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𝔞 𝔩𝔦𝔱𝔱𝔩𝔢 𝔴𝔦𝔠𝔨𝔢𝔡 || 𝔞𝔩𝔦𝔠𝔢𝔫𝔱 𝔥𝔦𝔤𝔥𝔱𝔬𝔴𝔢𝔯

summary: "there's a serpent in these still waters," helaena murmurs, "lying deep down."

pairing: martell!reader x alicent hightower (mentions of martell!reader x rhaneyra targaryen)

words: 2.6k

warnings/themes: MINORS DNI, soft/dark!reader, implied dubcon, sexual themes, fingering, subtle degradation, corruption kink-ish, mentions of internalized homophobia and religion, murder, alicent is a closeted gay and refuses/hates dealing with it ™

notes: this is a repost from my old blog (that had the same name). in a stroke of genius ™ i deleted the entire thing :') , anyway, hopefully this fic gets more love this time.

NSFW. MINORS DNI. 18+ ONLY. IF WARNINGS MAKE YOU UNCOMFORTABLE , DO NOT READ. YOUR INTERNET IS YOUR RESPONSIBILITY.

ALICENT NERVOUSLY PACED around the drawing room as the hour to meet with Larys drew nearer and nearer.

Everything about this…dependence on him got away from her. Slipped further into the chaotic pit of her desperation and his greed.

She knew she hated all of it—having to depend on him to even have an inkling of an advantage over Rhaenyra, the way he always made himself known, that he was perpetually watching her even when he wasn’t always there, the way she debased herself for his pleasure even when he didn’t have to touch her at all. One favor led to another, and she hated what it had become.

She wished more than anything that she could be rid of him.

Alicent scoffs at the idea, knowing that no such thing could come about lest she damn herself and reveal everything.

As she always does, she goes on her own. No one must know, not even Talya, her handmaiden. Her hands open and close in anxiety despite her outward composure she keeps at all times.

The path to the particular drawing room is laden with noble stragglers far too interested in business that wasn’t theirs, ready to feast on any crumb of fodder they might catch on feigned happenstance.

Alicent sighs shakily once she arrives at the doors that separates her and that snake.

She remembers it all, how Larys purposefully misconstrued her words for his own convenience, how she implored that she hadn’t asked to slay his own brother for her but he did. He did anyway.

She remembers how Rhaenyra couldn’t find it in herself to grieve because she couldn’t, but ever since then the woman that had been meant to leave for Dorne came back and stayed at her side, looking at Alicent like she knew the Queen had something to do with it.

Nothing of convenience happens just because the Seven will it to be so. You had said to her once. She balked at your blasphemy, but you hadn’t cared. Not even with your formalities thinly veiled as inappropriate advances at Rhaenyra, did you care.

Part of her wishes that that so-called…loyalty Rhaenyra indulged in so naturally from you came to her. That it would be for her instead.

Yes, loyalty is what it was. It had to be that. The Seven would never allow anything else.

Alicent can feel the way her hands shake when she pushes one of the heavy wooden doors, quickly making her way inside and latching it closed as quietly as she could. She closes her eyes for a moment, taking a breath to compose herself. Letting it escape her shakily, she turns around.

“Lord Strong, I—” Alicent’s breath leaves her, and this time for entirely different reasons.

You sit in the ornate chaise comfortably, as if you had always belonged there. You donned more Westerosi attire in hues of black and maroon—a gesture of good faith to the Targaryens, a jacquard pattern in the emblem of your House adorning the sleeves, yet your sun warmed skin made you stand out against most of the nobility in the Realm.

Alicent could feel the wind leave her lungs, much like it did when she had an inappropriate dream about you and reluctantly relieved herself of it.

But the way her body shivered then in comparison to seeing the delicately macabre sitting position Larys was in was entirely different.

You greeted her with a warm smile, raising a goblet as if to toast her. Next to you, Larys Strong sat slumped in his chair adjacent to you, the life drained from him only moments ago. Drained chalice at his feet.

“Come, your majesty. We have much to talk about.” You said, gesturing to her usual place across the table.

Alicent hesitates, wondering if she should scream for the guards. But no one knows she’s here, and no one is supposed to know she’s having these secret meetings with the man that now sat dead in front of her.

“Nothing that’s meant for you is poisoned, if that’s what you’re thinking.” You add, casually plucking a few berries from the bowl in front of you.

Alicent swallows as you look at her intently while you pop each berry into your mouth, chewing carefully. She sighs in trepidation, shaking the sins that swim in her head whenever she looks at you for too long.

“How did you—”

“Know?” You ask, completing her question for her, “when you learn to move as I do, you come to know of many things.” You reach for the jug of wine, pouring some for yourself and for Alicent. “Besides,” you add, taking a small sip, “you Westerosi love to talk far too much about yourselves. Is nothing ever kept secret?”

Alicent looks at the goblet of wine in front of her with trepidation, and then to you.

“I took the risk, same as him.” You nod over to Larys, “only, he was not so prepared as I was.”

“You…poisoned him?”

“And myself.” “Then how did you-”

“I am Dornish, your majesty. You forget that where I come from, we are always prepared to take the risk. We were prepared to take it when my ancestor told our would be conqueror to fuck off. I was prepared before you arrived to risk it for Rhaenyra’s legacy.”

Alicent stares at the little vial dangling from your fingers. A spark of dread makes bile rise in her throat, but she forces it down.

“I would be a fool to cast aside all the work I’ve done in the name of truce by killing the Queen.”

You walk over the short length of the table until you reach Alicent’s side, sitting on the corner of the table with your arms crossed.

Alicent can feel her blood boil yet again, especially when she feels the weight of your stare as she wills herself up from her seat.

“How dare you!” She growls, hands balled up into fists as she rises from her chair and is suddenly inches away from your face. “You dare to defend a faithless woman, one who parades her sons as legitimate even though they’re-”

You narrow your eyes, jaw tightening as you cross your arms and tower over her defiantly as you abandon your seat.

