#but like at least one other agrees

[why-the-heck-not]

20.12.23, wednesday

My main hobby is just procrastinating in any way I can. The plan was to make a cup of coffee and then start working. What actually happened is that I watched a 3 part video series (by james hoffmann ofc) on Aeropress coffee and made a few cups with different variables. Still not sure if I found The Recipe for me, but it’s getting better (tho I don’t love the coffee beans I have)

#altho i’m not sure I agree that inverted method is not worth the risks #maybe I just pour my water in too slow (bc I get nervous abt pouring too much) but there’s a fair bit of liquid that manages to get through #before I can place the vacuum on there #so I did it with inverted method #what I took from his recipe was the swirling instead of stirring and letting it rest for 30secs after to get a more even bed of coffee #I did 14g of coffee & 200g of water with a 5min brew -> swirl -> another 30seconds of letting it rest before pressing gentlyy for like 20-3 #seconds #but idk it’s a bit ’’one note’’ #which could be the beans #I have medium roast rn and I prefer light roast but the light roast beans have been no where to be found lately idk why #(there aren’t many actual light roast beans and the other ones are waay out of my budget) #(or at least good ones; there’s the one affordable light roast that’s everywhere but I don’t like it that much (but tbf should’ve still #bought that instead of these ones I got)) #like this is still way better than what the drip coffee of those beans are #and the achilles heel is that I don’t have a thermometer of any kind so my water temperature is guesswork every time #so tweaking variables is always a bit sketchy bc idk if I just had a better water temperature that time #studyblr #booklr #aesthetic #bookblr #books #study #reading #read #book #coffee #2023 #december 2023

[necromycologist]

rip ianthe tridentarius... born to be the one and only fucked up failgirl forced to somehow end up as the voice of reason

#like. ianthe is pretty insane we can all agree on this. #she ate a guy. she has nasty infectious rizz she had a girl homoerotically regrow her arm she did a lobotomy. she is a genius and a loser. #in any other fandom she would win hands down. unfortunately this is not any other fandom. #gideon and harrow are doing their whole orpheus and euridyce shit camilla was so codependent w/ her necro she merged her soul with him #pyrrha is a 1000-yr-old butch living in the corpse of her best friend alecto is the fucking vengeful soul of the earth. #don even get me started on mercymorn or commander wake or coronabeth... infact maybe dont get me started at all. #what imsaying is that ianthe may be insane but at least she's logical about it. #she killed a man for ultimate power. dick move yeah. but gideon killed HERSELF out of LOVE and took her gf tryna SAVE HER as a REJECTION. #one of these gals is more fucked in the head than the other BY FAR. rip ianthe second place even at being a failure #ianthe tridentarius #tlt

[starflungwaddledee]

Hear me out…Meta Knight and Starstruck

✧˖°.✧ gravity ✧˖°.✧ ɡravɪti (noun) 1. the force that attracts a body towards the centre of the earth or towards any other physical body having mass 2. the degree of intensity of gravity, measured by acceleration 3. extreme importance; seriousness 4. solemnity of manner

#🎀💖 #🎀🔍 #meta knight #starstruck dee #my art #“might be funny” i agree!! and yet!! somehow i took it deadly serious!! uhhh..... sorry #wrapping up the month with the most popular prompt. they were tied then meta knight overtook sailor dee right at the end #(i guess coz i did sailor's earlier?) i'll still be doing others but i'm obviously a bit behind schedule sorry! #uhm.... haha. #bit of a ribbonemoji workout on this one. #i'm too attached to the pretentiousness of my caption (🔍🔍🔍) to add this to the main post & i'll come back to this later... #but in my worldbuilding Celestials have a behaviour called Sky Dancing. looks a lot like this. bird understanders pspspsps. iykyk #and as always: “is this one canon?” HHHHMMRR. i'm not sure yet. can i say that? i'm still deciding. this one is imo most feasible #at least as something with any actual Romantic Coding. has the kind of rivals > friends > lovers plotline as well which is always fun. #but i think they have to be stupid for a long time before they'd get *here*.... #and i'm just not sure they'd have the chance before ███████ ██████ █████ ██ ████ ███.

