#also sorry it's such blocks of text

[lyraeon]

at 20 I thought I was faking my depression and was "bad at life" and lazy like my family said. I still earnestly believed I was entirely straight and everyone knew girls are just nicer to look at. I still had a ton of ingrained racism and other bigotry from my Bush-worshipping family. My main dream of being an astronaut had been smashed by my anxiety and health problems, so I was trying to study Japanese because like every other weeb I thought I'd fit in better over there (lol), but I'd already flunked out of one college and been forced to quit another to get a second job. I was overdrawn constantly and often buying gas station gift cards at the grocery store so I'd only take one overdraft fee. I was dating someone horribly controlling who eventually earned the title "evil ex", dialed up my eating disorder, and traumatized me out of writing for 2+ years. I had several roommates because we all considered having the funds to go to anime conventions more important than personal space (and because back then we already thought $600/month was expensive). I spent any other free time half asleep at a friend's house cuz there I could play games and watch Intent videos. Half my meals came free from work, the rest were hacked together from stuff that worked out to $1/serving or so. The power or internet got turned off at least twice a year from non-payment.

at 25 I thought I was too depressed to deserve burdening others with my presence or existence. that I was a burden and purposeful downer and nothing would ever get better. I was still dealing with a ton of internalized transphobia, racism, and other bigotry that I had been taught was Just The Truth and still occasionally fall into. I was massively straight edge against weed and anything else (threatened to call cops on close friends) while also being a half bottle of vodka a day alcoholic just to get my brain to shut up enough to let me write or sleep. I didn't know how to have fun without alcohol, if at all. I had lost my ability to draw when I severely injured my wrist while i had no insurance. I tried going back to school, first for architecture then teaching, and flunked/dropped out of both. I was losing jobs every 6~8 months from being chronically late and being sick constantly. I manged to lose one on my birthday and wound up having to make some other tough choices because of it. I had only just reached the point where being overdrawn was a rare thing and I wasn't buying single gallons of gas with tip money. food was still often just ramen but I no longer had days where I didn't know if I'd get to eat, though I was often dependent on my then-bf. I had multiple teeth rotting and couldn't afford any treatment besides getting them pulled, and often not until they'd become infected.

by 30 I was finally on antidepressants and in therapy. I was on the road to physical therapy for shoulder and wrist injuries that had happened years earlier. I was pretty happy in my relationship. I held down one job for almost 3 years straight after getting medicated, then turned around and flunked/dropped out of college for the 5th time (Physics this time) because I was too anxious to take public transit reliably and STILL couldn't do homework anywhere but in class, so most projects never got done. I'd stopped being able to write (and am still running from the possibility my meds Took That from me because it doesn't come back if I stop them). Food had become a different struggle - I no longer had time, physical health, or executive function to cook reliably so I was spending too much on take out and causing wild fluctuations in my weight. I was hiding my eating disorder from my partner and my friends. I had begrudgingly un-estranged myself from my family to support younger cousins as they came out as queer. I had developed a healthier relationship with alcohol. I had accepted that, outside of addiction, drugs are a bodily autonomy thing and stopped being an ass to people about them. I had finally learned some damn etiquette around things like not accidentally outing people. I started streaming and making videos - stuff I had dreamed of since first watching Dead Fantasy and Red vs Blue and Weeblstuff in high school but had thought impossible after I lost the ability to draw.

