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#but it’s just like the first time it was ever brought up i offhandedly mentioned like. an average of what i thought was a considerate amount
latinokaeya-moving · 1 year
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you know. i wouldnt get so privately frustrated everytime i talk with my mum abt me and my brother paying ‘rent’/helping out w food or bills once we both have full time jobs if she at least had the decency to admit she just wants to use the money to pay off her and my dads debts quicker
#x#like. it’s not like i wasn’t planning to help out once i finished uni/got a proper job#i’m not. shameless. regardless of whatever they might think of me. i am in fact aware of the concept of giving back.#but it’s just like the first time it was ever brought up i offhandedly mentioned like. an average of what i thought was a considerate amount#to give. and she was like so obviously appalled? n was like well you know if you were living on ur own you’d be paying 3/4x that right#n suggested double the amount#and i was just like. idk. like no shit it would cost a lot more to live alone#but i’m not doing that am i? i’m staying with YOU. my FAMILY#am i not paying enough with the constant assault on my mental health and well-being by being around my dad here lmao…#did i not spend all my teen years hoping desperately to leave as soon as i could bc i was so miserable#to then find some sort of stability and decide that in this climate itd be better off to stay at home#like. it upsets me bc i’m just trying to think about saving up enough for the smallest hope of a pipe dream of my brother and i buying a#house together in the future. just SOMETHING just for ourselves for a sense of security#and i’ve told this to her like don’t you think me and harry should be saving as much as we can now while we live home…#bc they’re planning to abandon us in a couple years and go back to colombia anyways lmao. so it’s not like we won’t be paying rent ourselves#by the time we’re 25#which will make saving most of our money harder lmao#anyways she was like you’ll still be able to save a lot of ur money now! it’s not like i’m taking all ur money!#and i just feel like she’s missing the point idk. like. AUGH i’ve lost steam of my argument#but like. it’s not like they’re in a dire situation. like up until now when harry paid his first months worth of ‘rent’ they’d been managing#fine … like obviously everything is more expensive and we’re being more careful but like. it’s not some sort of emergency#she just wants us to ‘help out’ to teach us or whatever. and bc it’s right. bc they’re our parents#which. FINE like again i was never opposed to it ever i’m not an idiot or selfish i get it#but once i start working between me and harry we’ll be paying for half the rent. and we ALREADY buy groceries/food in general when we notice#there isn’t any at home#i hate feeling like i’m an awful entitled child for feeling upset abt it but i just feel like she setting us up to struggle just that Little#bit more when she leaves us alone in this country. and i’ve been stressing abt that since i knew that was their plan when i was like 12!#i don’t want her gentle little suggestions of helping out money wise to be couched in fucking. duty or responsibility to them as my parents#just ADMIT IT to me the money is going to go to paying your debts. just say it to me. it doesn’t sting as much that way. my god
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horangare · 7 months
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omggg please do a part 2 to the dilf jeonghan fic
tis the season
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pairing : dilf!jeonghan x college student!reader
content : smut (mdni u already know)
in which : it’s time for christmas break, and iseul is asking you to buy some time with her father so she can finish her last minute shopping. you’ve been meaning to spend some one on one time with her dad, and now you finally can
warnings : age gap (late 40’s jeonghan, early 20’s reader), daddy kink (i’m sorry but it’s also like barely there), pet names (princess, baby, good girl, slut, whore, sir), dom & sub dynamics, dumbification, teasing (dirty talk, degradation, praise), mentions of multiple orgasms, fingering, finger sucking, lingerie kink (kinda? i think?), u two want each other so bad, iseul (yeah she’s a warning in this one lol), hannie’s kinda mean but u like it
wc : 3.3K words
note : i was wondering how long it would be before someone requested this. srry it took so long omg i had no idea what i wanted to do w this i literally had like 3 diff ideas
part 1
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By now, the Yoon household had become like a second home to you.
Even though it was just Iseul, Jeonghan, and that big maze of a house, it didn’t ever feel like anything was missing. Since Iseul brought you over the first time, things hardly ever changed. You’d still slept in Iseul’s room whenever you slept over (until Jeonghan made one of the guest rooms into a room for you, then the two of you both started having your sleepovers there), you still took a wrong turn trying to find the bathroom and ended up in the kitchen or the laundry room, and you still ended up bent over on a new surface somewhere in the house while Jeonghan had his way with you.
It was a comfortable routine. One you were upset would have to abandon for the next three weeks to drag yourself back to your dull little hometown to spend time with your family and a handful of other relatives who’s names you couldn’t remember even if you tried.
“You know you could just come stay with us,” Iseul said offhandedly one day when you mentioned how much you were dreading on returning home. The suggestion hadn’t held that much meaning when Iseul gave it, she already knew just how much you enjoyed coming over, but in that moment she had become your saving grace.
“Really? You mean it?” The girl just nodded, jumping in surprise when you pulled her into a hug and spun her around. “What would I do without you, Iseul?”
“Wow, it’s that bad, huh?” She laughed, patting you on the shoulder once you had placed her back on the ground.
“Oh please, you have no idea.”
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You rode in Iseul’s car for the first time the next day. When she asked how you were planning to get there and you mentioned the countless number of times you’ve Ubered back and forth to her house, she nearly started crying and promised to drive you anywhere you wanted from now on. “Do you know how much money that adds up to? No more Ubers!”
So now here you were, in the passengers seat of Iseul’s white Honda Accord, gripping onto the handle above the door as Iseul sped down the roads with the most stoic look on her face you think you’ve ever seen. The Ubers may have been expensive, but at least they were safe. It confused you a little; you had ridden in the car with Jeonghan at the wheel before and never had an experience like this. Clearly Iseul hadn’t inherited those skills from him, but right now you were wishing she had.
“Are you alright?” She looked over at you when the car finally came to a stop at a red light. You nodded, one of your hands flat against your chest as you felt your heart threatening to beat right out of your ribcage. Iseul smiled, either ignoring the panic you were trying to hide or not picking up on it at all as she sped off as soon as the light had turned green. “We’re gonna take a shortcut, there’s way too much traffic right now and—shit!” The car lurched to a halt, both you and Iseul’s bodies jerking forward with the sheer force of the stop. “Oops, I almost hit the curb.”
You really needed your own car.
After spending the next eight minutes in Iseul’s death trap car, you pretty much threw yourself out of the seat when you saw that she was pulling into the garage to the side of the house. You considered kissing the ground, but you didn’t. Your sister was a worse driver.
“Dad, we’re home,” Iseul shouted into the warm interior of the house. There was no immediate verbal response from Jeonghan, he just snaked his way through the hallways of the space with a mug in his hands and a smile on his face.
“Hi, Seulie,” He hummed, letting his eyes wander over to you. “Hello, [Y/n].”
“Hi, Mr. Yoon.”
“How was the drive? Was there a lot of traffic?” Jeonghan had already started retreating back to the living room, you and Iseul followed, seating yourselves next to each other on the couch.
“It was fine. The traffic wasn’t so bad, everyone’s probably going to the airport.” Iseul hummed. She turned her head in your direction. “Dad’s happy you’re staying over. He pretends like he’s calm about it, but he giggled when I called him and told him earlier.”
Your body flushed with heat at your friend’s casual comment, your eyes flitting over to Jeonghan, who was staring down into his mug. The two of you haven’t gotten to spend much time together for a while since you were usually coming over to spend time with Iseul lately. He missed you.
“We’ll have the next three weeks to spend together, sir.” You smiled, finally getting him to look back at you. One of his eyebrows quirked upwards—he was expecting to keep that promise, but he wouldn’t say it. He would just expect you to act on it.
And you would.
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You hadn’t acted on it.
A week into staying with Iseul and Jeonghan, you had spent almost every waking moment of your time with your friend. Baking cookies, decorating the house, watching Christmas movies, going ice skating for the first time in your life (and having Iseul laugh at you until she cried when you ate shit on the ice over and over again), and a plethora of other festive events. You had been having such a good time with her, the promise you made to Jeonghan had let itself slip from your mind. The most the two of you could do was kiss for a few seconds before Iseul came popping up from around a corner or shouting your name to the house in hopes of a response. She was his daughter, and you were her friend, but he was losing his patience. All he wanted was some time to have you all to himself.
Maybe today he would finally get the chance.
Monday morning greeted you with a six am phone call from Iseul, which you answered, your mind and voice still riddled with sleep. “Hello?”
“So sorry to call you so early, but I am totally gonna make it up to you.”
“Iseul, what—”
“Look, I have to finish shopping for presents. I don’t know when I’ll be done, there’s kind of a lot on my list,” She explained, and you thought she was joking. It was just her, you, and Jeonghan. How long could the list possibly be? “Anyway, I just wanted to let you know where I was. Something else…oh! Maybe spend some time with dad while I’m away. He gets lonely, y’know. Okay, that’s all, bye!” Iseul hung up the phone before you could even process everything she had said, leaving you staring at the device in your hand dumbfounded.
“Okay.” You sighed, dragging yourself out of bed and to the bathroom (the one connected to your new room, because you were sick and tired of almost pissing yourself because you walked into the study instead) to freshen up.
Finally, you thought. Finally you’d have private time to spend, just you and Jeonghan. The time you spend with Iseul was precious to you, obviously, the girl was your best friend. But if you said the reason you had wanted to come over was just to avoid your family and bond with Iseul, you’d have been lying. You smiled to yourself, wondering what the two of you would do, and you squeezed your thighs together if it would be anything like you had come to finish your midterm project.
You jumped at the sound of the door opening and peeked your head out of the bathroom, your body relaxing when you saw Jeonghan standing in the doorway, his hands behind his back. You sighed with relief, bending over slightly to spit out the toothpaste in your mouth and wiping your mouth.
“Do you and Iseul always wake up so early?” You asked him as he got closer. He shook his head.
“It’s usually just me that’s up at this time.” He mumbled. “Where is she, anyway?”
“Last minute shopping.” You said, finally turning your body to face his. His hands were still behind his back, and Jeonghan smirked when you tried to peek at what he was hiding. “What is that?”
“What, this?” He shrugged. “Oh nothing. Just something I picked up one day. It’s supposed to be your present, but I guess it wouldn’t hurt to give it to you now, hm?”
You gasped, your heart swelling with the knowledge that Jeonghan had gone out and gotten something for you. Both of his eyebrows shot up at the excitement creeping onto your face and he quickly turned away from you.
“Or maybe I should just wait until Christmas. You wouldn’t mind, would you? I’m sure the presents Seulie got for you will be better than this.” Still smirking, Jeonghan started to walk away but stopped in place when you pulled on his arm.
“No! I’m sorry sir, really am.” You pouted, reaching to try and take the present from Jeonghan, but he easily held it just out of your reach. “Iseul will be gone for a while. It’s…just the two of us.”
Jeonghan groaned at that. He loved his daughter, but he’d gone too long without getting to have you all to himself. Turning back around, Jeonghan placed the gift in your hands. “Alright, princess. Just one condition before you open this.”
“Anything for you, sir.” You but your lip in anticipation, eagerly awaiting the response he would give you. Jeonghan leaned down, his lips brushing against the shell of your ear.
“You have to do anything I say, got that?” You exhaled shakily, but you still nodded, and Jeonghan cupped your face, swiping his thumb along your bottom lip.
“Good girl,” he murmured, pressing a chaste kiss to your lips. He tasted good, sweet, like hot chocolate. That’s probably what he’s been drinking in that mug everyday. When he pulled away, you whined, much to Jeonghan’s delight. “I’m not going anywhere. Go on, open your present.”
You smiled, giving your full attention to the neatly wrapped box in your hands, gently untying the silver ribbon holding it together and lifting the top of the box up. You gasped. Lingerie. Jeonghan got you lingerie. “S-sir, I…”
“Put it on for me. Right here.”
Stunned into silence by his abrupt request, your clothing was thrown to the ground with haste. Jeonghan watched you the entire time from his seat on the edge of your bed, drinking in the way you would fidget and avoid making eye contact with him. Yeah, you were a little nervous. He’s never asked you to strip for him, usually he would just rip off your clothes to avoid wasting any time. He really seemed to be enjoying the fact that Iseul was away.
“It’s pretty, sir.” You whispered, tracing your fingers over the delicate lace now adorning your skin. It was white with pale pink detailing, and the bra piece had mesh slips that went all the way around your upper body. The bottom piece was a thong with a slit at the crotch. Oh, and one more tiny little detail. It was almost entirely see through. “Did you have to get something with one of these…holes?”
Jeonghan nodded, pulling you into his lap, your back flush against his chest. “Makes things easier,” he said, trailing his fingers up your inner thigh. You exhaled shakily at the feeling of them circling around your wet hole. “Already so wet for me, aren’t you?” You nodded, unable to stop the moan that spilled from your lips when he pushed one of them inside you.
There was nothing Jeonghan wanted more than to fuck you senseless right now. He’d been holding himself back for a week. Just the sounds of your moans and the way he had to hold you down just to get you to stop squirming had his cock straining against his pants. The only reason he bothered with foreplay was so you’d take him without a fuss (and because he liked it when you begged him not to stop).
Your head fell back onto Jeonghan’s shoulder at the addition of a second finger, your eyes screwed shut and your mouth hanging open while you panted and whined. “F-Feels s’ good, sir. Missed this so much. Missed you so much.”
“Missed you too, baby,” Jeonghan mumbled, curling his fingers up inside of you to hit that spot that had your head spinning. You’re shaking and sweating and you can’t think straight, the feeling of Jeonghan’s fingers caressing your insides forces any other thoughts out of your head. Just when you think you can’t handle anything else, Jeonghan suddenly pinches your swollen clit, the sensation making you tighten around his fingers as you scream. “Liked that, didn’t you?” He repeated the action, the corners of his lips tilting upwards when your body reacted the same way once again.
“Mmm, yeah, liked it so much, sir. Gonna c-cum, can I?” You forced your eyes open to look at him, the pleasing look on your face doing nothing but making him harder. If he didn’t need to fuck you so bad, he would’ve said no. Seeing as this wasn’t the case, Jeonghan nodded, despite wanting this to last just a little longer.
“Yeah, princess. Go ahead and cum for me.”
His permission was all you needed before you allowed yourself to fall apart on his fingers. You cry out his name over and over until you’re left breathless. Jeonghan continues to finger you until your high has passed, and once it has, he pulls his fingers out and holds them up to your mouth. “Open,” he says, and you allow your lips to part enough for him to stick them into your mouth.
The taste of yourself on your own tongue and the action itself has you groaning, and you close your lips around his fingers, sucking off every last drop of your release.
“Good girl, sucking my fingers like the whore you are. I almost forgot how much of a slut you are,” This time, Jeonghan groans at your actions, pulling his fingers away. When you finally opened your eyes again, he was already naked. Oh, naked Jeonghan, one of your favorite sights, by far. Leaning forward, you ghosted your hands over the base of his cock, which had the older man moaning. “Fuck, baby, so desperate for my cock aren’t you? Don’t worry, I’ll take care of you.”
You fell backwards onto the bed and gazed up into Jeonghan’s eyes, holding onto his arms tightly as the tip of his cock slipped into your aching pussy. It had been long—too long—that you had gone without the satisfying feeling of Jeonghan stretching you apart and filling you to the brim, you almost forgot how good it felt. Jeonghan felt the same, he had long craved the warmth of your insides, how wet you’d get for him so easily, how you so easily obeyed his every order.
He didn’t bother to start off slow, not when he had been waiting so long to finally have you like this. His pace was rough and unforgiving, each thrust seemed deeper than the last, but still you loved every second of it.
You wrapped your legs around his waist, wanting his to be as close to you as he could possibly be. “Ah! Yes, right there, sir!” You cried, out as his cock abused your sweet spot, your eyes rolling back into your head.
“Feels so good, doesn’t it, princess? You like it when I fuck you like this? Hm? When I use this tight, cute little pussy of yours?”
