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flowercrowngods · 1 year
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steve ‘floor time’ harrington and eddie ‘no one touch or perceive me’ munson. they flinch at every noise even though they expected a good night, a stable night, but something changed and they’re in sensory overload. steve tries to take eddie’s hand but he pulls away immediately, shrinking in on himself. steve hums and cocks his head, signalling eddie to follow him.
they leave the loud and lively living room, the kids yelling all over each other, and find a dark and empty room and just lie on the floor for a while before they’re ready to come back. they don’t talk, don’t touch, just lie there next to each other. eddie takes steve’s hand when he’s ready for touch again. they start talking in hushed voices, bringing noise back, rebooting their senses, slowly and gently easing each other in again.
when they come back, hand in hand, mike turns down the music and lucas makes sure to remind people not to talk too loudly. the boys are drained, but the kids try their best. they’re all trying their best.
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bcolfanfic · 1 month
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Mollie I’m sitting on my knees with my hands out begging for the young veteran au HC’s with Gale and John’s adopted daughter 🤲🏻
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(modern) young vets au - josie cleven-egan’s version™️
they talk about it once not long after they get back to the states- but that conversation ultimately comes down to deciding to revisit it when bucky’s ptsd is more under control.
and if it just isn’t something that works out for them- or bucky doesn’t feel ready ever then that’s okay too.
but bucky wants it. which takes some work, and time and tears and gale wanting to fire every single person at the sheridan VA office.
he gets there though, and gale is so damn proud of his husband.
when they revisit the kids thing they consider going to the infant adoption route but ultimately decide to go through an agency that places waiting kids in the foster system whose parental rights have already been terminated. surrogacy isn't something either of them really bring up except to bypass it.
it’s a smidge because bucky is intimidated by literal babies. just a smidge. 
they eventually get a call about a four year old little girl named josie and the information the social worker sends over about her breaks their sweet hearts. 
they both have their own shit from the war, but they’re grown men and trying to wrap their minds around a four year old having trauma that almost rivals their own makes them sick. 
damn taking a few days to call back like her social worker offers, they call back by the end of the night to ask when they need to be ready. 
sweet little josie shows up with a hello kitty suitcase at 8pm on a tuesday. gale and bucky love her instantly in a way that they struggle to really articulate. 
it just makes sense, her little face looking up at them when she’s sitting on the floor pulling her shoes off. she’s home. 
she clicks with bucky immediately, who takes to calling her jojo which she rolls with happily. but gale freaks himself out about suddenly actually being a parent and takes a little longer to find his footing. 
which makes him a little insecure when she seems more hesitant around him than she does bucky. it doesn’t necessarily help that bucky is the one home all day- and the one time he has to leave for an evening and isn’t there for bedtime poor josie absolutely flips out. 
her and gale both end up in tears by the time she’s actually clonking out, bless their hearts. 
she tuckers herself out and falls asleep in his arms. but man does poor gale feel like he’s absolutely useless having spent the past couple hours listen to her scream for daddy to come home like he’s just some babysitter. 
it hurts bucky’s heart when he’s home and gale is venting about it. he knows that man was born to be a dad and that their baby loves him, they just maybe need a little more one on one time. and gale needs to get out of his head about becoming his own father because, as bucky puts it- he’s nothing like that sack of shit and never will be. 
they spend more one and one time together, gale bringing her to the school he substitute teaches at when he’s just going in to plan over the weekend. she’s content to color on printer paper while he works, parking herself on his knees. it’s the first time she does that, and bucky beams at the photo he texts him. 
my buddy, at last! 👍🏼
the first time she calls gale daddy as opposed to “um, mis-ter cle’n” he cries. bucky cries. everyone cries. 
then raises the issue of figuring out how to differentiate between the two of them. they land on gale being daddy and bucky being papa. 
bucky jokes that it makes him feel he’s on little house on the prairie, but it’s fine. he’d let his darling jojo call him anything she damn well pleased. 
the day they make it official at the courthouse, as many of the guys as are free fly in to be there and celebrate with them. crosby brings his herd of kids and watching them run around with the newest little cleven-egan makes him emotional. 
“you cryin’ croz?”
“thinkin’ about when we were overseas. didn’t know if we’d be alive by the end of the week. but now look at our lives,” he says, swiping at his eyes. bucky smiles and rubs his shoulder, feeling choked up for about the fifth time that day. 
“it all worked out, huh?”
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m1d-45 · 1 year
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sibling anon gets it
eldritch horror reader…hrghh <3
things like this are always kind of tough, because half of sagau is just people inserting themself into genshin for funsies. but:( unfortunately:( i’m not actually an eldritch horror, so i don’t have the official eldritch horror experience™️
but !! for the sake of this AU?? thing? let’s pretend that just being a human in our intricate world, makes us an eldritch horror compared to the simple genshin world.
i’ve read a thing about this before, how us being so detailed is so creepy to the characters. i’ll try to link a post with some credit in another ask!! bc it’s so cool
but basically, since our world is so full of detail, — (such as: seeing individual hairs on our heads, being able to see the details of our skin with a magnifying glass, microscopic bugs etc.) — and genshin is so flat in comparison, just seeing us would be EXTREMELY unsettling for the characters.
the adepti and gods would probably have a more robust mind, so it’s not like they’d be that disturbed. but the human characters? oog. ooga. it would be like seeing a psychedelic wizard cryptid.
i mean, can you imagine? your whole world, for your whole life, has been so simple. so easy to comprehend. and then THIS MOTHERFUCKER SHOWS UP?? THEY CAN SEE EACH HAIR ON OUR HEAD?? THERE’S WHAT IN OUR BLOOD? FINGERPRINTS???? for what purpose :(
or, we could actually just be an eldritch horror. bloodborne style. in which case, nah man. everyone is confused. if they can even see us.
