#but he just wouldn't listen to her

[fairyroses]

— SMALLVILLE, "Accelerate" (2.21) & "Wrath" (7.07)

+ bonus:

#someday I want to make a really comprehensive 'morally grey lana' gifset but god knows I don't have the time for that right now lol #but for now here's this #given this show's piss poor track record with continuity I'm actually shocked that these s2 and s7 scenes complement each other so well #(the 7x07 convo had to be edited down but I kept the most important/relevant bits) #smallville #smallvilleedit #svedit #clark kent #lana lang #lex luthor #clana #dcmultiverse #sv 2x21 #sv 7x07 #my gifs #lana always knew that she wasn't perfect and she was right to worry about what would happen once clark finally realized it #but he just wouldn't listen to her #and when he finally saw the real dark ruins of her soul... he flinched #because the lana that clark thought he loved was really just an idealized image that he had projected onto her #and that's why their relationship was always doomed to fail #even though they technically stayed together after this (which was a baffling writing choice tbh) they were never the same #also I just need to point out that lex is obviously trying to save his own life in the bonus gif... but he's also RIGHT #lex knows better than anyone what it feels like to topple off the pedestal that clark kent put you on #and I think he really was trying to save lana from the same fate #btw I didn't include his next line but it's 'you might not want to admit it but we understand each other' and that's just... whew #real 'I've seen you in all your fucked up glory and I know that you're just like me' energy #(sorry I'm clearly still thinking about that post that I reblogged last night lmao)

[autisticandroids]

FAMINE: That's one deep, dark nothing you've got there, Dean.

[youtube with closed captions]

dean and his father. dean and his family. dean and how bad it is.

(via @closetoyou1970)

#spn #vid #mind the warnings on this one for real #woe! fruit of my rewatch be upon ye. #pallas calls this my 'deangirl coming out vid' which honestly. true. but those who paid attention know i've always been a deangirl. #also. after this no more deanwinchester rilo kiley amvs I Pwomise #anyway. i'm not gonna give a full commentary here but a big reason why i chose this song is that the narrator #is essentially dismissing her own problems and instead watching the problems of someone else #and i kind of wanted to play with that theme. this is the parallels show so let's do some parallels. lots of things happen to characters #that are Like Dean somehow. either in personality or circumstance. that we know or can infer happen to him. but we don't see it bc it's #not sayable. not speakable. so like for an easy one. we see meg being tortured in caged heat. she also talks about apprenticing under #alastair just like dean. so i show her being tortured [in a way that is sexualized and demon-specific] and reacting how she does #because i invite the audience to imagine or interpret that this has also happened to dean at some point. we just don't see it #so there are many dean parallels in this video. some obvious. some subtle but textual. some products of my twisted mind. but that's the way #i am using them to make my argument. #oh also: dean voice sam's eyes going black is JUST like when he used to fight with dad and wouldn't listen to me when i told him not to. #i guess also the point is that because it's unsayable. dean can't say it. dean can't even acknowledge it. and so it bleeds through #into everything in his life #that's why it's important that the song narrator doesn't take her own problems seriously. dean doesn't either.

[cuoredimuschio]

okay, but where's my steddie AU where steve wants to learn to play guitar to impress a girl he's infatuated with and he remembers that munson kid was always hanging up posters for his weird band at school, so he hikes out to eddie's usual dealing spot behind the track and asks (with far less groveling than he really should have) if eddie will teach him how to play, and obviously eddie says no because why would he want to help king steve, but of course, steve offers to pay him, $20 a week, and well, that's the kind of get-the-hell-out-of-this-shithole-town cash eddie really can't afford to refuse, so fine, he'll teach steve to play and they'll spend inordinate amounts of time together tucked away in eddie's room and they'll start to see that they have more in common than they thought and that they kind of had each other all wrong, and eddie will put his hand over steve's to help him get the placement for a tricky chord and it totally won't awaken anything in either of them?? where is it??

