#and both are sober and want this!

[wanderlust-in-my-soul]

Are you sure?

#be my favorite #be my favorite the series #be my favorite ep 10 #pisaengkawi #kawi x pisaeng #krist perawat #fluke gawin #gawin caskey #gawinkrist #the consent! 🤌 #and both are sober and want this! #I am totally normal about this! #thai bl #tha series #thai drama #bl drama #bl series #asianlgbtqdrama #myedit

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

This isn't what it looks like.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #wen ning #jin ling #lan jingyi #lan sizhui #ouyang zizhen #nameless red disciple #Yes this is supposed to parallel the last boy patting tournament. #Drunkji 2.0 has arrived and he is *not* pleased with this turn of events. #I'm just so glad we have wen ning (baby boy) back. To bad he's about to lose his opportunity for pets #WWX has two hands!!! LWJ just wants Both. #and listen. Both of them are massive perpetrators for hating the fact that they want things. #Adult Wangxian is about having the maturity to communicate with your partner and know your own wants and needs #teenxian would never work out because they would self-identify as 'low maintence partners' and then fail to communicate anything. #Love and peace to the teenxian lovers but if they actually dated in that era it would last a *month* at best. #Drunkji makes me a little sad because we want him to be that honest *sober* but he will get there. He will get there.... #Normally I would skip a day and not post if I was this late but I'm feeling whimsical #I had a blast with this one! Having fun with the layout was...well...fun!

[justarandomhelluvablog]

having thoughts about how Husk actually has very little left to redeem bc he started his journey of self-change before even coming to work at the hotel, but at the same time redemption isn't even his goal- he ain't even aiming for heaven, he just wanted to be a better person and maybe now with friends and especially Angel, who he supports so much and wants to see succeed, maybe now he has a reason to be a better person

#hazbin hotel #husk #warning I am about to ramble in these tags O7 I have a ridiculous amount of thoughts about this cat bird man #thinking about that word of god from vivzie that Husk is actively fighting his gambling addiction in hell #which besides the pilot we've only seen his gambling mentioned in the past #and idk if it's just because they had to focus on other things but we don't see him drinking as heavily as he did in the pilot #and first few episodes. like he actually wants to be sober #we know he used to be an overlord and we assume that comes with all the terrible overlord qualities #(aka there's no such thing as a good slave owner) #but the Husk we know now has been on both sides of this chain #he knows and respects boundaries. consent is super important to him. this feels like a moral you can't really have to be an overlord #he also sees everyone as more than just what they can do for him specifically. he gets NOTHING out of being Angel's friend #he gets NOTHING out of defending Angel and Cherri during the fight with the Exorcists #he knows when to open up and who to open up to and trust. and he extends a hand to someone in need. someone he ain't even close to- #and if it hasn't changed he is trying to beat his own vices despite not even being a guest of the hotel. he's staff. he doesn't HAVE to #participate in their activities or try to change. he was dragged into this #but dammit he does it anyway #(also if he is still trying to beat his gambling addiction I wonder if the pilot was a relapse. hm) #anyway ig what im trying to say is husk isn't a guest at the hotel but plays the role of a guide for the guests bc he's already #got a very strong and *GOOD* set of morals considering they're in hell #like his level of morals we've only seen /explicitly/ shown in hellborn. and yeah consent and boundaries is rock bottom even for Earth #but they're in hell so somehow the bar manages to be even fucking lower than that so I consider it a win #ALSO THE FACT THAT HE STOOD BETWEEN ANGEL & CHERRI AND THE EXORCISTS??? this mf is willing to DIE for these people #I am 100% sure that if Husk's soul didn't belong to Alastor he would already be redeemed #we don't know what he did in life and we don't know how bad he was as an overlord but we know who husk is /now/ #and that person is a pretty damn good guy #he might have some work to do sure but he's already at least started his redemption before the show even began and #we're just seeing the tail end of it #god damn I really rambled in these tags i am so sorry #I just have so many thoughts about him

[pettyprocrastination]

there is no more sobering experience on earth than having an interaction with your mother and realize as she looks at her daughter she sees a mirror and desperately wishes to be able to change it all.

