#and its exhausting for me

[jellyfishjunkie]

very sad 90% (not all) of my relationships (friendship and otherwise) is reliant on just me making the first moves, whether it be texting first or even starting and maintaining conversations when we r in person. it's kinda so depressing and exhausting.

#hush jelly #vent #idk is it too much to wanna feel wanted #and if i mention it change only happens for a short time #then it just goes back to the way it was #n people always say they just dont want to feel rejected #and its like.... #someone isnt always gna wanna talk to u/hnag out etc. #but why should that stop u from trying #idk??? like i know people dont always wanna talk!!!! i still reach out #i still send them silly posts #i still text to check up #or talk to try and start conversation #its not always gna work #and what #just cause i didnt feel like talking once #suddenly youll never intiate again #suddenly its just not worth the effort to reach out and recieve nothing ? #like do u even really care if u dont at least try? #i still check up on people i havent heard from in months #i know its hard sometimes to respond to people #but its always worth the effort for someone u care about #and is it really so much to ask that they extend you the same courtesy #i can think of only two people in my life who do this for me excluding family #thats depressing #and its exhausting for me #my own partner wont text me first #like girl.... #i knoe u wanna talk to me #you have said it before

[cali]

thank you tipsilon you will keep us warm

#art #its 2am now and i sat on this from early in the morning with interruptions though #i made myself a perfect drawing day though perfectly configured #and the mental facilities boost from drawing + coffee always gets me in hyper mood and it makes me make more tumblr posts #this is in the style of the one with the rocket launch site and the splitheaded witches again #the other cave painting looking one #i was thinking about winter so hard it was exhausting now its kind of released a little bit

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Sally is the real neighborhood Rizzler... you all know i'm right...

#she knew what she was doingggggg #she Knew!!!! #'youre going to make me blush' yes poppy i think that was her intention <3 #popstar is A tier ship you cant convince me otherwise #fuck now im tempted to make a For Fun ship tier list.... no im not. the exhaustion is just making me insane #popstar is theeeeeee lesbian pairing tho #fingers crossed im onto something with them #cmon cmon i love being right #i love clocking relationships before they happen its my fav hobby when watching/reading stuff #i know im delusional with laughingstock but Popstar? i! am! so! correct! #probably. maybe. if im Wrong... dont light your torches im just a lil guy #scribble garnish #welcome home #wh popstar #sally starlet #poppy partridge #THAT TABLE SHOT MY WIFE AND ATE MY LEFTOVERS #i rarely scribble objects and the like and its For A Reason #it was fun for like... ten seconds and then it got tedious but i was Committed #although. i will admit. #scribbling the misc items was nice. love me some Stuff and Things

[fellowfights]

I'm gonna be so honest with y'all. I don't take you seriously if you complain about the casting of the Percy Jackson show because the poc actors aren't "book accurate."

Because here's the deal. I remember when the internet threw a fit when Rue, a black character, was played by a black person. It didn't matter that it was book accurate, y'all didn't want to see a black person on screen.

For some of y'all, it's not that you are against adaptations straying from the source material- you are simply anti black.

If you are about to argue with me, I want you to ask yourself something. Did you not mind the race change of Grover, but you are against the casting of Annabeth? If that's true, maybe try to address that. Acknowledge it and try to deconstruct your anti-black biases.

#being black in fandom spaces is so tiring #i am utterly exhausted #yall complaining about how now annabeth wont have an arc of not being taken seriously is sending me #its TOTALLY not like black people aren't seen as smart or resourceful and constantly not being taken seriously #that would be RIDICULOUS #anyway im tired but i am enjoying the show so far #percy jackson and the olympians #percy jackon and the olympians #percy jackson #the hunger games

[ruporas]

can’t talk about it

[ID: Black and white comic of Vash and Wolfwood from Trigun Maximum. The comic starts with the sounds "thud, thud, click". Vash, mid-action of peeling an apple, turns to the sound, noticing who it was that entered, and says, "Oh, Wolfwood, you're back." He resumes back to his apple in the next panel as he speaks, "Where'd you go? You snuck out of bed quickly this morning..." Wolfwood's hand then enters the panel, hovering over Vash's cheek and Vash looks up as Wolfwood asks, "Can I?" Vash responds, "Not going to talk about it?" while using a hand to gently hold Wolfwood's hovering hand and presses a kiss to his inner palm.