I'm currently 35. This year I am living on my own for the first time (aside from 5 failed months at 18). I got divorced - a complicated, regretful process that was ultimately for the best but I could and should have handled better (and sooner). I've been in physical therapy long enough that I'm able to use chopsticks properly again and am thinking of trying to relearn drawing. It's also meant I can do the dishes and wash my hair on my own again, most days, so I'm relearning how to cook consistently. I'm reading (listening to) books again. I'm on year 8 of antidepressants and currently working with my doctor to fine tune what I'm on (and finally have a system to take them consistently). I've been diagnosed with ADHD and figured out I might also be autistic, and a lot of things in my life make way more sense when viewed through that context. I have appointments to get evaluated for ADHD meds, autism, shoulder surgery/other "PT isn't enough" treatments, teeth implants, and new glasses. my clothes have been put away 3 of the last 5 times I did laundry and I've learned that if I only own one dishwasher worth of dishes, the sink can't pile up. I've fully embraced that I'm polyamorous, pansexual, and demiromantic, and that I can be cis while also being "gender agnostic" - none of it really matters or processes to me, but I get that it does to others so I respect it. I'm seeing someone who makes me feel like I can do anything, is inspiringly ambitious themself, and is equally polyam, meaning I might also be asking out a cute girl soon and don't know where board game nights with the nice throuple I met might go. I'm having to do odd jobs and accept help from my dad to make ends meet, but I'm arguably a full time content creator now - something I literally didn't even let myself dream about when I was younger because it felt impossible, but which is fully worth the complications and budget crunching because it's so accommodating to my disabilities and uses so many of my talents. I'm still depressed, but I have hope that ADHD treatment will help cut through the remainder. Most days I just have hope, period. And more days than not, I'm genuinely happy for at least a while.

You'll find yourself.

It might take a while. There will be detours, mistakes, pain, tough choices, and a lot of hard work. But there will also be unexpected joys and more possibilities than you ever imagined.

Someday, you'll find yourself.

And when you do, it will be worth the wait, I promise.

#personal #though you can still reblog if you wanna #I was just having A Moment #and now for all the warning tags #mental health #tw eating disorder #tw alcoholism #ed tw #depression #adhd #tw abusive relationship #tw abuse #tw suicide #if you need anything else tagged lemme know #also sorry it's such blocks of text #i just kind of went full ramble

[aq2003]

1x69 // 1x89 or; keyleth and percy and "i need you"

#keyleth #percy de rolo #critical role #vox machina #criticalroleedit #marisha ray #taliesin jaffe #cr #cr1 #my edits #percy and kiki #sorry i have diseases. i put the last 2 gifs next to each other and teared u]p #'i need you. but we're not all going to make it' . god. top 5 things percy has said that make me mentally ill #ALSO. THE FACT THAT CHARISMA IS KEYLETH'S WORST STAT. SHE HAS A +0 TO THAT. AND SHE ROLLED A 19 #these gifs are so crusty i love them so much tho #if you're seeing this on mobile i am sorry the alt tag is covering like half of the percy dialogue text </3 just click on th gifs to see it #rohan don't look #<- this gifset doesnt have overt spoilers but in case ur seeing this. block that tag for the future lol

[soaked-ghost]

stuff about vials

Hiii so i reworked how ink's vials work and how they affect him because since I'm going off undertale's canon lore about soulless beings, I had to reimagine what his vials actually serv for, because in my reading, ink can feel every emotion (except love) even without his vials.

(under cut cuz it's pretty long)

Instead of his vials helping him feel emotions, they affect more his uh, will to live? ig? than his actual feelings.

I mean they do affect his mood slightly, but not his actual personality or his emotions

Each vials has some amount of determination in them, and when he drinks all of them, it makes him feel like he has a monster soul, which makes things a little more bearable for him, even if in the end of the day it's just a placebo.

Note that it resembles the amount of determination a monster soul has, and not a human soul, because ink's monster body just can't handle the amount of determination a human soul has (like any monster).

And going off all of that, I thought what would most make sense is that his vials help him with fighting!

Since you know, undertale's a battle rpg, and fighting in general is a big part of undertale's shtick, but also a big part of monster culture

Also because since ink is soulless, he is literally at the bottom of the food chain, meaning that he can't win a fight against neither monsters or humans, since it's the will to keep going that insures one's victory, but ink doesn't have any, so his vials help him to at least last until the end of the fight

Okay now have some pictures

all of the vials are based on the six human souls + frisk's soul. each give ink a status effect during combat, and he uses them during the fight like the player uses their healing items in game

I had to do research on what each of the armors and weapons frisk picks up in the game do to know what status effect to attribute to each color, but you can see that some of them are jokes like the blue vial that literally makes him fall as sleep while fighting (you know, the thing that killed sans in the no mercy route?☠️☠️)

Or the purple vial which is just cheat code lol

There is no pink vial because there is no pink soul, and also I just think that giving ur aroace character the equivalent of omegaverse heat pills is just weird, but that neither here nor there...

