#and therefore he will leave me

[lovecrazedpup]

.

#today was . good #i love him #happy vent sorta but now its gonna get a bit sad #i still get scared he hates me n finds me ugly n wants me to lose weight but just doesnt wanna come off as an asshole #but ngl i hate restricting so much and hearing him ask me to eat n to treat myself kindly makes it harder #and the whole ‘i promise you dont need to lose weight’ kinda hit home #im just scared i think . i just feel like hes always ready to leave me ? #so its just . if i kinda become the beauty standard then its less likely to happen #i know he sees me as ‘skinny’ but thats bc camera angles and multiple takes !!!! #and it hurts honestly knowing that he has a flatter stomach than i do :/ and yeah i kinda understand that its biology #but like idk . sometimes i have stomach rolls and sometimes im really bloated #and its like !!!!! awful . i look Obese #i dunno man :^) its like realistically i know you wont have a flat stomach constantly #but just . i know hes gonna find me repulsive #and therefore he will leave me #bc like ???? i dont have anything else even remotely good or attractive abt me . aside from the fact that im not extremely ugly #also not to be the whole ‘im crying rn’ vent post but i am kinda crying #me when postcoital dysphoria #just terrified he will leave me bc idk . things he has said #im so scared of being manipulative that i cant even rlly bring any of this whole abandonment shit up #bc its like we arent really together so he can go out and fuck other people and i cant rlly be like ‘Please Dont’ #me reading through our texts tonight and seeing that he implies that we will meet and that means he wont leave me until that happens #right ??? #but then remembering he also said its ok if *i* find someone irl and then he said like #‘if a 10/10 asked you on a date and stuff . you would be insane to say no’ #and then was like ‘bc id say yes’ #so its like fuck if someone better comes then he will leave #i just dont know what the fuck to do #bc i can tell he doesnt like saying reassuring shit #jamie.txt

[frodo-with-glasses]

The trees do not like strangers.

#meriadoc brandybuck #merry #frodo baggins #samwise gamgee #peregrin took #pippin #old man willow #lord of the rings #lotr #my art #fig tree au #one nice thing about the posters is that they kinda give me an excuse to get ✨artsy✨ with it #yes i know sam and frodo are the ones who stayed awake the longest #but something about merry being conscious inside the tree *terrifies me* and therefore he gets the spotlight lol #anyway screw leaves i am never drawing leaves ever again

[spottedgardeneelstan]

i know that logically binghe has the largest pillar in svsss. HOWEVER, in my opinion, i really believe that yue qingyuan is in possession of the true largest pillar. it just doesn’t count because he has erectile dysfunction. 

#yue qingyuan #yqy #svsss #scum villain #scum villian self saving system #luo binghe #heavenly pillar #he can't get it up #therefore it cannot be accurately measured #yqy is a pinata to me and im beating him with a stick #and then i leave him in the rain. #sorry yqy

[moeblob]

New OCs

(briefly, humans and supernatural beings have to team up for building better relations with each other and all the supernaturals can shapeshift and take on human appearances but also have their 'original form'.)

OK so I was GOING to draw fanart today - I had a fun idea and everything! But health anxiety (and anti-anxiety meds) wore me out so I kinda .... slogged through OCs as a treat to me. I am going to go to the doctor tomorrow so HOPEFULLY it's all okay.