You nodded, the words you had planned to say dying at the back of your throat and being replaced by sounds that were a combination of grunts and moans. With one of his hands, Jeonghan held onto your face, trying to get you to look at him. Your eyes were glassy and unfocused with lust, and Jeonghan grinned at your fucked-out state.
“Oh baby, if only you could see yourself,” He groaned. “So fucking pretty, you can’t even use your words. All you can do is moan like the little cockslut you are, isn’t that right?” Just like he had done before, Jeonghan’s fingers pinched your clit, once again making you cry out with pleasure.
You tried to speak—to warn him of your imminent orgasm, but all you could squeak out were a chorus of high-pitched whines as the man above you pushed you closer to your release. He seemed to get the hint though, with the way your hole clenched around his cock, making it harder for him to move.
“Gonna cum, princess?” You squeaked again. “Aw, I know, baby. Poor sweet thing, can’t even tell me yourself. You don’t need to ask me, since I’m sure you would’ve cum anyway. But go ahead, cum.” His tone was so mean and condescending, and that was exactly that tone that made you cum for a second time.
Not even a moment after you had cum, Jeonghan was following you over the edge, pushing his cum deeper into your pulsating core all while your spent body shuddered beneath him. He shushed you, stroking your hair to get you to become calm and quiet once more before snapping his hips forward again.
“S-sir! I’m still…” Jeonghan shushed you again, never letting up with the fast pace he had set earlier on. His hips snapped against yours, the sound of skin against skin being one of the only sounds in the room aside from your pornographic moans and the occasional groans or rare grunt from Jeonghan. You were so out of it, you couldn’t even stop the words that came flying out of your mouth. “D-Daddy, please…”
You don’t think you’ve ever heard Jeonghan moan so loud.
“It’s alright baby, Daddy’s got you.”
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The two of you continued for what felt like hours. Several different positions, a dozen more orgasms, one very long bath, and a two-hour long nap later, you could finally feel your body again. You blinked, looking around the room when Jeonghan opened the door.
“You’re awake,” his smile was gentle. “Do you need anything?”
You shook your head. “No, that’s alright, thank you.”
Jeonghan made his way to the bed and knelt down in front of you. “I didn’t hurt you, did I, baby?” The concern was written all over his face, the idea of you being in any sort of pain or discomfort would absolutely break his heart. Now you were the one smiling.
“No, never. If that were the case I would’ve told you, sir,” you tucked a strand of his hair behind his ear, letting your hand linger on the side of his face. “I think I’m in love with you.” You confessed quietly, almost as if you were afraid to admit it.
“You’re really gonna act all shy after everything we’ve done today?” He teased you, resting his head on your thighs. “Don’t worry, princess. I love you too.”
Don’t worry princess, I love you too.
You could’ve died right then. Jeonghan’s cheek on your thigh, his breath tickling your skin, reciprocating his love for you. Nothing could be better. Just you, Jeonghan, and—
“Hellooooo? [Y/n]? Dad? I’m home.”
Iseul.
“Iseullllll!” You shouted. Jeonghan pulled himself away despite his reluctance to part from you and stood himself up right as Iseul walked into the room.
She gasped. “Dad? You’re here too? Did I miss something?”
“Nothing at all, Seulie.” Jeonghan assured his daughter, his hand on her back as he walked her out of the room. “Did you find everything you were looking for? Nothing happened to the car, right?”
“I drive fine, what do you mean? You’re mean, you know that? [Y/n] never complains about my driving.”
He spared you one last glance, and your heart skipped a beat. It was just like the last time. Except this time, you loved Jeonghan, and he loved you back.
And that was the only thing you could ever want for Christmas.
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its-your-mind · 2 years
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“oh clearly jon feels no emotions and is in complete control of himself at all times. this man is a logic machine.”
did we??? listen to the same podcast?????? this man feels first, thinks later. there is a strong emotion? get ready for jonathan jarchivist sims to act on it with little-to-no second thoughts. rational thinking who. we throw ourselves full force at the first thought that comes into our head. like, we are talking about the man who:
busted into the office of a guy he hadn’t talked to more than twice since he woke up from a six month coma, sincerely offering to gouge out his eyes and run away with him, and was Absolutely Gobsmacked when he was refused
was prefectly ready to let a face-stealing monster live… right up until it reminded him that it had killed his friend without him realizing (that “…what did you say” is one of the lines that gives me GOOSEBUMPS every time)
dove headfirst into a pile of evil sentient worms to grab a tape recorder bc he was so determined to not die as aNOTHER GODDAMN MYSTERY
let his survivor’s guilt from when he was eight drive the major decisions he made for the rest of his life
threw himself into a fear dimension of evil loneliness to save the man he loved (who had refused to speak to him for months) at the probable expense of himself who knows
had so much MALICE in his voice when he killed peter lukas like damn girl you do not get that emotional when you’re just killing someone bc they’re evil or whatever. there was Hatred there. go off queen.
literally was willing to sacrifice an entire WORLD so that no one would ever f e e l what he had to feel when jonah voicesnatched him
LITERALLY speedran a love story in like six weeks in scotland. this man was SO READY to be in love it’s ridiculous. so was martin. I love them sm
heard his predecessor was dead
came to the conclusion that he was next
what should we do with this?
oh I know
stalk every one of my coworkers bc clearly one of them is out to get me
committed himself to living in the archives forever bc he didn’t want to put georgie or “god forbid the admiral” in danger (has his priorities STRAIGHT he does)
oh annabelle caine has martin? and an artifact that completely knocks me on my ass and takes away all my powers? off to hilltop road we go come on basira we have spider ass to kick
threw himself into a coffin to save a woman who LITERALLY was ABOUT TO KILL HIM bc he just wanted to HELP and everyone around him was HURTING SO MUCH
was insulted when a statement giver called the institute stupid and immediately discarded all professionalism and clapped back by calling her wildly successful youtube series dumb
also immediately discarded all professionalism when disgusted by a teeth apple “we do NOT want it.” like damn bro this traumatized doctor brought this bone apple teeth proof in for you and you are too grossed out to grin and bear it
was slightly annoyed by the fact that martin was not the Ideal Assistant. Offhandedly mentioned on an official recording that he wanted an evil flesh witch to slowly kill his literal employee by a series of freak accidents that resulted in the loss of one body part at a time. this man has no chill whatsoever.
took so much satisfaction in killing jonah magnus. like jonah told him not to be dramatic and jon PROMPTLY started monologuing while stabbing douchard directly in the chest.
“I don’t want to die”
“Neither did they.” FUCK YES QUEEN GO OFF GET HIS SMARMY VICTORIAN ASS
sounded so SMUG when he told the eye he was gonna go apologize to his boyfriend. like yeah stupid all-powerful fear god I have a BOYfriend and I LOVE him suck on THAT
remember when he decided to doom his whole world bc he wanted to stop anyone else from feeling like he did? yeah that plan went out the window fuckin imMEDIATely as soon as his beloved martin walked into the room. oh, he’s in the world I’m going to be dooming? well fuck didn’t consider that part. welp guess he’s just gonna have to stab me. and then we will hold each other and declare our love and kiss and hope to still be alive and together somehow as the world collapses around us. our love didn’t save us but it was here and that mattered. okay list cancelled I’m gonna go curl up in a ball for a little bit. ty for your time.
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reverie-starlight · 2 months
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I miss knb and I wanted to write something for aomine :’) I’ve never written for him and it’s been a while since I’ve watched the show, so forgive me if you feel that his characterization is a bit off. hello from late january cause that’s when I’m queuing this 👋🏻
gn!reader, no physical descriptions. lots and lots and lots of fluffy pet names bc that’s the focus of the drabble. he calls you shnookums once just to annoy you bc he’s a little shit. that’s a warning in itself tbh. mentions of alcohol/drunk character. characters written as adults, not high schoolers.
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aomine has specific nicknames for you depending on the situation you find yourselves in.
he reserves “babe” or some shortened variation of your name for when you’re in public.
it’s quick, it’s casual, and it doesn’t get him a lecture on why it’s not funny to very loudly address you as “shnookums” when you get separated at the grocery store.
(though in his defence, he thought it worked wonders. you were back at his side within seconds after straying too far on accident with a half embarrassed, half pissed off look on your face. he thought it was hilarious.)
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he calls you “baby” when he greets you after a long day at work. when he’s picking you up from your classes. normally only in your presence, because he doesn’t need the teasing remarks about how soft he’s become from his teammates.
not that he really cares at the end of the day- he’ll call you what he wants to call you (provided you also like it, of course) but there’s something less casual about it that makes him want to keep it just for you.
that “something” being the time you got drunk and offhandedly mentioned loving the way it sounds in his voice. he now gets to enjoy the small, barely noticeable uptick of your lips whenever he opts for it. no one else gets to see that.
he’ll help you with your coat and press a kiss to your hairline, murmuring a soft “hey baby, missed you today”.
it’s probably the most common of the names he uses on you out of all the available options.
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he saves the saccharine pet names for when he knows you’re not feeling your best. whether you’re mentally drained, physically exhausted or sick to any degree, there’s never not a time when hearing him be sickeningly sweet with you doesn’t ease the pain.
“need anything else, sweetheart?”
“how are you feeling, gorgeous?”
“yeah, we can cuddle, doll, c’mere.”
these are also the times he plays up the compliments (more than usual).
“even when you’re sick, you’re still the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen. don’t let it get to your head, though. or do- I know how to deal with that just fine, too.”
~~~
he doesn’t have one set nickname for you when you visit him at practice, but when you watch him play in an official game?
as long as you’ve known him, he’s never believed in luck- he got himself to where he is with his skills, luck had nothing to do with it.
so it surprises you the first time he refers to you as his good luck charm. it’s not said in some grand gesture, not brought up in those fluff promotional interviews when reporters ask him if he has one.
it’s whispered quietly into your ear before he jogs onto the court.
a murmured thank you against your lips as soon as he’s running off again, high on a win, straight to you.
you ask him about it one day and he just shrugs. “everything is different now. I play better when I know you’re watching, it’s energizing in a way I’ve never felt before. you’re right, I still don’t believe in luck, but somehow I was able to find you. and I don’t know if I would call that luck, either, but until I find a better way to explain it you’re just gonna have to put up with that title a bit longer.”
so you do, without complaints, because it’s cute trying to watch him convey his feelings honestly and still in a very aomine way.
~~~
your absolute favourite nickname that he’s given you, though? angel.
you’re his angel.
the title is first appointed when you pick him up one night from a bar after celebrating with his team. his usually brooding expression visibly lights up when he sees you and he makes his way over. it’s been a while since he’s been this drunk, so it makes you laugh when he stumbles over and throws an arm around your shoulders.
“what a sweetheart, you really came to pick me up?”
you scoff and try to get him into the car, waving at his teammates who were staying with him until you got there. “what, baby, you thought I wouldn’t?”
he shrugs with an absentminded grin. “it’s just nice to have a… battle angel or whatever that term is. I dunno what it is.”
you can’t help but laugh. “you mean a guardian angel?”
“same thing, you knew what I meant!” his words are slurred and he’s now leaning his entire body weight against you.
“oh you are so wasted, daiki, let’s get you home.”
and it’s whispered again at home as he’s falling asleep, “my angel… thank you for taking care of me tonight.”
your heart squeezes.
now it’s reserved for only the most intimate of moments with him- he doesn’t want to overuse the name and risk it losing its meaning.
because it does hold a deeper, unspoken meaning between the two of you.
after a long time apart because of his away games? after he wins an important match? loses a match and he’s thankful you’re there with him? you get a promotion at work? you pass a difficult class with flying colours? all situations where he’d call you angel.
he has a full arsenal of names for you, clearly, and you love every single one of them.
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this feels a bit messy. even after editing, I feel like the quality went down a bit, so we’ll see if I end up posting it. but I love him a lot and I’ve been rewatching knb, so I needed to do something for him to keep the brainrot at bay.
tagging: @dira333
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vin-taege · 1 year
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Chishiya x reader fic at The Beach where Kuina makes the three of them play “put a finger down” (she ships y/n and chishiya)
Fair Game (m)
Summary: Perhaps you got too competitive over a drinking game, but in your defense, Kuina started it.
Genre: fluff, suggestive themes, gets a little smutty in the end lmao
Pairing: reader x chishiya; platonic!reader x kuina
Words: 1.9k
Note: I got carried away uvu this was supposed to be just fluff but oh well. Part 2 is out now, which you can read here!
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"Come on! We deserve a rest night after that spades game," Kuina poured your cup full of beer despite your complaints. Chishiya stared into his own glass with no intention of ever touching it.
Kuina slung an arm around your shoulder, pulling you closer to her before she raised her glass up. "Kampai!"
"Kampai," you said with forced enthusiasm. You didn't want to put a damper on her mood, so you brought the glass up to you face and tipped it just enough for the cool liquid to touch your lips. After a few seconds, you pulled away, licking the sticky residue off. Chishiya chuckled softly when you grimaced.
You turned your head slightly to Chishiya's side, sticking a tongue out at him. He reciprocated with an eyebrow raise.
Kuina took no notice. Instead, she opted to grab a handful of chips and munched happily on them. Her chatter filled the room in between mouthfuls.
As much as you tried to pay attention to what she's saying, your mind couldn't help but drifting off to he blonde next to you. He would offer a hum or one-worded responses every now and then, but his eyes were lost far in the distance. You wondered what was going on inside his mind—what plans were being concocted. He had offhandedly mentioned wanting to steal the cards, but you weren't sure if he was being serious. Then again, Chishiya wasn't the easiest person to read.
Suddenly, his eyes snapped towards you.
The corner of his mouth turned up into a small smirk—his ego undoubtedly fueled after catching you in the act.
"Hey, can the both of you stop eye-fucking each other next to me?"
You whipped your head towards Kuina, a deep blush fiercely filling your cheeks. With your head turned, you didn't notice the tip of Chishiya's ears tinting red.
'We weren't—"
"You guys are no fun to drink with," she pouted. "I'm bored. And we haven't gotten through the case yet."
"Kuina," Chishiya mused, speaking clearly for the first time tonight. "You knew what you were getting yourself into. _____ and I aren't exactly the life of the party."
"No, no. I think its because I sense a bit of..." she paused, pouring herself another glass. "...tension!"
By the way she giggled, you knew the tipsiness was starting to creep in. There was a mischievous glint in her eyes. "As this group's designated cupid, I propose a fun activity for all of us!"
"And by us, you mean just me and Chishiya?"
"Exactly! It's no fun if the host joins in the games," Kuina repoured both your glasses, much to your mutual disappointment. "Trust me, you need to be tipsy for this to be fun."
"I can only think of things going downhill from here," Chishiya stretched his arms upwards. Kuina grimaced, throwing some crushed chips against him. Chishiya didn't even blink.
"Okay!" She clapped her hands, the loudness making you flinch. "Do you guys know the game 'put a finger down'?"
"Oh shit," you muttered, immediately downing the shot. "Here we go."
"Gameplay is simple! Put a finger down if the statement is true for you. The last person who puts all fingers down wins."
To your surprise, Chishiya straightened in his seat. He leaned forward, propping his elbows on his knees. Reaching over, he grabbed his glass, taking a big gulp of beer like it was nothing. "So a heart game?"
"Shut up, no game talk tonight. No scheming, no cards. Now put your hand up!" She frantically waved her hands upward.
Hesitantly, you held your open hand up. Chishiya followed suite a few seconds later. Truthfully, you didn't know what Kuina had planned—or why you were playing this stupid game in the first place.
But hey, this might be a way to know the elusive man better. Plus, a part of you was curious of how this would turn out.
Kuia beamed at your willingness. "Okay, we'll go easy on the first round. Put a finger down if you'd been in a game with someone you were attracted to."
"I thought you said no game talk," Chishiya deadpanned.
"Chishiya, I will cut your hair off in your sleep."
Despite the eye roll, he held the snarky reply back. He slowly looked over to you, your own gaze avoiding his. The both of you were waiting for the other person to make a move, and it looked like no one would budge.