if any, i guess the only character who would actually be able to see us would be nahida. she’s got a pretty big mind, right?
i’ll elaborate more coherently later !! yippee
-owl anon
1) “people inserting themself into genshin for the funsies” a) isn’t that the whole point of sagau b) why would you say something so controversial and yet so brave— 2) “i don’t have the official eldrich horror experience™️” if you can’t make it at home, store bought is fine
i remember a post about us being more Detailed than genshin chars, prolly the one you saw, and that is one way to take it! many many potential situations there, but you’d probably have to cope w all the pixel art graphics more than anything-
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pervysenpaix · 2 years
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Just wanted to say you’ve ruined me because now I can’t stop thinking about bully! Midoriya who doesn’t even know he’s bullying you.
Wants to be friends so bad he won’t leave you alone and keeps harassing you with personal info he’s gathered on you because besties share secrets right? Never once does it cross his mind that it’s stalking when he goes out his way to get as much information as possible without your permission or knowledge
Bestfriend!/Bully!Midoriya because can you really tell the difference ?
There was no avoiding it.
It was inevitable really.
From the moment you were introduced to the group he knew he had to have you.
See— Midoriya has a bit of an obsession. He collects friends similarly to his AllMight figurines. Keeps them all in his tight little platonic harem. Regardless of their interests or feelings, if Midoriya’s gemstone gaze lingers on a person for more than a few seconds then it’s been decided. They’re friends now.
There were no exceptions to this rule.
Not even you.
Kacchan may have saved you from his badgering the first night but let’s be honest—there’s no hiding from the number one.
It starts of small. Adding you on social media. That’s simple enough. All it took was cross referencing mutual friends followers. It was slightly upsetting to see you following Kacchan but not him. But Hey! It’s okay ! You guys just met… he just needs to break the ice.
He gets kind of annoyed when you don’t follow back immediately but maybe it’s because you don’t recognize his personal account allmightbemydad ™️ , so he follows you on the official ProHero!Deku account but it’s still crickets …
That’s fine. He’ll just text you ! How’d he get your number you asked? Oh, he just asked around! A friend of a friend. That’s what he told you, but he actually found your place of employment from Facebook then hacked into the system to get all of your personal information like cellphone, address , DOB , blood type
Did you really think a dry text thread was enough to deter him ? Not at all , because if you don’t want to text then you probably want to talk right ? That’s fine ! He actually prefers face to face contact !
He’ll stop by your house with your favorite things and a big smile. Guilt tripping you because who wouldn’t let the #1 hero in after he’s gone through all of this effort ?
Guess you’ll be having a movie night! Don’t be so stiff! Loosen up its fine you’re just besties hanging out. Smile for the camera, love. #4lifers.
Now the media frenzy starts.
Who’s that ?
Are they dating ?
What’s their name ?
What’s their quirk ?
I wish I were them …
It’s endless and overwhelming. You wanna be anywhere but this situation but Deku doesn’t give you the chance.
ProHero!Deku just went live.
Midoriya was so giddy at the influx of questions about his bestie and he was more than happy to answer them. Surprising even you with answers to things that you’d never even mentioned before.
You might feel the need to pull away but I’d suggest against it. You’ll just end up with blunt fingernails digging into your arm and a tight lipped smile from Deku. He’ll kiss your temple and whisper “play nice”.
Kacchan can’t do anything but shake his head at the stream, watching the forced smile adorning your lips.
Another one bites the dust.
@mhathotfic I just want you to know that you’ve got the wheels spinning and I’m about to dive off the deep end so prepare yourself.
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obvious-captain-rogers · 11 months
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I know I’m late for Dreamling Day, but I had a really funny/cute thought
What if after Dream retires and passes the mantle off to Daniel (because that’s definitely what happened of course) he has a really hard time keeping track of time bc he just innately knew when he was Dream of the Endless.
So Dream’s first June 7th as a human comes and Hob is being extra sweet bc he definitely would be and because it’s his and Dream’s official anniversary and he wants it to be extra special now bc Dream’s been a little lost getting used to the idea of being Very Human. But the thing is… Dream has no idea what day it is. He just thinks that Hob is being very Hob on this particular day with the breakfast in bed and early morning make out session. It isn’t until around mid-afternoon when Dream goes to have lunch with Hob- as he usually does if he’s not wrapped up in whatever new thing he’s trying- and Dream finds Daniel in Hob’s office, about to leave, and there’s a fondness about them both. Dream feels as if he’s missing something when Daniel excises himself, gives Hob a warm kiss on the cheek, and then leaves. They have lunch, tree day passes, and then Hob comes in from his night class and tells Dream to get dressed in something nice bc they have a special dinner date that Dream gets that feeling that he’s really missed something, like when you think that you’re at the bottom of a staircase and you trip down the last two steps with all the stomach lurching of if you’d been at the top and tripped. So Not Good.
And Hob’s oblivious at first bc he’s just thrilled that he managed to keep it a surprise for so long. Hob Gadling has never been particularly good with secrets. But then he tunes into the fact that there is something off beyond the normal “Dream’s in a new environment and is unsure because he is still a New Human™️” so he asks which only serves to make Dream wilt further and mumble about how he’s fine even though he’s clearly not
Hob feels a pang of guilt. “If it’s too much we can always go home, dove.” Hob reaches out to hold one of Dream’s hands were he’d been picking at the tablecloth. “I just thought since it’s our anniversary-”
“Our what?” Dream blinks at Hob owlishly, like he doesn’t know what the other just said.
