#but i keep expecting it to be easier

[loveofastarvingdog]

i feel like i’m losing my mind

#and no one gets it #and like it's fine and. it's not like i expected anyone to get it #but the brain fog and dissociation and disorientation is kicking my ass recently #and i know it comes in waves and i know i'm not helping with my sleep and eating and water habits #but i keep expecting it to be easier #and it's not the stuff that's hard it's just the getting it done part #i know i'm good at writing essays and i know i give a damn good speech and i know that i CAN do this stuff #but then it comes time to focus or understand or etc etc etc and it just fucking knocks my upside the head again #i just feel so silly. and so. ueagh #and it's fine and i'm fine and it's manageable but goddamn why did i have to get chronic stuff from getting sick when i was already #adhd and anxious and possibly [etc etc etc] #and on top of all that. no kisses ! sad #anyways now that i'm done being butt hurt by the fact that [insert self deprecating talk here that i'm not actually going to say #because i don't want platitudes and also because i ''deserve'' better than being an asshole to myself] #anyways. it's fine. just getting this stuff in today and getting the stuff in tomorrow and then surviving monday when i start work again #even though this is literally the worst time for me to start work since i currently don't have a working brain and will probably make #countless sucky mistakes and get horribly embarrassed and humiliated and even worse get fired. or WORSE. not get fired but get humiliated #yikes. i've got a pessimistic view of all this huh. at least i'll be getting money ! yay #tw swearing #tw vent #tw rant #tw internalized ableism #ask to tag #timothy's txts.

[cappycodeart]

CONCEPT DOODLES for an AU I dabbled in with a few friends after the winter king episode but kinda forgot about after the Fionna and Cake finale... I decided to revisit it and explore a little more after coming to terms with everything LOL... So, it's another "Winter King doesn't die immediately after his crown gets nuked" AU, but THIS TIME he's just dying really slowly (like Simon in the Betty episode) and ALSO joins Fionna, Cake, and Simon on their search for magic crowns. There's no logic behind this tbh, we just wanted to put him through The Horrors. And make them all friends. But mostly The Horrors. :) (he only gets to live as a treat, because I think he's funny).

Bonus (old screenshot), because this is still funny to me:

#adventure time #atimers #fionna and cake #winter king #simon petrikov #fionna campbell #cake the cat #shared custody au #winter stowaway au #fan art #digital art #flat color #2023 #this is my blog so whatevers man... ima just post what I want now... and what I want rn is silly simon AUs LOL... #so expect more of me releasing my stash tomorrow #this AU makes the story like 500x more messy but it's fine it's funny that's the point don't think too hard about it #this is their fault for killing him now I gotta make up scenarios where he is alive #his design is inspired by some doodles my friend crayon did #ALSO I wanted to keep some of his features different from default simon so they're easier to tell apart... #like YEAH they're the same character... but also I just think it'd be fun... if they had subtle differences... because alternate universes #ALSO HE'S PALE BECAUSE HE'S DYING. JUST MAKING THAT DISCLAIMER... HIS SKIN TONE IS KINDA CLOSE TO DYING SIMON IN THE BETTY EP #BUT IN NORMAL CIRCUMSTANCES HE'D BE CLOSER TO SIMON'S COLORS

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

and so begins the making of christmas presents

#its the mooooost stree-essful tiiiimeeee of the yeaaarrrrrrrr #ive found good small projects that will suffice #thankfully i only have five people to crochet for! #and my grampas lap blanket is mostly done! #im keeping it shrimple <3 #man crocheting has made christmas so much easier #less expensive less stressful. still stressful but at least i dont have to find something to buy #plus handmade things have the added factor of 'i made this with my own two hands. it took time' #so people are more inclined to like what you made them no matter how simple it is! #an 'i made this for you' automatically holds more weight than 'i bought this for you' #absolutely unprompted #im actually excited to make some of these! new stuff to try! #and ofc ill be proud of what i make which is always fun. the delight of making things for people... and them Receiving it... yes.... #its like making a cake for someone but more permanent #my stepdad's getting a stocking for the dog he wants #for his - and i quote - lovey cuddle buddy #i expect that on christmas morn next year the stocking will be full of dog treats and a kong ball #my mother is getting a bandana in bright colors that suit nothing she wears #since she's keeping her hair long again. also shes insecure about gray hairs so yk fine here's somethin to cover them up with #and my two homies... my breadslices... well! i shant say! #well. one of them knows what theyre getting but hush lets pretend you dont. bc i know youre reading this rn