#do u like my massive blocks of texts boy #also see that the red vial doesn't turn him scary cuz I thought that it was a little stupid #I just can't see him as intimidating no matter what spooky face u put on him I'm sorry ☠️ #ink sans #my art #I should start a tag for giant blocks of texts like this #giant block of text

[say-hi-intrepid-heroes]

random life updates that i will not elaborate on but i feel like i should update everyone on: i made someone cry at dnd today because of lore i mostly improved. i was maybe out of the friendzone but now im being kinda ghosted so who fucking knows. i introduced a new npc who's just a little bitchy gay boy and i love him. two separate campaigns i was supposed to play in have fizzled out in the past month. i will not ever dm a campaign again if i have to wrap everything up during other major life events. however i do love my little secrets with my players so i will miss that.

#yes this is just a block of text i'm SORRY maybe i don't want everything to be read lmao #the void listens but must also choose to ignore #personal

[xnightmare-eyesx]

Glowflies related--Chapter 9 had these two acquire books as a means of entertainment. May I suggest a deck of cards as something they get in the future? The Internet suggests a near infinite amount of games that can be played with them. And if you want to make it a spicy thing, strip poker can be one of those games. Sure. XD

A deck of cards sounds very good, I had several ideas on what to give to the fellas to while in the bunker. Decks of cards, more books, maybe even a tv set/radio for Bullfrog to try and fix up.

It would be funny to see the two try and play a card game together, I'd imagine Ramon would know how to play most games due to his previous celebrity status. He likely had to have been to a couple of casinos and things like that. I would like to think Bullfrog has some basic knowledge, but again it would be funny in my eyes that he doesn't know anything about go-fish due never having the need to acquire the skill due to his assassin training XD

#i am writing down notes #when this dang writer's block lifts I swear I will cook #ALSO HELLO PITA IM SORRY IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO ANSWER YOUR ASKKKKKKKK #life has also hit me with a stick #captain laserhawk #rayfrog #ramon captain laserhawk #bullfrog captain laserhawk #answering asks #text #glowflies

[spotforme]

okay so in better than life i think Rimmer says "How on Titan are you gonna pay for that" and i find it pretty interesting, Titan is one of Saturn's moons, now maybe Titan was the last place they stopped at before everyone died so that's why he uses that version of the expression, the place is fresh on his mind and all that, or maybe he ended up on Titan sometime after his divorse and that's why he thinks of it like Earth (in saying the expression like that)

before this continues i'm just gonna say that i will be rambling and nothing else

this is quite early in the show so it hasn't had much time to contredict itsef yet so i'm thinking i can think anything i want about the timeline at the moment. so i'm thinking, remember this is all just bonkers speculation that i find fun that makes about as much sence as the show itself, that Rimmer lived on Titan for a while, not a long while because he doesn't have much time between the devorce and joining JMC, and i know he got previleges to the family dog which means he should've been able to visit Jupiter on regular basis but let's just say he got bored or his family drove him off even further or whatever. point is he made a little life for himself on Titan, maybe a few months, maybe three years, it doesn't matter, but i think it would be interesting what could happen when Rimmer with his peculiarities runs off to another planet's moon and has to adjust to a new society. i have seen a lit of fics where Io is just this 300 years late to modern norms homophobic untrusting society with girls' home strictness levels, and it's pretty funny that so many people have come to that same conclusion even though i've hardly seen any discussion about it (Rimsy's piece of shit family's out there inventing stereotypes for all Ioians lol) back to the point. knowing Rimmer he'd likely feel superior for the upbringing he had and be pompous using his family's achievements as his own, so even if Titan had a chill athmosphere he would likely not get on there either because he just has to be him, and any culture differences might feel like super big deals to him which doesn't help him get comfortable much, probably just fuels his 'out of place' 'never belonging' thing he has made for himself. i'm kindof in a battle with myself now about if he would even get a job, if he would apply for one, like would he go to a coffe parlour and ask for a job where he has to clean the dishes and whatnot when there's no chanse of becoming an officer? maybe if he needed money, i wish i knew how much he had to spare for monthly spending. if he had no need for money then what could he be doing all day, he had to stumble into JMC's workforce sometime. i still believe it most likely that he went straight to them from Io and has been in space sence (except for what little leave they're allowed) but this is a though and i'm skipping with is, okay. another interesting thing about Titan is that it's orbiting the same planet as Mimas, and we all know how gruffy Mimas is. anyway that knowlege just makes my brain bloom with hideous ideas. more likely i think is that he just went there on shore leave and it was a memorable place, it seems pretty from the pictures i've seen so maybe it's just one of the only calming places for him that he yearns to know the tranquility of again, but i've got no bases for that except that it's got a pretty atmosphere.