“And what of you and Ser Cole?” You ask, chuckling as you watch Alicent’s eyes widen in panic, “yes, I know of that too. I know of all that you do, my queen.”

You reach up to brush aside a copper curl from Alicent’s face, tucking it behind her ear. You smile at the way she shivers when you cup her face, her eyes fighting to stay open.

“Have you ever loved a woman, your majesty?”

Alicent doesn’t answer. She doesn’t want to. But everything she’s thought about in her fantasies with you, her jealousies that give way to sinful dreams when she sees you with Rhaenyra, especially now when she feels your breath on her face, your thumb tracing her lips…

“To love a woman, to be loved by one…it is second only to what a mother would do for her own children. It is to feel the sun on both sides.” You whisper, moving Alicent’s face so she would face you.

You ghost your lips over her own, watching as Alicent struggles internally with her own thoughts.

She hates it, the way she feels when the things she’s dreamt of with you are as alive as they make her feel in that moment.

Suddenly, she gasps as you squeeze her chin between your thumb and your fingers, her lips pursing together. In your eyes, an anger that rivaled that of the dragons’ roars. An uncomfortable dread bubbles in her stomach.

“Do not think of me incapable of doing what I must to ensure that Rhaenyra’s succession isn’t challenged. She is everything to me, and I will make sure to do what I must to protect her.”

Alicent’s lips move to speak when you cup her face gently, in contrast to how you held her just moments ago. But no words come, only a thrill that jumpstarts her heart and burrows itself as an ache in her belly.

“Would you like to know what it’s like, your Majesty, to kiss a woman?”

Alicent doesn’t seem to notice how you move her so easily, one step from you.

Then another.

And another.

“I-I..shouldn’t…the Se-”

“The Seven do not give a fuck in the world, your Highness.” You enjoy the way she lets out a breath when she realizes that her back is touching the wall. “They ask nothing that one isn’t prepared to give. Impose…nothing.”

Alicent’s breath leaves her in a broken gasp when your fingers dance across the neckline of her dress. A conflict within her-knowing not whether to press herself on you or away from you.

But she does not fight it either.

“Why should we impose anything on them, don’t you agree?” You all but purr, cradling her chin between your thumb and fingers. Her lips wobble as your thumb rubs her chin slightly, her tongue darting out to lick a dryness that is there before she swallows.

She knows she is lost when she feels your fingers follow the motion of her throat.

“Would you like to know, your Majesty, what it’s like?” You ask, eyes glinting in a lascivious enthusiasm when her lips press on the pad of your thumb. It makes you hum in satisfaction, like everything you’ve felt to be true about her was confirmed by the feel of her tongue slipping out to take a taste of your skin.

Alicent’s eyes hold on to your own, and you see the conflict swimming in her eyes. It’s clear to her you’ve taken possession– of the power in the room, and of her. She takes your hand, moving it from her chin and downwards, until you catch on to what she wants.

Her crumbling sense of control makes you chuckle darkly. She is fraying at the edges. She lets go of your hand so quickly that her own are scrambling to lift up the skirts of her gown and undergarments. Naturally, her thighs make room for your hands, heart thumping in her chest like a war drum when you tease her.

“Has Rhaenyra…Oh gods..you-” Alicent gasps in relief when your fingers slide into her warmth. Her hands slap onto the wall behind her, scrambling for purchase to tether her somehow. “Has she..and you…”

“I’m here with you now, am I not?” You whisper against the shell of her ear, “enjoy yourself. It’s no one but us.”

It wasn’t just the two of you, but the pleasure blooming across her skin distracts her from the darkness just on the other side of the room.

Alicent isn’t entirely sure what kind of relief to feel. A part of her thought about what you had done. If you were more than willing to kill for Rhaenyra, what would you be willing to do for her?

The back of Alicent’s head falls to the wall behind her as she feels the ache in the pit of her belly about the burst once again. It should be unreasonable for her to do this, to want you the way she does. If someone were to find her, they would have her head put on a pike for impropriety and treason.

And yet, as she remembers how all her life was structured on how to please others, she craved this chaos for herself.

She wanted this. Wanted you, the Princess of Dorne.

Everyone in the Realm had their secrets. Why couldn’t she have one of her own?

“That’s it,” you coo, feeling her hips move along with your hand, “don’t be afraid to let go. Don’t shame yourself out of your own pleasure.”

“I need-” she gasps, her hands grasping your shoulders, nails digging into the embroidered epaulets of your garb, “tell me. There is no shame here with me.” “I need to feel-”

Alicent preens when your fingers curl against that place inside of her that finally drives her over the precipice. Her inhibitions, once frayed at the edges like the fine silk of her gown, finally unravel.

As her climax blooms all over and bursts along her skin, she grabs your face, desperately kissing your lips. You all but practically consume her, and she’d gladly let you do it if it meant that it kept you away from the person she grew to loathe the most.

Your enthusiasm clashes against her desperation, everything is all teeth and tongue and pleasurable warmth she wants to drown herself in.

Alicent closes her eyes, waiting for the adrenaline to wear off. She sighs as you brand open mouthed kisses against her jaw, down along her neck as you take in her smell.

——

Alicent startles awake.

She sits up, momentarily still dazed in sleep and unaware of where she is.

Realizing she’s in her own room, she stops grasping at the sheets. Her reverie breaks when Talya walks in, and helps Alicent prepare for the day.

She passes most of the day functioning as a puppet–going through the usual motions of her activities.

She finds comfort in the presence of her daughter Helaena, until they’re called for supper later in the evening.

She feels the strangest sense of comfort as her family is seated around the table, around Viserys. For the most part, everyone is getting along well, even if it is a farce for Viserys’ placation.

A squire interrupts their conversation, whispering in Viserys’ ear. Viserys nods in approval.

The doors open and Alicent’s heart all but stops.

“My sincerest apologies, your Grace.” You say in reverence, “I could not arrive empty handed. Please, have the finest wine Dorne has to offer as both an apology and a token of celebration.”

