#SAFe- All exams

[yuzuuu4]

stickers i once made for a small event

#cutting the borders was the worst part (i hand cut most of them) #these were all made in the middle of me taking exams <3 #the event passed a long while ago so i think its safe if i post these now #my favorites are based on what and apartment complex bc i drew them good #i still dont have my own copy of these im so sad #dan heng #caelus #alhaitham #kaveh #genshin impact #honkai star rail #hsr

[hoziersredguitar]

I miss old tumblr in the sense that i could complain about board exams and worrying about not getting enough to be eligible for my medical entrance test and i'd have summoned half the indian side of tumblr to sympathize

#im in sm stress #if i dont score above 75% im not eligible for my neet exam #which im planning to take a drop year for #and its gonne be both expensive and emotionally taxing #and i have to give THIS years neet exam too #for reasons #im not in the clear until may 20 #adulthood is a scam #And that is well BEFORE i even start preparing for neet #well before i even have to consider the possibility that i might not get in #im pretty much using this post to vent in tags #its like 4 am #and im stressed. scared. everything #its really difficult just existing w adhd and mental illness #much less studying #and neet is like highly competetive #the cutoff goes so high #i want to get out of this city #and be safe and actually be alive for once #a big part of me will shrivel up and die if i stay #and this is the first time i've actually wanted smth for real #tentatively and doubtfully #but wanting still #and idk if i'll make a good doctor or if i'll fuck up and have it all blow up in my fsce #overthinking basically #im worried im not. capable of doing this #anyways desi tumblrinas where are you😭😭😭😭

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

still thinking about that one time one of my friends' mother told me that at my age she would have killed herself except for the people who would have had to find her (and that she was glad she didn't). when she was telling me about how sometimes you do or don't do things for other people, not for yourself (this was as a response to my needing sutures for self harm that one time, in fact). and I. it should bother me, I know it should. but a non-zero part of me simply goes 'it would be fine if i did xyz and then told medical professionals so that it wouldn't be normal people finding me'. I don't care. I've freaking thrown up blood and not cared and kept going (clearly, I was fine, and that's only been like once... I think).

I think studying to become a nurse, especially the mental health subject, has desensitised me to a potentially dangerous degree. hm don't like that.

#personal #tw sh #tw ed #tw suicide #please note i am completely fine and safe and im just musing. the usual 'i just ate so im existential' is all. #i wouldn't. but i kinda wish i could tell her how much her comment has affected me #and weirdly! it did not Help it simply made me feel more Guilty for Not Feeling That Way! #but honestly dw. im fine. #i have to drive to my exam tomorrow pray for me that my current recklessness doesn't extend to poor driving lol #<- i do not think it's seriously an issue or i would simply stay home (online exam) #(still on a self imposed ban from trains) #but when i look at patterns of behaviour recently i kinda go hm. things may be going Wrong #but at the same time: i really am fine in the most ultimate sense of the word

[beesfurbyblog]

redoing an exam vibes feat. stuffing

#furby #all furby #safe furby #furblr #1998 furby #my furby: stuffing #tea #me? posting furby pics instead of writing? nooooooo #he does make me feel better about having to do this #(i do want to note that i failed the original exam sort of on purpose bc i got sick) #(so having to redo this exam has always been expected and im not sad/frustrated about that) #(but i would still like to do anything else)

[the-autumn-apple-artworks]