"Fucking hell, give me this," you groaned, reaching over for the beer bottle. Taking a big swig, you put a finger down.
Sure, you were in multiple club and diamond games with Chishiya. But you didn't need to specify who you were attracted to. By all means, it could have been Arisu. Or Tatta. Yeah, Tatta was an attractive gentleman and a formidable love interest.
Kuina's smile grew wider. She turned her attention to Chishiya, looking on at him expectantly.
He hummed, curling a finger down. Your heart was pounding, but you didn't know why. Could it be you? Surely not. Chishiya never made any romantic advances nor gave hints of his attraction. But he also wasn't the type to be expressive about these things.
"Nice! See, this isn't so bad," Kuina refilled her glass and Chishiya's. "Okay. Put a finger down if you've pined over someone before."
You mulled this over. Did you pine over Chishiya? You've thought about him a lot, but only as a friend. Well, except those times where you've imagined how his hair looked all tousled in the morning, or how you've fantasized about his lithe fingers dancing on your skin, or how his lips always looked so inviting and soft.
Shit. Was this pining?
Chishiya saw the hesitation on your face. He murmured, "Whatever you're thinking of, if you're thinking of it that deeply, the answer may be yes."
You gave an annoyed sigh, putting another finger down. After taking a long drink, you cheeks were starting to feel warmer.
"You shouldn't be drinking that much that fast," he said cooly. He swiped the bottle, taking a drink out of it as well.
"What are you drinking for? You're safe this round." you spouted bitterly.
"For the future," he grinned back.
Kuina was barely containing her excitement. She was dying to get down her line of questions. Without wasting another second, she passed you a second bottle. "Put a finger down if you've ever been in love."
Now it was Chishiya's turn to have second thoughts. Love was a broad term. Did he care about you? Yes. Would he take a bullet for you? Maybe. Did this mean he was in love? Debatable.
He glanced over at you, surprised to see a third finger down already. You held his stare, challenging him to answer. He huffed, moving his second finger halfway down.
"That doesn't count!" you complained, looking towards Kuina for reassurance. "Only definite yes or no's."
"You could say I'm in the process of it," Chishiya retorted. "It's not my fault you're losing this game."
You gasped dramatically. It might have been the alcohol talking, but before you knew it, a couple of choice words slipped out your mouth.
"Bullshit! I'm losing only because I'm not in denial or whatever. I'm telling the truth, right Kuina?"
The wide-eyed girl stuttered, struggling to get a response out before you cut her off.
"And these questions are all aimed at me anyway. This game is rigged! So Shuntaro, we're playing it my way now. Fair game. We take turns with the questions."
His eyes darkenedat the name, a devilish smirk growing on his face. "Fine. This round doesn't count then."
"Wait a minute-" Kuina tried to butt in, panicking a little after her game has been hijacked.
"Put a finger down," you talked over her before pausing for dramatic effect. "If you've dreamt of me."
Chishiya was a light sleeper. His body clock had adjusted to the nature of his work—him being on call meant more patients and less rest. But there were rare times he did fall into a deep sleep. Usually when he was especially tired that day. And during these times, he dreamt.
This happened only once in the Borderlands. It was after a diamonds game, which he admittedly wouldn't have gotten out of if it weren't for your quick thinking. That was the night he dreamt of holding your hand.
But he'll never divulge this specific dream to anyone. He'll take it to his grave.
He put a definite second finger down. "Yeah, I've dreamt of pushing you off the rooftop."
You snorted, not buying his bluff. His eyes trailed towards the beer bottle again. His body moved before he could think, and by then he has taken another drink using his free hand. "My turn."
"Put a finger down if I've made you blush before."
Sighing, you put a third finger own again. "Blushing doesn't always mean something good, you cocky loser."
"There's only one loser here and they're sitting next to me," he laughed.
You grabbed a throw pillow, repeatedly smacking it against his arm. Chishiya's laughter grew louder. You paused—this was different. This was the first genuine and unfiltered laugh you've heard from him. Was the alcohol finally getting to him? Or could it have been that he was genuinely enjoying this.
Kuina froze as well, noticing the same thing.
"Yeah well, go put a finger down if I've made you hard then. Ha!" You were fired up. You wanted to stick it to him. He can't just treat you like a silly child all the time. You were independent and capable and losing your train of thought when you saw him put a third finger down without breaking eye contact.
A tense silence ensued. Your mouth hung agape, hand stuck forming a peace sign in the air as you stared at Chishiya's hand. Kuina sipped her beer silently, eyes darting back and forth between you both. Chishiya broke the silence.
"Put a finger down," Chishiya began, voice lower, tone almost taunting. "If you ever came to the thought of me."
You locked eyes, neither wanting to back down. Your eyebrows knit in determination, but you were stumped. What the hell were you supposed to do?
"Okay guys, maybe we should give the hosting back to me," Kuina nervously chuckled, feeling like she's witnessing something she shouldn't. "Let's go back to the original question. Have you ever been in love?"
No answer.
Chishiya's gaze pierced you through his hooded eyes. You leaned closer to him, narrowing your eyes.
"Guys?" Kuina's smile slowly dropped. Fuck, maybe the game worked a bit too well. "Well look at the time, I've got to get going.".
She stumbled out the room, tripping over her platforms. She hadn't even closed the door when she heard a soft thud. Turning her head in time, she saw you leap onto Chishiya, the blonde catching you with open arms.
You didn't hear the door click shut, nor notice her leaving. The only thing you were focused on was Chishiya's lips against yours.
He kissed you hungrily, gripping your waist with his hands and pressing your crotch against his. He flipped you over, pinning you between him and the couch. Grabbing your legs, he pulled you harshly closer to him, making you slide down the cushions.
Your lips connected once more, hands tangling in his hair.
"You lost," he rasped in between kisses.
"Shut up and make me cum, loser." You rolled your hips against his.
At the back of your mind, you hoped that you wouldn't forget to thank Kuina in the morning.
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punkshort · 5 months
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look what we've become - ch.3
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Chapter Summary: Joel joins Tommy to meet the Fireflies and set up a trade agreement. They come back to Jackson with more than they expected.
Chapter Warnings: language, angst, mentions of slavery
WC: 5.4K
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A/N: a reminder this story follows a slightly different timeline. Ellie was born pre-outbreak, but she was little when it happened.
Joel couldn't believe the past day and a half really happened. The rollercoaster of emotions you put him through left him stunned and shaken, wondering how he could read everything so fucking wrong. He found himself questioning everything now, replaying conversations, wondering if you had ever alluded to your feelings about marriage and a family that maybe he misread, misconstrued. Twisted and built up in his mind to fit into his stupid fantasy. One, he acknowledged, wasn't even in the forefront of his mind until his brother brought it back up to the surface. And suddenly, he wanted it, too. Like some resentful child who saw another playing with a toy he hadn't paid attention to in months, then demanded it for himself.
But he had thought about it, well before Tommy decided to man up first. He had the ring, but he never did anything with it. Why? Deep down, had he known you wouldn't want that? Was he subconsciously protecting himself by never acting on it? Or was he truly just waiting for the right time?
Even with Tommy's news, he still hadn't come up with a plan to actually ask you to marry him. He just allowed the fantasy to play out between your legs while he continued to make up excuses as to why he was holding off. Maybe it just turned him on to have a secret. Maybe he just wanted to have you, mark you, claim you. He knew he had a bad jealous streak, but would he have let his possessiveness lead him this far off track?
No. There were real reasons why he wanted you to be his wife. You made him want to be a better man. The way you made him feel was unlike anything he had ever experienced before. You brought out sides of him that others, including himself, never knew existed. Good things. You made him believe in happiness again, after his heart had been stomped on, making him treat everyone around him so poorly, even his own family. At a time when he felt so undeserving, you made him feel like the only person in the world. Even back then, he had a hard time believing you could actually care for him, but you saw through his bullshit to the man he was underneath, and you loved him for being him.
You had this way of looking at him like he was capable of anything. And with you by his side, he felt like he really was capable of anything. He did things he never thought possible to keep you both safe, as did you. You killed for each other. Not many people can say that. That meant something. The trauma and pain you both endured for one another had to mean something more. There was no doubt you both had proven what you were willing to do for the other, so it was only natural he wanted to commit himself to you. Say the words, vow to you in front of everyone you knew and loved that he would happily devote himself to you for the rest of his life.
So why didn't you want the same?
Ages ago, when the pair of you stumbled into the hellscape that was Kansas City, his ex, Amy, had mentioned offhandedly that you were only with him for protection. At the time, he shrugged it off, knowing full well it was bullshit just to get under his skin. But now, against his better judgement, he was rethinking those words. Rolling them around in his head, wondering if there was any truth to it.
"You been real quiet," Tommy said, pulling Joel out of his misery, surprised to suddenly find his brother next to him as they made their way on horseback down the mountains. Joel shrugged, averting his gaze ahead to the three other men leading the way.
"You mad at me for puttin' you on patrol yesterday? I'm sorry, Carl got sick and I didn't have anyone else," Tommy continued.
"Nah, it's not that," Joel replied, still staring straight ahead. "Didn't sleep well, is all."
"Ah," Tommy said, a playful smile pulling across his lips. "She send you off with somethin' to remember her by?"
Joel huffed and rolled his shoulders, his anger bubbling below the surface as he thought once again about the night before.
"Not exactly," Joel responded, trying to keep the bitterness from his voice.
Tommy hummed in response but remained quiet, trying to read his brother from the corner of his eye.
"Everythin' alright at home?" he asked, unknowingly hitting the nail on the head, causing Joel to clench the muscles in his stomach, like he was bracing for a punch to the gut.
"It's fine. What's the plan for when we get to this place?" Joel asked, quickly sidestepping the subject, something that was certainly not lost on his younger brother, but Tommy allowed for the change in conversation, anyway.
"We're gonna meet up with their leader, woman named Marlene. They're lookin' mostly for weapons, but they need other stuff, too. They got lots of medicine and first aid to swap. Bill's been runnin' real low on antibiotics, considerin' how fast the town is growin'," Tommy said with a sigh, readjusting in his saddle. "Girls sent me with a list of inventory, highlighted all the stuff we have a surplus of and all the stuff we could use more of. Remind me to thank her for helpin' when we get home," he said, keeping a close eye on Joel's reaction when he referred to you.
"Sure," was all Joel said in response, refusing to let him drudge up the topic. The wound was still too fresh, and he needed time. For the first time in a long time, he had no idea what was going through your head, and it scared the shit out of him.
Was it marriage and kids in general you didn't want, or was it marriage and kids with him?
He should have asked. He should have stayed instead of storming out that night. Instead, he let his emotions get the better of him and left you all alone, likely crying until you fell asleep if your swollen eyes the next morning was any indication. When he saw you, saw the distress etched in your perfect features, he wanted to pull you into his arms and never leave for this fucking trip. And he damn near did just that, until you confirmed it was a false alarm, and his heart was torn all over again. It was then he realized he had been hoping you were pregnant with his child, and there would be no choice but to face the next challenge together. Then he would be able to prove to you that it was a good thing, that you could, in fact, do it. And so could he.
Now, instead, he wasn't even sure where you two stood. You had said you still wanted him before he left, and that gave him hope. Hope that maybe not all was lost, that you could repair the damage that was done and come out stronger in the end for it. That maybe he could, in time, prove to you that he would be a good husband, a good father.
But then, Amy's words crept up in the back of his mind since he left. Somehow, years and years later, the woman still managed to torment him, making him believe he wasn't worthy or good enough to possibly have someone like you. The same way she manipulated him into thinking he deserved to be betrayed by her when they were engaged, that he didn't give enough of himself, that she warned him she needed more and he refused.
He shouldn't have gone on this trip.
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"Alright, we're losin' daylight, let's set up camp and get an early start tomorrow," Tommy announced, much to Joel's relief. He didn't want to admit that, just a mere few weeks away from his fortieth birthday, his back and knees were aching like he was a much older man. He slid down from his saddle with an audible groan, then tied his reins around a tree trunk before giving his mare a few loving pats along the crooked white blaze that split her face.
He unbuckled his sleeping bag from the saddle and shouldered his backpack, dropping his belongings unceremoniously to the ground before he and Jake headed out with a couple hatchets to collect some firewood.
He didn't mind Jake so much anymore. He was quiet, kept to himself and, fortunately, didn't seem to harbor any resentment towards him from the time Joel put him in the infirmary for kissing you. His bad temper mixed with his jealousy nearly killed the man.
Afterwards, he thought he lost you.
You left him, asking for time to process what happened, upset that he didn't take your word for it when you promised him the kiss was a misunderstanding, that you handled it. You viewed it as distrust, he viewed it as protection. It wasn't until later that he realized he was harboring his own trauma from failing to protect you from a past sexual assault.
As he carried an armful of firewood back, he reflected on everything you had been through together. The outbreak, your parents, the time you were stabbed, the assault, the breakup, the accident that nearly killed him. Not to mention all the infected and raiders that threatened you both at every turn. Was your relationship strong enough to endure one more massive hurdle?
They were deep in the woods, the terrain favorable. The trees hid the fire well, and the vast, empty land kept infected away. Still, each man took a quick turn overnight to keep watch. It hardly mattered when Eugene gently shook his shoulder, alerting him it was his turn to watch. He can never sleep well when he's away from you, anyway.
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Joel was almost grateful when they reached the hospital late in the afternoon the next day. It was the first time in two days he was able to stop thinking about you, his mind swirling with images of your trembling lip and your tear stained cheeks. He frequently wondered what you were doing, if you told Maria or Carrie about your argument. Were you packing up your things? Would he come home to an empty house? He wasn't sure his heart could handle it again.
You said you still wanted him.
You said you loved him.
But he didn't say those things back, and he left.
Even if you were fighting, even if it was the most significant disagreement you've ever had, he still wanted you near. He could never silence that driving force inside him since the outbreak that screamed keep her safe.
When they approached the hospital, they were all searched, weapons confiscated, as expected, before being ushered inside to meet the leader of the strange group called the Fireflies.
Marlene was a taller woman, with a firm jaw and eyes that could look right through you. He could tell right away she was not to be trifled with, that she took her role seriously in this little revolution she was spearheading. Although the people they had met since arriving seemed very intense, he didn't feel threatened. And he usually had a good instinct for those things. Usually.
They were in the hospital cafeteria, the five men, Marlene, plus a few others seated around a large, circular table as Tommy and Marlene exchanged pleasantries, both parties trying to make the other more comfortable. Joel hadn't really been listening. He was scanning the room, watching the guards pace by the doors regularly, the sentries standing watch with their hands resting on their rifles as they watched the exchange from a distance.
A small group of women entered from the door behind him, heading towards the kitchen to begin food preparations. Joel's eyes glanced over the group of four, three middle aged looking women who kept their eyes pinned to the ground, and a young girl with brown hair, tied back away from her face. She didn't look to be a day over thirteen, and she was the only one who looked around the room, her eyes locking with Joel's. He stared at her, his brow slightly furrowed as he tried to assess the situation. She continued to hold his gaze as she followed the other women, and although her body language gave nothing away, Joel felt the hairs on the back of his neck stand up. Something seemed off.
"Isn't that right, Joel?" Tommy was saying, snapping his attention away from the girl, who he saw in his peripheral disappear behind a door into the kitchen.
"I'm sorry?" he replied, leaning forward and lacing his fingers together on top of the table, trying to look focused.
"I was just sayin' how we know of a few police stations in some small towns that have barely been touched. Wouldn't be much effort for us to get a group together when we get home and go ransack 'em, take just a few days to hit 'em all," Tommy said, his eyes flicking from Joel to Marlene, then back again.
Another trip. More days away from you.
"Yeah," Joel replied, nodding his head and ignoring the pit in his stomach. "It's not enough for an army, but I reckon any little bit helps."
"In the meantime, lemme show you our inventory list. See if anything jumps out at you, and we can work on gettin' those guns," said Tommy as he pulled the list out of his coat pocket and smoothing it out on the table.
