#and the extreme care that was taken to record all of those detail

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

I've been reading Exodus lately and I've just gotten to the portions where God gives the first commands to the people via Moses (twice), and then goes on to give detailed instructions about the tabernacle and how it should be built, and I'm just... we think art is unimportant?? we think things only mean as much as their functionality?? we so easily fall into the trap of believing that beauty means nothing, that it's cheap and only worth whatever mindless distraction it brings, that it's barely more than a cheap sensual thrill, that buildings should just be practical and plain and cheap, that everything should be functional but ultimately disposable, that paintings and dresses and mugs and curtains and carpets are just pretty but have no real value, that beauty is fleeting and vain and therefore shouldn't be thought about too much, if even looked for at all... we fall into these traps so easily, and we forget that there are chapters upon chapters of painstakingly detailed plans to build one portable worship tent, and those plans have been handed down through thousands of years of human history, because beauty and art and skill in craft is important

#I have to go get ready for work now but I will come back to this #and don't even get me started on the parts about God calling specific craftsmen *by name* #he called them!! by name!!! he said 'this man is good at his job. he creates beautiful work. he will build my temple and make it beautiful' #and even more--God inspired him!!!! it was a calling of GOD for him to create beautiful carvings and tapestries and candlesticks!!! #look even if you're not jewish or christian or religious at all you have GOT to see what it means that all these incredibly detailed plans #for building this tent-temple are extremely important #because even if you don't believe in God and don't think that this is all significant bc he personally gave the instructions #and then helped preserve this record of them so we could still read them today #you do have to see how important they were to the people of that time who first wrote them down #and the extreme care that was taken to record all of those detail #AND the fact that it's been preserved for so long and we can still read all the care that was put into creating this incredible piece #of artwork and worship they made #gurt says stuff #I just. gahhfhhfj. I'm feeling emotional about chapters of the Bible that I can't even fully force myself to pay attention to #bc there's so MUCH and I'm bad at visualizing this stuff and I tend to zone out while listening to it #but the fact that it IS that much!!! that there SO MUCH DETAIL and it goes on for SO LONG that I even struggle to pay attention!!! #that this was THAT IMPORTANT to the people who wrote it and to God!!! as an artist and someone who has always cared about art #this means so much to me ok #christianity #bible verse #bible thoughts #exodus #art #theology

[historicallyaccuratecheese]

I’ve finally started listening to Season 2 of The Magnus Archives, so as per usual, here are my thoughts on the first 10 episodes of the season, from 41 to 50! Already this season is shaping up to be a wild ride and I’ve really enjoyed it so far. But as always, here are some things to consider if you plan to read this post.

1: This post is extremely long and in depth, the longest of these I’ve made so far in fact. Read it only in chunks or if you have enough time on your hands.

2: There’s obviously spoilers for everything in The Magnus Archives up to Episode 50, so please tread carefully if you haven’t gotten that far. Also, please do not spoil anything from future episodes for me.

3: I recommend you read my previous posts before this one, as I will be referring back to those older posts. I’ve made a link to the masterpost here for you to easily access them.

Anyways, enjoy my rambling! :)

- Episode 41, Too Deep ⬇️

Statement of Jonathan Sims, Head Archivist of the Magnus Institute, regarding exploration of the tunnels recently discovered below the archives. Statement taken direct from and recorded by subject.

That episode title is right, the show of going a bit too deep for my liking, I’m SCARED. You know what, I’m happy to say that Jon has blossomed into quite the relatable protagonist. He has an undying thirst for the truth, and is extremely paranoid and traumatized by the events of Season 1. He’s just like me fr! Anyways, thankfully the content of this episode was much simpler and easy to digest than I thought it would’ve been initially. It does feel like Rusty Quill wanted to ease listeners back in by giving us an episode that establishes the new status quo, but that being said, this one still gave me quite a bit to think about. Firstly, we have Jon’s mental state which is…yikes. Like, I know a month has passed an all, but I still feel like he needs a hug and a long nap. I know I joke about wanting to bash this guy’s head in like a piñata, or throw him off a skyscraper, or squeeze him like a squeaky toy…but now I’m genuinely concerned for him. Knowing how Jane scarred him physically and mentally is really upsetting, but hey! At least Martin seems to be taking good care of him, although considering what happened to him last season I still have to question if he’s ok as well, just…I want everyone to take care of themselves as well. Also, I know this sounds wrong, but I kind of hope that jar actually does have Jane’s ashes in it, because I miss her and it would be nice for her to still kind of be with us. Also I hope Tim gets back to work ok :(. Also Not!Sasha still terrifies me-OK! Back to Jon! It is really cool that the season begins with a statement directly written by the protagonist, and while I’m certainly concerned about his paranoia (which I’ll get to later), it’s nice to see him actively engaging in the mysteries and looking for answers. But with that out of the way, what about the tunnels? Well, firstly, I’m glad that this episode clarified that these tunnels are like…a new discovery? Because when Tim mentioned them in Episode 39, he spoke about them as if they were common knowledge, which was just…kind of weird to me? Now, it’s become a lot more apparent that the tunnels are quite a recent discovery, and they make for a very intriguing new mystery! I’m certain they’ll show up more throughout the season, but for now, they are just…really terrifying. Firstly, I’ll mention some of the things we discovered about them that were followed up on here, and then go on to the brand new information we got. …GOD DAMN POLICE! I WANTED TO LISTEN TO THOSE TAPES!!! Look, I get WHY they took them, it’s just…UUUGGGHH!!! Gertrude Robinson, WHAT ARE YOUR SECRETS?!! On top of that we have the matter of the weird circle of worms. I still think they were trying to open some sort of hidden passage, but the implications that…someone else was there are certainly concerning. I assume it’s whoever seems to be lurking around down here (who might also be the voice Jon heard), but…I really don’t know what to think of this. I really don’t know what to think of…ANY of this! But as for the new information provided, we obviously have the facts about Millbank Prison.

Firstly, it’s always a pleasure to see TMA incorporate obscure real-world history into its story, I just think it’s generally kind of neat whenever they do that. But outside of that, I don’t really know what to make of this information outside of a couple of things (like the institute being built on top of a prison being potential symbolism for Jon being stuck here now that he’s gotten wrapped up in the mystery). The two things that really caught my attention however, was that they make sure to bring up the panopticon format of Millbank. This kind of ties into the whole them of “being watched” that’s been coming up. Also, I guess now’s a better time than ever to mention the whole idea of Jon being watched. I honestly don’t know who or what is watching him, but my best guess is that it’s whatever is in the tunnels, or if I’m crazy, ME. (Although I’m technically listening so…idk. It still makes me feel kind of guilty though.) The other big takeaway is that Millbank, and likely the tunnels, we’re built by our beloved Robert Smirke. The tunnels already did remind me of Episode 35, so this isn’t all that surprising, but it’s nice to get further confirmation that these places are fucked up! It does make me wonder if he had a hand in building the institute itself though…hmmm… But after that lore drop, we get to the creepiest part of the episode. I’ll just say it: No, I do not know who is in the tunnels, my best guess is Gertrude’s killer but I don’t think that’s saying much. I also do not know what the wine bottle means, (although I literally just made a post about a wine bottle on a street that felt like the beginning of a TMA statement? That’s really weird?!) nor do I know who or what drew that arrow, or told Jon to leave. All I know is that, yes, this heavily reminds me of Episode 15. Like, not just this scene, but honestly the episode as a whole. This makes me think that maybe the thing in the tunnels is the same force behind Lost Johns’ Cave, and combine that with the fact I suspect said force to be the same as the darkness from Episodes 9 and 25, and that Jon’s torch apparently started to dim strangely quickly…I just feel like The People’s Church of The Divine Host might have some relevance here. Either way, this just makes me more and more concerned for the institute staff. It just goes to show that they have gone…well, too deep, and that even if he runs out of those tunnels, Jon is not truly safe from, say it with me everyone…✨the horrors✨. Oh Jane Prentiss’ Ashes, we’re really in for it now.

But of course, that’s not all, as the episode ends with a secret supplemental from Jon! …The fact that exists at all just makes me more concerned for his paranoia and mental health. So you know how I said I’d love it if Season 2 was a murder mystery? Well…be careful what you wish for I guess. Don’t get me wrong, I’m very excited by the plot point but…Jon can you please just calm down you’re scaring me. It’s interesting that he too is most suspicious of Elias though. I’m still very suspicious of him as well but..I don’t know, usually when a show tries to steer you in one direction like this, it ends up going the other way, so this oddly makes me like…2% less suspicious of Elias, simply because I feel like the show’s trying to bamboozle me. As for the other potential suspects, well, Sasha would be an interesting choice given that she’s…you know…although oddly enough I doubt Not!Sasha did it, since she probably wouldn’t have been at the institute when Gertrude was murdered. So congratulations Not!Sasha, I’m not suspicious of you for once! There’s a decent enough possibility for the killer to be Tim, but I’d genuinely be STUNNED if it was Martin. Like, it could be an excellent twist if done right but WOW. That would be genuinely insane. Overall I’m still most suspicious of Elias by a wide margin, but much like Jon, I’m keeping my suspects open just in case. The last thing I have to mention here is how this supplemental made me think about how…me as the listener fits into this. In canon, I feel like I’m supposed to be either Jon’s successor, his killer, some random shmuck who just came across the tapes, and MAYBE whoever Jon feels like is watching him although that seems a bit more unlikely. Anyways, that’s a wrap on this episode! In conclusion, it was a good episode, and I’m as scared as I’ve ever been, but hey, I’m also excited to listen to the rest of the season and see where the mysteries go! (Also ALEX READING THE END BIT? HELLO?! That’s the scariest part of the episode.)

Sorry if this one was also a bit incoherent (is this like a curse with Robert Smirke statements or something), like I said, this one kind of feels like one meant to ease you back in, so I don’t have too many coherent thoughts on the reveals of the episode just…a lot of emotions. I’m sure that’ll change as the season progresses though. Although, I did have one theory brewing in my head, it doesn’t really connect to anything in this episode that I’m aware of but I just thought I’d put it here. So, I was thinking about some of the cults from Season 1, namely The People’s Church of The Divine Host and the heat-based cult. I’ve assumed that they’re completely separate, since they seem to serve separate powers, but in retrospect, they actually had some very notable things in common, outside of just…being creepy cults. Namely, they both seem to be in opposition to both Gertrude Robinson and Gerard Keay. The PCOTDH performed a ritual on the supposed date of Gertrude’s death, while the heat cult contained pictures of her in their creepy bottles. Meanwhile, Gerard straight up kills the person who seeks to be a member of the heat cult, and his symbol seems to be an eye, while The PCOTDH has a closed eye as their symbol. So either these two groups are intrinsically linked at the hip, maybe even different sects of one larger cult, or Gertrude and Gerard just both had knacks for pissing cults off. Eh, food for thought.

- Episode 42, Grifter’s Bone 🎹

Statement of Jennifer Ling, regarding a live musical performance she attended in Soho.

This is literally just Killer Track from Nightmare Time lmao. I mean not really, but like…come on, they’re about songs that kill people, and also both contain instances of songs that cannot be remembered. This episode was MADE to fuel my hyperfixations. Also, fun fact, I recall seeing a post about tma before I started listening, where it mentioned how some episodes are deep looks into trauma while others are about a song so shit that it kills people. That post was actually one of the first things that got me to consider listening, so it’s cool to have finally come across that same episode! Although granted, I don’t think that’s the most accurate description, but I’ll get to that soon. Anyways, even if I didn’t find the episode super scary until the end, I’m more than willing to excuse it simply due to how creative it is. I know I just compared it to another piece of media, but all things considered I think this is a very fun one conceptually. Music journalism of all things isn’t something you’d expect to get tackled in tma, but it surprisingly worked really well. I actually quite liked Jennifer as the protagonist here, while she’s not nearly as shaken by the events as someone like the guy from Episode 37, I still got this…uneasy feeling from Jon’s narration, like from the beginning, you could tell something bad happened without it being TOO obvious. And…learning what happened to her after she gave her statement…yeah I can see why she’d be on edge! I thought Grifter’s Bone itself was really creepy and I do hope we learn more about them going forward, like, yeah, this was just a fun, kind of creepy, and very creative episode that I had a good time with. But then the post-statement investigation is revealed and…wow. Look, I think the jokes about the music being so shitty it kills people are funny, there’s some genuine gold about that in the YouTube comments. I mean hell, it’s a joke in-universe! But, part of me thinks that’s doing a disservice to what the episode is actually about. Because by the end, we see that it’s about a song so good that it causes people to harm and/or kill each other. I think there’s a good few ways you could interpret the meaning of this, but I personally see it as a metaphor for toxic fandom behavior. Look, I’ve BEEN in music fandoms before, I can say with certainty that this works as a metaphor. But, who knows? I’d love to hear other people’s takes on this as I think it can be seen in multiple ways. On top of that, there’s a few weird things about the circumstances i which Grifter’s Bone plays. Like, when it was just Alfred playing, Lee had no memory of the concert, and also survived. But when the entire band played, Jennifer remembered the concert, even if she wasn’t in the venue, and for some reason it triggered a…gathering between ghosts that killed each other again? I don’t know, there’s just some strange things going on here, and while it’s hard to really find anything that Grifter’s Bone might connect to right now, I hope some connections and answers pop up later. (Well, in retrospect, they do actually kind of remind me of The Piper from Episode 7, since that thing also played music and drove someone to bloodlust, but granted, the themes between the two episodes seem to be pretty different so I don’t know if that actually means anything.) However, one connection I found interesting was the presence of the crystal shop, which I really can’t see being anything other than the same one Jane was working at. This, along with the description of his expression, leads me to believe that the man who tried to warn Jennifer was the “Oliver” who Jane saw. And…I will concede that this could make the theory of him being Antonio Blake more plausible. Antonio is obviously important, and assuming this guy is Oliver, then he’s important as well. Also, someone in the comments pointed out that maybe he foresaw Jennifer’s death, which…yeah, I can see that! I still think I need more time and evidence before I’m fully sold on this theory but…I won’t deny it’s plausible.

So yeah, I had a really good time with this episode! Creative concept, fun execution, it’s up there with Anatomy Class as being…as “chill” as a an episode of tma can be. I’d really like to see this develop into a larger plot, but I’m also happy with just this statement (although some answers would be nice). But obviously, there is one thing that I have failed to mention. That is of course…the legendary supplement. Oh. My. God. Martin, you poor poor soul. You know, I had some joking suspicions after listening to one of the bonus shorts with his poetry on it (which I probably should’ve waited for, but like, I needed something to calm down with after the Season 1 finale), but…I actually can’t believe it. Martin has a genuine thing for Jon. And it is adorable, sad, and absolutely hilarious. Adorable in the sense that Martin’s crush is really cute and that I think they could make for a really cute couple, sad in the fact that Jon is the most dense human being in existence and that this is a horror series, so the relationship is probably doomed by default, and hilarious in the sense that Martin is trying his best to get Jon to fall in love with him, and not only does Jon not recognize it, but. But. He- he thinks he’s trying to SABOTAGE HIM. This. THIS PARANOID LITTLE FREAK I LOVE HIM SO MUCH. Don’t get me wrong, I’m very concerned for him right now, but I’d be lying if I said that this wasn’t the ship dynamic of the century. Damn you Rusty Quill, I can’t solve the overarching mystery now because I’ll be too busy thinking about THIS. (Also I find it both really funny and really sad that Jon’s so suspicious of Martin when Not!Sasha is. RIGHT. THERE. If there’s a single scene where he goes “Sasha is the only person here I can trust” or smth I will lose my mind.) There’s also the matter of his note which could mean…honestly anything. All it tells us is that Martin is lying about something, which could be anything from his crush on Jon to him actually being the killer (although I think the latter is unlikely since this is only the second episode of Season 2), and that his mother probably has…some sort of relevance. It could mean a lot of things but for now I’ll just put a pin in it. So yeah, really enjoyable episode with a fantastic supplemental.

Also, we have the million dollar question. What do I think Grifter’s Bone sounds like? Well, that’s easy:

- Episode 43, Section 31 🚔

Statement of Police Constable Basira Hussain, regarding her time investigating strange occurrences as part of Section 31. Statement taken direct from subject.

NOOOOOOO NOT THE COPS!!! WHO LET THEM GET INVOLVED???!!!! Nah I’m just kidding, Basira Hussain was actually pretty cool. So, this episode is quite the interesting one, as despite it technically being another statement, the way it’s structured makes it feel pretty unique. Obviously this episode has some very interesting reveals in terms of the overarching plot, but I feel like it’s purpose here was to establish the importance of the police force, namely Section 31, to the plot of Season 2. I mean, given what we learn about them here, and the fact that they’re in charge of a lot of matters related to Gertrude, I’m not surprised that they seem to be playing a decently significant role here. But uh..anyways let’s start off by talking about Basira. Yeah I like her :). She was chill, and I like how she’s very willing to help Jon out despite the fact that she probably shouldn’t. It’s a nice change of pace considering how I, and I assume many others, are used to cop characters being very stuck-up, and I think her seeming frustration with being sectioned was pretty endearing. I also kind of liked the buddy-cop dynamic she had with Jon as well, and I especially liked how this is really the first instance we have of Jon being very open to what the statement giver is saying. It really shows a lot of growth from his Season 1 denial, even if it comes at the cost of him going insane in this season. I’ll touch more on her deal with Jon at the end, but for now I’ll talk a bit about the experiences she describes. Obviously, the experience with the burning building was by far the most interesting one. I’ll start off by saying that as creepy as his death was, the sectioned officer Basira was working with has it coming. That’s what you get for being racist! Or misogynistic…Or, generally prejudice- Look. What I’m saying is that he probably deserved his fate. But who cares about that because OH MY GOD EPISODE 12. Obviously the episode has come back in multiple ways via stuff like Gerard and The Cult of Asag, but finally getting some confirmation on who the other burnt guy was is really cool! Diego Molina is quite the enigma, and the episode really got me thinking about his abilities, the book in red leather (which I struggle to see being anything other than another Leitner, although I have to question what Jon mean’s when he said he had a suspicion as to where Diego got the book. Like it was obviously in Jurgen’s library at some point but that doesn’t mean he got it directly from there. Maybe I missed something, IDK), and generally what the deal with The Cult of Asag is. Also, it seems Diego got burned and later killed by Gerard after the events of this episode, which makes me wonder about how he got burned there, since he was completely fine here. And also he has a zippo lighter, like Gerard and Jon? What does that mean? Is it the same as Gerard’s? But…his had an eye symbol, not a flame or whatever. I don’t know, I have a lot of questions regarding this guy and the cult he’s a part of. but I’ll just have to wait and see what pops up as time goes on.