University ever pushes you so low you have to go buy a couple of beers? /srs/neg

I'm gonna vent in the tags for a moment humor me for once /gen

#No but I'm serious this place is a nightmare /neg #Venting in the tags #humor me for a second. you go to this uni and they promise you a place that will teach you how to become an artist #on both like. morality and skill level. they feed you with bullshit for MONTHS. “oh mistakes are fine! they make you grow!” #or “oh this is a community we work all together there are no discriminations this is a safe place to learn and improve” #and we like. work on this projects - THAT WE ARE NOT PAID TO WORK FOR SO *WE* GET TO PAY FOR ALL THE MATERIALS AND SHIT FOR THEM. #to like “help the community” or whatevrr because “artists are born to inspire others and bring joy” and blah blah blah. BUT. LIKE. THE THING #THE THING IS. NONE OF THESE PROJECTS WILL END UP ON OUR CURRICULUMS. WHAT WE WORK 6-7 YEARS FOR ARE NOT SEEN AS REAL EXPERIENCES. #AS IF WE'VE DONE LITERALLY NOTHING FOR 6-7 YEARS. AND LIKE. THE PROFESSORS ARE SO RACIST AND DISCRIMINATORY AS WELL. #If they don't like you they WON'T EVEN GIVE YOU THE EXAM. BECAUSE THERE'S NO WAY TO DEMONSTRATE IF YOU WORKED OR NOT. IT'S UP TO THEM. #THEY DECIDE EVERYTHING FOR EVERYONE AS IF WE ARE SOME SORT OF FUCKING COMMUNIST KINDA BULLSHIT WORKERS. #Someone fucks up? *WE* FUCK UP AND EVERYONE PAYS. Someone succeeds? *WE* SUCCEED AND EVERYONE GETS THE CREDITS. #THIS IS ALSO WHY NONE OF THE WORKS WE DO END UP IN OUT CURRICULUM BECAUSE ITS MADE SO THAT *THE UNIVERSITY COURSE* DID IT AND NOT *US*. #IT'S FUCKING BULLSHIT AND I CAN'T EVEN GET OUT OF THERE BECAUSE IF I DO MY PARENTS WILL KICK ME OUT CUZ THEY DON'T WANT ME TO BE AN ARTIST #So I'm trying to STUDY for the exams and the “professors” are getting mad at me that I'm not staying 10 HOURS IN THAT MOTHERFUCKING ART LAB. #WORKING AT THEIR NONSENSE PROJECTS THAT WILL NOT END UP IN MY CURRICULUM. #“Oh if you're not willing to put all your efforts for the course this is not the place for you” BITCH I *AM* PUTTING ALL MY EFFORTS! #THIS EXAM IS *LITERALLY* PART OF THE COURSE!! WHAT KIND OF FUCKING BULLSHIT ARGUMENT IS THAT!!!!! #Istg I'm gonna cry I want to kms /NOT SERIOUS #I'm gonna cook dinner. chug my lemon beer. and try to study like a normal person and beg this shit will end soon #Don't worry I'm not going to become an alcoholic I just need something. anything and I'm ABSOLUTELY not gonna start smoking I hate it /srs #tw alchohol mention #alcohol mention #tw smoking mention #smoking mention #vent #tw vent #// mike speaks

[heartpascal]

HELLO BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE!!!

it’s the final week of exams!! (or will be in about an hour) which is very exciting stuff as you can imagine!! so come friday i hope y’all are ready and active for me to return (though probably without any fics to post immediately) !!!

just to let you guys know what i have in the works:

- approximately 4 halfway written joel father figure fics, including but not limited to: joel coming to terms with being a dad (again), reader with the tendency to run from anything that could be good in their life, tommy introducing reader to the two newcomers in jackson (aka tricking joel into adopting you)!!!

- part two of is it freedom?

- tommy miller platonic fic ITS GONNA HAPPEN

- considering some moon knight fic ideas (if you guys would want that)

so YEAH THOSE ARE THE CURRENT PLANS!!! oh AND a compilation of everything the amazing howl has contributed for my fics <3

and here’s your reminder to cast your vote on this post for how the is it freedom? universe is gonna go <3

other than that i wanted to show you guys this tiktok because i saw it as i was writing is it freedom? and it made me so :((( so yeah. and on the topic of is it freedom,,,,

i’m hoping for it to be my most inclusive fic yet!!! which means no gender, no white-coded reader, just complete anonymity. so this also means no physical descriptions of the reader’s parents, other than their behaviours and the backstory!!! i’m HOPING. obviously i won’t always get everything right but i am hopeful that if i get anything wrong you guys will be able to correct me :’) but also hopefully in a nice and respectful way!!!

