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the---hermit · 13 days

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I have not kept it a secret that this semester commuting has been really rough on me. By the time I get home in the middle of the afternoon even if I only had to sit in a hour and a half lecture I feel like an overcooked noodle. And the mornings aren't any easier, my anxiety has been spiking a lot lately, and that messes me up completly, and it's particularly hard on my stomach. Let's just say it's a very demanding period of my life both physically and emotionally and I have been doing my best to get through it with ups and downs, but most importantly by trying to properly take care of myself. I decided to compile a list of small things that have been helping me, both for future reference as well as for people who might be dealing with similar issues.

Prep everything I can the night before. I don't leave the house until more or less mid morning since my class is on lunch time more or less (and this will come up again), so I do have time to do stuff in the morning, but if I have already put everything I need in my backpack, picked an outfit for the day and checked that I have my bus ticket the night before I can have a much calmer morning. Having a calm morning is fundamental for me on any day, so especially when I have a stressful and energy demanding day ahead I want to make sure I don't have to rush, and here is my second point.

Try to have a morning as calm as possible before I have to leave. I am a morning person so I wake up quite early which means I have plenty of time to take it easy. And this means drink my tea as I read my book, prep the last few things I need, like my waterbottle, eat (on which I'll have a later point). Overall my morning before leaving needs to be slow and mostly made of things for myself so again my precious reading time, listening tocmusic as I get ready to get in a better mood and so on.

Taking my meds regularly. It's the logical thing to do, if I am in a period in which my anxiety is worse than usual the number one goal is to be consistent with meds, they are there to help me even if sometimes I forget that.

Finding ways to enjoy food when anxiety fucks up my stomach. What happens is that as soon as I have an anxiety spike for some reason I get very nauseous, which is terribly by itself and it gets worse when it makes me struggle to enjoy my food. But I found a couple of ways to work around that in the past few weeks. Eating when I am away from home is much worse so what I do is embrace the little hobbit in me and have more meals when I am at home, and just bring some snacks on the road if I need them. That means I have two breakfasts before I have to leave the house, the last being a bit more filling. And then when I get home no matter how tired I am or what time it is I cook something for myself, something simple, but I take the time to make something good that fills me up and makes me happy. Because having a full stomach does improve your mood belove me. When I am on the road I bring some lighter snacks that can help me if I feel like I need to have something but that will also work well if I have a spike in anxiety and correlated nausea. I usually eat some homemade bread while I walk from the bus stop to my uni, and then snack on some nuts while I wait for the lecture. And I always have an emergency sweet treat in my backpack because that is something that I actually do on a regular basis. This thing has been working very well, I have had less problems with my stomach acting up, and I am definitely getting all the nutrients I need during the day, just at times that are a bit different from my normal routine.

Bring tea with me. It's something I never did before but it's becoming the one thing I won't give up. I either make a green tea or an herbal tea that I drink before the lecture, and it's been so good for me both physically and mentally. It's been super cold so the warm treat is really needed, but most importantly it's been very comforting and calming, so shutout to my dad for suggesting that.

Having little things to look out for during the commute. This mostly consists of me listing to podcasts, and re:dracula has been of great company in my commutes last year so it's nice it's become a bit of a tradition. It's just good for me not to associate commuting with negative things, so now I just percieve it as poscast time which makes it much much better. This also includes texing friends when I feel like I can look at the screen of my phone without getting car sick (again when anxiety messes me up I can get random car sickness), that's good to keep my mind off things and make the commute feel lighter.

Total relax when I get home. Which sometimes means lying in bed with a cup of tea and nothing more. If I have enough brain power I might read a comic, or play stupid midless games on my tablet for a bit. Honestly just things that need as little energy and brainpower as possible because by that time I do not have much energy or brainpower left, and it's okay. I normally use up a lot of energy when going out and it this period of time all tasks require I use even more energy. I can't do much about it other than accept it and do my best to tke care of myself.

