#and yet. i feel so homesick

[kidovna]

portrait of my dog

#she is so dramatic #i’m feeling very homesick rn bc all i want to do i hold her face in my hand and give her a big kiss #i also want to draw lokius after that fifth episode but i’m so goddamn hungover and i don’t have the energy yet 😩😩😩😩 #artovna #dogs #dog #dog art #thumbi

[hella1975]

all hate to tiktok for taking 'having a space to more openly and actively talk about different cultures' to mean 'cultures are NOT to be shared and we must be vigilantly defensive of our cultures for fear of appropriation, a word that can be applied to any multicultural interaction'. like of course cultural appropriation is a very real problem but ive seen with the access to global multicultural conversation that tiktok provides it's made people TERRIFIED to even interact with cultures other than their own for fear of 'doing it wrong'. like at some point you have to acknowledge that in the real world of the great outdoors, the majority of people are eager to SHARE their cultures. yes there are ignorant questions and biases but also... how do you think those things get unlearnt? i dont understand how deciding that multiculturalism is an elephant in the room instead of a normal thing that should just be talked about and lived with is supposed to benefit anyone? and kids on tiktok are CONVINCED that it's a time bomb of a conversation to have and therefore must be avoided at all costs but like. people generally LOVE their home and their culture and are PROUD of it and want to share it. how have we made it so that showing genuine interest and a desire to understand something so integral to a person's identity is now feared and borderline demonised?

#thinking about this a lot lately. thinking about how fun it was comparing cultural differences in america #thinking of how when i was homesick one thing i found a great comfort in was talking about my home #and how it differed and i really loved and appreciated it when people would ask me about england #in a way that they genuinely just wanted to learn about it and not to take the piss #thinking about how the kitchen at work has chefs from all over europe. we have an irish chef and a spanish chef and an italian chef #and one of the kps is from eastern europe (i havent actually been able to find out where yet) etc and the way they banter with each other #like usually chefs are Problematic bc their humour is VERY abrasive and usually offensive #but this is one instance where it's actually to their benefit bc they're so unafraid to ADDRESS THE FACT THEY HAVE DIFFERENT CULTURES #i feel like the tiktok gen are so petrified of even acknowledging other cultures let alone discussing them #that it's actually sending the conversation backwards. like how does hoarding your culture and pretending it's not there benefit anyone #LET ALONE YOU AND THE CULTURE IN QUESTION. idk it just baffles me a bit that something that started as people on tiktok #genuinely spreading information and talking about the BAD side of this where people DO culturally appropriate or invade spaces that arent #theirs has now become 'for fear of speaking bad about it we will not speak about it at all'. and they'll crucify you if you do. like what #even at uni my best mate is indian and she's too scared to join the sikh society on her own so i regularly go to the events with her #and im typically one of the handful (or the only) white non-sikh there and i get SO welcomed each time #like there's such a genuine excitement to share the culture with someone who is effectively a blank slate #and like yeah ill ask 'dumb' questions or i'll have different experiences (tried a samosa for the first time at one of these events #and the moment that info got out i had like five STRANGERS trying to give me different samosas to try and it was genuinely such #a laugh bc yes they were TEASING me bc 'how have you never had one' but they were also really eager to share MORE as a result) #ugh idk what im saying. i just think it's a shame to watch this happen in real time on the internet #when if people would just go outside and actually TALK to people from other cultures they'd realise 9 times out of 10 the interactions #are actually really really nice for BOTH parties. and actually refusing to talk about this stuff is long-term pretty fucking detrimental #and it also goes the other way!!! like imagine if i - citizen of colonisation motherland herself - didn't interact with other cultures #and didnt ask questions or hear their opinions on whatever shared history we have from THEIR POINT OF VIEW #imagine the kind of shit id be internalising bc i only hung out with other white british people. it wouldnt matter if i was doing it #to be woke or 'respect their culture'. it would still be fucking ignorant. like half my interactions with other cultures #see me as the butt of the joke bc of this like aforementioned irish chef at work VOCALLY slates the english all the time #but it's done in an environment where we're FRIENDS and it's poking fun at each other while still addressing a very serious history. like?? #idk if any of this is worded in a way that makes sense but yeah. i have thoughts #cant believe i got inspired to make an actually serious post bc of the CHEFS AT WORK. embarrassing. no one let them see this

