#coping with losing their reality

[dirtytransmasc]

What if Miles didn't save his dad and his universe collapsed anyway.

It'd happen so fast, one minute he's rushing to his dad and the next he's sprawled across the ground, shoved off course by someone.

(Miguel is an option but I like the idea it's just some random Spiderman.)

Miles 'canon' events happens but his universe still glitches, half of it falling into the Spot's holes as it does as the villain becomes more and more unstable.

1610 collapses in front of everyone, swallowed up by the ever growing pitch black holes, leaving only Miles Morales as it's lone survivor.

to say the boy would be a mess, would be more than an understatement, it wouldn't even come close enough to smell, let alone touch, the way Miles is feeling. but he wouldn't just be sad or gutted or hopeless or even broken after losing everything; he'd be angry.

if he allowed himself to be dragged from the glitching, fading rubble of his now barren dimension, he would rip HQ apart, piece by piece. he'd scream and cry and break down, his abilities turned up to 110, his electricity flowing out him without any control, lashing out at anyone who tried to invade his space, let alone tried to touch him or stop him.

I think he would come pretty close to taking down Miguel, he'd defiantly pin him, using his enhanced reflexes and sheer surprise to get the upper hand, before just snapping. he'd let loose on Miguel, physically yes, but he would scream at him. he'd shove his stupid canon theory back into his face, begging for an explanation; if he was supposed to let his dad die, if he was forced to, than why did he lose everything anyway?

he'd leave Miguel bloody, even in his fury, he won't kill him, he can't do it, but he will make him suffer. he wants answers, he wants so many answers, answers to questions he doesn't even know he has, and he needs Miguel for those.

once he burns up his anger and cries out his sadness, he's left numb and empty, frequently returning to his dimension to sit amongst what little remains of his home. it doesn't really hit him at first that everything is gone, he knows it is, but he just can't accept it, his mom, his dad, Ganke, his friends, the cashier at the bodega, all of them, they can't be gone. he didn't even get to say goodbye.

part of him knows, deep down, that he should have saved his dad, he should have been allowed to try, that they would be here if he had just gotten to try. call it insanity, desperate attempts at coping, grasping at straws, spidey senses, intuition, some higher intervention and knowledge, he has no fucking idea, he just knows, and it only fuels his anger.

he stops coming out of his "room" at HQ, stops letting people in, not even Pav and Hobie who have never wronged him, who were always on his side, let alone the others, who at one point or another abandoned him or saddled against him. he stops in general, stops eating, stops sleeping, stops trying to distract his mind with things like music. he loses it a few more times, tearing up whatever furniture he had been given to make up for his lack of a home, before turning to laying on the floor, looking up at the blank ceiling for hours, ignoring any of the desperate pleas from outside his door.

he cringes when he realizes he's just becoming Miguel. he ignores the thought. tries to at least.

he lies there and withers away until he can no longer fight the others off, till he's forced to let them take care of him, forced to listen to their apologies and their "it'll be ok"'s. he honestly doesn't care; everything that ever truly mattered to him is gone or tainted, he's lost his world, his people, his family, he lost his friends, he lost his purpose. he just floats through life, accepting that he's just gonna turn into someone like Miguel, cold and closed off, not really living, but not dead, and he's "ok" with that, more so, he doesn't have the care nor energy to be more than that anymore. he accepts his fate, for once, cause its clear that trying to do anything else only get him and the people he loves hurt.

#kinda forgot about spot... #lets just say when miles was fliiping out he handled him and then beat the shit out of miguel #I don't have the energy to go back and fix it so just be imagininative #I can not see someone like miles #young and optimistic and soft #coping with losing their reality #like he's angry but has no energy to be angry #he just goes so numb #I think he'd basically just give up #watching himself become a parallel to Miguel #having to be fine with it cause he just *can't* bring himself to be anything else #my poor baby #miles morales #miles morales 1610 #miguel o’hara #atsv #across the spider verse #spider man: across the spider verse #across the spiderverse