#i feel like i am forgetting about somethong but these are def the main things #the goal of this weird journaling/list/idk post is to mostly write down what has been helpful for future reference #bc i know myself and i know i always struggle with commuting routines #i also haven't had enough energy to do my usual daily journals so it's a good filler #i will surely get back to my normal style posts at the end of the week #idek how to tag this kglgllf #studyblr #studyinspo #uniblr #university #student life #journal #journaling #commuting #commuting day tips #mine #the---hermit

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yellowflowerbub · 9 months

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I actually really like nanami x tiana. like, unironically

#nanami would def support her goals #he would love her cooking #theyre kinda opposites attract too #tiana like workin #nanami doesnt really like it #she could change him :(((#nanami x tiana

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hcnnibal · 2 years

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Vati do you have a favourite piece of Hannigram nsfw art from your creations? If so, care to share with us merry mortals?

oh man at this point ive drawn like 100+ nsfw pieces so its pretty hard to choose but mmmm this handfeeding comic is kinda uhhhh

#my nov and dec goals are to finish some comic wips and this comic is def on my list of things to resuscitate

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todayisafridaynight · 1 year

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mr. hi

#rgg #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku ishin #ryu ga gotoku 3 #yakuza series #yakuza 3 #like a dragon ishin #yoshitaka mine #toshizo hijikata #snap sketches #my wrist feels a lil better so of course i said 'i should devise a way to draw in a way that wont shatter my limbs'#i keep flip flopping with this goddamn pen i promise i just cant decide if i want translucent lines or not #when im trying to draw lighter it def helps but idk if i'd like how it'd look for comics #thats my main thing i feel like i need two different pens for comics and just drawings like these #IDK my main goal is to not put so much pressure on my hand since thats my biggest problem #i did p good in going light this time around but again idk how ima do for more 'focused' drawings #since this really was the truest form of sketch/doodle #idk. anyways ima go think of drawin a third comic to that masada| shit BYE

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tomwambsgans · 11 months

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tomgreg is about the fantasy of being able to find someone who genuinely likes that you're mean and in fact thrives very well being needed in the particular kind of fucked up way that you need someone which makes it so you don't actually have to work that much to strip away your superiority complex in order to be loved for who you are

#mine #tomgreg #like wait i can kind of very openly see you as an extension of myself and you LIKE it? jackpot #(slash pos obviously there's a lot of nuance here and tom is very selfless underneath it all)#anyway genuinely tho i do feel like a bit of their thesis is very purposefully lacking the notion of self-improvement #like tom def does work to change the parts of himself that harm greg - WHEN he learns that they do #but there's a certain like. ok maybe it's just me and my personal revelations #in any case those revelations are that it's NOT necessarily the goal for every person and every relationship to be any particular #idea of 'healthy'#like yeah sure MAYBE if greg went to therapy and if he really WANTED to he could become someone who didn't tolerate #the way that tom as a closeted man is only able to express affection #but like... if he CAN tolerate it... if he's pathologically WIRED. even. to tolerate it #then is it really harmful?#if it's love and if both parties are willing and passionate is it REALLY bad? does it REALLY need to change?#maybe the diversity of the human condition simply includes #that what's horrible for one man is ideal for another #and that includes the people you love. idk

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padfootastic · 10 months

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a seldom unrealised joy of fics updating after a long time (by which i mean many months or perhaps even years) is being able to go back and reread the previous chapter or heck, the entire fic again to catch up. it’s almost as good as reading it for the first time🥰

#ofc. if ur like me and ur brain is akin to a colander #then mere weeks also feel like a heckin long time #and this works even better #can u tell i got a fic update today #idk how long it’s been but def long enough that i have to read the previous chapters lol #(i’m also trying to make my own self feel better wrt FOD 💀)#but also #i’m generally an advocate for readings wips #bc theyre amazing #and idc how long it takes for it to be finished #heck i’ve started abandoned works so many times #rly think people r missing out #they’re so focused on the end goal they’re not enjoying the process #<— pls ignore how…corporate? spiritual? idk that sounded #i’m just thinking out loud lol #or. writing out loud?#idk #okie byeee #gonna read my chapter now

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nordsea-horizons · 2 months

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i just started playing acnh (i got a switch lite after years of wanting one :D!) abd im no where near decorating but, do you have any tips for how to lay the groundwork of decoration. I have no clue how to make a pretty island but i really want one so any tips would be appreciated :}

oh thats great! congrats on your new switch✨

thats def a good question, but honestly the main thing should just be to have fun with it and try to get creative in your own way, especially when you first start playing and everything is new💛 its hard to get items and diy’s fast in this game so patience is key and after a while you can consider trading with others and such if you feel its all too slow!