right-o this end my pointless rant brought on by one singular line, for now at least

#i'm going nowhere with this it's just me rambling about possibilities sorry #red dwarf #tbh i'm still thinking so many thoughts i'm on overdrive but maybe i'll wait until they silidify into something i can actually look at #rather than whatever that block of text was and i also need more info on all the moons' geological features #this stupid show has got me reading about athmospheric composition

[lavender-temult]

movie night in their box!

#happy put imogen and otohan in a box friday everyone! #tumblr is once again fucking up my colors 😔 eh well #otohan thull #imogen temult #my art #id in alt text #terrible id i’m sorry 😞 writing this at 1 am so… #critical role #i always feel weird putting piaoiabf art in the main cr tag cuz it’s like the complete opposite of canon but also if it annoys people #then they can just block me lol

[kamerlort]

funniest sketch i’ve ever done under the cut (tw for drug mention/depiction)

being a pothead means i have to draw all of my favorite characters smoking weed 😔😀 obvs jimmy is the main stoner on the tortuga and always shares his stash with ppl.. especially chris after he’s had a long ass day of dealing with zach awkwardly hitting on him and failing

#wild kratts #chris kratt #tw drugs #tw weed #art #my art #the way i’m def inking this today along w some martin and zach sketches.. #wild kratts hyperfixation giving me the only motivation i’ve had in a year tbh #also sorry for weird thing in the corner i draw on picsart and i forgot to edit it out and now i’m lazy #chris dealing with zach via text saying he’s gonna block his number if he doesn’t stop trying to rizz him up over messages #zach sobbing on other end #also chris kratt if u ever see this i’m so sorry for ruining your wholesome kids show with my bullshit

[atthebell]

it's really interesting that you say that vodwatching is harder for you to summarize/liveblog cause i find it so much easier :o at least when i've been working through phil's blogs for the wiki. i think it's cause i already know where the story is headed that I have a clearer idea of what I'm looking out for (well and also, qphil isn't steeped in quite as much federation/enigma/etc, so i do think you've got much more complex things going on than me)

that being said ur killing it on the cellbit wiki stuff :] really glad you're in on this project too!

i wrote like a few paragraphs of cellbit's wiki page yesterday and it took me. five hours? that's with irl stuff getting in the way and i am VERY particular about how i cite and how to summarize so things aren't super crowded (since that can go in the day-by-day history instead) but like i have to reference SO many vods to talk about stuff and because of how long he streams, all the stuff he's involved in, every investigation he does, and especially just how busy his early days were (and the sprint really didn't stop until the eggs disappeared) it means there is SO much content to cover so i end up hopping across so many different vods to grab details, and i'm also trying to vodwatch as like. a fun activity for myself, so i don't want to burn myself out.

