#but itd still be better lmao

[timeisacephalopod]

Weird that people treat amateur writing as inherently bad and absolutely worse than published stuff because in my experience if you want good horror amateur horror is actually way better than anything published be it movies or books. Not that there's zero good horror writers, I'm no Stephen king fan but his work is undeniably popular for a reason and I enjoy the movie adaptations of a lot of his stuff. But most horror is 5 tropes in a trenchcoat with half a plot and zero characters that are memorable or likable- a symptom of the genre killing off most of the characters in the story I think but my guys I still need to like them before they get brutally murdered.

Still, amateur writing isn't inherently bad just because Jeff the Killer exists when that amateur writing also has stories like The Russian Sleep Experiment. And god knows just because someone gave a horror flick a budget of 15 million dollars (not go mention marketing budget, which usually costs about as much as the movie) doesn't mean it's good.

#winters ramblings #guys horror is such a Genre its god so much crap in it because horror is REALLY hard to write #people have told me i should write horror because im so good at critiquing horror movies and stories #but im not that good at plot and horror is plot dependant and im no good at tension either. not that kind anyway #so like mad respect for horror writers but despite being dogshit at writing horror #im very confident i could write a horror flick better than Truth or Dare. sure itd end up being a horror comedy #but itd still be better lmao #regardless amateur writing=/= bad writing. horror is one of the few where you find stuff consistently better work than published stuff #but its a great show of how structure and trope expectations in horror movie making especially leads to trite overtired crap ass stories #and amatures arent usually so restricted by capitalism demanding you make the 10 000th exorcist movie instead of an original story #about posession. and its always christian recruitment propaganda too 🙄🙄. still though if you watch the exorcist #every other posession movie is that exactly minus sort of the exorcism of emily rose but thats because they were usuing an actual story #as the basis for that movie and no poor analisa michelle was not actually posessed

[wikiangela]

wip wednesday

tagged by @jesuisici33 @callaplums @daffi-990 @loserdiaz @thewolvesof1998 @disasterbuckdiaz @fortheloveofbuddie 💖💖

made a bit of progress on the sick fic so here it is🤷

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“Maybe we should get you to a doctor.” Buck muses, wrapping the blanket over Eddie’s shoulders.

“I don’t need- I just closed my eyes for a second. I’m fine.” he grumbles, fumbling with the blanket too long to want to actually throw it off, but he does in the end – he’s cold and refuses to admit it, and he’d rather sit here and pretend he’s fine. He’s impossible.

“Eddie, that cough did not sound fine.” he points out. 

“Buck-” he sneezes, and then wraps the sleeves of his hoodie over his palms. Buck raises his eyebrow, and Eddie pointedly avoids his eyes, as he not-so-discreetly wipes his nose with a sleeve. 

“I bought tissues.” Buck reaches for the bag and digs out a box, then tries to give it to Eddie, who, instead of taking it, just levels him with a stare, as he sniffles loudly, and swipes a sleeve under his nose again. “Seriously? You’re gonna be gross and disgusting just to prove you’re not sick?” That’s a new level of stubborn Buck hasn’t seen from Eddie yet. He can’t believe this is the man his heart decided it wants. And that even while sick and gross and stubborn and ridiculous, a part of Buck is still endeared by him.

“I’m not.” Eddie insists, sounding so congested Buck swears he can feel it in his own sinuses. “Let me just finish my coffee, and then I-” another sneeze. “Have so much to do today.” he finishes, but at least this time he reaches for the tissues, looking anywhere but at Buck, cheeks red.

“Yeah, no, all you’re gonna do today is rest and take some medicine.” Buck says decisively, then takes the bag in his hand, and slowly starts walking to the kitchen. “Get comfortable, and I’ll just put this all away and be right back. I bought meds, tissues, and something to cook you some soup-” he starts listing off, getting louder the further he gets. “Oh, and stopped by the farmer’s market to get honey. Did you know that honey has antioxidant and antibacterial properties?” he asks excitedly, ready to tell Eddie every single thing he found in his quick research. Buck learned a long time ago that with Eddie he doesn’t need to hold back and can rant and ramble all he wants, and Eddie is happy to listen to him.