#tj talks #tears running down my face as my mother softly tells me 'i just don't want you to go down the same road I did' #sobered me up more than any other interaction in the past few months i tell you my friends #something about that quote that's like 'be kind to your mother. its her first time on earth too.' yeah man #what a fucking wakeup call that was goddamn #the quiet tension after an arguement when words are said in the heat of the moment that hurt you both but you know shes loving you as deepl #as she can she's just so scared her babygirl will end up in a dark place like she was.yeah

[pyramidofmice]

Sally's apology to John really struck me as a raw, meaningful parent-to-child apology. She didn't dumb anything down, she didn't lie to soften anything, she claimed all of her actions... he was so young, and Sally reacted to his age not by talking down to him, but by finding a way to describe the whole truth so he could understand

Most importantly I think is how she kept saying that John is a good person. Like...she thought she was about to die. And she didn't spend that time asking John for forgiveness or to remember her in a good light. She dedicated her words to making John feel loved. She spent that precious time giving him something to make sense of it all, to heal somewhere down the line even when she's not there

#HHHHHHUHHHHHHHHHH #i know that Sally & John's interactions at the college indicate a bunch of fucked-up-edness #ie him saying 'i love you' & her not hearing it. her asking him for reassurance #but i see the apology scene & her concern for him after the shooting #as evidence that she's going to give him SOMETHING good as his mother. #call me what u want but i have faith in them. #She's not perfect and they've got SOOOO much shit to live with. the both of them. #but amongst all of her motivations there is a genuine desire to see her son safe & happy #and i'm crossing my heart & hoping to die that -- now that Barry's not there -- that love for John comes through. and that he feels it. #the fact that they had an easy conversation outsite the theater; there was no indication Sally is using substances; John is sober; #and that John has friends.... I'm choosing to take these as indicators that -- despite the genuine problems that Are there -- #John & Sally are reasonably healthy and so is their relationship. #oh god. this show. takes a fucking Lot out of me #barry hbo #sally reed #john berkman #barry finale #barry meta #pyra speaks

[storm-of-feathers]

damn why did i stop being an alcoholic being drunk rules actually i dont feel a single OUNCE of my burdens. i just feel the wine. and its pink.

#this post is mostly a joke OBVIOUSLY i dont wanrt to be a True Alcoholic again #ive been sober #(in the definition that i dont consider myself addicted - not in the definition of complete abstinence) #since 2018. and its been very good for me obviously #but damn i gotta remember that alcohol exists and i have some if i ever truly need to unwind #bc like. yk. i have a lot of trouble unwinding #i used to have this uhh #one of my grandmothers brothers. idk the word. #he always said that the world was so bright and loud and sharp. except for when he drank. #dgmw. i do think autism runs on my dads side #(and thats cool!! bc it proves autism isnt just a white thing!!!!! something thats unfortunately a popular belief :/) #but i think there was def a genetic susceptibility to it on my moms side too #like ofc i was going to be autistic!! look at my family!!! #which is interesting bc as far as anyone can tell my only biological sibling isnt autistic #i have two Additional siblings but thats a longer story. but i love them both just as much as my biological sib #i love having lots of siblings by choice #so many of my younger friends have said im like an older brother they need #and i love that tbh. i love that i get to be something i desperately needed when i was a terrified teenager #n e ways. if u read this far thank you its just wine drunk ramblings. #WHO want to run in the forest naked with me

[charliespringverse]

... it's just hit me that lister describes the bathroom kiss as assault and even when jimmy reassures him that he doesn't see it that way and doesn't have a problem with it, lister refuses to accept that it was anything other than objectively assault

while two days earlier jimmy insisted that a 32-yr-old having sex with lister at age 16 was wrong, despite lister not seeing it that way and not having a problem with it

does that mean that lister took that conversation on board but only as far as "the person on the receiving end of an advance can't accurately assess whether or not it was wrong" and is now equating himself to the woman that took advantage of him . because i will weep