playing with terraforming and waterscaping is so fun but if you end up finding it hard i would look to the community and get some inspiration before starting a big project! im personally a big fan of moodboards and saving pictures that inspire me to build and decorate, so i recommend that too. doing a color palette with flowers and items is also a great way to structure your decorating and make things look very matchy and intentional!

i did a post a while back with tips for building up your island after flattening everything and i feel like that could also work for this ask -> here!🤍(instead of being tips for after flattening it could be how to structure starting over??)

the acnh community is large! we are here on tumblr ofc but youtube, pinterest and such are all great for gathering info and inspiration too🪴 also everyone with a very build up island has potentially been playing for years now, so take your own time and dont be too self-critical!🤍i 100% did not decorate the way i do now in the early days of playing!! hope you have fun with it!!💛

#something else that maybe not as useful but that i def do is pick an island theme!#that way your whole decorating has the purpose of creating the theme and making everything look like it goes together!#some in the community dislikes themes and i do get that but i love them and find it sooo helpful in being inspired to play #and if your goal is making a pretty island more than some of the other gameplay mechanics i would consider this for sure💛#these types of asks are always a little hard to answer tbh so feel very free to be more specific if i didnt get what you were thinking of!!#tysm for the ask!#reply

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mcnuggyy · 4 months

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just a little behind the scenes but I ran the numbers and found I need to be making 420 book sales in order for my comic to be making a profit <3 hehehe funny weed number

#this is w me selling it at 12.50 #I’ve decided to keep it at this price for the first issue but going forward def increasing to 15$.. 😔🫶#sorry gang #my goal then becomes 350 book sales #this is w me accurately representing my work as me getting paid 30$ for each hour I put in #if I give myself only minimum wage then it’s 175-210 in sales!#ohhhh I believe I believe that one day I can reach this goal amen 🥺🙏#nuggyy txt #a little behind the scenes for you all I guess bahaha #I hope it’s not in bad taste for me to be talking so openly about this #but oh well #im a freelancer I gotta be honest w my audience 😭😭😭

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songofsaraneth · 2 months

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cute little sequence from this week's aerials class :)

#ramblings #me #my stuff #aerial silks #im def getting stronger which was the Goal but oh boy i am Not getting more flexible #i think i am just. at my bone limit. and that is Very Not Bendy #rip

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akkivee · 1 month

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i hope kr does the craziest thing and end every single drama track on those solos albums in an anxiety inducing cliffhanger, i need to feel as much dread as i felt listening to helter skelter for the first time hitting up that bb track and having that fear amplify with every subsequent monthly release LOL

#vee queued to fill the void #I WANT TO BE MISERABLE KR LET ME HAVE ANOTHER PANIC EPISODE #EXCEPT CONSECUTIVELY FOR THE REST OF THE YEAR LOL #BAT IS IN NOVEMBER AND I NEED TO BE INTERMITTENTLY SCREAMING TO MYSELF IN TERROR DAILY ONCE NOVEMBER HITS LOL #(WILL PROBABLY BE DOING THAT ANYWAY LMAO)#kimura looked hella excited giving his final words on the new releases so def bb have recorded their music lol #i’m so curious about what their solos will be about like what’s jiro going to be up to??? something more self assured????#more downward spirals to remixed classical music for saburo????#something a little heavier from ichiro now that he has a hard goal????? i wonder lol

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eternitas · 9 days

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Just follow the rules

A Oneshot about Sergey giving new recruits a small tour and introducing them to Lorenzo and Ava.

"Aaand Silvio di Noia?"

The young recruit lifted his hand with an assertive "here!" when he heard his name being called. The man that had just listed all the new Rain Division members nodded and then put the list away into his pocket.

"Great! So again for everybody: My name is Sergey Shouta. I am one of the two Second in Command of the Rain Division. I will be your main person of contact for any and all questions or reports. I'll quickly show you around HQ and tell you the different rules we have. And I mean the unwritten ones. For the codex you have the booklets you were given after passing your evaluation. Anyone who hasn't received one, see me after class. Allright! Let's get moving, andiamo!"