“Yeah?” Eddie yells back, voice hoarse and strained. Buck can hear the couch shift as Eddie gets comfortable, maybe even finally lays down. He knows Eddie won’t just give in and admit he’s sick, but this is a start. “Why don’t you tell me all about it?” he sounds genuinely interested, though also really tired. 

“I will, just a sec! I’ll make you some tea with lemon and honey, how’s that sound?” he asks, and gets a grunt in response, though he’s not sure if that’s an answer, or if Eddie’s just trying to suppress a cough in an attempt to hide that he’s sick, as if Buck didn’t already know. He chuckles to himself. He really has his work cut out for him today.

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#wip wednesday #sick eddie fic #eddie is so ridiculous in this lmao #this is really gonna be so silly and fluffy i can't wait haha #buddie fic #buddie wip #buddie #wikiangela writes #my writing #fic snippet #my wips #still lowkey stuck on alive shannon and coffee shop #and this one isnt going so smoothly either #but im here and trying to work on it all! #ngl i still feel so fucking bad and exhausted and awful and sad i cant even explain it #i thought itd be better and id be back to myself after my cold and my period were over but nope #thought about taking a lil break from writing but tbh idk how id cope without it so pushing myself through it lol #this got venty lmao ignore me #i think this silliness is exactly what i need rn hahaha

[inamagicalhallucination]

i dont get when ppl say "atsushi would be horrified" at something thats probably just another tuesday for him

#yall atsushi is sheltered as in he doesn't know the real world literally cuz he was locked up #not that he doesn't know how evil or awful ppl can be #sure maybe some things he'll be horrified - especially since he usually seems to sympathize and empathize but stop treating him like he's #only seen good things in his life and doesn't know how hard it gets #i think atsushi would really only react to the specifics of dazai's relationship with akutagawa in terms of akutagawas past but i dont thin #hed start being scared of dazai or anything #i think he might take some time to process it but atsushi is aware of the dazai that dazai has changed into too #also in terms of atsushi not wanting to kill #when he realized that he killed shibusawa he had a little break down and then he got the fuck over it lmao #so idk whats this stuff about atsushi not being able to handl ever killing anyone #like he doesn't like unnecessary killing and he doesn't like not valuing life but still guys come on #also when ppl talk about atsushi not understanding or getting the fact that dazai wants to kill himself #like okay yea atsushi isnt dazai he'll never understand but sometimes ppl act like atsushi doesn't know what suicide is #or that despite his strong want and thirst to survive he also doesnt also think itd be better if hed died in a ditch #what else #also i dont like when ppl say atsushi is weirdly mean to akutagawa becuz akutagawa showed up and in a way confirmed atsushis worst fears #bringing misfortune to those around him #and then tried to kill him #and then resented him for dazai liking him more even tho thats not atsushis fault at all #fuck id throw dazai's name back at akutagawas face too #and he did come to understand and care for him to some extent #atsushi cares about akutagawa i dont understand how ppl can think he doesnt #anyway #also atsushi canonically gives ppl who've hurt him second chances like look at lucy why would he turn his back on dazai ever

[canidaedreams64]

been doodling up some knight ocs recently

#art #doodle #procreate #oc: jelly knight #oc: lycan knight #shovel knight #idk if i still want to call jelly knight that or if i should change it to jellyfish knight lol #like itd probably make more sense #but it feels ‘too long’ #like most knight names are like one word #and jellyfish is like two words in one #am i making sense…… #also lycan feels like a discount sp3ct3r lmao #whateverrrrr…… #ill just try to make more refined designs later #oh yeah also also #jelly they/them lycan he/him #also also aslo #i thought lycans name wouldve sounded better with the shortened word

[findafight]

Saw an earnest yet completely inaccurate or misinformed take and it's like okay fine fine just ignore that even tho they're out to lunch on what happened in that scene no need to comment keep it to yourself. Or at least your own post's tags

