#Or at least that I didnt have to deal with him

[ganondoodle]

I probably still wouldn’t have been a big fan of the game, but I don’t think I would have been NEARLY as upset about TotK if BotW didn’t seem like it was so obviously setting up plot points for a sequel. Like, you’re very clearly MEANT to wonder what malice is, and how Ganon became the Calamity instead of just the Demon King. Fi is awake again, where are they going either that? What’s the deal with the Triforce-shaped symbol on Zelda’s hand? There were a LOT of other things like that, and many of them had to do with overarching lore for the series.

I get it if they want to reboot the series, but “BotW 2” was the single worst game you could have done that with. It could have been an amazing conclusion to the original continuity.

EXACTLY, you, you get it

botw felt like the introduction to a vast world with secrets and hints to things that were planned to become a bigger thing- a big giant game as a big giant set up, and then ... like totk likes to do alot, it lacks a pay off, and that is something it even does within itself, cosntantly, set up and no pay off, or set up and the most boring and uninspired pay off you can really not even call that, from the bigger things like the whole dragon thing being hammered into your head as irreversible and then it IS reversible.. out of nowhere without you having to do fuck all, the whole thing with the ancient hero beign a big mystery with lots of interesting ideas attached and then its some weird ass dog creature that doesnt resemble any other race with, of course, sonau armor, bc there nothing that isnt sonau in that game, even finding the old treasure maps you can find that then lead to amiibo stuff from botw id call that

botw wasnt that great with rewards either but exploring the world and wondering about those, surely intentionally, placed mysterious and intriguing designs and places did alot for making it so interesting to think about, totk fumbles it all and even the new stuff doesnt even come close to that environmental storytelling botw was so great at, sonau ruins? ha they look entirely different than in botw actually, bc those were built by hylians you see, the actual sonau stuff is in prime condition considering the time thats passed and its all the same blank blocky blocks that serve no purpose but to be a place for you to find a thing or exchange some currency- the most you can think about it is ... that the sonau hollowed out the entire underground of hyrule, every inch of the map, ... which is WEIRD and doesnt exactly make them look that good but ... thats all there is

at least with the shiekah it made somewaht more sense and it felt much less .. invasive? and you didnt have anyone from that time to talk to, other than dead monks whos only purpose is to give you their last piece of their own spirit, but in totk ... raurus ghost and mineru too are both just there to talk to but DONT tell you shit but vague hints that were already clear, the sky islands used to be on the ground? oh you dont say, you see them there in the stupid memories! and dont get to know how they got up there and theres nothing that can clue you in to that, its just sonau magic yet again i guess

dont even get me started on the whole malice/miasma thing, it made so much SENSE that there was a source of it, someone that has keep kept in a horrible place just between life and death for thousands of years trying to break free by their hate and anger manifesting to such a degree its literally spilling out and building creppy eyeballs, mouths and ribcage like structures like they are trying to rebuild themsleves outside of their awful prison no one knows about is so damn compelling, but no, actually, the guy trapped there was the msot evilest evar, was sealed bc him evil and no other motive, and the previously mentioned stuff is pretty much utterly unceonnected, and his magic beign miasma with red instead of pink and no creepy body parts was the true version of it, that pink one was its own thing heehooo SHUT UP argh

it doesnt help that really, i dont feel like the sonau were set up either, they were a tiny part in botw, really only serving to make the world seem more ancient and more full of history, having ruins from a past civilization there you know nothing about and cant find out more is so good, its compelling and sad and makes the world feel more real, just shoving them into everything, being the center of attention all of thes udden and not even the architecure fitting feels so ... forced, i really truly believe the og sonau werent meant to be more than that, but in their fear of the game being too similarly looking like botw they took the sonau to replace the shiekah with them- imo the shiekah were the ones set up to be deeper explored in botw, with their whole misstreatment by the royal family in the past, monk miz kyoshia reacting the same way a yiga commander would was deliberate and brings up even more interesting ideas, the comments about where the mysterious energy the ancient shiekah used to power everything being concentrated in certain regions?? thats a big ass set up, the fact that the center of what is signaling everything to reactivate being below hyrule castle? the fact the whole arena thing was BUILT INTO THE CASTLE or it on top of it is so??? cool??? and sso damn intriguing, we are scratching the surface of their history- but then no, actually, the sonau are the cool new shit those other ones just uh ... disappear, also the sonau did everythign the shiekah did but even better wayy before them haha

its like they didnt want to tackle the more complicated stuff with the shiekah, their relationship to the royal family and how the yiga ... have a point and a good reason- so they replaced them with entirely new purely goodest good guys that did the same stuff before them with none of the history attached :))

this is why im so insistent on it not really being a sequel, thers no follow up on anything that was set up, NOTHING, and no, a couple having a kid now or whatever isnt a follow up on an interesting set up, how hard is it to understand that-