Alicent can’t help but follow where you sit–the empty chair right next to Rhaenyra. She picks at the skin of her nails, trying to fight off the jealousy that was as green as her dress.

Viserys, thoroughly amused by the gesture, calls for the cupbearers to serve the wine. You’ve only just sat, but you take the goblet full of wine from your homeland, and stand.

“It would please me greatly to propose a toast to his majesty King Viserys,” you raise your cup, “and to his true heir, the Princess Rhaenyra. I’m sure her reign will be a long and prosperous one, welcomed by all in the Realm.”

Viserys wheezes out a jolly laugh, tapping his walking staff instead of clapping. Naturally, everyone else follows what he does, and raises their cups to drink.

Alicent can feel her throat close up, a lick of fear making its way through her. She wants to say something, anything. But she cannot. Does not.

The way in which everything happens so normally, members of her family each in their own corners of the room talking with each other, bewilders her.

“Something wrong, your Highness?” You ask with a feigned cluelessness so natural, Alicent nearly believed it. “I know history has shown that my people have a…proclivity with certain poisons. Nothing that is meant for us is poisoned, I assure you.”

“Of course.” She chuckles out nervously, taking a small sip from the goblet in front of her.

“I would be a fool to cast aside all the work I’ve done in the name of truce by killing the dynasty that has blended with my family’s for generations.”

You continued, everyone clapping to your toast as Alicent had her attention interrupted by Talya. The young maid bent to whisper in Alicent’s ear.

They’ve found Lord Strong in his study.

It’s then that Alicent glances at your deceptively kind face nervously, the color draining from her face when she notices the very same pendant from her dream hanging around your neck.

It was empty.

Before taking another drink from your replenished cup, you raise your cup to her, winking surreptitiously before taking a drink.

Alicent feels the dread drip down her spine and numb her limbs once again.

#alicent hightower x reader #hotd fics #alicent hightower fics #house of the dragon fics

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crumbleclub · 10 months

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There's this weird and very gory French + Canadian film called Martyrs (exercise caution when looking it up in terms of images if that stuff freaks you out) and the basic concept is like. Some cult trying to understand what happens after death by bringing people to the brink of it in the most traumatic and agonizing ways possible. And I just realized that that's really some William Afton shit, both for the original motive and for remnant extraction.

(Accidentally wrote an essay in the tags so, ah. Read those I guess)

#i don't really write william as nearly that intense actually #for one because he is not at his peak of darkness most of the time i write him #two because i don't find gore itself inherently interesting #aside from eye scream and medical horror specifically #and 3 because i generally want my characters to SURVIVE so i can play with psychology and healing bc that's way more up my alley #but anyway. the comparison can still be made #i also don't think william would go for some of the stuff in that movie entirely because of cleanup. he has to hide his activities #and he doesn't have a cult to fall back on #but it would be interesting to see if he tried to maximize remnant extraction with some kind of psychological torture #that fits some of the things in the lonely children au by dire honey and freddles. in terms of the endless nightmare schtick #and i could honestly see some level of help wanted and the in universe fnaf games twisting that way too #harvesting the agony of players #hmm. maybe that could be why moon seems fucked up even presumably before kids start going missing again in sb #but anyway #he can only do so much murder before his. ah. resources. would dwindle #maybe he needs to harvest remnant other ways as well #and the continued murder is tied more to his obsession with death and immortality #fnaf #william afton #theorizing about william's weirdness

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sntoot · 1 month

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i thought it being night and in shadow would suck for pics but they actually turned out really well

#i made her sparkly.........#i took other pics next to the snowbuncle but bc it was day by then the contrast just looks so sad in comparison to these #also i finally found the frame options in gpose and theyre really cute #they basically all match the portraits but theyre still really cute #ffxiv #im putting this in hosos tag for now so i can find it again and its his minion anyways #hoso's tag #my gpose tag #ysayle #i forgot but the point of the pics was bc that area is named after her

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writterings · 7 months

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sometimes my job is like. i am being hunted for sport. if i mess one thing up, i will die. everyone here hates me and is refusing to even be civil with me and that's affecting my workload.

and then other times i finish all my work for the day at 10 AM and can just dick around and get paid $30 an hour to do it.

#i made a post a while back about my first office job about how easy it was in comparison to retail or fast food or hell even being a tutor #and someone in the replies pointed out how office jobs can also suck and be soul crushing in their own ways #i never responded to that person bc tbh i saw it like two days later and felt awkward about responding #and to that person: you are so right. but also i still prefer this. it's awful. it's horrible. but if i have to pick a poison.#then i'll pick this #but you were sooooo right #anyways. why does everyone act like everything is life or death at my nonprofit that encourages college students to do community service

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danothan · 10 months

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sniffs. what changed 😢

#doing a dcshg v1/v2 comparison #v2 is def stronger in almost every way #i’ll give v1 some credit it does have some good designs #karen and hal here for example #karen’s side braids are striped like a bumblebee?? i mean cmon that’s just character design genius #and you KNOW i gotta appreciate a pilot jacket hal (not pictured)#but the storylines and pacing and animation and voice acting are a lot better in v2 #the girls are kinda uninspired in v1 but the boys feel more in-character (less boys vs girls the way v2 is)#v2’s girls have a lot of variety and distinct roles but the boys as we know are. well they’re a hit or miss #ivy is sooo much better in v2 she might be its best character besides barry #carol is unfortunately not great in both versions and ik that’s the comics’ fault #but it still feels dismissive. like you can make a hopeless romantic character without misogyny #anyway personal biases (and also weird moral lessons) aside i’ve been enjoying both!#obviously the show is called dc superhero GIRLS so i have to give my vote to v2 #but also bc barry is kinda just perfect in v2 like the update was clearly made by someone that loved him specifically #but also hates hal specifically it’s weird #like how are you gonna be a flash fan and not know that flashes have a history of friendship with green lanterns #v1 makes him a slapstick character too but it’s actually funny. so there IS a difference #but i’m starting to like v2 hal anyway :( i can’t fault him for the show’s misgivings :(#danbles #dcshg #karen beecher #hal jordan #green lantern #dc #i’ve now seen 1 season of v1 and a random mish mash of episodes of v2. sighh i’ll go back and watch them in order to compare 😔#no one is asking for this i just love comparing and contrasting things #oh and btw v1 cheetah is exactly like toralei monster high. i wonder if they knew what they were doing #btw x2 barry and hal share the same VA in v1. just putting that out there