i am not a spanish speaker, which means that i won’t be including any spanish unless i’m advised by someone who DOES speak the language!! which also means we can avoid that whole thing of the reader being unable to understand spanish although some of y’all might be able to!!

i don’t exactly know where that fic is going yet, but i have a lot of hope for it!! i think it has potential for sure!!! and i’m excited to be writing something new, even though i’m kinda struggling with pinning down the spiderverse characterisations!!

so yeah. part two of that IS coming and i also do have some gender neutral joel fics in the works too :’) i understand how frustrating it can be to read x reader fics and the descriptions be so incredibly not aimed at you. i cant make promises and i will probably make mistakes but in the new era of post a level writing i’m hoping to be better and more inclusive <3 love you all sm.

#heartpascal says #i’ll see you guys on friday <3 #i’m hoping to go watch atsv again after my exams r over too but we shall see #love you all #stay safe #LOOK FORWARD TO HOPEFULLY SPEAKING TO YOU GUYS AGAIN SOON

[writingonthemoon]

blorbo spotted in the club looking like a kid that just started listening to simple plan after figuring out they might be gay

#charlie slimecicle #slimecicle #motherfucker looks like he came up to me at the concert 'cause I'm a “safe adult” and he's nervous #i've been laughing over the absurity of this all for 45 minutes i need to study for my engineering exam #fuck i can't breathe my chest hurts so bad why is this so funny

[folklore-girl]

lost my earphones lost my will to live

#lily sent me an ask i want to listen to that song so bad tbh ugh #all i can do on the train ride now is either study coursebooks or read sylvia plath #atp im just scared i’ll break down crying in front of a bunch of strangers and my family wtf #so the safe option is to study. i’ll be better prepared for my exam and viva too #but. the exam fear hadn’t kicked in yet idk how to study in these circumstances??? #. ༉‧₊˚ — hana’s random ! #lmao this became a rant huh

[i-can-bench-220]

after a long time of waiting and knowing, i recently got officially diagnosed with autism!

however, it’s safe to say that if it wasn’t for the silly little cartoon character above, i may never have made the big steps forward that were opening up to others about my struggles, asking for help, and eventually obtaining said diagnosis.

fred’s portrayal, especially in mystery incorporated of course, taught me that i am always worthy of love and respect — weird interests, strong emotions, awkward communication and all. the confirmation by mitch watson may not have been worded so well, but the fact that this canon representation exists has been more important to me than i can ever express, and i’m sure that this goes for many other neurodivergent scooby doo fans who identify with fred in some way.

so this doodle is just a small, self-indulgent love letter to a character who has helped me so much, and continues to be a huge source of comfort and inspiration in my life. thank you for everything, fred! 💙

#sorry for the unexplained hiatus!! i had exam season and then just kind of completely crashed for a couple of weeks #i will get round to the asks in my inbox very soon!! #also if you are self diagnosed or unable to get diagnosed - you are valid and i hope you're doing well! #i count myself extremely fortunate that i was able to get diagnosed but know that this isn’t possible for everybody #this is a given but friendly reminder that this blog is a safe space for all neurodivergent folks! #scooby doo #fred jones #nem's scooby doo(dles)!

[katya-goncharov]

i'm constantly torn between hmm maybe i should get a diagnosis for at least one of the several ways i'm definitely neurodivergent and hmm but actually i'm slightly terrified that it will just give the tory government ammunition to take literally all my rights away