Marlene reviewed the list, her dark eyes flicking over the paper quickly with a few hums here and there as she took notes.
"Looks good, but we mostly need weapons," she said, leaning back in her chair. "I could probably do with some fresh vegetables, I think everyone's getting sick of the canned shit. And shampoo. But that hardly is a match for antibiotics." Her eyes shifted back and forth between Joel and Tommy, and the corner of her mouth turned up as an idea hit her.
"I do have another offer, though," she said, leaning forward. "It's not what we discussed, but if you're willing, I could send you home with half a box of penicillin now, and the other half after."
"After... what?" Tommy asked a little hesitantly.
"I'm lacking manpower at the moment. My guys are stretched thin, we're planning a hit on the soldiers at the Boise QZ. I need you to take someone to the hospital base we have in Salt Lake City. It should only take two days to get there, and I just need you to make sure she gets there alive," Marlene said, pressing her pointer finger into the table on the last word for emphasis.
Tommy glanced at the other four men, clearly not expecting to run errands for these people in exchange for medicine. Joel could see the wheels turning in his brother's head before Tommy spoke.
"Show me the meds first," he said to Marlene, and she quickly lifted two fingers up from the table, blindly addressing someone behind her to exit and do as he asked.
"What's the catch?" Joel asked, his defenses going up.
"No catch. Just need to get her out of here and with my other group, and I don't have the time to do it myself," she said with a shrug, but Joel knew better. She was trying to act casual, but he saw her knee bouncing under the table.
He shouldn't have come on his trip.
Once Tommy laid eyes on the unopened vials of medicine, medicine Jackson could really use since Bill, the town doctor, had been rationing enough as it is, Joel knew his decision was made.
"Done," Tommy said with a nod, extending his arm to shake Marlene's hand, which she eagerly reached out to do.
"Tommy," Joel said quietly, annoyed his brother didn't run the decision by the group first.
"Give me a little bit. I'll go talk to her so you can hit the road right away. John, please give these gentleman half the box of penicillin," Marlene said as she pushed her chair back, the legs making an awful screech against the dirty, linoleum floor. "Dinner is about to be served, please help yourselves as my guests," she added over her shoulder, leaving the dining hall.
"Tommy," Joel tried again, finally pulling his brother's attention. "A word?"
He led Tommy a ways away from the table so their conversation couldn't be overheard.
"What're you thinkin'?" Joel asked him, hands on his hips. "We don't do things like this."
"I know, Joel, but we're already out here, what's the harm? It's just a few more days," he said.
"I can't do a few more days, I need to get home," Joel replied, raking his fingers through his hair anxiously.
"I'll send Jesse and Jake back to let the girls know we'll be a little longer-"
"Goddamnit, Tommy, no!" Joel said, louder than he anticipated, a few heads from the table turning to glance his way.
"Jackson needs this medicine, what the hell's gotten into you?" Tommy asked with a frown, shifting his weight as he tried to read his brother's face.
Before he could reply, Marlene reentered the room alone, motioning for the two brothers to join her back at the table.
"Ellie's working in the kitchen, once dinner is over I'll send her to change and gather her things," Marlene said.
"Not a problem," said Tommy as he sat back down.
"Is that true?" Marlene asked, her lips pressed in a thin line as she held Joel's gaze, waiting for him to answer. He took a deep breath through his nose and crossed his arms.
"Yeah, not a problem," Joel replied bitterly.
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Joel ate his meal quickly, desperate to finish this ridiculous task so he could get home. The longer he was away from you, the stronger his paranoia became. With each passing hour, he could almost feel the chasm between you growing, and he was beginning to convince himself there was no repairing the damage that was done. On both sides. Communication had never been his strong suit, but he thought he was getting better at it the past few years. Why did he go on this trip?
His eyes flicked up from his empty plate to see Marlene heading their way with the young girl he saw earlier in tow. His anger flared deep in his belly again, and he elbowed Tommy in the ribs to mutter angrily "she didn't mention it was a fuckin' kid" before Marlene could overhear.
"Ellie, these are the men I told you about. They're going to take you to Salt Lake City like we discussed," Marlene said, her hand resting on the girl's back. Joel eyed her carefully, noticing how tense her shoulders looked as she regarded the five men in front of her. His eyes drifted back to Marlene, wondering why on earth she was willing to leave this young girl with five strange men without a second thought. He decided she either was very desperate, or didn't care much for the girl.
Ellie readjusted her backpack on her shoulders and yanked on the edges of her long sleeved shirt, squaring her jaw as she stared them all down. Marlene crouched down to the girl's level and rested her hands on her shoulders.
"Remember what I told you. Listen to them, and everything will be fine," Marlene said, narrowing her eyes at Ellie. Ellie nodded, nostrils flaring before Marlene stood up to address Tommy.
"You need a map?"
"Nah, we got maps," Tommy said with a shake of his head. "This group know when we get there to give us the rest of the payment?"
"I'll radio the leader over there once you leave, let her know the deal," Marlene replied, stretching her arm out again to shake Tommy's hand.
"Alright, then," said Tommy, looking back down at Ellie and shooting her a small smile, trying to make her feel more comfortable. "You ready?"
"Yeah," she said, taking a deep breath and following Tommy out of the cafeteria.
They collected their weapons at the entrance before heading out, Ellie joining Tommy on the back of his horse. They didn't make it very far before the sun began to dip behind the trees and a quiet place was found to make camp for the night.
After getting a fire going, Tommy sat down in the dirt next to Joel, who had been leaning against a small oak tree, sipping from his flask and staring into the flames. The other three men were quietly playing a game of poker across from them, the occasional laugh or taunt floating in the air, while Ellie busied herself with a worn, paperback book further away from the rest.
"You wanna tell me what's goin' on yet?" Tommy asked, taking out his own flask.
"Nothin's goin' on," Joel replied gruffly, eyes trained on the fire.
"What's makin' you feel like you need to get home so bad?" he pressed. Joel felt that anger swelling inside him again, up his stomach and through his chest, and for a moment he wondered if Tommy knew. That maybe you told Maria and she let something slip.
"I told you, it's nothin'," he snarled, taking another sip from his flask and letting his eyes drift over to the girl. "Just wish I knew you were signin' me up to be a goddamn babysitter before comin' on this fuckin' trip."
"I can hear you, you know," Ellie said, her eyes never leaving the pages of her book.
"Good," Joel said, jutting his chin towards her, finally finding something to take his anger out on. "What's your deal, anyway?"
"You wouldn't believe me if I told you," she said, sitting upright and letting her book fall to her lap, a flash of stubbornness not unlike his own reflecting in her eyes.
"Try me," Joel argued, his jaw clenching. Ellie glared at him, silence falling over the camp as everyone waited for her to speak. She opened her mouth, then thought better of it, clamping it shut and casting her eyes down. Joel scoffed, not ready to let the topic go just yet. Angry that this child was keeping him from home, from you. Angry that his brother agreed to it, like a fool.
"C'mon now, let's hear it. What makes you so fuckin' special?"
"Joel," Tommy said under his breath, a warning, reminding him to watch his language, that she was just a kid.
"Why should I bother? You're all the same, anyway! No one ever listens to me, 'cause I'm just some kid, right? No one-" she cut herself off, stopping herself before she said too much.
"Who's all the same?" Tommy asked gently, trying to coax the information out of her. She shrugged and huffed, crossing her arms over her chest defiantly.
"The people Marlene hires. Dragging me all over the country like I'm... whatever," she said, stopping herself yet again.
"So this ain't the first time Marlene sent you off with a bunch of strange men?" Joel asked, the edge still in his tone but he could feel his resolve softening, somehow feeling bad for this little girl despite his own problems.
"No," was all she offered, glaring at Joel again.
"Are you in some sort of trouble, kid?" Eugene's voice asked from across the fire. The silence that followed was deafening, only the crackle from the fire filling the air. Ellie's eyes shot over to Eugene, looking him up and down, trying to keep up her steely resolve before giving up and turning her back on the group, announcing she was going to bed, and burying herself in the sleeping bag that was way too big for her.
Joel stared at the back of her head, trying to connect the dots with the context he had available to him, but he couldn't figure it out. Tommy shifted next to him, clearly lost in his own thoughts, as well. Wondering for the first time if he had gotten them all in over their heads.
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The following morning, Tommy sent Jake and Jesse back home to let everyone know they were going to be a few days late. The three remaining men and Ellie packed up their supplies early, hitting the trail as soon as possible, ready to make a dent in the long road ahead. Eugene led the way, followed by Tommy, then Joel brought up the rear, his eyes burning holes in the back of Ellie's head as she clung to Tommy's denim jacket to keep her balance on the back of his horse.
Joel chewed the inside of his cheek, still feeling bitter, about everything. You, Tommy, Ellie. All of it. Since he couldn't get to you, and Tommy already got him in too deep, he chose to direct his energy towards Ellie when they took a break midday.
"Marlene send you with any food, or are you takin' that from us, too?" Joel asked, sitting down on a fallen tree trunk with a groan.
"I have food. And what else could I have possibly taken from you?" Ellie replied curtly, sitting further down the log as she opened her pack to fish out some granola bars.
"Time," Joel snapped. "And we don't even know why we're doin' it."
"Isn't Marlene paying you guys?" she replied with a huff. Tommy's eyes toggled back and forth between Joel and Ellie, becoming exasperated with the constant bickering.
"Can you just drop it, Joel?" Tommy asked. "Who cares? It's an easy gig, and we get meds out of it."
"Oh, she's giving you meds? Wow, she must be really desperate," Ellie chimed in.
"Alright, I've had enough," Joel said, standing up to tower over the girl. "Spit it out. What're we doin' here?"
"Fine, Joel," she said, stretching out each syllable before standing up, fists clenched at her sides. The way she said his name set his teeth on edge. "You wanna know how you're helping slavers move cargo? That the answer you're looking for?"
The three men froze, clearly not expecting that. Tommy stood up now, his head swiveling between Eugene and Joel as he processed the information just dropped on them.
"Wait-" Tommy said, stretching his arm out to Ellie, but she cut him off.
"Yeah, that's right. You still think this is a pain for you?" she snapped, glaring at Joel even though Tommy was the one who spoke.
"Stop!" Joel shouted, holding his hands up in the air as silence fell over the camp. He pointed his finger to Ellie.
"You. Explain. Now."
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Joel pinched the bridge of his nose as he silently listened to Ellie tell her story. Her parents were dead. She was taken from her aunt and uncle's house at a young age, forced into slavery for the past few years: laundry, cooking, cleaning. Sometimes for twelve hours a day. Said she's been with the Fireflies a long time, that they keep moving her from base to base but she claimed she didn't know why. Joel had to wonder how much of what she was saying was the truth. There was no doubt something was happening at that hospital, but slaves? Something just didn't add up.
When she finished her story, she nervously glanced around at the men, waiting for one of them to say something. Tommy sighed and motioned to the woods.
"We need to talk about this. Privately," Tommy said, narrowing his eyes at Ellie. "You stay here."
"Fine. Not like I can make it on my own out there, anyway," she said with a snort. She picked up a stick from the ground and began drawing into the loose dirt at her feet.
"We're takin' her back, givin' back the meds, and goin' home," Joel said the moment they were out of earshot. Tommy shook his head.
"Joel-"
"This is enough, Tommy! This ain't our business. Any other option here puts the whole town at risk, puts Maria at risk, puts-" he stopped himself, biting his tongue before saying your name. He hadn't thought about you for the past half hour. A new record.
Tommy wasn't an idiot. He knew something was going on, but he couldn't focus on it, having a much bigger problem to sort out.
"She's a kid. We can't take her back, and we can't take her to Salt Lake City. It ain't right," said Tommy gently, hoping he would make his brother see through whatever was plaguing his mind and look at the bigger picture. Joel frowned and glared at the grass below his boots, clenching and unclenching his jaw as his mind struggled to wrap itself around the situation.
"Eugene?" Tommy said, turning to raise his eyebrows at the older, and suspiciously quiet, man. Eugene sighed, dropping his shoulders like he was carrying an enormous weight.
"I agree with Tommy," he said, and Joel spun on his heel, angrily pacing a few feet away to take some deep breaths.
"So, what? We take her to Jackson? We don't show people where we live for a fuckin' reason," Joel reminded them, his back still turned on the two men.
"We take her back, just a bit, til we can find where her aunt and uncle were livin', and we'll take her back home," Tommy said, the gears in his head turning as he formulated the plan on the spot. "In the meantime, we tell the Fireflies she ran off in the middle of the night. Maybe if we can get those guns to 'em, we can still keep the antibiotics."
Joel scoffed and shook his head, turning around to glare at his younger brother.
"This is stupid and risky. Lyin' to those people don't seem like a good move to me."
"Yeah, well, it's the only move we got, Joel. Otherwise, we're just as bad as them," said Tommy, his eyes drifting through the trees to make sure Ellie was still perched on the log where they left her. "I won't ask you to help take her back to her family."
"Damn right, you won't," Joel muttered, rolling his shoulders angrily. He stared off in the direction of Ellie, his jaw ticking off to the side with his hands on his hips, lost in thought.
He shouldn't have gone on this trip.
"Alright, is it settled, then? Can we hit the road, go back home?" Eugene asked, clearly tired of the bickering. Joel glared at the other two men before stomping back over to Ellie, who stood when she heard the men approaching, eyes flicking to each of their faces. Joel brushed past her to scoop up his bag from the ground and jumped back up on his horse with a grunt. At least he won't have to be away from you any longer. Not that he was sure what to even say, he just knew he needed to see you.
"C'mon, kid. We're takin' you to our town," Tommy said, motioning for her to grab her things and follow him to his horse.
"Really?" she asked excitedly, a small smile playing on her face for the first time.
"'Til we can get you back to your family, yeah," he replied, holding an arm out to help her scramble up the back of his horse.
Joel remained quiet the next day and a half, inwardly brooding about the potential blowback from taking this kid, which then morphed into nerves when he realized he was a few hours away from seeing you again.
When they arrived through the gates of Jackson, he didn't watch Ellie's eyes light up when she first saw the town, the people, the animals, kids her age playing. Maybe if he wasn't so focused on searching for your face in the small crowd that welcomed them back, then he would have seen how happy Ellie was. How, for maybe the first time in years, she felt a spark of hope. Maybe if he wasn't so focused on the ache in his chest when he didn't see you, it wouldn't have come as a surprise when Ellie snuck off the first chance she got, bobbing and weaving down the busy street, eager to see what the town had to offer.
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Movie Magic
jason todd x gn!reader
summary: a cozy movie marathon date with jason todd
tags: fluff, kissing, minor reference to canonical character death
rated teen | wc: 1k
a/n: inspired by an ask from the lovely @orchidsangel
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It’s a Saturday morning, and the weekend is stretching wide in front of you. It’s been a long week, so you and Jason have decided to do a movie marathon together instead of going out. The morning starts with breakfast, fresh fruit and real maple syrup drizzled over French toast. Dishes done side by side in the sink, winter sun coming in pale through the window. A few days earlier, when you’d done the grocery shopping, you’d picked up snacks specifically for this day. There’s popcorn and chips, pretzels and M&Ms, licorice and skittles. Each gets put out in their own bowls, ready to be eaten. Then would come building the blanket fort. Moving cushions and the duvet from the bed out into the living room, pulling bedsheets out of the linen closet. While Jason rolls an empty clothing rack out to hold up the blankets, you get the idea to take down some of your fairy lights and put them up in the fort, little pinpricks of light to stop Jason’s fear of small dark spaces from creeping in. It takes all of your decorative throw pillows you had insisted on and Jason had affectionately rolled his eyes at for you both to get comfortable. But it is comfortable, tucked up under Jason’s arm and swaddled in blankets, snack bowls tucked between your hip and the side of the couch.