i also take very quick notes and can note down timestamps far easier live than when i'm rewatching a vod and trying to find a specific moment, because then i'm having to scrub through and try to figure out what moments are important and what are just him fucking around in a google doc. like i cannot stress enough cellbit used to stream qsmp for at least 4 hours 5 days a week that's SO much streams to trawl through (best wishes to bbh wiki folks, although at least he's not doing a ton of detailed investigation). and it's a lot of catching up, because i didn't use to keep detailed notes and so now i have to find things that i only half-remember (picture me sprawled over my desk with my head in my hands, that's me considering whether it's worth it to search twitter for an update tweet to cross reference for a timestamp)

cellbit has so much content honestly a huge part of the work is the condensing it element, wherein deciding what is important enough to go on the regular history vs. what is too detailed takes quite a while. i have two separate google docs for his lore, one that's personal and one that's specifically for the wiki, and i spend ages just going through and making sure things aren't me going on and on about something that isn't necessary for a brief summary. and i want things to be easy to understand and possibly catch up on for folks who missed a lot of his earlier stuff, which means explaining it well but not with like. essays and essays about his character progression, and keeping it as factual as possible-- once again, meaning a lot of vod citations.

also i think a lot of folks don't realize how much cellbit's investigations tie in with larger server lore-- he's debunked a bunch of theories about the federation and found out SO much info about them and the eggs and things like that, and a lot of that info gets lost over time. so documenting everything he's found means documenting quite a bit of overall server lore with sources. i'm like very lucky that i have a pretty good memory, especially for mysteries, so i know that i do need to find that stuff, even if i don't remember exactly when it was.

anyway back to your original point yeah i just find it leagues easier when i'm not having to go back and find a specific moment in a 9 hour vod and instead i can just have a google doc open jotting down everything important, and then later on all that info is just there for me to pull from. it makes the writing element easier along with everything else

#asks #greaterspawnislands #sorry for the massive text blocks i've just found it really interesting figuring all this out for the miraheze wiki #and its definitely a contrast to a lot of other characters i know #i also just have very high standards for myself #i dont suffer misinformation or bias when i can help it #so i want everything to be presented as well as it possibly can be and with as much accuracy as possible

[lightningbig]

something that really gets me about qwilbur is that he really does live in this fantasy world where nothing is really That Bad. like up until yesterday after his fight with phil where he went off on his own and had to claw through a Bit of the horrors by himself to really understand how bad things are, I don't think he ever really understood it. and it's not entirely his fault, he's been gone so long and it's hard to believe some of the things that have happened if you weren't there for them. it's hard to realize how awful things were if you weren't there. I'm remembering the brief period he was back when he found tallulah and phil tried to tell him then, tried to explain how dangerous the island really is and explain what awful things have been happening but wilbur kind of brushed things off. he didn't understand the depth of fear that phil had, couldn't understand why he was being so doom and gloom about things. because phil had been there living through it all and wilbur hadn't. and then he left again and things got worse again and the island moved on and the people moved on but wilbur didn't. he comes back and he expects the same place he left but it has undergone an unfathomable change, one that no one can even begin to explain to him in words alone. it's the kind of things that you really don't understand unless you work through it on your own. so of course he got upset at the maze and of course phil yelled back - they're both people who are hurting but who are at two different points of that hurt. there simply wasn't time to get wilbur from point a to point b by the time the group wanted to move. and there was simply no way for wilbur to reconcile his point a with where everyone else was and how everyone else was acting at point b. he Had to go off on his own for that, to work through it on his own. and he says that when he sees phil again! their whole apology is built on that, on recognizing that they weren't seeing each other evenly in that moment. for the island, they've had the time to pack their grief and their worry and their anger away enough for them to keep moving, to keep living, to focus on what they need to in order to find some answers. they HAD to, they've had not other choice, time keeps moving even though their kids are gone. but wilbur hasn't had that time. and it's not just him realizing that tallulah is gone, it's him realizing that he's been wrong about the island for so long now. it's him waking up months later and realizing this is something that's been going on for longer than he's even spent time on the island. this isn't something easy, this isn't something he can fix. it's equal parts anger and fear and helplessness. if he didnt even KNOW that this stuff was going on, how can he hope to fix it? if the eggs have really been gone this long and they're no closer to finding them, then surely the residents just aren't trying hard enough. thats what he has to believe, because the alternative is that this whole island of people - a whole community of people who are prepared, who have supplies, who have knowledge - if they can't find them, then what the hell can he do? how is he supposed to save his daughter when all of them haven't been able to?

