#and my childhood

[mysweetsong]

Sorry guys have to go hit the books

The books in question:

#i’m still in denial that this show was canceled #4 years ago #Like it has not been four years #i am not ok with this netflix #syd novak #stanley barber #dina nolastname #this show shaped me #And my childhood #And I think it’s obvious

[iwillstopcrying]

on late evenings, you come to my room to check if i’m still awake. you knock on the door gently, i ignore it, i pretend to sleep every night. i hear the bathroom light turn on, i hear the gentle sound of running water, i hear back when i was a kid and you held me, i hear when you lived and i was young and we ran in fields together. and i hear when we sat on the fallen down trees and i told you i loved you with a childish grin, and you told me that when you died, you could be whatever you wanted to be. i’m not sure what you are now because you’re still trying to get into my room every night, i’m not sure if you realised it would be my fault. i wonder if i’ve stopped you from being better, i hope you knew that i loved you in the fields and the bath and the sleep. i hope you know that i love you in the fields and the bath and the sleep.

#poetry #writing #poems #i love poetry #real #this is a cry for help #art #i miss my dad #and my childhood #i love writing #i hate being guilty #spilled ink #spilled words #spilled writing

[cookiecrumbconundrum]

I’d like for things to go back to being genuine please

#thinking about the commercialization of the holidays #and home #and my childhood #why did we have to switch to a gold and silver tree #why is our menorah bought to match our tree #why can’t I put my old decorations up #why does our house look like a west elm catalogue

[lilgynt]

caught a hint of my scent and i was like oh no. maybe all this weird sexual stuff keeps happening to me bc i smell good oh god im asking for it anyway im gonna see if i can set up a therapy appointment

#personal #very funny change of pace because usually I’m scared of smelling bad because my mother #and my childhood #now i’m sniffing myself and im like ohhhhhhhhh. you deserved it

[specks-of-time]

#oh..okay #this just explained like 80% of my childhood trauma #neurodivergent #autism #actually autistic #autistic #sensory issues

[cyborgrhodey]

THE BANANAS ARE GAY

THESE BANANAS

THE BANANAS IN PAJAMAS ARE GAY

BELATED HAPPY PRIDE MONTH EVERYONE

#somebody shut me up #this news is 4 years old but forgive me i only learned of it now #THE BANANAS IN PAJAMAS ARE GAY YALL thats my childhood

[artkaninchenbau]

Crocodile finds a strange stray cat an 11-year old Nico Robin (AU where they met 13 years earlier. Robin's been on the run from the World Government for 3 years. Crocodile's 27 and has not set up base in Alabasta yet)

It seems like I have become possessed. By some sort of demon.

Bonus:

#My art #One Piece #Nico Robin #Sir Crocodile #Y'all the OP brainrot is BAD #According to an SBS Crocodile would absolutely spoil his child rotten if he had one. *We all know how Robin's childhood went* #Scary mofo who does not know how to parent a child but boy does he have the spirit + Child who has never had proper parent in her life #They'd make. An absolute disaster of a duo. This AU concept is so fucking funny to me okay #But also sad because I would fucking die for baby Robin she deserves the fucking world #This poor girl has never been spoiled in her entire life AND NOW PAPADILE IS HERE TO SPOIL HER #You know it's funny. I know 11 yo Robin should LOOK older than 8 year old Robin. But Crocodile is a fucking giant so she's still baby sized #Also I just had too much fun drawing Robin looking as pathetic as humanly possible lmao #She's a like a wet kitten in the rain 😭

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail'' #ah tumblr... #writeblr #warm up #idk . having trouble writing rn #ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum #i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for #i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" ..... #no.... not really..... #idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography #like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days #furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing... #this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey. #idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me. #i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will #actually ever happen #ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum

[great-and-small]

I have to say that “warm gentle glow emanating from the shell of a turtle” is without a doubt my favorite genre of lamp

#my childhood nightlight was really close to top left #I wish I still had it #turtles #turtle lamps #funny

[toherlover]

it’s 2:30am in nyc and i just heard THUNDER. i missed that soft rumble so much:,) i was ticked i couldn’t fall asleep but then i heard that and suddenly its like i stayed awake for a reason

#not the cracking ones #the quiet ones #the ones that just echo lightly #it reminds me of summer #and my childhood #the 3pm storm that would roll in every afternoon and my family would sit on the porch and watch the dark clouds move in #we would just watch the storm #and it would clear by sunset #and then the sky would just melt #and the birds would come and watch too #a sepia filter was placed over the world #and the reflections! the reflection of the sky off the canal! #the pinks! the oranges! the yellows! #the heat! #and then it’d fade to purples and hues of blue #the first few stars would come out #my dad and i would bike to the beach or sit on the dock to watch the stars #sometimes i’d sneak out and weave my bike through the garages side door #swim in the dark ocean #feel so little #still see the distant dim strobes of lightening and the occasional soft hum of thunder #anyways i miss home #and my dad #my island #my porch #the soft thunder #elle talks

[soaked-doors]

baby i fall in love again come every summertime

#nimona #girl help nimona grabbed me by the neck and Gave me the Power #goldenheart #ambrosius goldenloin #ballister boldheart #ballister x ambrosius #nimona netflix #my art #did i mention that these bitches r childhood friends to lovers UUYGGGHHHAAAHHHHHH

[kochana-lulu]

people who want to live in lighthouse - i hear you, i understand you

but i raise you

living in water tower

#can we consider that pls? #bc that’s my childhood dream #lulu talks

[ayo-edebiri]

Thank you, Matthew Perry (August 19, 1969 - October 28, 2023)

#matthew perry #chandler bing #friend #mperryedit #byaurore #it's the first thing i saw this morning... literally my entire childhood #f.r.i.e.n.d.s

[franeridart]

more dragon

#my sketches #one piece #monkey d luffy #monkey d dragon #monkey d garp #real talk and jokes aside i think dragons childhood with garp wasn’t all that bad #since he actually was a marine at some point right so he must have at the very least respected garp #garps way of raising a kid that actually wanted to be a marine must have been somewhat different too #all in all i think leaving luffy to garp wouldn’t sound like such a weird thought to dragon ?? #i get why hed go there i mean #garp tho…………….. #what was that man even thinking………………….

[thecoparoom]

I get very psyched when it's spelled "shoppe."

The Day - Dec 23, 1950

#howard johnsons #hojo's #Howard johnson also makes me think of the Mets player #and then Don Draper #and my childhood #now I am sad #vintage ad

[grumpybear2001]

#2000s childhood #2000s baby #childhood #born in 2001 #nostalgia #2000s nostalgia #nostalgic #kidcore #not my photo #2000s memories #2000s kid #pbs #pbs kids #childhood memories #childhood tv shows