#also this is officially an inactive blog so if anyone feels like getting it up again also feel free to message me here

[romo-aro-culture-is]

Would you mind if another person started up a romo-aro themed blog?

No, please go on ahead!

#even if i was active #there is always room for another romoaro blog out there! #if you want help or inspiration feel free to shoot me a message <3 #also this is officially an inactive blog so if anyone feels like getting it up again also feel free to message me here

[shantaecadaver]

New Shantae Game Announced*

*ok technically it's an old game that's being finished but it's easier to just say new but whatever holy shit a GBA game in 2023 this is fucking awesome

Sorry I've been inactive on this blog btw, I have like 8 total blogs I run & it's hard to be super active on all of them. Plus I don't see nearly enough Shantops content on my feed as much as I should. we need to like, get to fixing that y'all. We need to make more of the peak lesbians.

Anyways I hope it's fine if I kinda use this blog to vent about my personal gripes with the franchise bc I feel like writing wise, I had like.....some pretty glaring issues with the last two games.

But I'd like to issue a callout to WayForward: Guys it is 2023 & I STILL see your official social media accounts calling Shante & Rottytops "Best Friends"

"Best Friends"

I fuckin' promise you, if you acted like Rottytops does to Shantae to your best friend? They will, within less than a week, be asking you to sit down & discuss personal space & how they just want to stay friends.

Shantae & Rottytops dynamic is not "friends" like have you ever played the games? Anyone who has played the games & also has a functional brain can tell you without question that those bitches are advanced lesbians. Like this is the gayest thing to ever gay in the medium of video games. Video gaymes.

They are not close friends lmao. Like that is now how friends act. Y'all @ wayforward are the ones who wrote the games. You guys wrote them to be gay in the first place. This is your doing, none of us did that. You did that. So like, I humbly ask that y'all stop being cowards & just let them kiss ffs. Like: Okay let me bring up one example, though I'll have more to say in the future.

To this day, I am still so fuckin' infuriated that they didn't just let Rottytops confess her feelings outwardly here. Like this was THE time to do that. It would have hit hard & followed up on the last game. But no, nah, they just took the cowards way out.

I know it's dumb to get hung up on this for so long but I just really had to say it bc man it irritates the fuck outta me when I remember it.

In fact, I am gonna just uh

gimme one sec

Alright guys I did it I fucking fixed it. We did it everyone lesbians are finally real.

#shantops #rottytops #shantae #rottytops x shantae #shantae x rottytops #shantae half genie hero #shottytops #rottytops shantae #lesbian #lesbian pride #rottae #shantae series #shantae risky's revenge

[lucky-sevens]

mechanisms basics & lore

welcome to my updated mechanisms intro post! this post will cover both the topics discussed in my mechanisms basics post, which is geared towards people who don’t know what the mechanisms are, and my deep lore post, which aimed to be a comprehensive compilation of all the important character and world lore. this post should serve the above group, but it’s geared towards people who have listened but feel there’s a lot of lore that seems to be common knowledge they’re missing. we’ll start out with a basic introduction, and then go into crew lore and a semi-comprehensive guide on where to go for further information.

basics

the mechanisms were a steampunk concept band, known for their queer representation and their tragic stories. they are no longer together, their last performance being january 2020, but several of their members are still creating related spinoff content.

they follow the trope many steampunk bands do, which is albums that tell a story; think similar to listening to a musical soundtrack, but geared to a visual-less experience. what distinguishes them is 1) narration tracks between each song, making the plot very easy to follow, and 2) being meant to be watched live, meaning there’s layers of meta that are more easily understood by watching recorded gigs rather than studio recordings of albums. specifically, there’s a focus on the narrators, known as the mechanisms or the crew of the aurora, who are immortal space pirates telling the stories and occasionally inserting themselves into them. though they are tragic figures themselves, their banter serves the purpose of bringing a lightheartedness and dark humor to the stories. if there’s an aspect of the lore you’re confused on, it’s probably related to the narrators!

to watch the mechanisms live, you can find recordings on youtube, dropbox, google drive, soundcloud, or vimeo, which are all compiled in this post (including transcripts!). if visuals aren’t your thing, i’ve linked the studio recordings later on in this post when they come up, and here are the mechanisms’ official spotify, bandcamp, and youtube, as well as an unofficial comprehensive lyric videos channel. 

the albums

regarding the albums specifically, there are 4 main ones (once upon a time (in space), ulysses dies at dawn, high noon over camelot, and the bifrost incident), 2 that are compilations of miscellaneous songs (tales to be told 1 & 2), 1 single (frankenstein), and 1 album that’s a high-quality recording of their last live show, including an alternative performance of the bifrost incident, 2 songs only performed at live shows, and 'the deathsong’, which details how they all eventually die (death to the mechanisms).

as you might have been able to tell from the titles, they’re all based off of various myths, folklore, literature, and/or fairy tales, using different genres on top of a sci-fi setting to add a fresh twist to them! for example, high noon over camelot is a western based on arthurian mythos, set on a space station. (the albums are known for all ending in tragedy, so be careful if that isn’t your cup of tea!) if your goal is to get into the mechanisms, i’d suggest sitting down and listening to them all in full; links will be provided below, or alternatively you can watch once upon a time (in space) live here, ulysses dies at dawn live here, or the bifrost incident live here. (there is no full live recording with visuals of high noon over camelot, sadly, but there are partial and audio only recordings.)

once upon a time (in space) - spotify/bandcamp/youtube

ulysses dies at dawn - spotify/bandcamp/youtube

high noon over camelot - spotify/bandcamp/youtube

the bifrost incident - spotify/bandcamp/youtube

tales to be told, volume 1 -  spotify/bandcamp/youtube

tales to be told, volume 2 - spotify/bandcamp/youtube

frankenstein - spotify/bandcamp/youtube

death to the mechanisms - edited video with the stream corruption fixed + subtitles / stream / spotify / bandcamp / youtube / transcript pt. 1 / transcript pt. 2

reading the fiction is integral to understanding both the albums and the mechanisms themselves. the fiction is a collection of short stories set in the mechanisms universe posted on their website here and compiled by me here, with an extra high noon over camelot story here. (there are also audio versions for ‘mirror mirror’ and ‘a rebel yell’ included on both the website and the compilation).

the crew of the aurora

as for the crew, at their peak there were nine members played by people, as well as the ex-member dr carmilla, who has extensive solo lore and is still active (which we’ll touch on in a few paragraphs). there is also their ship, the aurora, who is sentient and has her own lore. in fact, every member of the crew has their own backstory, set in a different genre or historical period; for example, nastya rasputina's is historical, jonny d’ville’s is a western and marius von raum’s is a mecha anime. however, they’re all still different flavors of steampunk! below, i’ll list each member, their performer, and the main sources of lore about them. for the majority of them, they have their own song in tales to be told, but there are a few outliers. everyone also has their own bio up on the website, which can all be found here. 

the aurora (n/a, ship)- on aurora (meta)

jonny d’ville (jonny sims)- one eyed jacks (song), jonny before he was mechanized (meta)

nastya rasputina (anonymous)- cyberian demons (song)

ivy alexandria (morgan wilkinson)- archive footage (fiction), crew bio

ashes o’reilly (frank voss)- lucky sevens (song)

drumbot brian (ben below)- lost in the cosmos (song), crew bio

the toy soldier (jessica law)- the story of the toy soldier (fiction)

gunpowder tim (tim ledsam)- gunpowder tim vs the moon kaiser (song/minialbum)

marius von raum (kofi young)- the death of byron von raum summary (blog post)

raphaella la cognizi (r l hughes)- crew bio

if you’ve noticed the crew bio doesn’t say much about raphaella, that’s because we know little to nothing about her backstory. the only thing we have to go on is a quote from the tv tropes page, which looking at the edit history, was likely written by one of the mechanisms. the quote is ‘Science officer who may or may not have cheated her way onto the ship after becoming a little too interested.‘ and the page is here.

the majority of fandom content is about the crew, working off of what we get from the tales to be told songs, the live gigs, and the fiction.

dr carmilla

speaking of characters with obscure lore, let’s talk about dr carmilla! rather than linger, i’ll just link my carmilla basics post, which is a comprehensive summary of who she is in and out of universe. to summarize, she’s a character based on the novella ‘carmilla’ by sheridan le fanu, commonly regarded as the first vampire novel, but her lore has diverged heavily from that original starting point since then. she is the oldest out of all of the crew, and made the majority of the other crew members immortal. she, as well as aurora, is from a planet called terra, which was destroyed partially as a result of her actions. her character is defined by her immortality and how she deals with it, her experiences on terra, her relationship with the mechanisms, and her dysfunctional relationship with her ex-girlfriend loreli, the last of which is the most covered by her songs. out of universe, she is played by maki yamazaki. all her lore lines up with what happened out of universe, and ties to the fact the mechanisms were originally dr carmilla and the mechanisms. she has two solo albums and two singles, which i’ll link below.