#sorry for wall of text i blacked out and just kept writing #anyway! take this with a grain of salt bc i haven't been able to fully watch through any of the vods from yesterday #but these are just some qwilbur thoughts that have been spinning in my head for the better part of the week regardless #like idk idk i think qwilbur is a very interesting character but also incredibly mischaracterized by people who Only watch wilbur pov #like he is incredibly out of touch!! even when he was back for that week or so when he first found tallulah!! he lived in his own bubble #qsmp ramblin #block game

[moregraceful]

i was gonna watch the vgk-dal game to bandwagon the stars but then i realized that if i have to see hertl in that jersey even once it's literally my last day, and also mike grier's last day, on planet earth, so.

#KELLY MCCRIMMON I HOPE THE CEILING FAN FALLS ON U #pulling a dq and telling people to just throw me off a bridge honestly #i usually try to have a value-neutral position on teams idc abt but the hertl trade made me blacklist every possible variation of the #team's name and lb and every associated tag so. sorry. lol coming out of my cage and i'm not doing fine #i wrote robo/nick s instead #2.3k and nothing happens in it #they literally go drink boba and yearn for manju but the manju shop is closed #also have been given some valuable feedback. there are cities in which people recognize hockey players in the wild?? that happens in #quebec??? god imagine seeing and recognizing nick suzuki in the grocery store i would just leave #imagine seeing a shark in the grocery store i would not even notice i'd just be like get out of my way you're blocking the kombucha #so i have to do some rewriting anyway bc a chunk of the fic is like has nick suzuki ever been recognized in his life. answer: yes!!! #i assume robo is not being recognized by non-hockey fans anyway lol dallas has american football baseball and basketball #the city got other concerns #i always laugh when canadians are like isn't hockey one of your big four sports 🤨 #i'm like. tiers of american sports: 1: college basketball and college football. 2: football basketball and baseball. 2.5: hockey #u could put connor mcdavid in a grocery store and people would be like get this guy's ass out of the fruit section he's killing the vibe #i spent 20 hours at church over the weekend guys and i refused to read or answer a single email from anyone associated with church #all day bc i was like i need a break from you people. but people started texting me instead i was like .... #didn't read or answer those either lol #i was gonna refill a queue tonight but a i just spent 45 minutes on these tags b i saw a picture of trea turner that got me in my 🥺 #c was writing a touching tribute to manju and hot guys of which there are none in san jose (hot guys. there's plenty of manju #in san jose) #and now i am like. am i crazed enough to have an opinion on 150 posts in one hour?? #let's find out lmao #fresno oilers.txt

[meat-wentz]

okay but what i will say is that i do see a faction of the mcr fanbase that do not engage at all with fob except to make petekey jokes, and like yeah i get it, it’s just a fun piece of fan lore that’s been passed around and if you don’t engage with fob at all, you wouldn’t see the harm in reducing their discography down to “haha it’s about mikey.” however i do implore you to at least read up and about their body of work, even if the music isn’t for you, as they deal with extremely complex, complicated and difficult subject matter, most of which is specific to pete’s experiences with racism, mental illness, exploitation, etc. his lyricism is something that cannot be removed from these experiences. his influence on the scene is so so fucking immense. he is a huge reason we saw so much genre crossover and exchange in the late 2000s, and i really need you to know how important it was that he consistently found ways to expose a majority white audience to black musicians, black lyricism, and black genres. you’re crashing but you’re no wave is about the trial of fred hampton jr. novocaine is about trayvon martin. he consistently references his own mental illness. he consistently references his own suicide attempt. he consistently discusses and points to the exploitation of women in our culture. he is an extremely influential figure and sometimes it’s a real shame to see him reduced down to a fan in-joke.

#a petekey joke is fun!! don’t get me wrong #but like i really do want some of you to just do a little research on fob and understand why they were such a ginormous band and cont. to be #if i see a singular white-passing comment i’m gonna block you i’m just not playin today #also i just implore mcr fans to like interrogate the way they feel about gerard and frank’s solo projects reduced to a ship #vs all the complicated things they voice and discuss #sorry don’t mean to bring down the mood of the dash but #i have feelings #pete wentz #fob #fall out boy #text

[foodlesoodlesdoodles]

i would love to know more about ur jjba ocs :D

‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ AN EXCUSE TO YAP . GODSPEED BELOVED CITIZEN. FOR SPACING I MAY HAVE TO DO A MULTI PART BUT I THINK ILL START WITH THE OGS. Honestly I wouldn’t mind an input about which one to clarify about,,,,, also Godspeed because you did this anon off which I could never be brave enough to do (positive) OKAY OKAY SO.