Vash then gets up fully, setting down the knife down on the table and the apple onto a plate, He leans into Wolfwood as Wolfwood explains, "Had to meet someone. Nothing interesting to talk about." Vash kisses Wolfwood's left cheek and a hand moves to cup his other cheek while muttering, "You're being vague." Wolfwood says neutrally, "If yer really that curious, keep askin'. We  can talk about that instead of doing this." Vash leans back and responds, "Let's talk after, since... You look so tired."

The panel pans to a close up of Wolfwood's downcast eyes, bags heavy underneath his eyes. He doesn't allow Vash to sit in that moment for long though, then saying, "Yer not helping, Spikey. Being all slow with it... I could fall asleep right now." He moves his hand to start unclasping Vash's coat, starting from his collar. Vash with red cheeks, responds briskly, "Oh, shut up. I'm worried about you. I can't be worried?"

The final shot shows Wolfwood's back to the viewer while Vash's softened expression can be seen as he holds gently onto the side of Wolfwood's face and a hand firm on his waist. Wolfwood responds, "I'm fine, seriously," pausing for a moment before continuing, "Is it okay to still..?" Vash responds, "Yeah, it's okay."

The next image is a shot from later that night after the previous comic. Vash and Wolfwood are now in bed, half naked. Wolfwood's buries his face into Vash's chest, his arms wrapped around him, while Vash is petting at his hair. Vash reminds him, "Hey. You said we'd talk about it." Wolfwood pauses for a moment before piping up, "In the morning? I'm sleepy." Vash says, "Okay..."

The next two pages start from the morning after. Wolfwood is already fully awake, pulling on his outer jacket as he says to Vash, whos' still bundled in his blankets, "Breakfast is on the table. Make sure to eat it. I'm going to grab some things in town and then we're leavin'. Got it?" Vash says, "Mh." Wolfwood responds, "Good. See ya in a bit." The dialogue starts to shift into Vash's inner thoughts now, as he gets up and eats toast, thinking, "Wait. Weren't we supposed to... talk about it?" The next shot then shows him fully up, meeting Wolfwood in town. He carries a half worried expression with him while Wolfwood slides on his glasses for him. A quick panel shows Wolfwood's tired expression from the night before and quickly juxtaposes with Wolfwood in front of him who's smiling gently, the shades covering his eye bags. Wolfwood asks him, "Still not awake yet?" Vash pauses, his thoughts stirring, thinking, "Oh. I guess I was getting ahead of myself... thinking you owe me that kind of honesty." He smiles at Wolfwood and responds, "I'm awake!" His thoughts continue, "Maybe one day, you'd trust me enough to share your burdens."

The final image shows Wolfwood pulling at Vash's cheek and Vash complains, "Owwwww why..." Wolfwood quickly says, "You were thinking something stupid, right? It's all over yer face." Vash mutters, "Nooo, I wasn't..." END ID]

#vashwood #trigun #trigun maximum #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #Theyre both thoroughly exhausted tired individuals -- vash having to fight this lonely battle for over a hundred years and getting dragged #back into inevitable situation with knives after a 2 years hiatus of being a gunslinger. they both need so much Rest and comfort in this #department... .SIGHS. BUT I JUST THINK ABOUT WOLFWOOD . AND HOW... LITTLE He has existed on no man's land. how majority of his years being #alive is being used as a weapon and to kill when him at his very core is the most giving and selfless individual ever #badlands rumble inspired me a bit but i do think wolfwood gets dragged into occasional tasks from the eye of michael while on his duty of #guiding vash -- or i think that one chapter where we got to see other members of eom -- there's like a clear division within the eom too #i think.... so i figured similarly to vash but not to the same amount -- there are people that look for wolfwood too. but most of the time #it's probably wolfwood that has to look for someone else and take them out. i feel like it happens ever so occasionally. #evidentially these two don't talk enough canonically but they always know how to express things properly to affirm that they're okay #they have the worst time ever sharing burdens - can't willingly burden the other and has neeever asked for help or reprieve in their #desperate situations... vw is a huge case of right person wrong time syndrome so they just. in the time they get to spend together -- even #if romantically - they don't have enough time to heal to get over that kind of hurdle. They've just never asked for help in all the years #they've been alive -- they don't even know how to and its just aughhhsgskg #and well! they don't even need to ask! because they'll be there for each other anyway at the end of the day -- company and presence alone. #ruporas art