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

"i mess up things and then i don't have the energy to fix them up" yes brain true sentence but no brain the appropriate response is NOT "therefore i should kill myself (and here's how)"

#tw suicide #i wish i was joking #i am just so so tired of keeping myself alive! can't someone else do it for a change? or better yet kill me?? #said something to the emergency room psych #she queried it and i confirmed i had said precisely what i intended #she blinked and said 'i usually hear that from jaded forty year olds not twenty year olds' #i won't share what because it was a highly specific explanation of precisely how i might see myself suiciding or how/whether i thought i #could. she asked me and i answered. apparently she wasn't expecting that level of detail and confidence #is it funny to anyone else that i always struggle with confidence but i can confidently tell her specifics about suicide thoughts? #this is reminding me of the fifteen year old yesterday i was conversing with and he randomly started listing all the suicide methods he #could think of and i was internally like you missed a dozen i can think of. didn't say that obvs #i don't know i am. tired. of everything. and i had a long and good conversation with an older woman from church last night (mother of the #boy. i have confided in her before she's great) #she's hte only person irl who now knows about the second suicide attempt (tho she doesn't know it was the second) and she was encouraging m #to see the psych and escalate care #but all day ive been regretting telling the psych or bro or anyone honestly #it would be so much EASIER to have said nothing and gone through with my plan #i wouldn't trust myself not to rn if i had access #i mean. i know multiple ways in this room i could kill myself. but i won't #there's a couple of specific methods that are most of the thoughts usually so they're the specific ones i gotta watch out for more if that #makes sense #ooh gosh im rambling i should shut up xD #personal #puddleglum hours

[inferno-silentdragon]

Another omori pixel doodle while I procrastinate

#ok you know i'm like so out of it i accidentally post the same doodle with a new one #omori #omori fanart #omori hero #see you tomorrow #this was also spawned by tsuki XD #tho i honestly felt like i needed more hero art in my life so i was more than happy to do that #but ye i'm kinda curious what songs do people associate with hero? #for me it's see you tomorrow; the sunset bgm #since that's when we get to see hero and i just feel it fits him #that also makes me think the morning/daytime bgm is for kel #i guess you can say hangin out with the boys is for hero but i think that's more for the brothers instead of just one of them #and now for a bit of a ramble because the second image is sad #i've been a bit iffy lately since it just seems easier to just draw in pixels #and i'm just a little afraid of people (and myself) thinking that i should just do this #just a bit a fear everytime i majorly shift in styles #jack of all trades master of none #it's been happening as i keep one upping myself on my own project #but i guess that's to be expected with the order i'm doing everything #my art #pixel art

[licorishh]

Genshin characters age headcanons masterlist (updated)

Yeah. I could give you many reasons why I believe some of the more debatable/"controversial" ones are very sensible and Good based on just freaking paying attention to context given in the game but for now I'll just compile a basic list. If you'd like to hear my reasoning for some of these you're welcome to ask as long as you're polite about it.

List under the cut.

Aether/Lumine: 19

Amber: 18

Kaeya: 22

Lisa: 33

Barbara: 17

Razor: 16

Xiangling: 16

Beidou: 29

Xingqiu: 15

Fischl: 19

Ningguang: 31

Bennett: 18

Noelle: 18

Chongyun: 16

Sucrose: 20

Jean: 21

Diluc: 22

Qiqi: 6-8 (Hard to tell given she's a zombie and talks and acts differently from normal)

Mona: 20

Keqing: 21

Venti: 20 (biologically)

Klee: 7-ish?

Diona: She's so hard because she literally runs a business and acts like an adult but she's super short. I have no idea.

Tartaglia: 21

Xinyan: 19

Zhongli: 37

Albedo: 21

Ganyu: 23

Xiao: 20

Hu Tao: 18

Rosaria: 23

Yanfei: 21

Eula: 24

Kazuha: 20

Ayaka: 18

Sayu: 9- or 10-ish maybe?

Yoimiya: 18

Kujou Sara: 24

Raiden: 28 (biologically)

Kokomi: 18

Thoma: 20

Gorou: 18

Itto: 26

Yun Jin: 19

Shenhe: 23

Yae Miko: 30

Ayato: 26

Yelan: 24

Shinobu: 20

Heizou: 21

Collei: 16

Tighnari: 22

Dori: Super hard to tell, because again, she lives alone and runs a business by herself despite using the short girl model.