edit: i started writing it

#steve x eddie #steddie #stranger things #someone tell me this has already been written because i need it. please. #bonus points if steve shows up to the first practice session empty-handed #and eddie nearly calls the whole thing off when he has the Audacity to grab at eddie's sweetheart as if eddie'd ever let him play her #and he doesn't even teach steve anything that day because rule number one get your own fucking guitar and keep your mitts off mine #but by the end when eddie is deep deep deep in love and it's time to send steve off to woo this lucky girl of his #he offers to let steve take his sweetheart because she's guaranteed to make him look ten times hotter and cooler #and he'll have no trouble sweeping his girl off her feet and maybe eddie's breaking his own heart but it's fine—as long as steve's happy #except steve doesn't seem nearly as happy as eddie thought he would be #he seems sad actually and eddie kind of hates that so he starts to make some lame joke about how steve should be honored #because eddie wouldn't lend his baby out to just anyone and that gets steve to crack half a smile #but then he puts the guitar down on eddie's bed (with all due gentle reverence) walks over takes eddie's face in his hands and kisses him #kisses him like he's been dying to do it for weeks. because he has #because somewhere along the line it stopped being about wanting to impress a girl and started being about wanting to be with eddie #it started being screwing up on purpose so that eddie would grab his hands and show him how it's supposed to be done #and forgetting about lessons entirely and just sitting around and listening to eddie talk or just watching him play #because somewhere along the line steve fell out of infatuation and into love with the last person he ever expected.... #anyway idk where i'm going with this

[dirtytransmasc]

concept, cause the dynamics at play would be super interesting:

when Tuk and Neytiri are sucked into the hold of the Seadragon, what if Spider, unwilling to watch another one of this baby siblings, nor his siblings mother (despite everything cause he's a good kid), die without doing anything, jumps in after them?

they're now stuck in a flooding ship, spider knows his way around to a decent extent, they're all tired, they're all scared, they're all hurting. they have to depend on each other for survival.

Neytiri has to not only trust Spider, but has to follow his lead, has to trust him to guide her around a demon ship, has to untrust not only her own life, but the life of her youngest child to this boy.

Maybe they're separated, they have to find one another (my personal favorite scenario is that Tuk and Spider are together and he has to try and find her/guide Neytiri to him)

Spider taking Neytiri and Tuk's arms so they aren't separated by stray currents and raging waters (a parallel to "Sully's stick together"). Spider talking them through the breath holds he learned as a kid in case his mask malfunctioned before bringing them through the depths of the submerged ship (parallel to Jake and Lo'ak)

anyway. I just can't stop thinking about it. think about it.

Neytiri is faced with the fact that Spider jumped in after her and Tuk. he came for them, he put himself in danger to save them, to save her daughter. even after what she did to him. even after she held a knife to him, after she cut him, after she intended to kill him even after Kiri was released. he still jumped to her aid, even if he could have stayed with Kiri above deck where he was safe, he could have just aided Tuk and left her behind, but he didn't.

and there's so many ways to play with it and the aftermath. like.

Spider dragging both Tuk and Neytiri up the surface, trying his best to keep the trio afloat (namely Neytiri who was much less adjusted to the water and is exhausted by the night they've had) as they hope and pray to be reunited with the rest of their family.

maybe the stress gets to them and Spider just starts apologizing. I should have fought them harder. I shouldn't have let Lo'ak and Neteyam try and leave with me, I would have been fine. I should have seen it coming, should have taken it myself. it should have been me. my baby brother shouldn't be dead.

maybe he becomes partly delirious as he too gives into exhaustion, the big brother in him being the only part of him left coherent, so he takes Tuk close, whispering prrnen tsmuke [baby sister] over and over into her braids, assuring himself that she's safe and unharmed. he keeps praying to the Great Mother for his siblings to return to him unharmed. maybe he keeps asking where they are, if they're safe as his awareness fades and his memory weakens. all of his siblings. asking if Neteyam is ok, only to remember he's gone the second the words leave his tongue.

Jake and Lo'ak finding them when they come up with Payakan, both worse for wear, exhausted, clinging to one another, the only thing keeping their heads above water being spiders life vest, Tuk cradled between them. what a sight.

Neytiri watching as Spider looks over each of his siblings, taking them close, holding onto them as if they will be ripped away from him. the realization that he would die before he let that happen again hitting her like a ton of bricks the second she sees the look in his eyes.

a peace being made between the two in the wake of this event. spider silently claiming the role of big brother (he always was, but he had to pretend he wasn't. with Neteyam gone, he can't pretend he's not anymore), Neytiri silently agreeing.

idk man. it would be interesting.