#my characters #also kite is the worst socially and says things he thinks are surely fitting for a human conversation #but ends up insulting grady with 99% of the comments and that makes grady not fond of him #but then grady is like super pleasant to others and doesnt know how to act around kite and flubs a lot too #its a disaster and the twins are like oh no this is painful #mr tengu that was so tacky you cant say that to a human #mr tengu you cant DO that to a human STOP BEING LIKE THIS #while callum is just like wow this is hilarious thanks for bothering my younger brother its adding character to his life #and kite is stressed because thats the least encouraging thing to hear ever thank you v much hes TRYING to adapt #but also kite isnt his real name and he doesnt know squat about humans BUT he knows they have the internet #and so hes like well the problem is i dont want to actually say my name to you all because what if i am Online (TM) #and so he asks for a new name and then is like he should name me - the tiny one who wants to kick my ass should name me #so grady is like ....... nooooo...... dont............ and then suggests kite bc he's done google research #and kite is a type of bird and according to wikipedia has some familiarity to tengu so therefore yeah #and kite is like !!!!!! DOES HE ! KNOW THINGS ! and happily accepts the slightly researched name while the other humans #are like grady stop that is bullying the poor guy leave him alone pick a normal name! #anyway not drawn yet but there is a human guy partner for the twins and he immediately is like perfect #i know which is which lets go out and explore the human world for your research #and they dont understand how he knows them apart so fast and none of the other humans seem to tell em apart #but then none of the humans are shocked at the guy who knows so the girls are like sir howst do you know #and hes just v casual oh right yeah younger identical twin sisters - i have Practice ! and they are endeared to him haha #anyway if you read all those tags ty #and yes in his tengu form he does actually have the long nose please do not be mad #i just dont draw noses normally and im too tired to practice rn so #i only drew the second one today anyway - the first pic was done a couple days ago but i didnt wanna post on main #but then here i am posting on main #im sorry

[cerise-on-top]

Been really into gardening, so what about Nikolai and König with a gardener s/o? Would they be interested in helping out, or have a specific favorite type of plant?

(I love love LOVE rambling about plants, they're so cool once you get to know them!! I blame my mom entirely since she has a green thumb)

(Also, do you have a fav kind of flower? I personally love hydrangeas)

Plants are really cool, though! Hydrangeas are very pretty, I think I've seen some here and there! I personally adore lisianthus, though! They're absolutely gorgeous! Now I can't help but wonder if I could grow some someday when I move out, haha!

Nikolai and König with a Gardener!S/O

Nikolai: I do believe that he has a garden somewhere near his house only he knows about, where he grows vegetables. He loves having his own little garden, just that little bit of space that no one can take away from him with which he can do just about whatever is nice. He especially likes tomatoes, they’re nutritious, healthy and very delicious, as well as easy to cook. Nikolai is a pretty good cook, so he knows how to utilize tomatoes to their full potential. He has tried to grow flowers as well, though. He’s made some good success with sunflowers, in fact he still has some in his secret garden. So he absolutely knows how to take care of a garden, he finds it relaxing even and would love to help you out a bit, if you let him. Do let him plant some plants of his own, though, he loves watching them grow. Although he’s never been able to do so, he’d love to cultivate some melons at some point as well. Watermelons, cantaloupes, honey melons, he’d love to eat his own ones someday as well, especially with you. He thinks it’s so cool that you’re a gardener because, in another life where he wasn’t a soldier and or leader of a PMC, he, too, would be a gardener. Has always dreamed of having a garden with you and would love to plant some trees as well. Apple trees, cherry trees, maybe even some orange trees, as long as he gets some delicious fruit out of it, he’s down. Besides, what’s more domestic than working at your shared garden together? He’ll even plant some flowers as well. He can’t particularly surprise you well with them, but he can look at your surprised face when they first start sprouting. While he won’t pluck or cut them unless he needs to, he will cherish the moments he gets to spend with you and your shared plants. And if you’re the type of person to name your plants then I can assure you he remembers each and every single name.