.... listen to me rambling, you probably know all that already nhjdfkbnkd

(i know i always bring up the shiekah but ... they were so central in botw, while also not taking up every single corner- unlike some other ones >_____>, with so much interesting stuff to connect and think about, i cared about them so much i felt kicked down the stairs by their treatment in totk)

#ganondoodles answers #ganondoodles rants #zelda #totk #totk critical #maybe its jsut me that feels so strongly about the unanswered stuff around the shiekah #but im #biting wood and clawing up the walls in my head

[regular-gnome]

HELLO I LOVE YOUR ART AND EVERYTHING YOU DO

btw ,we've seen your future collector,(love him btw)

but what about king ,what happened to that baby in the future ,

did he repopulate the titans ,did go on a bunch of cool magical adventures with collie ,

I NEED TO KNOW RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

Soo, King was fine for a while but there is few things

First I think Collie after WaD went back to archive, mostly because I refuse to belive owl family just left a literal child go alone in the void and isolate themseves and knowing Collector doesnt do well with lonlyness they went somewhere, the fact that we see everyone alright few years later during Luzs Kingcenera would mean it didnt go catastrophically bad

The archivists very much, do not like titans or want them around, especially after the whole war. The possiblity of it having been for nothing and letting titans just come back via King is not really a option they would let happen. Collie after learning implications of mortality and what reallly happend to other freinds wouldnt just let them take King so they struck a deal for his life. The archivists will leave him be as long as Collector ensures he is the last titan left in the demon realm. What basically means they dont want him to run into other realms or there being more titans down the line, as long as this is met King is free to have adventures and free to live his life, something that is a happy ending

The issue starts if King does have a kid. We know there is only one parent needed to have a kid so if left alone titans would bounce back thanks to King. So if that happens the deal is broken, King isnt the last titan left and the archivists come back killing. At least killing the young titan, and in the process parent who tried to protect it. That I do not belive would do well for their relationship with Collie who would split afterwards from them. What happens next depends on what will happen with the mortal realms they vist, maybe theyll try settle on diffrent worlds trying to prvent its extincions, maybe theyll establish own lonesome archive. Maybe they'll get fed up with inevitable extincions of worlds that theyll come back to their siblings on own terms. Older and more sticktly work related, with bearly any conversation outside as the overall goal to preserve worlds isnt a bad one, its their methods and approach. If they didnt just go 0 to 100 and kill titans they might have been a useful asset, as their magic deals with life and that would be priceless for worlds that do not do well

Sorry guys, I dont belive in happy endings

#ask #the owl house #tumblr queueue strikes again #idk what im doing wrong #posted when i was 2/3 through writing it #Relating to the scenario I have sort of sketch of a comic that i prob wont really be really finishing #of Collie and rest being snappy and arguing on sight can post it if someone is interested #since well #its a sketch #toh king #king clawthorne #toh collector #the collector #toh archivists

[mishy-mashy]

Shinomori is cute. Here's a post.

He is so baby-faced. He hasn't changed at all since he was 22, to when he died of "old age" at 40

(Old age? With a face like that? 40 years old?? Gimme that kind of youth and hotness Shinomori-)

He has tiny eyebrows. Like a puppy's (rottweiler's, for example). So cute and tiny and fuffy

He naturally frowns. Look at him and his mouth and his lil nose

He has a thing about keeping his arms near his chest. He sits with his arms crossed, introduces himself with his hands over his torso, and even walks with his arms crossed toward Midoriya

He has such clear skin for someone who lived the rest of his life in a forest??? Why do Hikage and Yoichi have such nice skin despite living in terrible environments? (forest and vault + abandoned streets respectively)

Is easily scared

They knew their Quirks could be used, but Shinomori got scared of it when it happened. Even though he gave Midoriya his support and access to his Quirk beforehand. Depending on the translation; "it startled me", "you scared me", "it surprised me"

I'm not going to hold running from AFO against him because he knew he was running for his life. Who wouldn't run for their life when it's in danger? Shinomori was being chased by the strongest person in the country (and likely the world)

His sense of self-preservation is probably heightened by the nature of his Quirk to keep him out of danger too. Which makes him all the more sensitive and jumpy to danger and anything that startles him, especially when he has no warning

He's actually extremely tall, but is so socially inept and jumpy it's adorable. He's taller than Bruce.