[weallpartyatybcpatricksfuneral]

anyone else think it's insane that folie a deux -- which literally means "the shared delusions of two"-- opens with "I'm coming apart at the seams/Pitching myself for leads in other people's dreams"

#sorry but thats an incredibly insane line to open with??? #especially because its one of the few lines outside the chorus that actually 'make sense' #and arent just kind of gibberish writing? like i dont think thats a bad thing btw and i think every line in disloyal order is amazing #but if you genuinely read over the lyrics to disloyal order most of it genuinely makes no sense in context of the song #other than the loose bolt/half doomed and semi sweet line (which acts as the thesis for the song) and the chorus #this +the few lines that come after it are really the only things that make sense in this song #kind of as if one person is coping fine while the other is losing grip on reality #shared madness of two and all. something something mania 'even at the best of times im out of my mind' #oops i did it again i forgot what i was losing my mind about kind of fits disloyal order a bit too much imo #fall out boy #fob #patrick stump #pete wentz #joe trohman #andy hurley

[blinkpen]

having long ago made the executive decision to sublimate MUCH more of my rage over all the ways my body identity and personhood have been violated over the course of my life on levels both mental physical domestic and systemic into my writing by the way

#this does not mean we will be Seeing things on screen we don't need to #just that i am going to crank the dial and how much harrowingly visceral information can be conveyed -without- actually doing that #good horror will make a frame with seemingly nothing going on the scariest shit ever bc you Know. you cant see. but you Know. #the tragedy of 'my schizophrenia did not disable me but the PTSD from how i've been treated and taken advantage of bc of it DID' #'and SO MUCH of the WORST trauma was inflicted in the name of Fixing me (be it the mental illness or my gayness or my being a girl wrong) #and a lot of other things really but this is at the forfront of my mind as i finally finish recovering from a lot of repressed shit finally #boiling over to dangerously lethal levels last year and my entire brain just Imploded lmao #i dont know when i'll be able to really forgive my family for refusing to vaccinate or distance and transmitting covid to me twice #resulting in seizures and brain damage the second time #which basically hit a reset button on how well i could manage my pre-existing schizophrenic symptoms and damaged my cognition #i've had to mourn losing a big chunk of my own mind's ability to function focus or even remain anchored in reality because of that #oh yeah the transphobia my family still refuses to work on that and it also contributed heavily to the system shattering so bad #i finally realized that it even existed #some of the alters now have mutually exclusive genders and orientations presumably as weird coping mechanism

[deargravity]

not to be making unrealistic demands but this year i want a kanata breakdancing video and also for him to put his hair in a french braid and also to wear a cute skirt and also to have his nails painted and for him to be openly honest about his emotions with the people he cares about and to confront the lingering grief slowly consuming him as he simultaneously mourns someone who is still alive & someone who never was. but to keep it realistic, i’ll settle for a diss track directed at hajun. i guess… whatever tho. not that i care

#paradox live #paralive #kanata yatonokami #cozmez #yeon hajun #the crushing wait of reconciling your idea of your brother to the reality of him #kanata with french braid is a need #the grief of losing your brother twice and struggling to conceptualise that now he is here for good #they didn’t expand enough on how kanata could possibly have coped with having his world overturned so many times in a day #more on kanata’s grief later

[thelostsisters]

alexia referring to alfred as a worker ant in her journal entry, claiming that he’s replaceable to her and that losing him would not affect her whatsoever… and then waking from her cryogenic sleep to find her brother dying on the floor in front of her and choosing to stay by his side as he passes and targeting the two people who were responsible for his death (even though letting claire and steve leave would not have hindered her plans whatsoever)

#was she trying to convince herself that she didn’t need him? #bc once her world domination plans were set in place he would have inevitably become a mindless servant like everyone else #and deep down she didn’t want to lose him #but she wanted to believe she was strong enough that it wouldn’t phase her #and ultimately she realizes she was lying to herself #she has to come to terms with this reality when she watches him die #just like how alfred had to cope with the reality of his unhealthy coping tactics of posing as alexia to fill the void in his life w/o her 🫠 #ashford brainrot is returning from war it’s bad y’all #resident evil #resident evil code veronica #alexia ashford #alfred ashford