#listen #I love them both so much #I just wanna give them both kisses on the head and a warm blanket and some peace and fucking quiet #Tuk too. my baby girl. oml #and I love putting them in Situations that test all of the patience and sanity that remains with them #its Fun ☺️ #(for me at least) #(they probably wouldn't agree) #forget about kiri for a moment. I love her. but I need her to play with her fishies (lovingly) and not interupt my favorite disaster duo #(trio if you count Tuk) #also. um. either Q's dead dead or be woke up from his little nap and dragged himself out of the boat. cause spidey ain't getting the chance #to find his ass in this situation. he's a bit busy being in a situation with the women who just tried to kill him. #😁👍 #idc if this ooc. I'm living my best delulu life. I haven't slept in days and these scenario is haunting my every thought. #avatar 2 #avatar the way of water #spider socorro #miles spider socorro #miles socorro #neytiri #neytiri te tskaha mo'at'ite #neytiri sully #tuk #tuk tuk #tuktirey #tuktirey te suli neytiri'ite #atwow

[gayvecchio]

Frannie, you are in over your head. Meaning? Meaning, guys like him don't marry girls like you. That's fairy tale. And girls like you get hurt, and guys like him don't even know it, and that's life.

#due south #ray vecchio #francesca vecchio #benton fraser #oof the way you can see the truth of this hit ray so hard #good for frannie for saying all of this and sticking up for herself because ray was being an unfair jerk #especially since he was projecting his own fears and insecurities about losing fraser and taking it out on frannie #ray's behavior here only makes sense to me if he's acting out of jealousy #because he doesn't seem the type to get involved in his siser's love life (unless she's being harmed in some way) #and what he says about fraser directly contradicts what we know ray actually thinks about him #i can't imagine ray sees fraser as the type to 'love 'em and leave 'em for lack of a better phrase. he knows he's not like that #ray is the one in over his head and worried about being left heartbroken (and not being good enough for fraser to stick around for) #if fraser was involved with frannie; ray loses ever getting a chance with him either way whether it works out or not #if the potential relationship worked out ray would have to sit by and watch the man he loves be with his sister #and if it doesn't work out (which it likely wouldn't lbr) he loses his frienship as well because it would never be the same after #and the fact remains that fraser will likely go back to canada one day and leave ray behind #and not realize just how much it will hurt ray when he goes #AND FRASER IS LISTENING TO ALL OF THIS #HE'S JUST ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE GLASS #THE PERSON RAY DREAMS ABOUT #SO CLOSE BUT STILL OUT OF REACH #i can't with them #frannie is the only brave one here i love her #ds30below

[iwasbored777]

It just doesn't sit right with me that in fanfiction whenever Branch and Poppy get married he becomes a king. He would outrank the current queen when he's not even royalty and usually in real world the highest title that he would get would be prince consort. He would be the happiest troll ever if they get married but they would co-lead and he would help her just like now but she would still be the real leader and things wouldn't change that much.

#just king branch doesn't sound real to me #that would be too easy you just marry someone in royalty and outshine them sounds like a scam #i wouldn't marry if i were poppy if that's true 😂 #and he would never steal her thunder he loves her too much #and like what if they divorce does he get half of the kingdom doesn't sound right to me either #it would be like viva sharing responsibilities with clay but she's the real leader the tribe listens to her she's the queen #trolls poppy #trolls branch #broppy #poppy #branch #trolls movie #trolls holiday #trolls holiday in harmony #trolls world tour #trolls band together

[bumblingbabooshka]

Romulans, yes or no? 👉👈

Romulans...YES!

Urasa:

Urasa was abandoned by his father as part of some double-cross/life lesson about being weak. He met a Klingon boy named Adokthosh and saw that he was weak and cowardly compared to the others around him. Urasa ran away from the care of his Romulan bretheren and the two of them began working together to get to the top of the Klingon empire through lying, cheating, bribing, and stealing. I'm sure that'll all go well for them! I'm also sure there won't be any complicated romantic feelings. Bartovka:

She & Asil (Tuvok's daughter) have a longrunning evil-doer vs gallant hero thing going on. Thankfully Bartovka is usually easily foiled because she loves expositing about her devious plans and also is so full of herself that she makes it kinda easy to defeat her.

She figured out she was trans because of Asil. The two of them get in a lot of …. situations. Together.