The small group started to move and Sergey explained them the functions of each different area. The kitchen, the breakrooms, the quarters, report rooms, research and libraries, the archive, meeting rooms, the infirmary- while listing a myriad of rather mundane trivia and regulations.

"Make sure to plan in time for putting your stuff away, when you use the kitchen, people WILL be annoyed and come for you. It's also always good to keep your most valuable ingredients in your room, you'll have a fridge there. The fridge and pantry in the kitchen just have the usual regular ingredients, locally sourced."

"Keep the breakrooms clean, it's just a matter of respect. Also first come first serve, so if someone is already using the breakroom you'll have to find another place, especially when someone is resting. However we do have a ranking and seniority system, so if a squadron needs the space for mission briefing you'll have to move."

"The breakrooms also have the liquor cabinet, but I suggest you to keep your hands off of there, since it's usually used by the officers and Second in Comand. The boss has his own cabinet."

"Breakroom 3 also has gaming consoles. Oh yeah and don't even think about stealing. We are completely wired and each community room is surveiled. If you try something, you'll be lucky if you just lose a limb. Also don't just fucking steal from us? We're paying pretty well, there is no reason for that."

As they approached the quarters two very loud voices could be heard fighting.

Sergey seemed to ignore that and passed a corner only to stop in his tracks, when he realized the hall was blocked by two men. A young man with light blue hair and a taller guy with dark red hair.

"-absolutely insufferable!"

They were both wildly using their hands and whole arms as they argued as well.

"You just need to fucking deal with the fact, that I and everyone else in the storm division don't give a shit about that!"

"Well you should give a shit considering this is entirely your fault that is then hindering everybody elses work!"

"It's not my fault you don't seem to be flexible enough to work around that!"

Sergey nodded and turned on his heel, as someone raised his voice in protest.

"Why are we leaving? Let's just pass th-"

Before the newbie could finish his sentance a throwing knife flew straight towards his forhead and would've made a clean landing if Sergey hadn't caught it midair, just in time.

The shorter man grew even angrier.

"That's our members, you jackass!"

"Well, how about you teach them some fucking manners?!"

"We're already leaving! We're already leaving." Sergey loudly, but calmly said, gently placing the knife on a nearby windowsill, before he lead everyone back from where they came.

"Don't take it personal." He tried to sooth the new guy who was now completely pale which looked unnatural on his tanned skin.

"The guy who threw the knife was Lorenzo Rodriguez, Second in Comand of the Storm Division, I'd suggest you don't piss him off, he's short tempered when he is stressed. And he is always stressed. The other one was our second Second in Command, Ava Muramasa. He's pretty chill, but Lorenzo really manages to push his buttons. When you see those two arguing just make a 360 turn and moonwalk away."

The rest of the tour was rather uneventful. Sergey was a cool guy, funny and his explanations were understandable and pretty lighthearted. If you cut out their encounter with Ava and Lorenzo, then this place wasn't that much different than any other work. It almost seemed too casual for a place full of assassines.

Once the tour was done and they had also been able to visit the quarters, luckily now free of the two fighting men, the group slowly disperesed. Silvio stayed however and fidgeted a bit before he looked towards Sergey, who noticed the stare and gave an encouraging smile.

"What's up?"

"I was just wondering... why does the Rain Division have two Second in Command?"

Sergey nodded at the question and gestured for Silvio to follow him as he talked.

"The Rain Division is the one that needs to be most self sufficient. While the other officers can be rather absent and more or less capable of leading their division, Captain Squalo is the Second in Comand of the entire organisation. He is the biggest fish here right after the boss, pun fully intended, and is usually busy with handling a lot of the things that come up for the officers. He's kind of the general manager of everything and has his work everywhere at once. So he decided to put two of us in charge, people he can trust and who can hold their own in a fight."

"The way you caught that knife was amazing." Sergey laughed warmly.

"Thanks! But Lorenzo didn't mean to kill Alonso. If he had wanted to, he wouldn't have made it so easy for me to interfere. He was just annoyed that someone was butting in." He hummed.

"I suppose their arguing is some sort of twisted foreplay."

"Foreplay?!" Silvio felt his cheeks flush, issuing another laugh from Sergey.