[statementlou]

The One Direction ones honestly, well there's two things… I have like certain songs that I like more than others in the One Direction stuff but then.. what's been a challenge at times is... let's just take maybe the cheesiest of our songs, right, let's just take a What Makes You Beautiful- you kinda have to do that as it was, I couldn't reinvent that and make it [huge air quotes] "cool," I don't really think it exists in a cool realm or something like that you know it's a slightly different thing

--Louis talking about maybe adding a different 1D song to the set for the upcoming tour leg

#LMAOOO I just think it's funny okay #I suppose the solos are all over this saying he's shading harry #and others will say he was winking to harry a bit #I do NOT agree with either interpretation I think this is very much a yinyang tattoo situation iykwim #also I would argue that night changes is at least as cheesy and you wORKED IT with that one #but mostly I'm just laughing at him being like that song is so fucken uncool

[erytherion]

Reading the webtoon and…

Does this imply that Kim Dokja also tried to write a questionnaire for her to fill in since she wouldn’t speak to him, that either he 1) never gave her in the end (especially if he couldn’t find her after she was released) or 2) gave it to her and she STILL refused to answer?

Because that is so so so so awful. It was already bad but if he tried so many ways to get her to speak and she still gave him no response, regardless of her reasoning… isn’t that still directly choosing to cut herself fully out of his life? Why in the hell did she lie for his sake and allow him to visit her if she wanted to never speak to him again?

I know everyone claims Kim Dokja is just like her in sacrificing himself for loved ones, but at least he tries his best to stay with them and to keep them in his life. He still chooses sacrifice, but it’s not because he intends to never return. He always returns (even if much later than planned).

The only time this differs is with 51%, when he STILL tried his best to stay with them - at least as much as he could.

I sometimes like Lee Sookyung, but I am mostly still SO mad at her for completely ignoring her child since he was 8 years old. Especially when he must have looked like shit any number of times from being mistreated and bullied by family, friends, army, employers.

But maybe that’s just the fragment in me being eternally pissed with her. She DOES love him, but like he says in the webtoon in this chapter - maybe such truths are painful enough to be false anyways, because they’re just SUCH bullshit. That’s not how affection should work, if you actually care about someone and want them to be happy.

#RAWWRGHHH I WANT TO SHAKE HER SO MUCH #LOOK AFTER YOUR KID #and if you can’t do that because of circumstances at least ACKNOWLEDGE HIM #yes I do know she cared and it’s just that she mistakenly believes he’s better off this way without her but like #then WHY does she still insert herself back into his life when he’s finally stopped trying to get her to speak? #yes yes others have great analyses on her and their relationship and I usually agree with their logic but it’s still. So. Hard. to like her #but then I remember that this story was the little Dream’s wishful thinking to cope back then on his own #and so maybe in his world Lee Sookyung never ever would speak to him again #he just wished she would so he wrote it down as happening for This older version of him #and that’s somehow worse because like #even in the story where he got her to speak to him again she still won’t speak so he has to force the words out some way (via outer god) #and if that’s true then it’s still just his interpretation of her actions and choices #and not her own since she never told him #so like ARGGHHH #but I like to believe that characters have autonomy despite their respective author’s efforts in documenting them #so she still chose to speak all of this too and he would have accurately interpreted her this way because she controls what she says #even if he (little Dream Kim Dokja) is the one writing it down as wish fulfilment fix-it fic #a fix-it for himself and not just for the other people he loves #😭😭😭 #orv #orv spoilers #omniscient reader’s viewpoint #lee sookyung #kim dokja

[aaandbackstabbed]

Webby, intense fake laugh: don’t be late or I’ll slit your throats!

Louie: you don’t have to laugh we know you’re not joking

Webby: good.

#she is so very serious #this is also Huey #before anyone else says it #bec if there one thing they agree on it’s being on time #Dewey and Louie on the other hand… #Dewey is just pocket sized adhd #and Louie dgaf #he gets where he wants when it suits him #Dewey at least tries to be on time #he’s just not very good at it #Huey is the kind of guy who gets there at least 30 minutes early #Webby is only mildly better #but she cannot stand when people are late #maybe that’s her grannies influence #because you just know beakely does not tolerate lateness #like absolutely not #and it’s been passed down 100% #webby vanderquack #Louie duck #ducktales #incorrect quotes

[greypetrel]

Can the word please stop with feminist retellings of myths, please?