[sysig]

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#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Crackship #Teisel #Meme #I am on a roll with these lol #I knew adding Teisel to my list was only a matter of time #I am a weakwilled individual with one fatal flaw #Anyway (lol) #ZEX really has his work cut out for him with Teisel haha - it's very fortunate he's so determined and enjoys a challenge 'cause otherwise! #Teisel is hard to pin down - I mean Other Than That lol - he's an interesting guy :0 #Rough around the edges and a family man ♪ And if I get to draw long hair and big muscles then all the better hehe #And he has a cute nose! He has the bridge of the nose thing that I like so much!! Yes!! #As for the rest of him - hm! I've only had passing thoughts up to this point and getting into his head is...Something lol #It's well done to be certain it definitely Makes Me Feel it's just hard to ascribe a name to that Feeling just yet #Needs a bit more time to tumble smooth I suppose lol #One thing I know I like because it makes me sad - lol - is ZEX projecting some of his feelings about DAX onto Teisel - unexpected! #It's extremely interesting how despite his deep abiding love and fascination with Otherness he's gotten increasingly homesick #Finding things charming about humans that remind him of VUX! You can tell he's a bit desperate for the familiar :'0 #So isolated from even himself ah 💔 Hang in there ZEX! #At least he has some fun distractions hehe ♪ New things to learn and consider! Teisel keeps throwing him curveballs! #Both of them circling each other like ''? Isn't it your turn?'' lol #They both come off as aggressive in their own way and then swing-and-a-miss lol #And then there's how Teisel frames him as far as age goes - or really how everyone does pffft #It is So funny to me every time anyone refer to ZEX as ''old'' now that his age has been more or less established - at least pointed at #The fact that he might not even be in his human-equivalent 50s what is this who this lol he's not old! And Max /definitely/ isn't haha #He is the slightest itty-bittiest willowiest little twink y'ever did see pfft #I have been waiting to use that meme template for someone for ages I am so glad that I finally got the chance ♪

[lamiaviridis]

💚     ⸺     ​ @liecrafted 𝐡𝐚𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐝 𝐛𝐲 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐄𝐧𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐬. ┆ — reassurance starters

“ you deserve the whole world. “

Aching gaze staring back at her in the reflection of glass window, melancholic hues of verdant overlooked the Bifrost protruding from the royal palace bathed in starlight below. A deep sigh escapes roseate tiers, laden with sorrows of mourning. Loki had brought her to a point in time where Asgard hadn't fallen to ruin at the hands of Ragnarök.

They stood in her chambers, where she spent majority of her childhood locked away chained to her controlled studies in sorcery with Karnilla standing over her, telling her she only had one fate in store for her once she were free of her: she'd take on Karnilla's role as the Royal Sorceress of Asgard, her future merely consisting of being in complete servitude of whichever prince shall be crowned King of Asgard. By his side, her magic at his every beck and call, performing for civilians and offering her abilities should she ever need to.

In other words, the closest thing she had to a mother spent half of her childhood training her to be a spectacle to be gawked at and a tool to be used whilst Amora spent the remainder of that childhood pertaining little to no self-worth unless she were being lusted after by men and boys alike. She often wondered if she deserved the life she was forced into. And Loki, able to peer into her woes, told her what he felt she really deserved in that moment.

Pensive silence envelops the room as the sorceress reflects over his statement. She then turns, golden tendrils swaying, advancing towards him and wrapping her arms around him in a warm embrace. Her lips brushed against his own in a passionate kiss and when they separated, she nuzzled their noses together affectionately.