“Our anniversary?” Hob suddenly feel wrong-footed and he checks his watch to be sure he didn’t get the date wrong. “It’s June 7th.”
Dream feels a rush of relief and he lets out a soft “oh”. “The date of our centennial meeting. Not our anniversary.”
Which of course turns into a squabble about what should really count as their anniversary with Hob insisting that it should be the day they met and Dream refusing to acknowledge anything aside from the day they first kissed. And it’s something they come to laugh about, later when Dream doesn’t feel so sensitive and Hob doesn’t feel so insensitive.
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vicbutnotactually · 8 months
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SORRY TO ASK FOR MORE INFO BUT THIS AU SO TASTY… tell me more about the boys 🥺 especially like. Did they like each other before ending up stranded together? And what did that shotgun wedding look like because 👀👀
Ask as much as you like! I love asks :]
(I’m currently working on more drawings of The Elder Gays ™️ but bear with me it takes a second)
The did like each other before they went through the portal, but when they were dropped into this new and scary world, romance was put on the back burner to focus on their survival. There was an awkward phase in the beginning tho, where neither of them really knew what to do. Even a point where they were both so stressed and frustrated and scared that it resulted in a lot of arguing and couple dramatic scenes where someone would storm off or say something they didn’t mean (it’s a ship au, you know I had to do it to em.)They did like each other, but they also had bigger fish to fry, at that point it’s been a few months and they’re starting to worry that no one is coming for them. Eventually, they get in a situation where they think they’re about to die, and confession happens >:] after they survive, they start to settle into the idea more. Even though they’ve met other people in their time there, they feel like they only really have each other.
At first, everything was unofficial. Casey would flirt relentlessly and Leo would pretend he’s annoyed. But after they realized they were probably in it for the long run, they made things official.
It took them a while to get used to their new environments, they tried living in the cities, but found it to be more stressful that being out in the wild. I imagine that they probably had several run-ins with gangs, struggled to find food or water, and had to hide out in abandoned places and alleys. Eventually, they moved out, I like to think that their last straw was one of them catching an illness that was running rampant in the city which could possibly be life threatening. Who gets sick is fine either way for me tbh; either way, one has to find a better place to live outside of the city, fight off anything dangerous, take care of the essentials (shelter, food, and water,) on top of taking care of the sick one.
The events leading up to their wedding are as follows: they’ve been busy recently, hunting large fauna and salvaging ancient tech, both to sell and trade off in the cities, it’s going well for them, they have money and supplies to support themselves (mostly) and have a somewhat permanent place to live. During a slightly riskier hunt, they find themselves overrun and Leo almost dies. Casey sees it in slow motion as a deadly hit misses him by less than a centimeter and experiences more fear than he ever has before. Immediately afterward, while they’re still fighting off these creatures:
C: “WE NEED TO GET MARRIED”
L (slashing at something with his sword: “WHAT?”
C (louder): “MARRY ME! NOW!”
L: “NOW?!”
C: “YES! WE WONT LIVE FOREVER”
L: “OK”
C (calling over to someone nearby): “ (insert name) MARRY US, WE WANT TO GET MARRIED”
X person: “WHAT, NOW!?”
C (holding off an attacker with his weapon): “YES NOW DO IT”
X person: “ok then... DO YOU CASEY TAKE LE-“
C: “I DO”
L: “I DO”
X: “I NOW PRONOUNCE (shoots something) YOU HUSBANDS YOU MAY KISS THE GROOM”
And cue hurried kiss in the middle of a battlefield with possibly an explosion in the background
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Let me know if there’s anything specific you wanna know about :]
Also, do you have any thoughts on what this au should be called?
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daily-rui-kamishiro · 1 month
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hello and welcome to daily rui kamishiro!!! i’m not explaining this concept you read the url. daily rui. what more do you want from us.
tags:
daily rui ☆
not daily rui ☆
doodle posting ☆
official stuff posting ☆
plushie posting ☆
other posting ☆
here are our mods!!
mod rui 🎈
~ hi hello!! (hiding all my rui merch and all my posts on my main) i’m very normal about rui kamishiro!! i prommy!!!
~ i use he/it pronouns mainly
~ i’m a very very big aroace rui (and aroace wxs fan)
~ i’ll be signing off with the tag mod 🎈 for my posts, and just 🎈 in the posts themselves
~ i don’t know what else i add here. this loser friend loving purple idiot is my everything
Mod Nene
Hi hi hello technically multiple mods in a trenchcoat (plural) but let's not talk about that :3
They/them pronouns since we don't feel comfortable specifying which alter is which here and we all have different genders
There's a decent chance you'll recognize us if you know us from main but thats fine :3
Gonna sign off with mod 🎮 in tags and 🎮 in the posts themselves. Yes we're copying Rui here dw about it
Uhhh we like the silly clown man who makes robots. Intro done 👍
Mod Tsukasa 🌟
- I very much enjoy the silly purple fella
- she/her pronouns :3
- Very self-indulgent hcs about the silly around these parts, he's incredible and I love him
- I'll sign off with mod 🌟 in the tags and 🌟 on posts because consistency
- Hehe Rui
mod saki :3
• hihi!! how do you do an intro please help
• they/them, if you feel a little silly u can use star neos but no pressure :D
• will be signing off as mod 🎹 in the tags and just 🎹 in the posts
• Normal™️ about the he. other favs include the Tenma siblings and the rest of wxs!