[wis-art]

Not a big fan of capitalism

#i do not want to charge people to see my art #i have a job on top of doing this little art blog #every time i show this little project of mine people tell me i better find a way to monetize it to make money off of this #its just very frustrating to constantly have to explain that i want people to just see and cherish my drawings #i dont want to be reliant on making art to make my money i think that'd not work with what im going for #and it would turn art into a deeply frustrating experience i try to constantly optimize to get the most amount of money from #rendering experiments and trying out new artstyles something that could legit put me out of eating food 👍 #but really #the job is not good for me i am always do exhausted #it really takes so much effort to draw sometimes

[bugbuoyx]

One manifestation of anti-transmasculinity I see again and again, primarily in discussions about the existence/denial of anti-transmasculinity is the treatment of transmascs in the same way cis men treat feminists as hysterical women and rad/feminists treat men as ignorant beasts. Of course these really just echo each other in that the other is deemed lesser but it's really in the wording.

You do not, can not ever understand misogyny, you are just ignorant sluts vieing for attention, what happened to you wasn't that bad, you're exaggerating, it was just a joke, it doesn't matter, you deserved it, you're being dramatic, who cares, who cares, who cares. Just shut up already.

#transandrophobia #transphobia #anti-transmasculinity #almost all of these examples have double meanings #its a joke echoes the obvious but it also echoes about rape jokes irt men such as the classic prison soap #or how the rape of men in general is treated as a joke/deserved #of course r/a/d feminism is fucking horribly pervasive throughout tumblr/the queer community its. exhausting #it makes me just want to stop and never talk to other queer folks again how did it get like this? #tldr stop and question why you think someones opinion *of their own experiences* are worth less than your opinion

[mischefous]

I had seen your "I have no mouth and I must scream" comic and thought it was fantastic. And then someone reblogged one of your recent whump requests, and it was amazing. And then I just started scrolling through your blog, and I love it.

If you're still taking requests, I would love some Legend whump! Magical exhaustion maybe, or if you're feeling it, stuck halfway in and out of his painting transformation

awwweee thank you @pokegeek151!

I went with Magical exhaustion hehe. I had the idea to give him a lil bit of a nosebleed. just like what happens to Eleven in 'Stranger Things'

and ohmahgosh that 'stuck halfway in/out of his painting form' is SUCH a good idea!!! unfortunately i have no idea how I would have drawn that XD. was almost imagining like- his top half is just hanging there stuck in the wall and the poor guy just fell asleep XD

anywaysss, i hope you enjoy!💙

CW! nosebleed

also yes I'm aware his bracelet isn't there. I tried to draw it on there but it just looked awkward

#i like adding a bit of dialogue #i reckon it gives it more life hehe #linked universe #linkeduniverse #my art #digital art #lu #lu fanart #lu whump #whump art #cw blood #cw nosebleed #cw whump #magical exhaustion #art requests #lu legend #legend lu #hero of legend #thank you pokegeek! #OH- i got me a shiny new pen! its so smooth #and i didnt even need to adjust to it first so thats great

[mxrisacoulter]

#let him rest

#mine* #bullet train #tangerine #aaron taylor johnson #filmedit #filmgif #userthing #usersource #useroptional #motionpicturesource #chewieblog #dailyflicks #im here drinking week old wine watching my little youtube videos giffing this mans face and its lovely #ive never seen people waiting for a digital release like this its beautiful #this almost hdm trailer and maybe no angels on spotify????? today has been quite the day for all my main fandoms #im exhausted #pls everyone request me bullet train shit also this is feeding my soul lol

[b0bs0ndugnutt]

Because the “shrodinger’s queerbait” nonsense will never go away, indulge me an analogy (and a long post).

wlw ships are the “made from scratch” cake in a world where we only ever expect cake mix from the box.