❛  You brought me here because you knew I was feeling homesick amongst the TVA, didn't you ? Thank you.  ❜ She kissed him again. ❛ Though, I don't want the world. I just want you. ❜

#. ˚ ◞ ♡ IN CHARACTER ／ A love which is as unconditional as it is all-consuming. #. ˚ ◞ ♡ VERSE 02 ／ In the name of love madness claimed her. #liecrafted #;; sighs. the way loki is able to dissipate her cptsd even if it's just a little bit with one sentence. #;; the fact that he made a place that brought only traumatic memories for amora into a place of comfort for her. #;; the fact that he brought her here because it was a place where she felt trapped but with him there she now feels free and he knows that #;; the fact that he knows exactly what it's like to feel homesick for a place that felt more like a prison than a home #;; but it's the people that make it home hence why he knew amora was homesick not just for asgard but for #;; her time with loki on asgard as kids so he brought her to a time where their abusers didn't exist yet and it was just them #;; sighs. i want what they have.

[brendughh]

You ever read a fic years ago, the one you totally loved, the one that was carved to your obsessed fandom heart, and the one that never left your head but as the time passes by, that memory has been overshadowed by other fics. AND THEN you came across it out of nowhere, YOU READ IT AGAIN, LOVED IT AGAIN, REMINISCED THE FUCK OUT, WONDERED WHY THE REUNION TOOK THIS LONG... only to figure; you never bookmark it. Paid no attention to the title. Didn't even left a kudos! I NEVER BOOKMARKED IT MAN. IM NOW EMOTIONAL

#saw this fic rec on ig story with the summary #and i was like wow this is so familiar #CLICK #then tada bitch feeling homesick yet #too old now huh #😭😭😭 #adhd #yes im blaming adhd for this #like i blame hormones #fandom #ao3 #archive of our own #fic #fanfic #fanfiction

[seedlessmuffins]

today i feel: quinn hughes

#i’m so tired and i have work tomorrow #i have literally so many assignments to do it’s not even haha funny #feeling burnt out and homesick and finales haven’t even started yet #i love what i’m studying but i miss home and also being not stressed #if there’s anything i’ve learned while living alone is that i’m incapable of self care when i’m stressed #idk time for sleep ig #🕯️manifesting that the rest of the semester goes well and i become motivated to finish my papers🕯️

[boydykepdf]

@fruity-individual it took me a bit to actually get around to doing this but ty for the tag!!

comfort movie: howl's moving castle

comfort food: my mom's red velvet cake!! it is literally the best EVER hands down a better red velvet cake does not exist

comfort clothing: deadliest catch t-shirt i stole from my dad <3

comfort song: HM this is a hard one. maybe. i love you honeybear or chateau lobby #4 by father john misty

comfort book: a history of glitter and blood!!!

comfort game: pokemon <3 or the sims 2 <3 or my favorite board game betrayal at the house on the hill <3 or clue <3

@boyjoan @pomegranate-pill @steelycunt @dykefever @bellasloth @mayescapade @vexedtonightmares not sure if this one has already been going around so if u have already done it/been tagged then! sorry 🤠 if not + you'd like to here is ur tag <3

#i MISS #my moms red velvet. SO much #say what u fucking want about the united states we know what the fuck we're doing with dessert #recipe is from my southern grandma and the south does NOT fuck around when it comes to cake!!!! #never have i ever had a red velvet so sweet and moist and perfect....delicious...crumbly yet rich and dense.... #the cream cheese frosting providing the perfect tangy balance only to fade into that sort of powdery icint sweetness once u swallow.... #GOD #all the desserts in korea are LIGHT. they are yummy but they are so fluffy and airy and light!!!! #give me some good american south DENSITY in my cake i want that shit rich and delicious i want to feel like it is bleeding in my mouth #anyway. #also miss stealing clothes from my dads closet and playing board games with my brother and twin :') #this ask game has made me a bit homesick i will not lie #fortunately i still have snacks that my parents sent me for Christmas so i get to eat #PEPPERMINT BARK!!!!! #tonight!!