[wibble-wobbegong]

fuck the mf being the big bad i want that guy as a pet. i wanna feed it kibble and teach it to roll over

#accepting the reality that human nature is what causes so much pain was difficult and i love to lose myself in a fantasy where things are Ok #but now that i’m there and just coping with the fact that my favorite horror show is a genuine horror. I kinda wanna make the mf like a #little buppy #i wanna tear henry’s organs out and feed them to the mf in little bite sized treats #like sorry he did that to you mr shadow dog it’s Ok now #you wanna go play with the shadow men???? and then i throw the shadow stick #the mind flayer

[dramarants]

don’t even look at me if you wouldn’t consider sealing yourself in an ice coffin with me to stay by my side should I suffer an untimely death 😩

#till the end of the moon #tteotm #ranting #luo yunxi you fucking GOD - the way he speaks to and holds her corpse in both scenes. denial. desperation. fear. disbelief. the trembling. #his face walking up to her coffin and subsequent rage and protectiveness with qingyu over both her and their relationship #no matter how many times she said her purpose was to kill him he still believes they loved each other and refuses anything else #the bracelet sequence the face nuzzle the mirthful laughter #he can’t bear to lose her and he has no idea where to direct his overwhelming pain and sadness despite their conflicts #after all what’s grief but all the love still left to give. he has lost ppl before but not like this #there’s prolly a fair amount of guilt and self hatred underlying everything too #all he's done these last eps is try to hold on to her in every way - with every shred of his being - but none of it worked #‘just say one word please’ ‘you’re really hateful’ AAHHHH #his injured hands shaking her as if things are normal. later tucking her hand in gently as if not to wake her despite the truth. #he's lost all sense of self and purpose. his grasp on reality is hanging by a thin fucking thread #he will gladly live in his delusion & try to stay by her side. even in death. even when she didn't want it. #he can't go on w/o her anymore - doesn't know how. she has fundamentally changed him. #(so much that he even fights the devil god voice in her defense 🙏) #it’s scenes like this that bludgeon you with humanity amidst all the unreal fantastical elements and bring you back to these shows #omg I’m remembering his fixation on her not looking at him with ttml before - boy was already going insane w/o her when she was still there #healthy attachment and coping? ttj doesn't know her 😌 #like idk if he fucks her corpse in the novel but props to lyx I’d fucking believe it #and once again nian baiyu is not paid nearly enough for any of this

[katyspersonal]

Had bad nightmares all night that I kept trying to collect all documents and supplies I'd need to leave my country but everywhere I went, a ridiculously cartoonish, caricature 'evil Russian' character man followed me and messed with my attempts, if not tried to get me jailed or even killed. All while Russia was falling apart in earthquakes and tsunamies. I even saw really huge soulsb0rne-esque monsters roaming in the sea when I was at the high peak, and dream ended when "evil Russian" caught me and tossed me to those monsters. My last thought was, however, 'But I already killed so many monsters so far, I'll deal with all these guys too somehow'

#dreams #/vent #i've just been overthinking how ridiculously fasc1st this reality is becoming #so yeah totally it wormed into my dreams #absurd that even in my dreams i possess some sort of optimism and hope.. #i keep losing hope in reality often but apparently my subconsciousness is less desperate than my waking self lol #i still need to cope with.. some realisations #i just physically have no means to escape and whatever chance seemed legit failed to be fake too #also yes that evil russian is very comedic in retrospective #but in a dream it was extremely dreadful to not be able to escape stalking #he nearly burned my documents too when every minute counted for me to get out

[luoniiel]

ngl this is me sometimes. he was so real for this

#u know when it’s like. #ur sense of reality and self is actively splintering like broken glass n you feel like you’re genuinely starting to lose it #but damn those tunes are banging #i’m unwell n i don’t know how to cope #delete later #it speaks

[illegiblewords]

Listening to lore vids and have heard a few possible origins for the Forgotten Realms, with one being like 'yeah Selune and Shar were the first two deities after Ao'. There are a few different creation myths, but this only further convinces me that Shar needs to be demoted at all costs lol. No wonder corruption within the pantheon is so bad, one of the progenitor deities is basically committing widespread malpractice and embezzlement.