They're even more annoying than Mafia AUs where the Mafia is portrayed as something good, Robin Hood-like. (no.)

I'm just so tired, even the ones that are written good are... Listen, I liked TSoA. I really did. But there's nothing feminist in it, sorry not sorry, or just explain how do you think Tethys is more feminist in MM book than in the Iliad, where she's the best mom around, moving mountains and convincing Zeus to go out of his way to help her baby. Because honestly I don't see the feminism in that Tethys.

#rant #personal crap #MM at least read her sources there are others which... Didn't. #like you can't do a feminist retelling of Medea and present her as “the good misunderstood one” #EURIPIDES would agree that she got badly wronges... She also dismembered her own brother and her own sons and that's not being misunderstoo

[vargaslovinghours]

That TV-Y7 rating is about to get a swift reassessment with that kind of language

#💟 #Doodles #Art #Edgar #Scriabin #Crossover #Wander Over Yonder #Hi hello WOY brainrot overspill <3 #They're really fun to draw like this lol #Shock to no one Vargas has once again been caught in the crossfire of the Big Ideas of Latest Thing haha #I wasn't expecting it Exactly but by this point I also can't say I wasn't at least considering it until it became a full fledged thing #Me looking at The Property of Hate/WOY crossover like ''Haha so cute'' and then I start getting ideas for this like ''Ah fuck'' lol #It really did just start as a style challenge - too fun! :D My notes couldn't decide what lovechild this style would count as #Invader ZiM/Adventure Time or IZ/Steven Universe? Or all three? Some of my other doodles were way more SU haha #And of course IZ 'cause y'know :P Jhonen - unavoidable #As if they weren't already stick figured enough haha ♪ A bit of rubberhose never hurt anyone :) #Getting Edgar's glasses to agree with the cartoony eyes-touching style was a real challenge lol #Scriabin on the other hand looks fantastic <3 His glasses are basically already his eyes so leaning into that is really fun :D #I really love the one of Wander hugging Edgar haha ♥ He needs hugs and Wander has the goods! Lol #He's all silly-wrapped around his waist haha ♪ He's just so slight! I bet Wander would be nice to pick up and hug as well :) #Had to give a quick sidetrack to my fave <3 Red-and-black villain! Napoleon complex! Not to mention his relationship options haha ♪ #Also deeply feeling my roots with Scriabin's coat all fluttered behind him hehehe ♫ #They'd have to be aliens of some kind to fit the setting right? Throw their dynamic into Slightly more sci-fi terms to be better understood #I guess they could also be clones? Well however it works out lol ♪ Oddly kind of Dating Sim-adjacent of both being available to talk to? #Wander would certainly have his work cut out for him - Sylvia's fast-tracked to Devi's conclusion lol #No bullying around Sylvia Or Else hahaha #How would they work around Scriabin's ability to be mean through telepathy! #And even more confounding when he's being nice and then turns around and is mean again haha ♪ False hope everywhere #It's fun to think about how they might interact hehe

[rotisseries]

chapters 51 and 58 of bloodmarked are absolutely CARRYING bree/nick/selwyn polyamory truthers