ageha (prototype edition) (album)- bandcamp | youtube

exhumed and {un}plugged (album)- bandcamp | youtube

the city {nex:type mix} (single, in-character cover)- bandcamp | youtube

eleven (single)- bandcamp | youtube

the majority of her lore is still to be officially revealed, and will be in the trilogy of albums maki yamazaki is working on.

further reading

if you’d like to delve further into the lore, there are a few sources i use! there are official, in-character, blogs, as well as things that are harder to dredge up; i won’t link them here, but some sources include @/thedreadvampy (the band’s artist, as well as morgan wilkinson’s sister and kofi young’s partner; don’t bother her for lore or anything, but she’s previously made posts sharing previously unknown information), old websites and deleted content found on the wayback machine, the tv tropes pages, and most notably the lore doc.

the ‘maki forbidden lore doc’ is an archive of all the lore maki yamazaki has shared on the mechscord, the official mechanisms discord which she’s on, and her own personal server, where she’s running an arg (alternate reality game) as a way of relaying more lore about the dr carmilla universe. for an idea of the scale, the doc is currently 91 pages and 28346 words, and recontextualizes much of what is known about dr carmilla and maki’s canon of the mechanisms universe. it is confidential to anyone not in her discord or the mechscord, as she’s said that this lore isn’t thought out nearly as much as the albums and is subject to change, so she’d rather it not be out in the open. however, information on how to join the mechscord can be found here. there is also a non-canonical fan project based on the arg in progress, but information on it is also confidential for now.

with regards to the above phrase ‘maki’s canon’ it’s worth noting that all of the individual band members have their own idea of what counts as canon and what doesn’t, and as you foray deeper into lore that division becomes more and more apparent.

with that, here are the mechanisms’ blogs. they are all both run in-character by the main nine band members and inactive unless i note otherwise.

twitter

tumblr

facebook

website/wordpress (run ic by tereshkova’s ghost, the blogbot, for the most part)

carmilla twitter (active, run ic by dr carmilla)

conclusion

now that we’re coming to the end of this, i’d like to thank whoever got this far, and to say a few words. my interest in the mechanisms has been slowly fading, and i’ve been writing less and less meta and lapsing in keeping up with new lore myself. honestly, i’m pretty worn out by how much i’ve done on this blog and in this fandom, and the commitments i’ve assigned myself. i do have plans for future meta, but it’s unlikely they’ll come to fruition. so, i thought i’d do a new version of my two oldest posts on this blog, and hopefully enable other people to look into the lore and theorize themselves with the new information.

to find more information, remember there’s a mechanisms wiki, and that my askbox is always open.

thanks for reading!

#the mechanisms #the mechs #meta #my posts

[electricea-a]

So.

I’m sure some eagle-eyed bloggers have already taken notice of the URL change and while I thought of putting this up tomorrow, I just wanted to say this all really quickly tonight.  I rebooted this blog some years ago and I honestly feel like it was one of the best decisions I made on here.  I got to reconnect with older muns and even had a chance to get to know some of them better and at the same time, I got to meet lots of new people too as they came and went.  Some are still active, some are not but such is roleplaying.

I know this probably isn’t really a surprise, I’ve alluded to this before.  To be honest, I’ve been setting and moving goal posts for myself in regards to this - like at first it was, ‘I’m gonna reboot in the new year, make it official’, which then became ‘well I’m gonna reboot after Halloween’ and the more I kind of thought about, the more I realized there wasn’t any real reason to procrastinate on this.  I’m still gonna write, I’m still gonna do all of the things I wanted to do before, a new URL won’t really change things.  But change is always still kind of scary nevertheless and my 2021 resolution (because 2020 is cancelled for me) has been to try and keep an open mind and do things, even if they’re scary.

If this post comes off as rambly or weird, I apologize, this was kind of a spur of the moment decision that just kind of came to me.  First and foremost, I want to make it clear that this is only goodbye to this specific blog and this specific URL.  This is not goodbye to Jassi, or Ryuji or to electricea, or to Tumblr.  Maybe it will be in a few years, but for now, this is only a goodbye to a blog that I feel has been around for a good long while and now it’s time for a reboot, for a change.

I don’t think I’m cut out to be one of those muns who can stay on the same blog for years and years and juggle a great deal of followers - to those who can, I have the utmost admiration and respect for, but I think I’m the sort of ‘reboot every few years’ sort of person.  Even though I feel like I have taken great strides in many areas, I do sometimes feel a bit overwhelmed and a bit stressed and I’ll be completely honest, my inactivity has been due to these negative feelings and to mood drops - it’s nobody’s fault and I’m certainly not blaming anyone.  As I said before, I made this worse for myself by setting and moving goal posts when I could have rebooted ages ago and you guys have never been the issue at all.  You guys have given me a hundred reasons to smile and a hundred hours of laughs and good times and so many unique plots and threads that have come and gone and I hope I could do the same for you.

I guess where this whole ramble is kind of leading up to is - I’m rebooting.  If you want to find me, it’s the exact same URL - electricea.  It might be a little wonky because I’m still waiting for the 24 hour change to take effect but it is the same URL as before, it is by the same mun and hopefully will have the same great experience.  Also, when I say reboot I just want to clarify - for anyone worried that all ships or interactions will suddenly be whited out and Thanos snapped out of existence, that will only happen if you want it to. If you IM me on the new blog tomorrow and be like ‘hey we had a ship before i’d like to continue’ or even just be like ‘hey, how about a shippy thread?’ I would be perfectly down with picking things back up where we left off.  This reboot is moreso for myself than anything else, I’m not trying to wipe away and all past interactions or ships here.  I would hope you could still approach me and we could write together comfortably.

Also, just a final note - thanks for making the original reboot some time ago some of the best times I’ve had on Tumblr yet.  You made the time on that blog really special and I’m grateful I got to meet a lot of cool folks.  If you wish to part ways from here, I completely understand and I wish you nothing but the best and harbor no hard feelings.  Thank you for the memories and enjoy your time.  To those who do - and hopefully will (lol) wish to follow me, I’ll put us all out of our misery with this long post and just say uh, see you on the new blog, I hope! Thanks again!

#( ooc. )

[nerdygaymormon]

Interviewed by 2 Seventies

Background

This weekend my stake is getting a new stake presidency. It’s been interesting to view the process from behind the scenes.

A few weeks ago a list of everyone to be interviewed was sent to the stake president--bishops, members of the high council, current counselors in the stake presidency, the stake clerk and the stake executive secretary. They asked if there’s anyone else the stake president would recommend adding to the list. 

Then each of those individuals was sent a brief set of questions asking about their current & previous callings, their occupation, and their family. As the stake executive secretary, I was asked to arrange the interview schedule, giving 6 minutes for each interviewee. The idea is that the Lord knows who is to be the next stake president and just needs to make it known. I commented that this seems like speed dating.

We had 2 Seventy assigned to this stake conference. One is Elder Kevin S. Hamilton, he’s a General Authority Seventy, the other is Elder Douglas B. Carter, he’s an Area Authority Seventy, meaning he lives somewhere nearby, works his regular job during the week and has Church assignments on the weekend. 

We learned only a few days ago that the General Authority Seventy in Salt Lake are not traveling. They continue to meet in council with the Apostles & First Presidency, so to limit the chance of them being exposed to COVID and bringing it to the councils, they are not traveling. 

So our setup for the interview was Elder Hamilton on a laptop by Zoom and Elder Carter sitting behind the desk. 

————————————————————

The Interview

"Brother Doyle, this says you don't have a wife and you've never been married, is this correct?" 

My reply was, "I'll save you from having to ask 20 questions. I'm gay and being in the Church means certain avenues are closed to me."

“When did you come out?” 

“I consider I officially came out a decade ago, but I was just telling individuals, not making a big announcement, but in 2017 I had a blog post go viral that outed me to everyone.”

They proceeded to ask some hard, probing questions. I doubt they asked similar types questions of the others. Wanting to know if I ever was inactive (there were times I wanted to but I had a Mormon boss or landlord or other reason that made not going to church tricky), did I grow up in the Church (yes), have you always abided by the Law of Chastity (I’m not exactly sure how to answer this, what exactly is it you want to know, while in this calling I have dated some people but I know where the line is about chastity that would require me to be released and I’m careful about that, and also, I haven’t dated for a while).