Now, Basira’s second encounter with the paranormal doesn’t have as much going on, but I still find it very curious. The person she finds in the room is pretty interesting. The thing that really stuck out to me was that his house was in complete darkness. Given how this episode definitely deals with The Cult of Asag, I have to wonder if this is supposed to hint towards involvement from The People’s Church of The Divine Host. Someone in the YouTube comments also pointed out that the guy could’ve been one of the grim reaper people from Episode 29. I won’t deny the possibility, given the domino cases, attempt at suicide, and the fact that he was still alive after death, but I’ll keep other possibilities in mind as well just in case. However, something that obviously stuck out to me here was the presence of Daisy, Basira’s partner during this incident. She mentions having an encounter with vampires, and while Basira brushes it off as a joke…come on, there’s no way this doesn’t mean anything. And I actually have a small theory regarding this. You see, from Episode 36, we obviously know that Trevor Herbert, the vampire killer himself, is a relatively important character. We also know that he has a currently unnamed woman as his companion, so I’m wondering if that woman might be Daisy. This would probably mean that they departed from each other’s company at some point but…I just can’t shake the feeling that this is a possibility. The only potential hole I can see in this theory is that the woman had a scar on her eye, which seems like a pretty notable detail that would be weird for Basira to leave out, but it’s equally possible that she just didn’t find it worth mentioning. Either way, I am certainly interested by that line about vampires. One other line here that stood out to me was Basira’s mention of a spooky clown doll, which HAS to be a reference to Episode 24. We know that “weird” incidents are usually dealt with by Section 31, and that Section 31, is a rather small team, so it’s possible that Basira has been involved in police investigations of multiple statement, but I still felt it was a interesting thing to quote.

So overall, this was a pretty good episode. It’s not an all-time favorite for me if I’m being honest, but it set up some very interesting potential plot threads, I really liked Basira, and I thought it was cool to get a first look at what I assume will be a good amount of involvement from the police in the future. But of course…we have that supplemental. Oh thank fucking god we didn’t have to wait too long to get Gertrude’s tapes. Basira, you’re an absolute G, I hope to see more of these come through in the future (although I also hope she doesn’t get fired in the process lmao). I’m…probably not prepared for whatever will be on these tapes going forward but, hey! Let’s just appreciate the fact that we’re getting them at all! I…am getting more and more concerned for Jon though. Like, sweetheart, you REALLY need to lie down for a bit, I know it’s rich coming from me, but this constant search for the truth is going to bite you in the ass if you keep on going any further. You could also use some more help from Martin as well…no reason… Anyways, so far the season is going great, only three episodes in and it already feels like it’s going places. (I would like an update on Tim though, and…”Sasha”….ehhhhhh…)

Supplemental: “Martin just kissed me, I THINK THERE WAS POISON IN HIS MOUTH” - Jon, probably.

- Episode 44, Tightrope 🎪

Case 9790302. Yuri Utkin. Incident occurred in the village of Algosovo, Central Russia, November 1952.

WOOOOOOOOO GERTRUDE!!!! FINALLY we get to hear her, and while she’s still obviously shrouded in mystery, I was very satisfied with what we got of her. Firstly, I absolutely love the fact that she’s voiced by Jonny Sims’ mother, I always find it really funny whenever the roles of characters reflect the relationship between the actors, so I just though that was really cool. And she did a great job in the role, honestly I felt like I was being read a bedtime story. Specifically a fucked up German bedtime story (or I guess Russian…technically…). Honestly she’s pretty in line with how I imagined her, although I kind of thought she’d be a lot more cold when she comes off as just…pretty chill in reality, at least in comparison to Jon. And that’s probably the element of her character that interests me the most, outside of what she was doing and what really happened to her. Compared to Jon, who is frantically searching for the truth with very little answers, Gertrude seems to be much more aware of what’s really going on. She’s SO familiar with The Other Circus that she’s able to read this extremely creepy story and be like “wow this guy got lucky.” Like…WHAT HAS THIS WOMAN SEEN?! Obviously there could’ve been a period in time where she, like Jon, was in a frenzied state looking for answers, but in the context of what we’re seeing, it provides for an interesting contrast between her and Jon that I really like. But it raises SO many questions. Like, what exactly would it take for Gertrude to react extremely to a statement when she’s this unbothered by what she’s reading? How much did she know? I mean, I think it would be safe to assume she died because she knew too much, but like…how many weirdos and cults did she piss off in the process? I’m really anticipating where they might go with her in the future, as there’s a lot of interesting routes they could take. But outside of our first look at Gertrude, we obviously have the statement itself, and FUCK YEAH IT’S THE OTHER CIRCUS!!! Even though it’s only shown up in a couple of episodes prior to this one, this circus has actually been one of the most intriguing plot threads for me personally. I’m just a sucker for creepy carnivals, so finally getting an episode with a big focus on it makes me very happy. Ultimately this episode confirms my suspicions that this thing is a cult, because like…come on. There’s no way it isn’t. However, I still don’t really know what power they might serve, and the ringmaster Gregor Orsinov remains shrouded in mystery. As do…ALL of the cult leaders now that I think about it. We really only know the names of two of them, those being Gregor and Maxwell Rayner, but that’s about it. Regardless, I do feel like this episode gave a better idea of what The Other Circus wishes to accomplish, or at least what their deal is. The tiger, the freaks, the people in the audience, and…maybe the Ivan we see on the tightrope (I haven’t made my mind up on that one), are all implied to be not entirely…real, or as Yuri says, impossible. I think they’re basically artificial copies of real people and animals, but with some minor differences like glassy eyes or impossible anatomy, hence why it’s called “Another Circus”. For what purpose other than creeping people out, I have no idea, but I feel like that’s what’s going on here. As for the bag…well, I think it probably did contain Ivan but…I don’t really know what’s up with it, although it did kind of remind me of Episode 5 with the trash bags, and I think that episode connects to Episode 34, and…now that I think about it, the slightly off people and animals here are kind of like the anatomy students. Yeah I think I’m going in insane circles now! Also I guess I haven’t really talked about the story here, truth be told it’s not the most interesting element of the episode but uh…yeah I liked it as always, I feel pretty bad for Yuri and Ivan. God, imagine having severe mental trauma as the best case scenario simply because Gregor and his circus are just that dangerous, that’s messed up!

Well, outside of all of that, I obviously have some connections to discuss, so what about those? Well, obviously this one connects to Episode 24 more than any other, most notably via the calliope organ. So…yeah, I guess Nikolai Denikin wasn’t that good of a person! My initial assumption was that he caught onto whatever messed up things The Other Circus wished to achieve, and then quit and hid the calliope (…I miss Sasha) to stop them. Now that could still be the case, but this episode suggests that Nikolai was aware of The Other Circus’ horrific tendencies, and gave them a lot of power, meaning that he’s not entirely without a bad streak, and very well could’ve still been affiliated with them even after he “left” in the 1970s. Secondly, we have the clown in purple and white with polka dots which…almost perfectly matched the description of the doll from Episode 24. From that episode, it seems that doll was capable of turning other people into dolls…but does this episode signify that the clown doll was also originally a person. Maybe they sacrificed themselves in order to turn other people into dolls, or they were turned into a doll as punishment and the curse goes to other people whenever the calliope plays…I don’t know but it’s suspicious, especially since Basira Hussain seemingly mentioned the doll in the previous episode. But most interesting to me is the presence of who it seems very likely are our beloveds, Breekon and Hope. This is the first time we’ve seen them affiliated with a faction other than their own (although I do think they connect to Mikaele Salesa but that’s a different topic), which is very interesting. I already suspected they were the guys who stole the calliope in Episode 24, (looking back they were also probably the “two strong men” in the picture Jon described) and I believe that even more now. However, this episode gave me two ideas as to why they might have stolen the calliope in the first place. The first idea is dictated by the idea that Nikolai Denikin was no longer affiliated with The Other Circus. If that were the case, then I believe that Breekon and Hope are still affiliated with The Other Circus, and tried to steal the calliope back, but then it ended up in the institute’s artifact storage through unknown means. More likely though, I think that Nikolai was still affiliated with The Other Circus, and Breekon and Hope left, explaining why they are shown with their own company in modern day. As for what reasons, I don’t know, but I believe that it gave them enough motivation to steal the calliope as revenge, and then deliver it to the institute. Either way, their presence here is very interesting, and it makes me wonder if there’s any connection between The Other Circus, and all of the items that Breekon and Hope have delivered. Specifically the table because…well, it’s implied there were fake people in the audience and…you know… How many episodes do you think it’ll take for my brain to explode now?

Overall this was a VERY intriguing episode, getting a first look at Gertrude and more on what is one of the most intriguing plot points so far for me was very satisfying, and I’m sure I’ll be spending a lot more time mulling this over. As for the supplemental…well that is certainly concerning. I feel like they want me to be suspicious of Martin due to that note, and I am to an extent but…this has Not!Sasha written all over it. I mean, it’s implied she already stole a few tapes so I wouldn’t be surprised if she was snooping around. (The irony of one of the tapes she stole being Episode 24’s as well, lmao.) Well…that’s about it. All in all I’m very intrigued, I hope Jon is able to take care of his supplemental and..uh…I don’t really know how to end this part so EPISODE 45!!!!!!

- Episode 45, Blood Bag 💉

Statement of Thomas Neill, regarding his experiences working in malarial research during the spring of 2010.

EW EW EW EW ICKY BLEGH. I…do not do well with mosquitoes. Worms I can handle, like, I can relate to that, but mosquitoes? No. Devil spawn. Even worse when they spread malaria. So suffice to say, considering that this IS a horror podcast, this episode did a pretty good job! Ultimately some of the plot details here are a little bit vague, and the episode itself doesn’t have as much to unpack as some of the others so far, but I’ll discuss what I can regardless. Firstly, I do really like the general setting of this statement. I’ve always found lab accidents to be very scary if done effectively, what with how fragile and dangerous that kind of environment can be. I also thought they handled it really well with the slow build of paranormal activity, up to the…extremely gruesome ending. Like, YIKES. Honestly I feel really bad for Neil, poor guy was just being silly in the workplace and needed some cash, yet he got SO screwed over. Why am I surprised though, reality just seems like a massive bitch in tma, maybe even more so than in our timeline! But hey, at least there was another theatre kid Jon moment when Thomas was describing Neil’s death, so that’s nice! Neil’s death also did kind of remind me of just…everything Jane, what with a whole bunch of creepy crawlies enveloping him, although worms aren’t really traditional insects so I don’t know if those similarities mean anything, especially since this episode lacks the theme of toxic love that was extremely present with The Flesh Hive. (Although there was fire extinguishers involved…hm…) Speaking of that though, I want to talk a bit about the syringe. I think the implication here was that the mosquitoes wished harm on Neil due to his attempts to work against them, which is…an absolutely horrific thought. Those things are already little assholes, but the idea of them having a PERSONAL GRUDGE…oh no no no no no. Anyways, I think the syringe protected him from them, so when he lost it, they went full ham, infecting the haemoglobish with a bajillion diseases, and later killing him. (And also Thomas later on, what a bunch of assholes!) But this idea, the concept of an insect ecosystem being sentient enough to wish harm on a human out of a personal grudge…yeah it’s very adjacent to The Flesh Hive. And considering that the syringe was last seen with someone as important as Mikaele Salesa, I feel that it might be important if the institute ever has to deal with something flesh hive-adjacent once again. Oh yeah, Mikaele was here too. Kind of surprising considering it hasn’t been that long since he last showed up in a statement. Ultimately this statement didn’t really tell us that much more about him, he just continues to be a mysterious guy who’s probably bad, but maybe not as bad as some other people. And while there are rumors of his death…I highly doubt he’s really gone. Either way, I’m interested to see where they go with him in the future. (Also Jon just starting his closing thoughts with “yeah I hate mosquitoes too”…he’s real for that honestly.) Um…what else? Well, I find a few small details curious. Firstly, the rising heat in the lab is VERY reminiscent of a lot of previous statements, such as Episode 12, 37, and the Hill Top Road cases. To me it signifies some sort of connection to The Cult of Asag, although I have no idea what said connection could be. A lot of people also pointed out that the only blood type mentioned so far in the entire series is 0-, which is kind of curious, although once again, I don’t what that might mean. And finally, we have the reveal that Thomas started working at King’s College, the same place where Dr. Lionel Elliot taught in Episode 34. Overall, the connection are pretty vague here and don’t reveal all that much new, so either this episode is setting up stuff that hasn’t shown up yet, or it’s less relevant than I think. But as always, I still enjoyed it! Neil’s death will probably give me nightmares but who cares? Still a very good episode!

So…the supplemental. You know, if I worked in the archives, I would find Mikaele, get the syringe, and provided it’s not some kind of cursed talisman, I’d use it to sedate Jon because SWEETHEART YOU NEED TO LIE DOWN. On one hand, seeing Jon slowly go insane has been very entertaining, on the other hand, it makes me terrified for literally everyone. This isn’t even a visual show and yet I can still clearly see him shaking violently and eating things from off the ground. I mean, just look at him. Martin has a crush on him and yet Jon thinks he’s secretly plotting a murder. (Also what a sweetheart he is giving his boss/crush tea during his moments of insane paranoia, very glad to hear him again.) “Sasha” is, as far as I know, the most objectively suspicious person in the archives, and yet she is the only one Jon hasn’t batted an eye at yet. And Tim…Jon’s LITERALLY just stalking him?! No?! I mean, I guess I’m also a little curious as to why he’s working at the institute despite no signs of prior interest in the paranormal but like…I wouldn’t go as far as to start taking pictures of his fucking house! (Although how come Martin knows what his house looks like…hm…) Also HOW could you even think that Tim “Joe Spooky” Stoker is capable of murder?! He would never! (…please let me be right when I say that) …Look, I know I’m the one writing insane analyses of this podcast, and I’m probably a massive hypocrite saying this since I am LITERALLY setting up a cork-board in my room for connecting the dots, but that doesn’t make Jon any more sane, okay? Maybe…maybe we should both just lie down…despite the truth being just out of reach...I’ll listen to Episode 46 tomorrow…uuugghhh…

- Episode 46, Literary Heights ⛈️

Statement of Herbert Knox, regarding a repeat customer to his bookshop in Chichester.

Stupid idiot mother fucking god damn fool Jurgen Leitner is lucky that this episode was so fantastic, or else his sad frail old man twig bones would’ve simply flaked apart under my epic huge meat fist. (Look, I have to quote it SOMEWHERE ok?) Anyways, this episode was…absolutely phenomenal? Like, I’ve really been enjoying the season so far, but this episode coming out of nowhere and worming it’s way into…I don’t know, at least my top six episodes, is kind of insane. There’s obviously quite a bit to unpack here, so I guess I’ll start with just a few basic observations. Firstly, this episode opens with one of the best examples of theatre kid Jon so far. Like, the shift in his voice is absolutely hilarious. Secondly, and I feel like I need to address this, there has a been a metric fuck-tonne of Micheals in the show so far, so being able to refer to one as Mike is an absolute blessing. …I have a theory surrounding that though, but I’ll get to it in a minute. But I guess that works as a good segue into the main topic of interest here, Mike Crew. Truth be told, as good as it is, I don’t have much more to say about the episode on its own, as I think most of the intrigue comes from the implications for the overarching narrative it brings, although just to be clear, I’ll say that the episode has a fantastic story to tell on its own. Anyways, enough preamble, MIKE CREW! It’s genuinely such a treat to get a better look at just…what this guy is even like. I’ve known that he’s important for a while, but that’s only because he was mentioned in two separate statements, and I never knew WHY he was important, but this episode comes with some really interesting reveals. Firstly, I have to say that this guy is absolutely one of my favorite characters from the statements so far. His whole vibe is just so intriguing, and you get the sense that he has a better understanding of ✨the horrors✨than most other characters so far, but that he’s also terrified by what he’s witnessed. Anyways, I think the most interesting element of his character is how he’s clearly…just a very haunted man. This episode definitely suggests that him getting struck by lightning as a child was a paranormal experience that…connected him to something. I think it would be cool if we maybe got a statement from him later on that talked about that more, but for now, it’s just very interesting to see those powers over storms and electricity he seems to possess, willingly or not. It also seems like maybe he was studying Leitners and other books on demonology in order to get a grip on whatever was haunting him, with The Boneturner’s Tale obviously being one of them. Oh yeah, there was also some interesting stuff about Jurgen Leitner here. I do have to wonder if all of those strange deaths that occurred in the old book trade were caused by either him or his fucked up books, although he supposedly went into hiding in 1994 so I’m not entirely sure what that means. I’ve also started to notice how the Leitners…compel people. Like, Dominic Swain just…decided to go on a wild goose chase in order to learn more about Ex Altiora, Sebastian Adekoya was adamant on getting The Boneturner’s Tale despite knowing that it was bad news, Jared Hopworth was lured in by the same book despite clearly not being much of a reader, and now we have both Mike Crew and Herbert Knox fighting desperately for Ex Altiora. It’s…just very odd how much these books draw people in. And I think this is another good segue into talking about the glorious return of Ex Altiora.

