoroki does not give a fuck.

Tsuyu has a Politoed, and I don’t even think I have to explain why. At the moment, she probably has the highest level first pokémon, just like she’s the best one at controlling her quirk. She can’t really have Politoed evolve any more than this, but there’s still lotsa improving and growing into themselves they both have to do

Tooru’s Kecleon is a really strong one - even though no one has ever seen her fight. When do they fight? Who do they fight even? We just don’t know. They’ve started training with Mashirao a bit lately, though.

Mashirao gets a Mankey because of resemblance and fighting style - she used to be a pretty weak thing when Ojiro found her, but he promised that he would make her a top pokémon just like he would become a hero even without a good quirk. He’s keeping his word.

There’s. Literally nothing I have to say about this. Tokoyami’s family probably just hands Murkrows to every newborn member. Toko and his Murkrow’s personalities are so alike it’s nearly freaky.

The shiniest pokémon for the shiniest child! Only it’s still a Mareep, because Aoyama was too preoccupied with fantasising about his future Ampharos to actually train his Mareep enough to evolve into one. He’ll get there, sooner or later.

Sero was an hard one to pick, but in the end I gave him a Darumaka for the similar expression they have - babies have the nicest relationship between any student and their pokémon right after Kiri and his Lycanroc, they love each other just that much. She’s about to evolve! When it’ll happen it’ll be a p huge surprise for Sero, he isn’t keeping track at all.

Jirou’s Noibat flew in her room when she was just a kid, scared and alone - she’s never left ever since, obviously. Sometimes Jirou tries to make her go back to her pokéball, but for being a Noibat the pokémon likes being outside way too much. Usually plastered on Jirou’s face. You grow used to that, Jirou assures you.

Mina’s Venonat is the softest fluffball, friendly with everyone, incredibly noisy, a bit of a clumsy mess, just like Mina herself. Mina wasn’t really thinking about having her become stronger and evolve till a couple of months before entering UA, so it’s going to take a while before she actually reaches evolving level.

Actually? Actually actually?? I just found hilarious the idea of the smallest boy with the hugest pokémon. Mineta’s Wailmer is a boy, like every and each of Mineta’s pokémon, and he’s really far away from evolving. For some reason, he loves Mineta with all of his very huge heart.

Momo was the hardest to find a starter for, but in the end I went for Abra because Alakazam is the pokémon with the highest IQ. She doesn’t use Abra to fight, never has and never will, and Abra absolutely does not mind because her fave pastime is just. Lay there as Momo reads to her. Anyway, Momo’s had Abra long enough that she’s about to evolve despite of that - Jirou’s more excited about this than Momo is, tbqh. She’ll love her Abra the same way whatever shape she takes.

Sato and his Swirlix, was there even any doubt on this. He’s so soft and so nice and so happy, the girls of the class are constantly all over him - some boys might resent Sato over that a little bit

Kouda gets a Jigglypuff, mostly because it looks soft and evolves into a bunny. Kouda’s had him since he was all but a small Igglybuff - he’s pretty strong, but Kouda’s still debating over whether it’s the right time to have him evolve again or to wait just a bit more

Shouji! Our last one! I was tempted to give him a number of other pokémons, but Inkay is it in the end, because it’s the one with the most arms since the start - he’s a pretty quiet little thing, Shouji’s Inkay, but he’s actually really strong. He’ll evolve soon, Shouji thinks, but even if it doesn’t happen he doesn’t really mind - after all, an Inkay is easier to keep constantly out of the ball compared to a Malamar, and his Inkay really doesn’t like being coped up inside.

#class 1-a #class 1a #boku no hero academia #my hero academia #my sketches #bnha pokemon au #long post #if for whatever reason you can't see the readmore that is #i meant to properly color these BUT #SINCE I'M A GODDAMN IDIOT #i merged the sketch layer with the line one and now i have to line them again #it's #not happening any time soon #one day i will and i'll slowly post them again colored #but for now have the sketches #ahhhhhhh orz #by the way with this ive drawn all the 1a students at least once #i was only missing mineta and sato! #amazing