#selwyn is kind of a stupid name I realized as I was typing this. like I've gotten used to it over 2 books but it's so silly. selwyn #anyway. me disappearing for days and only showing up for like 30 minutes to reblog 3 things #and make a nigh incomprehensible post letting you guys know what book I'm reading now (read. I finished it yesterday actually. #now I'm rereading legendborn bc I'm apparently not ready to move on to a new book and also I forgot most of the shit from that book) #anyway I've been on the polyamory train for these 3 since I read legendborn in 2020 but I swear it's only gotten stronger #like what do you MEAN selwyn (magically oathed to protect nick) FEELS SAFER with nick around #THE SAME WAY BREE DOES. AND BOTH SELWYN AND NICK LIKE. AGREE ON HOW MUCH THEY LOVE BREE. AND THERE'S NO WEIRD JEALOUSY ABOUT IT #AND SELWYN CANONICALLY WAS AT ONE POINT IN LOVE WITH NICK???? #AND NICK LITERALLY SAYS TO SEL “I CAN'T LOSE YOU AND I WON'T LOSE HER”???? #LIKE????? #THERE IS NO WAY THIS IS YOUR STANDARD ASS LOVE TRIANGLE IT'S GOTTA BE AT LEAST A LITTLE POLYAMORUS #IF NOT A FULL TRIANGLE BREE SHOULD AT *LEAST* GET 2 BOYFRIENDS. SHE DESERVES IT #even if it does end up a standard love triangle though this is honestly a genuinely good one #like I genuinely like both love interests neither of them are weird or annoying or creepy about her #anyway. need book 3 out as soon as possible I swear to god I almost can't see how this ends in monogamy #I'm talking about the legendborn series by tracy deonn btw everyone #another arthurian inspired book series which if you saw my other post the other day I swear this isn't intentional #legendborn #bloodmarked #the legendborn cycle #tracy deonn #bree matthews #nick davis #selwyn kane

[mantisgodsart]

We have finally finished this project, and thus, The World's Worst Dating Sim is finally DONE! Just in time for April Fools Day. Now, with our six new contestants, choose, uhh... who's dateable? Or not dateable? This last batch was determined almost entirely by People Telling Us Who To Add, contains multiple AUs, and is... hmm. "Unconventional" may be a good term? Half of these are probably undateable but you can still shoot your shot.

As previously, it can be a platonic date if you want, you just can't be neutral. Deadlander Lambda belongs to @cordycepsbian and has been moved into our studio for duration of this poll. Profiles below the cut.

(we're linking the first poll here)

Deadlander Lambda - Maybe - Deadlander - Good question - At least a little bit

This, uhh...

...is this safe? We don't think this is safe. ..."Already had kids before"? What do you mean it's a parent?

...well, we can't get it out of the studio, so it's an option now? We guess? This... really doesn't seem like a good idea.

Rogu - He/him - Ant drone - Very rude to ask a gentleman that, don't you think? - I wouldn't worry about that.

A charming mystery from somewhere only described as "a faraway land", though he wasn't quite scheduled in this lineup, we think we can make an exception. This silver-tongued bug seems to be able to say just what's needed to get under your skin... and from the look of it, he's angling to take you somewhere private.

...come to think of it, haven't we seen that face before? On a poster, maybe? Well, it's not a surprise he's been modelling for things, he's certainly got a pretty enough face for it, but why do we feel... nervous, all of a sudden?

Carmina - She/(scribbled in)it - (illegible) - (illegible) - (illegible)(scribbled out with "No longer relevant" written in its place)

...where is she? She was meant to show up hours ago. What on earth could have held her up this long?

Pebbles - He/him - Moth ("iterator") - Juvenile (estimated) - Unclear

Right out of surgery, this one. While we're not sure if it's entirely responsible to include this one, and we certainly don't speak whatever language he's speaking... he's cute, isn't he? And looking for a home? Well, maybe if you're the sort of person who might want to rescue a domestic moth in a bad situation...

Wereweevil Vi - It/its (wereweevil form) - Wereweevil - 19 - Aro

Pre-existing hangups mean that you can only date this one in wereweevil form. Good luck.

Kina - She/her - Mantis (big) - Haven't asked - Also haven't asked    

Well, we assume that you can do less lethal than the bandit who people mostly know thanks to her former job as a corpse disposal unit, but some people might be into that sort of thing, honestly. Are you, perchance, also a mantis?

#our art #bug fables #finished #watercolor #ocs #other peoples ocs #deadlander lambda #monsieur scarlet #carmina #five pebbles #wereweevil vi #kina #valentines #or we're tagging it as such for organization its actually an april fools poll #we treat the two events with about the same gravity so it fits #for clarification purposes: five pebbles is several centuries old and would be very offended at being called juvenile #however he is less than an inch tall and built like a stick and doesnt speak bugnish at all #so he spends most of his time lurking beneath furniture and trying to bite people with his new mouth. much to the hospitals distaste. #although the wereweevil is vi or at least an aspect of her it is not a terribly sapient one #it is hungry and afraid and desperate and lashing out in search of any pack #in search of ANY connection it can find #and the only way it knows how to do that is by violently mauling everyone and everything in its path so uhh good luck bucko #wereweevil vi in normal form has way too many hangups over intimacy to agree to an outing and must be approached like a feral cat #we know about the normal timeline and we added extra years so that she has the time to acquire more problems #thus ends our FAQ. good luck #EDIT: typo in the tags. ough