Bruce is as tall as a vault door that the 2m AFO used.

(Meanwhile Kudo is down there-)

He has such a bad sense of humor that it's cute (his puns off Danger Sense)

It's also adorable how Shinomori just doesn't understand social conventions sometimes. He lived in a forest, so it made sense, but also— Midoriya shows up in the void to the vestige platform for the first time. He has no mouth, no clothes—and Shinomori's first idea is to stand in front of him menacingly and go: "I shall explain. I am Shinomori Hikage." SIRRRR

This.

His Ability is basically like glorified anxiety. What if something is coming to hurt him? If something can hurt him? What if that tree falls while he's under it? And the ideas come so hard they hurt (although yes, it does detect ill intent and that's what sets it off)

He talks weirdly. Formal? Old-fashioned? Listening to him speak Japanese compared to others, it just sounds a bit different. (Translated subs don't show it very well, it's the voice itself methinks)

"This too, is destiny." *about Midoriya having OFA*

Kinda wise or sage-y. He did spend his life in solitude in the forests so he definitely spent a lot of time with his own thoughts. Maybe he found the meaning of life in a centipede or something one day

For someone so cute, he is also such. A fine. Specimen???

Look at those back muscles, dang.

LOOK AT HIS CALVES AND ARMS DANG.

#i dont think shinomori was part of the resistance considering the resistance fought the society AFO was making #and shinomori wanted to avoid society and thus hid away #but i do think bruce knew shinomori because he gave him ofa before he went to fight AFO and die #and afo doesnt seem to know hikage. if he did he wouldve found and killed him. but hikage is never in afos memories #yknow what shinomori needs some appreciation too #vestiges need more attention #also i always put shinomori dealing with bruces remnants in my fics so he needs some appreciation for that #like the kids dumped on him #shinomori received OFA at 22 years old. he was around bruces age methinks #hes not some kid the resistance took in. the resistance didnt take in kids anyway #or at least we dont see them #well fic stuff banjo has the time of his life with en wrangling kid hermits that dont know what electricity is #mha #bnha #boku no hero academia #my hero academia #spoilers #hikage shinomori #ofa #one for all #ANYWAY hikage is ADORABLE and needs attention #just LOOK AT HIM #id have put this post out sooner but getting the pictures is always hard cuz popups or videos not working #i like shinomoris english voice actor. i dont stick around to hear anyone elses because i died when midoriya turned into a kid in the dub #i could probably make a list like this and bruces for the rest of the vestiges #yoichis small waist lovely skin and that he probably knows how to wrap kudo and bruce around his finger? #his “my heroes” and smiling as he goes “now now you two..”? kudos low voice and nice arms and SHORTNESS? #en going “senpai” and sitting on his chair like that? looking like he exudes gremlin energy? did he get carried around by banjo and nana? #it looks like he wouldve CMONN #i didnt include it in here cuz image limit but shinomori has big hands and feet (tag limit)

[trekkele]

ok time to be negative again i cannot stand the trope “character x finds out bruce ““let”” his sons murderer live and chews him out then goes to kill joker” because 60% of the time its a character who has an independent no kill rule, and absolutely zero business yelling at Bruce about anything. Fuck ooooooffffff with the guilt tripping about bruce not committing murder!!!!!

#unpopular opinion: you do not have to set your life on fire and renege on your morals in memory of someone #you really dont #NOT TO FUCKING MENTION #these fics always make a HUGE deal about how dick killed joker and then completely ignore that he had such a breakdown about it bruce had to #revive the fucker in order for him to be ok #bruce killed joker once and tried at least twice more #i understand this is a personal preference but this is my personal blog so #if some person i didnt know walked into my house and started criticizing how i grieved my dead son i would not stand there and take it the #way yall write bruce taking it #oh i really do hate this stupid trope lmao

[camelspit]

one thing from stellarlune that irrationally pisses me off is the fact that keefe had shadowflux, in his heart, for months. and after it was pulled out there were no consequences. not one. no echoes or anything. can you imagine how interesting that would be? an empath with echoes in his heart and finding a way to deal with that. and yet? nothing came of it? it was nothing but a plot device to find keefe and im so so mad. want to maim.