#as tho being fifteen and asking your friends to ask a favour for you is a personal slight #or that the bb game was planned weeks in advance when im pretty sure they said they found out the night bfor bc they won that game #at most it would have a week notice #that that was the schedule. and hlfre was a weekly club. not an event. a weekly activity #so like ya i gues ls could have asked for the reschedule but it was already clear eddie held no love for jocks so why would he think eddie #would do that for him? mike and dustin had better chances considering Dustin's closeness to eddie. #also playing a major session let alone a finale without one of your players sucks bc you play to have fun with friends #literally like. eddie is 19/20. lucas is 15. and already an outsider in hlfre as demod by the distain for 'jocks' #this aint all on him #and acting like lucas feeling like ddie doesnt like him is irrational is just. idk. insulting #i was trying to be vague and then wasnt lmao #basically if i were lucas i would have absolutely asked mynfriend who was club leaders fave to ask to reschedule dnd bc #i wasnt expecting our team to get to the finals but still wanted to play the FINALE SESSION #i get the other members would have been bummed but like. 'we cant reschedule bc this guy graduates in three months and-' #'mike is gone for a week' comes off very 'you picked your side and i dont like it so now deal with it' to me #but the other members would just have a night off. it was already clear for hlfre. because it was hlfre night. #so itd be disappointing for them and maybe frustrating having to wait two weeks but. #idk id rather wait two weeks than have a missing party member. or a REPLACEMENT??? for the FINALE #like whatever you can think eddie was right for not rescheduling but it wouldn't have been the end of the world #tbh no wonder lucas didnt sit with all of them. i dont blame him at all #sorry for the tag rant its just. cannot believe folls think its lucas' fault. #also where is the teacher advisor for this club. why were they not making this decision. #also what if some of the other hlfr members wanted to go to the game? #they set up an interesting parallel of eddie ALSO being stuck in his veiw of the world and how one should act but did nothing with it #idk if i should tag this st or not for my own benefit or jsut. let it sit #finda's rambles #finda writes stuff #there. ill be able to find it maybe #idk feel free to reply to this post #i just got worked up into a protective rage on Lucas' behalf

[todayisafridaynight]

maybe if i play y7 ill be normal <- played y7 four times this weekend, a decidedly not normal thing

#snap chats #'snap how many times can you play y7 in a week before youre tired of it' do you wanna find out together #i had a horrible night last night. ok not a WHOLLY horrible night but something trash did happen and i woke up still groggy bout it #i dont like sulking about the past but sometimes i cant help it and it aint fair to myself to act like i can help it. sometimes. #i gotta be candid just for my sake last night i got real upset with my friend because when i say she tests me She Really Does #and i hate getting angry cause then i just feel like my mom and at that point i figure itd be better if i slipped on ice and broke my spine #generally im good at controlling my temper but everything just testing me and i broke down and it was embarrassing as hell ☠️☠️ #so yeah thats gonna bother me for a few days LMAO #'snap it aint that deep' it AINT and thats why its so annoyin cause i KNOW it aint that deep yet i still cant argue away how i feel #all i can do is try to ignore it... like plying y7 for the 11th time..... #i cant ply it now tho i told myself id work on a commission a bit so. maybe later... #i already started another file yesterday- or was it two days ago ???? idk i just know im up to chap 5 in it #chap 5 always give me a damn headache its so LONG at the very least the benefit to having my friend over and raising my blood pressure #is that i start to remember things to do from a y7 speedrun. like i dont hound her on what to do obvi i just let her play #its just lil notes to myself. tho she does tell me to give her tips and exploits when i can LMAO #anyways.. im gonna go work ig and try to feel like crummy bye bye #i wanna stream.. maybe i will this evening before my evening class.. lol.. we'll see but probably not

[latinokaeya-moving]

you know. i wouldnt get so privately frustrated everytime i talk with my mum abt me and my brother paying ‘rent’/helping out w food or bills once we both have full time jobs if she at least had the decency to admit she just wants to use the money to pay off her and my dads debts quicker