If the DnD gods are to be held to any standard of professionalism, corruption needs to be addressed at the uppermost levels.

#Shar is not immune to performance appraisal #It's demotion or firing and given Selune is doing fine she's probably going to take the demotion over losing everything #Be a goddess of lies and destruction if you wanna Shar but you can't advertise like you're the most qualified divine grief counselor #If your worshippers are looking for coping mechanisms + the sheltering mantle of darkness and you as a goddess do not stock those things #Then you really need to change portfolios #It sounds like she does authentically hold jurisdiction over oblivion which is rad as hell #But that's very different from forgetting/suppressing memory as a defense mechanism #It sounds like she's more about erasing things from existence entirely #Closer to a total suicide of the self and the unmaking of reality #There are ways she can still advertise herself for what she wants to do professionally but current portfolio ain't it

[blodeuweddschild]

Yknow thank god that “this is a simulation” stuff doesn’t trigger my derealisation or I’d be so fucked

#I’m on the border of this is real and this is not real rn so I’m ranting #maybe if I rant it’ll bring me back to reality #I just don’t need this rn. it’s getting worse and worse #I had a really bad episode this last week and ended up walking for like 10 minutes with nothing but my jeans and t shirt on #no shoes at like 8pm when it was super cold #and I was lucky I was still with it enough to answer my phone #I’m fuckin losing it man! and whenever I tell therapists and shut they just tell me it’s a coping mechanism! #maybe it started out that way idk but atm it’s ruining my life and could make me do some awful things to myself and the people I love #and I’m fucking scared but im brushed off constantly #I’ve got an appointment at some point about my mental health #and I’m not gonna let them just brush it off. I need help with this shit

[korn-y-copia]

What if they resurrect the other papas and they just become a barbershop quartet of antipopes?? :)))) no one dies, everyone wins.

#I joke I joke #if anyone could pull it off it would probably be Tobias #four characters all at once all on stage all on new albums and in new chapters etc. I have complete faith in him #better alternative than Popia dying right? right??? #you are watching me lose it in real time #this is MY Caligula arc #unsuccessfully coping with reality rn #ghost #ghost the band #papa emeritus iv #Copia #this is a silly joke I promise please take it as such

[seraphim-soulmate]

I'd really like to do a scream like one of those girls in emotional anguish in the tv shows. but im too scared of what will happen.

#personal #genuinely would scare myself and also i believe that expressing the full range of my emotions #and letting myself actually feel them #would genuinely drive me to insanity. like id lose all grip on reality and would not be able to cope with how bad its been.

[hecksupremechips]

Ooooooghhhhhhhhh stressed 🥺

#dont wanna see family tomorrow and im sleeping saur bad lately i couldnt sleep last night and then had a typical fever dream #which gave me a really cute idea for a movie so im gonna keep it in my pocket #but it was one of those things where its like it says a whole lot about me and my trauma and its stressful #um um um and also im juggling all these different things like im sewing im trying to finally write im trying to draw again #while feeling like im failing at it all and then like i still gotta find fuckinnnnn job i neeeeeed money #this time of year is always really hard for me i hate when its warm again i hate easter and i hate knowing that summer is coming #aaghhhh rn im ticking and stimming really bad and im having trouble breathing hnnghhh #and im very sweaty lol i always get so sweaty when i dont sleep good i dont get it #also i think im just horrible like the one person i wanna talk to probably is getting tired of my constant life crisis and how needy i am #and theyre probably off being better without me there and im just a burden and then my therapist idk about him #i dont feel like hes really giving me anything like when i talk about how stressed and unsafe i am hes like you gotta find a way to cope #and he doesnt really tell me how exactly i should do that like mate thats why im here i need the help you cant just listen to me panic and #go ‘wow you need to fix that’ ughhhh and i think hes mad at me because i dont think he believes me anymore when i say im in an abusive #situation and that ive been controlled my whole life by everyone and i have never felt safe #and its just like ughhh like i feel like no one believes me anymore and theyre all fed up with my bullshit incompetence and constant #bellyaching and im a horrible friend and a liar and probably just being dramatic as fuck making myself believe im being abused when in #reality im the abuser the ungrateful brat who treats his family like shit and cant trust them even though they seem so perfect to everyone #and im so stupid and toxic for trying to run away and for being scared to death here #thats how its feeling anyway idk everyone is just. weird and im losing my grip on reality and cant tell whats real anymore