König: He’s never really been into gardening. He had a small succulent as a kid once so he had something to take care of that would help him with feeling down, but it didn’t survive very long. He loved the little plant a little too much and gave it too much water every day. To this day he feels guilty about it. He named it “Luisa”. Ever since then he’s not very confident in his plant keeping abilities, thinking he has the worst green thumb imaginable. He would love to help you, don’t get me wrong, but he’s afraid of killing your plants and making you mad about it. No, he’d much rather watch you and encourage you with your endeavors. He’ll buy fertilizer, if needed, or some new seeds or saplings if you want some, but he won’t really do much with your plants, aside from moving them to the sunlight if you want him to. Although, it should be added that he could still learn how to take good care of a plant. With some guidance, and another small succulent that’s hard to kill, it’s not too late. Just show him the ropes, tell him what to do and he’ll do it. He might get nervous about having overdone it again from time to time, and will come up to you, the succulent tiny in his hands, asking you if his plant will make it. Reassure him and give him some good tips, he’ll appreciate it more than you’ll ever know. König feels very accomplished when the plant has survived over two months. As time goes on, he’ll grow more comfortable with plants and ask you if he could maybe help you water some more plants. He may still need to get a feeling for it all, but he’s very eager to help you. Again, this is all very domestic for him, so he quite likes it. Just watering some plants with you, harvesting some parsley, maybe picking some apples from the tree. He can get most fruits from the tree due to his height as well, which is great. König’s more into the practical side of gardening, so he prefers fruit and vegetables over flowers. His favorite plant would be a pumpkin, but only because he loves pumpkin seed oil.

#cod #cod x reader #cod nikolai #cod nikolai x reader #könig #konig #könig x reader #konig x reader #pumpkin seed oil is literally the best thing out there it goes so well with salad #I never eat my salads without some pumpkin seed oil #been eating it ever since I was a child and my mother to this day buys it whenever she can. salads are so good #therefore König also adores pumpkin seed oil because I said so #besides he's Austrian so it makes a lot of sense as well #plants are so so cool #I had two succulents once but my heart broke when I had to throw them out due to mosquitos #my entire room was filled to the brim with mosquitos it was absolutely disgusting #my two succulents were named Eden and Arya #and yes I did name one after an OC of mine and the other one after a VN character #I miss having plants it was so very cool but I fear the day I have a million bugs in my room again #I'm not at all a big fan of bugs I think they should leave me alone and stay as far away from me as possible #also I really like lisianthus because of a song. otherwise I wouldn't even know they exist haha #nine point eight by mili is very depressing but also really good. it names a lot of flowers #however don't listen to it if you don't fare well with suicide themes since that song's very heavy on those

[thatrandombystander]

In the original FF7, Sephiroth can explode every other planet in the solar system and explode the sun causing the party to get caught in it's devastating supernova. Multiple times!

Hope the Remake version of Safer Sephiroth also has several spare suns to explode in Cloud and co's face again.

#ramblings of a bystander #ff7 #ff7r #sephiroth #safer sephiroth #i got caught in the glitch where you can't leave the northern crater #so i couldn't leave to level up or go get any items or upgrades to help with the boss battle #so i had to approach it like a cockroach and chip away at his health while trying to keep everyone alive #therefore. it took aaaaages. and he used the supernova attack on me at least three times #bro where did you get all these extra planets and suns to explode on me 😭

[pink-november]

was thinking bout this post ever since i first saw the tags cuz i didn't know the shifting mound can actually give you the resist option in the tower route if you did the adversary to fury route beforehand... needless to say i tried to do the thing and proceeded to try it with the other merging chapters just to see something new and ummm...

how curious that only hero seemingly hears the shifting mound's comment to you. not even the other voice present or the narrator acknowledges it.

#slay the princess #slay the princess spoilers #stp spoilers #it honestly gave me quite a scare to hear his shocked dialogue the first time... was not expecting that #i usually only encounter the shifting mound's interruption whenever we try to turn around and leave the cabin #or when accidentally getting the 'good ending' #when we're already committed to her completion and we cannot go back in our mission #and usually when she says that none of the others pipe up and take notice #so when hero's “wait what?!?” came in i went holy shit #what does this mean? what are the implications of this? am i making sense here? #this may also been some kind of foreshadowing of some kind when hero shows up during the shifting mound vs long quiet debate #how he's much closer to the shifting mound/long quiet than the others and therefore can catch glimpses of shifty when she interferes #tell me more obscure variations in this game please i love doing em sm