#x #like. it’s not like i wasn’t planning to help out once i finished uni/got a proper job #i’m not. shameless. regardless of whatever they might think of me. i am in fact aware of the concept of giving back. #but it’s just like the first time it was ever brought up i offhandedly mentioned like. an average of what i thought was a considerate amount #to give. and she was like so obviously appalled? n was like well you know if you were living on ur own you’d be paying 3/4x that right #n suggested double the amount #and i was just like. idk. like no shit it would cost a lot more to live alone #but i’m not doing that am i? i’m staying with YOU. my FAMILY #am i not paying enough with the constant assault on my mental health and well-being by being around my dad here lmao… #did i not spend all my teen years hoping desperately to leave as soon as i could bc i was so miserable #to then find some sort of stability and decide that in this climate itd be better off to stay at home #like. it upsets me bc i’m just trying to think about saving up enough for the smallest hope of a pipe dream of my brother and i buying a #house together in the future. just SOMETHING just for ourselves for a sense of security #and i’ve told this to her like don’t you think me and harry should be saving as much as we can now while we live home… #bc they’re planning to abandon us in a couple years and go back to colombia anyways lmao. so it’s not like we won’t be paying rent ourselves #by the time we’re 25 #which will make saving most of our money harder lmao #anyways she was like you’ll still be able to save a lot of ur money now! it’s not like i’m taking all ur money! #and i just feel like she’s missing the point idk. like. AUGH i’ve lost steam of my argument #but like. it’s not like they’re in a dire situation. like up until now when harry paid his first months worth of ‘rent’ they’d been managing #fine … like obviously everything is more expensive and we’re being more careful but like. it’s not some sort of emergency #she just wants us to ‘help out’ to teach us or whatever. and bc it’s right. bc they’re our parents #which. FINE like again i was never opposed to it ever i’m not an idiot or selfish i get it #but once i start working between me and harry we’ll be paying for half the rent. and we ALREADY buy groceries/food in general when we notice #there isn’t any at home #i hate feeling like i’m an awful entitled child for feeling upset abt it but i just feel like she setting us up to struggle just that Little #bit more when she leaves us alone in this country. and i’ve been stressing abt that since i knew that was their plan when i was like 12! #i don’t want her gentle little suggestions of helping out money wise to be couched in fucking. duty or responsibility to them as my parents #just ADMIT IT to me the money is going to go to paying your debts. just say it to me. it doesn’t sting as much that way. my god

[nomaishuttle]

justt realized that th site i ws using t figure out my salary assumed id be working 56 hours a week when in reality i usually work likee 15 hours a week max . im gonna throw up Lol Lol Lol

#idk how on earth id get that many hours And also if i had that many hours id kill my shellfish #its still gonna be a fine amt of money ill make rent nd everything but im gonna have a lot less t put into savings #im so fuckin stupid idk why i didnt check how many hours itd be. ughhh #bc like. i need at least 2 days off a week for appts + my sanity #preferably itd be 3 days a week off but. sigh #so if im working 5 days of th week and im doing..lets say 50 hours a week thats 10 hours a day thats 20 rooms a day. lmao. lmao #even if i only take 1 day off which i quite literally cannot do thats 8.3 hours a day #which is. more doable but thats still like. 16 rooms? which has only happened to me like..once #th one time i worked 9 hours i genuinely intended to kms abt it. bc i ws in so much pain #n my pains gotten a lot better now but i still dont think i cn do that. Agghhh aghhhh #n if i do th starbucks job. well 1 if i ws in customer service id kms. i hate talking to ppl my hearing is too bad for it i cannot do it #but even if i did ik for a fact that i wouldnt get that many hours.. sigh #whatevr. frows up #ok. doing th math it shouldnt be that bad it will literallly be ok. i just need t calm down #most days at my current place are 3-5 hours #n idk how long theyll be at th new place but i assume theyll be similar.. #but. that wuld have me making anywhere from 1002-1670 a month #which is good . rent is 380.. so i should be making likee. anywhere from 2.5 times rent to a little bit more than quadruple rent... both r #good. bc then i cn put abt 300-500 in savings each week and have some left over... okokok #calming down now . smile

[magnoliamyrrh]