#i am conflicted about the bathroom kiss to an extent #because on the one hand . do not kiss someone without asking dude wtf #but also . the difference in jimmy's response to it compared to the magnet situation which is? relatively similar #w magnet he was 'this is fine'ing his whole way through it and forcing himself to be ok with it and would've likely kept going if— #— lister hadn't interrupted it #whereas in the bathroom he is in an objectively worse mental state & more consistently dissociative despite being sober . yet he actively— #— considers it and almost goes along with it before deciding for Both his and lister's sakes not to #and i think his clarity & consideration there as well as the fact he felt Safe to pull away is meaningful to an extent #because it's one of the only situations this week where he's actually felt & acted on a sense of control over what happens to him #+ lister's immediate reaction being to back off and recognise his being at fault and never once holding it against jimmy #like again . should not have happened do not kiss ppl without asking #but i do find myself viewing it in a very different light to the v comparable magnet situation #anygay i am rambling in tags again when i should be asleep but still #i worry that lister is now viewing himself in the same light as jimmy views the ppl that took advantage of lister #but i Also worry that he is viewing himself as Worse than those ppl bc he can't/won't accept that he was taken advantage of #i do also now kind of want to write a Lister In Therapy oneshot partly just for the catharsis of imagining that boy getting some gd therapy #iwbftreread

[fortheloveofdeaddove]

I'm in a lot of emotional turmoil today and the coping technique I'm going to go with is horniness and orgasms.

This is not a flirty post. It's an extremely volatile and depressed one.

#*takes swig ironically from my water bottle because I'm fucking trying to stay sober* #one never wants this shit #i can hear my therapist saying it's a learning opportunity as I wallow here #i'm so fucking sick of learning opportunities that are really just emotional and interpersonal turmoil #there's a reason i stay in my god damn box #what the utter fuck is wrong with me #i can't trust myself and i swear the next psychobabble asshole that tells me i can should be held PERSONALLY RESPONSIBLE FOR THE DAMAGE I D #you know that saying there's not room enough for both of us in this town #but its just me #there isn't room enough in this town for me and my bullshit

[boyjoan]

wow!

#difficult night. beautiful night. lots to think abt <3 #but now it is time. #for #partridge family breakfast!! #im at the Train Station it is 9 am. #but at the hotel. i had a MUFFIN it was so SICKLY but it was actually exactly what i needed #i spent the night stone cold sober but i feel so hungover. must be the lack of sleep. anyway. the muffin was a godsend #pure beautiful vanilla with white chocolate......sweet and slightly tart #thank you for coming to breakfast!! i love you i want us both to eat well <3

[xjix]

been thinking about the midnight gospel again lately

#it’s seriously such an important series to me #having watched it both while tripping on acid and sober #like mannnnn it’s such good commentary #i want to rewatch it again #i just don’t know if i want to be on something or not #clancy is just a fucked up little guy #I don’t understand the celebration so here have some whales

[lupismaris]

With every ounce of my soul I love queer men

#closed out the bar completely sober with my rugby president and vp just talking about all the shit that's frustrating us with the club #myself and my squad in particular and the amount of love and support and visibility ive been given #im not insane im not crazy im on point with my intuition #and ive been given very good advice on my own actions going forward and how to guide the team #and ultimately given permission to let go and be selfish #which... no one else has given me. no one. jm looked me dead in the eye and asked what i wanted. what makes me whole. #because thats what matters. what allows me to play on one hand. and what makes me whole on the other. #and gave me the permission i suppose i needed to pursue both simultaneously rather than suffering in silence for the squad #this is the support i joined for. the looking after I joined for. #i may be a big brother but i need care too.

[murobrown]

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#let me vent here real quick #bachelorette/bachelor parties are one of the most stupid concepts we ever created #it's disgusting and humiliating to me #if I'd have a person who loves me enough that they decide that they want to spend the rest of their life with me it's like an ultimate win #i mean what more do you want to achieve in life? isn't that like a main goal? #I don't even mean marriage that's useless but just that safe warm loving feeling #and then you gather all your friends and you're going to look at it as game over????? #so anyway I should attempt a stupid bachelorette party this weekend and it's useless and incredibly expensive #and it's full of activities that are totally outside of my comfort zone like drinking and dancing and being half naked in a spa #and you have to wear some dumb accessories so that you also humiliate yourself in front of everyone #and first I thought will be able to handle it but yesterday I panicked and asked if I can be excused from all those activities #and people don't understand that my concept of fun is different from theirs #and i don't mean this in any negative way towards those people #it's just different for me and I'd love you to understand that #but... it's also not nice from me to ditch them last minute and let down my friend that's getting married #but yesterday I just had this moment when I thought fuck no I'm going to think about myself for once and it's just not right #because then you make people upset... #the actual wedding is another thing I dread...it will be an actual nightmare and there's no way I will ever escape it #so yeah I'm just full of emotions and I don't know what's the right thing to do and how to keep others happy and myself calm #at least last night I dreamt about Jake Bugg hugging me and if that's not the sign I'm going spend the rest of my life with that man... #i also decided to survive both of those events sober just to make it more challenging for myself #alcohol has way too many calories and i just want stay in control of my brain #i will see if the only three friends i have will resent me after this #i needed to sort my thoughts here even though I know ot doesn't look like so #i hope that you all are having a wonderful day and doing fantastic ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[katyspersonal]