They asked me if I have a temple recommend (yes), are you worthy (I answered “yes,” but shouldn’t my answer about the recommend have satisfied this question). Do I go to the temple often? (this last question is the only one that Elder Carter asked, all the rest were asked by Elder Hamilton)

When I responded that although I keep a current recommend, I don't usually go to the temple except to support others. There's things at the temple that are hard for me. They asked what about the temple would be hard? "Well, it talks about it's not good for man to be alone, it talks about having joy in our creation." "Oh, I can understand that."

At that point their body language softened and relaxed, they started smiling, and began asking me questions about how I feel about my calling (I felt God asked me to do a work among LGBT members, and when I agreed, He put me in this calling, which is interesting that doing this calling's work opened the way for me to do the other work), how do I help other LGBT members, what have I learned from my stake president? 

They thanked me for sharing that I struggle and do my best and carry on.

As they were wrapping up, the General Authority Seventy said he's confident God will work everything out for me. My response was I hope so, but those are easy words to say and harder to keep faith in.” He acknowledged that he doesn't know the future, but he has faith God will bless me.

Elder Hamilton can tell I’m impacting people, thanked me for being visible,  and said if he was here in person that he'd give me a hug.

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Their Comment to the Stake President

After they'd met with everyone, the two Seventy spent some time in conversation with each other, then asked the soon-to-be-released stake president to meet with them, I believe to get his perspectives on certain individuals and if there's background information they should be aware of.

After he exited the office and the 2 Seventy resumed conferring with each other, he told me that when he walked in and closed the door, the first thing they said was, "Well, the most interesting interview was with your executive secretary."

He replied, "I bet it was. I've instructed him to be candid with me and I trust he was candid with you."

"Oh yes, he was candid. As we talked with him, we grew to like him."

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Commentary

Even now after all these years, it takes bravery to be LGBT in this Church and deal with these kinds of things. And sometimes it is very wearying, too. 

Today felt like 2 different interviews back-to-back. They were tough on me in the first half. Maybe they were just curious and wanting to learn, but it feels very vulnerable to be asked those sorts of questions in rapid fire that could be interpreted as accusatory. 

I think because these types of interviews to find the next stake president are done under very tight time limits, that's why they just asked question after question, but it was rough to be on the receiving end of those questions in that first half of the interview.

Our stories have power, if they’re willing to listen. Being in proximity is important to spurring change. I know it's unusual for them to come to a stake and run into someone like me, and I've helped them understand better. 

I’m very proud of my stake president for immediately sticking up for me when he said, “I’ve instructed him to be candid with me and I trust he was with you.” 

#David gets personal #Elder Kevin S Hamilton #Elder Douglas B Carter #queerstake

[heyimviri]

Track 16. Irrational

“Love is Exciting”

⚠️TRIGGER WARNING IN A/N⚠️: MENTIONS OF ATTEMPTED SUICIDE

a/n: I’m not even gonna make an excuse this time, I was supposed to finish writing this 4 - 5 days ago, & I was honestly just putting off writing at every chance I got & I had a bit of a bad week. I had some nasty thoughs & even attempted offing myself. Then I also had some arguments with my dad about some stuff he’s done to hurt me, while also trying to help one of my closest friends stop harming themself. I don’t mean to vent, or to make anyone have sympathy for me, and I really do want to finish this series and continue writing for all of you. Thank you guys so much for not getting upset with the fact that I’m so inactive sometimes & thank you for supporting the series. Let me know what I should write next! Anyway, I know you’ve been waiting, so here’s the long awaited chapter 16. I’m going to try to write chap. 17 withing the next week. Also, slight manga spoilers?

・・・・☆・・・・☆ ・・・・

“Y/N, baby, our brunch reservation is scheduled for 10:30. Could you please get out of bed now?” Yamagucci’s sweet tone was muffled by your door and the pillow over your head.

It had been two days since everyone went out all at once and right after, everyone’s schedule went back to normal. Everyone except for Akaashi. You had asked him if he wanted to go out yesterday, but he told you that he was going to be busy with work for the next few days, leaving you all by your lonesome. So, as mature as you held yourself to be, your childishness got the best of you and you flat out refused to go anywhere.

“Y/N, if you don’t get up, I’ll break your door down again. You have an twenty-five minutes to shower and you need to, because you smell like manure.”

“Tsukki! That’s so mean!”

“It’s true.”

“KAGEYAMA!”

The silence from your room broke Tsukishima’s calm demeanor once again and the one thing that finally got you up was the sound of wood & metal hitting your carpet. Scrambling out of your taco blanket, you rolled out onto the floor, landing next to your broken door.

“Dude... that was literally just fixed like... a month ago.” You dragged out a groan as Hinata began pulling you out of your room towards the bathroom.

“Y/N, sometimes you remind me of Bōkutō, you know that?” With his look of smug innocence, Hinata left you on the floor with one thought, and one thought only.

“HEY, WHAT’S THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN?!”

・・・・☆・・・・☆ ・・・・

“And they live.” A snarky remark left Kei’s mouth as soon as he found you dressed and ready outside of your room.

“Oh please, Kei. You can take your healthy, official relationship and go elsewhere.” You slumped into the couch, huffing and puffing while he stared at you in amusement.

“For someone who’s so built on independence and maturity, you sure do get all hung up over this boy. Not to mention it’s only because he has a life that you aren’t necessarily a part of yet.” Throwing his arm around your shoulder and sitting next to you, Tsukishima poked fun at your little act.

He knew you weren’t one to act this way and that you were purposely being dramatic, so he wasn’t upset or annoyed at it the way he used to be. Now he just finds it funny and wonders why you kept this melodramatic habit of yours.

“Let’s go, you parasite. We’re gonna be late if we don’t catch a taxi in the next five to ten minutes.” He tugged you up by your arm, while all five of you linked arms and somehow made it out the door. Lucky for all of you, a taxi was just down the street. Getting in, you all squished in the car and you sat on Kageyama’s lap, so you’d all fit in easier.

・・・・☆・・・・☆ ・・・・

Once you guys got into the breakfast place, it felt like you forgot everything else in your life except for the food in front of you & the friends you had surrounding you. Out of habit, you snapped a picture of you food, posted it on Twitter, and got lost in the messages between you and Akaashi.

After Tsukishima pulled you away from your mindless scrolling, you guys conversed about your upcoming work schedule. Though the mood took a darastic turn when the topic of moving rolled around. It took your thoughts a while to catch up to the conversation, but when they finally did, the words came out of your mouth faster than you expected them to.

“Wait- Tadashi, you’re planning to move?!”

“Well...before we tried waking you up, we all agreed that it feels like the apartment is getting too small to have all of us living there. Tsukki and I were  talking about moving and it just so happened that Hinata & Kags had the same idea. Plus, Tsukki, Hinata, and Kags are volleyball pros; so now that the scheduals are back up, they’re all going to start playing oversea games again, so no matter what, you’d still be mostly on your own.” He smiled at you sheepishly, averting his eyes and avoiding your gaze.

You glanced around the table, and it seemed like all of them had the same solem look on their faces. You always knew that you couldn’t all stay in the same apartment, moving on with your lives was something you had to do, but you didn’t expect to happen only after two years.

“I know you would have wanted to be in on the conversation, but it was just an ‘in the moment’ thing.” You knew Shōyō trying to make you feel better, but the comment only made you feel worse.

The table was silent and your stomach started to hurt. You couldn’t quite grasp why it was affecting you so harshly, it wasn’t like it wasn’t that big a deal. You guys weren’t losing contact, you weren’t going to stop being friends, you weren’t fighting, there was really nothing wrong, but it just hurt you. 

“It’s okay...you don’t need to try to make me feel better. The feelings will pass before you know it. We can all browse the home catalogs together, and when the time comes, we can all pack together.” You gave them a smile from your happy facade, and though they knew it was fake, they all took it as it was, not wanting to push any further.

・・・・☆・・・・☆ ・・・・

Three hours past faster than any of you expected it to, though the last thirty-minutes felt like eons. The drive home was as quiet as the table had been earlier. All of you held hands while walking the rest of the ten minutes home. it felt like someone had just died, but it felt silly to you, knowing that not much was really changing. They weren’t even leaving until next year. They would still be here until Christmas. They would still be here for New Years. They would still be here for Valentines day. They would be here at least until spring, so why did it feel like your world just ended?