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sysig · 3 days

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Tainted batch (Patreon)

#Doodles #Just Desserts #Villainsona #Fine nevermind >:(#It's so weird to be posting vent-adjacent stuff while I'm doing so well currently haha #I started this months ago and have significantly improved my mood since then pfft ♪ I'd hope!#There wasn't anything specific at the time anyway just a thought circling around that I figured Charm would be more affected by #Considering most things for her are heightened in comparison haha <3 She'll get therapy someday #She also deals a lot in sublimation through art! And sometimes that means literally taking the materials and using them elsewhere #Honestly it's pretty cool that she can reconstitute her art :0 Drawing is a little different haha #I hadn't realized it'd been as long as it's been since I last drew Cirrus :0 #Oh yeah Cherry Shortcake actually has a first name now lol #A few residents do! If you remember my mention of Aria from a while back - Marshmallow Fluff - I think those are the current three?#Still haven't really pinned down a naming convention haha...I've been thinking about three-letter last names for what feels like forever now #She was also an early contender for Digitally Rendered Resident huh... I could at least stand to name the others that have gotten that lol #So many things I wanna do with her - really want to finish her Biased Narrator fic sometime just dunno how to end it hrmngh #Anyway lol she gets a one-panel cameo and takes over the post pft no! Charm time!#Evil Time Charm time - kicked up her pulse as soon as she remembered #She kinda sorta remembers what happened but more than that remembers the Emotions - feeling Laughed At #And clearly it's [this specific thing]'s fault that she feels foolish! Avoid [this specific thing] and never feel foolish again Guaranteed!*#*Not actually even remotely close to a guarantee lol instead she's just avoiding something that at one point made her feel good #So easy to turn a positive memory into a negative one with just a change of framing huh?#I can't think of anyone in her life who would exploit that fun little feature in her outlook not even one!

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gerudospiriit · 1 month

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[I am once again reminded that I hate Breath of the Wild for making the Gerudo as tall as they did.

No, I will never let it go.]

#[ ☀ ˢᵖⁱʳⁱᵗˢ ᶠʳᵒᵐ ᵇᵉʸᵒⁿᵈ ;; ᵒᵒᶜ ]#discourse cw #it was stupid from the get go #ganondorf's height in hyrule historia was 7'6"#and he was obviously very tall in comparison to the other gerudo #like bruh you can make them still be tall within that scaling #without making them supposedly averaging 8 ft tall #I just can't #just because im tired of the discrepancy #im tempted to make it where in most verses she is the usual 6ft #but if she's interacting with people from the wild era or in that era #i'll just make her taller so that she's not ridiculously short in comparison #because yeah i made her on the short side of the scale for the gerudo based on my hc for them #but it wouldn't be THAT big of a difference to most #not that i even have people to rp with #or really do anything here anyway for it to matter

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listen-to-the-inner-walrus · 3 months

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you ever watch an entire video essay and come out of it literally not knowing what the conclusion was meant to be, and find yourself yearning for like 2017 when it didnt feel like everyone and their nan were making video essays?

#kai rambles #im just #it was an hour long #i watched it for an hour #he contradicted himself every new chapter and literally nothing he said followed on from what he said before #there was a conclusion #no idea what it was #ahhhhhhhh #similarly the other say youtube recommended me the uh authoritarianism video by second thought #the videos about 23 minutes long #he doesnt mention nazi germany until minute 18 #he also just makes incomparable comparisons between the ussr and modern day america #and like hes very charitable to the fucking soviet union #he also claims that modern day chinese police havent killed anyone in years which like i get that theres a lot of anti china propaganda #in the us and its not as bad as its made out to be but its still an authoritarian dictatorship #like i get america bad but also other countries can also be bad??#anyway the guy basically equates authoritarianism to socialism which o-fucking-kay then #youtube has been recommending me more leftist commentators recently and so many of them are just insanely ignorant americans #whose entire politics can be summed up as ''america bad'' and they get so caught up reminding you of that every thirty seconds that they #just come out with wild takes like north korea good actually or the war in ukraine was because america wouldn't stop aggressing russia #so yeah they shouldnt have invaded but it wasnt unwarranted and part of ukraine is ethnically russian anyway #like sir????? why are you repeating russian propaganda???? what youre saying it literally neo nazi propaganda what the fuck???#i heard that one a week ago and its still in my fucking head like jesus fucking chridt

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m0e-ru · 1 year

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P4G 3/20 attendant confrontation jp dub YAYYY. A compilation of isolated Japanese voice lines of the MOEL Gas Station Attendant during the confrontation on 03/20. This is the Golden version specifically because the some lines were retaken to be a bit more consistent with the newly recorded ones i think lol.

Here’s the original PS2 version, and a comparison of the voice lines being played back to back.

translation notes & script sorry for all the footnotes in the video lol ↴

English Transcript

My, aren't you troublesome. You defeated the Sagiri I hid within Adachi and Namatame, as well as having saved that diminutive dwarf of a life.

“Are you talking about Marie?” “So you're the one behind everything.¹” “I heard about you.”

Fufu... it's such a ridiculous thing. What would you even get with saving a life like that? Getting rid of that needless fog was the only thing such rubbish could do.

...Hm? Ahahaha! Don't tell me... She was still carrying that thing around!

Aha, excuse me... It's what you have, that old bamboo comb of yours.

“I got it from Marie.”