Jason puts on the first movie, something you both loved as children. You laugh at the same moments, point out your favourite characters and scenes. His ribs knock into yours when he snorts, warm and solid beside you. Jason puts on the sequel, which you both agree is nowhere near as good as the first. Offhandedly you mention that at least the third was better since they brought back the scriptwriter from the first movie and Jason has to press pause. Turns to you jaw slightly open and asks if you’re serious, that there’s a third one, that they made more. The thing is, there was a third movie, only Jason wouldn’t have known. Resurrection and revenge doesn’t really leave a lot of time for catching up on pop culture. You wrap your arms around him tighter, navigate to the next movie and press play. For this one, the two of you are silent. Jason’s eyes are wide and attentive, lips parted in awe. You watch him as much as the movie, drink in his reactions eagerly and the way his arm tightens around your shoulder at the tense moments. The credits start to roll, and still Jason doesn’t say anything.
“So… what did you think?” You ask. He runs his fingers through his hair, looks you in the eye, and goes on one of the most impassioned rants you’ve ever heard him give, and you’ve heard him rant about everything they got wrong in the newest Sense and Sensibility adaptation. He barely stops to breathe between discussing the casting and how surprisingly good the stunts were. He talks himself hoarse until you pass him your soda. That manages to interrupt his flow of thought, and he apologizes sheepishly for getting too caught up in the movie. “S’okay, I like hearing you be passionate. What did you think of the cinematography?” and he’s off again, hands flying through the air as he tries to describe just what parts excited him the most.
It’s his stomach rumbling that interrupts him a second time, causing the two of you to laugh. Lunch gets eaten on the couch, plates carefully balanced on laps. You convince Jason to watch Pride and Prejudice and Zombies, and the look on his face when he gets torn between getting a version of his favourite book with added death jokes and wanting to point out how inaccurate a Regency society faced with the zombie apocalypse is, makes you have to constantly stifle giggles. You take turns after that, introducing each other to different movies as the pale sun slowly moves across the sky. Jason chooses a movie Damian made him watch, which despite the scary moments that have you burying your head in his shoulder, has some of the most beautifully shot scenes you’ve seen in a while. You get into a heated debate over Howl’s Moving Castle, eventually having to agree that book Sophie is more interesting but movie Howl is more dreamy. Jason has to dive for the popcorn bowl when you start yelling at the tv screen for the characters in the next movie to just talk to each other goddamn it! He indulges you when you rant about how most of the time the miscommunication trope is just lazy writing, that if the scriptwriters wanted to get the audience actually invested in the characters then they needed to stop making the climax something so easily fixable. You get so excited when something happens onscreen that you know a behind-the-scenes story about. Poking Jason in the side to make sure he’s listening before launching into an anecdote about how they’re actually only filming on horseback for the long shots, all of the closeups done on fake platforms to make filming easier. Or how the censorship rules of the time meant the director had to find a way for the characters to metaphorically kiss, and that’s why they’re always sharing cigarettes.
It’s beyond time for dinner, but full on snacks and treats, neither of you are feeling hungry yet. You’d introduced Jason to the magic of peanut M&Ms mixed into butter popcorn and you can tell that he’s going to be obsessed for the next while. The credits on the latest movie are rolling, there’s dishes to do and a couch to put back together, but all those things can wait. You look up from where you’re curled up beside him, cozy under the blanket and the weight of his arm, and he’s smiling down at you fondly. It doesn’t take much to stretch up and press your lips to his. He tastes like chocolate and salt and a long lazy afternoon. You can feel the edges of his lips turning up into a smile against yours.
“What was that for?” He murmurs.
“For listening to me ramble. And for introducing me to your favourite things.”
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WIBTA if I enabled a friend's possible developing alcoholism?
I (28M) work with a guy we'll call Damien (27M). Hes a cool dude generally, we're kinda friends but since I've known him a couple years now I know if one of us were to quit we likely wouldn't see each other again bc he's not especially social. for the purposes of full disclosure I'll also say I've had a crush on him for the majority of the time I've known him, he knows this and I've accepted that it's unlikely to go anywhere because he's probably the least emotionally available person I've ever met, but I'd still like to do physical stuff with him sometime if he'd be open to it.
Damien seems to kinda...hate himself a bit. it's clear he struggles with some mental health issues and I've told him he can talk to me about stuff but I haven't pried too deep on the specifics, because I'm not his therapist and if he wanted to tell me he would. he's expressed suicidal ideations in a half-joking way before and has pretty much ignored when I've expressed concern/distress over them. and he's been chatting lately about how he has been getting drunk like, every night. I've mentioned offhandedly how that's probably not great for him and he agreed, but is still doing it.
anyway he also knows how to repair Nintendo switch systems and enjoys doing so. a couple years ago (when we hadn't known each other very long and I'd JUST developed feelings for him) he fixed my analog stick when it started drifting. I repaid him with dinner. now my stick is drifting again and my case is cracked, so I've brought up the idea of him fixing the stick and changing the case out with dinner and booze (I enjoy drinking too, just like...only every other weekend or so). he seemed enthusiastic about the idea.
I expressed to him that it would be a RESPONSIBLE amount of booze and that if he drank at my house I'd be hiding his keys till he sobered up so he couldn't drive drunk. I also don't have any intentions to do anything inappropriate with him (even in the unlikely event that he initiated anything, I'd insist on talking about it sober first) besides the same level of joke-flirting i already do at work. I just want him to have a fun time and to fairly repay him for his work (I don't make very much money, and he hasn't asked for monetary payment), but I'm worried that I shouldn't be participating in what seems to be developing into a bad habit for him.
TLDR friend seems to be drinking a little too often, but I offered him dinner and booze as payment for some light repair work.
What are these acronyms?
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TO YOU , WORLDS AWAY : PART TWO : CHAPTER FIFTEEN
pairing: jake sully x fem!reader
summary: in which tinkers tolerates norm...
word count: 3.6k
author's note: none! just hope you enjoy!
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“They’re having a ceremony tonight.” Dr. Chloe told you while she was double checking one of the machines next to your hammock. “For an elder that unfortunately passed. I hear it’s really pretty. Perhaps you should see it, you know, get out of the hut for once.”
You had managed to sit up this time, though it took a lot of great difficulty. It seemed like as the days passed your body just became heavier and heavier to hold up yourself. You really weren’t even sure if you could even walk yet.
“Kind of hard to do that when I can barely sit upright.” You retorted. Unfortunately, you had found yourself disliking the doctor, mostly because she was completely oblivious to the fact that these machines she and her team had made weren’t necessarily doing much of anything but being a hindrance. Frankly, you weren’t even sure why she made it a point to check on you every single day and fill your head up with more false promises and progress.
Dr. Chloe waved a dismissive hand, “You don’t have to do much moving to see it. Technically, you can sit outside of your hut and watch from above. It’s similar to a march, you know? They walk throughout the clan’s grounds until they reach the burial site. So, you may just catch a glance at the ceremony as it passes by.”
“You sound like you’ve seen this.” You mumble offhandedly as Dr. Chloe finally stopped tampering with the machines.
“Why yes, I actually have! A few months back I was lucky to witness one. It was a beautiful ceremony, I think you might like it.”
There was really no point in responding to her as she was basically having a conversation with herself at one point. All you had to do was respond plainly until she finally made her leave.
That was when you glanced out your window for the first time that morning to see just a few miles away, a Samson landing. If you had to guess, it was probably Spider and his mother. During the past week you had been awake, Mary would always visit the Olangi Clan every other day and bring Spider along with her. It was the highlight of your day really, whenever the boy came to visit.
It was a nice distraction and good company. Better than Dr. Chloe’s that’s for sure. The one useful thing she had done was bring you a long thick wooden stick that would have been similar to a cane. She mentioned it would help with support and keeping you upright. You never admitted it out loud in front of her but yes, the wooden cane did help lots. In fact you haven’t allowed it out of your sight ever since you had gotten it.
You looked around and realized that you were indeed alone. While gripping the stick tightly in both your hands, you pushed yourself up from the hammock, leaning your entire body weight on the stick. Your legs trembled but you were able to remain standing for a few minutes until a sharp pain shot up your right leg and caused you to crumble down to the floor of the hut. Thankfully, it wasn’t that rough of a tumble with the stick catching you from most of your fall.
But you remained on the floor and gently sat the stick down next to you. Well, on the brighter side, at least you weren’t in your hammock anymore.
“Hi, Doc!” You looked up to find Spider standing in the doorway of your hut with a smile on his face. “Oh hey, look! You’re out of your hammock!”
Spider sank to the floor and crawled to sit next to you as you chuckled tiredly, “Yep. Makin’ progress each day, I guess.”
“Well, that’s good. That means you’re getting better.” Spider smiled encouragingly, patting your arm. All you could do was smile. Thankfully, Spider didn’t pick apart your expressions but instead his smile widened, “Oh! I brought a friend this time, Doc. Can he come in?”
At first you thought he was referring to another Na’vi kid that he had happened to befriend so you shrugged and nodded. Spider suddenly got up and rushed out the doorway, disappearing from your sight for a few seconds but you could still hear his voice as he said, “Okay! You can come in now!”
Spider came back seconds later and sat down in the spot he had been sitting in, bouncing excitedly.
The last person you expected to walk through that doorway was Norm Spellman.
“Norm?” You gapped up at him.
Norm looked stunned as well as he chuckled sheepishly, “Hey, Doc…long time no see.”
There really wasn’t any right way to react or say anything. Especially when it came to meeting someone you hadn’t seen…well…since after Grace’s death. It brought you back to too many memories all at once, overwhelming your senses to the point where you were just simply left speechless.
“So you guys know each other?” Spider asked, completely oblivious to the tension.
Norm cleared his throat awkwardly, “Um, Spider, why don’t you wait outside for a bit while Doc and I catch up?”
Spider frowned at him and then looked at you expectantly, almost as if he were waiting for you to give him the okay to leave you alone.
That had snapped you out of your stunned gaze long enough to give him a nod and a gentle pat on his head to reassure him further, “I’ll be fine, Parrot. I’ll let you know when you can come back, okay?”
“Okay.” Spider nodded and finally got up.
Norm watched the boy leave. The two of you were quiet for a few moments until he finally said, “Wow, you really are good with kids, huh? That kid barely listens to anyone.”
You shrugged, “Kids need someone to listen to them. It’s not too hard to do, I guess.” You couldn’t ignore the elephant in the room for much longer. Not with small talk. And you usually hate small talk with Norm. “I assume Spider told you about me—”
“Yeah, Y/N, he did.” Norm frowned. He stared at you as if it was the first time he had actually seen you. There was a look you hated that crossed his face, a look you did not particularly care for at the moment. Norm settled down on the floor but kept the space between you two as he continued in a quieter voice, “What, were you planning on staying here? In secret without anyone knowing?”
“I’m dying, Norm. What do you think?”
Norm winced, “But…Doc, we could’ve been there for you as soon as you woke up. Jake—”
“You didn’t tell Jake did you?” Was your quick response, your heart pounding against your chest in anxiety. “Norm, I can’t have him here, I can’t have him see me—”
“No, I didn’t tell him.” He stared at you in shock. “I wanted to be sure myself.  That I was about to see the Doc was actually the Doc we thought had died five years ago.” You dropped your gaze down to your bandaged knees, not wanting him to see your eyes become achy and then eventually glassy. “But now that I’m sure, now that I know you’re here…why can’t Jake know?”
You shook your head, scowling at him weakly, “I’m dying! What part of that do you not understand, Norm?”
“We can transfer your consciousness to your avatar, we’ve done it before with Jake—”
“I’m too weak—”
“No, you’re not, Y/N—”
“Grace was weak, Norm. She was dying and she never was able to cross over to her avatar!” Tears fell down your cheeks in despair. Your chest became tight and heavy at the same time.  “I can’t give him hope like that…I can’t…I can’t break his heart again…”
It was quiet once more in the hut. You could tell Norm was frustrated and this was one of the very reasons why you didn’t want him or anyone else you knew to see you. Not when you were slowly trying to accept the inevitable.
“We don’t have to tell anyone.” Norm started again, this time his voice was smaller. “I can have your avatar flown here. He doesn’t even have to know. And we can perform it here—”
“Norm—”
“They have a spirit tree or a tree of souls here too, don’t they? We could do it here and if it works we—”
You reached over and placed your hand on his shoulder, giving it a reassuring squeeze, “Norm, it’s okay. I’ll be fine.” Honestly, you were shocked you were able to say this despite the tears in your eyes, despite more of it falling down your face.
Norm shook his head but he didn’t respond right away. “I just…I just don’t know if I can go back and face him…knowing that I saw you.” You nodded understandingly but didn’t say anything else. And neither did he.
The two of you just sat in silence. You both were able to do that back when it was you, Norm, Grace, and Jake. Whenever Grace was busy or whenever Jake was in the link bed, you’d come out of your lab and just sit with Norm. You were either reading and he was eating something. And he never asked questions that much. It was nice. Those small moments.
Norm picked up your stick and examined it. You finally spoke, “How is he? Jake? You said…you said he was able to transfer his consciousness into his avatar.”
He chuckled, “Yeah, yeah he did. He’s also a family guy now, he and Neytiri have three kids now. It’s…it’s nice, you know, to see him happy.” Norm then looked up at you with a friendly smile, “But I think we both know it’s not the same without you, Doc.”
You chose not to respond to that, not to think about that. Because if you did, then there was no way you would ever stop crying. And you’ve already been doing a lot of that recently.
There was another pause of silence between you two. Norm handed you your stick and you took it, sending him a small smile, “I know we weren’t really close before, frankly, I don’t think I liked you in the beginning.” Norm snorted and you smiled. “But now I can say I find you mildly tolerable.”
“You find me tolerable now that you’re dying?” Norm scoffed, amusement twinkling in his eyes, “Should I be offended?”
“Don’t think about it too much.”
Norm nodded with a chuckle before standing up, “I’ll call Spider back in.”
“Hey, you can stay, you know.” You smiled not really wanting to be alone as of now. And as much as you’ve grown to love having Spider around, you would love to have another adult around—besides Dr. Chloe. “It’d kind suck that you’d come all this way just to go back in a few minutes.”
Spider came back in as Norm sighed, “I don’t know. I do have a lot of work to do at home.”
“No, stay!” Spider pleaded, tugging on the man’s arm. “You could help me with my Na’vi with Doc!”
Norm snorted, “I don’t know if I’m the best teacher to be honest.”
“What, after five years? Come on, Spellman.” You teased as Spider took his spot next to you again. “Sit with us for a while.”
There was still hesitation on his face, there was still what lingered from your conversation, Norm didn’t want to let it go, you could tell. Instead of addressing it in front of Spider, you gave him a look that told him he had to drop it. Honestly, you had forgotten how stubborn this guy was.
Reluctantly, he sighed and settled back down to the floor. “Okay, Spider. Show us what you’ve learned so far.”
And that’s what you spent most of the day doing. Spider was so excited that he was getting better at the language which meant he was steps closer. It also seemed like both Norm and Spider had a close bond with each other, which was nice to see. God, you may have hated Quaritch with all of your guts but it was good to know his son had some type of community around him, people that loved him and took care of him.
Thinking about this, it did make you wish that things were different. That you didn’t crash in that ship, that you didn’t go into cryosleep for five years, that you were with Jake…
By the time the evening came, Norm made his leave but Spider stayed with you. Since you decided to end your lessons, you let him go off about his time with his adoptive family. He mentions having a friend named Kiri who was also adopted and they were best friends because of that. You found it adorable and was happy that he had some Na’vi friends.
When the sun began to set, a horn sounded. Spider perked up both out of the sudden sound startling him and in curiosity. “What’s that?”
You remembered the ceremony that Dr. Chloe had mentioned before, “Why don’t we check it out?”
Spider nodded excitedly and helped you to your feet. The both of you slowly made your way out of the hut. It was the first time you had actually stood outside of the hut you had been staying in, only to find out that it was high up in a tree.
“Huh, that’s why the air’s always been a little bit thin.” You muttered as Spider helped you sit down on the wooden balcony with railings surrounding the hut. “Come on, let’s scoot toward the railing.”
