#alone and sublime

[konckalicious]

The Agonies

#bohemian rhapsody #queen #funeral #phoebe bridgers #olivia rodrigo #can't catch me now #de selby part 2 #hozier #apartment 402 #girl in red #alone and sublime #mother mother #strangers #ethel cain #aurora #runaway #fine on the outside #priscilla ahn #liability #lorde

[ciitedexcerpt]

This is a spilling of the heart with no intent to fall apart.

#lyrics #source : alone and sublime // mother mother #alone and sublime #mother mother #very good bad thing

[bands-and-books]

a very good bad thing isn't my favorite mother mother album sonically, (i haven't heard all of their albums yet but i've been working my way through them all recently) but god damn some of the lyrics on that album! i think that about every album of theirs but for some reason i feel like i need to talk about these specifically. there's something about how honest and blunt their lyrics are, like "no this isn't necessarily good or even okay but i'm gonna say it anyway." like

i got a date on friday

not gonna eat anything till then

i'm gonna look so skinny

she'll want to feel my bones against her skin - i go hungry

or have it out as a whole. the way he sings about his anger and hatred for himself. like he just loathes himself is so familiar to me, someone who struggles with similar thought patterns. the almost excitement he has to destroy himself, that it's gonna be like war, it's gonna get "ugly" and "messy" but then also blaming himself for allowing himself to continue the pattern. he keeps letting this bad tendency back in but doesn't stop him and describes himself as a "spectator of war." the specifics of how he's going to ruin everything he loves so he can't do it anymore. he'll make him an addict, he'll cut off his fingers and his tongue. he also mocks how he thinks of himself, because he says "can't play the rockstar," which belittles what he does and makes it clear he doesn't believe he is cool/good enough. the line about having sex with young girls adds to this like, "oh you think you're such a big rockstar, huh? you just say a bunch of bullshit and creep on girls"

also the softness in alone and sublime, the questioning of himself, that he both likes being alone and wonders if that's okay but also wants to be with people but struggles to do so

i wonder, did they make me right?

aren't i supposed to want to fight for love in life?

anyway basically i love mother mother and their lyrics so so much

#eating disorder tw #eating disorder trigger warning #mother mother #very good bad thing #i go hungry #have it out #alone and sublime

[yemainvernal]

last words of a shooting star

#botw #this is actually a reference to howls moving castle #a heart is a heavy burden #also i remember making this and wanting the wind to represent zeldas hair #botw link #botw zelda #princess zelda #zelink #i can see him thinking of her and the memories hes lost when hes alone in sublime nature #tloz #the legend of zelda #breath of the wild #tloz fanart #botw fanart #old art

[thequeerbodyofchrist]

Hello, everybody. I am so not fine After watching this movie 🥲.

#so beautiful #thats what Burke meant when he talked about sublime #goran stolevski #you won't be alone #horror #dailyhorrorfilms #meme #folk tales

[roxiusagi]

Seven Seas stop getting licenses for books I'd like to buy challenge. I kinda wanna keep some of my money

#roxiu rambles #stop i already preordered the scumbag villain special ed i cantt #for context this is about todays announcement from seven seas publisher about getting license for thousand autumns #(alongside guardian and sha po lang) #i mean i wil decide once the art for it drops but ykno its about the principle #speaking of art #we were checking the announcement out with Mayhem and literally seconds after opening it I went #'oh they used the back cover art from svsss volume 1 as a background for this' #GIRL IM NEVER LIVING THAT DOWN WHAT THE HELL 😭😭 IM ALREADY BEING LAUGHED AT FOR BEING A MASSIVE SVSSS ENG ILLUSTRATIONS COVER SIMP #CUZ I MOSTLY BOUGHT THEM JUST FOR THAT REASON ALONE #i mean we all know velinxi art sublime but #HEAD IN HANDS #it was instant straight up whipped out said volume cuz I keep em on my desk to show it to mayhem and like the JUDGEMENT I GOT #I AM NEVER RECOVERING FROM THIS #anyway hasjdhk #i doubt anyone is reading up to this point but hey if u are sorry for being dead #i will prolly be mostly dead even longer cuz its autumn now n shit BUT #new animation vid soonish eyo #already finished all the frames just gotta throw it together and edit #so between 5 business days and month LMAO #ok roxiu out cheers #ok also i read thru this an djust to clarify it is not like immediately obvious that its the back cover ok hsajkdh #the opacity is lowered and its in greyscale instead of green plus its 'generic' landscape and its behind text and other pictures OK #NOW ROXIU OUT GOODNIGHT