She has two kids and a wife that she's trying to avoid at all costs because she's pretty sure they'll try to kill her if they find her. Or worse, she'll have to pay child support.

#Bartovka is not technically divorced because she just ran away from her wife and kids but for all intents and purposes she is divorced #she is reblogging boomer 'hate my wife' memes #Asil: -tied up and covered in some sort of oil-........why the oil? #Bartovka: So you'll never be able to use your Vulcan speed to escape. Cur! #Asil: Why are /you/ covered in oil? #Bartovka: You would /love/ to know that wouldn't you? Unfortunately it's beyond your puny understanding...<3 #Asil inherited 'villain of the week is clearly into you sexually' from her father #but Bartovka is there every week bright & early #Urasa was abandoned by his father then taken in by other Romulans who he then (after happening to meet Adok) stole & ran away from #to join Adok's house as a servant...though that's just a ploy. He & Adok are co-conspirators! And also in love with each other but they #can't be together...no...the plan comes first. Adok's going to make it to the top - as long as he listens to everything Urasa says.... #beas ocs #star trek ocs #romulans #Urasa #Bartovka #Q&A #mycatismrchekov #thanks for the ask~!

[fandomfrolics]

#LISTEN #I can't even put into words the squishy feeling this gave me #he's sooooooo soft and tender #his eyes lingering closed #even for just a teeny lil peck #from this person who just called him a mess and turned him down #he's soooo lonely #he's so husband shaped #how can you not want to just sit there and kiss him forever #when he does that #the way he looks at her as she approaches too #i'm losing my mind #actually grateful they never showed us an onscreen Ted kiss until now #I would have combusted #I wouldn't have made it #anyway #ted lasso #ted lasso edit #tedlassoedit #ted lasso s3 spoilers #teddy boy #my edit #soft ted

[feroluce]

Thinking tonight about Caelus, and the nature of his loss and his grief after the Everything that went down in Penacony during 2.0.

Because Acheron, Black Swan, and Misha kind of knew of Firefly, they at least met her, but they didn't like really know her, and Caelus never even got the chance to introduce her to the rest of the Astral Express Crew. The only person who would have talked to her much was Sparkle, who is. Probably not really someone Caelus is interested in grieving with skznmsks

Anyway, all this to say, I like thinking about how alone poor Caelus is in his grief, because he was the only one who knew Firefly. He's the only one really mourning her. There's no one to talk about her with. There's no stories to trade or memories to reminisce with anyone over. It's not as though he knew her for long, but still. No one else knew her at all.

And I love the thought of all of this coming bubbling up, hot and acidic and bitter, during a conversation with Sampo, who Caelus just so happens to run into in the Golden Hour. Poor Sampo is kinda blindsided, he knew shit was going down in Penacony, but yeesh. And he just. Isn't quite sure what to say about it all, because he's never really encountered this before. His feelings about the Masked Fools are...a mixed bag, but he's been a part of them for a very long time, and when you're with a close organization like that, it's hard to feel alone, in grief or otherwise.

So Sampo sits there on their little bench that the two of them have occupied, and he thinks of his old friend April, how she'd died in his arms cackling and spitting her own blood after a heist gone wrong, and how after he'd dragged himself back to the World's End Tavern they'd all held a Fool's Funeral- which is basically just a big party where everyone gets really really drunk and reminisces and toasts the dead and celebrates their life.

He still thinks about her a lot, and he remembers how the time he'd most keenly felt her absence was on Jarilo-VI, the one place where he couldn't talk about her because he couldn't say anything to give himself away as an alien. The Fools still tell stories about her every time he goes back to the Tavern. His first toast of the night is always in her name. Even now, all these years after she'd died, Sampo is still learning new things about her. He's never had to grieve her alone.

Caelus doesn't have any of that.

He might never have that. As they speak, Caelus has no proof that Firefly was even her real name, or if she dreamt with her true appearance. He might not ever find out who she even was.

And just imagining that kind of loneliness hollows out a strange little pit, right behind his sternum, deep between his ribs.

So Sampo claps Caelus' shoulder and offers him a deal. Come find him outside of the dream. He knows a guy who can get them a lot of beer for really cheap-

("Is that guy you and your five finger discounts?" "Whatever do you mean, dear friend, I don't even know the meaning of the phrase, hehee.")