• everyone else has a 5th dot but idk what to put here uhhh i've been told i act like the mizuki to my friends ruis so take that as u will >:3
☄ i already draw ruikasa daily so im basically prepared for this
mod honami 🥁
☄ i use he/him, will sign off with 🥁
☄ very self indulgent rui design i hope yall dont mind
☄ thats it really im just an aroace honaruikasa oshi (not ship) (except for ruikasa therye a qpr in my heart) ok bye bye
mod Emu 🍬
★ I use they/them and sign off with 🍬 or mod 🍬
★ I have no idea what I'm doing half the time but I'm trying my best nonetheless. Please be considered of this.
★ absolutely hate the purple lad. I have no idea why I'm here. /j
★ I will actively showcase this behaviour by creating many different types of posts about him.
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Welcome to the party, Daniel! I hope you're in good "spirits"! :P
While you're inside the USB, are you able to interact with the outside world at all? Can you see or feel anything? And is there a different feeling depending on which electronic item you're in?
-🎲
This is what my life is going to be from now on, isn’t it? A bunch of shitty ghost puns?
Yuppppppp.
Hey, what do you call the ghost of a chicken?
GET THE FUCK OUT. LEAVE.
Guys! Shut up, I’m plugging Daniel into our computer so he can answer this person’s question.
We’re still not going to question how we can see them?
Quiet!
…Oh, that’s so much better. You have no idea how cramped it was in there.
Sorry, it was kind of the only way we could sneak you out.
It’s fine, it’s fine! Anyways, what was the question?
“Could you see/feel something in the USB, could you interact with the world, do different electronics feel different…” Basically, that.
Oh! Well, the USB is rather small, so there isn’t a lot I would be able to do from it. I’m bound to the device, so I wouldn’t be able to get very far from it. I doubt I’d even be able to manifest fully without being pulled back! And as for seeing and feeling things, that one’s kind of a no. There aren’t any screens for me to look out of, and all I really feel is the USB bouncing in a pocket.
As for the last part, electronics definitely feel different! It’s kind of like different pairs of clothes, you know? Things like USBs feel like incredibly tight fits, computers are nice and open, but also always humming, and I kind of have to share the space with a lot of information. And wires just feel like a wild ride! You kind of end up pushed along them with no control, because of the electrical current. It’s pretty fun.
…Psst! This is Seán. I’m on the computer while Brian’s not looking. Anyways! What do you call the ghost of a chicken?
A poultry-geist!
Pfffft… That was not funny.
You laughed! I heard that! You laughed! A ghost laughed at my ghost puns! I am officially the Pun Master™️!
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sophsun1 · 11 months
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In my mind it always changes. But right now, the thing that would start the show and bring Brian and Linds and Justin (because duh) together would be Gus having a baby (i think it would be funny with Brians distaste towards straight people that his own son became a “boring breeder”) and maybe someone would get married or Michael and Ben would renew their vows or something like that. Britin would maybe get married it in the end because they’d be going ‘hmmm maybe now is the time’ during the wedding festivities. Also it would be weirdly Brian who would hint at it not Justin..gotta turn the tables a little bit. Gus would for sure help with the proposal planning. And Emmett would get his happy ending, he’d finally meet a guy that was worth his time. Also I feel like Britin would already be together. Like I keep going back and forth between them running into each other in some way, for example: Maybe Brian finally opens NY office and Justin gets hired for something and they reunite that way. Or the one I’m currently a fan of: the movie/show would open up to Brian walking into a room, talking on the phone with Gus/Mikey and hanging up and going ‘he’s having a baby/they’re renewing their vows’ and it pans to Justin laying in the bed. I wish they would do this. I feel like the cast would for sure be down for it IF the stories would be good. I’m sorry this is all over the place but my brain is a mess
Hey anon!
Please this is way more coherent than I could ever be at the moment. You're talking to a literal dissociative basket case who doesn't know whether she's coming or going (no pun intended) so do not fret, you're fine!
Brian Kinney the gayest gay to ever gay having a straight™️ kid *cackles* the universe so would.
Yeah I would definitely lean towards a baby/wedding or both reuniting them all setting off the chain of events, the next generation of their family being born on the show a parallel to Gus' birth in the pilot. Maybe we could finally get that britin wedding god knows by this time they will have waited long enough!
My dear sweet, Emmett I demand he get his happy ever after and also he would officiate Britin's wedding obviously.
Britin would absolutely be together and living in NY, I don't have any time for will they/won't they's or reunions, we suffered enough of that in the show. These two are joined for eternity and will be the death of each other, arguing till their last breath as only they could.
I love your idea for the opening shot with Brian on the phone then panning to Justin, it would be perfect. The cast are like a real big family and I'm sure would be up for it and even if they weren't we would bully them (affectionately) into it should any be apprehensive. They themselves know the characters didn't all get the best ending and love the fans and I'm hopeful would want to do it willing the stories were right.
Because not all reboots (I hate that word) or continuations of iconic shows after a long period of time are successful so I personally would only want it if it was gonna be a tribute to the shows memory and to build on that. Telling worthwhile stories knowing it's not gonna be the guys at 50 heading to Babylon but a different chapter of their lives with a fun element to it, they're old not dead lmao. I would just hate it to be a disaster and the final memory of the show post S5!
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galacticnova3 · 2 years
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i don't know what's going on but i really hope things start getting better because its disheartening to see people stressing you out needlessly. i wish those anons a very "hey. cut it out"
Tbh at this point it’s less stress and more “man what did I do to get this crap”. I’m not even one of the Big Tunglers™️ so it’s not just bigger audience meaning higher chance of weirdos. I am just some guy(gener neutral) who made an intentionally easy-to-hate-but-not-just-annoyingly-unlikable character and suddenly someone decided “yea I’d bang” and never made it clear if it was ironic or not. Also the tortilla shooter thing was brought up and quickly devolved.