[roostertuftart]

Can we stop W the “if you have a different opinion on sp you clearly haven’t watched the show” bit. it’s. Very annoying

#I get that there’s like. some young TikTok fans who rly haven’t seen it #and putting aside that that’s not inherently bad #bruh like. pretty much everyone on Tumblr has seen the whole thing #there are dozens of meta writers here with absurdly different opinions who have all seen the show through and through multiple times #and came to different conclusions #and we can and should debate that but this take that anyone who isn’t like #in agreement on things that even Matt and trey are inconsistent on… like. #can u stop that actually it’s genuinely just kinda toxic in a community we can ALL agree needs to be less so #South Park fandom #South Park meta #it’s so weirdly like. uppity too. some of u sound like those annoying rick and morty fans who got memed on in 2018 #I get it we all have opinions on the show we all think we the right ones actually but PLEASE be decent about it at least in the presence #of ppl who don’t agree with you. it’s a cartoon. you’re not moving ppl over by being an asshole about your disagreements #we can debate and be chill and nice to each other about it #god Ik I’m going on about this but I’m just sick of genersl toxicity in the community and this is the one I’m seeing recently

[archduke-enver-gortash]

mmm essay about sally and kid gort in the tags (cw for child abuse, mentions of suicide, animal cruelty and a murder attempt. i always hope i don’t have to say this but just in case: i don’t excuse or condone any of her or gort’s behaviour at all.) this is literally not even touching upon everything i have to say because i hit the fucking tag limit lmao. NOBODY READ IT’S BAD BRAINSTORMING I JUST NEEDED TO GET IT OUT SOMEHOW

#thinkin too much about gortie side characters again. #sally this time and why she specifically talks about him the way she does #like dravo is obviously still shitty but to me he was. ‘just ‘neglectful #while sally actively hated and even felt terrorised by her own child #like. it’s not like i don’t understand her at all. #imagine you and your love don’t have much besides each other and your shop and you get pregnant and ready to raise a child #only for it to not be a child he didn’t and doesn’t cry ever and he learns everything so much sooner than most but then he never calls you #his parents and it’s not just a petty thing kids do sometimes you feel that he doesn’t see you as family and the worst part is that you #agree deep down #and as he gets older he doesn’t have any friends and actively rejects the notion of the entire concept #but then as time passes you hear about how he has entire groups of children following him and then several of them commit suicide #and that thing coming to sit with you and dravo at the dinner table says that he did what you did last week when the axe to chop wood broke #and you discarded it and got a new one #and he has these habits of ripping out flowers and making sure that they don’t regrow #and then you hear rumours about a friend’s daughter’s cat disappearing and think nothing of it #until you visit his tree house a month later and find a declawed cat and birds with clipped wings and crushed bugs that he keeps fondly #and then you see him with other children and they don’t know and his face is different and body language is entirely different #and were it not for the fact that you know better you would never see anything but a normal child #and you know that you are one who painstakingly brought this thing that should not be into the world and so you decide to end it all one da #and go to him as he’s asleep with the knife shaking in your hand #but he cries when you’re above him! screams at the top of his lungs! #so you beg for forgiveness even though you don’t deserve it through tears but as soon as the knife is put away you see the act drop and fee #his clever fingers having twisted your brain inside and out and you know that you can do nothing #and so the opportunity arises to at least remove him out of your life if not everyone’s lives and you take it immediately. #but you heard him talk. how he will close his fist around the world one day. and you know that it is not a matter of if but when. #like. imagine that. jesus dude. #like i hc her as someone that is messy and does not know a lot about life and she certainly wouldn’t have been a good mother but the love #or at least desire to love is there somewhere. and believing that having a child is really the only somewhat meaningful thing she can do #with her life. she’s not some hero or rich or anything of note. so there’s a lot obligation and not genuine desire for family here. #but she never really got the chance to be an actual mother in the first place so. who knows what that might have looked like

[blueberryspyder]

I know my blog doesn’t have like, any followers, but I wanna make it clear that transmisogynists are not welcome here. I also know for a fact I have some people I need to unfollow for being transmisogynists. The last few months I’ve been very, very confused by wtf “transandrophobia” was, and I had only ever seen the “good” side of it, and never the side of it being used to actively hurt trans women. I’ll admit I’m still confused on certain things, but I’m not above admitting that I might be wrong and I’m willing to learn, so thank you for your patience.