You couldn’t shake your negative thoughts, even when you all entered your shared apartment. You kept scanning the room for each one of them, feeling like they would disappear if you took your eyes off them for too long. You knew you were attached to the point where it was unhealthy, but you didn’t know how not to be. Even if you had met all of them is highschool, it felt like you had known these people your whole life, and they were a part of your family. Family had been around for so long.

“Y/N...” Tadashi’s voice broke through the silence that filled your home. “Why don’t you and I watch a movie together or something? I want to spend time with you until you feel better, and if anyone else wants to join, they can.”

You tried to give him a happy espression, but your gloom flooded through your smile. So you lost your smile and just nodded instead. He nodded back and went off to the kitchen to make some popcorn and other snacks, leaving you to pick a movie on the app or site of your choosing.

・・・・☆・・・・☆ ・・・・

Everyone ended up gathering on the couch to watch the movie, having nothing better to do, but you ended up falling asleep in Tsukishima’s lap halfway through the movie, allowing everyone to check the group chat without any suspicion.

・・・・★・・・・★ ・・・・

Track 15. | Track 17.

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[musicfeedsmysoul12]

Plague Rat Chapter 3

Three months later…

 “Hello and welcome to Channel Eight! I’m Erica, bringing you the news!”

 “Today we are speaking of what is now called ‘the Plague of Truth’, brought upon us by the Akuma Plague Rat.

 Due to the Akuma’s powers of infecting people with a deadly virus resembling the Black Plague but targeting liars, many secrets came about. And many consequences have occurred. The most high profile ones are the former mayor, his wife and a dozen city officials who are now closing ranks and trying to-“ Marinette turned off the TV and closed her eyes.

 After she had been purified, the girl had been horrified at her actions, feeling ill and disgusted. She had done that? She had attacked people? She had nearly…

 Luckily there was a therapist employed by the hospital that sat with her and spoke with her. He was open and honest and she had a lot off issues she usually kept locked up. 

 He helped her speak of them and confront them. Helped her understand her issues. Helped her realize how many were people putting things on her and expecting things if her when they shouldn’t. 

 She still didn’t feel okay. Knowing what she did made her feel sick, but her classmates where there. Alix spoke with her softly, the girl knowing she had killed one. Kim spoke of rewatching his actions and feeling horrified. Rose shuddered at what she had done.

 It helped. 

 More so, honestly, it helped knowing that her actions had exposed Lila and a lot of corruption. Not only had she hit the mayor, she’d hit the commissioner, Audrey, Nadja and a bunch of others. 

 Andre had been removed from office and was now facing trial for his crimes. The commissioner had been removed from office along with Roger being fired and were also facing charges. Rumors said they would probably get ten years at least.

Audrey was going away for child abuse, corruption and the abuse of her staff. She had admitted everything and Chloe had been removed from their care in a second, being placed with an aunt on the other side of Paris who hadn’t spoken to her sister in years and had never cared to. The aunt had agreed to take Chloe in but had warned the girl she would not put up with any of her actions.

 Marinette hadn’t heard anything since as Chloe had been expelled by the new principal that had replaced Damocles when the fact he was being bribed came out. Bustier had also been replaced. Marinette wasn’t sad to see them go- even if it was only recently she could go back to school after the shock to her system becoming an Akuma had been. It wrecked her metabolism again and she’d been stuck in a bed for months.

 Luckily, there was a friendly nurse around who was happy to take over for Akumas. Marinette has the best time hearing her rant about magic and how stupid it was she couldn’t tell who Ladybug was when she was in the hosptial. Often right in front of her door.

 Tikki found it hilarious to.

 But she had finally left the hospital and Tikki said she could go back to fighting, something she was glad about. She missed it, not that she’d admit it.

 But before that, there was a trial to be had.

 -0-

 “So you willingly did it-“

 “I did.” Alya interrupted the lawyer. “I willingly exposed her to sick children but that was at the urging of Lila who said she had to be lying. I believe the videos I’ve given show that.” Alya felt like a bug as everyone in the courtroom stared at her. She kept her chin up though. She would not be cowed by this lawyer Lila’s father got her. Apparently Lila’s nasty habits came from someone and that was her father. Her mother had been furious to know she was in contact with him and was not pleased by the lawyer but agreed to it.

 She didn’t want her baby in jail either.

 He was a good lawyer, knew how to come at things from all angles.

 But Alya had been Rena Rouge. The Fox Miraculous left marks deep in her soul, which made her slippery and sly. She had forgotten and gotten caught in lies herself, but she remembered now.

 And she would not yield. 

 “I wonder, if anyone actually knows that the reason she wants Marinette dead is because she called her out on her lies in college.” Snapped Alya, suddenly latching onto the thought. The lawyer blinked. “Didn’t know that? Lila is just angry that Marinette didn’t follow her around. That Marinette called her out.” The lawyer actually stepped back and turned to look at Lila who couldn’t hide her furious face fast enough. Alya smiled at her while the lawyer said he had to dismiss himself from the case now, his clients had been lying to him.

 Alya hadn’t been a good person for a while. She had followed a liar and had blinded herself to truth for a long time. But she had once been a hero, once been a good person. 

 She was going to start again.

-0-

 “So you thought it was like tabloids?” Dr. Shaw asked Adrien who sighed. 

 “Yeah I mean…” Adrien shook his head. “I don’t know. Maybe if I hadn’t known the truth I’d have believed hem but when I did I saw how stupid they were and they reminded me of the tabloids. I thought they’d figure it out themselves. I didn’t think she was hurting anyone.”

 “But she did. Her actions almost caused many of them to miss out on incredibly important opportunities for their futures. It was lucky your friend Marientte managed to convince them it was a good way to show case their skills to the supposed contacts Lila had.” The doctor said and Adrien winced.

 “I… I didn’t want her Akumatized again.”

 “And yet Marientte was.” Adrien looked down. “Adrien, if I can be very blunt- you despise conflict and prefer a passive approach to it. While disliking conflict is fine, and I encourage you not to seek it out, not confronting people who you know are in the wrong isn’t always the best idea.”

 “...” Adrien didn’t want to think about it anymore. But he had to. His father had made him go to therapy and Plagg had told him it was a good idea for him to do so. He needed to get over this. “It’s easier when it’s not me.” Adrien blurted our. “Online I mean.” He quickly covered. It was easy to confront people as Chat Noir. 

 “Then pretend you’re not Adrien when you confront people.” The therapist offered and…

 That was really good advice.

Two months later…

 “Hello and welcome to the new Ladyblog!” Alya grinned on the screen Marientte was watching. “As you know due to certain circumstances I left this blog for the last few months. This is due to Lila and her actions towards my classmate and my own actions. However, this is a new start. First and foremost- this blog will now only contain facts. I have three people to check over anything I post that’s an article and needed to be researched who will do so. I spoke with Ladybug and she’s agreed to an interview with all heroes providing they agree-“ that was the only small crack, a shadow of sadness. After Miracle Queen everyone know she’d been a hero, and seeing a new fox must hurt.

 Marientte though was just amused that Alya was such a good actor. Sure she no longer used the fox but she fit the Turtle very well. And Nino was a fine Dragon, while Luka was a great Fox and Kagami was an amazing Bee.

 It hadn’t been to hard to manage to have an interview with them- though all separate. It was enough to show Paris they were human to.

 Marinette smiled,  watching as Alya continued her speech. 

 Things had changed since she’d become Plague Rat. Lila was now in jail back in Italy. Youth jail but still. She would spend two years there before being released on parole for either ten years or for the rest of her life depending on her actions. While she had lost her first lawyer they had been assigned a second one who had managed to get a psychiatrist in to look at her. 

 The man said she was either a psychopath or a sociopath. They had tried to say that meant she was allowed to be free but that was ended when the doctor pointed out she knew what she was doing was wrong. She just didn’t care. 

 She wasn’t allowed back in France and apparently other countries had also banned her. She was forever stuck in Italy.

 The former mayor was also in jail. Five years, chance of parole in two and a half, maybe less depending on behaviour. Nadja had lost custody of Manon after it got out she routinely used the girl to gather info and had put her in risk multiple times. Audrey was in jail, Roger had lost his job and was on probation. 

 Paris had experienced a revolution after Plague Rat. The new mayor was a woman who took no shit and was a hardass who was happily funding the police to find Hawkmoth, and bring him down. The new commissioner had fired all corrupt cops- Roger had been part of this sweep- and now Paris was thriving.

 Adrien as well seemed to have changed. He had formally apologized to her for his inaction and he was taking steps to be able to confront people. He’d already had a fight with his father about being a model and had leaked to the press how Gabriel treated him. Gabriel was in therapy now and Adrien had a social worker doing random checks on him. 