Firstly, I nearly screamed at the name drop, like oh my god that was so exciting. Secondly, it’s really cool to finally learn what the story in the book even was. If it wasn’t for the fact that I’d end up in a perilous situation if I did so, and that I don’t know Latin, I’d honestly read it, it sounds pretty cool. Either way, Mike’s possession of it is very interesting to me. Obviously it seems like it’s because of him that the Lichtenburg Figure showed up in the book, meaning that it’s unlikely that Mary Keay was trying to trigger Dominic’s childhood trauma, I guess. It’s also very curious how Mike somehow knew how to wield its power correctly from the looks of things, and I also have to wonder why it ended up in some random bookstore when it seemed to be so important to him. But I think the most interesting thing about it is how it connects to whatever was haunting Mike. Jon suggests that he was trying to use it as a ward, which I do agree with, but I wonder if it backfired in the end. Maybe Mike thought that its raw power could protect him, but in reality, the book was connected to the force pursuing him without his knowledge. I mean, Ex Altiora causes vertigo and is about a high mountaintop village being terrorized by a vast and unknowable massive monster, and Mike is connected to the sky, so I think it adds up in the end. (Also, if I didn’t already think so, I’m absolutely certain that the events of this and Episode 4 connect to the ones of Episode 21, meaning that yes, the fucking sky is an eldritch horror in this timeline, and chances are Ex Altiora and the skydiver guy are harbingers of it. What does this even mean for tma’s world structure, holy shit.) Anyways, I think this theory also works because of Mike’s fate. I mean, he says “I am yours” (which is very similar to Edwin Burroughs saying “I am not for you, I am marked btw), and then throws himself out of a window. I feel like in the end he submitted himself to the forces chasing him after Ex Altiora ironically drew him in further. Said force might also be called “Vertigo” or “The Vast” based on what he says during his chants. (Also I don’t really have any theories as to how the bell tower was opened up just so you know.) As for Mike’s fate, well…I honestly don’t really know, although I think the lack of a body and his clear significance to the plot mean that he’s not…entirely dead. Maybe the Lichtenburg Figure is supposed to suggest that he’s inside Ex Altiora? Maybe…the sky ate him? I can’t quite tell yet, but I’m sure this isn’t the last I’ll hear of him, he just seems too significant (and just…way too cool) to write off here. Although…I do have one more theory about this episode, one that I’d like to proclaim my crack theory (as if my other ones already aren’t cracked). Oh boy here we go…

So I mentioned that there’s a lot of Micheals in this show, so much so that from what little I’ve seen it’s a meme in the fandom. I mean, it makes decent sense, Micheal is an extremely common name after all…but what if this goes deeper. What if every major Micheal in this podcast actually has direct connections to each other? So far we have three Micheals that seem to hold plot relevance (please, PLEASE let it stay that way.) They are Mike Crew, obviously, Gerard’s grandfather Micheal Keay, and the mysterious “Micheal” that Sasha meant, who is presumably the person that was pursuing Ivo Lensik’s father. Keep in mind the word PURSUING. Because…you remember how bony-hand Micheal appeared all weird and distorted in the window of Sasha’s apartment building. Well, it’s probably just my imagination, but…it reminds me a hell of a lot of the thing chasing Mike. On top of that, I originally doubted that bony-hand Micheal was the same person as Mike Crew due to the lack of a Lichtenburg Figure on his body (although Mike does actually seem to be capable of hiding it based on Herbert’s description of him, but said description is notably different from that of Sasha’s Micheal anyways), but I did throw out the possibility of him actually being Micheal Keay. This could also explain why he had all of those strange attributes, as Mary Keay seemingly learned how to live beyond the grave, yet she came with a number of visual differences from when she was, like, actually alive, so maybe something similar happened to her father. (and then maybe Gerard…please…please let my favorite MCR reject guy be alive…) So, here’s the basic premise of my theory. Micheal Keay found some sort of way to live after death, becoming the strange distorted Micheal that Sasha saw. This new form of Micheal Keay would form a connection to fractals, terrorizing Ivo Lensik’s father, and also a connection to the sky/vertigo/the vast/whatever you want to call it, and then start terrorizing Mike Crew. (I mean, the fractals give off the same vibes as the Lichtenburg Figure right? RIGHT?!) And then, and I know this is a huge reach but like I said, it’s a crack theory, Mike was absorbed by the being that was pursuing him. Micheal Keay is alive, and absorbing people, one of whom just happens to have his name. If Ivo’s dad was named Micheal Lensik I might just go insane. Now, do I expect this theory to be true. Oh god no! Like I said, this is absolute crack, but I think it would be very funny if every Micheal in this podcast is actually just the same person. There’s a lot of other mysteries surrounding these guys, and I’m sure I’ll be satisfied with whatever they pull off.

So that’s Episode 46. Overall this was a phenomenal episode, it’s absolutely my favorite of Season 2 so far and at the very least one of my favorites in the entire podcast so far. It’s given me so many things to think about and I’m really excited to see where they go with the plot surrounding Mike in the future. As for the supplemental, well…you know what, Brian David Gilbert- I mean Jon (yes I finally made that connection) has every right to be concerned about this one. It is admittedly a little bit unnerving that there’s another person exploring the tunnels, my best guess is it’s Not!Sasha because…well, she’s just suspicious by nature, but it could easily be Martin, Tim, and especially Elias as well. Or worse…whatever’s down there is trying to get out. There’s also the matter of the spiders which is…very interesting. Episode 32 already separated the spiders from The Flesh Hive, but I didn’t think they would go as far as to kill the remaining worms. In fact, I suspected they were in some form of collaboration, since Jon smashing that one spider lead to the infestation of worms, and the worms were present in Episode 16. But no, they’re actively killing the worms. Maybe as like…a punishment for failure or something? I really don’t know what the deal with the spiders is, but it’s certainly interesting. Anyways, great episode, can’t wait to see what comes next.

Oh, one last thing. I have this copy of Dracula in my house, and it really reminds me of Ex Altiora. Like this is what I imagine it looking like. (Also STOKER? As in TIM STOKER? Ok I’ll stop.)

- Episode 47, The New Door 🚪

Statement of Helen Richardson, regarding a new door in the house she was selling. Statement taken direct from subject.

What what what what what what what what what what what what what in the everlasting FUCK?! I don’t…what do you MEAN? RIGHT AFTER MY FUCKING MICHEAL CRACKPOT THEORY YOU GIVE ME THIS?! I CAN’T…WHAT…THERE’S SO MUCH GOING ON I LITERALLY CANNOT HANDLE THIS UAAAGGGGHHHHHHHH. Ok…calm down calm down calm down calm down just CALM. THE FUCK. DOWN. You can do this. You are a TUMBLR. ENBY. You can coherently summarize this episode. Right? …right? Oh no….

Ok so…let’s just start from the top with the things that are easy to summarize. Firstly, this is a statement recorded live from subject, so we obviously need to talk about Helen Richardson. Oh god….what a poor soul. I REALLY feel for her, compared to every other statement giver, at least the ones who gave their statements live, she was absolutely the most distraught by her experiences. Her VA did a fantastic job portraying her fright, I liked how she was frantically drawing a map at the beginning, and overall it’s just really not hard to feel for her, especially given her…fate, but we’ll get to that later. It was also extremely gratifying to finally have an instance where Jon fully believes the person he’s talking to, he was decent with Lionel and Basira, as well as his coworkers, but after his interactions with Naomi and Melanie, seeing him fully believe Helen was honestly really nice, just shows how much he’s developed since most of Season 1…although it has come with him being extremely traumatized and erratic but hey! It’s still cool that he was genuinely trying to help Helen out, because if this was Season 1 he would have not believed her. Anyways, what about her actual statement? Well…that’s absolutely terrifying. Like, I am never going to be able to look at doors the same way ever again, am I? This is already a terrifying experience on its own, but the fact that Helen is an ESTATE AGENT of all things makes this so much worse, like you could just tell that this was her personal hell. And then we have the backrooms themselves which-yeah I’m going to call the corridors the backrooms until further notice because god damnit sometimes you just need to be annoying. Anyways, everything about that place(?) makes me uncomfortable. Firstly, the opening of the door reminded me a little bit of the coffin from Episode 2, and the corridors especially reminded me of Episode 30 with the slaughter house. But outside of those interesting yet admittedly tangential connections, there’s so many terrifying aspects of the backrooms that are just so extremely terrifying in their own right. The way the door just shows up out of nowhere and lures you in, the way Helen’s face looked like it had been crying for hours when she looked in the mirror, the repeated paintings, the temperatures that don’t make sense, Micheal just…lurking there waiting to kill her, how she ended up somewhere entirely new when she finally “escaped”, and of course, the fact that it functions like a Cthulhu city with how it just DOESN’T. MAKE. SENSE. That seems to be the main theme here, just…everything not adding up, confusing people, nearly making them go insane, that is the nature of these corridors, and Micheal himself. And you know what, I think it’s about time we talk about the end of the episode. While the statement is fantastically written and viscerally terrifying, it is overall very short, and I’d say the true meat of the episode comes from the ending. Because Oh. My. God. I have some thoughts.

I’m just going to start off by saying that the drawn-out door noises that played when Helen left initially just came as a “haha funny trauma noise” moment from Rusty Quill, and nothing more. …Oh how naive I once was. Anyways, before I talk about tall blonde and Handsome, I guess I should address the glorious(?) return of Not!Sasha! …Oh no. I don’t know if it’s more or less unnerving that she’s actually speaking like a somewhat normal person now. That…that is very very bad. But she still sounds so noticeably different from the real Sasha, so much colder…I…I really do not like her! The way that she avoids re-recording Sasha’s statement because she doesn’t remember the whole thing, and the funky audio distortion that plays in the room it’s…no! No no no no no! Well at least someone seems to know what’s really going on, and that is of course, the man who speaks in hands (woah reference), Micheal…something! Apparently there’s no such thing as a real name so I’m going to assume he just doesn’t have a last name for the time being. Anyways, ever since Episode 26, this guy…thing…door has been haunting me for ages. He’s never quite at the center of my mind, that honor goes to people like the worm wife, god damn fool book-collecting dust-eating rat old bastard shithead idiot avatar of the whore, my goth son, and Jon and Martin but only if they are holding hands. But still, the way he was so enigmatic with his motivations, where he stood morality wise, his generally creepy vibe that makes me imagine him as a guy that’s always smiling, his big-ass hands, and the sense that he was so above everything and everyone in this entire story, it always kept me terrified and intrigued. And now that we’ve finally met him…yeah, he absolutely lived up to the hype. I’m sorry Jane, but I think I’ve found a new obsession. I want this thing and his gender carnally. His VA does such a phenomenal job, like I know it’s somewhat filtered but still, the tone and especially the laugh, like HOLY SHIT that is a creepy laugh, it’s all fantastic. And I mean, yeah, it still feels like he’s so above everything else, like everything connects back to him, but also like he’s so vastly beyond everything that it doesn’t connect at all. All of his dialogue is so confusing but also interesting and…well, I guess I should discuss his dialogue, because there is actually quite a lot to unpack from a good amount of his sentences.

So, when Micheal first shows up, the strange pitch that started playing when Not!Sasha entered the room changes, suggesting that Micheal and Not!Sasha are either very different from one another, or very similar. (Also, I’m assuming that the pitch playing when Not!Sasha was around is a different one from Micheal’s, because it sounds really similar to the sound that played when Sasha came across the table in artifact storage.) Either way, his first line “Do you even know they’re lying to you” seems to confirm that Micheal knows the truth about what happened to Sasha, showing how powerful he really is. Now granted, when you consider his naturally maddening personality I doubt he’s going to reveal the truth anytime soon, but it’s worth keeping in mind. (Especially since it’s implied that Elias knows what’s going on, or at least has a hunch so….hm….) Going forward, Micheal refuses to elaborate on how he got in, like the silly king he is, and then says his name is "a real name." This is interesting, as he later contradicts this by saying there's no such thing as a real name. Obviously that last quote ties into themes of inhumanity and lack of identity that seem to follow him, but I'm just going to assume the contradictions are a result of him just, once again, not making sense. I'm sure there's a deeper meaning, I just don't quite know what said deeper meaning is yet. Also I love how when Micheal said he wasn't going to kill Jon, Jon was like "oh :/". Just like...end his suffering I guess. That seems to be another prevalent theme with Micheal. He's not exactly...good, but he's also not really a major antagonistic force...yet, at least. Regardless, it's next that we learn why he's here and...oh...oh no. That's genuinely really off-putting. So yeah, Helen got trapped in the backrooms AGAIN, right after she gave her statement. I...I don't think her chances are all that good if I'm being honest. Damn. DAMN. Also, the part where Jon realizes that the door she left from was never there...that was absolutely chilling. (Although isn't it like...a yellow door? Wouldn't Jon have noticed that? Unless the doors in the archives are already yellow?) But like, imagine if this was a common occurrence. Like, what if Jon just read, I don't know, Jason North's statement from Episode 37, and then immediately got set on fire? Because that's what this feels like. Interestingly, when Jon questions if Micheal is the owner of the backrooms, he responds with "does your hand, in any way, own your stomach?" This seems to suggest that Micheal and the backrooms are one and the same which is...not confusing and terrifying at all! I'll take a bit more about what I think Micheal even is in a second but for now just keep in mind that this information is...very concerning. Also "let her go!" followed by "no :)" was kind of funny. After all that, Micheal...stabs Jon? I mean, that's absolutely not a good thing, but it didn't seem that major or painful all things considered. I'm just going to assume he used his big-ass knife hands to stab Jon in an ultimately non-vital place, because that's what the audio seems to suggest. Now, I'll touch a bit more on Micheal's comments about his own identity in a second, but for now, the last things he says correspond with his motivations. Apparently he helped Sasha learn about The Flesh Hive because he did not want the institute to disappear too early, as it would have "unbalanced the struggle." Jon believes that this implies the existence of a war, and given how I've been speculating that all of the horrors and their servants are at each other's throats...I have to agree. It also suggests that Micheal is a lot more aware of how things are going to pan out in the future than Jon, which is...interesting. Anyways, he then mysteriously vanishes, and Jon ends the recording. It's so serious that we don't even get a supplemental. So with all of this in mind...what are my overall thoughts on Micheal?

Let's just run through everything we know. Micheal is a weird tall blonde guy who has an uncanny laugh and massive hands. He is connected to some sort of maddening pocket dimension that is accessed through a teleporting yellow door. He lured Helen Richardson into there twice, and she is still stuck there. He also probably got rid of Ms. Richardson's actual clients, and he's implied to have some sort of connection to fractals (which admittedly to line up with how maddening he is), meaning there's a good likelihood he was the being chasing down Ivo Lensik's father, and he maybe had some sort of encounter with Jane given how she also mentions fractals. He seems to be antagonistic and has bad intentions, but wants the archival team to stay alive since he views them as important, and believes the loss of the institute would "unbalance the struggle" implying the existence of a war. (my theories are being validated kind of!) Despite this he chooses to stab Jon anyways, and his whole character seems to be built around insanity, doubt of one’s own mind, and contradictions. So…who or what do I think he is? Well, I think our best hints come from the one major piece of dialogue from him I neglected to mention. That being when he calls himself a “what” instead of a “who”, saying that a “who” represents a level of identity he “can’t ever retain”, and how he isn’t used to talking about himself. This all suggests that Micheal is obviously not human, but also can’t function under the human understanding of identity. However, he also says that his identity is something he can’t “retain” rather than “obtain”. This suggests that he might have actually been something more human than what he is now in the past. And…funnily enough, this kind of lines up with the theory about Micheal Keay and Mike Crew I just made. (And, yes, hearing him in this episode immediately after writing that down was indeed very exciting.) I mean, in the slim chance that theory is correct, then..yeah, a guy who lived beyond his natural lifespan and then absorbed another guy, possibly even more people, would not really be all that human. They’d have multiple identities conflicting with each other. But granted, this theory is pretty cracked in my opinion, so maybe something more logical would be…something like the anatomy students! They also kind of had this lack of identity and weird way of speaking, so it could line up very well. Also, they contorted their bones at one point (which is admittedly more similar to The Boneturner’s Tale but still), and you know how they were all functioning under the basic bitch names of different cultures? Well…Micheal is one of the most common names in the west so, who knows? And this might connect back to Not!Sasha! After all, I’ve already made comparisons between her and the anatomy students, and Micheal is aware of her true identity, and he plays a different yet still pretty similar pitch to her when he’s in the room, and the hypnotic pattern on the table might be similar to FRACTALS? Look…I’m basically saying that Micheal is an enigma, and there are a lot of opportunities for what he could be. But what I do know…is that this thing is so far above everyone else like holy shit. He just…I don’t know what it is, I feel like he’s basically god. Everything connects back to Micheal, but it also doesn’t because he couldn’t care less about all this shit. It feels like almost everything has at the very least a small connection to him. I don’t know why I think this it’s JUST. THE. VIBE.