To any trans women/trans fems who follow me: I support you, and I want you to feel safe here.

Edit: I’m retracting the bit about transandrophobia, since some of y’all have been really kind (genuinely) and helped explain the theory to me (as well as the antisemitism behind the “truther” term, which I apologize for).

To any fellow trans men/trans mascs that follow me: I want you to ALSO feel safe here. Even if my original message came from a good place, it was still worded poorly and painted us in a bad light. I won’t delete this post cause I don’t want to hide from my misconceptions and help others like me who are confused, and because I want to stand behind the message that transphobia of any kind is NOT welcome here. Thank you 😊

#captain's log #wanted to make it clear #since I’ve been very in the dark about what transandrophobia stood for #I never fully believed in it but I did agree with some of their comments #I saw there was… antagonistic energy towards the group to say the least #and the way they would respond put me off #so I sat outside of it and looked at it through a critical lens before diving in #and then I saw that one anon message and went ‘ah okay’ #remember: you are not immune to propaganda/cult like mentality #I’m grateful I’ve learned to be critical about what others tell me #and to look into things before I take a stance #and I can’t beat myself up for that because I thought it was just a blog dedicated to trans men! and I’m trans masc! #but after learning about it I started looking at what they were really saying and I didn’t. like a lot of what I saw #but I still saw things that I agreed with #so I was confused #it feels hard to ask about it yknow? especially since I was only seeing the ‘hate’ from people who didn’t believe it existed #so I’m really glad I found that long post from earlier it really shed some light for me

[lecliss]

I'll never be able to take the theory that Vincent is Sephiroth's real father seriously cuz I cannot stress enough how important I think it is to the plot that Vincent wanted to fuck Lucrecia and did not get to.

#once again i jest but now i have to actually talk about it #like. okay we have no proof of any actual timeline for the dirge flashbacks other than. it was at least 30 years ago #so who knows how long they were at the manor. could have been weeks before The Incident. or months. or maybe a full year! who knows #but to me a timeline of like. they fucked and like a week later vincent found The Evidence and lucercia had her little breakdown #AND THEN EXTREMELY QUICKLY SHE AGREED TO THE EXPERIMENT AND IT COULD GO ONE OF TWO WAYS #1. she knew she was pregnant and thats why she agreed to the experiment cuz there was already a usable subject #and therefore she must have fucked hojo like a week after she fucked vincent AND THATS STUPID FAST FOR THESE EVENTS #or 2. she didnt know. agreed to the experiment. fucked hojo. and therefore thought seph was hojo's and NOT vincent's #AND BY THE WAY. i dont even actually believe hojo fucked either!!! cuz theyre both scientists so why wouldnt they think IVF was the best way #okay. well.... hojo is canonically a fucked up little freak. so. he might have taken the opportunity to... get in there. #also when did ivf even start being a thing? cuz that may play a factor into this if nomura even considered that #well either way lets just unfortunately assume hojo got in there #ITS STILL AN ODDLY FAST TIMELINE #also. fuck man doesnt lucrecia have a later line in dirge where she actually says shes in love with hojo? or something along those lines #IMPLYING ITS BEEN AWHILE SINCE SHE HAD THE FALLING OUT WITH VINCENT. YOU WOULDNT FUCK THE GUY AFTER ALL THAT SHIT #AND WHILE CLAIMING TO LOVE/CURRENTLY FALLING IN LOVE WITH HOJO!!!! LIKE CMON MAN!!!! SHE SUCKS BUT SHES NOT THAT KIND OF A MESS #i dont think vincent would fuck her until they sorted out their issues anyway and that CLEARLY didnt happen. #its VITAL that that did not happen!!!! #its just. if vincent and lucrecia fucked. everything would have had to happen EXTREMELY fast within like a 2 week timespan #and im just talking about up to when vincent learns shes partaking in the experiment. it was probably another week or two until vincent died #SO. logically it must have been like #fall in love->learn about the gimoire incident->refuse to speak to vincent->get obsessed with hojo->fall in love(?) #and then thats where i think its ambiguous on did the experiment become an idea before or after seph started to exist? #like chicken or the egg ya know. experiment idea or sephiroth zygote? #that feels fucked up to say. im so fucking sorry to seph to talk about this. yeah sorry i have to debate who fucked your mom bro #god imagine telling him that. like not even as a reveal thing cuz he knows who his father is. just like as a sick joke. your mom joke. #NO OH M Y GOD I HAVE A QUESTION NOW #in accordance to him having a photo of lucrecia in ever crisis. after he reads that jenova is an ancient (incorrect btw) #does he think that picture is still her? what about when he takes jenova's body from the lab???? #oh my god 30 tag limit. FUCK. i need like a rant blog for all this vincent talk now. my brain is going a mile a minute