#Can you imagine how interesting it would be??? #Sophie and fitz helping him deal with echoes #The consequences it could have on his abilities #Even if it wasnt much it was in his heart for months #And? There were no effects from that? At all? #Not even like. Chest pain or anything. #Tam just pulled it out and everything was fine. #I didnt like stellarlune much and I think this is one of the main reasons #Nothing happened #It wasnt just the no results from the shadowflux #How many confrontation/battle scenes are there in every book? #Like around 5 at least right #At the very least high stake situations #What did we have in this book #A meeting with trix where nothing happened and a 2 page interrupted battle scene #This is a bit of a vent im sorry but #I am genuinley a bit pissed off #And all this mixed with the weird ass characterization?? #This book is definetely the worst keeper book yet for me. #Kotlc #Stellarlune spoilers

[sneez]

various fairfaxes and a drawing from my english civil wars hiking au which i never posted :-) [id under cut]

[image description:

the first image is a digital drawing of a group of men on a light brown background. they are all wearing hiking-appropriate clothing. from left to right: a young man swinging from a tree; arrows pointing at him read ‘weirdly passionate about hiking’ and ‘like 15′. a man leaning against a tree; arrows read ‘grumpy’ and ‘only here for family bonding with father-in-law’. a man with a cane and one arm in a sling, leaning over to read a map; arrows read ‘has injured himself on every hike so far’ and ‘designated driver’. a man reading a map with a serious expression; arrows read ‘annoyed about everything except hiking and sometimes also hiking’ and ‘only one who can read a map’. a man with his hands on his hips looking at the viewer; arrows read ‘arranges hikes and then doesn’t go on them’ and ‘good at arguing’.

the second image is a collection of four digital drawings of thomas fairfax, a man with long dark hair, a moustache, and a beard. he is wearing seventeenth-century clothing. one is a full-body coloured drawing of him sitting in a chair facing away from the viewer with his legs folded and his hat on his knee. the other three are uncoloured: two are headshots of him as a young man and an older man, and the third shows him sitting at a table reading a piece of paper with an expression of concentration.

the third image is a coloured digital portrait of thomas fairfax as an older man. he is clean-shaven and has long dark hair and a scar across his cheek. he is wearing a dark doublet and a large white falling band, and is looking to the left of the image with a serious expression.

end image description.]

#artwork #fairfax #and others! theres a bunch of blokes in the hiking one #basically the concept is it's the english civil wars but instead of having a civil war they are rival hiking groups. and they compete with #each other over hiking trails and such. i never drew the royalist group but i was imagining them to be the Official hiking club and the #parliamentarian one started because there was drama in the royalist club so they started their own #and now theres drama between both of them. hiking drama. #ANYWAY thats from last year i cant remember why i never posted it but here it is now :-) #the other ones are much newer (for the most part) i did the coloured sitting fax yesterday #the last one is based on a portrait i came across recently which may or may not depict fairfax in 1664 (the identification is questionable) #and i still havent made my mind up whether or not i think it could be him or not but i was So excited about finding such a late portrait #i knew i had to draw at least something inspired by it. i cant even tell you how i excited i was i almost exploded #for context the latest portrait we have otherwise is from 1650 so if it is actually him it is a Very Big Deal #but i dont think we will ever know because the identification has been rejected by the metropolitan museum of art :-/ alas #of course it could be raised again in the future but i dont know if anyone would care enough to do that. i would obviously. but otherwise #oh for the first one from left to right it's lambert ireton fairfax cromwell pym #i dont know if the writing will be legible given how much tumblr crunches images but We Will See #i hope you are all doing well my dear friends :-) it has been so nice to get around to answering messages today i have missed you terribly #edited to add image descriptions! sorry i didnt do that earlier my apologies

[schleierkauz]

Rereading the available TCoR chapters after rereading Inkheart is so funny. Throughout the whole first book everyone makes fun of Basta for being superstitious and believing in curses, like an idiot. 