[pirateborn-a]

Thinking ab Roger n Rouge again,,,,

#[ ooc ] ✧〖 bid farewell to weaver’s town 〗 #[ its the Man who has always lived his life at 200% learning to appreciate the smaller/softer things in life he never found time for before #[ just.... he loves her so much.... #[ she showed him a side of life with her beauty and love and that means the universe to him #[ he's a romantic at heart #[ utterly enamored by her... #[ something something calloused gold hands and hibiscus petals #[ i am a simple person i love it when someone acts differently from their usual self #[ especially in regards to when it reveals their love to another #[ in any sense of the word #[ always thinking ab roger n how he loves others.... #[ primary driving force and reason behind his actions being and strength fr #[ but with rouge... he gets to learn something new #[ want to talk more ab how roger felt during those months <- has already talked ab several times but rotates in head like microwave #[ thinks ab man with the sea in his blood feeling incredibly homesick for his ship and crew #[ yet still letting himself learn to better love the land as well through guidance of his beloved #[ learn to appreciate another side of the life and lives he loves so dearly before he dies #[ anyway back to speedrunning a videogame (creation) fdsklds

[silentsockfeet]

one of the best verses ive written in a good while but i spoofed the melody from a phoebe bridgers song i can’t win

#part of me wants to send it to my sister to see if she recognizes it but i don’t want to know the answer #anyways my roommate tested positive which means i probably can’t work for two weeks yayyyyy #ive been feeling fine but i’m getting tested today and i just really fuckin miss home #times like these a guy just wants to cuddle with their dog you know what i mean #AND i texted my boss last night when i found out but he hasn’t answered back yet so not the anxiety goblins in my brain are like #‘he’s gonna be mad you’re missing work he’s gonna hate you he’s gonna think you’re a slack off’ yada yada yada #so i have to be like no brain we are literally in a worldwide pandemic i think he’ll be fine if you take an abundance of caution #so to distract from the anxiety demons i wrote a song about being homesick and plagiarizing melodies #it’s a whole vibe over here #personal

[thermodynamiclawyer]

idk what’s wrong with me i wasn’t this way last year when i had to go back to college at the end of spring break. the thought of me leaving my home rn is destroying me even if it’s just for another 10 weeks it used to bother me the first time i left in 2022 but it came back again full force even if i already gotten used to the routine. my flight isn’t until 9 tonight but im already missing my family and my hometown it hurts to be away again

#i feel like a baby bird begging not to leave the nest i don’t know how i felt ready in the past i’m not ready anymore #i used to think i’d be happy far away from home but i want to stay so bad i want to be around my family and the place i grew up #i don’t know what i need i don’t know what’s good for me i feel so homesick and i haven’t even left yet #i already did this before i’ve been back and forth so many times this routine was already established #i don’t know why it hurts so bad now

[s0fars0perfect]

i did not cry after getting off the phone with my parents this time. something i haven't been able to accomplish in months. so, that's a win, i guess?

#i did cry before i called them tho #and i definitely do feel really sad and homesick still #but i'm not crying yet #so #tw #trigger warning #crying #depression

[aroacee-of-spades]

one month until i go back to asia for a whole fucking month

#holy shit i can't wait #i havent been in soo long #ngl i feel kinda homesick #i just miss the bustle and everything #idk how to explain the fact that i miss the amount of dust and noise in my home country #plus u just can't do street food in any western country like they do in asia #fuck food u cant do street SHOPS here #personal #this reminds me i have to dig up Appropriate Clothing bc if i show up in shorts and leather i might just get beaten up #kinda glad i havent dyed my hair red yet #it's already damaged i can't fathom the shit i will get from my relatives if i rock up to gatherings with red hair #why am i making it out to be so bad i swear it's not they're just kinda conservative when it comes to these things

[the-snake-owl]

It is so difficult to explain to people why I am religious - it is almost entirely to explain my own emotions when faced with parts of nature, because I feel so deeply they are sentient and even when I actively chose to not believe that sometimes the feeling overwhelmed me so much I wanted to cry.