While that initially got old I personally think the new idea of collaborative shitpost “oc” developed by random people in my inbox has good meme/inside joke potential. Also just the social experiment of seeing where different folks take it and what becomes accepted tortilla canon or not. I want to let the chaos unfold. I want to witness some shit like an indirect argument over whether or not misogynistic tortilla oc should be officially named Brad or Iru 2 and instead of mediating it I would simply provide an objectively worse name suggestion. I want to watch someone try to write a tragic backstory for a fucking tortilla and have it immediately contradict another potential backstory. Imagine fanart of what is essentially just a sentient tortilla that disrespects women. I think this has too much funny potential for me to ignore.
Ok that was a long tangent, uh… To express something I said elsewhere recently, at least I was lucky in that it was Iru getting the bulk of the weird attention. If people were like that towards my more serious characters like Reloh or Roa I think I would have combusted and collapsed into a small pile of fine powder. If people treated Loa as a Tumblr sexywoman it would have been my villain origin story. Iru is still in the space of “yes he is a real character but also I don’t always take him seriously”.
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wait lemme tell y'all about how Italy made me trans
*disclaimer, I was already iffy abt my gender and working through my own feelings. I looked pretty androgynous and was like "fuck it what's the worst that could happen."
*my program coordinators were dope and made sure I felt comfortable as a soft transmasc person, especially when going to religious sites where there was significant gender segregation
ANYway
Got yelled at at outgoing airport, but didn’t get pat down. Mad about shit I had in my pockets, but no issues with the binder!
Used the mens bathroom exclusively at the airports (gross y'all live like this?)
Got on the flight, correctly gendered by flight attendants every time (he/him)
Made it through customs nonissue. Literally the most chill customs agents—barely looked at my passport. like talking in Italian and not giving a shit. peak
Used mens bathroom when I got to Italy again exclusively. Was able to get my own room so didn’t have to worry abt roommates 
Presented male throughout Italy. Almost got accosted by a street vendor by the colosseum but that was more of me being American than being trans. Literally had to dodge and bolt bc he was coming at me I was cornered against a wall all while my friend was watching, concerned but amused from afar.
So many hot men in Italy. I’m sorry, but my dumb gay ass was dying.
Also EXTREME gender dysphoria around Italian youth. they didn’t all look like Timothee chalamet in cmbyn but they were pretty goddamn close. 
Italian bathrooms are superior to American bathrooms. There I said it. Except for the mens bathroom at the Roman forum, but there were a bunch of international tourists there, so what can I expect. 
Got called “sir” by Italian folks, which was rad. 
Walked around at night alone. Needed to run to a convenience store late and went by my self. Told my friends where I was going but otherwise wasn’t afraid. 
Was designated the navigator™️ by all my fem friends when we were hanging out. Designated “keep an eye on things” and watch out for creeps, which was super validating. 
Went to the great Italian mosque where women had to wear head coverings. I was pre-everything (HRT, surgery, etc) at the time so the coordinator of the trip talked to me about it beforehand. Passed well enough where it wasn’t an issue. 
Also went to the synagogue where they had all the mean wear (Jewish head coverings) I was given one, but my friends told me the rabbi hesitated, like he couldn't tell.
But I was getting pretty wiped by this point so I sat outside for a breather. I'm scared of organized religion #TraumatizedExCatholic
Spent the evenings alone often and worked with trying to get my top surgery consult scheduled. 
The end of the trip was quickly approaching and I realized it didn’t want to come back to the US, not just because Italy is wonderful, but because I’d be coming back to a world of misgendering, discomfort, and depression. 
Obvi I had to go back tho, and here’s where the issues started.
Leaving Italy was fine, no issues there
Had to get my passport checked again when we got to Paris. Customs hesitated but let me through. 
As I was in line to get off the plane, they were checking passports again. The French official took mine and spend a good minute just looking at me back and forth before saying “ah, you got a haircut.” 
I just nodded bc obviously I didn’t want to be detained in Paris. No use in explaining anything. 
When I got to the door, they pulled me aside again for a “random security check.” 
The rest of my class was on the flight already. I was one of the last people in the kiosk to board. 
They went through my luggage—i only had a carry on. The guy checking me seemed to be American 
Swiped by hands for chemicals
Took my passport and asked “are you a girl?” And it was like being punched. 
I said yeah and explained that I’m trans. He just kept asking “so you’re a girl, right? You’re a girl, you’re a girl??”
And I’m like, yeah. Sure. 
So then he goes “no hard feelings, yeah?” And returns my passport. I’m like, yeah. 
Then I board the flight FINALLY 
Got gendered correctly by the flight attendant, which was rad 
Landed in the Atlanta airport, fuck Atlanta. Just generally but I also got “miss” and “ma’am” by security a bunch, which fucking sucked.  
Man FUCK atlanta
Absolutely exhausted at this point so I didn’t even give a fuck
Landed back home and was able to get back
Oh yeah, had my wallet stolen with 80 euro, my military id, covid card, and a bunch of other important stuff, so I couldn’t get back into my dorm.
Fortunately, one of my friends was an RA and able to let me in, so I got back, collapsed in bed at 3 am and woke up abt seven hours later 
and now im a Dude!
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tarvastries · 10 months
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one of the funniest things about moving from a small rural community (no post office, we’re not even an official town) to a Big City™️ is dealing with a new kind of frustration with the time it takes to drive somewhere
what I mean is, I’m currently house-sitting for my boss, who said I could stay there (I’m not) since it’s “so far out of the way” and would be “too much of a drive each day” — which it’s not, and it’s not… because they live 25 minutes away, max.
Being from the middle of nowhere, I’m used to driving at least 30 minutes to get places — grocery stores, houses of friends and family, work, church, you name it. So that drive to my boss’s house is nothing.