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#like tbh the chances are so high that even if i somehow manage to get this degree im going to just #kill myself right after. like highschool plants 2.0 but this time ive learned enough #to not end up in a ward but end up dead #like what exactly does it matter. if its the end of this year or this month???????? #....... i feel like itd be so much better for everyone #id get my rest lmao. and my family wouldn't have to watch me be a useless pieve of shit faliure my entire life only becoming more of a #dissapointment with each year #literally its such a good deal it sure as fuck is better than the alternative #of what? staying alive and killing myself later? maybe now i can still die with a shread of dignity #it would be great timing too bc theres so few people i talk to especially in person that it really Is a great time to commit suicide #whats kept me in the past is like. living for other ppl lol. not only is that god bless not much of an issue rn but i dont even know if i #have that drive anymore #. and like. im not?? actually needed lmao like end of day it doesnt make much difference if im here or not and considering how much of a #mess i am most times. if anything it probably makes a bad difference #...;;; like. the stars and moon and my own fucking exhaustion are perfectly alligned for this to be a optimal time to get the fuck out of #this life

[anonymous-ivplay]

An ongoing collection of the longest and/or most out-of-context tags on my blog, in no particular order:

#i love how ford is holding dipper and mabel with his arms and stan with his leg in that last panel #we can always impeach biden for sex crimes later #still its a shame that (to my knowledge) china doesnt have some kind of bacha poch in their culture #i love how the other person is trying to make you out to be an ignorant karen who isn't paying attention to what they're saying #i just personally dont like wearing them because they cut off circulation in a way i dont like #this is an actual recorded phenomenon when the general populace shifted from farming to factory working #and its been fun to play with my gender presentation since coming to this realization #hot funny can spell can drive can cook #jesus is moon moon confirmed #my bf observes ramadan so yall better believe i got my bonking stick ready to deal with disrespectful assholes #i love the idea of hawkmoth suddenly making an exception for sudden family dynamic truth bombs #itd be like if a newborn baby tried to force its head back into the vagina #fuck you sarah for doing this #just to be clear my crocheted replica is too small to use as a fuckable body pillow anyhow #and spacey is absolutely right that anyone who does this is an ableist bully and should shut their mouth and be educated #and then he explained it to me and i was like oh cool. i think im 15% lesbian then #princess weiyoung isnt wuxia but jun tao being trans is a hill i will die on #im sorry my babies i promise ill finish you all one way or another 😭 #just like a hundred band kids whirling around in a tight cluster trying not to trip or bump instrumenta #like anthony hopkins? silence of the lambs much? lmao research yeah right #my sister goes to college with some tiktok influencer as well as a disney channel celebrity #how i felt when my college stopped doing rocky horror because some people were too offended by it #this was the exact post i dreaded seeing on my dash today 😭 #tag yourself im lord cucumberly #draws a line under it and starts to write fuck #idk why but i love the underarm hair peeking out in the fifth painting #and he still doesnt understand how his teasing embarrasses me out of liking the thing altogether #i do not understand the bigfoot and demeter spoonerism #if undertale took place during the pandemic #my favorite color and my favorite video game genre all wrapped up in one crayon

[extervus]

Why don't you sit on your porch with a yummy drink in the late morning sun and then maybe you'll calm down

#shut up max #soooooooo good #my bf is out having breakfast with his grandparents so i went out and got donuts and a boba #i got half a dozen of glazed donut holes and an old fashioned for my bf from a donut place i hadnt been to really since i was a kid #used to go there every other weekend with my dad when i was at his house #then I stopped by another donut place that sells boba and got myself a boba + a filled bavarian + a croissant wrapped jalapeno sausage roll #cause they looked yummy and i wanted to have a proper breakfast that wasnt just donut holes lmao (the bavarian is for later) #chilling with the cats too everything is so good #once my bf gets home im gonna see if he wants to go to a hardware store later #and get some wood to better prevent the cats from being able to squeeze under the fence of the porch #and by cats i mean just Piper. Moo Moo is too scared to truly try to get out. Piper wants to hunt #i could just go on my own but i like going out with my bf :] even if its just to get planks of wood lmao #i wanted to go for a walk today later cause i knew itd be nice + i wanted to workout with my best friend today #but i hurt my foot at work on Friday so ive been tryna take it easy. might still try to do out and do something outside later tho #just without too much walking

[waluigisgaybf]

What do you do when you have a much younger cousin you wanna get closer to and also give a safe space to but dont know how to do that without being creepy or pushy cause I literally never talk to them usually 😳😳😳