Yes... I know. After all, that gift² I gave her, a “comb of separation,” you see.

“What about it?”

Fufu... with that look on your face, you don't know who gave her that comb either. That comb right there... is simply a gift² I gave her. A “comb of separation,” you see.

“Why do you laugh?”

Fufu... My apologies, this whole thing is just so amusing. That comb right there... is simply a gift² I gave her. A “comb of separation,” you see.

It's such a foolish thing... That comb I placed a curse on³—to think she cherished⁴ it all this time. How much she wanted to cling onto anything so gravely... Even being so tenacious⁵ has its limits!

“I will not forgive you.” “Don't you look down on Marie.” “You've messed with me as well.”

Hmph, and what are you going to do about it?

Had the last time we fought not satisfy you? As I've expected of one who posseses such power.

“What do you mean?”

I've seen it in you, the potential⁶ you posses.

“Why did you choose me?”

Of course, it's the extraordinary potential⁶ you hold.

“Who are you?⁷”

You must know by now... Is that not why you came?

Your friends were guided by the “spark” I gave you, thus, they awakened to their own powers, and how they found themselves where they are. But, to think you would arrive here to me... Truly, I never expected this at all. You certainly are interesting.

That “spark” I gave you... do you not remember? The day you first arrived here, I gave your power a little push. Just like... this.

You're not the only one here I've greeted with a “welcome handshake.” Just like you, I granted it to others from the outside. And just these individuals that come from the outside were already enough to stimulate this small world.

However... It appears that the stimulus was greater than expected. The fog enveloped this place, and soon, cleared. And above all this, you're unsatisfied with the role you played, thus you stand here before me... All of this... and for what reason?

“To end everything.”

Fuun, the fog has already cleared in your world, and you're still not content? Fools, always so full of deep desire by nature, are they not?

“To learn the truth.”

This pursuit of the truth... what would any of it attain? Fools, always so full of deep desire by nature, are they not?

“I don't really know.”

Ahaha... You truly are interesting.

Translation Notes

00:19 : 1 黒幕 literally means "black curtain," but also "wirepuller; mastermind; backroom manipulator; éminence grise; power broker"

01:05 : 2 The original word was "手向け" which means "offering to a deity or someone's spirit" or "tribute to a person who is about to depart." I don't know how to make it sound natural in English, so I used "gift" for further connotations.

01:49 : 3 The original was "私が呪いの言葉を込めた櫛を" and I wasn't too sure how the action was being used. Not sure if it was "giving the comb with a curse on it" or "putting a curse on the comb" if you have any insight on how particles are supposed to work like this I'd really appreciate it. It's like learning a bunch of math formulas individually and tests have you use 7 of them in the same problem. 4 It used 後生大事 which means "with religious zeal; with utmost devotion; take great care of" exaggerating how absurd Marie thought of the comb

02:07 : 5 未練 "reluctance to abandon or depart from something." Using "clingy" didn't feel right but "tenacious" felt too rough but I couldn't find anything I wanted in the same formal tone oh whatever I think it's enough

02:30 : 6 The kanji is 適性 and dictionaries give me 適性: "aptitude; aptness; suitability." I was digging around and found that it "is related to someone's learning speed or future potential rather than their current ability," so I stuck with "potential" anyway. https://japanese.stackexchange.com/questions/91567/whats-the-difference-between-%E9%81%A9%E6%80%A7-and-%E8%83%BD%E5%8A%9B-or-%E6%89%8D%E8%83%BD

02:42 : 7 The question is "何者だ?" which is "who; what kind of person" I think it's cool.

"Spark (きっかけ)" is emphasized that way because it's different from "power (力)." Izanami means she only assisted awaken the "power" of Persona, the "spark" being the access to enter the TV. If the protagonist couldn't enter the TV World, then he would never have awakened to Izanagi or got Yosuke or Chie inside the TV World either.

#persona 4 spoilers #persona 4 #p4 #moel gas station attendant #izanami persona #⛽️🌫#viddeo #// back at fighting for my life trying to translate something on my own waiting for a native or someone better to correct me 💥#// anyway you can see the trend of my pretty stiff translations trying to keep it close to the original text (CHALLENGE FAILED)#// but still trying to make it flow with the spoken dialogue at the same time ← deranged multilingual #// 'why are you retranslating this' because the game was made in 18 months and the localizers were given even less time to translate everyth #// 'translation notes' and it's all the fun stuff i saw and the things i wanted to point out because of the . difficulty .#// to express it in english ahh i love the art of trnaslating<- explodes one million times #// i'll post the original ps2 version and the comparison soon maybe and maybe fruitcake awards will take a turn OHH #// STRAIGHT UP LIED lol anyway this is all in queue now. fruitcake standoff

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flammedoudoune · 11 months

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There have been a few times in TOTK where I fought big scary monsters without being prepared for it, and still made it out alive. And in retrospect, I’m sure that if I’d known beforehand what I was gonna be up against, I would have avoided these areas. But I didn’t know what I was gonna find, and I went, and I fought the monsters I thiught were too strong for me, and I was fine!

And I’ve just been thinking lately about how this is how I tend to approach life in general. Always staying in my comfort zone because I’m so afraid of failure and of getting hurt. But maybe I’m actually more capable than I give myself credit for.

I feel like this game is rewiring my brain in a good way lmao, thanks Nintendo.