Wow. That was certainly quite the episode. While the statement itself was very short, and while I am confused out of my goddamned mind, this was another phenomenal episode. It should be a crime to put this right after Literary Heights, I’m just saying. It had a really well-written main character, a terrifying scenario, dozens upon dozens of implications, and…Micheal. Just Micheal. There is probably so much that I didn’t even touch on here, but that’s just because my brain is so scrambled trying to figure this all out! Which you know, given the themes of the episode, I feel like that’s by design, and I’m ok with that. I’m very excited to see…whenever and however this all pans out, but for now, I’m going to take a three day-nap. Honk shoo mimimi or whatever the kids say.

I said “Micheal” like…26 times in this section alone…Fuuuuuuuccckkk. Am I really about to ditch the worm wife for the hallway husband? (Update: No, but that’s only because I realized I have two hands.)

- Episode 48, Lost in the Crowd 🧳

Statement of Andrea Nunis, regarding a series of encounters in the streets of Genoa, Italy.

Ok, so thankfully after Micheal’s Marvelous Maze of Madness ft. Micheal, this episode was a bit of a more standard affair, and a lot easier to digest and process. That being said, this one kind of fucked me up! Generally I’m a pretty introverted person, so I’ve found it kind of interesting how the couple of statements where the idea is “character who likes being alone gets karma” are some of the scariest for me personally. Also, I will mention that while there is a common theme between this and Episode 13, I don’t necessarily think they’re connected for a couple of reasons. Firstly is the lack of any tangible signs of The Lukas Family, and secondly is the fact that Naomi’s experience manifested in the form of a wide open field with nearly nothing in it, while Andrea’s was in the form of a crushing crowd. Granted there was a gray sky in the alleyway she went into, which could connect to Naomi’s fog but…eh, I’m not too sure. I personally think the one thing that connects this statement to the rest of the series is Gerard’s presence, which I’ll get to later, but still, those similar themes of one’s own introverted tendencies being turned against them felt worth mentioning. But outside of that recurring theme calling me out a second time, there were quite a few other things that really spooked me. Ethan’s fate was genuinely pretty sad as he seemed like a nice guy, the mentions of heat popping up once again were unnerving as usual, and…the crowd itself. This…this genuinely had me curled up in a ball. I hear people say that you will inevitably find at least one tma episode that feels like it’s targeting you specifically, and while I can’t confirm if this is that episode for me, I…wouldn’t be surprised if it was by the time I’ve finished listening. I have a very bad relationship with crowds so…yeah, this one hit very close to home. The description was…so, so visceral. The blanked out faces, the garbage noise, the constant shoving…I think it put how I subconsciously view crowds into words perfectly, and…yeah, I don’t really have that much more to say about the statement other than it was sad and terrifying for me. Needless to say I don’t think I have any desire to go traveling any time soon lmao. But hey, that all just means it’s doing a damn good job as an episode of a horror podcast!

But outside of the core story, we obviously have the very intriguing return of who is presumably…MY GOTH SON HELL YEAH! GERARD KEAY NATION LET’S FUCKING GO!!! Honestly, considering that he has to live a life of fighting the horrors (and maybe…spreading them…), and also seems to have a fucked up family history, I genuinely hope that he was just on vacation here, whether he’s good or bad or morally gray, I think he deserves a break. Anyways his appearance here is certainly pretty intriguing. Not only is this the first statement he appears in that seems to be completely unrelated to any Leitners, but he also mentions that Andrea had been “marked”. Marked by…what exactly? If I had to guess, I would assume that it would be the entity possessing Hill Top Road. When it fully took over Edwin Burroughs, he said “I am marked”, and on top of that, it also has connections to heat and distorting the world around people until they snap back to reality, both of which are things that Andrea experiences. Honestly, this being seems to pop up all over the place, as it seemingly has some level of ties to The Cult of Asag and maybe even Micheal (though that’s probably just the brain rot talking), and while it definitely seems to be at its strongest on Hill Top Road, it’s implied that it possessed the girl who Edwin Burroughs attempted to perform and exorcism on, so I think it can still appear in other places. Thankfully Andrea seems to have been able to fend it off by thinking of her mother, but that just makes me more intrigued as to how Gerard knew that would help fend off some sort of eldritch heat god. On top of that, this is like…the one statement so far where he shows up and doesn’t do anything that is potentially morally questionable, outside of Pageturner in retrospect I guess, so…yeah, even though this episode was a lot more easy-going than the last one, it’s still given me a lot more to think about. Gerard’s presence and actions, whatever marked Andrea and caused all the bad stuff to happen…it is certainly all very intriguing. Overall, while this isn’t an all time favorite episode for me or anything, I still thought it was a very good one and…genuinely really unsettling for me personally. I’m glad we got to see another look at Gerard and, yeah, there’s not much more to say, just another good episode. Well…there’s not much more to say outside of the supplemental at least.

Oh god fucking damnit Jon. He has clearly not heeded my advice to lie down because what the fuuucckkk. I understand if he’s a little bit shaken after the encounter with Micheal, and obviously watching a real-estate agent basically die without you knowing would probably fuck you up but OH. GOD. Ok well, it’s at the very least a good thing that he finally realized that something’s up with “Sasha” but…did he really need the god of confusion or whatever he is to tell him that?! You are an ARCHIVIST. An ACADEMIC. YOU SHOULD BE BETTER THAN THIS!!! He’s all like “I didn’t suspect her because she’s handled the Prentiss attack better than anyone else”…AS IF THAT’S SOMEHOW NOT CONCERNING?! IF I WAS HIM, I WOULD BE EXTREMELY CREEPED OUT IF SOMONE WAS JUST…CONTINUING AS NORMAL AFTER ALL OF THAT! God, what an absolute dumbass. His density knows no bounds. I love him dearly. Still though…it’s a good thing he caught on at least. And then we have his conversation with Elias, and yeah, that doesn’t do him any favors! Don’t get me wrong, the entire scene is absolutely hilarious, I love how he questions if Dr. Elliott or Micheal were filing complaints, how he chocks up being a fucking stalker to being “worried about Tim and Martin’s mental health” (oh god Martin’s crush is going to end up being so fucked I can already tell), and I love to envision him just standing outside Tim��s house with binoculars in a very easy-to-see location. But..wow! You know, when I said it would be nice to see him grow out of being a skeptic, I DIDN’T MEAN IT LIKE THIS! And then he finishes the supplemental by saying he’s most suspicious of Elias which like…yeah, me too, but I don’t think it’s for the same reasons! If anything, this is the least suspicious Elias has ever been, honestly hai requests of Jon seem pretty reasonable. Well…at least Jon knows who to be the most suspicious of now…I guess. Someone please just knock him out with a frying pan, he really needs it (affectionately)….

- Episode 49, The Butcher’s Window 💪

Statement of Gregory Pryor, regarding his investigations into one Hector Lorado during the summer of 2007.

I’m going to start off by saying that for some reason, on the YouTube upload, the little title card didn’t fully load for this episode. What was up with that? Is “butcher” or “window” some sort of British swear I’m unaware of? Well, regardless….EW EW EW EW EW EW EW EW!!!! Yet another episode that makes me feel really uneasy like…wow! I expected some body horror or meat related stuff given the title, but…I did NOT think it was going to go like…that. But outside of my sheer terror, this was another really great episode! It was terrifying, but it also built on some things that I…honestly kind of forgot about, helped fill in some gaps, and also came with some very fun reveals at the end. (oh my god I can’t wait to talk about that) As per usual I’ll start off with just some fun and interesting things about the episode that are easy to talk about. Firstly, I actually really liked Gregory Pryor as a protagonist here. I’ve always kind of had a fondness for the statement givers that are just…honestly pretty big dicks, as I think it adds a good level of realism to the world and helps to shake things up. Honestly the whole vibe of the statement was so gloriously shitty, I just got the sense that no one involved with what happened was particularly likable. I also was a little bit curious about the presence of the Ukrainian mafia here, initially I thought the guys who were bargaining with Hector were supposed to be Breekon and Hope but I think that was just me going insane. If I had to make one minor complaint about this episode, it’s that I felt like it took a while to get into the weird horror aspects. I mean, most episodes don’t get into the real meat until later on, but they usually add intrigue with just…little oddities here and there. For example, Episode 46 doesn’t get truly freaky until later on, but the mentions of the weird smells and lightbulbs whenever Mike entered the room helped in making me feel uneasy, while this episode doesn’t really have much of that. But this is overall a very small and meaningless complaint, because when we do get into the actual horror…oh my god. I have some things to say.

So…yikes. Before we discuss the return of the big beefy bully boy, I’ll just talk a little bit about how FUCKING GRUESOME this part is. Like…I was very disturbed. Gregory hiding in the locker, Hector turning out to be alive, all of the shit that Jared did, the teeth hole underneath the floorboards, the discarded clothes and the body of the original owner that was later found, the general atmosphere of a morgue inside a butcher’s shop, the fact this went on for four fucking hours, and Gregory’s escape attempt which led to…the arm. I initially thought it got chopped off, which would have been terrible already, but then…then we learn that Jared FUCKING RIPPED THE BONE OUT THE SOCKET AND EW EW EW. All of this was tense and horrible and I absolutely loved it. Happy that Gregory got a prosthetic though, even if I just said he was kind of a dick. But anyways uh…Jared Hopworth is back! Honestly I kind of forgot about him, but it is really cool to see that he’s a more prominent recurring antagonist, given that his whereabouts were kind of a loose end at the end of Episode 17. And…I mean, I do not know how to feel about where he’s been. On one hand it’s..good for him(?) that he was able to capitalize his abilities (especially alongside the fucking mafia of all people), but on the other hand, he’s clearly a terrifying meat bone monster thing that is no longer human and is dismembering people in order to morph himself even further. So…yeah, overall I’d say his return isn’t exactly a good thing. I mean, he could change the medical world with these abilities but instead he does this. What an ass! But in all seriousness, I’m absolutely terrified of this man. Just the knowledge that this…thing is STILL out there, still turning people’s bones, is…not exactly a pleasant thought. Like, obviously this is fiction, but I LIVE in England, I still feel like Hulk: Bone Edition could come at me and that’s not a good thing. It’s also interesting that Jared is not seen using The Boneturner’s Tale to…you know, turn bones anymore. I’ve seen someone suggest that maybe he also put the book inside his body, which could definitely be the case, but Mike Crew still seemed to have some sort of connection to Ex Altiora even before he found the book so…I just get the feeling that a single encounter with a Leitner is enough to give someone some weird abilities, although it does make me question where the time might be now…yikes. (Also, if he opened the book at one point, does that mean that Mike could also turn bones? Or did the book specifically choose Jared as if it’s sentient? Honestly I’m just starting to get the vibe that this old-ass bibliophile is responsible for every little bad thing that happens in this podcast.) One other thing about Jared is that now that I think about it, his weird shape is very similar to that of the anatomy students and Micheal. There very well might be some connections there, but I’ll just have to wait and see where they might go. What’s also very curious to me is that…interesting hole that Jared started throwing the bones into. For some reason, it kind of reminded me of that part in Episode 30, where David Laylow was nearly fed to a massive meat grinder. I only say this because Jon straight up says that this statement reminds him of other meat-centric ones, such as Episode 30, but also others like Episode 18, probably. In fact, I wonder if this butcher’s shop is where Toby Carlisle from Episode 18 was getting the meat, maybe he knew Jared. Now, I can’t say how all of these episodes connect perfectly, I just know that there’s a connection. What I do find interesting however is that this episode is home to both meat and bones and…that got me thinking about a theory I had on ✨the horrors✨.

When I wrote about Episode 35, I listed out what I thought the driving forces behind all things spooky in the timeline were, and I mentioned something associated with meat, and something associated with bones as two of them. However, given what we have here, I now think that these “two” are actually the same being. Rather than one being meat and the other being bones, I think there is one singular being with command over bodies in general, and that’s what has been witnessed in every episode with either concept involved so far. This revelation doesn’t really give much, as I still don’t know…what the hell this thing even is, but it has made me want to revisit my list of ✨the horrors✨ with a new coat of paint. So, here it is: Eldritch Gods 2.0!

- The Anglerfish (1, 28)

- Vertigo/The Vast (4, 21, 46)

- The Flesh Hive (6, 22, 26, 32, 36?, 39, 40, 45?)

- The Piper (7, 42?)

- Asag (8, 12, 19, 20, 37, 43, 48?)

- Devouring Darkness (9, 15, 25, 41)

- Eyes (12, 20, 23)

- Isolation (13, 33, 48?)

- Body Horror (14, 17, 18, 30, 35, 49)

- Spiders (16, 32, 38, 48)

- Whatever The Other Circus deals with (24, 44)

- Micheal :-) (8, 26, 47)

And then like…maybe one or two more if the passages Robert Smirke designed do indeed represent ✨the horrors✨. I also guess I should mention the remark I made about these things representing different fears, since I said that one of the reasons I scrapped that theory was because “bones” were just too specific. Now granted, I am not fully reviving this theory, as just because something is scary does not mean it represents fear (even though I still think fear is a core theme of the podcast(, but I will concede it makes the theory…slightly more plausible, but I’m still kind of on the fence about it. So um…yeah! That’s about it for the content of the statement! Overall another great one, a bit of a slow start but it more than made up for it with what happened later on! But of course, I can’t neglect to mention the follow-up and the supplemental because…oh my god this is absolute gold.

“Come on down to The Magnus Institute. We have Jonathan “Ex-theatre kid turned crazed conspiracy theorist” Sims, Martin “pines after his emotionally constipated boss that either hates him or suspects him of murder and steals tape recorders to write poetry” Blackwoood, Sasha “she is totally normal” James, Tim “bisexual icon otherwise known as Joe Spooky” Stoker, and Elias “smokes weed” Bouchard! Simply sell your soul to ✨the horrors✨ of academia, and start your work now!”

So…there’s certainly some interesting things to talk about here. There’s nothing about the statement that really sticks out, or that I haven’t already mentioned, but most of the interest comes from information on the institute staff. Firstly…hell yeah Tim you fucking get it. The man comes back from a horrific worm infestation and gets back to his hobbies of being silly and seducing cops for information. What an absolute legend, I wish he ran the institute, nay, the country. Also find it interesting that Basira has “refused to compromise her position any further”. Hopefully that just means that she doesn’t want to anything outside of sneaking in Gertrude’s tapes, as it would be a shame if those stopped coming in, given how interesting the first one was. It is very funny to me however that Jon says he doesn’t want to get involved in “personal drama”….when he is literally outside Tim’s house stalking him. Never change Jon. Actually please do change. Actually I don’t know. Also we have Not!Sasha, and while I can see why some might interpret her computer troubles as relating to the ones that force Jon to record statements on tape…I personally think she’s just really fucking weird. It also made me realize that doing I.T. in a place like this must seriously suck ass. (Oh god…imagine being in H.R. though…how would you manage the worms…HOW WOULD YOU MANAGE JON OH GOD.) So (almost, looking at you Not!Sasha) all of that is fine and dandy, but things get very interesting when we start to look at Jon’s investigations into Elias. Finally some substantial lore on this guy! (Sure, Jon should probably be looking into Not!Sasha but…he’s still suspicious as well so I won’t hold this one against him, even if his reasoning for suspicion from last episode is dumb as all hell.) So, we learn here that the institute was previously ran by a man named James Wright, who ran from 1973 to 1996. Not only does this mean that Episode 44 was recorded not too long after Elias took over, but it also means that…James Wright probably ran for an unusually short amount of time. I mean, I doubt you’d start running an institute like this in old age, and while he could’ve died in an accident or due to medical complications…I can’t just shake the feeling that he was murdered, despite the lack of information on him. Like, if Elias is being set up as antagonistic, which I feel like he is, then I could see him killing James just to gain his position. But on top of that lore, we learn that Elias joined in 1991, and worked in artifact storage, becoming head of the institute unusually quickly. But more importantly…HE CANONICALLY SMOKES WEED FUCK YEAH!!!! I don’t CARE if the implication is that he doesn’t do so anymore, I will forever believe that he still does it in secret because the amount of hilarious scenarios that could come from that are too good to pass up. But…yeah, this information on his past is weird. Like, you would not expect a stoner with a lackluster university degree to become the head of an eclectic academic institution so easily, let alone to have the personality of the Elias we see here. I saw someone suggest that maybe the real Elias was taken and replaced by one of the things that took and replaced Sasha, since he worked in artifact storage. I personally think it’s unlikely, since that event only transpired due to the table, which was only delivered to the institute fairly recently, but it’s a fun theory nonetheless, and it could explain why Elias seemingly knows that Not!Sasha isn’t who she says she is…and for some reason chooses not to tell Jon and the others. And hey, the table has definitely moved around before given it’s presence in Graham’s house, and maybe Hill Top Road, so it’s technically possible that it’s been to the institute before and was just temporarily moved to victimize someone. But as cool as this idea is, I have a bit of a different theory. It’s looser, but it makes more sense in my head.