Cut to TCoR and 3/4 of the cast is cancelled due to Being Cursed

#like..... LIKE......... #TCOR spoilers #tcor #inkheart #tbh the way 'magic' is understood by the characters is just.. really funny to me #i know ive talked about it before but #fenoglio is SO mad about it being real like he didnt create giants and fairies and dustfinger #yeah yeah witches are a different beast but STILL #the people of ombra seem pretty used to cursed/enchanted objects #like its not That big of a deal #and dustfinger spent most of his life travelling! he must have known about it!! #basta was right all along you guys are just mean- #(and yeah yeah yeah i know dustfinger says theres no magic in the 'real' world) #(and thats mainly why he thinks basta is pathetic and dumb) #(but again. my boy. why are you so sure?? just because the fire won't talk to you? you thought mo was a fucking wizard!!!) #(HALF THE NICKNAME YOU USE FOR HIM IS JUST THE WORD 'MAGIC') #((at least in the original)) #hgfhghhgfghgfe

[m00ngbin]

Sometimes I think of Chicken Little from the movie Chicken Little and cry bc he's just a kid and he's all alone and his dad is ashamed of him and he lost his mother and he gets bullied and harassed bc he's small and kind of strange and he's the only person in the world that knows that the sky is falling and when he tries to tell people they don't believe him

#I WOULD HAVE BELIEVED HIM #ALL THAT PRESSURE ON THAT POOR LITTLE KID #AND THEN HE HAS TO SAVE THE WHOLE TOWN FROM THE ALIENS #THE ENTIRE TOWN THAT OSTRACIZED AND BULLIED HIM BTW #EVEN THE FUCKING MAYOR #LIKE ARE YOU SHITTING ME?? #i wouldnt have done it #i would have just left them to get vaporized into the void #idk just after all that hes still so kind and he cares about everybody in that stupid town #AND THE SCENE WHERE HES LIKE BEGGING AND PLEADING WITH HIS FATHER TO JUST BELIEVE HIM #BC IF NOBODY ELSE HAS HIS BACK AT LEAST HIS DAD SHOULD #and he DIDNT #OH AND HIS DAD PURPOSELY SEPARATED HIMSELF FROM CHICKEN LITTLE BECAUSE HE WAS SO EMBARRASSED AND ASHAMED #IN FRONT OF EVERYBODY #idk chicken little makes me really sad #I KNOW THE DAD IS HAVING A HARD TIME I KNOW HES STILL GRIEVING HIS WIFE BUT OH MY GOD #YOUR SON NEEDS YOU. HE HAS NEEDED YOU AND YOU ARE JUST NOT THERE FOR HIM #i could have been a better parent #i could have done it i would have loved him the way he deserved #OH AND HE ONLY HAS LIKE THREE PEOPLE IN HIS LIFE THAT REALLY LOVE HIM COMPLETELY AND UNCONDITIONALLY #AND THEYRE ALL STRANGE AND OSTRACIZED JUST LIKE HE IS #the troupe of people that are othered finding each other. seeing their faults. and loving each other the way that they should be loved #will always EAT ME ALIVE #what was he. like 12? #if i had been in that movie i would have LOST IT if a kid that little had to go through and deal with all of the things that he had to #pretty much alone for most of the movie #i meam he had his three friends for half of it but theres a lot he had to do alone #i just watched it can you tell

[lesbienneanarchiste]

I do not understand the appeal of taking complex old men characters and making them either toothless grandpas or abusive demons. Why are y'all so afraid of DILFs who have fucked up but are ultimately not evil people

#this was originally about vesemir but is also about denethor like those two are my Complicated Old Men loves #tho actually denethor never did anything wrong in his life and i know this on most days #but its worth acknowledging that if i actually think about it he obviously made some questionable decisions #maybe. sometimes. occasionally. #stanning denethor is a trial and a torment bc of a certain filmmaker #but vesemir is also a minefield like bros that man very much did torture and essentially murder children #and if he didnt do it personally then he at least signed off on it as worth the result of there being more witchers in the world #but he's also close to the boys and ciri to at least some degree and had his own torture and trauma to deal with #but fics either make him this inhuman monster who heartlessly killed kids or make him the sappy old grandpa figure #and like.... idk i just dont find it personally compelling at all #arent you tired of being one dimensional? dont you just wanna have complexity #disgruntled octopus