#the thing is that i'm always seeing these really fear-mongering posts especially about autism being like definitely don't get a diagnosis! #it's not safe! but then i get the vibe that a lot of those posts are made by autistic people who have a lot lower support needs than me #like those people will always be like oh there's no point once you've left uni anyway because the only reason for getting a diagnosis is #for extra time in exams #but actually i think i kind of need quite a bit more help than extra time in exams. because there are many other things i genuinely struggl #with and will carry on struggling with and sometimes i think maybe a diagnosis COULD help with some of those things #and i guess that's the problem with the fact that often the autistic people speaking loudest online are the ones with the least support #needs. which kinda makes sense since it literally IS a disability that makes you bad at communicating! #but ALSO i'm still terrified that if i ever did get a diagnosis that would be bye-bye to all my rights

[lavend3r-stardust]

I just wanna be kissed by them right now -what the fuck my brain is rotting just thinking about them- the yearning is reaching peak highs

#its the academic stress yall no doubt about it #hhhhhh big big exams next month and for 16 days straight i am nOT OKAY I JUST WANNA BE HELD PUH-LEASE #queer shenanigans and all that #queer #bi #bisexual #nonbinary #enby #nblw #nblm #shira talks #queer love #bi love #bisexual love #queer yearning #bi yearning #nblw yearning #nblm yearning #nblw longing #nblw love #nblm longing #nblm love #nblm pining #nblw pining #safe love #soft love #queer solace #pining and yearning and longing my guy #pining i guess

[oveliagirlhaditright]

So for no reason at all I'm thinking about this:

Sora was not chosen by a Keyblade Master to be a Keyblade wielder, but he becomes a Keyblade wielder before anyone else in the Destiny Trio (yes, I know, Riku's Keyblade--the Kingdom Key--had shown up on the Destiny Islands for Riku, but when Riku chose darkness over light, it opted to go with Sora instead: and there it would ultimately stay and Riku would get a different Keyblade later).

Riku was chosen by a Master to be a Keyblade wielder, and he's the third of the Destiny Trio to get his Keyblade, though still treated so much better than Kairi is, and truly gets to use his Keyblade before her (in having big adventures where he gets to use it, and whatnot): as I'm sure no one is really counting the three Heartless that Kairi killed with hers in KHII.

Kairi was accidentally chosen to be a wielder by a Keyblade Master (Aqua triggered the Keyblade Inheritance Ceremony with her by accident, that is), and this actually happens before the scene where Terra chooses Riku. But it's an accidental thing, which definitely stings a bit. And Kairi is the second of the Destiny Trio to get her Keyblade... though in a lot of ways, you wouldn't guess that.

Edit: I'm wrong. Riku gets his Keyblade second, and Kairi gets hers third, as Riku has his Keyblade when he protects Kairi and Naminé from Saïx. I, and another user on her at what point, just got confused because of Riku (if you talk to him as Sora when you beat Luxord) mentioning how he doesn't think Sora needs the power of darkness or his Soul Eater yet, which almost sounds like he still has Soul Eater at the time, when he doesn't. What a weird line just overall. -shrugs-

#and yes: before someone says it i know terra. technically. was not a master when he did the keyblade inheritance ceremony with riku #as he had not passed his mark of mastery exam (that was rigged anyway) and thus hadn't been given the title #but he was at master level--according to nomura--which is how he was still able to do this #i mean the aqua and kairi scene hurts less with how aqua realized that kairi was someone worth protecting (she was realizing she was a #princess of heart). and she also cast that magical spell on her necklace because of it: so that whenever she was in trouble the light withi #her would lead her to someone else in order to keep her safe. so maybe all of that is part of the reason the keyblade inheritance ceremony #kicked in and NOT just because aqua and kairi were both touching aqua's keyblade at the same time. (this is the only way i can live with #this. and i honestly think it makes MORE sense this way). though you do still have to wonder 'why?' why is kairi always shafted in every #single way possible? #maybe they were going for some 'all three of the destiny trio has a different tie with the keyblade and how they were chosen' thing. but as #always kairi's the one who gets the short end of the stick. really #the only thing i even remotely like about it is that it means that both sora and kairi can bond over actually BOTH of them weren't chosen b #a master then

[pallases]