You see, I think that Elias Bouchard has done some bad things and that he isn’t entirely moral, but I don’t think he has the worst intentions at heart. Based on all of the information, and the vibes he’s giving off, I think that he has likely witnessed the horrors first hand. This would explain his possible change in demeanor, perspective and personality after joining the institute, his supposed great knowledge on the paranormal, and why he was able to recognize Not!Sasha, without him being some horrific monster. I don’t think he was impersonated, but..he could’ve definitely seen something in artifact storage, or maybe even before then, as it would explain why he started work at the institute in the first place. And…I personally think he wants to avoid ✨the horrors✨as much as possible. He’s seen them first hand, and he wishes to keep them far away. This would explain a multitude of things. It would explain why he’s quite discouraging towards Jon’s attempts at investigation, why he was willing to sacrifice Jon and Martin to deadly C02 if it meant killing Jane, why he’s so quiet about details surrounding Gertrude. And mentioning Gertrude, if we assume that Elias did indeed kill her (which I still think is the most likely course of action, even with the potential of him being a red herring) then this potential worldview of his would explain why he would’ve killed her. Gertrude clearly knew quite a lot about ✨the horrors✨, much more than Jon at least, given how she talks about The Other Circus with such familiarity. And given how it seems that at least two cults have something against her, it’s safe to assume that she made an enemy of eldritch forces. So, Elias killed her out of fear for what she could’ve caused. And that’s why he’s trying to keep Jon calm (and desperately failing, might I add), as he does not wish to kill him as well. I know all of this is a huge claim to make but honestly…I could see it working out. I feel like Elias will end up being a very morally compromised character, one that has good yet potentially misguided intentions at heart, and had to do some terrible things to keep ✨the horrors✨ at bay. …I’ll just have to wait and see, I guess.

So yeah…that’s Episode 49. Another great episode as always, it definitely went some interesting places, and I’m very intrigued by the information on both Jared and Elias. Also, I hope that Tim’s polycule ends up successful (I’m just going to go on that assumption because it’s more fun.) I…once again don’t really know how to end this so uh…here’s a wacky link I found!

http://paypal.com/IFuckingHateJurgenLeitner

- Episode 50, Foundations 🏛️

Statement of Sampson Kempthorne, regarding the workhouse architecture of George Gilbert Scott.

And here we are! I’m now 25% of the way through The Magnus Archives, woohoo! So, did this episode conclude the first quarter of the series in a satisfying way? Well…I mean I guess yeah? Overall, I think the general concept of the episode makes it more than worthy, as having another statement given directly to the guy who founded the institute here does feel very totally fitting. But…I don’t know, it isn’t exactly a favorite for me. Not due to any particular flaws, as always it’s still very enjoyable and far from bad, but I guess I just don’t have that much to say about it, especially in comparison to some of the other episodes from this first quarter of the season. Regardless, there’s still definitely quite a few things worth talking about so uh…how about I get into that?

I’ll start off by saying that this episode does immediately get points for incorporating real-world history into it, which I’ve already said is something I really like in this podcast. As it turns out, Sampson Kempthorne, George Gilbert Scott, and Henry Roberts were all real people, along with the returning Robert Smirke, so it’s cool to see them get incorporated into the plot here. Although, I did find it funny how the case number was “8141206” as that error makes it seem as if the statement was given in 1814…and all of these guys would’ve been children at that point in time. This episode also thankfully gives a bit more information on Jonah Magnus, the founder of the institute. At this point in time he would’ve actually founded the place, unlike in Episode 23, and honestly, I think he would’ve had a lot in common with Jon. I mean, both of them probably talk like the haunted protagonists of Victorian gothic horror novels, and also need some rest, I can see some similarities there. I’ll touch a bit more on Jonah later, but for now I’ll just say that…yeah, those letters are a little…not all that heterosexual sounding. I mean, most old letters between two rich guys do feel kind of fruity by modern standards but…you get what I mean right? But as for the statement, well, I’ve got to say I love how we now have multiple instances of people leaving to New Zealand for the sake of escaping ✨the horrors✨ of England. I don’t know I just think that’s kind of funny. But when we get into the paranormal stuff that happens here…well, it’s pretty vague, but I think I can make some sense of what’s happening here. Obviously the person behind all of this is “The Governor”, someone with the ability to make buildings compress and kill people. My current assumption is that this “Governor” is indeed George Gilbert Scott. Both of them are…well firstly, they’re both really weird, but there’s some other things worth noting here as well. They both have some sort of interest in compressing architecture, we’re nearby the sites of The Governor’s actions, and on top of that, George’s plans were found in Sampson’s house after it started to close in on him. If they are not the same person, then they are at the very least strongly related and working together. However, the existence of The Governor does bring up some interesting ideas. You see, I initially assumed that the darkness worshipped by The People’s Church of The Divine Host was the same thing that appeared in Episode 15 and Episode 41, having the ability to morph rooms in order to trap and kill people. Now, that darkness could’ve still been there in those episodes but…honestly, aside from Sampson’s incident taking place at night, this darkness doesn’t really seem to be present here. This actually makes me think that the darkness and the compression are the results of two different eldritch horrors, and if we go back to the theory on what I think ✨the horrors✨ are, that brings us to a total of thirteen. Now, I still think that there’s actually fourteen eldritch beings at that the death number is meant to throw me off, as the passage that led to the central room in Episode 35 also had weird properties. In fact, that specific passage might actually be meant to represent the compressing horror. So, I still think I’m missing something here if my theory is in the right place, but I feel like I might have made a step in the right direction here. So, uh… Eldritch Gods 3.0!

- The Anglerfish (1, 28)

- Vertigo / The Vast (4, 21, 46)

- The Flesh Hive (6, 22, 26, 32, 36?, 39, 40, 45?)

- The Piper (7, 42?)

- Asag (8, 12, 19, 20, 37, 43, 48?)

- Darkness (9, 15?, 25, 41?)

- Eyes (12, 20, 23)

- Isolation (13, 33)

- Body Horror (14, 17, 18, 30, 35, 49)

- Compression (15, 41, 50)

- Spiders (16, 32, 38, 48)

- Whatever The Other Circus deals with (24, 44)

- Micheal :-) (8, 26, 47)

So there you go! This is my current list until further notice! One last thing I feel is worth mentioning is that Smirke suggests that George had a “patron”, but I have to wonder what that actually means. It could definitely mean The Governor, if he’s a different person, but if George is The Governor…then you could maybe take more a D&D Warlock approach to the term “patron”. Also, I fee I should address why I view ✨the horrors✨ as “eldritch”. Simply put, some spoiler-free content on tma I saw called it eldritch horror, so I’m just going on the assumption that’s what’s being dealt here. I only say this because there is still some good evidence for all of this to be the work of demons, or something along those lines, so I wanted to explain why I have this interpretation. Anyways uh…back to the statement! So, the other main thing of intrigue that came from this episode was of course the return of Robert Smirke, which also acts as our first look at him as a character. And…he’s pretty confusing to me. You see, with the way that he talks about George’s architecture, how he bashed it and says that Sampson was lucky to not have to work with him much longer, you’d assume he stands in opposition to whatever George / The Governor is doing. But then again, HE built the passages underneath the reform club, as well as the ones beneath the institute, so he’s not entirely resolved of making creepy architecture either. Now granted, I have suggested that you can serve one horror and be against others. For example, I believe Gerard serves whatever horror connects to eyes, but that he’s against Vertigo/The Vast and Asag given his actions. The problem however is that Smirke built the tunnels which I believe reflect ✨the horrors✨, so…that would mean he doesn’t really have a side in this conflict (which I assume to be the conflict Micheal talks about). Overall Smirke’s motivations and morality are very enigmatic at the moment. But what’s even more interesting here is that based on Sampson’s words, it seems that while the institute was founded in concept by this point, the actual building might not have been, since Jonah was working at Edinburgh Townhouse. This makes it possible that Jonah built the institute over the tunnels even though he had knowledge of Smirke’s strange designs. Which like, I get it, if you have an interest in the paranormal that’s fair enough of a move to make but…it just makes me worry about the purpose of the institute a lot more, and also makes me concerned for Jonah’s fate. I feel like an overarching theme of the story is that if you dig too deep, you’ find something you wish you hadn’t found, which makes me very fearful for the history of the institute, everyone currently working there…and myself, now that I think about it. (And if the institute has a stake in the “struggle” Micheal mentions…are they aligned with the compression horror?) Overall, while this episode isn’t an all-time favorite for me, it’s given me enough to think about going forward. The history of the institute, The Governor and the…odd themes of poverty abuse that follow him now that I think about it, and Smirke’s architecture are all very interesting topics that I would love to see get expanded further. While it’s not my favorite episode, I think it certainly works as a finale to the first quarter of the podcast.

Oh yeah, the supplemental. Uh….I mean, this one is fairly brief but that’s fine because it’s funny as fuck. Oh Tim…you have no idea do you? I mean, that’s not me saying that Jon reciprocates Martin’s feelings at the moment, because have you SEEN the man? What I am saying is that…Tim really is a bestie ignoring the plot isn’t he? Like, I love him, but he has NO idea where the romantic subplot is going. But outside of that, it’s nice to know Basira is still trying to give out the tapes, and it’s also good to see that Jon is finally in…some form of therapy. Hooray for marginal improvement!

Well, that’s a wrap on the first quarter of season two, as well as the first quarter of the entire podcast! In conclusion, season two has been absolutely fantastic so far. So many great episodes like Grifter’s Bone, Tightrope, Literary Heights and The New Door have already blown me away, and it makes me even more excited to see what the rest of the season will dish out. The supplementals are a great way to advance the plot, and the directions all of the characters and storylines are taking are extremely satisfying and/or interesting. Looking back it’s…kind of insane that I’ve gotten this into the podcast. I initially started listening because I wanted to write my own horror, and thought something to have in the background for inspiration would be nice. But then I listened to the first two episodes while doing mundane busywork in a class and…it absolutely hooked me. And here I am, writing ass-long posts about them. I still intend to write my own works in the future someday, and I’m working on it as we speak, but I’ve just got to say it’s been such a delight getting deep into this, and everyone who worked on this podcast has my highest respect. And as always, thank you for reading of you’ve made it this far, I consider you an absolutely legend of perseverance if you’re able to listen to someone ramble for this long. In conclusion, Jon needs a nap, Martin needs a happy relationship, Tim needs all of the riches in the world, Not!Sasha needs to die, Elias needs to explain himself, Gertrude needs to explain herself, Basira needs to be careful, Helen needs to GET THE FUCK OUT OF THERE, and Micheal needs to get in my life right now. See you next time :).

#the magnus archives #tma #jonathan sims #martin blackwood #gertrude robinson #robert smirke #elias bouchard #gerard keay #jennifer ling #alfred grifter #diego molina #nikolai denikin #breekon and hope #jane prentiss #mikaele salesa #tim stoker #not!sasha #jurgen leitner #mike crew #micheal keay #micheal the doorman #helen richardson #jared hopworth #james wright #jonah magnus #the governor

[laylaylamode]

Green, Blue, Soccer Ball — Rain, DJ, and Laika

Excellent choices... 👀

🟢 Green- Rain's open honesty can be a problem at times. She gets somewhat of a pass because she's young but there are times when she openly questions adults or calls them out on things. She's not trying to be disrespectful but is bringing attention to what she thinks they overlooked. Doing this tends to get her in trouble at school but those who know her understand that she says things out of genuine concern. And if someone is too afraid or shy to speak up she'll do it on their behalf. Rain wants to look out for anyone and everyone.

DJ can be really cocky at times but he has to be. He's small for his age, gets into fights, and isn't taken seriously by his peers (and sometimes his own siblings). He has to puff himself up and be overconfident or he'd be insecure. Acting cocky gives him the strength to protect what he cares about and fight for what he believes in. In his words: "A cool captain such as myself has to take care of his crew!"

Laika tends to hyper focus on things. With him being an artist he sometimes concentrates too hard on little details instead of seeing the big picture, and pulling him away from something he's focusing on is difficult. He simply can't leave things unsolved, but this attention to detail comes in handy when situations are impossible to decipher. Laika will find a pattern or a solution quickly because he's already analyzed it a thousand times over within milliseconds. He's actually really smart but so quiet that no one realizes it yet.

🔵 Blue- Rain would spend a day of uninterrupted peace in the lab with her daddy. She loves going to the O'Neil Tech building with AJ and likes to help him or watch him work. With music in the background, a break room full of snacks, and machines and tech for her to work with, it's the ideal day for her! (Give her something to disassemble and reassemble and she'll stay put for hours lol.)

DJ would spend peaceful day going on nature walks. And they're good for him! Because he's extremely curious and mentally recording things like sounds, tastes, textures, and feelings into his sensory bank. He'll go with walks on the beach with Nia, hikes through the forests with Jia, and roams the city with AJ. All with a big smile as he soaks everything in.

Laika's peaceful day would be spent touring museums. He's already been to the ones in Townsville and nearby cities but Cindy surprised him with a visit to the museums in Paris and New York via portal. Laika likes to analyze how the old masters did their paintings and it makes a difference to see something in person versus a picture of it. And since he likes to explain the artwork to whoever that he's with, he'll be a lot more engaged and talkative than he usually is.

⚽️ Soccer Ball- Rain is always rooting for DJ. He's the youngest and thus the baby of the group, and since the twins are closest to each other then Rain is closest to him. She sees the insecurities in DJ that the others don't. She knows that he's struggling and when he's pushing himself too hard, and for that reason Rain is his biggest cheerleader. All of his little accomplishments are s big celebration in her eyes and she wants him to know that.

DJ has huge admiration for Jia and wants to be just like her. Traveling worlds and helping people, swashbuckling the bad guys, and making the universe a better place little by little. Knowing that his mother started off small and with health issues like he was, and seeing how strong she is now, motivates him to reach that level of success. Further into the future when he's an adult, he still holds on to the values that Jia taught him and honors her passing by continuing her work of improving the universe.

Laika has high admiration for his dad but he'll be damned if he tells him lol. There's no beef or anything between them and Beat fully supports all of his kids, but Laika constantly being compared to his dad has given him a bit of a complex. Because they look, act, sound, and play music alike, Laika feels like he is constantly fighting to get out of his dad's shadow. Even so he still respects Beat with the highest honor and wants to be as confident as he is. Laika will shrug off his father's compliments but secretly the validation warms his heart and he'll smile when he thinks Beat isn't looking (Beat sees it though lol).

Thanks for asking!

#ask #onelastfic #callyieverse #tales of mewni #future au #rain butterfly #dj jones #Laika brittle #oc ask meme

[tsunflowers]

these are the characters from my hit never to be written harem isekai novel "physician, heal thy elf"

main character, the physician. I couldn't decide on a gender for them so I just didn't give them one. they do have boobs though. their default expression is exhausted and bored but they do experience other emotions. in life they worked with patients who weren't being taken seriously by other doctors due to rare or misunderstood conditions and when they were isekai'd into a situation where they had to care for an elf with a rare untreatable illness they felt like it was a cosmic joke. unbelievably patient and kind despite a stern exterior. people they've helped become extremely devoted to them

the elf queen is a total milf who thinks only of her daughter and her kingdom. a little bit ditzy bc those are her only thoughts but she usually passes it off as being serene. I’m thinking of her like yor from spy x family if she didn’t kill people

the elf princess is like a sickly baby bird. often confined to bed and has tuberculosis cough. her condition is probably something that’s plagued the royal family for generations but no one knows what it is in spite of that and it makes the physician so mad. their predecessors were Not keeping good records. she’s your classic girl who doesn’t leave the house so she lives out her fantasies in romance and adventure novels. she’s always begging the physician and company to tell her stories of their travels and not leave out ANY of the details (she wants to hear the sex stuff). I picture her wearing a very sexy translucent nightgown all the time but these are the limitations of dollmakers

the male members of the adventuring party/polycule

the wolfboy is a big guy who's super chill and easygoing. there’s nothing to hate about him. except the other werewolves are all pissed off bc he goes around in his halfway form like a common beastman. but he’s a chef so he has to use his wolf senses to sniff out rare ingredients, which is why he wants to travel around with the physician looking for herbs

the catboy's mom is a renowned sorceress but he’s not particularly magically gifted so he has access to his family’s luxurious lifestyle but also a constant sense that he’s a disappointment. he wants to find something to make his mark in and become famous in his own right but he’s also profoundly lazy and only interested in get rich quick schemes. and he’s rude as hell

the female members of the polycule/adventuring party (the elf princess is part of the polycule but not the adventuring party)

the orc girl is considered a top class woman among orcs who’s very feminine and dignified but pretty much no other culture would feel the same. this doesn’t shake her bc in her own eyes she is already perfect and has everything figured out. she is the main character of her own life and is just on this journey to see what life is like for other people

the lamia girl is mysterious and quiet, revealing few details about her past. very “wouldn’t you like to know?” with a sly smirk. this is a persona she’s created bc she’s very shy and lamia are so rare that people seem to expect a woman of mystery. I’m thinking that she’s autistic and she loves to catalogue the world around her in a series of sketchbooks. but she’s worried people will think it’s cringe so she cultivated this air of mystery so she doesn’t have to talk about it

[roosterteethwatchdog]

Sorry to bother you out of nowhere, but I just wanted to ask if you’ve seen this tweet from Laura Yates, the supervising producer for RWBY?

https://twitter.com/laurayates/status/1559735343993217024?cxt=HHwWgICzpYLCpaUrAAAA

Given RT’s long track record of mismanagement, in addition to this being a blanket statement with qualifiers attached that doesn’t elaborate on actual issues the production crew face, it is extremely hard to believe in this statement.

Yes, I have and it's a bit weird to me, saying "We don't crunch, as a team" to me comes across as them saying there's no crunch as a technicality. They could've just said "oh they are still some crunch, but we've been handling it to make sure the different parts of the crew face as little as possible" or something like that but again, framing it as a technicality, to me, feels off. I don't know if she can't go into further detail because of NDA or because she just doesn't want fans to be concerned. Even then if it's at an individual level can't they just be stopped by their boss? I don't know how much power she has as a supervising producer, but can't she give some level of input in regard to that? I'm pretty sure contract workers are going to work more than required so they can increase their chances of their contract getting renewed or becoming full time, while regular employees will do it for overtime or so they can have a higher chance of getting promoted and not fired.