Candace: 24

Cyno: 23

Nilou: 21

Nahida: 7-9

Layla: 18-19 (she seems to maybe be in her first year of college - definitely in college, I'm just guessing the year here)

Faruzan: 24 (I know she's like a hundred years older but she was stuck and didn't age and I'm talking biologically still)

Scaramouche: 21 (biologically)

Yaoyao: 7-ish?

Alhaitham: 26

Dehya: 25

Mika: 17

Kaveh: 27

Baizhu: 34

Kirara: 20

Lynette: 20

Lyney: 20

Freminet: 17 (Don't know how much younger he is than his siblings, just guessing based on context and the way he talks and acts)

Furina: 21 (biologically)

Neuvillette: 36 (biologically)

Wriothesley: 32

Navia: 26

Clorinde: 27

Sigewinne: Basically impossible to know as she's a Melusine and not a human

Charlotte: 21

Signora: 29

Dottore: 33

Arlecchino: 31

Dainsleif: 22 (biologically)

#genshin #genshin impact #genshin impact headcanons #this is largely aimed at people who are under the mistaken impression that any characters have a CANON age particularly the travelers #sarah miller-crews saying she was under the impression the travelers were 15 and then correcting #and saying “actually i don't know for sure that's just what i thought” has left the fandom with the mistaken idea that that is solid canon #and it most definitely is not #i find it much easier to believe the traveler is biologically 18 at the very least #largely because of that part in one of the mondstadt quests where kaeya is openly flirting with the traveler (obviously as a joke but still #he's clearly a young adult and would not at all be flirting with a teenager as a joke or otherwise #this is also why the way lisa flirts with the traveler makes me extremely uncomfortable (and i think it's intended to) #because even though i headcanon them as 19 she seems like she's in her late 20s and that's a bit much of an age gap #this is also largely aimed at one particular artist who keeps drawing neuvillette and wriothesley and making them both look like old men #it weirds me out because there's literally a line in the fontaine archon quest where paimon says wrio's younger than she expected him to be #and neuv is pretty nimble and uses the young male adult model so idk where that person got the idea that they're in like their mid 50s #calling them both “wrio” and “neuv” feels very cursed but there is unfortunately a character limit in the tags #it annoys me that the fandom is completely blind to context and just goes “medium height model equals teenager #and tall height model equals adult" because if the medium height female characters in liyue are any clue that is definitely not the case #ganyu and keqing literally work IN THE GOVERNMENT #hu tao RUNS A FUNERAL HOME #yanfei is a freaking lawyer #they would not be letting teenagers do that #heck this is the case in every nation almost #tighnari runs the whole dang forest ranger thing out in gandharva ville #cyno also literally works for the government and is like their frickin chief of police for the entire frickin country #faruzan is a licensed professor at arguably the most prestigious university in all of teyvat #layla is literally in college and as far as we know is normal college age and isn't doing advanced classes as a teenager #in inazuma ayaka runs their clan's GOVERNMENT WORK along with her brother #kokomi and gorou are literal generals in the army #heizou is a licensed detective

[emiliosandozsequence]

being just Slightly 'more' autistic than the average tumblr user is fucking hard actually

#i constantly feel like i'm sitting Just outside the circle of understanding in any situation i'm in #and on tumblr it's easier bc most of us are autistic #but everyone seems to be pretty 'high functioning' too #to the point everyone has an expectation of understanding amongst their followers and mutuals even when they maybe shouldn't #so the fact i don't understand things everyone else does #or don't understand certain etiquettes that everyone else does makes being on this website (or anywhere in the world) super fucking hard #this is also why i don't talk to people very often; i'm either rejected and not responded to outright or i will be eventually #bc i'll say something stupid that i don't realize is not polite to say bc in other places it's fine to say or something similar #i don't try to be this way (not understanding the boundaries of others)...it just happens and idk how to improve upon it #i feel like i'm already doing my very best in that regard #but it's obviously still not good enough bc i keep fucking up #(also i hate the terms 'high functioning' and 'more autistic' which is why they're in quotations #bc i just didn't have a better term to use that equally got my point across) #emilio.txt

[podcastenthusiast]

Astarion would absolutely love painting his nails imo. Get this man some fantasy nail polish.