[aemiron-main]

this is how bob and jim shouldve broken into the creel house in tfs

#stranger things #bob newby #jim hopper #jim wouldve asked to be the battering ram #but then wouldve realized that hes too big for bob to lift #and then he wouldve had a whole spiel convincing bob to agree to be the battering ram #*tfs jim voice* ‘i saw joyce with a copy of Battering Rams Unlimited Maganzine the other day… yeah yeah bob shes TOTALLY into it-‘ #‘youll be like godzilla!! yknow destroying buildings- or i guess doors. a door. just like godzilla. he had to have destroyed at least- #-one door.’ #‘totally bob youll totally be ‘based and godzillapilled’ whatever that means man yeah sure!!’ #‘im not calling you bobzilla. at least not in public.’

[nametakensff]

Little AuDHD complaint under the readmore (skip over if you can't be bothered with the negativity because even I can't be bothered with my own feelings right now)

I've been struggling a bit this week - likely PMS which has now become a late period - but my friend is coming down this weekend. Originally we had plans for her to come down Friday but that moved to Saturday for reasons beyond her control. I've been thinking about it all week and trying my best to get the house organised and all that but it's been hard to even look after myself. Like I can't concentrate at all either so I'm just having a hard time being a functioning human. I've failed to get half as many things done as I planned but I really tried.

I was supposed to pick her up at like 11am at the train station but now she's said that another friend will be around at that time so she'll just meet me at 1pm at the location we planned to meet up with our mutual friend. And I know to most people this is totally reasonable, like why wouldn't you try and see as many friends as possible when you're not often in the area?

But it always just makes me feel like I'm just an option when this kind of thing happens? Like I'm an interchangeable friend or a box to be ticked rather than THE reason she's coming to visit. I matter so little that a last-minute spontaneous meeting with someone else takes priority.

It also messed with my plans and one thing I really struggle with is spontaneous changes in plans. I can't force people to comply with this because I'd just feel selfish but it completely throws me off, especially when I'm in this state where everything is so hard for me to keep together.

Idk man it's probably worsened by rejection sensitivity dysphoria - scratch that, it's TOTALLY worsened by that. I'm incredibly sensitive and I have to keep it in check constantly.

Even if I rationalise the situation and know there was no intent to hurt me and ofc my friend cares for me, it doesn't change the initial 'oh...' feeling of my heart sinking a little bit. Which makes me feel pathetic which makes me feel insane which makes me feel even worse about myself even though I shouldn't beat myself up over my neurological disabilities.

Just another joyful day of feeling shame when people hurt me because the hurt I feel is unintentional on their part and people don't think the way I do. Rationality only goes so far. I still feel like a very sad individual right now.

#idk man my sister gets it and agreed its lowkey shitty #because she's undiagnosed ADHD but probably exhibits more obvious symptoms than me and it's been hard for her w/ executive dysfunction #so we both feel a little like...the effort we put in for other people is rarely reciprocated? at least to the same degree of consideration #and this is one of my closest friends and I KNOW there is zero malice involved but again. my brain's wired differently lol #it's just all round unfortunate #nttalks