I also wonder if the team being smaller is affecting it. I'm assuming the team is smaller since half of the people who worked on V8 are gone. they probably just got a bunch of contractors to replace them. I'll also say that people don't have to worry about Arrowfell. Those cutscenes were done for awhile even before the movies were announced. I also saw something interesting that happened a couple of days before this. Someone was talking about the movies on the RWBY Reddit and the Brand Director actually responded to it and said this (screenshots taken from @rwbysus on twitter) :

So, the two things I want to talk about is the comment about additional projects and the one about V5 circumstances. First of all, either the two movies and V9 are all they got or there's more stuff unannounced because from my V8 CRWBY credits deep dive, half of the team is gone, with 34 leaving last year and 27 leaving this year so far, so did you run out of stuff to put them on or did you have to downsize or did you actually replace them all or is there just more unannounced stuff? Second of all "V5 circumstances aren't the same" I'm getting sick of V5 and Genlock getting brought up only to be used to shutdown concerns about the crunch before Genlock ever existed and the possible crunch afterwards. I've said numerous times on this blog that the animation department was always on fire and that a lot of the RvB seasons and RWBY seasons and 2d stuff was made with crunch and it sucks that the crunch before genlock isn't talked about a lot, and no one seems to care. This is just my perspective on all this.

Her words may keep the average fan at bay, but for someone like me who actually spoke with people back in 2019 when all the crunch stuff came out (even though Rooster Teeth was super public about crunch in their early days) and knows how the animation department functioned I'm going need more than this.

#rwby #rwde #rooster teeth #roosterteeth

[beautifulpersonpeach]

Repost: Ask on Mitski and on BTS Losing their Love for Making Music

Anonymous: Hi! Recently, because of Tiktok, I discovered this artist, Mitski. While I do like the music I've come across, I haven't dove into her full discography. I was curious about her since it seems like there's a lot of coversations occuring about her on the app and while I was reading her wikipedia, I came across this: She has stated her main reason for quitting was that she had a difficult time grappling with new-found indie stardom when her 2018 album Be the Cowboy hit the mainstream. She said the music industry felt like a "super-saturated version of consumerism", and that in the industry "you have to be a product that's being bought and sold and consumed". She regrets using her actual name to release music because it not longer felt like it belonged to her, and she felt like "a foreigner" to herself. She feared that by continuing to make music, eventually she would begin to produce music she didn't care about.

I wonder for artists like BTS, especially Namjoon and to a somewhat lesser extent Yoongi who both have publically commented on their artist/idol personas, if this is part of their struggles too. Especially for Namjoon who got a lot of flack from both Armys and non-Armys about his statement of them not releasing an English song or album and then coming out with Dynamite, and who has been open about his struggles with his artistry as well. For Yoongi, I think he's come to terms with who he is as an artist while Namjoon is still somewhat finding his way, based off of the comments I can remember from their interviews in the past few years. I guess as an ARMY, one of my biggest fears as a fan is for BTS to lose their love for creating music that are from their heart. So reading this and remembering those interviews made me a bit sad. I think this is a struggle for all artists, yes? A lot of them can't do music for the sake of music if they want to survive and we're just fortunate that BTS was able to do it, keep making music they want and not only earn but also dominate. I've found artists through you that people around me wouldn't even know. How many artists are there out in the world who are so passionate and talented but can't catch that big break? There was also this part: Mitski has stated in interviews that she has an uneasy relationship with her fans because she finds their relationship to her and her music overwhelming. She found the "worshipful commentary" about herself online damaging to her self-image. Her fanbase has been described as both 'extremely online', "cultish", and as rivaling Taylor Swift and BTS in intensity, if not size. In an interview in 2022 she described the audience at one of her shows as "unrelenting. Everyone needed a piece of me; I was so overwhelmed by hands grabbing at me that I was crying." In February 2022, Mitski tweeted out a statement regarding her feelings about fans using their phones at shows to record entire songs and sets. Watching fans record her shows, she felt "as though those of us on stage are being taken from and consumed as content". It reminded me of the MV of interlude: shadow and reading it made me feel the same choking feeling I felt when I first watched the MV. I've seen discourse in Tiktok on people fighting about their 'right' to record her shows when she's expressed that she doesn't want anyone doing so. I can't even imagine the pandemonium that would happen if BTS expressed the same (not that I think they would ever bec they're entirely used to cameras up in their faces now and seem to be capable of ignoring it somewhat while being aware of themselves). This begs the question: how much of artists are fans entitled to? Isn't the music enough. Does ARMY feel the same to BTS?

Mitski is often described as a private person. In interviews, she has declined to give specific details about her family and share the names of her two cats. She has explained that the choice to be private has made some people angry, because she has not held up her side of the bargain as a public figure. As an Asian-American woman, she felt pressure to represent her community. She expressed discomfort at the idea of people looking to her for guidance and seeing her as a leader of change in a white male-dominated industry. This reminds me of BTS too and some ARMY's appetite for knowing everything about them. We're lucky that a lot in the fandom actively pushes back on those who toe the line of privacy the boys have clearly set up. We are all aware of the pressure on BTS as Asian artist but for Mitski, it's a whole different battle altogether too. I can't even imagine. What do you think, BPP?

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Hi Anon,

I loved reading this. There are many parts of your ask that I want to highlight.

“I guess as an ARMY, one of my biggest fears as a fan is for BTS to lose their love for creating music that are from their heart.”

I’d say they feel the same as you do as they’ve been singing about this fear for years now, which to me shows how real of a threat it can be to an artist. The lyrics of several songs from Born Singer to Black Swan say as much.

“A lot of them can’t do music for the sake of music if they want to survive and we’re just fortunate that BTS was able to do it, keep making music they want and not only earn but also dominate.”

There are many motivators for ARMYs supporting BTS and this is one of them. Making music can be costly, and especially in the k-pop industry that churns groups out like poptarts on a conveyor belt to be consumed for a few years tops then sidelined for the next batch of groups, the cold hard truth is that a group has to be widely profitable to have longevity. You say “we’re just fortunate BTS was able to do it”, but I think it was more than mere fortune or chance. ARMYs decided to help make this a reality for them and this is one primary goal of ARMYs learning charting rules all over the world to know how to play fair. Many ARMYs were won over by BTS’s passion and commitment to making music together, so the feeling was, ‘whatever we can do to get these guys in a position where they can make whatever music they want, we’ll do it.’ When Taehyung said they no longer feel pressure to make a particular type of music and feel more freedom to do more of what they want, that made me very happy. They’ve shown unexpected sides to them in their solo music so far, and I’m really looking forward to all the solo and OT7 releases this year.

“This begs the question: how much of artists are fans entitled to? Isn’t the music enough?”

You know, I started writing a long paragraph here about what k-pop fans think they’re entitled to and the differences in some dominant attitudes with k-pop fans and ARMYs then scrapped the whole thing because, I honestly don’t think we’re ready for that conversation. Every single person including myself will be implicated and the picture is not pretty. I will say that ARMYs are the one fandom that though imperfectly, tries to consider this question in how they engage with BTS. All those 'ARMY rules’ people are constantly coming on Tumblr to complain about, are one imperfect expression of it and it’s one reason I’m a bit sympathetic towards the fandom. As you say here: “We’re lucky that a lot in the fandom actively pushes back on those who toe the line of privacy the boys have clearly set up.” BTS’s music is the primary reason I became a fan and this is the experience of several ARMYs I know, so I think for a lot of us, the music might be enough. But that’s not how k-pop functions and that’s the truth.

“Does ARMY feel the same to BTS?”

I don’t know. I think you’re right about RM still figuring things out and it’s very possible that in the not too distant future, BTS might do other things besides music, or music together. I think that, post-Grammys, there’ll be a sequence of events that will happen very quickly and we’ll have more clarity on but it’s too early to speculate now. On how BTS feels about ARMY, I really like what RM said about ARMY here:

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You know, Mitski is an artist I love but she’s a bit of a special case. There’s been some controversy around how her dad worked as a CIA operative during a time of violent regime change in Central Africa. And as usual on the internet, people were unrelentingly critical saying she apparently grew up privileged but 'marketed’ herself as a grassroots radical spearheading anti-capitalist and queer politics. People have said she white-washed her American and Japanese heritage in the cowboy myth in her music and basically romanticized 'genocidal colonizer’ attitudes. I kid you not. People were going to her concerts solely to write reviews criticizing the whole thing from start to finish. So, her statements aren’t surprising to me given, well, how huge swarths of people have decided to mischaracterize her whole career.

Sometimes, when I talk about how minority artists are discussed I now realize some people might not have sufficient context for what I’m talking about. But that right there is one example.

Originally posted: March 22nd, 2022 10:45am

#bts army #fandom #mitski #repost

[michaelbradleyattorney]

Legal Pathways: A Guide for Personal Injury Victims Seeking Redress

Experiencing a personal injury can be a life-altering event, plunging victims into a world of physical pain, emotional distress, and financial uncertainty. The journey to recovery isn't just about healing physically but also securing the support and compensation necessary to manage the consequences of the injury. The legal system offers mechanisms for redress, yet the complexity of legal processes can seem intimidating. This guide provides a comprehensive look at the options for legal recourse available to those who have suffered personal injuries, illustrating how victims can effectively advocate for themselves.

What is Personal Injury Law?

Personal injury law exists to provide a legal remedy for those harmed by the negligence or misconduct of others. This area of law encompasses a variety of incidents, such as traffic accidents, workplace injuries, slips and falls, and medical malpractice. At its core, personal injury law revolves around negligence, which involves proving that the injury resulted from another party's failure to act with reasonable care.

Elements of Negligence in Personal Injury Cases

To prevail in a personal injury lawsuit, the victim must demonstrate four critical elements of negligence:

Duty of Care: The responsible party had an obligation to avoid causing harm.

Breach of Duty: The responsible party failed to fulfill their obligation.

Causation: The breach of duty directly caused the injury.

Damages: The victim incurred actual damages as a result of the injury.

Proving these elements typically requires robust evidence, including medical records, eyewitness accounts, and expert testimony.

Critical Actions Following a Personal Injury

The steps taken immediately after an injury are pivotal in shaping the outcome of a legal claim. Key actions include:

Medical Care: Prompt medical attention not only supports physical recovery but also documents injuries, providing essential evidence for legal claims.

Incident Documentation: Capturing detailed notes and visual evidence at the scene of the incident strengthens the case.

Reporting: Officially reporting the incident, whether to police or a supervisor, establishes a formal record.

Legal Consultation: Engaging with a personal injury lawyer early on can help navigate the complexities of legal claims and negotiations.

Selecting a Personal Injury Lawyer

The choice of lawyer is decisive in the pursuit of justice and compensation. Important considerations include:

Specialization: Attorneys specializing in personal injury will be more familiar with relevant laws and precedents.

Experience: Lawyers with a history of handling similar cases are likely better equipped to anticipate challenges and opportunities.

Reputation: Reviews and testimonials can offer insight into a lawyer’s success rates and client satisfaction.

Communication: Effective communication is essential for keeping clients informed and involved in their case.

Understanding Compensation

Victims of personal injury can seek damages for:

Medical Bills: Covering both current and future medical expenses related to the injury.

Lost Income: Compensation for wages lost due to the inability to work.

Pain and Suffering: Addressing the physical pain and emotional distress suffered.

Punitive Damages: In extreme cases, additional damages may be awarded to punish particularly harmful behavior.

The Process of Pursuing a Personal Injury Claim

The pursuit of a personal injury claim involves several stages:

Case Evaluation: Consulting a lawyer to assess the viability of the claim.

Evidence Collection: Comprehensive gathering of all pertinent information.

Legal Filing: Initiating a lawsuit if a satisfactory settlement isn’t achievable.

Discovery Process: Exchange of evidence between the defense and plaintiff.

Negotiation: Attempting to reach a settlement before trial.

Trial: Presenting the case in court if negotiations fail.

Overcoming Challenges in Personal Injury Cases

Victims may encounter numerous obstacles:

Statute of Limitations: Legal time limits for filing claims vary by jurisdiction.

Insurance Negotiations: Insurers often aim to minimize their payouts.

Assessing Non-Economic Damages: It can be complex to quantify pain and suffering.

For victims of personal injury, understanding and navigating the legal system is crucial for securing necessary support and compensation. Armed with knowledge and the right legal counsel, victims can assert their rights and work towards a future of recovery and justice.

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"I may not have thanked you much at the time, but without you I wouldn't be where I am. I mean that literally. Had you not asked for my help at the Lake, I may have never broken free of the mindset I was in. If you hadn't proven I could stand up for people, I wouldn't have rushed to Goldenrod."

He smiles.

"I may have wonderful parents who I love very much, but you are within my extended family, Lance. Thank you."

" gold... "

for everyone involved, the pre-rocket takedown missions in mahogany town ( and even post in goldenrod ) plays a looped video in all those who were involved minds. it was a rough time - extremely rough. one of the biggest takedowns done by the gmen all while being helped by kids. lance has never really forgiven himself for all of it. no child should've gone through that and was something he was so adamant on after the rocket incidents in kanto years prior.

a part of him tells himself in the darkest depths of night those he's accidentally put in danger through the actions he's taken. it comes at him as a broken record, repeating every little detail, exaggerating those he can't say he ever saw for certain. gold, lyra, hell even silver should never have been put into the positions they had been.

there's a running joke amongst the league and the clan about his treatment of the younger protagonists - how he cares for them as a father would, how it wouldn't be surprising to find adoption forms for them all stashed away somewhere in his office. the reality is a lot more brutal than that. lance feels responsible for them. he feels as if he should be the one there to help protect them, guide them, because everything they went through wasn't something a child should.

after a while of course he stopped looking at them like kids. they were seasoned trainers. gold was champion. but that never stopped lance from caring the way he has in the past; the way he does now. and while those actions certainly spoke louder than the words kept in his heart he never quite saw the otherside of that coin - that gold would think the same way about him. that they were just as much a family.

he wishes they never went through what they did, but he'll be damned if he wasn't proud of the person gold, and the others, had become. taking a deep breath in, mostly to compose himself, lance finally allows himself to smile even when slight tears prick, blink and they're gone.

" that strength has always been inside of your heart and soul, gold, and it shines so brightly even now. we never quite discussed what happened beforehand and what made you feel the way you did, but shaking that off, taking the rest of your life in stride; that was all you. "

his hand reaches for gold's shoulder to grasp with all the affection he can muster without directly hugging him. " I am so proud of you, and that goes for all of you. not just your strength and determination, but even parts of you which you may dislike or more. you are a part of my family as much as I am yours. you'll always have a home with us. "

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Recovery Journal Entry #3

About progress after highly traumatic event. All journal entries are tagged #recovery journal

Aim is to be record of personal growth and to provide catharsis from sharing into the void. Also: maybe be seen by someone who has gone through similar, or is going through similar, and can feel camaraderie. Disabled people are lovable. No matter how we may be treated.

Many content warnings apply, specifically disability-related trauma as an over-arching theme. Brutal honesty ahead. About the situation and my own self-perception.

It’s been a bit over a month since the “big abandonment”. The whole: ex breaks up with me morning after I experience a dislocation in my back (while bent over plating dinner for them while they sat and watched) which rendered me reliant on them for general survival and care. I had to be dragged about like a rag doll, and eventually crawled on all fours to my bed, the entire process from getting from the floor downstairs to my bed taking approximately 7 hours.

Honestly the more details i give the worse it gets. To the point I feel extreme shame. I almost pissed myself from the pain, crying on the floor. I was supposed to be on bedrest. But they broke up with me while I laid in bed the next day, naked and yeah: afraid. Literally naked and afraid. Whole family on a different continent on vacation, terrified of how I was going to feed myself. Take care of myself. They had to help me walk to the bathroom right before the breakup. Like I laid down from bathroom trip and boom. They had to literally help me sit down on the seat. Gone, and didn’t look back. And terribly afraid for my own safety, I was alone.

I blame myself. I have a long trend of being uncomfortable with people who genuinely care about me, or want to help me. As a side effect, I avoid those who show genuine selfless interest, and pursue romantic and platonic relationships with those who I feel like can be the center piece of the dynamic, while I fade into the background. I prefer taking care, not being taken care of. My family have been the only ones who know how hard I struggle. They have taken care of me so much. I have lived in terror of another person baring witness to me in that state. And it happened. And it was one of the most traumatizing experiences of my life.

It’s an ego boost, when you’ve struggled with independence your whole life, to feel like people need you, not the other way around. Honestly: it’s a form of using people. I take this accountability. I date people who want me to be their therapist, do their laundry, make them dinner, book their appointments, clean their messes, always being there, always doing, always fixing, always serving, with nothing in return. On and on and on and on.

I am more comfortable acting like someone’s mother than someone’s equal. This has been all three of my relationships. And all three breakups, were in part due to my disability. All my exes knew, by what I verbally told them, how bad it was. My diagnoses were clear and information was forthcoming. I just took great care that they never saw, as much as I could hide.

Look at how independent I am! Look how useful! Look at how little I need! You’ll be gone by the time I break, unawares, back at your place, while I crumble. So what’s it to you? At least I seem capable. At least I seem lovable. Why would you want to leave me when I’m so helpful. Maybe, I can respect myself, love myself, if I just do a little more, sacrifice a bit more.