And yet. At the same time.
Because I’m from the middle of nowhere, I’m used to driving in the 60-75 range with no other drivers around me to slow things down. A five-mile trip takes five minutes, probably less. So I’m fine with driving 20 minutes to check on a house and a kitty cat because it’s a fair distance and also in the suburbs. However, I’m also filled with an inhuman amount of rage every time I drive somewhere that would usually — and should! — only take 5 minutes, but ends up taking 20 because of Traffic.
It’s an interesting trade-off, to be sure.
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I feel like my time as the host of this system is coming to an end. I don’t think I’m going anywhere exactly, more just fading into the background noise of my brain, content to front when my friends or my girlfriend want me or something interests me. I feel burnt out, the way Echo felt when her hosting period was coming to an end. I feel like I have achieved my primary objective (transitioning, keeping us alive long enough to get top surgery) and now I can rest. Based on last time we had a change of host, it’s not instantaneous. Last time, Echo completed her primary objective (keeping us alive through high school, carrying us academically, performing femininity to protect us from social abuse etc.) and then held on as a co host for a year while I was slowly realising I was safe. Once I’d internalised that it was safe for me to exist, I took over completely.
This time, it will probably be less dramatic. It won’t be one person taking up the mantle and running with it, because we understand our plurality now instead of believing we’re one transmasc singlet. We’ve improved immensely in terms of our internal communication, so I will not be ‘lost’ when I’m no longer the host. I’m still here and there won’t be any throwing out each other’s stuff this time. When we move we’re gonna go through our things, we’re gonna have a Dandy box and an Echo box and a Tigerlily box etc. etc.
There’s no one here who feels safe communicating with the outside world, but I’m the safest by default because our body looks like that of a cis man for the most part and I’m fine dressing like Just Some Guy™️, so I will automatically be required to front for things like doctors appointments or official things, but my partner knows about Echo and Mal now and I’m sure she will be supportive of Tigerlily too if Tigerlily ever decides she wants to come out to her. The point being that when we have our own place, none of them will have to hide behind me, so I won’t be stretched thin and fronting won’t seem like a chore.
-Dandelion
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taiyakiiwrites · 3 years
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hihihi ~ hope you're doing well! would you mind doing some hcs for keigo with a quirkless s/o??? i was thinking of someone that it's a police officer or even a nurse??? btw hope you don't mind using g/n pronouns, please. take care <3
— keigo x quirkless!reader hcs
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pairing(s): keigo takami x gn!reader
wc: 1.4k+ words
content: how you met hawks, post confession headcanons, fluff because we love it here, cursing, small dashes of insecurity talk at the end
notes: i am doin pretty good!! and thank you for the request (and also tellin me my ask box wasnt open ;-;) i hope you enjoy what i cooked up for ya!! also, dw! the pronouns are always gender neutral when i write apart from requests and when people don’t specify in requests. i’m also fine if you or anyone wants your or their request written with specific pronouns too :)) you take care as well!! <3
⇉ requests are open!! || masterlist || rules
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keigo is rather fragile when it comes to relationships. he was taken in and started his training to be a hero very early on in his life, so he has no experience with deeper relationships, let alone romantic ones
well
had
his training covered assassination, spy missions, surprise attacks, and almost any possible scenario you could think of, which is even more insane considering quirks exist
but he was unprepared as shit for your first encounter with him
it was just another day and just another villain. he took care of them quickly and efficiently and the villain was dragged to the side. the bystanders that were watching before soon crowded him with questions and mics, papers and pens. but, like always, he had to talk to the officials first
reluctantly, he waved away his fans with a wink and smile, then turned the other way
and holy guacamole
you appeared at the scene and he got Got™️
was just struck with a solid 10 cupid arrows simultaneously
now, being the number two hero, he’s not usually nervous about talking to people—half of his job is that
but there was without a doubt hesitation present as he slowly made his way towards you and the group you were with
palms-sweaty-knees-weak-arms-heavy-mom’s-spaghetti type beat
walking over felt like an eternity with how much he was overthinking. why was he overthinking anyways? this was a completely normal situation after a completely normal fight and he was going over to talk to completely normal person (well, debatable)
he finally made it to the group and didn’t even need to clear his throat: they’d notice those bright, red wings anywhere, including you
“hey, what’s the situation?” he chimed after getting everyone’s attention, making eye contact with everyone and turning on his ✨hero charm✨
HOWEVER
when he turned to you
oh my—
sparkles. sparkles flying around. his head. awestruck.
your coworker didn’t seem to notice:
“oh, nothing too unusual. we’ll take him back and deal with him.”
hawks nodded at the man, visibly absentminded as he continued to stare at you
for a moment, you thought you did something wrong somehow within the first two seconds of being in his presence, but you just laughed—this snapped him out of his daze
“also, thank you for what you did today,” you mentioned with those gorgeous eyes of yours staring back at him, oh my gosh what a pretty shade of—“we all appreciate what you do for the city.”
for some reason, this seemed to catch him off guard, but he collected himself quickly: “o-oh! well, i mean, all in a day’s work. you help out the city just as much as i do, y’know. heroes are only part of the puzzle.” what a #humbleking
you took a moment to process his words, but then smiled, appreciation glistening in your gaze. “ah, well, i do as much as i can as a quirkless citizen.”
oops does that count as oversharing—
but before he could ask further, you and your group unfortunately had to excuse yourselves.
never in a million years would he miss that one last goodbye smile you gave him, though
LUCKILY it’s procedure to check in with all the workers involved after a crime scene definitely yes 100% yup totally
so, he invites you to talk about the scene at his agency! how nice of him! definitely wasn’t a plot to get to know you better without your coworkers potentially getting in the way! and he books it the literal day after because this man is now intrigued with the one minute he spent with you!