[fischiee]

at the end of the day church and tex are pygmalion and galatea and we just have to accept that. like the story of the sculptor who fell in love with his own art

bc she really is just his own creation that he loves and wants to love him back and wants to be whole but she’s.. not. she’ll never be anything outside of him, she’d never exist if it weren’t for his imagination (since she isn’t truly allison she is his concocted version of her) and because of that she can’t be human

he loves her as some fucked of version of loving himself (he loves who he was when he was with her and loves that he created her and that she is wholly his)

the difference is that alpha is no god, no aphrodite, and he cannot create life, he can only fragment himself which is why they do not get the happy ending of pygmalion and galatea, they instead are doomed to repeat and echo the agonies of the people they mimic

#this is what makes tex's story a sexist one bc she cannot exist outside of the context of church #BUT ALSO it is the reason that church has to be the one to forget her #she cannot leave/die of her own agency bc she doesn't have her own agency #she is bound to him and him setting her free and promising to forget her is his way of finally recognizing his part in her story #as her creator and (therefore) tormentor #she can only live a half life/a cursed life and by continuing to keep her alive or bring her back to life he is continuing her agony #and therefore he is the only one who can actually let her go and THATS why her death means so much to me #she DESERVES death bc her life is hell #i love them but theyre so tragic okay #i also was SURE pygmalion and galatea had some sort of tragic ending when i started this post but ?? #they literally just like get married and have a kid so good for them i guess #theres probably some symbolism about how she wanted to be human too which... i cant get into itll make me too sad #rvb #red vs blue #agent texas #leonard church #rvb tex #rvb church #chex #rvb chex

[kleine-snowdrop]

Area man experiences five minutes of happiness, love, and acceptance from his peers and now must die.

Apparently this is a satisfying narrative conclusion.

Because where else could you take such a character.

#Izzy hands #At least according to tumblr and twitter #There is nothing more you can do once he has reached the narrative pinnacle #And therefore he must die #That sounds like a creativity problem to me #Don't get me wrong I like a satisfying death in media #I regularly consume media that leaves me heart broken in the best ways #I like crying for fun apparently #My favorite character in most things is background character voted most likely to die #But like for a major character death I want it to impact the narrative or character growth #I just don't want to to be for shock value or because they outlived their narrative use #Be more creative #Either let them live or kill them when it's more tragic

[meat-loving-meat]

I’m thinking about Modern!AUs in fanfiction and why sometimes they’re some of my favorite fics and also sometimes the Worst™️. (<-that is a joke. There is no such thing as bad fanfiction, just fanfiction I don’t personally like.)

Because I LOVE Modern!AUs that ask interesting questions about how the setting of a story impacts the characters—how much of the setting can you remove while still being able to recognize the characters in question? All of it? None of it? What new problems would living in a world with planes and phones create for these characters? How are the social and political tensions of the original canon reflected in our own world?

The “problem” (again, not an actual problem, just a personal preference) is that most Modern!AUs COMPLETELY refuse to engage with any of that. They instead become a stale rehashing of the original canon except with lower stakes. Nothing about the modern setting adds interest, and everything interesting from the original setting falls away.

I think that a lot of people write Modern!AU fics to deescalate the conflict of the original canon and give the characters more relatable problems, which isn’t universally terrible, but it can so easily become boring. I don’t WANT to know what it would be like if one of these characters was a florist and the other was a tattoo artist; I want to know what would happen if you gave one of them a gun.