#in a way this reminds me of when i had cancer #if i could go a few years back and tell my past self about everything that was gonna happen #the chemo the surgeries etc i’m sure i would have been terrified #but when i was diagnosed i had no idea what was gonna happen and so going through it didn’t feel as scary #and yeah it still was a difficult time and i still wish it didn’t happen but it did and i made it thgough #just like fighting the fucking gloom hands they’re horrible but i can take them #anyway #this comparison makes sense in my head #currently playing #totk

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serenedash · 1 year

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so I wasn't expecting my khux gameplay post to blow up this much because normally I just shout my khux thoughts into the void and that's that, but it's been really amazing and heartwarming seeing everyone's personal experiences with khux, like I can't say enough how much I LOVE looking at everyone's additions and tags :)

I had tried writing a long post about some khux feelings but it just wasn't coming out right. this post isn't about the game this is about me sorry tl;dr I'm a very anxious person and I love to see other people just as excited about khux as I am because I feel better about how much I like it. which is A Lot

#sorry for being vulnerable it won't happen again /lh #the real tl;dr is that I feel very dumb and stupid and anxious all the time constantly for being obsessed with khux #but again everyone's responses made me feel so much better #like yes its a major source of joy for me but I get so anxious #and I dont really talk to people at all bc of it like discord servers are a special hell but I try anyway #and majority of my khux friends drifted away from it forever ago so I feel kind of really alone by myself #I just love other people's posts and content so much I feel so stupid in comparison- I look up to so many people in the community #making memes is such a great joy for me but I yearn for more yknow. I can be a serious artist past all my clown behavior I promise #I mean all my fics are very serious and angsty but no one reads my writing Im not too confident on regularly posting it so its fine really #I'm just in my own echo chamber on here and I always assume everyone hates me or is at least annoyed by me #like people don't really comment on things I make or send me asks or message me #so not getting feedback except a decent number of notes on my posts is like. not the best #im not guilt tripping people into interacting with me really its fine I swear Im just having my own issues #really dont feel you have to because also Im really bad at conversations fr #my personal tag is 'im rambling' for a reason #but anyway this is my house and if people don't like it they can leave #at the end of the day I love to just create for my own enjoyment #and if people like it too then that's great!!!!!#but I'm also still very anxious all the time

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burinazar · 1 year

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I was thinking “haha it’s so weird and silly i got soOOO into this one very specific part/arc/related minor-ish character group of a franchise, i haven’t done that before have i? this is a new weirdness for me isn’t it?”

and then suddenly vividly remembered my inconvenient and untenable and frankly quite extreme obsession with the romulan star empire all throughout middle school, with such force and clarity that i had to put a hand to my face

#i would absolutely have made a Discord For Romulan Likers #that was still a bit different though since a portion of that came from an instinct to subvert #bc i felt like what some of TNG era canon did with Romulans basically being pre programmed to Do Betrayal was silly needed deconstructing #(and at the same time was intrigued by how a society of people like that COULD function if taken at face value)#whereas my hangup on the village arc and Ganja is bc i rly rly rly like the story + characters (also feel Longing (tm) instilled by tragedy #and wanted to talk about them a lot and nearly all english language spaces for MiAbyss were just crammed with the s1/movie parts/characters #and not my Special Sillies #like obviously theres no ‘hey ONLY talk about season two of the show’ rule on the server. that would be unhinged #but i made it because the rest is always getting discussed everywhere else so i hope that focus is ok with everyone and hopefully that’s no #uncouth of me to acknowledge that i personally made it for that specific reason. wait this got off topic. THE ROMULANS…. RIGHT #anyway i remember i was kinda grumpy at how much stuff Klingon Likers had in comparison #you can learn Klingon #you can’t learn Romulan!! (real ones know its called Rihan and not Romulan though)#(the Romulans call themselves the Rihannsu. i believe thi is 100% extracanonical material though)#(ebil did you really get tipsy on a tuesday night and start rambling about Romulans???? yes. yes i did. )#(look i had a difficult appointment today i deserve it)#anyway it’s actually insane that i never read Diane Duane’s series abt them #i didn’t really have internet purchasing power and was restricted to what was at the library and easily available online #i should read those books eventually #i still have a soft spot for them pointy eared maniacs

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semercury · 1 year

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Every time I have an awkward interaction I want to die.

#stuff sarah says #and every time we kiss i swear i could fly #jokes aside i really hate it #like can i not be in agony every time something is a little awkward?#all it was was me saying it was time for me to leave and waiting for an affirmative so i knew it was okay #like its not the end of the world but i feel like i can see it from here #anyway when i was like 13 i started hanging out with the friend group i was with through high school #bc one of the girls (the leader in the way friend groups often have them?) asked me to a sleepover bc she felt sorry for me #and she later like literally told me that #and idk ive been thinking about that a lot lately bc of the music ive been listening to bc im listening to it for the first time #but they all really liked the band back then and were pretty adamant that i wouldnt and idk it made me feel like i didn't belong #which like i guess i didnt in a way? and i never really belonged anywhere #but anyway like. can you really blame me for being afraid of social interaction and always thinking people will hate me #when most of my formative years were spent with people who either wanted to take advantage of me and thats why they liked me #or with people who felt sorry for me. i remember another friend group. this one more in elementary school. likr late. 6th grade.#saying i was like a lost puppy and that comparison still hurts so bad to this day #so just like i dont get what people would ever like about me so i have to act perfect to make up for it bc apparently im pretty undesirable #and this isnt me asking for compliments in fact please dont bc ill feel bad about it #i just like. please understand i am still unlearning a lot of this and some days are easier #and rn im emotional and want to cry or scratch my face off bc i felt awkward at work and i just have to live like this #sorry im weird in friendships. i mostly assume people dont actually want me around #bc the alternative is that they want to hurt me and at least tolerating me out of pity is neutral?#fuck idk

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cy-cyborg · 24 days

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Please stop using disabilities you don't have as comparisons.

I saw a video trying to explain that autistic people don't make eye contact because it can be painful for them (good, this is true) and telling them to "just do it anyway" is ridiculous, saying "you wouldn't tell a wheelchair user to "just walk, its better for you" so don't tell autistic people to just make eye contact".

But people do. They do all the time. It's well documented that doctors will withhold their ok for patients to get a wheelchair (which is needed unless you're paying out of pocket, because insurance and most public disability services like the NDIS need proof from a doctor). I've known people who can hardly walk and are having to fight because the doctor still insists it better for them to walk, even if it's painful and sevearly limiting their quality of life.