[ddlc3177]

#letting go #coping with grief #griefandloss #losing it all #lost time #devaluation #love doesn’t have to hurt #sadly love hurts #when love hurts #stop hurting #im hurtin #sad #god help me #life lessons #reality of life #lessons learned #life #why me #why why why

[thecatspasta]

Inspired by @arrgh-whatever's post on helping ppl with BPD

Edit bc I forgot to add this: Being vulnerable means smth different for different ppl, something that could read as being vulnerable to you can read as just another Tuesday for someone else

[ID: a simply-drawn comic, narrated by a person coloured-in in pink.

Panel 1: The pink person narrates: "So there's a lot of "signs your ex is a narcissist and how to deal with them" and it's not very accurate. So here's how to actually "deal" with a narcissist from someone with narcissistic personality disorder."

Panel 2: This panel has the heading: "1. Supply." The pink person narrates: "People with NPD have very fragile self-esteem, and supply is what keeps us from having a mental breakdown. Supply can be many things, but often attention and praise are effective. Stuff like "Wow! That's super cool!!" can go a long way." A person is shown saying this to another person, who smiles.

Panel 3: This panel has the heading: "2. Criticism." The pink person narrates: "Oh boy. So narcissists take things as personal very easily. It's because if anyone contradicts our delusions that we have built our entire self-image on, it feels like you are attacking us as a person." There is an example shown, where one person says "hey, you were a bit too rude back there," but the other person hears "You're an awful dick no-one likes." The alternative manner of phrasing is suggested as "Hey, you were a bit too rude. You're cool, but some people took it poorly." The second person in this example thinks "I'm still a cool person. It's not my fault, but I can do things to be better." The narrator continues, "We don't really understand the concept of a harmless mistake."

Panel 4: This panel has the heading: "3. Boundaries." The pink person narrates: "With narcissists, setting down strict boundaries is very important. 1. Knowing we have hurt you because you didn't set down boundaries can really upset and annoy us because the delusions that we can do no wrong and know you best get broken. 2. If you let us break boundaries, it can lead us to see you as "weak" and devalue you. Communication is key."

Panel 5: This panel has the heading: "4. Anger." The pink person narrates: "So people with NPD tend to be prone to anger. This is a defense mechanism, because to us, it's either facing the inaccuracies of our delusions and having a mental breakdown, or blaming something else. We do not mean to lash out; we just don't have the skills to cope properly. You can help by: 1. Letting us express out emotions without judgement; 2. giving us praise or attention; and 3. Distracting us from what angered us." Each example of how to help is accompanied by a small cartoon.

Panel 6: This panel has the heading: "5. Other NPD things!" The pink person narrates: "'Love bomb, devalue, discard' is actually: we are genuinely obsessed with you and want you to recognize us as cool, we lose that obsession and move on, we feel threatened in some way and lash out. We can't really handle being seen as vulnerable. We take sympathy and empathy as pity and pity as you telling us we're weak. Not acknowledging we're being vulnerable and acting as if nothing is wrong can be helpful in these situations. People with NPD have a very warped view of reality. We do not mean to hurt you and often do not realise we have. Remember, this won't work for everyone, and talking is very important."

/end ID]

Ty to @aromanticsky for the id

#garlic breath #pasta scribbles #mental health #mental health awareness #npd safe #actually narcissistic #actually npd #narcissistic personality disorder #npd #actually mentally ill #actually neurodivergent #mental illness #neurodivergent #art #my art #cluster b #cluster b safe #npd info #cluster b info #cluster b awareness