#yes this is about my Vanyel nuclear weapons AU. IMO Vanyel as a character should be doomed to be a living weapon no matter the setting #This is also about the locked tomb #my good friend harrowhark nonagesimus didn’t give herself a lobotomy to end up working at hot topic #and gideon didn’t throw herself on a fencepost with the full understanding that her soul would be consumed in the fires of lyctorhood #just to work at a gym. I think they should’ve been raised in a pseudo-catholic death cult and harrow should be an ecoterrorist #This is also why I think tgcf modern!AUs leave me a little flat. Like Xie Lian is SO WEIRD because he willingly submitted to #getting stabbed a hundred times. He also got buried alive. There is simply no modern!AU explanation for how weird he is!!! #(<-says the person who has a tgcf modern!au posted on his ao3) #On the flip side this is also why I think MDZS modern AUs kind of work?? #because SO MANY of the problems MDZS characters have are just. #‘my dad likes my adoptive brother more than me’ #‘my family doesn’t want me associating with this person who has a bad reputation’ #so at least like the front half of MDZS is modern!AU-able #people lose me when they try to make a modern analogue for the genocide of the Wen. like oooookay #I don’t think getting their company shut down should be presented as equivalent to a genocide but w/ever #I do not like it therefore I shall not read it

[lunar-years]

*the confessions I'm referring to are the funeral scene in s2 and the finale scene with Roy in s3

#i'm setting myself up to be annoyed at the results of this lmao #i just saw some more tweets that pissed me off and i need to poll the people or whatever #keeley jones #jamie tartt #ted lasso #ted lasso polls #for curious parties re: my opinion... #basically i just hate the take that jamie doesn't understand his own feelings and mind #and therefore only thinks he's in love with her because she's the first person who showed real affection to him in a relationship #i just think that's really unfair to jamie idk it leaves such a bad taste in my mouth #but it's an opinion a lot of tweeters seem to have so! #personally i do think he romantically loves her the entire time but i'm not fussed abt people thinking it's all platonic! #mostly i just think Jamie doesn't throw around love confessions unless he means them and i also think he knows the weight of his words

[kaseyskat]

choosing to believe that nick's memory of the betrayal only having three of the other kiddads following him wasn't an anthony mistake but that one of them stayed behind. and im also choosing to believe that one was sparrow! and until anthony clarifies this himself you cannot convince me otherwise

#dndads #kasey rambles #listen to me. listen #terry jr had so much guilt about what he did to nick #not bystander guilt. not 'i let this happen' guilt. but WE FUCKED UP guilt #he was involved #and grant and lark both are no brainers! hell grant was probably the one who shot nick- which is fun in considerations to ep36 ahaha #either way that leaves the twins. and tbh i think of all of them of all the kiddads. sparrow WOULD be the most understanding #what it means to do anything for your family. even turn against other people you care about. yeah thats smth ONLY sparrow would Get #therefore? if you ask me? sparrow didn't go after him. and nobody questions it because everyone knows sparrow always sides with lark.

[backjustforberena]

Another day, another thought about how utterly SPARE Vaemond would have gone when Corlys came back from court to say he had plans to marry Rhaenys Targaryen. He would have thought it the worst idea in the Seven Kingdoms. Totally bonkers. Inviting trouble, literally playing with fire etc etc.

#house of the dragon #vaemond velaryon #rhaenys targaryen #corlys velaryon #no but hear me out #he'd worry about targaryen supremacy over the velaryon line #he'd worry about committing their house to the crown's cause #about corlys losing authority in his own halls #esp as the velaryons at that time are on the up and up but only JUST and only because of their wealth and bloodline #rather than political presence #like they JUST got driftmark to be a nice destination #with independence and respect #(i say THEY - i mean corlys obvs) #and now his bro wants to walk into a marriage #with someone who might be queen #therefore have more power over her husband #therefore that OBVIOUSLY means corlys will be cuckholded etc etc #i wouldn't be surprised if he even took objection to how much Rhaenys knows Valaryian and its history #as he's a pretty pious character #he just wants them to leave the targ madness alone #like dude no #marry a second daughter of a nice stable house #you'll be grand #they'll chuck out heirs #BUT NOPE CORLYS WENT AND FELL IN LOVE

[suddenlymicah]

has anyone considered henry possessing glamrock freddy or am i being a little silly right now