Then in the comments, someone pointed out that people do say that to wheelchair users (good, this is true) but then continued on by saying "unless you just don't have legs" which is just as bad as the origonal.

I had to fight to get my first wheelchair as a double leg amputee, and every wheelchair since then I've had to justify not wanting the "better option" (prosthetics) to the government so they'll approve me for the funding. Doctors and even strangers too, all want to know why I'm not walking, why I'm not using prosthetics all the time. When I go on trips with my family I'm told to "just walk" so they don't have to pack my wheelchair. at my own graduation from university I was chastised by the organisers for not bringing my prosthetics (because wearing them was exceptionally painful back then and i hadnt worn them in nearly 3 months. I had asked before if this would be ok. they knew) because the venue was accessible but not the part of the venue the graduates were in. On the topic of university they also put my class in the only non-wheelchair accessible room and held meetings i was expected to take part in, in the non-accessible lunch room. When I complained, I was told to just use my legs for a few minutes so I could get into my classes. Being an amputee with no legs didn't shield me from these experiences either, it often made it worse.

I have all 3 of the disabilities mentioned (autistic, wheelchair user, amputee). If you don't have the disability you're using for a comparison, don't use it. Please

#disability #disabled

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mochinomnoms · 5 months

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In regard to interspecies romance

Humans have a fairly easy time pursuing the other species in Twisted Wonderland, though there are exceptions to that rule.

multi (separate) x reader [wc] - 2,252 [note] - one of the first things i ever wrote, though i never posted cause i didnt edit it. thought i would anyways cause its kinda cute. Edited 12/14/23 to add a readmore

Despite their animal like tendencies and courting methods, it's incredibly common to see human-beastmen couples and families. Perhaps it's due to how similar their behaviors are to their animal counterparts, but humans are fond of how beastmen flirt and display affection. Beastmen are offended by the comparison, but it's hard to deny how similar, and cute, they are to the common wolf, hyena, or lion.

Wolf and other canine beastmen enjoy being close to their mates. They like to be physically affectionate, almost playful with their partners. They'll nuzzle into the crook of their neck—no matter how much bigger they are compared to their human—lean against them when they walk, and will happily be by their beloved's sided at all times. Furthermore, they primarily show their effectiveness as partners by being great providers, regardless of gender, and showing off how tight-knit their packs are. After all, family is very important to them, and they'll expect to have one, no matter how big or small, with their partner in the future.

If you catch Ruggie trying to slyly and smoothly place a hand on the small of you back when moving through crowds, no you don't. If a person notices Jack momentarily grabbing (gingerly, mind you) your sides as he slips behind you to reach the potion ingredient on the shelf above you, don't mention how his touch lingers ever so slightly. Maybe take it with a grain of salt when Jack tries to invite you to visit his family over break, as friends, of course. And when Ruggie brags to you about how well he watched over the neighborhood kids growing up, how he'd make for a great family man, it's all hypothetical.

Feline beastmen are more reserved in their affections in public, especially compared to canines, and even more so for lion beastmen. It's more common for them to show affection in more subtle manners, such as buying their partner's food and drinks without being asked, going out of their way to help them when they're struggling at school or work, and are able to spend hours just in their general vicinity. As long as their beloved is around, they're happy. In private, though, expect to have their entire body draped over them, weight and all, shoved into their personal space to the point that it becomes a foreign concept. Leona embodies this to his entire core, too prideful to perform PDA, but just prideful enough that he knows he can take up all your time and space with no consequence. Unless that consequence is your love and affection, which he supposes he could suffer through if you hear him purring, don't point it out.

All lion beastmen hold their pride close to their heart (no matter how much a certain prince would deny it) and their partner is no exception. Their pride is an intrinsically developed social network made of an extended, but closed family network. It requires all new partners to be carefully and slowly introduced to the rest of the pride, more so in Leona's case due to the royal family being traditionally made up of Sunset Savana nobility. You won't be the first non-beastmen, but are the first foreigner in a very long time to be introduced. Don't worry, though, Leona is nothing if not patient, and his family are just happy to know that he's found someone.

On the other end of the spectrum, however, are human-fae relations. Uncommon, though not for a lack of trying on humans' parts, due to most of the fairfolk residing in the isolated Briar Valley. The complicated history between the two species, ancient to humans but still relatively fresh for fae, doesn't help either. There's also the unfortunate consequence of humankind's rather short lifespans compared to the average 1,000-year lifespan of the fae. Unless the fae is in their final hundred or so years, they'll almost always outlive their partner without magical interference.

It's not impossible though, and as younger fairfolk leave the valley to explore the world, more marriages have resulted in half-fae children, both human and beastmen. As partners, fae are devoted to the health and safety of their loved ones. Increasing tenfold into nearly coddling territory with non-fae. Compared to them, their humans and beastmen are awfully fragile and naive, and require their protection. This can cause animosity between them, however, and only fae that are willing to learn and change their old ways result in happy, long-lived marriages.

They're also generally known to have lengthy courting methods: not dating, that implies something casual, no they court. Once they've established interest in you, their end goal is marriage, no ifs, ands, or buts. Fairfolk are generous with gifting during courtship: all gifts are about an equal-exchange and your acceptance of their gifts is a reciprocation of their feelings. At the end of the courtship, you can expect a small feast to be displayed at a ceremony held between their and your family. This is an especially important ceremony when courting humans and beastmen: fairy food can often cause lasting damages to those that consume it without permission. By offering their food to you and your kin, they are welcoming you into their world and telling you that they will never intentionally bestow harm to you or your kin. If you choose to accept the food, then you agree to do the same til the end of your days.

Lilia is a strange case, having already lived a long life and being well traveled, a gleeful participant in the strange customs and traditions of humans and beastmen. He'd much rather participate in other's dating and courtship rituals than his own people's. It's fascinating how fleeting the process can be, yet it can result in everlasting devotion. Don't mistake his flexible nature for disinterest, however. He's still a fae, and if you start finding silly little knickknacks of his on their desk, you can expect to never be rid of him.