-and they can hole up in a bar or a hotel room or something, and get completely shitcanned. Tell him all about Firefly, tell him everything, and he'll tell Caelus about April and everyone else he's ever lost. Sampo will carry Caelus' memories of Firefly with him, and at least this way, Caelus will be a little less alone in remembering her. And the next time they cross paths, Sampo will be the one to bring her up, and to tell her stories, and Caelus can get to be the one listening. He won't have to be the only person to talk about her anymore.

Caelus rolls his eyes when Sampo avoids another remark about sticky fingers, but...ok, yeah. That sounds good. Nice, even. Thank you. Caelus bumps his shoulder against Sampo's. Sampo bumps back.

(They find each other again the next day, and true to their word, get themselves completely and utterly shitcanned. Caelus talks more than Sampo has ever heard him; every minute detail, every word choice, Firefly's every odd little mannerism and habit. Because Caelus wants to make sure this will outlive him, that even if the Stellaron dwelling within him finally burns him to a crisp and he really does up and kick the bucket, or even, godforbid, if he forgets, he wants to make sure someone remembers her. She deserved that.)

((And it takes quite a while, after that. Caelus doesn't see Sampo again until after everything has settled down. On his last day in Penacony, he finds the guy slinking out of a seedy back alley and all but runs right into him. Sampo happily leads him to some dive bar in an even seedier back alley that Caelus has never even heard of, and Sampo raises his glass. "To Firefly! Who sounds like she probably would have hated me at first, but I would have liked to have met her anyway."

And Caelus stares at him, almost looking startled, long enough that Sampo worries that he's read him wrong and brought this up too soon. He's halfway into planning how to talk himself out of this situation when Caelus finally throws back his head back and laughs, tells him that yeah, Firefly would have politely called him out on every lie he told, and all their conversations would take twice as long with the way Sampo is so full of shit.

And he can see it, the same way he watches and sees through everyone, that Caelus' eyes have a tightness to them, his knuckles are nearly white around the handle of his mug. But he smiles. He hits his glass against Sampo's far too hard and throws it back and gets foam everywhere like he does every time they drink because the guy's about as elegant as a raging bull, but those things don't lessen the genuineness of his smile.

The grief is there, but so is the elation, and those emotions aren't a sliding scale between one or the other. It is all of both and both at once, and that's what contents Sampo enough to throw his own mug back when Caelus makes a toast of his own, "to April!!".))

#caelus #sampo koski #hsr caelus #hsr sampo #sampo & caelus #sampril #honkai star rail #hsr #my fics #me a few days ago: my favorite silly little guys uwu #me today: ANGST #honestly I feel like this isn't even a super strong angst though #it's more just. bittersweet? melancholic? something. #I JUST. REALLY LOVE STORIES ABOUT THE NATURE OF GRIEF #and 2.0 laid the groundwork for that beautifully woohoo #I just remembered this probably isn't common knowledge oops but April is the cute red haired girl in Funny Bone #her name was revealed by the creators on twitter. she's named April like April Fools! #anyway I ship it hardcore now thanks bucket boi & studio #but anyway yes I love and adore the loneliness of the trailblazer's loss and grief after 2.0 #because we know from Sunday that Firefly is “spiritually dead” but the trailblazer wouldn't have that knowledge #and they wouldn't know her identity or about any of her connections to other people #and I love that juxtaposed against Sampo and the possible strange nature of his own grief- #-given how the Masked Fools operate and how they see Elation in everything and everywhere #Sampo is no saint- like at all lol- but I do like him and Caelus getting along and being bros #and I don't think it would be terribly ooc for him to care about someone he sees as a genuine friend #he maybe rarely considers someone a genuine friend. but still dmxjjdjdk #listening to Sam's boss theme as I tag this... have been listening to it a lot ever since I finished 2.0 tbh #it's probably what inspired a lot of this haha #because it does sound strong and intimidating and imposing #but you can hear it

[creativesplat]

Dreams

#this whole concept was inspired by the fact that Mipha's trident can talk to link and others sometimes #(like how she is the only spirit that can canonically talk to link when he's using their abilities?) #or when the Zora gave her a funeral (its in the creating a champions book and I was so surprised to find that out!) #and I thought wouldn't that be the sweetest thing #if she talked to link when she couldn't sleep as a spirit on Ruta and her voice traveled through the trident to link and he could listen #helping him get to sleep or talking in his dreams #helping him remember things #or influencing his dreams #or just giving him a warm sense that someone loved him when he woke up #miphlinkweek 2022 #Can't believe miphlinkweek has finally started!! #miphlinkweek #mipha #miphlink #botw #link #botw link #breath of the wild #tloz #zelda #legend of zelda #lipha #creativesplat draws

[nickgoesinsane]

People who like musicians because of their appearances and not their musical talents concern me greatly

Fr. Most of the time, I don’t even know what singers look like when I listen to music.