And explaining how things are sentient to me is even more difficult... they are not like humans, but each part of land feels so different, like a different person, but there are shared qualities, and overall there is just this incredible sense of scale.

The closest I can get to putting it into words right now is that it is like a human seeing a bug. You can choose to care for it, let it crawl along your finger and fly away, set it outside, give it honey water, you can simply ignore it and tolerate its presence near you, but you could also squash it and kill it without thinking twice, sometimes without even a twinge of regret. Except that in this scenario I'm the bug, and I keep being allowed to live, even treated kindly at times, facing things I can't comprehend - and the thing I'm existing alongside is far from human and human reasoning.

#ramblings #my therapist keeps suggesting i go to the forest near the city here because i am so homesick for my forest at home #and i don't know how to put into words that it is not just that I grew up with one and not the other #that one is conifer and the other isn't #it's that to my brain #they have different personalities #the one at home is like a friend #it really isn't because that's not the kind of dynamic i can have with something like that #but when i go there i feel welcomed #i feel protected #i feel like i am allowed to take something here and there and i understand when it is appropriate and when it isn't #the one near the city i do not know yet #it is a stranger #and it is difficult to see through all the people visiting it all the time #it's like their presence puts a fog over who the forest is #and i wish i could generalise these feelings #put them into a belief system #so i finally have my full explanation #but i can't even describe them accurately so how am i supposed to do that #pagan #paganism

[pointsfortrying]

Thinking ab dreams,,,,

#rye rambles #i don't rly get nightmares im fairly sure in terms of dreams Id personally qualify as nightmares ive had are under 10 #mostly from when i was younger 2 within the past 4 years i want to say? #my brain usually manages to change course of nightmare territory to something more whimsical #like when i was ab to get mauled by wolves but then started acting like it was a movie n gave the wolves director cut pointers #but mainly thinks ab usual dreams #and just. #lies down #sometimes a dream will just make me Very nostalgic for something that never existed and that feeling persists throughout the day #usually those involve friendships that dont exist or i havent had in years gjskgkd #being hugged in a dream by someone i used to know.... feels a certain way fr #but also just whimsical stuff gjskgk this is so maudlin #gjskg just esp when depressions at its lower points and i get a dream where i feel happy with nonexisting things and i remember details #weird feeling #rly is just that homesickness for something you can't return to #or better yet ✨ e s c a p i s m ✨ #gjskgkskgkd #in a tmi vibe will delete tomorrow #dreams are weird weird but i miss them #i hope the ppl i see and meet in my dreams are doing well #i dont remember your face voice or name but it was nice to meet you anyway

[angelltheninth]

Lucifer Morningstar as Your Husband

Pairing: Lucifer Morningstar x Reader

Tags: fluff, established relationship, married couple, domestic fluff, cooking, kissing, dancing, flirting, dates, gift giving

A/N: Me personally I think pre-depression Lucifer was the perfect husband.

Husband!Lucifer can't start his day without kissing you, they have the same function as morning coffee, both of you are very sluggish and sleepy without them

Husband!Lucifer never has someone else make breakfast for the two of you, he always has to be the to cook so he can show you how much his cooking skills have improved since at first they left much to be desired

Husband!Lucifer always finds time to text you back even when he has a really important meeting since you're are way more important to him

Husband!Lucifer sends you really silly texts when he's bored and wishes you were at the meeting with him, maybe... under the desk so you can take his mind of how boring everything is

Husband!Lucifer knows he doesn't need to buy you gifts for your anniversary yet he will do so every year, each one will be better then the last, not necessarily costing more money since that's no measure of his love for you, he only wants to see that smile on your face again and that is enough

Husband!Lucifer puts on your favorite song on the days you feel down and starts a slow dance with you, talking about your problem as you sway

Husband!Lucifer wants you to leave love bites on his pale skin because just a ring isn't enough in Hell, if you want others to know he belongs to you then you need to send a very strong, and very obvious, message

Husband!Lucifer tells you stories of his time up in Heaven and of his friends, admitting that sometimes he feels homesick, even after all these years