#astarion #i can see tav offering him some after the mirror scene and helping him with it (since that's easier) #he has beautiful hands they say #but they want him to feel beautiful not just be told it's so #and astarion keeps expecting it to lead to something transactional. to sex. anything familiar #but this seems to be all they want #(oh and he gets to choose the color of course) #bg3 #baldur's gate 3

[neims-skeleton-obsession]

Was looking through the books for any descriptions of skug or his family (as in parents and siblings) because. i wanted to do a design for alive skug

and I’m pleased to announce that all I found- in all 15 books and the grimoire- was that height was varied as shit, some of his siblings are blond, some with darker hair and all of his family is apparently hot. dammit derek. like genuinely even his dad is described as “fair In countenance” or something. skug said he wasn’t too bad looking Val thinks one of his brothers is good looking these are all just ways of saying they’re hot this isn’t useful derek

#skulduggery pleasant #sorry about the bLock of text I forgot to do punctuation #also I don’t think it’s ever said what his mum looked like which is. Tragic #but this is so funny to me #somewhat frustrating #but funny #equally this does give me more wiggle room so I can’t complain too much #I’m lying I can and will conplain #dammit Derek we know they’re hot you don’t have to keep telling us #just let us draw them being hot #that is not a sentence I expected to type when I woke up this morning #oh well #will probably end up drawing Val and darquesse also #probably first it’ll be easier hgjhghgugh #skug designs will happen eventually I promise #on the other hand don’t hold me to that

[n1et]

I'm sharing a traditional soup recipe with a friend so i figured I might as well make it into a post. Polish mutuals and non mutuals alike please weigh in.

I'll be describing how to make Rosół sometimes localized as golden soup. It holds for about 3 days without freezing. As a little bonus I'll also add in some dishes that use rosół as a base; mostly mentions tho as to not balloon the post. Rosół is a savory meat based broth like soup usually eaten with noodles, it is similar in composition to ramen but places less stress on additions and plating.

Prep time: 10-20 minutes (with great room to spare)

Cooking time: >4h (generally the longer the better)

You'll need: A rather large pot, a strainer (any size, optional), a source of continuous flame (either a gas stove or a candle tea heater both work well, a blowtorch or kitchen torch works in a pinch but I don't recommend it, don't bother with a lighter; it's not worth it, also optional but VERY strongly encouraged)

[recipe under the read more]

Rosół is cooked differently in each household; sometimes according to tradition but usually to taste so the ingredients I'm about to give are tentative and should be adjusted

Ingredients:

about 3lbs Meat

1 Onion (charred)

1 or 2 Parsley roots

1 Carrot

1 Celeriac / Celery Root (large)

1/2 a Leek or as much as will fit in the pot

1 bundle of Fresh Parsley

2-4 Celeriac Stems (optional)

12 whole grains of Peppercorn

1 whole grain of Allspice

1/2 a Bay Leaf

A lot of how the end result will taste depends on the meat used in cooking, that includes both animal and cuts. Traditionally rosół is made with beef cuts such as the shank (or flank) and brisket (you're looking for chewy cuts and ones with some fat on them, tho usually the cheaper the meat is, the better it will do) (as an aside, traditionally when an old dairy cow would die it's meat would be used for rosół among other things, so don't be concerned about the general quality and age of the meat you're using) and poultry wings (including wing tips) and necks such as chicken, duck, or goose. Something more controversial nowadays but still very traditional would be horse tail and horse meat, both it and oxtail is a really good choice if you can get them cheaply.

Beef adds a little bit of sourness to the broth so it should be balanced by either adding in a little bit more carrot or about 1/3 of it's weight in turkey. I'd advise against using only turkey as it makes the broth too sweet in my experience, but it remains a great addition for balancing. The gamyer the meat the more intense in flavor and light in feel the broth will be, so for special occasions getting a goose or duck can make for an amazing dish.

Preparation:

Peel and wash all the vegetables thoroughly, make sure to get the dirt from in between the leek leafs (I usually use a high pressure shower head but I'm sure a sink is sufficient), and to get all the nooks and crevices of the celeriac (tho don't cut off the knotted part it's not imperative you keep it but it is a bit wasteful to do so)

chop the root vegetables into thumb sized dice, this includes; the parsley roots, the celeriac, and the carrot. Do Not chop the onion.

Char the peeled onion! Set it onto a source of open flame so that it is touching the onion directly but is not engulfing the onion and wait about a minute or 5, then turn the onion over and repeat the process. Do not try to scrape off the char, it's supposed to stay. (skip this step if you don't have an open flame handy)

Tie the parsley into a knot so it will stay together while cooking.