Say you have a show where, in the first interaction between a male and female character, there is a red box. It could be a Betty Crocker box of cake mix. Because all it takes is just one smile — one wink — one raised eyebrow— and the fans don’t question it. We’re clearly making a cake here. The box is red.

Meanwhile, you have two female characters building their own relationship that have elements that could build to romance. There are eggs in the fridge. A few more episodes, there’s flour in the pantry. Sugar. Baking powder. Queer fans start whispering…we could be making a cake here. Other fans scoff “you will read into anything. They’re just eggs! Everyone has eggs in their fridge!” Maybe so, maybe not. They are written off as discrete ingredients, nothing to see here.

That red box is still sitting in the pantry. Obviously we’re going with that one, and it’s definitely cake mix. That guy and girl stood next to each other again.

The wlw relationship is now full-on batter. It was a cake recipe all along, but it’s not baked yet. The crowd that wrote off every ingredient is now saying the writers are just going to “squander” that box that could be ready-made cake mix or that they’re being “forced” to bake a cake with the very ingredients the writers deliberately bought and put in their pantry.

Now it’s in the oven, the cake is baking. That crowd will still insist it’s forced, or maybe its actually something else, or it’s rushed, or it’s pandering. Whether the writers painstakingly built a pantry to make the cake they truly wanted or they were cultivating good ingredients and realized they had the fixings for a more decadent cake and went there, it doesn’t matter. It’s still a recipe. One that fans who always have to piece together ingredients had hoped for or saw from the get-go, despite being scoffed at and disparaged. Just because that crowd didn’t see (or refused to see) those ingredients as part of a whole, doesn’t make it any less of a recipe.

And wlw fans shouldn’t have to keep writing essays to demonstrate that the wlw “cake” has all the ingredients every cake mix does, or keep pointing out that fans were ready to believe a cake was being baked when they saw a nondescript box, but that they’ll do anything to discredit or doubt the cake from scratch that’s now cooling off on the counter.

It is partly a function of heteronormativity from the audience in immediately seeing romance in any whisper of interaction between m/f characters and passing off all charged interactions between female characters are sisterly or platonic. And it also comes from writers, who are either being cautious so as not to spook corporate overlords or audiences, or who are preserving plausible deniability.

To take the analogy further, box cake mix is fine! It works! It is, practically speaking, what a lot of folks know by default. I thought I was a Duncan Hines girl once myself. Vanilla cake mix has the ingredients measured out, it’s a safe bet, it tastes like cake.

But it doesn’t mean every red box is cake mix. And it doesn’t make the cake that had to be pieced together from scratch due to censorship, caution, time, narrative build-up, what-have-you, any less of a cake.

#Also this is a pillsbury cake mix hate blog so it doesnt count. The good ones have red boxes. #are we discoursing on this fine evening? Why not. #This could be about literally any wlw ship #but as someone who binged 8 volumes of rwby before 9 and missed all the drama but sees the vestiges of it years later somehow #its wild to me. Because as someone who saw the narrative in one gulp #it is very obvious they have put a lot of love and attention into Bumbleby #anyway this applies to #Bumbleby #korrasami #clexa #bubbline #harlivy #i could keep going #Having to defend a wlw ship like it’s a dissertation EVERY TIME is exhausting #And the fact that wlw fans have been burned before shouldn’t be wielded as a sword and a shield every time a wlw ship is viable

[fingolfinwiththesteelchair]

I think it's interesting that most art of Ganondorf he's smirking, looking absolutely smug and self-satisfied. The last one is more subtle, but he's definitely smirking

But in the Tears of the Kingdom art, he isn't

He looks weirdly solemn for Ganondorf. I doubt this means anything but it is an interesting stylistic choice