 “I guess even Akumatized I’m a hero.” She remarked to Tikki who chuckled. 

 “Perhaps. But I like you as you.”

 “Same.” She still has nightmares about what she’d done. She still freaked out about the hospital. Hell she was still recovering months later from the stress of being Akumatized while suffering from sickness and a horrible immune system. 

 But she was doing better. She was moving forward.

 And that was all she could do.

Tagged: @anastasian-dreamer @magicalfirebird @kibastray @thesunanditsangel @virgil-is-a-cutie @marinettepotterandplagg @heaven428 @sofmimis @so-freaking-done-with-people @moonystars14 @slytherinhquinn @spartanxhunterx

#ml au #plague rat #akumanette #end of story.

[northwestofinsanity]

I was tagged by @ritchieblackless Thank you!

1. Why did you choose your url?

The “Northwest” comes from “Northwestern”.  As far as that part goes, it’s a long, complicated story, involving a character from some original stories I used to write for my younger cousins when they were kids, and my favorite vessel on Deadliest Catch (it used to be a good show).  “Insanity” comes from exactly what it sounds like.  I’m never fully sane... but majority of the time, I’m not entirely insane, so I played a pun on what became my online name to suggest I’m just a little up the road to the north and west of true insanity.

2. Any side blogs? if you have them, name them and why you have them.

None so far.

3. How long have you been on tumblr?

February 2017... so that’s a little over 4 years as of now.

4. Do you have a queue tag?

No, and I don’t really use the queue.  I’m not active enough on Tumblr to have much use for it, and I pretty much just post whenever the mood strikes me, and when I have time to search and focus on what my hyperfixation du jour is.

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

The community I was in on DeviantArt (not band-related) was melting down in a really nasty way, and one of my closer friends there became abusive, so once I got everything I was in charge of there handed over, I abandoned my account.  I was in some *intense* emotional pain, and I needed distraction, and distance from the fandom.  I basically came to Tumblr to hyperfixate on my favorite bands more -it was something I’d considered, but didn’t have the time before that to commit to it.

6. Why did you choose your icon/pfp?

My icon is Jeff Pilson and George Lynch.  Dokken was one of the bands I was most hyperfixated on in 2017, and they, along with a friend who is also a fan of them, really were helping me get through that hard time when I made this account.  Besides that, Jeff and George have a really wholesome friendship despite the turbulent history of Dokken.  As for my pfp, I just chose generic guitars I found on Google Images to create a minimalist background.  I have a tight data limit, and I tend to force every ounce of life out of my devices, so I make my own stuff as easy to load as possible, and most likely to function even if an outdated, semi-incompatible browser doesn’t format things quite right.

7. Why did you choose your header?

“Classic Rockhaven” (I assume that’s the header?) comes from my love for classic rock, and the idea of rock and roll being a safe-haven for me at the time.  “Rockhaven” also closely resembles the name of a neighborhood a few miles away from my own in my hometown, so I knew it would flow right.

9. How many mutuals do you have?

I have 14 as of now.  I’ve lost a few due to some people leaving, or switching accounts

10. How many followers do you have?

429.  Some are unfortunately fomer-porn accounts I haven’t had a chance to weed out and block.  A good number are just empty, lurker accounts as well, but as long as those followers are enjoying classic rock content, that’s fine by me.  I’m grateful for the followers I have who do enjoy and interact with my posts.

11. How many people do you follow?

Officially, 38, but there are a good number of accounts I “unofficially” follow, by visiting blogs every night I have the chance.  I’d love to follow more, and am looking to officially follow a few of those, since a few of the people I already follow have gone inactive or left.  With my lifestyle, and data limits, I just have a hard time keeping up with my dashboard even with the tiny amount of people I follow, so I like to really get to know blogs first, and then slowly add them to my follow list so I don’t get overwhelmed. 

12. Have you ever made a shitpost?

I believe so, depending on where you draw the line on that.  (at least in my definition, I have).  Do snarky posts about Tumblr’s glitches and that time I drowned my phone at work count?  Or the crazy, crack-fic cartoons I drew in quarantine?

13. How often do you use tumblr each day?

On my weekends/off-days, whenever I want and can.  On my 12-hour workdays, I check my dash before I leave home, once over data while I’m on my lunch break, and then at least once when I get home.  If I’m getting home on time, and not late because the evening ran long, I’ll check on blogs I watch without following yet.

14. Did you ever have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

Not that I’m aware of... I’ve made neutral posts discouraging other blogs from fighting though, because I’ve seen plenty of traumatic things internet fights can lead to in the events leading to me joining here, and I don’t want to see anyone go through that when usually, nobody wins.  At best, I think I had someone misunderstand what I said on a post where there was affectionate teasing of a certain 80s guitarist, and I meant to play along with the joke to say “don’t tease him, he’s a nervous wreck” -and added some band history for any watchers who didn’t know the story behind why said guitarist is so nervous... but it didn’t come to anything.

15. How do you feel about "you need to reblog this" posts?

9 times out of 10, I agree with what they’re saying, but I don’t like reblogging these things, because it feels like it’s being crammed down everyone’s throat -I’m much more receptive to things that don’t feel forced, along with plenty others.  To begin with, they’re not really what I’m here for.  Tumblr is a place I joined for a mental escape from the world’s problems -not a place to ruminate on them.  And when I’m seeing them when I’m half-mentally numb in the middle of a 12-hour shift with only 1 gigabyte per month of data to work with, or when I’m home after that day and dead on my feet, it just turns me off.

16. Do you like tag games?

I like doing them when I have the time at home to sit down and do them over Wi-fi.  The only thing I’m iffy with is tagging others, because I don’t want to make someone feel pressured into doing it.

17. Do you like ask games?

As long as the questions aren’t about a certain few things I will not share about, I have fun with those.  I just have to find one to reblog from someone I follow that comes up at a time I know I’ll have time at home to answer.

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

I don’t know if anyone truly is, but @mccoys-killer-queen ’s sideblog is pretty well known.

19. Do you have a crush on a mutual?

No, but I do care for a number of my mutuals (including a couple I haven’t officially followed yet) a great deal, and can say I wish nothing but happiness for them, and if they were to leave, I would truly miss them (but also support it if they deemed it best -as I have with a few past mutuals).

20. Tags

Anybody who wants to!

#tagged #tag game

[lilliryth]

🌔 Brief Hiatus 🌔

So, I’ve been inactive here for a while, now. Maybe around two months since I’ve really interacted with anyone, whether privately or openly, or just by reblogging something of theirs. But despite my absence, this blog isn’t dead. I want to take a moment to explain the situation to anyone who may be wondering where I’ve gone.

Before I say anything else: I just want to clarify, to those who might be worried, that I’m okay. I’ve been in a deep mental rut for a long time—the affects of which have branched out to all areas of my life—but I’m safe, and you don’t need to worry about me.

I’ll be brief with the personal stuff here, since I want to offer an explanation (not an excuse, you‘re allowed and entitled to be mad at me for this) for why I’ve been so distant, and ostensibly not interested in reconnecting; but I also don’t want to clog people’s dashboards with someone’s personal affairs if they don’t know me that well.

Basically, ADHD (mainly executive dysfunction) has taken me to some dark places lately. I’ve nearly lost things that I really fucking care about multiple times, by now. And as part of the reparation process—working through my own mental problems, and healing the damage they’ve caused—I’m afraid I’ll have to take a break from the online social world for a while. Another month, perhaps.

It’s hard, because I know that the people who know me privately, and have been left so completely in the dark, deserve a much more personal explanation and apology—and also because I miss everyone so much. But in order to have time to really mull over what I want to say, and work through these issues, so that they don’t cause any serious damage ever again, I need this time to myself.

I already went officially on hiatus on a private RP server that I belong to, and I’m doing that here as well. I went on hiatus in that server around twenty days ago, so I’ll have less time away from that (thirty days is the limit), but over here it’s going to be another full thirty days. Figure early October, I’ll be back.

I won’t be interacting with anyone on here. Maybe sometimes, sparingly, especially if I feel like reaching out is an urgent matter. But other than that, things will be a little quiet. It’s probably not going to be radio silence. I’ll be reblogging stuff every day, most likely. However, it’s only because I want to clear my drafts and likes out of things that I wanted to post but didn’t have the mental energy to. So even if I’m reblogging something and there’s a caption, or I’m speaking in the tags, I’m not really here—just hitting “post” on something I wrote a while back.