Cooking:

Put all the meat into the largest pot you can muster, anything you could fit your head in (or maybe even a bit smaller) will work, and pour water into it so that it covers the raw meat completely. Add the peppercorns, allspice, bay, and the onion. Put the pot on high heat and bring it up to almost a gentle boil before cutting the heat completely. If you want to, you can strain the broth to get rid of the meat fuss, keeping all the spices and the onion, or just let the fuss settle to the bottom of the pot. I've also seen people use a smaller strainer to skim the fuss off the top. Put the pot on low heat and watch if it tries to boil, if it does, add a table spoon of cold water to quiet it down and lower the temperature, ideally your soup should be moving but not quite boiling, do not stir as it'll only damage the onion and redisperse the fuss. If at any point the onion begins to disintegrate simply pull it out so it doesn't make the soup cloudy, you can eat it as is or add it back later and have it with the soup. After at least an hour, or after the meat can be pierced with a meat fork, start putting in other ingredients in order of cook time: first the Parsley root, then the carrot, then the celeriac, the leek should get added at the very end with all the herbs (parsley and celeriac stems). I like to wait an hour between each ingredient but not everyone has 6 hours to make soup, even if you don't have to watch it, so ration your time accordingly. The soup is ready when the leak is cooked through or about half an hour to an hour after putting it in.

Plating and further processing:

Rosół is generally eaten with noodles, any size and shape will do but short thin strands are the most common. You can eat it as a 2 course meal with the broth and noodles as soup and the less chewy meat from it as the second course, my favorite way to eat it is with horseradish sauce made with the broth for which I will provide a recipe later!

Rosół is also a base for many different dishes. You can use the broth as a base for other soups like żurek, and the tougher, stringyer peaces of meat can be ground into pierogi filling, but one of the simplest ways to enhance another dish with it is using it in a horseradish sauce recipe:

ingredients: a table spoon of unsalted butter, a teaspoon of flour, 2 table spoons of rosół (substitutable with any kind of broth), horseradish paste (I use jarred, if you plan on grinding the horseradish yourself add a little bit of cream)

Into a very small pot on low to medium heat add the butter and melt it. Before it burns add the teaspoon of flour and wait for it to brown slightly, stir constantly to make sure it doesn't burn. Quench the rue with the broth, it should foam slightly so try not to spill any, and after it deflates a bit add the horseradish paste to taste. I tend to go for 2 table spoons (quite spicy) but make sure to make the sauce as spicy as you want it to be, the more horseradish the spicier it'll be.

Pour your sauce onto one of the tender peaces of meat extracted from your rosól and enjoy. This seemingly simple dish always fills me with great glee and a sense of accomplishment. There's nothing quite like a peace of meat with horseradish sauce, both a result of delicious soup.

#kuchnia #recipe #polblr #me posting #I'm bad at actual tags and this is me trying #I had so much more to say but I'm exhausted after writing all that #should probably keep it in drafts for 24 to look over for mistakes tomorrow but I just want to get it out there #I may or may not do an addition where I go over each ingredient and how they taste/ what they do for the soup #to make substituting easier for those that still wanna try it but can't get all the stuff #and also going over each meat type and cut that can go into rosół and what to do with it/ what soup you can expect #there is a lot to talk about when it comes to rosół #soup in general really #anyway; finch this is your fault

[memelordotherblog]

I keep forgetting Eil has teamed up with Blotty . Like I don't think about these two in the same room at all.

#eli squinch #the phantom blot #i mean it makes sense eil is probably easier to keep under control since he more worried about business and money #it just a pair i don't really expect since eil is usually good enough on his own or with Pete

[jacob-blogs]

Normally by this point in my insomniac existence I'm crying and complaining about getting zero sleep because of my schedule. And for some reason, I'm doing the insomniac thing but not losing my absolute shit over every little thing.