"You'd never imagine, but those two have great synergy. They work better together than even Ava and I do. Lorenzo is the only one that knows how to rile Ava up and in turn Ava helps Lorenzo with his stress."

"That doesn't sound healthy..."

"It isn't! Never said it was!" Sergey laughed again. "But can you really expect healthy relationships from a bunch of murderers?"

The young recruit didn't know what to answer to that. And before he had realized it they were at the kitchen.

"Grab a bite and then clock in for the night. Tomorrow at 8 you can check the mission board. Oh and one more thing!"

Sergey grinned widely.

"Welcome to the Varia, Silvio!"

It was 20 minutes after 1 o'clock in the night when Ava managed to finish up his daily tasks, making his way towards the breakroom on the first floor to unwind, before he went to bed. He opened one of the heavy doors to the breakroom and hesitated for a moment, when he saw the light still on. A quick look over the room and he noticed someone laying on the couch. An unmistakable figure. His mood dropped as he recognized Lorenzo, but something else caught his eye and he decided to quietly enter the room.

On the table in the back he found a stack of reports. All pre-mission reports and follow ups from the Storm Division, worked over and corrected. While still not completely up to standart it was leagues better than what Ava had to deal with prior. For the amount and timeframe he had done this in, this was rather impressive. And it's all the reports that involve the Rain Division too....

Ava looked up and towards the sofa where Lorenzo was resting with a towel over his eyes. Ava approached him quietly to stare at his face and then noticed the few papers scattered on the floor and the remaining few trapped between his fingers and his torso. The red hair was falling back, but Ava saw a few strands straying away. Mindlessly he reached out and tried to stroke them out of Lorenzos face, when he felt the sudden bloodlust.

A hand grabbed Avas wrist and twisted him to lose footing, crashing against the suddenly empty couch. In the next moment, Lorenzo had Ava pinned down onto the couch, hands tightly on his wrists.

"What do you think you're doing?" Lorenzo said lowly before he registered the tucked leg between his own torso and Avas. One swift jerk and he'd have a foot in his groin and would be pushed back. Not that he truly had expected Ava to let himself be manhandled like that.

"I had planned to rework the reports. But you already did that. Thank you." Ava said calmly, but with assertiveness. His look and voice became softer.

"I... truly appreciate it. Let me take over your morning shift. You should get some rest."

Lorenzo didn't answer and instead let his hands wander from Avas wrists to his hands, intertwining their fingers and squeezing. It felt hot all of asudden and he noticed Ava moving his tucked leg to the side, to give Lorenzo space to move.

Was he... giving him permission?

He noticed the faint blush on Avas cheeks and a deep pull in his chest to come closer. There was such a deep desire for him to taste those lips that seemed to wait for his own. He could just go for it now. This was probably the most opportune timing. Slowly Lorenzo leaned more down-

The door opened with a hefty swing then stopped. Lorenzo looked behind him, seeing the guy from this afternoon who he had thrown a knife at. He grew pale again and quickly retreated back, closing the door- before opening it again to loudly whisper a quick "my apologies!" and letting it fall into its lock once more.

Lorenzo sighed and drew back. Ava tried to reach for him.

"Lor-"

"Thanks for taking over my shift." he said simply and got up grabbing his uniform jacket, throwing it over his shoulder.

"Lorenzo-"

"Another time." He said earnestly and Ava properly sat up, watching Lorenzos back. The storm smirked and looked back over his shoulder.

"And next time I'll make sure we won't be interrupted."

He couldn't help a girn, before he turned back around towards the door and left, the image of Ava blushing madly up to his ears making his heart skip a beat. Oh he'd def imagine all kinds of things back in his room-

"You seem in a good mood~"

Lorenzo jolted at Sergeys sudden voice, jumping to the side. God damn it, this guy was too good at hiding his presence! Sergey grinned widely and Lorenzo felt annoyance build up inside of him.

"Shut up. I'm going to bed."

"Good niight~"

And like that another uneventful day ended.

#khr #reborn!#varia #katekyo hitman reborn #unseen varia #khr oc #katekyo hitman reborn ocs #my writing #yes i wrote another bc the muses strong with me for some reason #Sergey is such a teasing lil shit he loves riling others up #see Lorenzo and Ava def arent the healthiest couple and no couple goals or something #but they do respect each other and have their softer moments

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