The Primary setting is Diamond Is Unbreakable. Featuring my favorite four gay college aged losers.

JOUJIROU HANABUSA is, quite obviously, yet another illegitimate child of a certain old man. 20 years old and studying to become essentially a professional bug researcher? She was actually made separate from the entire groups theming. She’s kindhearted and struggles to stand up for herself or take things serious, as she feels great remorse for who she was previous to college. She used to be a big hothead boy (‼️TRANSFEM BTW) who was the classic archetype of kid having a rough time at home (or at this case, lack thereof as she was in the foster system at a very small age) and took it out on other people. She struggles with feeling like she’s constantly left out or behind, which emphasizes itself when shit kicks into high gear in the story. (AU pictured briefly here where Joseph finds her at 11 and takes her to be apart of the family)

This kind of reputation proceeds her in the small town, and as such she’s become much more withdrawn and introverted. She left for a period of time as to help her adoptive father on business trips. After which, she came across her little half brother after he accidentally bumped into her while she was frozen looking at a millipede on a streetlight. They didn’t like eachother at first! But brother, once the moms found out it was OVER.

Her stand is The Seven Plagues of Egypt, a very odd place for a stand such as this! But that’s sort of her whole point, she’s sort of an echo of someone she never knew and the issues resulting sort of warping her life and behavior forever unintentionally. (Fun fact: she was 11 when the SDC arc happened!) her stand itself is disturbing and odd, manifesting itself not just out of the material it controls (locusts, fire, blood, etc etc) but also her own internal issues.

The stand itself is crazy, but it’s in the hands of a person who never wants to hurt anyone. Her favorite bugs are of course locusts, having certain earrings and a ponytail holder resembling the insect. It’s range is rather questionable, as Seven Plagues did fuck up— Y’know— Egypt. Or at least a wide range. I don’t have an exact number, as it’s very hard to pin down! She sees through the eyes of the locusts, and can pretty much go anywhere with it even though she can’t use her abilities through the bug outside of a certain radius.

Speaking of, as to how she takes damage— a lot of her stand is multiple organisms in hordes, and she often uses these creatures passively. Whether it be one or 30 all hidden around the room to listen and watch. They appear as small cuts on her body whenever they die, which is HIGHLY annoying for her. (and, newsflash: she DOES get headaches from being rattled around in a jar)

(AU pictured briefly here where Joseph finds her at 11 and takes her to be apart of the family part 2) I’ve tried drawing it only a handful of times once before, but I do struggle to capture it in a way I like. I have far better sketches I know I’ve deleted but can find! But I’d rather not accidentally delete all of this as I’m on mobile.

Her SCARRING is something very important, as it actually doesn’t come from her hurting herself! It’s a close call with Yoshikage Kira, and brother she FELL for that damsel in distress act he put up and he GOT her ass. Luckily he was on the run so she didn’t have to worry about any extra shit, but needless to say her persistent belief in the goodwill of others gets her in trouble. (I am totally certain this won’t happen a second time with a pink haired man who has some weird shit goin on)

This is the most RECENT but UNFINISHED mapping of her scars, body and shape. As you can tell I made the center of the blast sort of blister into a star mark. She gets more later, but as of right now we’re focused on part 4 Jouji. This obviously fucked her up big time, destroyed any feel in that side of her body and definitely needed several surgeries, medications and a cane. Her eye technically survived but it’s very piss poor vision on her other side.

She functions poorly in serious social situations, often opting to do bits or try to lighten up the mood. Though she can hold her own close range as well as a regular buff ass 6’6 woman can, she doesn’t often resort to that unless it’s protective. She at least knows how to try her best in situations where people need support or feel isolated, as she knows those kinds of feelings well and tries to befriend people through food and gifts. This is actually why all of her friends came not from college, but from the cafe Norman works at!