You slowly scooted your body closer to the railing and carefully placed legs through the open spaces and you leaned your body against the bars. Spider copied you, swinging his legs back and forth.
Below you, you saw most of the Olangi Clan gather around further away from your tree. Most of them rode direhorses while the others walked next to them.
Both you and Spider watched as they moved slowly, practically gliding through the pathway of the trees. It looked as if the plants moved for them as they went or moved for the dead. Then in the middle of the long line of Na’vi, there was a large leaf that carried a single body which was also covered in leaves, and in that leaf along with the body were woodsprites.
“Look!” Spider pointed at the ones flying down and you stared at them in wonder.
You gently poked his shoulder, “What do you call them, Parrot?”
“Um, woodsprites?”
“Mhmm, but also…?”
Spider thought for a moment as one of them floated past his face. “Ooh! Atokirina'.”
He looked very proud of himself. And you laughed softly, “Very good.”
As you watched them walk, you got tired of staying upright for so long. Your body soon began to slump against the railing no matter how much you tried to stay still. “Hey, Spider, can you lean me up against the hut, please?”
Spider nodded and got up, “Are you okay?”
You nod after he helped you position yourself up against the wood of the hut, “Yeah, just a little tired.”
“Do you want me to get a healer?” Spider asked, kneeling down in front of you with a worried pout. “I can get my mom if you’d like! I know you don’t like Miss Parker.”
You furrow your brows, a smile tugging at your lips, “How do you know I don’t like Dr. Chloe?”
Spider shrugged, “You always looked annoyed whenever she came to see you. Oh, one time I even heard you say fu—”
“Okay, okay,” You stopped him. The last thing you wanted was to be responsible for turning this kid vulgar before he even reached his teens. “Yeah, go on and get your mother. Be careful while you do so, okay? We’re pretty high up.”
“They don’t call me Spider for nothing!” He grinned before running off. You watched what little you could see of him climb down the branches until he disappeared below and you couldn’t see him anymore.
For a moment, you took in the atmosphere. The peace. The night. The mourning of the dead. It took everything in you not to break down into tears yet again. God, you were such a  crybaby these days. You tried not to think about you being in that leaf instead, you tried not to think about Spider’s reaction if you were to die, you tried not to think about Jake, about whether Grace would be disappointed in you or not, you tried not to think so hard. You really did.
You hadn’t realized your eyes were closed until you opened them with a tear slipping out. Of course. So much for trying not to cry.
But your tears weren’t what you focused long on. Instead it was the woodsprite that suddenly floated down in front of you and landed on your right knee. You hadn’t seen one so up close before. From what you read about them, they are said to be very pure and scared spirits and that they don’t show up this often. So seeing one, and another float down toward you, made you begin to wonder…
Having them all around, you realized after a few seconds that a few more had landed on your body, was a bit of a bother. Especially, when it practically lit up your body for all to see. It was like it purposefully wanted you to be found or noticed by the Na’vi below.
Good thing no one was paying attention.
“Tsmuke?”
At first you thought you had imagined it. That you were just tired and should’ve been going to bed soon. But when you spotted movement in the corner of your eye, when you turned your head completely to find Neytiri squatting down on the railing, looking at you with just as much shock as you looked at her.
This had to be a dream. You had fallen asleep and you were dreaming. There was no way Neytiri was here, right now, in front of you.
You blinked when she dropped down onto the path where you sat and you muttered out, “Are you real?”
A grin broke out on Neytiri’s face as she rushed toward you and knelt down in front of you, “I prayed to the All Mother for this day! I knew you weren’t dead, ma tsmuke!” She pulled you into a tight hug. You, being too stunned to do anything else, hugged her back the best you could. “Thank you, Eywa, thank you, thank you, thank you! You’ve found her!”
All the emotions you had held back before, that you had pushed back the entire day after your conversation with Norm, came pouring out in quiet sobs that shook your shoulders. And you realized after a while of hugging her, Neytiri was crying too.
It felt…
It almost felt like being reunited with a family member you had missed. That you had lost. You never expected to reunite with Neytiri or Norm, but after you did, after you’ve hugged her, it was more of a relief than finding out that your side of the war had won.
Winning the war wasn’t worth it if you ended up alone in the end.
And god. God, you will finally admit that you hated being alone.
When you both pulled away, you found yourself speaking through your tears, “How did you…How are you here?”
“Sa’nok, the Tsahik was asked here to perform the ceremony.” Neytiri explained, placing her bow down. “She brought me here so that I can learn and be ready to become the future Tsahik…” She finally took in your current state and her smile fell slightly, “You are…”
You gave a pained smile, “I don’t really know how long I have. They, the humans, think they can heal me before I die but I don’t think they can—”
“No.” Neytiri shook her head immediately. “No. You cannot die. Not after I had just found you!”
“Neytiri—”
“What about Jake?” She whispered, tears filling her eyes. “What about Kiri? I can’t let you die, not without them seeing you.”
You shook your head, coming down from your momentary high to feel terribly exhausted. Worse than minutes before. “Neytiri it’s fine…” She helped you lay down on the floor, gently guarding your head as she did so. Your lower lip trembled, “I already know what you’re going to say and it won’t work.” You shook your head as Neytiri moved to protest, “It won’t work. I’m too weak.”
“I will not give up!” Neytiri hissed at you. “You and I…we had very little time together. But one thing I will always know, that would always be true, is that you belong with this family. You belong with Jake, you belong with little Kiri. You belong with all of us. You always have….” She sniffled, placing a hand on your forehead. “Sylwanin saw it before I did….and I am sorry it has taken me this long to realize it.”
You wanted to tell her you didn’t deserve it but something in you just couldn’t even push out the words. It just remained stuck in your throat. Stuck in your chest. Preventing the air from entering your lungs.
That’s when you realized you couldn’t breathe. That you had been trying to gasp for air.
Neytiri realized seconds after, “Tsmuke?” You felt her larger hands feel around your mask as if it had come loose. Black dots started to cover your vision. “Ma tsmuke!”
The last thing you remembered was Neytiri screaming and hands lifting your body from off the ground.
And then the world had gone dark. And you couldn’t hear her screams anymore.
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HAIII could u do romantic pilby x butterfly!reader hcs, like they both have a crush on eachother but pilby especially (hope i did this right lol)
🐛 pilby/butterfly reader
ahh tysm for requesting this!!! it’s so cute!! love the pilbsss. and dw, you did it right ^^
whenever you two are together within the confines of the shaky elevator, there’s always an awkward vibe hanging in the air. completely regardless of who else is with you— poob, infected, or anyone else can’t seem to waver that feeling with their upbeat personality. don’t get me wrong. you and pilby have been close friends ever since you made the first move, and it’s nothing short of one of the closest bonds you have on this godforsaken elevator
that being said when you start to notice pilby fiddling a lot more with their hands, their stutter becomes more noticeable, and they seem to go quiet frequently; that’s when you begin to suspect something’s up. normally pilby was VERY relaxed around you, yapping about the cool new finds they uncovered with mach on a different universe, but now it seems like they’re highly anxious about it
another giant giveaway was pilby’s flushed face. their face is as white as snow meaning any sort of blush is highly pigmented against their skin. and around you? it’s hard not to point it out, but you didn’t want to embarrass pilby, not yet knowing what the reason was
you wouldn’t say it directly to their face but you found their mannerisms cute. actually you found everything about pilby… adorable. the way their eyes lit up as they notice you’re in the elevator, the way their fluffy pink bangs poke out of their hat, everything down to the littlest of things. maybe you were a little biased as you were a bug yourself but that’s besides the point. the mutual feelings were all there but the big question was: who’d make the first move?
it started off with you gifting pilby little trinkets and whatnot, trying to get more comfortable showing different types of affection with them. and what you got in return? everything you gave, except x10. anything you give pilby they’ll find a way to give back even more. oh, you offhandedly mentioned something that you want, but are unable to get? the next time you see pilby, guess what they brought you. Just Guess
feeling a little more confident you began to brush your hand against pilby’s ever so slightly, watching them twitch out of the corner of your eye. you’d also brush your wings against them occasionally which they didn’t mind, as they thought your wings were just so beautiful. but any contact has their cheeks burning lol
if you’re not in the elevator with pilby, they talk about you. a lot. thanks to some of your friends who went through the experience, they 100% told you everything pilby said, including a small slip-up pilby made that immediately made them cover their mouth. it gave you the confidence you needed to finally confess
so when you scouted out pilby on their usual floor, flowers in hand, you were surprised to see pilby standing there— flowers in hand. a giddy smile made its way to your lips as pilby began to stutter an apology, utterly embarrassed and flustered at the situation. they weren’t the same type of flowers but having the same idea at the same time was such a weird coincidence
you manage to soothe pilby after a brief moment, exchanging flowers with stupid smiles on your face. they began to yap about why they got you those specific flowers, doing research on finding the best kind for butterflies, but you quickly shut them up with a tiny kiss on the cheek. it was effective immediately
the floor was about to end as your teammates all dash around the room, mach’s wheel having landed on “DEATH.” you wouldn’t be able to hang out with pilby just yet, but as you made your way back into the elevator, you glance over your shoulder and see pilby giving you a shy wave, looking as cute as ever now that they’re your partner.
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In Your Past - Chapter 3
Stray Kids OT8 x reader, Soulmate AU
Living in a world where soulmates are real, and everyone deals with it differently. Prequel to 'Pieces of My Heart'; how each member dealt with their soul marks, and first meetings.
Masterlist | Pieces Of My Heart
Jeongin always had a deep appreciation for food. Even before he turned 18, he liked to savor the food he ate, enjoyed the taste of his favorite foods and the comfort they brought him. He was always so conscious of the food that he was eating that he realized immediately the day after his 18th birthday when he started tasting things he didn’t eat. His mouth would suddenly explode in flavors, and he knew immediately that it was his soulmate.
The others were very excited to hear about his revelation.
“Our little maknae is all grown up!” Changbin had exclaimed.
“What are they eating right now? Wait, no. Are they eating something right now?” Han questioned.
Jeongin laughed. “They’re not eating anything right now, but I think they had something sweet earlier. It tasted like chocolate.”
They thought it was the coolest thing ever. They would randomly ask him about it, wondering what his soulmate was up to, and he found himself offhandedly mentioning the random tastes that he would experience when it happened.
“Oh, they’re eating peanut butter.”
“Hmmm, meat? Might be a hamburger.”
He remembers the particularly bad timing of one of his soulmate’s meals. They had just eaten a nasty combo of food, right in the middle of filming, and he had to resist the urge to gag for the next 20 minutes until the taste finally wore off. Channie-hyung and Lee Know-hyung then teased him after the shoot.
He was embarrassed, worried that he had ruined the entire thing (and also worried about the sanity of his soulmate to eat something so disgusting), and the company ended up editing out most of his faces for fear of someone finding out what soulmark he had. His manager told him it wasn’t his fault, but he still felt guilty for the extra time the editors had to put in to work around it. Still, he understood the necessity.
While soulmarks were so common that it was almost expected for celebrities to have them, but for idols it was expected to maintain the illusion of accessibility. To reveal a soulmark would essentially isolate a group of people from delusional believing they were made for their bias, and to ruin that illusion would ruin the popularity of a group.
It was disgusting that neither he nor the rest of the boys could talk about something so integral to their entire personality - his soulmark was the reason he always carried gum on him, and Felix’s soulmark made it impossible for him to utilize color schemes without the help of another.
Sometimes he found himself wishing he could talk about it. His soulmark was so odd, one of the most uncommon sensed based soulmarks, and he knew it would be next to impossible for him to find his soulmate based on it alone. He worried about it sometimes, whether he would ever meet them. He knew it was stupid, but he often found himself scrolling through forums, reading through posts made by other people with rare or ‘useless’ soulmarks.
‘I have a smell based soulmark … but my soulmate has the worst sense of smell! It took us nearly 30 years to finally meet, and that only because he had my first words. Can you imagine if he had initials, or taste, or something else equally vague? We never would have found each other!’ ‘I’m 58 and have yet to find my soulmate. I have initials, and despite my best efforts to get to know the names of everyone I’ve ever met, I simply have yet to find them. I’m convinced that my soulmate has to have a bad soulmark as well, otherwise they would have come looking for me by now, right?’ ‘Don’t worry too badly, I was 75 when I met my soulmate. Already happily married and with children, but they became one of my closest friends in such a short amount of time. When my wife died a year later, it was their support and friendship that kept me going. They showed up in my life right when I needed them, and I can’t imagine what I would do without them.’
He knew it was selfish, but he couldn’t imagine having to wait 30 years, let only 70 to meet his soulmate. There was this longing that felt like it had dug a permanent hole in his chest and left him with a gaping hole, pulsing with need strong enough that it consumed his every waking thought.
Would his soulmate like this?
What would his soulmate think about that performance?
What’s his soulmate doing now?
He wanted them. He wanted them so badly that when someone came running up to him on the street claiming to be his soulmate, he only hesitated long enough to make sure they were telling the truth before he finally let that deeply held longing consume him.
Pulling them into his arms felt like healing, and suddenly he was whole again.
He couldn’t hold his excitement when Channie-hyung called him, so eager to share the news. He wanted the members to meet you, wanted to show you off to them, to his parents, to the world. He wanted to scream it from the rooftops. He was unable to stop smiling, fingers laced firmly around his own the whole walk back to the hotel, practically vibrating.
He felt a lump grow in his throat when you told him that you had other soulmates. It made his stomach feel fluttery when he had the same realization as you, watching as you walked towards Hyunjin and Seungmin’s shared room without a thought, eyes firmly on something he couldn’t see.
He wasn’t sure why he hated the thought of sharing you so much.
You were his, sure, but you didn’t belong to him. He wasn’t even sure your soulmate bond would ever be anything more than platonic, and it would be selfish of him to keep you all to himself. But even as he plastered on a fake smile, he was secretly hoping you would agree to wait to meet the others.
He just wanted you to be his, only his, just a little longer.
But then you looked up at him with a dazed look, eyes darting across his face with childlike wonder, and he felt something melt inside him.
“I’ll always be yours, Jeongin.” You whispered.
And suddenly he wasn’t so afraid of losing you anymore. The lump disappeared, the butterflies settling down in his stomach, and he gave you a genuine smile. It was only later as he watched the rest of the members surround you, watched as everyone’s faces became dazed with happiness, and saw the way your eyes held the stars as you looked at each and every one of them, that he realized maybe it would be so bad to have someone to share this feeling with.
And who better than his members to make sure that his soulmate would never have to be alone, never have to deal with the longing he himself had felt? For the first time in a long time, Jeongin wasn’t worried about what the future held. He was happy.
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fuck-customers · 10 months
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Strap in, this is a longish one.
My dad has been the general manager at his pizzaria for a few years. He has a workplace rivalry with another manager, a man we'll call Jim.
Now, Jim has Problems. He's been battling leukemia for 10 years, he has chronic joint pains, he's an alcoholic, and he's addicted to narcotics. So, and excuse my language, he's slowly become more and more of a Cunt over time.
When my dad was first hired as a delivery driver, he walked in on Jim having an affair with another driver. Nothing Super Scandelous, he was just resting his hand on her thigh as they were talking. My dad had a tendency to not think abt the things he says, and so he offhandedly mentioned it to the owner, their boss.
You can imagine that this PR fiasco triggered a businessman panic. Jim and the driver were fired pretty much immediately, but they were eventually hired back on.
Ever since dad got promoted to general manager, Jim has been on the warpath. The boss's mom in Iran is dying, so he takes frequent trips over to be with her and help in the death care and preparations, and leaves dad Fully in charge as an extension of himself. Whenever the boss is overseas, Jim activates. It started small, with general defiance and attitude, whenever dad asked him to do things. But eventually, it got worse.
Jim, altho a manager, enjoys doing waitstaff activities because he makes bank in tips. So he's often the one running the floor. One day, dad decided to check on and help a table as he was making his rounds, taking a break from the office. And that's when the pattern started.