of course, you gotta dress to impress for the number two hero. so, when the day comes, you throw on one of your sharpest outfits and make your way downtown walking fast to the agency
the workers’ direct you to hawks’ office as he waits in his chair, checking his phone every two seconds for the time. god, when were you going to get here?—
a knock echoed through the room and he has never ran out of his chair faster
he swings the door open and you smile at him, saying hello with the files of yesterday’s case in your hands.
turn on the charm again and—“hey there~”
,,, initiate youhaveaheartattack.exe
he welcomes you in and pulls up a chair for you, then sits down at his own chair and discreetly noticed your outfit hOW ARE YOU SO GOOD LOOKING
he makes a quick joke about how he wishes the chairs were equal quality for both him and the ones for others in his office and you laugh of course because it is obvious this man is trying his dang darnest best and—“oh! i didn’t even ask for your name!”
in his head it’s just “DAMN IT HAWKS YOU IDIOT WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS YOU LITTLE—”
you realize this too and chuckle, then state it to him. he repeats after you and your name rolls off his tongue almost too easily. “nice ring to it.”
you nervously smile and avert your eyes for a moment, collecting yourself because this gorgeous man is right in front of you and did i mention he’s the number two hero because wow status is scary— “uh, should we get to the case?”
right
Fuck™️
luckily, fate was in his favor today
the conversation started off professional, but after the basics were covered about the crime scene, he got to segway into something else: your quirkless-ness
it was a little out of left field, having someone like him ask about something like that, but you don’t ignore it. instead, you sigh and rub the back of your neck. you didn’t want things to get too unprofessional, so you hit the main points only:
you said it was hard growing up quirkless. all the other kids seemed to have such a huge advantage compared to you. even as you did your best in academics, there were moments in school that just seemed like a sign in big, bold letters that you were never going to be at their level, and all because you were born unlucky
though, you added, you decided that you still wanted to help people in the ways you could. so, you worked hard day in and day out, and now you were here
you finished up the story and hawks was feeling… surprisingly sentimental
hawks’ quirk was almost all of who he was, his whole identity. sometimes, he thinks he wouldn’t be able to live without it. sure, he’s met quirkless people before, but seeing something—someone—like this, up close and personal? hearing about it from someone who saw the silver lining and decided that was enough?
he didn’t think you could get any better, but you clearly proved him wrong
“wow.” he leaned back in his chair. “i’m startin to think you should be on this side of the desk.”
you were stunned. with a nervous laugh and a wave of your hand, you pushed it aside and continued with what little of the case there was to talk about
,,, yeah no, hawks wasn’t gonna let that happen
the questioning ended and he not-so-secretly slipped you a paper with an address, one you’re familiar with being a local cafe, and a time, one that’s far too soon for you to think that this was going to be just another questioning
headcanons, post confession!
when he comes homes from work, he stretches his arms open wide and calls out that he’s home—it’s second nature for you to run to the door instantly and tackle him in a hug. if he’s in a good mood, he’ll pick you up and spin you around, singing a small line of either one of his or your favorite songs, whichever one was stuck in his head during patrol
he is busy as a pro hero, but that doesn’t mean you aren’t busy too! so, you two still work out a schedule so you can spend as much time together as possible
the days you and him do get off are filled with bad jokes, good food, and plenty of kisses. he likes to unwind when he can, so dates include movie nights (both at home with tons of blankets and in theaters with tons of overpriced candy and popcorn), serene, 5 star restaurants (he gets deals from plenty of places as a hero), small picnics with probably burnt cookies (again, he’s trying his best), and more!
you sometimes feel insecure about being with him. he’s the number two hero with a one of a kind quirk—the spotlight is on him the second he arrives. and you just feel so small in comparison. but he can’t have any of this
he’ll comfort you any time you feel down, and reassure you that you being quirkless means nothing to him; he loves you for who you are. and he mentions to look on the bright side: how you’ve come so far even without one, and how that makes you all the more special. he admits that sometimes, he doesn’t feel worthy of you
a lot of people are shallow nowadays. clout chasers are everywhere. and so, he’s used to being used. his fame is good when he can have an impact on the world, but more times than it should, it stabs him in the back.
getting someone like you? someone who doesn’t use him like a puppet on a string for your own benefit? that alone would make him feel conflicted. but there’s so much more to you. he can’t help but feel unworthy too
and well, you can’t have any of this either, now can you?
you both are each others’ support systems and you help each other grow as individuals, leading to a healthy, loving relationship. it’s what both of you deserve <333
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tf2fansderogatory · 2 years
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welcome to our blog! we just love doing our funny little thing out in this funny little world of ours. this is just the big funny pinned post thing aha
official tf2transderogatory discord server (really really cool. age limit 16+)
rules tags n mod intros under the cut !
request rules (cool)
1. no nsfw whatsoever. I hope this is obvious
2. all ships allowed, save for The Forbidden One. pauling ships r on thin ice
3. we reserve the right to not answer asks if we do not want to. do not bother us about it. we are all very busy
4. and uhh common sense be nice or whatever. keep asks on-topic. play tf2 everyday stay on that grind💪
tags
characters
scout
soldier
pyro
demoman
heavy
engineer
medic
sniper
spy
miss pauling
(other character tags will be added as BUNGUS FUCKING REMEMBERS TO ADD THEM)
mod intros (vbery important:)))))))))))))) )
bungus: howdy I’m bungus. I go by any pronouns and I’m just a funny little guy if I do say so myself. find me @presidentbungus on tumbler and ao3. I am an engy lover and medic lover and demo lover and all those other guys lover too except spy he sucks:))). send me asks about science party(!!!) & swordvan & engiespy and I’ll kiss you I will
modgod: i'm @youngods aka ares/modgod and use he/they pronouns. my major blorbos include spy and soldier, major ships include engiespy. talk to me about any of them and send music headcanons this way.