[1smolbean]

some of yall are acting a little weird about the titan thing im ngl

#lee speaks #titan #titanic #oceangate #like yeah the people on there probably did shady shit to get all the money they have or had #i mean at least two of them are billionaires and one of them is the fucking ceo of oceangate #but like. i don’t think that necessarily means that the other billionaire should have to watch his son slowly suffocate to death #maybe im a bootlicker for that #i just would rather have wealth distribution than like. killing rich peoples children in front of them #and i know most of yall didnt know who the billionaire and his son were before this whole thing #i know very few of you actually disliked them before this whole submarine thing #for the most part the way to deal with billionaires is wealth distribution #and letting them have like 1 to .25 percent of their wealth #bc like. theyre a billionaire they can probably live comfortably with that #unless the son has done some shady shit of his own i dont think we should necessarily be punishing him #for the shady shit his dad mightve done

[todayisafridaynight]

i think what gets me most about aoki’s death is that it is the perfect allegory for how rgg treats its antagonists: even if the antagonist is willing to change or implies they’re ready to start over, even if the protagonist is ready to accept them and help them move forward, even if it’s the very last second before the start of their redemption can begin, rgg has to throw in the BIGGEST Fuck You and stop any kind of progress from happening and kill them off before they can either change for the better, or justly face the consequences of their actions and get their comeuppance

ironically it’s like a stab in the back- like even if you want to change for the better, you’re doomed to the path you set out on and there’s nothing you can do to stop that now no matter how earnest you are in wanting to change and no matter who’s there to guide you to a better future (or at least get you to jail)

#y7 spoilers #spoilers #snap chats #always have to slap this Big Ass Disclaimer but aoki was cringe. terrible even. awful. #but i just wish rgg would stop setting up perfect opportunities for these characters to grow #and they'd stop preaching about how you can restart no matter what and people will always be ready to support you to do so #only for them to rip it out of our hands: its such a hollow message when you don't actually commit to it #EVEN BEYOND THAT I JUST WANT SOMEONE TO GET IN TROUBLE FFS #CAN SOMEONE GO TO JAIL. AT LEAST SAWASHIRO GETS TO GO TO PRISON #IT'S THE WAY I CHEERED WHEN I HEARD HE WAS IN JAIL AND SAW HIM IN THERE LIKE YES !!!! FINALLY !!! #ACTUALLY ENDURING THE CONSEQUENCES OF YOUR ACTIONS THAT DOESN'T END IN YOUR DEATH /GOD/ #sawashiro was no innocent man but it was clear he wanted to make amends for what he did to aoki as a baby #and im glad that when that plan started to go sideways bro allowed himself to be incarcerated #he didn't game end himself and he didn't run- it just sucks hoshino had to die as a result like OK Champ You Didn't Have To Do That #but still it was just refreshing to actually have a semi-major antagonist have to deal with his actions #still it was refreshing actually having a semi-major antagonist have to be responsible for what he did that didnt end in his death #or random disappearance. ugh now im just remembering hamazaki like hamazaki wasn't a major antagonist at all #but it was really nice seeing him turn around in y4- only for. only for him to die. #girls that's the closest we're going to get to a redeemed villain like Actually have you guys considered that. #i mean ig baba too if you wanna count that but he was a villain for a total of twenty minutes collectively tbh lets be honest #ugh but not even he gets a concrete ending- like i guess he goes back to jail right? i guess #im rambling point is Welcome Back To My Aoki's Death Rant For The Seventh Week In A Row #feeling saucy today im not hiding my rambling in the tags for once SORRY i just #i just realized why this death makes me the most pissed compared to everyone else #ugh should i do a follow up rant on the other deaths ? cast your votes now if you read this far 🥴

[zemnarihah]

i think one of the girls in my graphics class may be trans NOT to assume anyones gender ever but like she is very clearly like obviously presenting as very feminine like almost anyone would assume she is a girl like i would say she "passes" or whatever as a girl yk? but my prof was talking to me and was pointing out stuff abt her work as an example and kept saying he and him and i didnt even realize until later what was going on like i thought maybe he was talking abt someone else or smth or that maybe I had assumed her pronouns wrong and he knew from canvas or smth bc i never had even considered that she was maybe trans and then later she talked in front of the class abt her project and it wasnt until i heard her voice that was a little lower i was like oh my god the professor was like. straight up purposefully misgendering her i think. like it could not have been an innocent mistake clearly she is presenting as a girl and looks like a girl. and he was misgendering her TO ME and i didnt even realize and just acted like it was normal and she was sitting nearby probably overhearing the whole thing....