I believe one’s mental health is important, not for self-centric reasons only, but also for the way that unaddressed problems can cause strain in areas of the sufferer’s life that absolutely need to be stable, and by extension, strain on those whom the sufferer loves. I’ve lost friendships over this, and nearly lost friendships, as well as almost losing things that are deeply important to myself and crucial to my identity, more times than I can count. I have so many plans and dreams that I don’t want taken from me. That’s why I need this time to myself.

To anyone reading this—even if you don’t know me—listen to me here. Your brain is the driver of your vehicle. Neglect of your mental health is going to make life spiral out of control. And as someone who has fallen asleep at their own mental wheel on far too many occasions, and seen what it can do to a person when they refuse to acknowledge a problem, I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. You are not a lost cause. Not only can this struggle be overcome, but in many cases, it must. I say this with love and understanding, I promise you that.

Mental health isn’t something only “hippies” and whiners worry about. It’s your brain. It’s real, it’s tangible, and I’d argue it’s not just as important as your physical health—it is your physical health. Because, like I said, the brain is the driver. It is the part of your physical body that keeps everything else literally in check. And even if you’ve got the best vehicle around, your driver can lose it all in the span of a second. Be kind to your driver, and don’t be irresponsible on this road that we all share. 

To anyone I interacted with (anyone who tagged me or responded to asks I sent in) that I haven’t followed up on: I promise I’m not ignoring you. I’ve read everything, and I plan on responding to it all properly when I get back.

To anyone whose acquaintance or friendship I made recently, only to seemingly fade out and stop responding: I miss you very very much. I have a lot of things that I want to say and do with you and I promise I haven’t abandoned you. I think about you every day, and my affection and good intentions are with you.

Lastly—to those who have been waiting on my outreach a great while, whom I haven’t been a proper companion to in too many months: I’m sorry, and I love you. I’ll be back. I want to do better. I really mean it.

I wish you the best of luck on your own journey, and I promise to be back—10/1/2020.

Until then. Take care of yourself, reader. You are imperative to your own world, and the worlds that others share with you.

—K.

#hiatus 2020 🖤 #tumblr 🖤 #interactions 🖤 #important 🖤

[lesbiancarat]

Book anon here to say today is a happy day because it is dk and vernon day ^0^ the fact they share bdays makes my heart so big like djakdnaks that's the best thing really! (I say this as I don't like celebrating my own birthday lol but that shiz makes me soft) like how can it not get better than sharing a birthday with your fellow bandmate who is also your buddy :'))

Back on topic, I am happy that in the fandoms I'm in, update blogs or accounts are well loved so no drama there but I agree on cc peeps, my gosh the decline of them is obvious for the past 2 years =/ I remember 2018 the carat fandom here was HUGE with creators and lots of notes but now...its hard to see more than 200 for some and while numbers don't matter because you should ALWAYS be doing this for fun, its so shocking to see the interaction go so low and its more likes. I do have a theory as to why this is the case and it might be due to nowadays, people on Tumblr find reblogging alot to be "too much" akaspamming. I would know because some told me I do this and I'm like ??? I am simply reblogging content I like and if it means hitting the rbelog limit so be it djajdjw. Legit idk why its seen as bad nowadays when everyone used to reblog alot and no one complained so maybe this could be why? Again a theory but it would make sense and its a shame if this is the case :c I admit I like stuff because I sometimes do reblog it for a color theme but mostly I hit the reblog limit so I want to reblog it later xD

But let's not get into people that take others work as their own -.- now I get giving credit for say icons (I do this for icons and headers I use because its the least I can do. I would link it but idk how to do it on Tumblr lol) but taking someone's say gif and just posting it on twitter to share is like ??? You do know there is a share button that SHARES THE ORIGINAL LINK BACK RIGHT? Smh i can't with people. That's why I try to make sure for icons at least I know its not a repost and try to stay away from pintrest as best as I can (also svt on pintrest? Are they making moodboards or smth? I leave Tumblr for a bit and this is what I come back to lol)

Oof I wrote too much again sjamdna I'm living up to my emoji huh? XD but yes my tooth is better! It hurt again last night but today we are good!

I'm late answering this but yeah the fact that dk and vernon share a Birthday is super sweet! it's fun that they get to do their birthday live together as well ^^

but yeah i joined carat tumblr around late 2017/early 2018 (i made this side blog during oh my era but I'd been reblogging svt stuff on main before then) and I'm p sure most if not all the cc's i originally followed are inactive now :( obviously like you said content creators should make content for fun and bc they want to and not for the notes, but it's understandably disheartening when less people are interacting with it and even the people who do still see your content are (at least seemingly) less enthusiastic about it (ie liking but not reblogging it, less ppl writing things in the tags or replies, etc.)

but that's so wild to me? I've never heard anyone say someone is reblogging too many things like... how do you expect to see posts if people don't reblog stuff?? id welcome that extra content on my dash dhfjfh. i guess you can go in specific tags but like. idk reblogging is the main function of tumblr i don't know why there are people sort of against it/not as willing to use it (i mean... i suspect at least one factor is other social media platforms relying more on algorithms and likes to show people new content and ppl are just more used to that maybe?)

i feel like to some extent people feel entitled to have every or any gif or fanart or fan content on their platform of choice, but like if an artist posts something on tumblr but not on twt or instagram it doesn't HAVE to be on twt or insta. people can make a tumblr (or whatever platform) account if that's the only place a creator is active and they really want to see their content. and if people want to share something cool to another platform it is not hard to just post a link to the original post and tell people to check it out. like i do that every once in a while if there's a translation that doesn't allow reposts, but i still want ppl to know that trans exists if they wouldn't normally. and yeah!! you're gonna get less engagement that way!! but that's when you need to question whether your intention is really to share something cool w people who wouldn't normally see it or if you just want clout from this cool thing for yourself

and obviously not everyone who reposts things wo credit or permission has such innocent intentions as "i want to share this cool thing" but i think in a lot of cases it is something similar to that where ppl see something and they want to use it or share it for whatever reason and they just forget that it's something an actual person took the time to create and chose to share it. fan creations, unless otherwise specified, are not like memes in that they're intended to be shared and edited and copied to hell and back

but yeah pinterest is the worst in terms of reposts. like very little if any of the content on there (at least that's fandom related) is original content. the vast majority is reposts from other platforms without credit. a few weeks ago i saw someone on twt post like an old SVT photo or something and someone asked where it was from and they were like 'idk i saw it on pinterest' and when i tell u my blood boiled dhfkfj like!! ok!! so you're reposting a repost and u have no idea what the original source is... great

but yeah i have no idea what SVT is gonna do with pinterest... guessing it's just gonna be pledis posting official/behind photos that they also post on twt anyway. it really looks like it's something bh made them create given other bhl artists also have pinterests they're all following each other. also pledis didn't even officially announce the new account opening anywhere as far as I've seen so like. i think they really don't care dhfkfj

i really don't know what bh thinks they're gonna gain though like. ik there are active fandom pinterest users but i think most of them also have other social media like twt or insta. like they're not cracking open a huge new market, and LITERALLY NO ONE expects any musician or celeb to have an official Pinterest so. it's just so unnecessary dhfkgj

I'm glad your tooth is feeling better!!!

#melia.ask #ask #📖 anon #oof prime example of me getting carried away and writing too much #this was meant to be a quick break from studying #theres another ask in my inbox which is short anyway but i really have to get back to hw and studying ;-; #long post

[shakalakadingdong]

2021

So I wanted to make an official-y type post on just updates on what I’m doing on Mabi, the guild, & life stuff. I haven’t been very active on this blog for a while. I’d like to post more, but I’m not promising regular content or anything. If you’re an old friend that’s trying to get back in contact with me, hit me up on Discord or in-game, don’t try to message me on tumblr, lol.

So, first things first, i’m the realest my guild is recruiting again!! 🥳 Last month we had a couple of guild screenshot sessions so we could have pictures for the recruitment posts, and I was really surprised with how many people showed up! I’ve been trying to re-ignite guild activity since last October, and I’m happy to say we’ve been successful in rebuilding a healthy core for our guild, but even more people than who I was expecting showed up to that guild event, and it made me really happy!