#theyre on here too lmao but I still never talk to them cause I don’t want to be the creepy adult cousin who suddenly out of nowhere #is tryna be pals #I GUESS IF YA SEE THIS THO HI LMAO #WE SHOULD TALK MORE #I KNOW ITD BE UNCOMFORTABLE AT FIRST AND HORRIFYING CAUSE ANXIETY AND PEOPLE AND STUFF #BUT IF YOU EVER WANT YOU CAN TOTALLY DO SLEEP OVERS N SHIT HERE AND GIVE ANY EXCUSE OR STORY TO THE FAM YOU NEED TOO TO FEEL BETTER ABOUT IT #IM SURE BEING STUCK WHERE YOU ARE 24/7 CULTURE AND ATMOSPHERE WISE IS EXHAUSTING #personal

[sanchoyo]

the job has been going surprisingly ok! I got most of my hours for the week done in like 4 days and im kinda hoping next week i can cut that down to getting it done in like, 3 and then having 4 days off lol. but i do have a webinar thing to attend tomorrow and im dreading it dskkfhkj. i never do well at live meeting call thngies. I do ok at in person ones but for some reason web based ones wig me out x_x (its only like 45 mins and mic only so it could be worse??) auggh

#just experiencing Real Heavy anxiety abt it. like im sure itll be fine #but also its kinda objectively funny to have a training/basics and faq webinar. after ive been working here almost 2 weeks? LMAO?? #a bit late for training isnt it?? 😭 ive been learning on the job... #ive made a few mistakes so far and my brain is like. the person is going to call u out on ALl of them and be mad #but. the guide literally said u have 3 months to get ur accuracy up to a certain level . so i know thats just anxiety talking #BUT STILL. #at least i recognized they were mistakes on my own and dont make them anymore?? like im still learning TwT;; #i dont actually hate the job its very chill and a diff vibe from my prev jobs and the work is kinda interesting #like its prob not what id choose to do ideally. but. not mental breakdown type terrible? #like itd never be enough to live off of and the work loads are very inconsistent but. yk. its better than nothing #and better than going back to retail hell. ill die before i go back. #im kinda just hoping theres a lot of new hires at the webinar so i can just knda sit back and chill w/out having to say much lol..pls dont #be a small group... #i also want to try and list more things on depop tomorrow or this weekend bc idk whats going on w me #but i like. hate evryhting i own suddenly ?? and want to kinda overhaul my style... #ugggh. my brain is full of bees lately #sanchoyorambles #i also wanna post some art sometime soon bc my art blog is STAGNATING but i havent had anything huge to post #im working on smthbehind the scenes but its BIG and taking TIME

[jackalopefreckles]

Top surgery is amazing but I fucking swear to god if I have to miss halloween or the queer spooky party happening at that random bar next weekend I'll loose my mind

#JUST!! THE SPOOKY GAY PARTY IS SO CLOSE TO WHERE I LIVE #i have a chance of meeting people like me who live nearby I really dont wanna miss it #PRETTT FRANKENSTEIN IS GONNA BE PLAYING ITD BE MY FIRST CONCERT EVERRR #uGHh top surgery takes sO long to deal with rip I really wanna be better by thenn even tho... I know Im def not better till fucking January #But lIKE IDK I COULD STILL GO AND JUST.... NOT DANCE LMAO

[monsterbisexual]

man..using my body to do literally anything rly is a reminder of how bad it sucks huh

#not that i ever rly forget since even just sittin around watchin a movie or layin in bed i can def not actually forget it #but then im eeeeven more conscious of how It looks aka how /i/ look n id rather not think abt that or bein looked at #but then its just extra pain too n i guess bein outta sh*pe is a Me/my fault problem but it still makes everything harder n shit #i know we goof abt not wanting a 'physical form' or w/e but thatd literally solve so many of my issues #i guess itd suck if i didnt have my senses so like no music or lookin at art or tastin good foods #but i think itd still be better than this shit tbh #man lotsa pity party tag rants lately huh. sry guys lmao #p

[thestarsarebrightertonight]

skinny dipping // theodore nott x fem reader

playlist: skinny dipping - sabrina carpenter

"itd be so nice right? if we could take it all off and just exist and skinny dip in water under the bridge"

summary: y/n and theo have known eachother their whole lives but when sorted into different houses and fears of unrequited feelings take over , they lose their bond- but not really.

no real skinny dipping just the song LMAO its metaphorical , ravenclaw reader , use of y/n , fluff , childhood friends wtih obvious feelings

masterlist

it was just any other weekend on the hogsmeade trip when you heard the barista of the small cafe you sat in call out his name.