LASTLY, she warms up to her new dad rather quickly! She’s an adult, and she tries to reassure him he couldn’t have known she or her brother were born. (“Though, did you HAVE to cheat on your wife? I mean, thanks for the life and all…… but jeez, dude— TWICE? at your age? Damnn….”) she can’t help but wonder if somewhere in the back of his mind, he knows what her mom is like. who she is. She was left alone in Morioh at like 5, and doesn’t remember her twin brother. (And never learns of him until far, far, FAR later.) She just wants to know why she was left behind, and the only one to be. (It was the destructiveness of her stand, and for a assumedly standless mother— it was far too much to handle. So she took the other less exhausting son.)

Though…….. if she were smaller it would NOT be the case.

#oodles talks #oodles rambles #oc rambles #oc art #jojo oc #not tagging Diavolo here as I’d hate to clog up the tag and this ain’t about him #Yoshikage Kira too even though he’s more heavily mentioned. #jjba part 4 oc #jjba #oc #art #TO BE CONTINUED!!!!!! #sorry I put images in between blocks of text to break it up. it makes it easier to digest to me. #Jouji Hanabusa #also HOLLY I LOVE YOU HOLLY #I’ve drawn her like twice but girl I love you #that turquoise eye gene is PREVELENT #NEXT UP IS THE MOST NORMAL MAN EVER NORMAN LETS GO NORMAN #Joseph Joestar #<< yeah fuck it I’ll tag him

[girlwithfish]

feel my ex is still looking at my tumblr. rn.

#he sent me more texts #Like thanks for realizingall of this shit now i already knew that !!!! lol #ig thanks ur sorry but #idk #itsj hst confusing and i dont like that it affects me. #and no one say anything abt why havent i blocked him again Okkk i will . it was really hard to block him the first time and im processing #the shit hes saying nkw >_< i will soon >_> just annoys me i was doing ok no contact and he disrupts it #and idk #like ig its good hes acknowledging stuff but its also kind of enraging. i knew these things for months and no ur validating it. could have #been nice if u could be there for me like that when we were still in it. and not after after i suffered and went through too much pain

[neims-skeleton-obsession]

Was looking through the books for any descriptions of skug or his family (as in parents and siblings) because. i wanted to do a design for alive skug

and I’m pleased to announce that all I found- in all 15 books and the grimoire- was that height was varied as shit, some of his siblings are blond, some with darker hair and all of his family is apparently hot. dammit derek. like genuinely even his dad is described as “fair In countenance” or something. skug said he wasn’t too bad looking Val thinks one of his brothers is good looking these are all just ways of saying they’re hot this isn’t useful derek

#skulduggery pleasant #sorry about the bLock of text I forgot to do punctuation #also I don’t think it’s ever said what his mum looked like which is. Tragic #but this is so funny to me #somewhat frustrating #but funny #equally this does give me more wiggle room so I can’t complain too much #I’m lying I can and will conplain #dammit Derek we know they’re hot you don’t have to keep telling us #just let us draw them being hot #that is not a sentence I expected to type when I woke up this morning #oh well #will probably end up drawing Val and darquesse also #probably first it’ll be easier hgjhghgugh #skug designs will happen eventually I promise #on the other hand don’t hold me to that

[archersxartxblog]

You know what, I'm just gonna straight up say this

No, I will not give Emmet a kid.

The reason! I don't want to, and I do see any reason to do so. And really, I don't need a reason.

I am sorry, but I just want this stated clearly. This question has been asked twice now. And I don't want someone (probably the same person) to come here and keep pestering me for this, cause I wasn't clear.

If you want Ingo and Emmet to both have kids, fine, that's great, go make your own story and your own ocs.

Here, this is my story, my Au, I choose where the plot goes.

So once more, Please Stop asking.

#text post #warden's twins #submas #pokemon au #from hisui to unova #sorry if i went on a tangent #and sorry to everyobe this doesn’t pertain to #also if im asked this again I'll be blocking people