I’m done. I’m done. Having the fear of god struck into me, partially by my own making; the flashbacks, the sobbing, the fucking depression. The sheer fucking trauma. The sleepless nights. Waking up from nightmares even over a month later. Of being left. Abandoned.

I’ve got to get my shit together.

I dated an ass who knew I was already physically disabled, and unwell, who plopped food in front of me and sat there, sitting, waiting for me to present it to them on a literal platter. Who complained I didn’t do the laundry fast enough, meanwhile my shoulder was still recovering from two previous dislocations over the past month and a half. They had already shown signs of not being there for me, not giving a shit when I asked for support. Relying on me for their needs to a severe extent but being actually cruel when asked to do so in return.

How perfect for me! Someone who can see me as strong, and capable. Maybe they’ll ignore my disability this way. Maybe they’ll respect me, this way. Sure, I asked them to be better. I expressed my discomfort. But I didn’t leave. Because in reality, I chose this. And the alternative: someone who loves me truly, and wants to be there for me equally as much as I am for them, scares the fucking shit out of me.

I’m angry. I’m angry with them, but primarily with myself. This is a huge realization I’ve made about myself, brand spanking new as of a few days ago, and I plan to rebuild my life from the foundations up accordingly.

I don’t want to be a perpetual self-enabled and self-made victim. I know I am objectively a victim of my ex’s actions, but I am also a victim of myself. My inability to love myself. Accept myself. Believe I deserve love. I’m a victim most of all of my supreme avoidance of vulnerability that isn’t concocted or planned, to make me seem vulnerable when I’m not. I am a victim of my own internalized ableism, inherited from how I was raised, which persists as a subconscious resentment and fear of abandonment to such a severe extent that I pursue people who treat me like shit to feel safe and pathologically avoid those who treat me well in return.

I still am staying up at night wondering if they’ll ever apologize, or go out of their way to even check if I’m still alive. But I need to remind myself: that isn’t the point. I deserve love. They weren’t it. But I deserve love from myself first and foremost. Not for how useful I am to other people, or how much I can prove to myself I’m not “actually disabled”. I deserve love for my humanity. Just cause I’m alive. And because I try my best.

Reminder to my future self, or even a disabled person, who might read this maybe someday. Maybe my future kid, cause I know I’ll save these journals-

You deserve love. No matter your struggles. No matter how many times someone has made you feel you don’t. No matter how many doctors have gaslit the shit out of you, how many friends and family have let you down, how many people have stared or gawked or commented. You deserve love. You will be loved. You are loved. And never give up. You know what you deserve. Deep inside. Fucking fight for it.

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Six Suggestions On Just How To Decide On Kissimmee Termite Treatment Provider

It is always extremely hard to take care of bug sign in a country like Kissimmee because of its previous environmental adjustments and also is the reason you require to choose the right Kissimmee termite treatment provider. If you want to entirely deal with various kinds of parasites, the majority of pest control business have put in a great deal of information in study as a method of thinking of new study pesticides that are actually extremely helpful. Termites have consistently been actually a nuisance and also the simple fact that the bugs grow at a really fast cost indicates that proper control devices have to be implemented. There are very a lot of providers in Kissimmee that are known to deliver pest control services but a number of all of them may certainly not deliver you the greatest companies.

The complying with are a few of one of the most important recommendations that can easily utilize in order to opt for the correct pest control provider in Kissimmee:

1. Adventure

A company that has actually functioned for a long time will certainly reside in a far better role to deal with hard instances of pest sign. It is consistently a really good suggestion to look at business that are incredibly experienced in the field given that it is actually complicated to be a specialist in parasite control without having actually managed different situations pest manifestation. Staff members that have some 1st palm adventures in insect control remain in a much better role to carry out a great task compared to those that carry out not possess any expertise.

2. Provider online reputation

It is actually good to talk to all around as well as also went through some evaluations to recognize one thing regarding the track record of each business. You must find out about the efficiency of their medications as well as company distribution just before you can easily decide to hire all of them. Firms that make the most ideal insecticides will undoubtedly have a great credibility and reputation compared to those that perform certainly not produce top quality chemicals. It is not suggested to rely on ads given that the performance of chemicals may occasionally be actually overemphasized.

3. Quality and also worth of job

Companies that offer the most ideal prices and have high quality medicines must be actually considered when selecting the right termite treatment Kissimmee business. The high quality of a certain item calculates its prices as well as you should only purchase a certain item knowing that you receive worth for your money.Companies that use guarantee to their items need to also be actually taken into consideration especially if you want to register for a long term contract.

4. The client relations

It is essential to choose a firm with the best customer service campaigns if you wish to acquire top quality services. Customers may possess various issues as well as a good business ought to be willing to attend to each one of them. The firm ought to have the capacity to reveal to you all the feasible impacts of a certain type of insect control and also all at once clear up all details. Using a particular chemical possesses a particular degree of pest control as well as practices and also it is vital to choose Kissimmee Termite Treatment provider that can clarify to you all the details.

5. Security

It threatens ahead in contact with chemicals due to the fact that they are quite dangerous and that is actually why it is wise to choose a provider that has proper safety measures in location. Each item has its own dangers as well as it is crucial for a bug control firm to talk about such hazards with its own consumers. Such impacts can be reduced if the business explains to consumers the absolute most ideal methods of using certain drugs. There are numerous environmental worries that are actually linked with making use of chemicals as well as the provider you pick must want to address them. The use of chemicals comes with a considerable amount of dangers like visibility to the unsafe chemicals as well as other sorts of accidents which is why it important to choose a company that can produce appropriate security.

6. Worker qualifications

Insect control is a profession and also it is essential to validate if the workers in a specific firm are gotten the work.

The majority of customers think that examining worker certifications is actually certainly not needed but that is actually a really serious error due to the fact that it impacts the top quality of their job. The employees as well as the firm need to be actually permitted by the pertinent governing bodies before the firm may start delivering parasite control solutions. The company should satisfy t all the requirements prepared by the Kissimmee authorities to provide the very best companies.

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Make Your Laptop Look Classier With The Laptop Leather Bag

The PC is perhaps of the most fundamental electronic gadget today. It has surpassed the prominence of the personal computer. Be it an understudy or a money manager, it is utilized by each one. It assists us with carrying on our work without a hitch and makes them less problematic. To that end we ought to deal with it by furnishing it with a decent quality PC pack, so the screen and its edge doesn't get scratched or breaks, assuming on the off chance that it incidentally tumbles down or something falls on it. A portion of the highlights that you ought to have in your PC sack are given beneath.

The first and front most thing that you ought to purchase in the event that you have a PC is a decent and solid PC sack. There are various kinds of PC packs, however the most utilized and hard-wearing one is the PC calfskin sack. It sounds a piece irrelevant, yet to have one will be extremely valuable without a doubt. A Multifunctional laptop bag not just makes the PC handier to continue, yet in addition gives security.

The calfskin packs are produced remembering these two things. The PC calfskin packs are explicitly intended to convey the PC effortlessly. Alongside the PC you might in fact do your confidential records and papers in different chambers gave taken care of; they have adequate space for the other office adornments like pen, envelopes too.

Prior to going to purchase the PC pack, you are encouraged to take care that there are a portion of the significant and unmistakable elements that will help you. The nature of the materials that are utilized in making the PC cowhide packs are of top notch. There are a mix of style and works, and can oblige all the computerized and travel extras and the workplace stuffs that you might require. Do take care that the PC calfskin pack that you purchase suits the size of your PC impeccably. A few compartments with multifunctional, movable folds and pockets are a particular element of those PC sacks.

One of the main elements of the packs is that, there is a supported and cushioned pocket to store the line of the PC and a lash to get the PC inside. See that the buttons of the sack major areas of strength for have feet so it allows the pack to stand when you hold it down, and furthermore the shoulder lash ought to be sufficient.

There are numerous originators who have planned cool and tasteful PC cowhide packs in various varieties and material. It is at this point not a dreary errand to track down the right and ideal sack for your costly PC, as long as you pick the right pack that is solid and very much made. You will find packs of various shapes and sizes inside different reaches that will clearly suit your spending plan. In this way, get the best out of those for your PC, after all it assists you with doing all your everyday undertakings and business.

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Wedding Cinematography: The Art of Capturing the Details.

Best wedding photographers in Gurgaon Wedding videography is a competitive space in the wedding industry; there are many reasons why it’s an expensive option. And while you might think that videotaping the entire ceremony and reception is enough to get those detailed shots, there are many more. However, in this blog post, you’ll see how hiring a professional to film your big day can be worth every penny!

The Importance of Cinematography in Wedding Films

If a picture is worth a thousand words, how many are captured moments of live-action worth?

Destination wedding photographer The importance of cinematography in wedding films is often overlooked. However, the art of capturing the details makes or breaks a film. As a couple getting married, your goal should be to have a film that will talk about what happened in your celebrations – when mother sang traditional songs, when we danced on dhol, when we cried a little, when we laughed so much.

The traditional style of wedding videography is elaborative – long shots, extended cuts, lengthy music, and wedding cinematography is crucial to telling the story behind the wedding celebrations.

What Makes a Great Wedding Film

The cinematography does not just start with the film itself; it starts with asking the right questions of the couple who will be married. Not only do we need to know the details of the wedding, we also need to know how you met, how long have you been together, when is the date, when did you decide to get married and more! Having a wedding video in India is a common practice and wedding videos have become a little too ‘run of the mill’ and something that is taken for granted Candid and destination wedding photography.

A great wedding film is one that includes those small details that make it unique. A cinematographer’s job is to capture the essence of the celebrations – not just the bride entering the venue, but also the groom waiting anxiously for her – capturing those first-look moments.

It’s about capturing the little moments when guests are exchanging hugs and laughter, when they’re cutting into their cake; when they’re celebrating or dancing. It’s about taking in the atmosphere of the venue. It’s also about using that creativity to tell a story with imagery and music – something that will touch each guest’s heart, something that will be talked about for years to come. A great wedding film is one that is made with love and care Pre wedding photographers in Delhi ncr.

Proposals and Pricing

Professional offbeat wedding photographers in delhi Like a wedding, our service is extremely personalized. Some couples only want their ceremony covered with one camera. Some couples want three camera coverage starting in the morning, until late into the party. The first step is to get in touch, and tell us your schedule of events!

Cinematic Wedding film’s pricing depends on a lot of variables and every wedding is unique, so we can’t find a way to put a number to it or create standard packages. It is customized according to your requirements. Just to give you an idea, it starts from about 1 Lakh Indian Rupees per ceremony.

Additional services such as personalized music for your wedding film, aerial videography, and same-day edits can be chosen at an additional cost. For grand venues or destination weddings in India, it can add a certain wow factor to the final wedding film Best destination wedding photographers in Gurgaon.

You won’t get to see and hear everything during the wedding, but your wedding cinematographer will be there to make sure your day is recorded forever. If you can fit it into your budget, a wedding cinematographer is a great addition to your line up of vendors—because after all, re-watching your nuptial will be invaluable.

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“I am writing to say thank you so very much for helping us create such a wonderful and unique wedding ceremony. We received many, many glowing compliments on how beautifully the ceremony was captured. Everyone was very impressed and you delivered everything you promised you would. Thank you for being professional and caring in dealing with our special needs we feel that the ceremony turned out magnificently and we are anxiously awaiting the photographs and video to see everything from the audience’s perspective.

Thank you – from the bottom of our hearts for all your hard work and such an amazing finish!”

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san vincente hospital medellin international patient services

Intercontinental Patient Provider (IPD) are committed to supplying one of the most detailed and also customized health care services to individuals traveling from abroad. International Person Solutions (IPS) use their years of experience to meticulously prepare every detail of an individual client's traveling, beginning with their travel planning, their plan, to their separation flight terminal, and ultimately, their a hospital stay house. We are dedicated to delivering world-class patient like those we offer, and also we want to make your overseas journey as smooth and delightful as feasible. With our extremely competent and skilled group of physicians, nurses and team, we will certainly make certain that every facet of your overseas clinical emergency is taken care of with the highest levels of professionalism and trust and also politeness. The objective of IPS is to combine the very best aspects of dedicated individual care and phenomenal clinical service to individuals traveling from abroad to the United States. We are dedicated to offering a high degree of healthcare while stressing patient safety and also convenience. Our dedicated patient service personnel contains totally educated and accredited nurses as well as physicians, in addition to devoted assistance personnel such as physician officers, medical records managers, drug store experts, medical assistants as well as drug store professionals. Since we have the ability to offer one of the most substantial medical screening as well as recommendation service for our global clients, we supply one of the most exact medical info to our patients in addition to giving them with assurance during their time away from residence. Through our scientific expertise, we have the ability to spot any type of prospective clinical problems that can impact the patient's recuperation or go back to typical health and wellness, and afterwards develop a tailored plan of treatment to take the patient from the flight terminal in Turkey, right to the shores of Manhattan, despite where they selected to visit. Each of our medical facilities is dedicated to giving first-rate individual care in one of the most efficient and effective fashion possible. Our commitment to quality control starts at the earliest phases of therapy. We work very closely with doctors and staff in order to ensure that we meet the standards of each individual health center so we can supply the best as well as highest quality like our worldwide individuals. We have extensive quality control standards for every element of the health care of our global people. All physicians and team are called for to meet the highest possible requirements of education, training, qualification, performance assessments as well as supervision. When we are abroad, our teams extend beyond our walls to extend a assisting hand to those people that do not have access to the resources or help that we do. When an global patient requires immediate medical therapy, our committed groups exist. Our registered nurses are offered night and day to help our individuals and their families. When you take a trip abroad to receive health care, the last idea on your mind ought to be how you are mosting likely to pay for it. There are many healthcare shipment services offered to aid you cover your medical treatment abroad. Among one of the most essential elements that add to your recuperation is the follow-up care that you will get once you arrive home. Individuals that take a trip overseas are specifically prone to long periods of seclusion as well as anxiety. 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Among our objectives is to give an incorporated system for the delivery of excellent quality healthcare, consisting of innovative diagnostic and also therapy plans based upon professional best techniques. One manner in which we have looked for to do this is by establishing six local professional collaborating facilities. These medical coordinating facilities will certainly function as the centers for working with the delivery of healthcare in Turkey, north Africa, the Middle East, Central Asia as well as the eastern Mediterranean areas. At each setup, our emphasis will certainly get on improving patient safety as well as high quality of treatment, while creating organizational frameworks to raise collaboration as well as information exchange among the different getting involved health care service providers and firms. In the meantime, we are pleased to introduce that we have actually been effectively dealing with our affiliate in Turkey, the Turkish Nurses Union, to offer affordable, premium quality healthcare to uninsured and also under insured people in Turkey. This belongs to our efforts to broaden our International Individual Providers program. Our other Worldwide Medical care Providers programs will certainly remain to expand the variety of individuals we can offer around the world. Our latest enhancement to our worldwide program consists of a new area in the north of England. For additional information on how we can aid you, please visit our web site

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[sandsofdteam-moved]

Do you mind me asking more about the grave you are working on?

Archeologie sounds so interessiting, getting a glimpse at the lives of people from a time long gone.

So much is different, but there is still so much that is similar

(Why did this turn out so dramatic xD)

yaaa no mind at all! I'm going to be a little vague because a tad bit of sleuthing could give u my actual irl info if I go into detail, but with that being said:

I'm currently on a research trip sponsored by my school to excavate what's thought to be a cemetery, but there's technically no historical record of it, so we don't really know much about the site. By major (and prior research experience) I'm a computational biologist/geneticist, so going into this I had no idea what to expect, but it's been so much fun!

We've found many graves so far, with skeletons ranging in age from an unborn fetus to what was preliminarily assumed to be an old lady, and we've spent the last 3 weeks excavating a large (about 10m x 7m x 1.5m) pit and taking those bones out from it! This week, we have an osteologist (a person who studies bones) who's flown in and so today I was shadowing her and learning how to put together some bones and what things are important to look for when analyzing them. Something I learned today is that the reference population/numbers that the osteologist normally uses isn't really applicable to the skeletons that we've found here because those are for white people in Europe, whereas here it's a lot more diverse in terms of where in the world people were essentially imported from for cheap labor in colonial times, so we need to figure out a different method of calculating the living stature of the man that we found. This is our last week of work before going home, so I'll (hopefully) be working with the osteologist to process all of our skeletons :D My primary interest isn't in osteology, but rather ancient DNA, so I'm looking to maybe be involved in the process of analysis of samples from our skeletons so I can get a full look, from start to finish, of excavating a body, handling it with care both physically and culturally (for example, we had a panel of religious leaders come to survey and essentially give the ok to excavate since we aren't totally sure of the buried peoples' religions, so we wanted to give them their deserved respect by covering all the possible religious beliefs we could), sampling from the skeleton (which is a rigorous and extremely precise process), and then doing the lab work to purify, sequence, and analyze those samples. Right now, since the bodies have literally been taken out of the ground in the past week and a half, we don't have a lot of information but hopefully that'll change as the research process progresses further!