#i feel so bad i thought that teacher was cool too.... i want to give him the benefit of the doubt bc hes older and didnt SEEM to mean #anything by it like he seems nice enough to her? besides just using clearly the wrong pronouns? but like it seems so obvious that she is #a girl like ik that sometimes older ppl will have trouble w correcting it in their head and its not second nature for them to use pronouns #that may not align w their first impression of a person but like. anyones first impression of her would be that she is a girl. i also #checked on canvas and she has her pronouns listed as she/her so like... confirmed she isn't going by he/him. anyway i just feel unsure like #idk what i would have even done in that situation if i had realized like idk if its my place to correct him and make a big deal out of it i #she would prefer it to not be and ik trans women are probably used to getting misgendered like all the time i just have never been in a #situation where someone is irl getting misgendered like. purposefully. possibly? idk #not to be like so sheltered ik all the trans ppl who follow me are like this is literally just a tuesday afternoon but there are not many #trans ppl (at least not out) where i live and so i don't see this kind of thing irl i guess im just a little shocked... and i mostly feel #bad especially that it was like. right in front of her

[girlwithfish]

it still makes me sad and its only been like 20 hrs since i found out asleep for 6 of those hrs so yeah idk i think I've processed it. maybe i hate conflict maybe i am too forgiving or naive or trusting maybe i just want stability maybe its just i love him so im willing to forgive not sure.. i dont rly feel much abt it if i dont think abt it too much

#i guess i considered it to be a dealbreaker possible relationship ender before like this morning when i was dealing w it on my own #while he was asleep and it was lonely and i cried twice or three times in tbe bathroom #i was in denial at first thinkjng maybe its not that bad then thought about it more and more #then cried #and then i was up for four hours just thinking abt it and it was worse bc i didnt know anything and so i didntk now the extent of it #or anythjng or if there was more and i wanted to die so bad #idk #i feel better and closer bc we talked it out for hours and #maybe i should have been more angry. i was just hurt at first and started crying when i confronted him and then i just felt emotionless but #heard hjm out and his handling of it made me trust him more bc at least he came clean and was honest and #took accountability bc i wouldnt have continued w this if he had kept lying or trying to downplay it idk #It sucks but i forgave him i think and believe him and if i dont think abt it ican almost pretend. it feels weird bc im used to being able #to trust him nd hve never really questioned much despite my relationship anxiety and anxiety abt getting cheated on #i just never thought anything like that wluld happen to me so. ifeel stupid a bit but idk

[eldritchmochi]

hey quick question, what does it mean when your incredibly cute coworker spends months lamenting the fact that he cant order new contacts because his vision script is out of date but ends up still wearing his (new) glasses to work then later shows you pics from a family gathering where hes definitely wearing contacts and you have a dawning realization that no, he really has worn his glasses exclusively around you and you think it might be because of an offhand compliment on his new frames six months ago

asking for myself. h elp

#mochi rambles #i continue to be having the most baffling gay crisis #like at this point i am absolutely certain hes been casually flirting withe for like close to a year #AT LEAST #im just fucking *dense* so i didnt pick up on it til he got VERY overt #i still cannot get a read on him though #and i cannot lose this game by asking him outright what the fuck is going on #at least not without some attempt at goading him into making a move #this is simply who i am as a person #*however* #points at him *what the fuck* #its such a stupid small thing that i do not think anyone else in the office has noticed but like #does he wear his contacts when im not in??? #i *must* know #but unfortunately i am uh #not really all that close with anyone else in the office BUT him #and i suuuuuuper dont want to put our mutual whatever the fuck this is on anyone elses radar #yes we both intend to quit by the end of 2024 #but i do NOT want to deal with our ancient boss starting shit because she got a wiff of an affair #screms #mochi you useless lesbian