The Draconia family-line is steadfast in their traditions, even if Lilia raised the latest prince. So don't expect anything other than the previously explained rituals from Malleus, even if you're not aware of them. Taking gems, jewelry, and clothing made of the finest material you'll ever lay hands from his hoard means little to him if it means you'll accept the gift (and him). Even if you aren't aware of how courtship works, the moment you pick up the black ring with the big oval emerald and Briar Valley crest, you're practically engaged in his eyes.

The courtship is long, even for Malleus who was one step away at every turn to skip over the entire thing in favor of just eloping. All for the person who decided that the great and terrifying Malleus Draconia was actually just a simple Mr. Hornton, a friend, companion who just wanted someone to stay by his side. If it means calling you his spouse, his fellow ruler, and the only love of his life even a moment sooner, then he'd be willing to throw tradition and ritual out of the very tall tower window just to do so.

Many years later, when you reminiscing how the two of you first met, and how long it took you to notice his feelings, you'll offhandedly mention the random gifts you found at your doorstep. How you wish you knew who was leaving those precious stones and golden amulets with no indication on who the admirer was. Upon further questioning, you'll tell him that you didn't even know you were being courted until two months into the ritual. It'll then click in Malleus's mind how utterly lucky he was that the two of you even got together in the first place.

It may be surprising, but human-mer relations have been extraordinarily rare. Only a handful of them have popped up since the times of the Sea Princess, who left her home for a human prince. In fact, you could probably count them on one hand! Perhaps this is due to the difficulties of having a romance between land dwellers and undersea folk; after all, it's much easier for humans, fae, and beastmen to interact when they all live on land. Merfolk can come up to the surface, and have been doing moreso in the last century, but having a relationship with someone who quite literally could not breathe in the same air/water as you is near impossible. At least, not without significant effort on one or the other's part.

Nearly all the human-mer romances that have occurred in history resulted in either one or the other abandoning their home to turn into a human/mer and live the rest of their days with their love in their new world. Certainly a romantic notion to be sure, but it most definitely require their love to be truly eternal. Or else you might run the risk of resentment brewing between the two. With a slowly growing need to easy access transformation potions and spells for business and diplomatic reasons, such romance is not far from reach, at least for those with money to spare. The next issue though would be the significant difference between land dweller and undersea folk's courting methods.

Perhaps it can be contributed to the more...feral nature of merfolk. Most of them still retain more animalistic features and behaviors than the average beastman. The twins are no exception to this. Even if you were to remove their claws, mucus covered skin, and 6-ft tail, you're still left with eyes suited for a deep-sea predator, nose that can smell the tiniest drop of blood in a pool, and rows of razor sharp teeth begging to bite down on your neck. The deep-sea is not only cold, but quite ruthless. So, it'll probably come as no surprise that moray eels will prove themselves as suitable partners by fighting either their competitors or you. If they can prove that they can hold their own, protect you from the horrors of the deep, then they have the right to go for your heart. That's not to say softer sentiments don't exist, and while similar the twins are still two separate people with different tastes. These tastes show during courting, though mers have a more casual date-like ritual.

Like fae, merfolk court via gifts, particularly handmade or ones they found themselves, and Floyd is awfully fond if gifting you the strangest things. A tooth that was knocked out from the student who shoved you a little too hard, a rock you tripped over in P.E., or a sand dollar he found on a trip to the beach were a few of the many items he gave you. Jade is similar, though he's more fond of making his own gifts. A necklace made of seashells found at the beach you had your first date in, a terrarium he made from plants that remind him of you, but your favorite was the small garden he started tending to on your kitchen windowsill. Breakfast was particularly delicious when made with his fresh mushrooms. Expect soon after the gifts lots of physical affection, public and private.

Don't be mistaken, they'll still bully you. But each of Floyd's bone-crushing hugs will be accompanied by a soft headbump from his forehead to yours. Jade's teasing, mean remarks will follow with a swift, sweet peck to your knuckles. They'll grab your notebook and hold it above their head until you agree to give them a kiss or punch them in the stomach, both are acceptable responses. Be a little mean back, they like the idea of a sweet and cute little human that can throw a punch. Your their sweet little human, and you make life in the deep exciting. Just don't ask about their flushed face every time they see you yawn, they aren't quite ready to explain that one yet.

Azul intensely studied a variety of topics before coming to land, even briefly glossing over dating, romance, and marriage before deciding he wouldn't need it anytime soon. He regretted that soon after meeting you, though he made do with what he knew. And what he knew as food. A combination of octo-mer courtship and being the son of a cook, Azul will discreetly court you by personally cooking and feeding you your favorite meals. It's the result of the dangers of ancient octo-mers eating their spouses after mating. Afterall you can't eat more if your already full. While not something they have to worry about now, it's an old ritual still used today, Azul has hear the way to a person's heart is their stomach and can wholeheartedly agree.

What's surprised you the most was what followed after, especially for someone as physically reserved as Azul: octo-mers are extremely clingy and affectionate. He doesn't have the heart to do anything more than handholding and chaste kisses to your cheeks in public, but he yearns to wrap all 8 tentacles and two arms around you so tightly that your gasping for a breath that he steals with his lips. He won't mention it, but he can taste the salt from your skin and the pulse from your wrists with his suckers. Take it from someone who grew up with a refined palate, he thinks your taste is equivalent to ambrosia from the gods, though that might be the lovesickness speaking.

i have a hard time writing savanaclaw for some reason, but imma working on it now! also tagging for all the guys is stressful idk what i should enter, like fullname or just first name idk man!! pls reblog and comment! lmk what you time, xoxo

#twst #twisted wonderland #twst x reader #twisted wonderland x reader #jack howl x reader #ruggie bucci x reader #leona kingsholar x reader #lilia vanrouge x reader #lilia x reader #malleus x reader #malleus draconia x reader #floyd leech x reader #jade leech x reader #azul ashengrotto x reader

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