The goal for our recruitment is to get our activity back to what it was around 2008~2012. I don’t want to be as big as we were around 2014~2015 ever again, my anxiety still hasn’t recovered enough for that. But I’ve been feeling really nostalgic as we started playing Vindictus and Minecraft again in addition to getting back to Mabinogi. We’re also playing a Dungeons & Dragons campaign again, too! (and looking into starting a 2nd cmapaign when we get more new members) It’s really feeling like old times again, and I’m so glad that we’re rebuilding like this! 💖

For my own character, I’ve made a lot of progress after 2 master plan events!! I mastered 5 talents in 2020, got all my pets and partners to level 200, got a ton of levels for myself as well, actually started making progress on my spirit weapons, completed my Languhiris Chaser armor set, got 4 level 30 echostones, made the celtic howling chains, I now have 5 step 6 weapons, and I used the generation booster event to not only get caught up on gens, but I also got 2 level 30 erg weapons (with the help of my husbando and his alts lel). Sorry for the flex but I’m just really happy with my progress! I’m not completely useless in end game content anymore!! I’m still not good enough to DPS in the newest stuff, but I’m not a squishy mess that’s dying right and left anymore!!

For the next few months until 2021′s summer master plan starts, my goals now are to focus on my crusader subskills (getting all of them to level 15), to get my crusader level high enough to have 2 crusader skills with max points distributed into subskills at the same time, to work on grandmastering all the talents I have at master, to actually train my squires, and to turn all of my pets (that haven’t been sacrificed) into Fynn pets! 🎉

It’s really nice to actually be playing this game again, instead of only doing events for prizes and not much else. Focusing on all of this is helping me cope with where my mental health has been with the pandemic happening. It’s been a big struggle for me. I haven’t had the energy to really put time into things that are productive for me in the real world. But my online friends have kept me social, and setting goals for my character has given me something to look forward to every day, even though I rarely leave the house. It’s something that feels productive for me, and I’m able to still work towards these goals even when I’m having depressive lows.

But now I’m just being too mushy oop

So~ getting back to updates about the guild!  The old guild website ( https://capumagu.webs.com/ ) is still not being maintained at this moment in time. Webs has been increasing the price of its service plans more and more every year (heck, I joined the site when it was still called freewebs.com, but they changed the name for obvious reasons). The site was free when I first made it. Then I started paying maybe $40 a year. Then they bumped it up to $60 a year, which was annoying but still do-able. Then it got bumped up to $80 a year for the same basic service, and that’s when I decided to stop paying for a website.

We don’t really need a website anymore, anyways. The days of only having a skype group are over. We have facebook, twitter, and youtube, and we have a nicely organized Discord server that ties everything together, which was what the website’s purpose was. So, there’s really no reason to keep paying for that. If I can figure out how to downgrade my account to a free website, then maybe it’ll come back, but that’ll probably take a lot of days just sitting through crappy customer service with employees that’ll try to convince me to just start paying for a site again. So for the time being, the Capulet Maguhzine is down.

I would like to get back to posting on our guild’s facebook and youtube again. This whole time I’ve been inactive, I’ve still recorded vids and taken pictures of the guild events we’ve had, but I just haven’t edited and posted them yet. So when I finally do start posting again it’s going to be a nostalgia trip. ♡ That’s a goal I’d like to set for myself once COVID is over. Once I’ve been able to recover my physical and mental health, I’ll hopefully be able to feel creative more often again. I’ve never made super great quality content, but I do put love & effort into these posts, and I need to be in a good mental space to do that.

I don’t really have much else to say. I guess I can link the guild’s social media. If anyone’s bothered to read this far, you might want it, maybe? Though, if no one reads this I don’t mind. It just feels good to post blarbs. It’s good for my sanity. 😂

https://www.facebook.com/capuletguild https://twitter.com/capuletguild https://www.youtube.com/user/TheCapuletGuild

[overwatch-imagines-hub]

New follower here! :D I love your work! As for a request? I was wondering how Zenyatta, McCree, Reaper, Soldier, and Mercy would be with an artist s/o. They're super shy and don't show off their work often but one day s/o decides to show their partner a drawing they did of them? I hope you have a lovely day/night~!

This is me if anyone wants to date

I’m also pretty sure I’ve done a piece like this in the past? If I find it (probably on my Wattpad because that’s easier to maneuver than Tumblr), I’ll link it!

Sorry for the long wait; school and all. Welcome to the blog (sorry again for the inactivity