[widevibratobitch]

my godddddddd those last two days have drained me in such an absurd way.

just a constant stream of standing in mildly uncomfortable heels (not uncomfortable enough to cause actual pain but definitely enough to drive you insane) trying to keep a straight face cause The Audience Sees All. dvorak dvorak dvorak. trying desperately not to think about [redacted]. expressing your honest opera opinions that nobody asked for to your friends' great chagrin. getting drunk off the free alcohol at the banquet that is not really there for you but nobody paid you to be there so you might as well take it like what are they gonna do lol. going out to get more drunk. stumbling home and Bothering The Cat and falling asleep. rinse and repeat.

#i barely had any time to think about my cold boys let alone reblog some pretty gifsets!!!!!!! #anyway. that was fun. but please enough lol #btw if you texted me and i havent responded yet im sorry i swear i will but probably only tomorrow #cause i have 0 energy to spare for a human interaction sorry #also i think i do have a bit of a crush on my voice teacher after all...... yikes. but yall she was fucking SUBLIME in every way yesterday #nvm im normal lol

[brieflyinfatuated]

I am taking a moment to appreciate My Friend The Chocolate Cake's fantastically evocative songwriting chops

My neighbour does some funny things

He's got three kids and he's got six drinks to go

Before he sleeps tonight

Singing liberation songs out on the front verandah

#stunning #10/10 #sets the scene #the 2:1 ratio of drinks to kids alone is so much info #and not just any songs. songs of Liberation (vive le revolution!) #we know his woes #we know his hopes #we know his coping mechanisms #he's sitting out the front of his house of an evening. as is his habit. and he'll stay there all night #all this from 4 lines #the first 4 lines of the song. the first 30 seconds (with 20 seconds of that being an instrumental!) #so we hav 4 lines. 10 seconds. a Character™ #THE EFFICIENCY OF THIS STORYTELLING #sublime #music #my friend the chocolate cake #also what a great name #writeblr #storytelling #australian bands #song is A Midlife's Tale

[fore-seer]

so im just supposed to sit here until my cartridge arrives?????

#tactician's log #im pacing around my house making pterosaur noises. #im in fire emblem OVERDRIVE i was home alone last night so i watched the shadow dragon anime on my tv #sublime experience. it was meant for the big screen. I LOVE FIRE EMBLEM

[thefamilyaberration]

me: I'm good!! no need to lay on the floor and vibe with my feelings!!

*Alone and Sublime comes on*

me: I am on the floor Staring at my ceiling "I don't feel like I'm even here You may just watch me disappear"

It's like a lullaby but like.. really really sad

#mother mother #alone and sublime Mother Mother #I love their music so much #I go through periods where I just #listen to an artist's entire discography #so that's what I've been doing the past couple days #them and the band Artio #if you haven't heard Product of My Own Design by Artio you should give it a listen its great

[soldier-poet-king]

sCREAMS i must be petty and mean for one (1) second or else it’s gonna bother me so much i wont be able to sleep and i desperately DO need to do that