Husband!Lucifer kisses you with passion every time, his kisses are never lazy or tired, he wants to give you as much as you give to him, for you and only you are his equal in Hell

Husband!Lucifer thinks of you as his new home, you're where his heart is, where his new life is, and he will do anything and everything in his power to make you happy

#hazbin hotel x reader #lucifer morningstar x reader #lucifer x reader #hazbin hotel imagine #lucifer morningstar imagine #lucifer imagine #hazbin hotel headcanon #lucifer morningstar headcanon #lucifer headcanons #hazbin hotel fluff #lucifer morningstar fluff #lucifer fluff #hazbin hotel #lucifer morningstar #lucifer #x reader

[propertyofwicked]

HOMESICK - LN

content warnings: just fluff really, mentions of anxiety, being far from family

2.4k words - lemme know if u want a pt2 for this one :)

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y/n hated new places, she hated change, and most of all she hated being away from home. y/n knew she would eventually feel a sense of comfort and familiarity in woking, but for now, her blood ran hot, and an icy sweat took over her body, her eyes tearful even though she couldn’t pin point why she felt so upset. the flat was silent, and yet deafening, every whistle of wind or creak of a floorboard serving as her constant reminder - you are alone, your are miles away from your family, everything is unfamiliar.

she found herself constantly shaking her head, trying to knock some sense into herself

you’ve done this before, you went to university even further from your family, you did this for 3 years, you can do it again. you are a grown woman now sort yourself out.

her thoughts battled loudly with each other, one side of her brain logical, the other trying to sabotage her.

it just didn’t make sense - she travelled across the world almost weekly, filming and editing content for the mclaren social media pages, working closely with the drivers, engineers and management and never once felt overwhelmed with the distance from home comforts. she supposed being constantly on the move, keeping her mind and body occupied with her work boded well in distracting her from feeling homesick. the close bond she’d formed with everyone in the garages probably aided her even further, provided her with a new sense of family away from home.

but for now, she sat cross legged on her desk chair, arms resting on the table, her head balancing precariously in her hands, deep in sleep. y/n had arrived at the offices at 10pm, unable to sleep in her empty flat, the feeling of constant nausea and upset overbearing, and deciding that being productive was a much better use of her time - a great distraction from her loneliness. she hadn’t intended to fall asleep, especially not in a position that put so much strain on her back, and yet here she was.

3am in the mclaren offices and all that could be heard was heavy, exhausted breathing and the soft whir of a computer fan that ran idly in the background.

this is something that lando found peculiar - who was sleeping in the office? and why were they sleeping here? he thought to himself as he and oscar snuck into the building from the side door.

as they rounded the corner, oscar’s mouth opened, starting to ask the same thing lando had been questioning, but was cut off by lando’s finger raising to his own lips, shushing the younger man before pointing to y/n’s desk, her head now resting on the table cheek smushing her forgotten glasses further into her face uncomfortably.

the two of them, stared at the girl before moving to look back at each other, a mix of confusion and amusement glossing their faces.

“wh- why is she here?” he asked, out of pure concern for the girl.

“i don’t know oscar, we walked in at the same time?” lando responds, taking long but quiet steps to stand behind her chair.

“didn’t she just get a new flat near here? why wouldn’t she go home?” oscar asked again, mindlessly, knowing that lando was also bewildered to the sight in front of them. the older man simply shrugged in response, moving to rest a hand on the sleeping girl’s shoulder, bending slightly till he was level with her face.

“y/n? y/n?” he asked her softly, moving her shoulder gently in his hand as to not startle her, “you need to wake up, darlin’, can’t sleep here,” he adds, noting her breathing change as she came back to reality.

“lando?” she asked, startled, despite his best efforts, “what are you doing here it’s like -” she wiggled the mouse on her computer to bring up the home screen, “3am?”

“what are you doing here at 3am? not to mention, fast asleep at your desk,” he retorts, standing back and crossing his arms over his chest. she finally clocks oscar stood awkwardly behind him, sending him a quick smile, before leaning back in her chair, looking at lando again.