Whenever he sees dad at one of His tables, Jim will waltz over and yell at dad for "messing with his tables", undermining him in front of the customer. At first, dad was chill. He obliged, and then pulled Jim aside to be like, "If you have something to say to me, never say it in front of the customer. It's embarrassing." Dad reported it to the boss and continued. The boss reprimanded Jim as soon as he got back, and things were mostly back to how they were.
The exact same scenario happened once more sometime later and went about the same way. But the other day, it was a new level. A woman flags down dad, and says how the waiter brought out everybody else's salads and her dressing, so she assumed he forgot her salad and she'd like to eat it alongside her friends. Dad gets her salad and hands it to her when Jim appears.
"Don't mess with my tables! Her salad was coming out with her sandwich!" Jim grabbed hold of the plate in the woman's hands and began trying to pull it away. The customer was in shock and disbelief as she firmly held on to her plate. Eventually, she let go. Dad calmly took the plate back and walked away, getting to hear the woman tell Jim, in a timid and still shocked voice, "Um, actually, I asked him to get that for me."
Dad now refuses to help Jim with anything or clean up after him. He's gonna play the stupid game, he's gonna win the stupid prize of his job being 10x harder.
We're currently waiting for the boss's trip to be over so he and dad can have a Real conversation about Jim's abhorrent behavior and his future at the restaurants.
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Hi prince! I'm very sorry, I've just realized I missed a lot of your latest posts, this app is always hiding new content from me grrr.
I've spent a while reading everything and I wanted to say thank you for occupying my evening with your writings, Always a pleasure 💐(flowers for you)
About the Abbacchio and his CDs one,
if you ever mention loving one of his movies laying around, I feel like Abbacchio would watch it over and over again, trying to understand how you felt about every detail and imagining your reaction about everything but wouldn't admit that he enjoys it as much as you and just brush it off as a random flick on his shelves.
Thank you for the flowers, although I prefer roses and lilies.
I talk about Leone and here you come. How shocking. Do pay me some more attention.
Leone is so desperate for a connection with you that he'll watch the movie twice, and then replay you watching it. One for first impressions, twice to watch it with full context. Maybe three or four times, for some hidden details...
Leone's obsessive nature is, truly, embarrassing. God forbid you mention liking a particular character or a specific actor, he'll earn his phd in them overnight. Pick up on some of their mannerisms, if they're visible. You know how some characters have idle animations? He's studying. If they're a character in a videogame who can pick something up, he's mimicking their technique the next time he needs to grab something in front of you. What? He's always picked things up like this, start paying attention to your surroundings.
Oh, he's always had the entire collection of that series you offhandedly mentioned liking in your childhood, by the way. Never mind how odd it looks next to his actual preferred media, or how new it looks. If it's really that out of place, he just says Guido brought it home.
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Ok bitch I got a request for ya! Tenoch and reader are out on a date it’s like really intimate restaurant with lots of flirting and tension. Then tenoch walks her home and the dam breaks and they just launch at each other and it’s SMUT CITY BABY!
The thirst I have for this man is all your fault I swear! I haven’t even seen narcos Mexico but I’m gonna cos you’ve made me obsessed with Rafa! Anyway I love you bitch I ain’t ever gonna stop loving you bitch! 💞
BITCH I LOVE YOU TOO. Also yes Narcos Mexico is actually a really good show outside of the perfection that is Rafa. Diego Luna is so good in it too.
Summary: It was your third date. Fancier and more intimate than the two before it. Both of you could feel the tension building and ready to break.
smut and filth
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Dating Tenoch had not been on your agenda when you had first started working as his stylist. But here you were. It was your third date and he had gotten a reservation at a classy and sexy restaurant you had mentioned offhandedly a week before. He said he wanted to make sure that he was always getting you what you wanted.
Now here you were, sharing a bottle of wine while the food was set before you. Once the waiters left you to your own devices you smiled seductively up at the actor. You reached across the table and took his hand. You noticed how his eyes travelled from your face to your cleavage and then back again. "You've really out done yourself this time."
The actor chuckled as he put down his glass and took your hand in his. He brought it up to his lips and kissed your fingers lightly. Tenoch was looking as handsome as the devil himself. The suit he wore was fitted with the first two buttons of his shirt open. His hair was close cut on the sides and longer on the top. You were amused to see he remembered that that was the hair style you preferred on him. His eyes held mischief and lust that you knew were reflected in your own.
"Only the best for you," Tenoch gestured for you to start eating and you both dug in. Like your previous dates the conversation flowed easily and the banter was compelling. But the big difference was the tension. You had both felt it building between your dates and your endless conversations. Touches lingered longer now, eyes roamed more. When Tenoch wiped something off the corner of your mouth with his thumb you suppressed the urge to suck on it. You saw the way his eyes dilated when you sucked on the spoon during dessert. The way he pressed up behind you when he helped you into your jacket at the end of dinner felt like exquisite torture. The kiss he had snuck on to your neck was like setting fire to a bomb that was ready to explode.
Ever the gentleman he walked you home. How convenient that you lived only a couple blocks away. You both stole lengthy kisses between your continued conversation and laughter. You were high off this, off of him. The chemistry and the need only grew with each touch of his lips and the feel of his hands on your body. By the time you made it to your front door you were hungry for more.
You had the door barely opened before Tenoch nudged you inside and locked the door behind you. His hands came up to hold your face as his lips descended on you in a passionate kiss. His plush lips sucked and nipped at your own, easily pulling a moan from you. That was his signal to move his hands around your waist and pull you flush against him. Your hips pushed against his straining pants.
"Take me to bed," You commanded between kisses. He pulled away long enough to smirk at you. Then he was leading you through your small apartment and into your bedroom. He threw you onto the bed making you laugh with excitement.
Standing at the end of the bed, he shucked off his blazer and started to unbutton his shirt. He was grinning down at you with visible excitement, "Get naked for me like a good girl."
Your eyes never left his body as you kicked off your shoes, dress, and underwear. You wanted nothing in between you. You were bare before him as he stared at you from the end of the bed. Tenoch had his hand around his weeping cock, pumping it in his fist. He looked delicious.
You spread your legs then ran your fingers down your folds, so obviously glistening with your juices. He licked his lips, "Come here,"
His hand found your ankle and he pulled you roughly to the edge of the bed. You looked up at him with anticipation as Tenoch let your legs hang off the end of the bed. He leaned his large form over you, grabbing your jaw and dipping down to roughly capture your lips in his. When he pulled away you mewled in response, wanting more. His smirk told you that he wanted to tease you, "You're gonna be so good for me, aren't you?"
You nodded as his hand travelled down your neck, gliding between your breasts and onto the softness of your belly, "You're so beautiful."
Tenoch kept eye contact as his fingers dipped down between your legs and with an agonizing pace drew circles around your swollen clit. You tried to thrust against his hand but he held your hips down and shushed you, "Wait, baby, let me play with you."
"I need more, please, Tenoch," You begged. Tenoch smiled as he continued his ministrations on your clit. His other hand coming up to caress your breasts and pinch your nipples, making you arch your back.
"I was thinking about laying you across that table and eating you in that restaurant instead of that food," Tenoch told you as he dipped his finger inside of you. You moaned softly at the welcome intrusion. "Look how much your pussy wants me."
He added a second finger, thrusting them shallowly and slowly. Your hips bucked but he held them down. Tenoch circled your clit with his thumb as he toyed with your pussy. You could feel the slow build of an orgasm but you wanted so badly to cum with his cock inside you.
"Tenoch, please, I want you," You cried out as his thrusts went deeper. He leant down over you and tongued your nipple before taking it completely into his mouth. Your fingers threaded through his hair, holding his face to your chest as your excitement grew. You could hear the wetness of your pussy as his fingers continued moving in and out. When he pulled them away completely you whined in protest.
You looked down to see Tenoch kneeling down and pulling you closer to the edge of the bed by your spread thighs. Tenoch smirked at you before descending upon your needy cunt. The first touch of his tongue to your clit made you cry out. He devoured you enthusiastically. The actor thrust his tongue into you between suckles of your clit between his lips. You leaned up on your elbows so you could watch him.
Tenoch looked up at you as he dragged the flat of his tongue from the bottom of your slit to your clit before sucking hard on the sensitive nub. Your orgasm crashed down on you like an avalanche. He did not unlatch his lips as he drove two fingers into your pussy while you convulsed with pleasure.
You pulled at his hair to finally beg for a moment of rest. The pop of his lips leaving your clit and the feel of his lips on your inner thigh were comforting and drenched with amusement. He kissed his way up your body, licking and sucking as he went. You were hazy in the afterglow of your orgasm. You turned as he knelt beside you, hard cock at attention.
You didn't wait for permission, instead you cupped his balls and took his tip into your mouth. Tenoch let out a groan of pleasure as you tasted him. You tongued his tip then moved the shaft so you could lick from the tip to the base and back again. You sat up and pushed him back onto the bed, one hand still holding his cock.
Once the actor was comfortable you lay between his legs and gave your full attention to his hard cock. You wrapped your hand around his thick member while your lips found his balls. Licking and sucking each one in turn made the actor grunt in pleasure. You returned to his tip and then took the length of him into your mouth and down your throat. His hand came up to wrap around your hair and keep it out of the way of his view of you pleasuring him.
A stream of curses emitted from him as you took his cock deep down your throat and flicked your tongue on the top of his balls. You stayed there longue enough to feel your eyes water as you choked on him. Then you pulled away with your mouth dripping with saliva. Your hands pumped his cock with the slick as you caught your breath. You couldn't help but smile at the needy look on his face.
You continued to palm his cock as you leaned up and laved at his nipples and sucked marks onto his pecs. His breaths were coming quicker as you massaged his balls. But you lifted your hand away making him protest.
"Babe, please, I was so close," Tenoch begged, cupping your face as you straddled him.
"Don't you want to feel my pussy around you?" You ask as you glide your dripping slit up and down his shaft, letting his tip poke gently at your hole but not letting him thrust inside.
"Fuck, yes, hermosa, I want your pretty pussy around me," The actor gripped your waist, guiding you as you teased him.
"Take it, Tenoch," You challenged him, leaning down to kiss him hard.
He kept one hand on your hip as the other threaded its way into your hair. With one movement he had turned the tables and was now on top. Tenoch did not break the kiss as he hooked your legs around his waist and teased your pussy with his cock. You rutted your hips up, begging for more as his tongue battled against yours. With a shift and a thrust he was inside of you. You broke the kiss to groan at the union.
Tenoch buried his head into your neck as he started thrusting. He started off slow, calculated, and deep. Your legs wrapped around him, locking him in close, as you clung to his shoulders.
"Fuck, yes, harder. Fuck me harder," You pleaded, your nails dug into the plains of his back. He growled into your neck as he picked up his pace.
You lost track of your pleasure as you rode the high of your joining. If you let yourself feel without thinking you could almost discern the ridges of his cock as he fucked you. You arched into him as the pressure built and your orgasm teased you. There was no time to think about his hand pushing between the two of you to tweak your clit. You came with a feral moan and the tell tale beginnings of a squirt you didn't want to ruin the bed.
But Tenoch pulled out of you, made eye contact, and thrust two fingers into your still convulsing pussy, curling his fingers to hit your g spot. You saw stars and wept as you squirted hard. He kept you cumming then pulled his fingers from you and thrust his still hard cock inside of you.
Tenoch pushed your knees toward your chest, gripping your hips as he rammed into you, brutal and animalistic. You were both covered in sweat from the exertion. Your moans were still filling the room along with the wet sounds of his hips slamming into yours. His groans told you that he was close, so close.
"Cum inside me, its ok. I want you to," You pleaded. You weren't even sure your orgasm had ever ended as the pleasure built and broke again as he buried himself inside you.
Tenoch threw his head back as he took three hard last thrusts, groaning as he came, hips stuttering. He pressed his hips impossible close to yours, hands gripping hard onto your thighs. Tenoch hadn't even pulled out yet when you felt the first drop of his cum seeping out of your pussy, down your ass crack.
The only sound in the room was your mutual panting. He stayed there, unwilling to remove himself from the soft heat of your pussy. Gently, Tenoch moved your legs back down from your chest, gripping at them lightly so you wouldn't cramp. You whimpered, still feeling his cum dripping as his cock softened. His cock finally slid out of you and a puddle formed where you had joined.
Tenoch collapsed beside you. His hand came up to cup your cheek and turn you into his lips. The kiss was chaste and tired and slightly upturned.
"Wow," he mumbled against your lips.
You smiled too, "Yeah, wow."
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i hope that was filthy enough.
i also hope this actually shows up in the tags,
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coupsie-daisies · 2 years
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Like You Mean It | Seo Changbin
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Pairing: Seo Changbin x Fem!Reader
Genre: pwp (MINORS DNI), Best Friends To Lovers, (kinda) Personal Trainer AU
Summary: You should have known better than to let your best friend become your personal trainer. But after a late night workout, everything changes. Maybe working out with Changbin isn’t so bad.
Word Count: 3.4k
Warnings: Smut (Seriously, Minors DO NOT interact), unprotected sex, unedited smut
A/N: So this is just a quick lil something for Binnie’s birthday. And if you see any mistakes in the fic or the header,,,,no you don’t cuz I’m sleepy
Tags (always open): @felixtok​ // @dragonofthenorth0726​ // @sunnytaes​ // @burningupp​ // @bunnypig18​ // @chrswolfie​ // @ferrethyun​ // @ashia4​​
This fanfiction and the header attached are property of @/hobi-is-golden, reposting on any platform without explicit permission is prohibited
You’d been friends with Changbin for some time now, since back when you were both in your final year of highschool. You’d bonded over a mutual love for music, and had been inseparable ever since. You were a package deal, everyone knew that.
You were beginning to regret that now that he’d begun dragging you to the gym with him. It wasn’t like you were angry with him, it had been your own fault. Over the past handful of years you’d watched Changbin bulk up and put on muscle in all the right places, and you’d mentioned offhandedly that you were envious of his strength. For any average pair of friends that probably would have been the end of the conversation, maybe even a run down on his workout routine. But you and Changbin hardly classified as average, and Changbin had become a personal trainer.
Unfortunately for you, being best friends with a personal trainer meant that you were best friends with your personal trainer.
“I hate you so much,” You groaned out, the muscles in your arms burning as you neared the end of your workout. You had just finished a set on the bench press.
“You adore me.” He argued, grinning at you from where he’d been spotting you. “You wouldn’t show up if you didn’t love me.”
You looked over his arms, thick with well defined muscle, then to his hands, big and strong as they wrapped around the bellbar he’d helped you lift back into place. He always impressed you with his dedication and the energy he put into his body. You shook your head, moving to sit up. Before you could manage to pull yourself upright, Changbin was moving. He planted a hand against your chest, pressing you back down. Your back hit the bench and you huffed out a breath on impact.
“You still have two more sets. I know I’m distracting, but that doesn’t give you a pass, little girl.” He teased, but his firm demand was still clear beneath his playful tone. You squirmed a little, thighs pressing together before you were falling back into form. He was distracting, you’d admit that much even if only to yourself. He liked wearing his muscle tees when he helped you work out, the ones that clung to his arms and his chest in the most devastating way. If he was working out with you, he’d usually shed his shirt less than halfway into your gym trip, and then it was damn near impossible to keep your eyes off of him. Not to mention the way he was so gentle with you when he’d adjust your form, each little touch making you wish he’d manhandle you up against the wall.
“Bin, I can’t.” You whined, pouting up at him. He shook his head.
“I know you can. Come on, give me two more.”
You sighed in defeat as he took your wrists in his hands. The firm grip he had on you made your breath catch in your throat as he brought your hands up, waiting for you to grab onto the bar. The entire time your eyes lingered on the determined look on his face. It was only when he smirked and winked at you that you realized you’d been caught in your staring.
The first set was surprisingly easy to push through, more of a welcome distraction than an obstacle. But by your break between sets, you were ready to give up and accept defeat. You watched Changbin guide the barbell back into the hooks, and let your arm fall once it was secured. You groaned, shaking them out in hopes of regaining the feeling in your muscles.