#franposting #thou shalt not vagueblog thou chalt not vaguelbog etc etc etc #actually i'd be ok i dont think this person is following me #i just hAVE SEEN a post (tm) #and like GEEZE LOUISE #sometimes i forget. that ppl are really still on that shitty ex gay narrative train #like no thank u i am TIRED of pleasing the straights #my only identity is in christ they scream. okay then. if we're gonna take paul 1000% literally #gender is also now abolished. live with it bitches #it's such a TIRED and also BAD argument #why is talking queerness with straight and ex gay christians literally the worst thing in the world without a doubt #this is why im out here being absolutely insane about god but also ALONE and in PRIVATE (on tumblr)\ #i forgot how exhausting and terrible like. the majority of real world christians are #or like. at least all the ones i regularly encounter #im just. like. holy SHIT yall are the fuckin pits #and im infinitely happier and more faithful and in love with the sublime and uncanny and divine and god and eveyrthing #when i simply. do not acknowledge these ppl exist. i Do Not See It #i am in my queer little world where we don't argue about literally the DUMBEST OLDEST SHIT #LIKE??? ARE WE REALLY STILL ON THIS??? #not to b like it's the protestants. bc i know catholics are like this too. but usAmerican protestant culture has DEF made it WORSE #in all aspects except physical i am a weird af medival mystic just vibing out here with my strong emotions and insane thoughts #and completely ignoring 99% of my co-religionists and their terrible opinions #like truly just the worst and i hate everything you say and you ruin everything for everyone and ofc yes forgiveness and radical mercy #but i am also full of murderous rage and you are TESTING ME #can you go be good and holy in complete isolation away from everyone else and the itnernet so i dont have to listen to ur shit ever again #PLEASE #ok. i have to stop myself from being even more mean. just know that i am full of so much meanness. i am the meanest person in the worldt #trapped inside the most scrupulous conscience in the world with a desperate need to be Good and Virtuous

[ciitedexcerpt]

This is a spilling of the guts without intent to make a fuss.

#lyrics #source : alone and sublime // mother mother #alone and sublime #mother mother #very good bad thing

[devilfruitdyke]

mother mother knows how to make a fucking Album ykwim. openers and closers never miss like thats an Album

#favorite openers are cry out loud dirty town o my heart and omen/the sticks #as for closers sleep awake and carve a name are Unreal #and all gone and alone and sublime too

[panthermouthh]

“When I run over the frightful catalogue of my sins, I cannot believe that I am the same creature whose thoughts were once filled with sublime and transcendent visions of the beauty and the majesty of goodness. But it is even so; the fallen angel becomes a malignant devil. Yet even that enemy of God and man had friends and associates in his desolation; I am alone.”

#frankenstein #victor frankenstein #gothic literature #gothic art #gothic lit #mary shelley #lucifer #the fallen angel #we all saw this one coming #I’m very happy w how this turned out #and yes I used colour for once and not just in the creature eyes go me #I thought about doing just the cropped version of this painting but I can’t ever make anything easy for myself #I’m glad people seem to be enjoying this series #which I guess has morphed in to Frankenstein But in Classical Art #based on the fallen angel by Alexandre Cabanel #anyway it’s Friday!! I’m gonna watch a movie and have some good food :))) #my art

[bixels]

Portal 2 is still the perfect game to me. I hyperfixated on it like crazy in middle school. Would sing Want You Gone out loud cuz I had ADHD and no social awareness. Would make fan animations and pixel art. Would explain the ending spoilers and fan theories to anyone who'd listen. Would keep up with DeviantArt posts of the cores as humans. Would find and play community-made maps (Gelocity is insanely fun).

I still can't believe this game came out 12 years ago and it looks like THIS.

Like Mirror's Edge, the timeless art style and economic yet atmospheric lighting means this game will never age. The decision not to include any visible humans (ideas of Doug Rattmann showing up or a human co-op partner were cut) is doing so much legroom too. And the idea to use geometric tileset-like level designs is so smart! I sincerely believe that, by design, no game with a "realistic art style" has looked better than Portal 2.

Do you guys remember when Nvidia released Portal with RTX at it looked like dogshit? Just the most airbrushed crap I've ever seen; completely erased the cold, dry, clinical feel of Aperture.

So many breathtakingly pit-in-your-stomach moments I still think about too. And it's such a unique feeling; I'd describe at as... architectural existentialism? Experiencing the sublime under the shadow of manmade structures (Look up Giovanni Battista Piranesi's art if you're curious)? That scene where you're running from GLaDOS with Wheatley on a catwalk over a bottomless pit and––out of rage and desperation––GLaDOS silently begins tearing her facility apart and Wheatley cries 'She's bringing the whole place down!' and ENORMOUS apartment building-sized blocks begin groaning towards you on suspended rails and cement pillars crumble and sparks fly and the metal catwalk strains and bends and snaps under your feet. And when you finally make it to the safety of a work lift, you look back and watch the facility close its jaws behind you as it screams.