"theo!" she said , placing down a black coffee and moving on to serve more people , but you left your eyes burning holes into the cup.

until his hand went to grab it , giving a quiet and dull thanks before moving over towards the tables , where you sat - not noticing you yet.

you quickly moved your eyes away and pretended to be busy when his body turned in your direction , your acting cut off by your name being called in a voice you could hardly recognise.

"y/n?" he said as you looked up to see him stood infront of your table.

you took your time to study his face , he looked so different it was terrifying , he wasnt the same eleven year old boy you were attached to. but you werent so suprised by how he looked , you always watched him from afar.

"hey.." you let out softly , smiling at him anxiously.

it seemed weird to be anxious around your best friend , except you werent really best friends anymore , just two stanger with memories. memories you can never forget.

"we go to the same school but ive not seen you in ages!" he said excited by your appearance.

"really cause i see you everyday" you chuckled as he laughed too , sitting in the chair in front of you.

"yeah well you know i have bad eyesight," he shrugged with a bright grin.

"how could i forget , having to read everything at a distance to you as kids was a daily occurance" you both laughed as you forget all of your past worries.

"no seriously , its really good to see you , i dont know why we stopped talking anyways!" theo smiled.

you sat in silence for a second , you knew exactly why. the second you gained feeling for theodore at the end of first year you immediatly ghosted him for the next 5 years- and here you are now , sitting opposite the boy you never really got over.

"yeah...well how are you theodore?" you gave him your best smile.

"merlin dont call me that , its theo or dory , remember the name you came up with when we were 5!" his eyes sparkled in the nostalgia.

"i still have no idea where i got that nickname from," you both laughed.

"anyways , im okay. i was having a bit of a shitty day but its better now ," he replied.

"oh really , what happened?"

"nothing just boring studying for exams and my friends were all busy, but i guess it was fate that i came in here," he grinned at you as you felt your heart melt. this was exactly why you stopped talking to him , he could make you go crazy and not even know.

"yeah , so you could run into your shy ravenclaw friend you havent talked to in 5 years," you laughed.

"5 years 1 month and 12 days," he said as your laughing ceased, "i counted the days , i....i really missed you."

your whole demanor softened as you watched him stare down at your coffees unable to hold eye contact , "theodore i wouldve talked to you sooner if you said you wanted to talk .i know i kinda iced you out but im always here."

"i know bella , i just guess something changed that day , you...changed," he said softly.

"yeah well you did too theo , not talking was best for us , we needed to grow and be our own people," you reached out to hold his hand , not realising your seperation had effected him.

"i kinda lied when i said i hadnt seen you , i...well i find you every day, to make sure youre okay," he admitted with a maroon blush across his cheeks, "i guess i hoped you looked out for me too."

"of course i did, i still do. just because we dont talk doesnt mean you arent important to me theo."

he stared into your eyes , seeing his sadness begin to fade and be replaced with a fond adoration as you gazed back in the same haze. looking at him in this way didnt help with your unrequited-

"i love you," he whispered never once breaking eye contact.

your jaw dropped in suprise , "t-theo do you mean..."

"i love you and i always have , the day you stopped talking to me i think a part of me died or something. do you not realise how my friends seem to bully everyone but you? how im at all of your quidditch pratices and games? do you not wonder why no guys approach you? they all fucking pity my unrequited pining," theodore dropped his head and let go of your hand , frustration building up.

"theo," you gained his attention as he hesitantly brought his eyes back up to meet yours , "i love you too, more than words could describe. i guess i just thought youd never like me that way so i left you alone. i couldnt deal with my own feeling and i let it out on you im sorry-"

"dont say sorry bella," he said softly as he held the side of your face , tracing his thumb across your cheek softly, "water under the bridge?"

you smiled at him , holding the hand that rested on your blushed cheek , "water under the bridge."

stream skinny dipping by sabrina carpenter

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