[suckishima]

rrrrrrrrr im so frustrated with my writing. its just been weeks of struggle and whyyyy. idk i think i need to rework or rethink what im going for with this one or something, its like i can feel the threads of the themes i wanna do are sooo close to tying together but it just isnt quite reaching yet and so it reads like a stilted bland mess but the more i stare at it the further away it feels aaah

i know it can get there i kNOW it can, the ending and like aha moment is so cleaaaar that i think its almost too solid and thats why my beginning feels so fucked—like i just keep asking myself 'well if hes gonna get there in chapter 5, whats stopping him from getting there now in chapter 2??' i tHOUGHT i had reasons but now that im there i just keep instinctually writing him to have the connecting/realization moment anyway and like. if that's how it is then what even IS the story??? i need a break

#leaving for my parents for christmas tomorrow and while its always a little lowkey stressful there esp during holidays #itll be nice to at least have a different stress than this one for a few days lmao #mandatory writing break coming at a good time ig #anyway a lot of the real problem is that a big reason i wanted to write this fic is bc i wanted to explore tsukkis mental space during #the ball boy arc bc i feel like its an interesting transitional time for him in terms of like being after his big moment but then #he slightly regresses in that post match bathroom scene until yamaguchi sets him straight and like. i love just how furudate is showing #that growth isnt linear and so i wanna explore how tsukki would feel during the camp (which he didnt seem stoked to go to) #and in contrast with hinata who couldnt go but weasels in anyway and like how does tsukki deal with #that intensity of stupidity and passion in regards to how he feels about his own relationship to volleyball now #like i dont think its a straight line from blocking ushijima -> admitting yeah sometimes volleyball is fun #i think theres some wavering in there and oooo i wanna explore it but FUCK its hard?? #why furudate why does tsukki deny extra practice the first night of rookie camp but accepts the second night?? #i know why he accepts night 2 im excited abt that. i'm big time struggling with pinpointing why he says no night 1 in a way #that doesnt come off like 1 hes fully regressing 2 like im having him say no purely bc thats how it is in canon so magical ~plot reasons~ #truthfully furudates reason is probably just 'was funny to have tsukki and kunimi say no in unison' and it isnt out of character for #tsukki to say no either but i also can feeeel it i can feeel the threads of a solid character developmental reason that will fit with #all the OTHER stuff im also trying to do lmao #i just need to piece it together in the right way in the right order and right emphasis #and its so cloooose rn but ugh it just feels wishwashy atm #and so. i struggle lmao #eesh anyway fun tag rant yay #heres to hoping not thinking about this for a week will help #x #....who wants to take bets on whether ill delete this later lol

[arielluva]

drawing my time traveler character bc she was the only good thing to come out of my concept art/3d modeling class (i learned nothing about character design or 3d modeling and this character was the only assignment actually about character design that we did (i did my senior project on character design and learned way more about it than a whole semester long class that was supposed to teach me it))

im also going insane trying to track down the shoes i used for inspiration for hers but alas i cant find them

#my art #original character #oc #uh she still doesn't have a name but eh #also i really wish i couldve kept the original photoshop file of her but when i tried to move it into my google drive it wouldnt let me :( #mustve been something with the school network or something but still #god even though ive graduated already and dont have to deal with that class anymore i still wish i never took it #the teacher did not teach very well and that class was soul sucking to be in (it also didnt help that we had block schedule so it was a #2 hour class) #giving us old pdfs on learning maya from 2011.... making us copy some other guys drawing but not really in a way to learn from him or his #character design... #dumping her family issues on literally everyone who came into the class (i had to listen to this all the time bc i sat at the front) #i mean at least the teacher liked me i guess but that didnt help the class like. at all. #digital drawing for concept art / 3d modeling my beloathed #anyways for this assignment specifically (the time traveler) #she gave us a book to look at with. character design stuff? i think? and the page we were looking at had some time travel agent woman #concept art on it #that design was really dumb looking imo but it was also probably pretty early concept art for a game so i dont blame it much #it was some generic hot woman with long platinum blonde hair (described as strange despite it not being strange at all) #and wearing a suit that conveniently showed cleavage and had a thigh slit on her skirt #she was holding some old ass briefcase and one of those plastic umbrellas with polka dots on it (the umbrella was her time travel device or #whatever) #the teacher told us we had to make a time traveler so i set out to yassify and transify this design a bit #i think the only sort of character design tip we learned during this whole like. month we worked on this for was to make a moodboard of #our ideas #but eh i still really like the design i made and i was able to get nice and creative with ut #just wish i was able to save it on my own computer and not the school computer :( #2023