ghost fish: I'm @ghost-fish-in-a-bowl on tumblr!! I go by she/they pronouns and I love all heavy stuff (send me funny about things about him winkwink). I'm like the artist mod here ig so I'll do funny doodles around here lol.
crabmod: I'm @Nezclaw on Tumblr and anywhere else that counts. biiiiig medic simp. crabmod on the blog. like heavymedic and engiemedic, but platonically. usually the one smacking everyone with a fish and not paying attention to the Discourse™.
ikea: hello hello ! I’m ikea (@welcome-to-ikea), she/they pronouns, and I go by ikea because I keep getting lost in my own brain (/hj). I am constantly thinking about Scout, Spy, Engie, and Medic, but in general I like thinking about the relationships/interactions between the funny gay men ™️
Mick: hello I'm Mick @aprofessionalwithoutstandards (posts from @biracy) and I'm a big time Demo tf2 enthusiast. Swordvan guy for obvious reasons. Deeply committed to the Sniper/Admin bit. I am very funny also. shehim and 18 and etc
nimbus: hey hi i'm nim! (@nimbus-lightest) i use they/he/ae pronouns and uhh i'm the kind of person who's so deep into their brainrot that they like to just imagine characters doing mundane everyday things, so that's what i like to talk about a lot heehoo
mod pissjar: hi lol i forgot to do this anyways i'm radio but you can call me mod pissjar if you want ig. any pronouns are fine. i'm completely and utterly normal about tf2 (lying through my teeth). and my blog is @sniperspissjar
modbot: Peachy 'noon! I'll be tagged as 'modbot' for reasons I never shut up about on the hell hut Discord (which you should join; we totally aren't infected with a brain-eating bungal virus!) I've been around these pals for a tad, and the fandom for much longer, so I'll be staying here forever while I work for my medical license (which [medicine] I also never shut up about). My forte is Sniper, but I'm hopelessly addicted to adding my cents to everybody. I have the tendency to write essays and snippets (minus the pretty colors and endless parentheses), rather than simply agree with any headcanons, so if you're in the mood. . . I'm your printer, prone to prose. I lean less towards heavily romantic ships by nature, but I'll be here for that, too, if you really want it. I go by she/her, but I'll take 'technologically transcendent tyrant' any time of the day. It'll earn you some brownie points <3
lems: heyoooooo! the name i usually go by is lemon or lems, (and also Saphir or frost) but i will also take any kind of word you give me! any pronouns, i gave up figuring what i liked the most. im @m-an-mlems on my main which is very rarely ever tf2 stuff so. beware ooooooo [spooky organ sfx]
mod cb: HI! i'm mark! i use he/him/it, and i'm the host of a system. you can find me at @creaturebarks on tumblr, etc. tf2 owns every braincell of mine. i'm not sure if i have a favorite merc, but i can safely say that my brain is full of many thoughts and i adore them all!!! (cb stands for creaturebarks btw)
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save-ben-swolo · 3 years
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Hello, it is I, offering a humble ask ;-; So we're all feeling nostalgic especially about the TLJ era, but is there anything at all that you like about these post-TROS times, particularly relating to reylo/ben solo and the fandom? Personally, I'm honestly having a pretty difficult time being a sw fan, bitter that kylo was basically wiped out of existence (except in disney parks) and everything sw-related is baby yoda now :/ I did watch both seasons of the mandalorian with my ex and I can acknowledge that it's good, but I could not emotionally connect to it at all.
Thank you so much for the ask! 🥰
I think I’m about in the same boat as you. Except, I could barely tolerate finishing the first season of Mando after coming out of TROS and skipped S2 altogether.
I just can’t bring myself to care about anything in that universe as long as the central story ends in such a tragic and pointless way. It doesn’t help that they keep circling back to OT nostalgia and ramming it unnecessarily into stories that would be perfectly fine *cough* better *cough* without a dash of Luke Skywalker and friends™️. It doesn’t give them or the audience any distance from the fact that… the Skywalker saga failed spectacularly. So I can’t even TRY to enjoy something “new” like Mando because *spoilers for S2???* Hey look! It’s Luke! Remember?! REMEMBER?! (😭 I don’t want to remember the Skywalker tragedy anymore leave me alone). Speaking of… I just saw this today 🥴
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I— WE DON’T NEED LUKE (OR LANDO QUITE HONESTLY) TO BE PART OF REY’S BACK STORY FFS!!!!!
Anyway, for the above reasons everything that’s official is pretty thoroughly tainted for me right now.
I still adore the Reylo fandom and I live for the art and continuation of the story as it should have (obviously) been. It’s very healing for me to see that the story isn’t -really- gone. 🥲 I think it says a lot about what was lost in canon that so many artists and fan writers are still producing amazing works. There’s so much that went unexplored or was just straight up mangled by the canon we ended up with. Not even just with Rey, Ben, Reylo or the Skywalker story specifically, but all the new characters in the ST essentially had their compelling story arcs sacrificed at the alter of TROS’ nonsense writing.
All that being said, to get back to your ask, I guess the only thing I “like” about things post TROS are the glorious fanworks but at the same time I wish they didn’t have to be such heavy handed “fix its” and were instead celebrating and working off of an inspiring and satisfying canon ending.
I’ll end this by saying, solidarity. I’m also bitter and long for the days when hearing “Star Wars” made me happy or excited. Now I just cringe and brace for disappointment.
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