Or the horror of knowing you're already miles underground, and then Wheatley smashes you down an elevator shaft and you realize it goes deeper. That there's a hell under hell, and it's much, much older.

Or how about the moment when you finally claw your way out of Old Aperture, reaching the peak of this underground mountain, only to look up and discover an endless stone ceiling built above you. There's a service door connected to some stairs ahead, but surrounding you is this array of giant, building-sized springs that hold the entire facility up. They stretch on into the fog. You keep climbing.

I love that the facility itself is treated like an android zooid too, a colony of nano-machines and service cores and sentient panel arms and security cameras and more. And now, after thousands of years of neglect, the facility is festering with decomposition and microbes; deer, raccoons, birds. There are ghosts too. You're never alone, even when it's quiet. I wonder what you'd hear if you put your ear up against a test chamber's walls and listened. (I say that all contemplatively, but that's literally an easter egg in the game. You hear a voice.)

Also, a reminder that GLaDOS and Chell are not related and their relationship is meant to be psychosexual. There was a cut bit where GLaDOS would role-play as Chell's jealous housewife and accuse her of seeing other cores in between chambers. And their shared struggle for freedom and control? GLaDOS realizing, after remembering her past life, that she's become the abuser and deciding that she has the power to stop? That even if she can't be free, she can let Chell go because she hates her. And she loves her. Most people interpret GLaDOS "deleting Caroline in her brain" as an ominous sign, that she's forgetting her human roots and becoming "fully robot." But to me, it's a sign of hope for GLaDOS. She's relieving herself of the baggage that has defined her very existence, she's letting Caroline finally rest, and she's allowing herself to grow beyond what Cave and Aperture and the scientists defined her to be. The fact that GLaDOS still lets you go after deleting Caroline proves this. She doesn't double-back or change her mind like Wheatley did, she sticks to her word because she knows who she is. No one and nothing can influence her because she's in control. GLaDOS proves she's capable of empathy and mercy and change, human or not.

That's my retrospective, I love this game to bits. I wish I could experience it for the first time again.

#ramblings #long post #not art #personal #also i know “did glados actually delete caroline” is debated cuz the credits song disputes this #but i like to think she did #it's not sad. caroline died a long time ago #it's a goodbye

[direquail]

the thing that people are missing about TLT—what makes it so good and so extremely affirmingly gay—is that it is layered through and through with queer desire of all kinds: Sick desire, wrong desire, desire that will never be voiced let alone fulfilled, desire that CANNOT be spoken of, desires that shouldn’t be fulfilled or run counter to social mores of the setting in ways that are alien to the reader’s own. It is So. Horny. People are horny for corpses. They’re fucking using other peoples’ bodies (without consent). They’re subtextually fucking their siblings. The core homoerotic relationship is a necro/cav relationship, which in the book’s setting, romantic or sexual necro/cav relationships are considered repulsive.

And it will never be fulfilled or consummated in the sense that most people imagine them. Nobody is getting what they want. Girls are kissing girls who are in love with someone else’s corpse. Girls are lobotomizing themselves to save other girls’ souls. Girls are spearing their hearts on iron fences and offering their souls to other girls to eat. They are both profoundly Not Getting Laid and also having intimacies and consumptions that make sucking and fucking seem about as profound as a puddle. The penetration metaphor of Naberius’ death and the bottoming metaphor of Gideon’s cannot be overstated. Someone’s arm is amputated and it’s the closest thing that book has to a sex scene.

And somehow, even though it portrays repression in some cases, it is not Repressed(TM). The girls are Jesus; the girls are reading porn rags; the girls are dying as virgins. Someone tries to fuck a hallucination that is also the ghost of the Devil and also of the Earth. The ghost of the Earth and the Devil says “Huh. One moment, I have to cross time, space, and the River beyond death” and roughly… a day later, fully possesses their body.

Sex doesn’t begin to describe it. It is sublime; it is spiritual; it is as crass and visceral and compulsive as whatever sick pornographies anybody gets off to; it is as grimy and solipsistic and subterranean as any human unconscious.

You simply could not get that in a light and happy “found family! ✨” rainbow sci-fi

#the locked tomb #tlt meta #one of these days i will pull out my queer theory readers and do an essay #nona the ninth spoilers #tlt spoilers