I would highly suggest taking a look at archaeology if you're interested, it's a lot of fun! There's honestly something for everyone: like I said, I'm primarily a biologist but ancient DNA is a great way for me to merge it with my other academic interest in colonial history. Other people I've met with have combined it with management, history, computer science, English, human biology, political science, and so so so much more. It's such a wonderfully wide field that even if you're not a big fan of the physical labor that comes with fieldwork, there's something that you can do to contribute!! I've said it before but little me would've been really fuckin happy if she saw that I was essentially doing the job of a paleontologist but with people, because I can contribute to understanding the very convoluted history of places like where my mom's from, somewhere that has been fucked up by British colonialism and where social tensions run high—there is a shared history between the contending groups, and archaeology can give the unifying history a research-based backing :>

#asks with anon #thank u so much for asking!! feel free to ask more questions #I'm still like. an extremely amateur person though so I can't guarantee I know a lot but I can try #lyss's life #long post

[juteborder5]

Take advantage of long flights or train journeys to reach your workplace by listening to video podcasts and attending training seminars for employees that are publically available.

This article is about making your time work more efficiently for you. Personally, I love wasting time as much as everyone else. Sometimes I enjoy watching television and playing videogames for days or even weeks. Sometimes I need to work. Sometimes, I want it to go on for weeks or months. However, I'll stay at my work. Even then, I still have time to occupy the time. I like watching TV while having fun with gummies and chocolates. I like having fun and playing as if there was no tomorrow. There is always tomorrow, so I'm always on the move to work. I set up and manage extremely sensitive accounting software on servers at 490 Fortune 500 companies , or whatever they refer to it as. In any case I'll say this: the city is bigger than me. I cannot remain in one place for longer than two days, therefore, I leave and go into the suburbs... 3 trains away from the city. It's only 1.5 hours from the capital of any other state. But, I travel to my home city twice the distance. This is the reason I travel to it by car and train, or have someone to drive me to the city. Long-distance chauffeurs can really help. My travels for work require me to fly a lot. However there aren't all the top companies that have offices in every major city. I also enjoy training. It is a hassle. Sometimes I am taken care of by private jets. The wait time is usually shorter when I board those planes. But the 500, are envious of my talent and pamper me sometimes. However, let me say, even with the hours, and possibly even the total of days of travel each week, I do not spend my time in this manner. Gaming with handheld consoles or watching television using my laptop (or the supplied 65 inch screen if I'm in an private flight) will take up half of my time in the airplane. I have videos that I download from Youtube. To use them for DIY videos or for seminars I can save the video mp4 files to my laptop. Sometimes, I don't need a picture and can convert them into MP3 format so that I can play them on my phone. I always trust this YouTube-to-mp3 online MP3 converter to deliver clear, high-quality audio for whatever educational video or seminar I'm watching. The audio is then available as an audio podcast. Sometimes, I have to return to the video because I don't understand the idea, but that doesn't happen very often.

https://listen-to-youtube.net/youtube-to-mp4/ You can find DIY video on my laptop quickly. I prefer watching those that are more detailed. ASMR videos - These are the most enjoyable and easy to convert to mp3 so you can listen to them on great headphones. I downloaded an mp3 of cat's purr. It gave me goosebumps. It is calming and soothing. People whispering is not my thing, however, I do like cats who lick themselves and purring with joy. If I was driving home, I'd occasionally listen to that recorded voice of a cat in order to find relaxation. ASMR could wake you in a completely different way if you're listening to it. Youtube hosts many lectures and seminars about different topics. You can also find recordings of DJ sets recorded at electronic music festivals. These videos I sometimes download as videomp4 filesbecause I love watching them during my flight. Internet is not always reliable or speedy enough to let me download the video, or convert it into MP3 at home. I've downloaded two-hour sessions of DJs for my travels. I enjoy older UK music - techno, garage, breaks and jungle, as well as tech-house. The best of the best that made the rest of the world love dance music.

#listen to youtube #yt to mp3

[invisibleanonymousmonsters]

This Game of Yours

Father of Mine – Part 1 and Part 2

Jason was beautiful.

And somehow that scar that went from the right corner of his mouth up to his temple only made him that much more beautiful to Y/N.

Those blue eyes were the same color of water on a stormy day in the Irish sea. And somehow Y/N knew they held the same tempestuousness.

The white streak weaved with his jet black hair so naturally that Y/N would’ve believed he was born with it.

His shoulders were so broad, making his 6’3 height feel even more imposing. He had a presence. People noticed every time he walked into a room. It made Y/N wonder how he was ever able to sneak up on people as Red Hood.

He was wearing a black hoodie underneath his black moto jacket.

Y/N knew Jason didn’t give a shit about fashion. Yet he was well-dressed without any effort – more so than most of the models Y/N had shot throughout her career.

Not being able to control herself any longer, Y/N raised her camera and took a photo.

Jason stopped surveying their surroundings and his gaze snapped to her.

“What do you think you’re doing?” 

But his growl didn’t scare her in the slightest.

“Anyone who’s by me when I have a camera is at risk of getting their picture taken. No one is safe. Not even you,” she answered his question unapologetically.

Y/N was working on a personal passion project for her next show. Her collection would be about the poverty and crime of Gotham. Half of the photos would show the heaviest crime areas of the city. And the other half would expose the lifestyles of the wealthiest people in Gotham.

Why did so many suffer from the same system that helped the rich get even richer?

When Bruce found out Y/N was going to Crime Alley and the Bowery by herself, he was visibly upset.

But he realized that Y/N would do as she pleased, so his plan b was to give her protective detail.

However, Y/N didn’t know that Jason had volunteered, almost immediately.

Instead, all she heard was Jason grimly telling her, “You’re lucky you haven’t been fucking murdered yet.”

She had only responded with a roll of her eyes.

“I’m not your escort so you can take my picture. I’m here so you don’t get raped or murdered.”

“Has anyone ever told you that you have a way with words?”

His only response was a glare.

Jason loved playing this game. The game of pretending to be irritated with her when actually he was absolutely infatuated with Y/F/N Y/L/N.

“The easiest way to stop getting your picture taken is to always be the one holding the camera,” Y/N added with a smirk and wink.

Jason didn’t answer, only thinking what a shame it was that no one got to photograph her.

Suddenly, the sunlight hit the top of his head perfectly, creating a halo around that thick and messy hair of his.

Y/N snapped another photo.

“Will you stop?” He warned.

It only succeeded in making her laugh.

And that just excited his heart even more.

“Jason, you were born to get your photo taken.” 

There was no joke underneath her words, only sincerity.

“Whatever,” he mumbled.

Jason had a hard time believing that. His skin was riddled with scars. And he was convinced that she’d be singing a different song if she saw his chest, with its thick autopsy scar amongst the so many others. The absolute last word he’d use to describe himself was beautiful. Strong and imposing? Yes. But never beautiful – or any other positive adjective, for that matter.

“I’m not kidding. If you ever want to stop the whole vigilante thing, you can easily become a model.”

Y/N had noticed it as soon as Jason took of his helmet that night. His domino mask had done nothing to prevent her from noting the obvious.

It didn’t take long for Y/N to realize Jason wasn’t like his “brothers.”

“Brothers.” What a strange word.

Should she consider all of them as hers?

Only Damian was actually related to her – and technically he was only her half-brother.

Y/N had watched Jason get on his motorcycle and leave the cave that night she’d almost died.

She’d agreed to stay for dinner and get to know everyone. And a part of her brain was excited to get a better read on the masked man that sat by her bedside as she’d recovered.

“He’s not staying?” Y/N had asked Bruce as he guided her to the stairs that led back up to the manor.

He only shook his head, but she noticed the disappointed expression.

Soon she found out that Jason was the black sheep of this strange family that had taken her in.

Dick was the one who told her about Jason’s dark past. All of it seemed unbelievable: murdered by Joker and brought back to life from a mysterious pit. Only to return to the family who appeared to have replaced him and never sought vengeance on Jason’s behalf. 

But it was true; Y/N had seen no lie in Dick’s eyes when he filled her in.

Suddenly there was yelling coming from around the corner.

Without hesitation, Jason shoved Y/N behind him.

He reached for one of his guns and then realized that he didn’t have any.

Y/N was rather vocal about hating them, claiming they made her extremely uncomfortable.

Her expression alone as she said it was enough for Jason to swallow his stubbornness and leave the things at home.

Bruce was rather taken aback by the gesture. Nothing he’d ever said was enough to get Jason to do that.

A gang of young men came marching around the corner like they owned the place…because they did. This was their territory.

Jason immediately recognized them as some of the Russian mob.

Despite pulling Y/N behind him, they still caught sight of her and looked her up and down without an ounce of shame.

“Hey, beautiful. How you doing?”

“Продолжай идти, придурки,” Jason growled at them.

He was outnumbered. But there must’ve been something about his body language that made the gang realize they shouldn’t pick a fight with him. Maybe it was the muscles or his height or that he looked like he wouldn’t even blink before murdering them.

So they just…walked away. Some of them mumbled threats or insults at him. But they realized they shouldn’t even so much as look at Y/N.

A split second before they were gone, Y/N took a picture of Jason.

“Really?” He asked.

She shrugged. “You look like a different person when you’re protective.”

Y/N was beautiful.

Jason watched as she passionately explained her work to a potential buyer.

He recognized the man as a local politician – luckily, one of the few that hadn’t been corrupted from this shitty city.

Y/N had the intimidating energy of her father, but the kind eyes of her mother. At least, that was what Bruce had told everyone, and they all took his word for it.

She wore a stylish white jumpsuit that made her look like a 1980s villain and black stiletto heels. 

Jason watched as men cowered in her presence, hating the fact that she proudly stood taller than them. She was just one less woman they could intimidate or manipulate – and they couldn’t stand it.

But Jason loved watching the emasculation in real time.

The bastards didn’t deserve her anyway.

Dick was one of the very few men Jason knew who didn’t blink at a woman towering over him. In fact, his older brother had a track record of preferring it.

“Surprised to see you here,” Bruce said beside him, catching Jason watching Y/N.

“Well, I was her personal bodyguard through all this. Figured I should see if it was worth me wasting my time or not.” Then he tossed back his champagne and slammed it on the tray of a waiter passing by. “Plus, free alcohol.”

Bruce just quirked an eyebrow, silently telling Jason that he knew he was lying.

“Are you buying something?” Jason asked, trying to change the subject.

“I have been strictly forbidden,” Bruce sighed.

Jason chuckled.

He knew if Bruce had his way, he’d buy every single on of Y/N’s pieces.

“I have to know,” Bruce began. “What exactly is holding you back?”

Jason finally ripped his gaze away from Y/N to give Bruce a questioning look.

“What are you talking about?”

“Y/N. You care about her.”

“All of us do,” Jason brushed off. “Even the demon spawn.”

Bruce knew there wasn’t a chance Jason would admit his feelings – especially to him.

“Not that I think you care…but you have my approval.”

Little did Bruce know, Jason did care.

Jason had convinced himself that their rocky relationship and past fights meant that Bruce would die before he let Jason be anywhere near his daughter.

And Jason could hardly blame him.

He didn’t deserve to be loved. He lost that right after he died and came back a monster. And that was the story Jason told himself over and over again.

So he would love Y/N from afar. And hope she would pick someone who was worthy of her love.

“She’s basically my sister,” Jason groaned in fake disgust.

It was quite the performance.

Bruce narrowed his eyes. “We both know that isn’t what’s stopping you. And you’ve made it clear you don’t consider us your family.”

“Whatever, Bruce.”

Jason walked away, having enough of the subject.

“What was that about?” Clark asked as he joined Bruce’s side.

“Jason refusing to let himself be happy,” Bruce sighed.

Clark already knew what Bruce was talking about. He’d seen Y/N and Jason dancing around each other for months now. He’d never really seen Y/N take an interest in anyone before, so it was all new for Clark.

“Don’t worry. Y/N won’t let him get away with it for much longer,” Clark said through a smirk. “She gets what she wants.”

And Bruce believed him.

“It doesn’t bother you – the two of them together?” Clark asked with genuine curiosity.

“Jason reminds me every day that I’m not his father. And I’m hardly Y/N’s.” A soft smile formed on Bruce’s lips. “He’ll look after her. And she…I think she’d be good for him. I just want them to be happy. Both of them.”

——

Jason headed home rather early.

He’d never actually went to say congratulations or even hello to Y/N.

Every time he was about to go over, someone else stole her attention. He didn’t want to get in the way of her talking to potential buyers or even just friends.

Jason was just about to make himself something to eat when there was a knock at his door.

He froze.

Very few people knew where his apartment was.

Jason grabbed a gun and tiptoed to his front door.

With a peak through the peephole, he let out a irritated sigh.

Jason whipped the door open, “You’re lucky I didn’t shoot your head off.”

“Maybe don’t own guns and you wouldn’t have to worry about shit like that,” Y/N snapped back.

“What are you doing here?”

“You come to my gallery opening and don’t even say hi?” Y/N accused as she stepped around him and into the apartment, not waiting for an invitation.

Jason eyed the paper bag that was in one of her hands.

“By all means, come on in,” he called sarcastically as he slammed the door behind her.

Y/N started searching through his cabinets. “Where are your glasses?”

“The one to your right. What are you doing here?”

Y/N had the brightest and almost mischievous smile as she pulled a bottle of champagne from the paper bag.

“I brought this as my thanks for you making sure I don’t – and I quote – ‘get raped and murdered.’”

Jason glared at her.

Here was the game again.

Y/N being charming and hilariously provoking..and Jason pretending like he hadn’t fallen for her.

She poured them both a glass. They weren’t flutes or coupes, but she couldn’t care less.

“We’re chugging these, by the way,” Y/N informed Jason as she handed him a glass.

He sighed, but obediently clinked his glass with hers and tossed it back.

Barely giving them a second, Y/N immediately refilled them.

“So, why didn’t you come over and say hi?” She repeated.

“Didn’t want to bother you,” Jason mumbled with a shrug.

She narrowed her eyes at his answer. “You’ve never bothered me before, Jason.”

Now he felt guilty.

Jason bowed his head. “I should’ve come and talked to you,” he agreed. “Your work…it looked – it’s amazing, Y/N. Congratulations.”

Apparently Y/N hadn’t expected such a sincere compliment from him, and she was stunned to silence.

“Thank you,” she managed to whisper once she’d recovered.

She cleared her throat, trying to maintain her edge. “And really…thank you for being my own little security detail.”

If Jason was healthy about expressing is thoughts and feelings, he would’ve told her that it was the highlight of his weeks. That he looked forward to her calls or texts, telling him that she was going to photograph another shady area. “Be there or don’t. I’m going no matter what,” she’d text him with her usual snark.

But Jason didn’t express his thoughts and feelings.

He kept them bottled up – with the same energy he used to keep Y/N at a distance.

So instead, Jason said, “If it wasn’t me, one of the others would’ve done it.”

Y/N winced slightly at that.

‘You’re such a fucking asshole,’ Jason told himself.

“You know…we can see each other even you’re not my bodyguard.”

Jason was impressed by her boldness. But she didn’t know what she was doing. She didn’t understand that he wasn’t good. He couldn’t play the loving boyfriend role. She belonged with someone like Dick or Clark – or literally anyone but him. And Jason was willing to be an asshole to make sure she understood that.

Y/N took a step closer to him, invading his personal space.

Without breaking eye contact, she threw back her second glass of champagne and then placed it on the nearest counter space.

She stepped even closer.

This was simultaneously Jason’s worst nightmare and most desired dream.

Her eyes moved from his eyes to his lips.

But before she could make her final push, Jason took a step back and cleared his throat.

He looked down at the ground as he said, “You should go.”

When he looked up, he expected to find Y/N heartbroken or embarrassed.

But she was neither.

No. She looked irritated.

Not because she wasn’t getting what she wanted, but because she was sick of his games.

Y/N sighed and stepped back. “Fine.”

Jason rubbed his face in frustration as she grabbed her purse and started for the door she had walked through only minutes ago.

She opened it and paused.

“You know what? No. Fuck that,” Y/N snapped before slamming the door closed.

She whipped around and strutted back to him with purpose.

Jason was suspended with both fervor and awe.

Y/N grabbed his face and pulled him down to her lips.

All self control went out the window. Jason couldn’t continue his game. It was all over for him.

He kissed her back almost immediately. How could he not?

Y/N bit his lip slightly, making him hiss in surprise. It was his punishment for making her wait all this time.

Eventually they needed a moment to breathe.

But Y/N didn’t let go of his face when their lips finally parted.

“Choose your next words very carefully,” she breathed.

He swallowed nervously. “You’re kind of fucking terrifying. You know that?”

Her smile was pure evil.

Apparently this was the right response.

“Are you done being an idiot?” She asked.

He nodded quickly.

Her hands moved down and then lingered on his neck, tracing the bottom lines of his jaw.

She smiled again and then looked him up and down.

“What?” He questioned.

“Nothing,” she laughed. “I’m just…I’m not used to being shorter than men.”

“Is that the only reason you like me? Huh? My height?” Jason goaded.

“Of course not,” Y/N scoffed. “It was the whole ‘I look like I could murder everyone and I can, but deep down I’m a big softie’ that did it for me.”

Jason’s grip tightened on her waist. “Oh, yeah? You’re one to talk…”

“Me?!” She yelped. “I couldn’t kill anyone, even if my life depended on it.”

“Maybe. But your terrifying in basically every other way.”

Y/N laughed at that.

Jason couldn’t stop himself from smiling at the sound

“So…still want me to leave?” She asked.

And this time, she would if that’s really what he wanted.

“Fuck no,” Jason answered, almost threateningly.

Then, for good measure, he picked her up by the back of her thighs and carried her to the couch, before he started to kiss her once again.

Y/N knew things weren’t always going to be this simple.

Jason had his demons. 

And honestly, so did she. They were nothing like his. And maybe they were silly in comparison. But she wouldn’t be the perfect partner. Just like he wouldn’t be. 

They’d drive each other crazy. But it would be the good kind of crazy.

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