#jacob blogs #is this what life is like to finally do things for yourself? #and not just because its what others expect if you? #i cant say im past my people pleasing era #i feel that keeping my priorities in order definitely makes it easier to desl with the whole 'no sleep til i die' perspective

[quietwingsinthesky]

there’s a progression in there, somewhere, of even going from ‘the master might kill me any day now :(‘ to ‘the master is going to kill me :) she’s not going to let someone else do it after all this time’

#i wouldn’t call it hubris exactly. more like this pretty secure surity that that’s how they’re going to die. #and to them that makes sense. they chose this. they keep choosing it after the doctor offers them a way out. #because this is. they understand this. and they feel safe in the reprieve before their death. #how do you control death? choose who kills you. the last defense of a prey animal. #something something dark mirror to clara’s ‘i am owed’ speech for even is if this ever. doesn’t work out the way they thought it would. #clara tried to threaten the doctor so that he’d reverse death for her. even would turn on the master if she tried to spare them. #i am owed better. i am owed the death you promised… i am owed the knowledge that you don’t care enough to save me… you know. something like #that. #even is. kind of. meant to mirror the doctor’s companions at the time. they are a martha who can’t leave him. they are a donna who has to #remember and never speak about everything they know. they are clara if during deep breath clara reached back and truly didn’t expect. truly #hoped. that no one would take her hand. because if they can be certain it will happen they can know never to reach again. #jesus christ. go to therapy boy. you have so many trust issues. #but that’s why they’re Like That with the master because at the end of the day. who is easier to rely on? the guy who comes in to put out #fires but only sometimes. or the guy who. really really fucking likes starting fires. #better to get burned hoping someone is coming or get burned knowing that’s what would happen. and even. chooses the latter. #AND ALL OF THIS. for me to say thats why i cant actually let the master ever kill them. #i think she needs to do something worse to even. i think she needs to abandon them. #and that will either set them free to go have healthy normal relationships or. lets be honest much more likely. completely fucking break #them. which would be fun :) for me. #dw oc

[toxic-mothers-tourney]

Good news, toxic tourney fans

New round will be out starting 9 am JULY FIRST!

#also you may notice bracket looks different. challonge was giving me problems so I just manually made a new one #I find myself with more time than I expected to have this morning #but I want to alternate the round with my other blog so i keep on top of everything #it'll be easier after round 2 because there will be so few contestants left #VERY glad I limited it to 32 lol #mod speaks

[nimikyu]

I love being medicated for adhd but it makes times that I am unmedicated about 1000 times harder :/

#nim.txt #actually adhd #adhd #and I don’t mean it in a ‘ohhhh I’m dependent on my legal meth doctor please give me more’ bc if it were like that #I’d be having different problems #than executive dysfuntioning naked outside of the running shower being unable to make myself get in even though I want to be clean #but I keep forgetting to take my meds until too late in the day. had the havit and then it broke one day and I’ve been so inconsistent since #and it’s not even like I don’t WANT to be clean I feel so gross. I’m not opposed to the sensory experience inside the wet world #and I have things I NEED to do afterwards #but I’m just stuck #:( #i think it’s because when I’m medicated these things get easier and so when I’m unmedicated I subconsciously expect them to be as easy #and then I hit the Invisible Wall

[ff2-soda-pop]

I'm starting to question if I should even bother with the stupid paper.... I'm probably just gonna fail anyways lmao

#ive been running around stuck on Babysitter Duty for the past three days and the teacher only gave us any instructions on thursday yet #somehow expected a full paper done and edited by sunday. even if i wasnt stuck on babysitter duty she'd get a shitty paper just due to how #little TIME that is to get things done. but because i am on babysitter duty uhhh..... well so far there's no paper #ive been spending practically full days having to take care of my sister and i cant just Ignore Her so i havent done my paper while watchin #her because again: my focus needs to be on Her. and shes incredibly loud which makes it super hard to focus. fun combo /s #so i was like 'i'll just stay up Really Late and do it then' but that hasn't worked because my sister WONT GO TO BED if im awake. i was up #until 4am last night hoping she'd fall asleep and shut up and i could work but Nope! #and then i got too tired to even care anymore #i've tried explaining this to others and they're just like 'ok well you just need to find a way to make it work :/' which is very much #easier said than done! and im scared about this paper because this teacher doesnt accept late work at all for pretty much any reason #and im sure she wont understand my situation. because shes also the teacher that didnt understand that i didnt have the textbook on time #because it was still being shipped and i dont control the rate at which book ships and she was like #'..........okay well you still need to have the book by tomorrow at least <3' when i told her the book had Just shipped and idk when i'd ge #the dumb thing. so yknow i dont have high hopes about this #also just as extra 'make stuff more difficult' i have zero accommodations because my mom cant keep track of my fucking IEPs and they wont #let me have accommodations unless i have that and idk how to get a copy anymore. so i've also been running around with no help in that area #and it's not great </3 #idk im just stressed out and frustrated and i Want To Cry :) #vent