#personal #current mood #those situations when you just /have/ to put up boundaries because your 'forgiving' and 'caring' only makes things worse for you both #i hate how much you can care about someone (or it can be mutual) but you just absolutely do not mix #and there are just so many things wrong #i hate hurting people i care about for the sake of 'lesser evil' #like how i needed to work on falling out of love because my jealousy and being told very unflattering things for why i could not- #-be loved back were making me toxic and unpleasant and kinda useless as a listener about /their/ crushes #only for them to feel crashed and abandoned because 'even you gave up on me' #i am absolute trash at 'tough love' stuff and being reasonable #but every other time being uncontrollably forgiving and loving causes more wrong than right #stuff like this #what if i don't want to put up boundaries? what if i don't want to be sober about where unhealthy bonds are leading me? #but i have to because in the end i am not even actually helping but only make things worse #by putting myself in conditions where i become toxic from mistreatment #and by keeping this person in conditions where they don't have to look for other sources of support and friends #but me being the sole person to rely on makes me strain under pressure and become unlikeable #which makes me either snap or distance for my own health and that hurts THAT person more #only i am a sucker enough to make things worse no matter what course of actions i choose #i mean of course there will be people in everyone's life who will regret having even met me #but this is just painful for so many reasons #it is not as simple as 'if they get upset that you put on boundaries they are not your friend' #some things people legit can't fix and i know that very well from experience #but there is 'managing' and there is 'nourishing unhealthy habits' #i can do the latter by literally just standing there (menacingly) #recently i've been thinking about how i just make everything i touch more crazy painful and chaotic (just like in my earlier dream) #and stuff like this is just another evidence of that.. #when i analyse situations that could be passed as me making someone's life better i- #-start to realise that what i did do was just making things crazy and another person simply taking it well hahah #i am certainly some sort of alien. just like that person

[tea-time-terrier]

i showed my wife one (1) video of pichael and shes obsessed with her now

Thank you!! She's a fun little creature. Here's her and one of her nemesi (woodpeckers).

#this was both the closest woodpecker we have encountered and the chillest she has been #also sorry I took forever to respond bc I innitially read it very not sober and I didn't want to be weird #but then forgot #I think Pichael is a very amusing little creature and I appreciate when others think so #even if you aren't into terriers #turnpike #ask

[badolmen]

Favorite character dynamic is 30+ year old badass who has serious beef with a kid that weighs 90lbs soaking wet.

#ra speaks #personal #character dynamics #not romantic this full ass adult wants to punt this 12 yo kid across the room #best if the feeling is mutual. kid is a dick and the adult is an asshole. equal parts insane dynamic. #yes it’s about blorbo from my shows <3 #she’s too sober for this shit #I want to throw her in a McDonald’s play scape and see if she establishes dominance or gets stuck in the net #sevika out here triggering a psychotic breakdown for her boss’ kid. partially bc said kid accidentally vaporized her arm 6 years ago. #like GIRL WTF there is something so so wrong with BOTH of you #I want to study you like radioactive canabalistic zombie ants <3

[fog-kid]

anyway, here's modern music the marauders would've liked

sirius: Arctic Monkeys, Doja Cat, The Strokes, Hozier, Chase Atlantic

james: Harry Styles, Clairo, Wallows, Post Malone, boy pablo

remus: Frank Ocean, Phoebe Bridgers, Arcade Fire, Car Seat Headrest, Vampire Weekend

peter: 100 gecs (idk why he just would), Rihanna, Declan McKenna, Tyler the creator, Mac Miller

#fun fact im really drunk and hid in a bathroom to write this because i don't want to forget it #but it just makes sense so sober me will get it #marauders #remus lupin #sirius black #james potter #peter pettigrew #modern marauders #oh also sirius would've had “bad habit” playing on repeat for weeks #and james likes weezer #aaand peter and remus both had a mcr phase and bond over it