#although for one of you the darkest pit of hell has opened to swallow you whole #so don't keep the devil waiting old friend #henry being glamrock freddy makes sense to me #“my friends are down here” william? william afton? old friend? #and if we consider the henry suicide robot thing canon #maybe just maybe #henry “survived” pizzaria simulator #reinstated fazbears as a corporate entity #hired the indie developer #idk where he would stand on the glitchtrap thing but he was shown to be a little silly in he books? maybe he thought afton was fully gone #and was trying to destroy the last parts of him that remained #he realized vanessa was being recruited by afton and set up the pizzaplex #he built the glamrocks? by contextual evidence it makes sense for michael to have built the glamrocks #given the glamrocks similarities to the funtimes including freddys stomach hatch (remember funtime freddy's stomach hatch?) #so if we're saying that michael built the glamrocks then michael wouldve had to have survived pizzaria simulator #which means somewhere along the line they fucked up #and considering that theres roughly 40 years between the bite of 83 and pizzaria simulator #that would mean that henry is like 70 when he burns down freddy fazbears pizza place? #i doubt any rickety ass 70 year old is going #like btw that was a badass line #but henry would be too old for that shit💀 #so if we just take henrys suicide animatronic (named baby but probably meaning a baby version of charlie(the og book trilogy)) #so what if he got remnant in him when he killed himself and therefore was stuck alive #so he and michael could have plausibly survived pizzasim because of the remnant they were trying to burn away #bc if remnant survived the fnaf3 fire why wouldnt it survive the pizzasim fire? #so saying that henry killed himself around 2000 leaves him at ~50 forever #he couldve also killed himself around 1996 after opening fnaf 2 closing fnaf 2 and reopening/reclosing fnaf 1 #leaving him ~45 forever #doesnt matter the year it just matters that hes already dead before pizzaria simulator and after fnaf1 and fnaf2 events #not to mention with william dead around 1993 henry wouldve been the one managing circus baby's entertainment and rentals

[blooming-cecilia]

guys omg bard is leaked to be a new playable 5* for v5.0 😳😳??!?!?!???

bonus doodle sheet of bards i drew instead of sleeping

#tulip draws #nameless bard #himmel #he just wont get out of my brain #one bard leaves for a second to make way for yet another one #why wont they leave me aloooooone #anyway. what does the council think of nb meeting venti when he was Baby and Squishy #everything is the same except they meet when he was young and therefore they have more time tgt #ofc except the dying part #they live happily ever after #now what if archon bard since he didnt die..... #maybe I'LL die instead #anyway. #mond kids are raised on three things: music wine and REVOLUTION #we ignore that shitty kitty bard at the corner hes my first doodle to get things going #aka me realizing it is Not the time for pose studying so we do sillies #ok i gtg sleep fr its 638 am

[carefulfears]

californication's commitment to the "i can fix him" model is fascinating me...they string you along as an audience in nearly the exact same manner that hank strings his family along...they give you little glimpses, a couple of times an episode, of something salvageable or commendable, in the hopes that you won't completely write them off, just as karen and becca will forever cling to those little glimpses of the person who made them happy "once upon a time," who made them briefly believe in a happy ending, who was the partner and father they once came home to...they won't ever be able to leave him behind and if the writers play their cards right, neither will you. californication was written about as "the show that showtime forgets to cancel" for seven years.

#the 1 difference is that i don't think hank as a character does it on purpose and i DO think the show does it on purpose (to the audience) #which is why it really interests me #it's like showtime as a network was love-bombing us and trying to keep us from leaving him (hank). incredible #i might write about this for the newsletter as i keep watching idk #i'm unsure if this makes sense but the bottom line is that the writers WANT you to think that hank ultimately could be saved #if only he had karen back. if only he spent more time with becca. if only he published his novel. if only he got sober! #and that's what hank as a character thinks too and it's what karen and becca think!! so they stay!! and the audience stays!! #it's their ENTIRE storytelling model and therefore it's a BUSINESS model #this isn't even a knock on californication i was watching it until 2am i'm transfixed