“See, one down, one to go. You’re doing so good.” He praised, and his pride in your hard work was clear just from his body language. His words traveled straight to your core as his praise often did. You only had one more set and then you could shower and decide if you needed to skip your regular smoothie stop afterwards for the sake of relieving your desperation.
“Can you give me one more, babygirl?” Your lips parted in a silent gasp at his question, and the way he looked at you with dark eyes. You were used to pet names and affection from him, but this one was entirely out of the ordinary. He stared you down with the same level confidence you’d come to admire. You shifted under the scrutiny, and you knew he could tell how restless you were getting. You nodded. “That’s not an answer, I want to hear you.”
“Yes,” You answered immediately, and his chest puffed out with pride at your obedience.
“Atta girl. Last set, let’s go.”
You adjusted your grip, determined to finish out the last set if only to hear his praise again. He counted you through it like he knew you preferred for him to, standing back just far enough that you could only see him out of your peripherals. You had never been so grateful to be finished as you were now, with Changbin guiding the bar onto its hooks for the last time that night. You wiped your clammy palms on your shorts, and sat up. You shook your arms out again as Changbin kneeled in front of you, unscrewing the cap from your water bottle.
“Good job, I knew you could do it.” He told you again. He brought the bottle up, guiding it to your lips with one hand, the other moving to tip your chin up. “Drink. Good girl, there you go.”
You couldn’t question his actions, not when your chin was being cradled by his careful touch, your mind turning to static as the cool water trickled down your throat. He pulled the bottle away, using his thumb to wipe off a couple of the droplets that had collected at the corner of your lips. You blinked a couple of times, lust blown eyes focusing on his face.
“What was that for?” You asked him breathlessly. This time it had nothing to do with the workout he’d put you through. Changbin didn’t answer, just put the cap back on the bottle and put it down.
“Do you want to fuck me?” He asked you bluntly. Your jaw dropped. If you hadn’t been completely restless before, you would have been now. There was a creeping, desperate sort of arousal picking at the edges of your mind and dripping into the depths of your body. The question wasn’t cocky or overly-teasing, if anything he sounded sincerely curious.
“What are you on about?” You laughed a little. Did you want to fuck him? Of course you did, anyone in their right mind would want him. But to ask you out of the blue like this? How could you answer that?
“I’m serious, do you want to fuck me?” He leaned his arms on his knees. “Because I want to fuck you, and you’re sort of loooking at me like there’s something you want from me.”
You nearly choked at his confession.
“I want to fuck you,” You agreed, thankful that this gym was owned by a friend and that you two were allowed to come after hours, because the words came out loud and desperate. Changbin nodded slowly, like he was taking his time to appreciate every word, every syllable.
“Good.”
He leaned down, his lips crashing against yours, hungry and slotted together like they’d been made to meet. You were more than eager to give in to the rolling power in the kiss that was all but bowling you over. You’d never kissed Changbin before, but you hoped you wouldn’t have to stop after this. He was addictive in an all-consuming, earth-shattering way that you never wanted to give up. The kiss left you breathless and brain numbed, your hands fisting into his shirt to pull him closer to you.
One of his hands cupped the back of your neck, the other coasting along your side. His hand dipped lower, ghosting across your hip bone to slide under your shorts. Your legs clamped together, stopping him from being able to touch you properly.
“Bin, wait, I’m all gross and sweaty.” You curled your nose at the thought. He gave you a puzzled look in response, slowly retracting his hand. You couldn’t help but giggle at how cute he looked all confused and vaguely annoyed, like a puppy who had his favorite toy taken away.
“Are you telling me to stop?” He asked. You paused. “Because if you want me to stop, you need to say so. Otherwise I’m fucking you, here or in the shower. Your choice, what’s it gonna be?”
You weighed your options, but you knew yourself too well to think there was really going to be a question. Your legs spread open again.
“I want you now.”
Changbin was clearly pleased with your answer, tugging your pants down your legs and leaving you open, only covered by the flimsy underwear you’d picked out. His thumb brushed over the ruined material, light as a feather as he brushed your clit. You gasped softly, turning to hide your face in your shoulder. He tested the waters again, repeating the same motion a few more times all while your hips rocked up and you whined for him.
“Binnie, please.” You begged, already growing impatient with his teasing.
“Keep begging for me like that and maybe I’ll think about it.” He teased, dipping his head down to kiss your knee. His mouth worked slowly up your inner thigh, sucking and nibbling his way along the sensitive skin in search of your most vulnerable spots. He pressed a barely there kiss to the wet patch on your panties, then his mouth was traveling back down the opposite thigh, pushing your legs open wider around his broad shoulders. The feeling of his tongue against your overheated skin was like molten lava, burning through you and turning your patience to ash.
“Changbin, please. I need your mouth, I need it. Please no more teasing.” You whined louder, threading your fingers into his hair and tugging to try and get him where you wanted him. He groaned into your skin, dark eyes turning up to you.
“Since you asked so politely.” He sat back on his heels, pulling your panties off and tossing them with your shorts without a care. You yelped at the coolness of the bench beneath you, but you quickly found yourself focused instead on the feeling of Changbin’s tongue licking slowly over your clit. Your hips followed the feeling, bucking up towards his face. He slid his arms around your thighs, easily pinning your hips in place even from where he was kneeling between your legs.
You whined as his tongue worked you over, swirling around your clit and dipping between your folds, eagerly collecting every drop of your wetness. The way he looked up at you through his dark lashes only pushed you closer to the edge, heat bubbling in your stomach.
“Fuck, please. I’m close,” You warned him, trying to wiggle your hips closer to no avail. Instead you pulled his head closer, not that he fought the opportunity to bury himself deeper in you. He was more than happy feasting on you like you were the last thing he’d ever taste and like your cries of his name were the most beautiful sound in the world.
He could tell you were close by the way your legs were trembling in his grip, straining to close around his head, and he just took it as a silent plea for more. He sucked your clit harshly, digging his fingertips into your thighs and listening to the way you gasped and moaned. He didn’t let go, holding you to his face as you came, your head tilting back and the prettiest sounds he’d ever heard spilling from your lips.
Once he’d worked you through your orgasm, he let go of your legs, and pulled his mouth off of you with one final suck to your clit. He chuckled at the way you mewled, your legs pressing shut.
He took in the blissed out look on your face as you caught your breath, palming himself through his own shorts. He was desperate to be inside of you, but he didn’t want to push you too far. He let you breathe, his hand running the length of your thigh to bring you back. It only took a moment for your eyes to open and land on him. He smiled.
“Still needy?” He teased. “Want me to fuck you? Get you ready for my cock?”
He reached out, sliding his finger through the mess he’d made between your thighs and slowly dipping his fingertip into your hole. It wasn’t nearly enough to satisfy, just enough to have you pouting and wiggling to try and pull him deeper. He watched the way your body absolutely shuttered at the stimulation.
“Changbin, please,” You half huffed. How had you gotten yourself attached to someone so irritating? You pouted at him, spreading yourself open in invitation. That seemed to catch his merciful side as he slid his finger all the way into your pussy.
You tilted your head back, making a quiet noise of appreciation at the way his finger spread you open. His hands were big, you’d always known that, but they felt so different than yours when he touched you like this. Just one finger felt like two of your own, thick and pressing just where you liked it. He pumped it inside of you at an agonizingly slow pace before finally adding a second and listening to you mewl for him.
“Look how good you take my fingers. Gonna fill you up with my cock in no time.” He purred, leaning down to suck a mark against the inside of your thigh as his fingers scissored you open. You were already gushing around his fingers, your mind filled with the thought of him splitting you open on his dick and fucking you like there was no tomorrow.
“I want your cock, Bin. I can take it, just please.” You whined, rolling your hips in time with the thrusts of his fingers into you. He had planned on taking his time, getting you nice and ready to take him, but you were having none of it. “I can take it. I need you to fill me up.”
You batted your eyelashes, still rocking your hips into his touch as you tried to win this standoff. Finally he gave in, his dick aching for attention. He tugged his shirt off, then pushed his pants off, stripping himself completely.
“So desperate to take me, huh babygirl?” He cooed, stroking his cock. Your eyes went wide at his size. He wasn’t exceedingly long, but he was thick and heavy just like the rest of him. Your mouth was watering at the sight alone, and you could feel your pulse in your pussy. You nodded at his remark. “Yeah, just need to be filled up.”
You would have agreed even more at that, but you couldn’t even begin to think as he ran the tip of his length between your folds, bumping it against your clit and watching the way your hips jerked each time.
“Tell me if you want to stop, you know I’ll stop.” He said, reaching up with his free hand to brush his fingers along your cheek. With that little moment, you felt stone cold sober again, remembering what you were doing, who you were doing it with. Your heart picked up again, desperation mingling with a newfound anxiety at the situation. But you didn’t want to stop, you didn’t want to miss out on this.
He moved slowly, the tip of his cock bullying its way into your hole, stretching you open in a way you simply had never felt before. You hissed, reaching down to rub your clit, dragging your fingers along the little bundle of nerves as you adjusted to the stretch. Changbin started to pull back out of you, but you shook your head.
“Keep going, I can do it. I wanna take it all.” You told him. Your eyes met, and he groaned. When had he gotten this lucky?
He pushed in further, slowly rolling his hips into yours until he was buried all the way to the hilt in your soaking heat. Your walls fluttered around him as you got used to it, desperate for more and dizzy with the way he filled you up. He was pressing up against places you didn’t even know existed inside of you, sending sparks through your tummy with every miniscule shift.
“Are you okay?” He asked, his hand stroking your side. You nodded almost frantically. You were good, you were actually fantastic, and you were about three strokes from creaming on his cock. Which should have been embarrassing, but you couldn’t find it in you to be embarrassed when that was actually the only thing you wanted.
“I’m good, Binnie. Just fuck me, please. Like you mean it.”
His eyes flashed with something almost feral, and his hips drew back so quickly that you were half worried you’d said something wrong. Then he was pushing back into you, deep and hard, his hands gripping at your waist hard enough to bruise, which was more than you could ask for. You choked out a surprised moan, your legs wrapping around the curve of his hips. The pace was slow, but each thrust was brutal, his hips slapping against yours and his cock pressing into you and stretching you open.
“So good, fuck, need more. Faster,” You begged, digging your nails into the muscle of his back, surely leaving red marks in your wake. A little bit of a claim to the man currently fucking you into oblivion. He obliged, picking up his pace until you were practically sobbing. His thrusts were impossibly steady as he dragged you to meet him halfway.
Your orgasm was creeping up, your sanity blurring along the edges at the way he was absolutely wrecking your pussy, his hands holding you tight, both to pull you into him and to keep from fucking you off the surface with the sheer momentum he was putting into each thrust. You weren’t complaining in the least, chanting his name and a string of curses that could probably be heard from the next building over.
“Gonna cum. Please don’t stop, feels so good,” Your words were beginning to slur together, melting into incoherent whimpers as you felt your second orgasm take over. It was hotter than the last, searing through you and making your back arch and pressing your chest up against his.
“That’s it, cum on my cock,” he practically purred, kissing you breathlessly as he chased his own orgasm. His own pants and grunts were becoming louder, more desperate until he was groaning and hissing. You would have tried harder to take them in, but you were too far gone, trembling from the overstimulation of Changbin rutting into you for his own satisfaction. “Almost there, baby. Just a little more,”
He kissed along your jaw, his hips stuttering out a few more hard thrusts until he was spilling into you, filling you up impossibly more. You hummed, fighting to keep your eyes open. The room felt like it was spinning after the intensity of your orgasm. It took you a good few moments to realize that Changbin was stroking his hands over your arms, along your shoulders, carefully grounding you back to him.
You laughed a little bit breathlessly.
“What?” He furrowed his eyebrows, pulling out of you slowly and watching the way your hips twitched under him.
“I’ve imagined fucking you a lot, but that was better than anything I could imagine.” You told him, too exhausted and fucked out to be embarrassed about having fantasized about your friend. “I think you doubled my workout. Does that mean I get off next week?”
“In your dreams, loser. Let’s get you cleaned up.” He pulled on his underwear, then paused to smirk at you. “Do you think you can walk or am I gonna have to carry you?”
You glared at him, grateful that your natural banter wasn’t thrown off.
“I can walk, asshole.” You argued, though you actually weren’t entirely sure if that was true or not, and you didn’t care to test it when you could just let a big strong man carry you to the showers. “Up.”
You reached your arms up for him, and he scooped you up with nothing more than a laugh and a kiss to the head.
You weren’t sure how this was going to change your friendship, but if this was going to be the new workout plan Changbin had for you, you were convinced you wouldn’t mind training with him anymore.
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bluebyrd-bookreviews · 10 months
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I read When Women Were Dragons today and I can tell that the author has a lot to say and wants to explore, but I don't think she necessarily did so successfully
The book follows Alex Green as she explores the magical realism world of the 1950s as angry women get fed up with their lives en masse and turn into literal dragons and disappear
It is certainly an interesting premise and one I will not bash. It was really interesting, especially in the beginning as it explores the world of a child who is never allowed to ask questions or receive information to help her understand the strange world as her mother develops cancer and her aunt then gets fed up with life and turns into a dragon, leaving her with a new little sister and the memory of an aunt she is never allowed to talk about. Personally, I love this set up. It's really interesting and gives a lot of internal and external conflict.
We read as Alex grows up in Suburban AmericaTM with her mother who gradually grows more fragile, a father who gradually grows distant, and a little sister/cousin (this fact will be brought up constantly) who is bombastic and the spitting picture of her birth mother. Alex is smart and attends Catholic school where she is constantly in trouble for her "crazy" ideas and she falls in love with the girl down the street
There are also supplemental documents thrown in there, typically documenting the life of Dr. Gantz who is the leading disgraced scientist of dragon research. I absolutely love the use of in world documents as a story telling device, but this was a total fucking waste of time, in my opinion. I felt like none of the information was actually relevant to the plot itself nor did it effectively worldbuild
By the end of the story, the dragons were honestly a total flop
I'm typically not a stickler for dimensions and the like, but the sizing was so fucking inconsistent. At some moments the dragons seemed almost anthropomorphic in their size and shape, other times they were large enough to pick up tanks. It's stupidly confusing for literally no reason
The other issue is literally the core plot of the book: why do women turn into dragons? At first, it's clearly anger and frustration, but about half way through it starts completely disintegrating and some people turn because they are lesbian and full of queer love?? Her mother never turns becuase,,,,, why? Alex never turns at all despite showing early on that she had the ability to, she just simply never does. Maybe this is just me, but I feel like I should understand the basic worldbuilding concepts better at the end instead of worse
And then the magic of knots. It is a motif seen throughout the book, especially in connection to Alex's mother as she was a mathematician who studied knots as well as being an incredibly skilled fiber artist. It's also introduced in a supplemental text where it describes a town who found magic knots that tied down women. Like, obviously there is a connection there, right? Especially as she gets sick and beings frantically tying complicated knots on her daughters hands as she gets dick again. But that's it. The magic of knots simply ceases being anything beyond a motif. Maybe that's why Alex never transformed, but it is never actually explored and it's extremely strange to me. They kind of just exist with an implied magic and connection to her dead mom but they don't actually, like, do anything for the plot
Final issue with this story: it very explicitly only focuses on white upper middle class housewives
Other societal issues are mentioned offhandedly, but they always happen somewhere else. Despite it clearly being about female rage (in the beginning), there is absolutely no exploration of black or poor women's rage. They all just kinda exist off screen.
It touts itself as being a feminist story yet only ever seems to discuss the most surface level white feminism that almost engages in 80s feminism that says women can only be liberated if they all become lesbians and live separately from men (aka misandry)
Tldr: I didn't hate the book and wouldn't stop anyone from reading it, but the world building and themes are incredibly flimsy and it engages in such weake and surface level feminism that it honestly leaves a lot to be desired. I would love to see this concept written with much more depth in all front because in my opinion, it certainly does have potential
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