#╰┈➤ nick answers ! #i've been listening to hozier for years and just saw what he looks like last year #idk what ruelle looks like #or fleurie #you could show me a picture of lana del rey and i wouldn't recognize her lmfao

[kanerallels]

Hate when I start writing something that is, technically, cute, but then immediately starts to feel out of character/contradictory to what I already wrote

#listen. this is about the sm au #cause i decided that in twi'leki culture saying i love you out loud is something that you don't do often romantically #unless you're married #which is fine because there's also the lekku sign for i love you! so kanan would know that hera loved him too when he said it! #BUT NOW #I'M IN SEASON THREE #AND HE CAN'T KRIFFING SEE IT #how pray tell do i write around this? #part of me is thinking 'oh well hera would say i love you! she'd know that he can't see it and want to express it to him' #plus she'd know that humans have different traditions so not saying before marriage is a liiiiiiiiiittle impractical maybe? #but then. it's kinda. starting to seem like an analogy for something else #in a way that i don't particularly like #because if i keep writing it the way i am i'm taking the side i wouldn't want to take personally #SO IT'S KINDA WACK OKAY #I'M NOT SURE WHAT TO DO #because hera and i hate hate hate hate the fact that kanan can't see her say i love you anymore #like seriously. i realized it the other day and it physically hurt #but i also know that kanan wouldn't want her to do something that was (to her) wrong just for him #but SHE DOES LOVE HIM SO MUCH OKAY IT'S COMPLICATED #ugh #i hate it when this happens

[crystalleoi]

5C

#inanimate insanity #ii mephone5 #ii mephone5c #my art #listen man. these two (+ 5S) are like inherently connected in my mind. even though they've never met canonically #created by a man who does not truly care about them or their well-being and only values them bc they are still new and useful to him #& died trying to kill their predecessor. but their efforts wouldn't have mattered anyway because they would've been replaced in like a year #did they know they would be replaced? did they just have to live with the knowledge that they would one day no longer matter to cobs? #these tags r only tangentially related to the artwork. i'm losing it i fear #anyway a headcanon that's actually kinda related to this art: #i imagine that cobs gave more preferential treatment to 5S because he had more advanced tech nd stuff #and 5C developed like a weird relationship w her self-esteem where she (like the other mephones) kind of has an inflated ego #she readily compliments herself (literally called herself “the most colorful beauty in existence”) #(partially bc she's kinda compensating for not getting as much praise from cobs as 5S) #(i also think she tends to seek validation from others (e.g. “i'm made of plastic. neat huh?”) because of that) #but she doesn't talk up how advanced her tech is because it's from Last Year #you don't understand how long this headcanon has been microwaving in my mind. it's been YEARS. i've never unleashed it until now #it's probably stupid but WHATEVER MAN. i'll overanalyze these phones as much as i want #this is what happens when your favorite characters show up in like 1 episode and die. you go insane

[valnyte]

MC: (makes food for Jace)

Jace at the rest of exe Creed when they entered the dining room: No, I'm not sharing. She made this food for me.

The rest of exe Creed: ITS FREE REAL ESTATE

#morganatic idol #the way how jace tried to stop all of them but they all ignored him hckHfozkyfjgdaiyd #“guys no S T O P” #in fairness they all ended up liking mc's food even of jace was so cutely huffy #jace: m y f o o d #the other members: OUR FOOD #and mc was just laughing at these boys eating the food #the thing about the food is bc mc wouldn't let jace kiss her despite fake dating he compromised with “can u share me food u made uwu” #and she kept that promise #same how he kept his promise to spend time with her despite his very busy schedule as well as actively listen to each others' problems #which is quite sweet given how his route started HDGSHHSGSGS

[millenniummmbop]

.