#lefthand one just looks exhausted #the one on the right could possibly be a teeny smirk if you squint but tbh the mouth is just a bit tok turned down to qualify #ganondorf #tears of the kingdom #totk #edited to add windwakers ganondorf because its a crime that i forgot him when hes the most nuanced #shoutout to @giriduck for reminding me

[alienssstufff]

Your gegg is soooo cuteee 💘💘 I don't know how you do it but you draw this specimen perfectly

ty! the secret is egg :]

#ask stufff #stufffsart #slimecicle #gegg #qsmp #qsmp spoilers #so like this tweet (NOT fucking calling them xeets) has been haunting me for days its crazy #its crazy! like its funny yet horrendously true - the idea of gegg (q!Slime) constantly going through cycles of himself essentially dying #and being reborn again all over as something else #watch him grow and become the thing people want him to be only to exhaust himself at the end of the day helpless #gegg shrivels up and is helpless and needs others to help him rest and get back up again as much as Slime tries to do these things by himse #f CAN U HEAR ME OUT THEREEEE #stufff rambles

[cptnbeefheart]

this old world may never change and sometimes i wonder: do you ever think of me?

#my art #ok to rb #christopher moltisanti #when that wizard cursed me and i felt indebted to his soul #sketchbook tour #sopranos #sopranos fanart #christopher your violent delights will undoubtedly have violent ends (are they even your delights to begin with?) #these are like 6 mo old now. at least the first two #i could prob make these look better if i edited them for longer but i cant be fucked. only uploading these now bc i figured if its been 6 #months i probably wont ever go scan these with the heavy duty 800 dpi scanner. this works good enough #i dont really draw like this anymore it got really exhausting #i miss watching sopranos so bad i felt like i was feasting on it for days every time i watched an episode. took so long for me to watch #bc anything that makes me feel that high couldnt be good for me. had to space the episodes out by a few days

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

got a little carried away with this one... outfit sent by @chocolategothwolfhorse <3

#couldnt decide which version i like better so Yall Get Both #this fit is one of many bangers sent in one ask #i meant to knock a few of em out in the same post #but some sort of demon possessed me and made me do lighting. and a silly background #thank you demon but also go to #go to. go. well. hm. #fuck you very much sir lighting demon #happy with this tho. tried some new things. #dont expect fully rendered stuff from me often its exhausting and takes forever #scribble garnish #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #welcome home fanart #wally darling #yesterday yall got slightly creepy wally now you get Wholesome Boy Says Hello

[whamss]

"Making Rosemary tea drinking lesbians is bad" says Internet User, but not because it strips them of their characterization and turns them into carbon copies of each other, destined to sit in the background while other characters (men) have character arcs around them, but because they aren't Silly Enough. No no, we don't need to flesh them out, we just need to turn them from Wise Lesbian Couple to Comedic Relief. This will fix everything wrong with fandom depictions of them. *Wipes sweat from forehead* Woo! Being a feminist is so tough!

#talk tag #homestuck #if you cant tell im starting to have feelings #obligatory ofc its okay to write rosemary being funni but man is it exhausting when the bare minimum or rosemary thought seems to be #“wait a second! rosemary arent tea drinking lesbians! theyre secretly really funny” with no thought past this #trust me i like writing them fail as much as the next person but yk these are characters right? #you know that they exist outside of each other... right!?!??! #rosemary #rose lalonde #kanaya maryam #recent developments in fandom have managed to invent a whole new flavor of rosemary for me to hate #that accidentally perpetuates all of the issues w them that people have been pointing out for years #anyways i miss them

[ribbononline]

frye fits i might as well share since i doubt ill do anything w em

#onaga clan fits :] based on some postgame hcs before the game can actually rveal what thatll be like lol #forst ones just an alt of her thief fit other two r meant to be more formal #frye splatoon #only tag that gets #i hope i did ok on these ! i need to find more reputable online sources for like #fashion (both traditional n modern) around the world #google is so exhausting to sift through nowadays. #mayhaps its just me. but it feels like its only filled w ads #and information written by ppl paid to write a little blurb who don’t actually lnlw anything about the subject #rip #i swear it wasnt always like this. orz