“i asked first.”

“we’re breaking in to decorate zach’s office for his birthday,” he says as though it was obvious, laughing slightly at the thought of the hello kitty balloons stuffed into the bag oscar held behind his back, “now, what are you doing here?”

“working,” she replied, offering no more to her story.

“with your eyes closed? drooling on your desk? i don’t think so.”

“i was not drooling,” she argues, confident in her words despite the back of her hand moving to wipe her mouth just in case.

“you we-”

“didn’t you just move in to a new flat y/n?” oscar asks, interrupting what he was sure would be an entertaining round of bickering between the two.

“i did,” she says with a nod, “i just got so caught up in my work. didn’t realise what the time was,” she adds, dodging the subject of her empty flat. the flat so empty of life, but so full of overwhelming silence and dread, and yet she found solace in the silence of the mclaren offices.

“do you want a ride home?” lando asked, sensing there was more to the story, but leaving the can unopened, for now.

she shook her head, breathing out a long sigh as she did.

“no thanks, i might just stay here till the work day starts,” she adds, her hand rubbing her eyes slightly, feeling the exhaustion still looming in her brain.

“are you sure?” oscar asked, concern rising in his voice again.

“yep,” y/n replied, the ‘p’ exaggerated.

the boys looked at each other, a silent exchange of words between the team mates as they moved in the direction of zach’s office once again.

“we’ll come check in with you before we leave, yeah?” lando added, before turning on his heel and following oscar down the long hallway. she nodded even though they couldn’t see her, before pulling the hood of her jumper over her hair, and letting her head fall back onto the desk, using her arms as makeshift pillows.

it was nearing 4am when the two returned, once again guided down the hallway by the sound of y/n’s heavy breathing. they stopped just before they could see her, turning to each other.

“we gotta get her home. her back is gonna be ruined if she keeps sleeping like that,” oscar says, keeping his voice low.

“i know - she still hasn’t forgiven jon for letting her sleep curled up under a table a year ago. spent the whole week complaining about her spine aching,” lando replied, smiling softly at the memory of her trying to bend herself backwards over a chair to ‘reset’ her back, as she had claimed.

“how do we get her to leave? willingly? without the kicking and screaming?” lando asked after a moment of silence, the boys plotting their next moves.

“you’ll think of something, im sure. she’ll never say no to you,” oscar replies, his hands moving to grip his car keys in the pockets of his joggers.

“what do you mean? ill think of something? you’re not leaving me to deal with her on my own, are you?” lando asked, suddenly doubting his abilities to contend with the strong willed woman asleep not 3 metres away from them.

“i left lily sleeping 2 hours ago, and i don’t feel like explaining this,” he says, pointing at the room in general, “when she wakes up and realises im not there,” he finishes with a shrug.

“fine,” lando says with a huff, “wish me luck.”

“good luck. lemme know how she gets on,” the australian replies, walking away from lando slowly, but glancing into the office space to check on y/n one last time.

lando sighed again, before sauntering back into the room he had left her in an hour ago. he moved to crouch next to her again, his fingers moving to pull her hood back, tucking her hair out of her face as he did. she looked so peaceful like this, her eyes twitching slightly under the pressure of sleep, a lose strand of hair blowing with every exhale. he didn’t want to wake her, but there was no other option unless he wheeled her out on the chair she sat on.

“angel? y/n?” he paused, grimacing slightly at his slip up, “it’s time to go,” he said softly, stroking her arm gently. he hoped she was too sleepy to notice the pet name.

“go where?” she mumbled, in her half-asleep state, eyes opening to look at him.

“home, y/n. need to get you in a proper bed.”

“no, im fine here,” she said, quickly defending her choice of sleeping position, “you go, ill see you later.”

“nuh-uh,” he tutted, standing in front of her to grip both her arms, dragging her up from the chair, “you are going to go home and sleep in a proper bed.”

“i don’t have my car and there’s no buses at this time.”

“ill drive you home.”