Like what I do? Leave me a tip!

~~~

Zenyatta

You drew him while he was working in the sanctuary

It’s a picture from your perspective at one of the smaller of the mismatched dining tables

Zen is helping a group of children gather plates of food, either to eat themselves or to carry back to their families

It takes you a while to decide that you’re going to show him the piece, being shy about your work and all

After a long day of work, Zenyatta comes to you with the notion that he sometimes feels like he’s not doing enough

Even some days the brightest light can dim sometimes and Zenyatta is no exception

It’s then that you decide to buck up and show him your work, hoping to prove to him that his notion is wrong

You don’t expect a whole lot in response but are quickly proven wrong

Zenyatta is touched to point where, if he was human, he’d probably tear up

Not only by the meaning of you showing him but by the fact that you care enough about him to show him your work despite your shyness

He’s also greatly impressed by your work, and tells you so

He wants to keep the piece as a keepsake, to remind him that his work matters even during darker days

If you let him take it, he keeps it pinned to his room’s wall, above his personal indoor meditation area

Traveling, he packs the piece up and carries it as a keepsake

McCree

The piece you drew was of Jesse cleaning his Peacekeeper after getting home from a long mission

It was just a soft, quiet moment and the lighting was great; you couldn’t help yourself

He probably noticed you drawing him not long after you started, resulting in him flashing crooked smiles and locking eyes with you whenever you looked over at him

He also probably finished cleaning his gun before you were done drawing but made the executive decision to keep pretending do so, so you didn’t lose your muse

When you’re pleased with the finished product, you relax

Only to see your gentle cowman trying to peek over despite being on the far side of the room

Of course, he always respects your wishes and never presses if you choose not to show your work

That doesn’t mean, however, he won’t give you puppy eyes every time to try and convince you to do so

This time, you just so happen to be in a good enough mood to not mind, not to mention he’s been practically watching you the entire time when not trying to be your muse

When you get up to show him, he’s very excited

He’s your biggest fan, regardless of how often he gets to see your work

He just loves experiencing what makes you happy with you

Loses his damn mind when he sees the work you did

Genuinely impressed with and excited about your work

He’s just Like That

Wants to hang it somewhere in the house if you’re alright with it

Will definitely try to keep it whether you want him to or not

If you try to take it from him, it will probably result in a wild goose chase around the house

Even if you manage to get it back from him, the next day it will probably end up framed in the living room

Reaper

The piece is of Reaper working in his office late at night

He’s still wearing his uniform and hard at work doing paperwork

You’re tired, bored, and, unless you have a tablet or sketchbook on you, are probably doodling said piece on a napkin or the back of scratch paper

You’re sharing his desk and kinda sleepy, so Gabe’s able to catch a glance of what you’re on occasion

During this time, Gabe has probably suggested once or twice you going home instead of staying up until ungodly hours with him, to no avail

Your sleepiness is what gives you the courage to show him your art

Which he is in awe of, but also flustered by

There’s a very clear sentiment to your work, with the fact that you decided to draw him at all and even decided to show him

Considers better than any photo that has been taken of him, especially in his Reaper uniform

He asks if he can keep it, and if you, in your sleep-induced haze, allow him to, he keeps the original piece hidden away in his desk for when he’s having a day that’s rougher than usual

Lowkey wants to pay you for your efforts and thinks it’s not fair that he gets to have your work without you getting anything in return

But that’s something he’ll talk with you about when you’re not half-asleep

If you let him, Gabe will make a blown up copy of it and use it as his official Talon image

Soldier 76

You thought it would be funny to draw the grumpy, hardworking man in a cute, cartoon-y style

In the image, Jack’s in his uniform and poised to fire at an enemy off the page, very serious despite his current cute stature

You think the finished product is amusing enough to show him

You just kind of track him down, push your piece into his face, and ask him what he thinks

Of course, he loves your art and as someone who doesn’t draw immensely well unless it’s battle plans, he’s impressed

However

“Why is my head so large and why are my arms and legs so tiny?”

When you tell him you thought it’d be fun to draw his grumpy self in a contrasting cute state, a teasing argument breaks out on whether or not he’s actually that grumpy

Mister Soldier “I’m not grumpy; everyone’s just stupid” (AKA “I’m an old man” 76 everybody

Once that settles, he asks if you’re giving it to him or not

If so, he’ll take it and keep it on his at-home office desk

If you prefer to keep it, he tells you that’s fine, compliments your work, and then gives you a smooch on the forehead

If neither of you are busy, you’ll probably hang out and snuggle for a bit too, until Jack’s inevitable workaholic tendencies creep up

Then it’s time to do everything in your power to convince him not to do the thing and stay for more cuddles instead

Mercy

You drew her while the two of you were lounging around on one of her few days off

She’s curled up in the cozy armchair next to the couch, wrapped in a blanket and wearing comfy clothes that she doesn’t usually get to wear

Reading one book from the several stacks of miscellaneous reading materials that sit on almost every flat surface in her humble home

If she wasn’t a literal goddess, you’d probably consider her a goblin among her hoard

Although, a dragon would make sense too

Yes, and dragons are prettier too

Angela’s definitely a beautiful, intimidating, take-no-shit, dragon with a book-hoarding problem

After your weird self-debate, you chuckle and make a mental note to draw your girlfriend as a dragon at some point

Your little giggle catches said girlfriend’s attention and she gives you a questioning quirked-brow and small smile look over the brim of her book’s cover

It’s a quiet moment and neither of you really want to break the silence fully, so you just smile back and shake your head a bit before turning your piece to give her a quick peak

To which Angela’s response is to break the silence and tell you that it’s gorgeous

She also adds that you were probably weren’t laughing at that, then asks if she can see the piece properly

You hand it to her after she saves her place in her book

You get to watch her marvel at it a bit, gently running her fingers over the lines, before telling her about your dragon idea

Angela cackles and warns that you better make her a pretty dragon, to which you promise you will

She mentions that she’d love to see that piece when you’re done as well

Now it’s up to you to chase your shyness away for long enough to show her

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[daredreemer]

Long Time No See

Somehow I found myself venturing back to my blog here, at tumblr. It feels forever and day since I last visited this site. I don’t really know what is going on here anymore, or who is still around. I’m not even sure if I am officially coming back, or if anyone is still interested in me returning, but this blog is full of a lot of memories. Some good. Some bad. Some I wish I could erase from history.

So here is the deal. I’m seriously contemplating starting my blog up, but that of course will come with some major changes. I am no longer apart of any anime fandoms. I actually had to take a major step back from anime and therefore will no longer be active in that community. Which means no more RPs from this point on, for example. I also don’t have the time. 

I currently have retired from the cosplay community as well. While I still attend a couple of anime conventions each year, I decided that cosplay was not my thing. At least for now. 

The cosplay community and anime communities I was so deeply ingrained... well were too volatile and toxic. 

Instead, I returned to my true passion and first love... music. 

You see, two years ago I fell into a great depression. Cutting toxic people out of my life and then having something that meant so much to me ripped from me... I went into a dark place in my mind. Eventually, I rediscovered my passion for music, Kpop in this case, and climbed out of the dark place I was drowning in. Since then I haven’t looked back. 

So this blog is probably going to be more music inclined, kpop to be exact, so I don’t expect, or ask anyone, to stick around who doesn’t want to be. Nor will I be insulted if you unfollow me. I’ve already began to tinker around with my settings and unfollow, inactive blogs. I’m really unsure how I want to proceed, but I don’t want to get so swept up in this site again, that I start having anxiety attacks again.

Yes. That use to happen quite frequently, actually.

I just want to use this site like I originally intended to use it. A blog. A scrapbook. So I intend to revamp and organize it here and there when I am free. I may not be on here daily either. I just can’t. I’m very active on twitter though. It’s much easier for me to keep up with than this site. 

I just need simplicity right now.

I hope those of you who read this post, or are still following me after so long, are well. Thank you for all the interesting memories. I look forward to hopefully make more.

Until then, take care.

-Dare

#Dares Messages #May 2020

[the-bts-archive]

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[naughtynutboy]

heyy yall mind if i just pop in here to vent/ask for advice (?) for a sec?

im not gonna get too personal or tmi cause this is a very out of the blue post and i have a feeling a majority of people would not appreciate me Going Off about my personal issues out of nowhere on a basically-inactive-at-this-point sanders sides blog (that inactive part was a joke, im still vibin here im just extremely demotivated to do shit sorry)

buuut on the off chance someone does feel like listening to the Full Story with all the Nitty Gritty Details and can potentially offer advice/just talk abt their own experience tbh, pls dm me and we can talk in private :))

anyway, so uhh i've been seriously questioning over the past week or so if i might be aromantic and it is beginning to upset me because i so badly Do Not Want To Be That

for the record, i have nothing against aro or ace people, but my whole life i've fantasized about being in love and in a relationship and having a girlfriend and a wife and kids in the future and i've consumed and created countless romantic stories with characters that i've connected with so deeply and now that i think about my past experiences with romance more, it feels like the carpet is being pulled out from under me and that i'll never be able to experience the thing i've wanted for basically my whole life

i'm not going to be officially labeling myself or anything yet because this is a relatively new breakthrough i guess and for all i know i might turn out to not be aromantic, but when i think about it, all my past ""crushes"" have felt super hollow and almost like i called them crushes because i felt like i had to?? like i said i had a crush on one of my ex girlfriends (after we got in the relationship, by the way) but i'm not entirely sure i ever really liked her in that way?? i mean i cared about her health and happiness, but not in a romantic context it was more just like a friend would care for their fellow friend's health and happiness.

but at the same time i want to be loved so bad?? like it feels like i am incapable of reciprocating romantic feelings for someone else but i have no problem with them feeling that way about me?

idk. there's so much more i could and want to get into (like how i've never really changed the way i act towards a person in romantic relationships compared to friendships in the past, how i literally cant think of examples of a "romantic situation" to imagine myself in while questioning right now, etc) but i'll leave it here cause, again, i dont want to get too into it on a random public post. if i actually am aromantic, i dont know how to feel about it. i dont know if this is a common experience. i know i have communication issues and issues with being vulnerable and honest so maybe i'm just really bad at expressing the romantic feelings that i have, or if i just straight up dont have any romantic feelings ever so that's why it's difficult to express them.

im going to throw this under the aromantic tag and ask for some advice coming from aro people themselves. i would really like to know if anyone has had a similar experience to mine, or just general coming out as aro stories. also anyone pointing me to some further information about being aromantic would be appreciated as well

thank you for reading this <3

#aromantic #m wont shut up #man im goin thru it #aro awareness week really Did That #sorry @ all the people who followed for cute sanders sides art n r now just getting me Bitchin On Main #except this isnt even my main but it may as well be

[hazuknagisa]

tl;dr: i’m nostalgic. i legitimately miss this website and i want to try using this blog again. thanks for staying with me after so long.

—

i have been thinking a lot lately about the past. i don’t know why. i don’t know what really caused it either. but i keep thinking back to like 2013-2014 when i was Probably most active (on here).

i don’t think i’ve ever talked about this on here/publicly at all, but i love this blog so much. the immense amount of time i spent on here in 2013ish to post about anime, in particular snk and free, was indescribably meaningful and brought me a lot of joy. i made so many new friends who shared those interests at the time and i’m still friends with some of them to this day.

that’s what i’ve been thinking about, mostly. it feels foolish to hold 2013/14 tumblr of all things so close to my heart, but my time here back then was genuinely very fulfilling and honestly one of the only things that kept me going at the time. it made me really happy.

i’ve been almost entirely inactive on this website since ~2016 but i don’t ever want to abandon it completely. i don’t plan to delete this blog for as long as i live because it holds way too many fond memories, no matter how much of it might cause me secondhand embarrassment :’)

if anything i want to start using this blog properly again, because i’m getting back in to anime for the first time in years. i saw promare in theaters last year which was one thing that made me miss this, and lately i’ve been trying to pick things back up that i never finished watching, which has only added to my nostalgia. there’s a lot of really great shows out there nowadays and i’m excited to try watching things again and using this blog again.

it’s not like i’ll have the same experience i had years ago, and more than likely i’ll continue Being Depressed and not posting, but i honestly do miss being on here. i always worked hard to maintain this blog and i think i’d break my own heart if i ever decided to officially stop altogether.

i doubt there’s anyone left here who remembers me, so this post probably isn’t going to mean anything to anyone. i wouldn’t be surprised if no one reads it at all. almost everyone i follow(ed) has deactivated or become inactive or otherwise left over the years.. i think there’s roughly 60 people i follow who have posted at least once in the past month. my dash isn’t remotely close to what it used to be.

but i’ll do my best.

there’s a lot more i could say on this subject—i really have been thinking a great deal so i have a lot of feelings and thoughts i could express lmao. but this is long-winded enough already so i’m going to stop here. i also One Hundred Percent do feel foolish for making this post in the first place and being all sentimental but i digress..

thanks for sticking with me for all this time. i’ll try to keep going if i can.

#stophope2k20 #all that being said i'm trying to find active blogs to follow! #especially anime-centric ones. so if ur here b/c i followed u Hello #Please Excuse The Mess this blog has been gathering dust for some time