#guys i am not ready for this exam 😭 or any of my exams really #personal #the engineering chronicles #this is so so bad my final grades coming out of this semester are going to be appalling like almost all c’s most likely #and what’s worse is it’s entirely my own fault for letting the musical get in the way of things #i’ll probably get out of diffeq w an a- altho a or b+ are both in realm of possibility too. everything else tho. :/ #also mad bc one of my other classes i was on track to get a b+ Easy and possibly even pull thru w an a- but then i bombed its last exam and #now need like a 98 or smth on this exam to get a b+ so that flew out the window #then physics and circuits i will Probably pass both of them i can get like mid 50s ish on their finals and still pass and i haven’t gotten #that low on any exam yet but UHH. still not nearly as low as i would like to be able to get and still stay safe #also would just. prefer not to only pass them like a b- or smth in both of them would be nice but :/ #not impossible but also not particularly likely #diffeq i can literally get a 0 in and still pass vs the class i was on track to earn a b+ in i can get a 29 so we’re fine #there. but circuits and physics. scary ❗️

[hella1975]

Oh my gods, that fucking suck. I used to have a close aunt that suffered of severe insomnia so (while I can't understand it) I can get more or less the struggle of it. Even worst when people wake you up after you finally got to sleep! You have all my sympathy, and I really hope you can catch some hours tonight :(

kissing ur nose

#thank you bestie <3 it does genuinely help when people do the bare minimum of like? literally just acknowledging that it sucks? #like yeah it’s not debilitating but if u say you slept bad or can’t sleep atm to people especially STUDENTS it’s just met with relatability #and in the least not like other girls way possible insomnia is NOT the same as like. doing an all nighter bc of exams or staying out late #it’s just shit and it’s been plaguing me for years and it’s not that i need of even want sympathy from people #bc that involves Talking About A Subject That Not Only Bothers Me But Also I Know For A Fact Will Get Dismissed #but tumblr is my safe space (hence being overly shitty in that other ask) so it’s nice for people to be just like yeah that IS annoying #you know? #ask

[emcads]

not to be dramatic about it but the way esme falling in love with jack and trusting jack lead to her helping him set christophe and borya free. who will later murder her grandfather. setting her on her path to revenge. how it was all because she trusted and loved this boy everyone said she shouldn't trust and love.

#ALL THOSE YEARS #where she didn't know jack had been betrayed too. and she thought he was in on it the whole time #the guilt she felt. it shattered her. LITERALLY heart into a million jagged pieces and so so hard to trust anyone and love anyone #✘; i have seventy two exams and i have not studied for one ( ooc ) #even though she knows. logically. that it wasn't jack's fault and it wasn't *really* her fault #( jack could have gotten the money from somewhere. he's resourceful and relatively good at stealing money ) #but like. she played such a massive part in it. #betrayal is so normal so so normal among pirates but when you don't MEAN to ? #the only relationships she had with men that were good and loving and safe and both of them ruined by one night and one action

[wyvernwinding]

it's finals week can people not leave well enough alone i am trying to study not get bogged down in stupid useless friend drama that i tried to remove myself from a literal year ago

#genuinely screaming ugh ugh ugh i have better stuff to do than this!!! #friend sent a message to my partner condemning his attempt to make a safe place for himself and his friends because it was “exclusionary” #and “otherwise not fair.” he shows me this message #and i am very hurt by the things friend said about me and the person that makes me uncomfortable. friend messages me to offer to talk #and i leave her on read. friend reiterates that she is sorry and i say i'll speak to her after finals are over. #and now gf of uncomfortable guy just messaged my partner to ask to talk???? #because “i've heard that there are people that want to make things a bit messy” ?? #can you please! stop!! trying to stop people from setting boundaries! and then blaming me because the boundaries i set are ones you don't #like!!! this is so so stupid! i have exams to study for and classes to pass!!!can you not wait a damn week before you go and make my life #miserable with all your stupid questions because you don't know when to leave things be!! good god. i'm so fucking tired. #vent #mufie.txt