“it’s out of your way, you’d be wasting a journey.”

“don’t care. you’re getting in my car and im taking you home,” he argued back, finalising the argument she knew she wouldn’t win.

“fine,” she huffed, still clawing for the last word even if she had lost the battle.

soon, they were stood in the car park, lando stepping to the side to pull the passenger door open, a hand firmly on her back pushing her into the car. she wanted to argue that she was fully capable of getting in the car on her own, but the pure exhaustion took over as she adjusted the seat to her comfort, clicking her belt in as lando started the engine.

the car was silent, asides from the fans that pushed warm air into the vehicle and the low humming of the engine. he tried his best to take the roads slow, especially as he neared her flat, fearing waking up the neighbourhood with the growling of his car when he accelerated.

“what’s the real reason you didn’t wanna go home?” he asked, arm coming to rest at his side.

“i told you, i didn’t realise what time it was,” she said, refusing to let her lie catch up with her.

“bullshit.”

“what?”

“i said, bullshit. that’s not the real reason.”

“im homesick,” she spat out, “ok? im an adult woman who can’t handle the prospect of being home alone, 200 miles away from her family. happy now?”

“happ- why would i be happy about that?” he asked, his tone softer than his previous outburst. they were now pulling into her apartment building, y/n still neglecting to answer him until the car pulled to a complete stop.

“you wanna come in, for a bit?” she asked, biting her tongue.

“do you want me to come in?”

“yeah, if you want to. only for a bit,” she said again.

“ok,” his response was simple, he didn’t really need to think it through. he glanced down at his watch, 5:15am, and yet, he could not feel more awake. he didn’t mind staying, especially if it gave her the comfort to move freely in her own home.

walking into her flat felt oddly natural to him, despite him having never been there. the two could be considered close friends, not that either of them would acknowledge it, but spending years working closely together, travelling around the world, tends to do that. they’d started working at mclaren at similar times, him as a driver and her as a content creator for the brand, the new job nerves acting as almost a trauma bond between the two. they’d spent many nights in each others hotel rooms, playing games, watching films, often with oscar in tow - anything to pass the time in between races - but the two had never crossed the personal boundary into each others homes.

and yet, lando strolled in, took his shoes off by the door, and threw himself down on the sofa as if this was a daily thing. y/n dropped herself down next to him, sighing as she did.

“you need to sleep,” he said, turning to look at her, his arm thrown over the back of the sofa where she sat.

“my brain is too awake now,” she said, voice never faltering despite her stomach turning as she realises how close they were sat, the way his warmth surrounded her as his fingers tapped a steady rhythm on the seat behind her head.

“you wanna watch something till you settle again?” he asked, tv remote already in hand.

“sounds good,” she replied, tight lipped, eyes focusing as he scrolled through her netflix, settling on a film she didn’t care to remember the name of.

before the opening credits had even started, y/n body slumped against lando’s, head dropping to rest below his shoulder. he tensed slightly, relaxing again when he looked down to see her eyes closed, chest heaving deep breathes once again. his arm resting on the sofa dropped behind her back, his hand moving to hold her waist gently, fingers drawing light circles on the fabric of her leggings.

a while later, he moved his hips slightly, trying to re adjust his position to stop his legs going dead. he feared he had woken her, when she mumbled something incoherent and began moving. lando allowed himself to let out a shaky breath as she twisted herself into his side, her arm moving to wrap around his waist, her leg bending upwards to rest on top of his.

he waited a moment, as if to check she was really sleeping, before leaning down to press a soft kiss to the top of her head.

“goodnight, angel,” he whispered.

lando told himself he’d leave when the film ended. in his silence he planned how to move from the sofa without waking her. but then his eyes grew tired, and he told himself he’d shut them, just for a moment.

the two of them lay on the sofa, fast asleep. his posture had sloped in his slumber, shifting their bodies into a recline, his arms wrapped tightly around her and she settled onto his chest. their legs entwined with each other, a blanket lando had attempted to wrap around her had fallen haphazardly to the floor.

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