#LISTEN ALL IM SAYING IS kaiba is such a deeply complex and off the wall character #there's mental illness there's drama there's insanity there's nonesense there's DEPTH #he's a huge fucking edgelord drama queen bitch and he's CELEBRATED for it and TEE BEE AYCH #u RARELY get that in a female character and it is a FUCKING CRIME #😔😔😔 #like u wouldn't even have to change anything about his character just keep him exactly the same IT WOULD STILL WORK #i PROMISE u the whole power fantasy anger issues manic depression tragic backstory gay gay homosexual gay thing will carry through #GOD #sorry im like thinking about that post that was all #'the secret to writing a good female character is just to write a good character' #give me a cringe fail bitch i can properly project on or give me death #just give me more angry fucked up girls vr1ska cannot keep carrying all that weight on her shoulders #like i'll be in the rival tag on pixiv or ao3 and it's like #here is 99 girl yugis and MAYBE TWO girl kaibas if you've finished all ur hw and done all ur chores #like that's cool and fine but #girl the jealusty is CORE to kaiba's character why wouldn't u wanna keep it gay #why wouldn't u wanna explore the deranged insanity of GIRLS trying to kill each other a children's card game #why r u so afraid to love #ignore me #delete later #it's like 4 am racing thoughts go brrr #i guarantee none of this will make any sense to me when i read it back in the morning #very unlikely i'll remember writing all this as well #there's stitches in my mouth that have been pissing me off all WEEK and it's the only reason im awake and angry r n HHHHHHHHHHH

[uselessnbee]

saw my favorite bylers talk about the relationship between Mike and Joyce again and now i just can't stop thinking about it

not just if she saw the airport fiasco but what if she saw the conflict between willelmike

or after they're all finally in hawkins again maybe she saw there's something going on and asked Jonathan and he told her some things he knew he could let her know

and then she comes to Mike and he expects it. he expects her to be angry to start criticising him cause he fucked up and hurts everyone and he knew this was coming but god does it hurt. this is the woman that feels like a second mother to him the woman that sometimes feels more like a mother to him then his actual mom and he knows being criticised by her is going to be the last straw and a part of him is dreading this but a part of him also thinks he deserves this. of course he does he fucked up he's the bad guy he hurt people he hurt her children she loves more than anything of course he deserves this

so he can take it. it will hurt. it will be like a punch in the face but he can take it it's what happens after that's the real question

but Joyce just smiles at him so gently and asks if he's doing okay. if everything is alright if something is going on. she tells him she cares about him and she knows he's been through a lot but if he needs her she's here for him. if he needs to talk she will listen if he just needs someone to be there for him she will be and she's just so caring and gentle and loving to Mike and Mike just. fucking. breaks.

he doesn't even remember when was the last time someone treated him this way like his feelings matter like he matters and he just can't help it. someone finally sees more than his snarkiness. someone finally sees more than him being a jerk. someone finally sees there's something more going on. someone finally sees the pain behind it and cares enough to actually ask him of he's okay and so he just lets himself cry in front of someone for the first time in years

#byler #mike wheeler #joyce byers #mike and joyce #my favorite mother and future son in law relationship to think about #i love to think about Mike seeing Joyce as his second mother and Joyce seeing Mike as if he's her own son #like god this is the kid she saw grow up since he was like 5 this is the boy that made her son so much happier #and i bet she never invalidated his feelings or anything because Joyce would never #and Mike just feeling safe around her and Joyce being one of the few people who never see him as the bad guy because that's Mike #and she only sees him as the kind boy who is always so caring and gentle with her Will #and of course she wants to make sure he's okay and that he knows she's there for him #and how much that must mean to Mike his parents never show interest they always invalidate his feelings and never ask if he's doing okay #they never make him feel safe like he can talk to them but Joyce god she's the exact opposite #she always just shows him care and never makes him feel wrong for just being himself and i'm sobbing now #where is my own Joyce to adopt me please #Also about Jonathan telling Joyce some things no he totally wouldn't out Will or anything #he would say what he knew he could but he doesn't know much about the situation himself #and Joyce totally already knows about Will so it would probably look like #Joyce: i see there's some tension between Mike El and Will is everything alright? #Jonathan: we had to listen to Mike's shitty unhonest love confession to El and it was so bad it got Max killed :/ #Joyce:😰 #anyways sorry for rambling i just have many thoughts about this #blue's 'Mike's extreme defender' ramblings