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ranpd · 1 year

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what i say: no dude kissing the homies isnt gay lol

what i mean: kissing shouldnt be inherently romantic. im tired of it being seen as such. i want to be able to kiss my friends and hug them for minutes on end and lean my head on their shoulders and cuddle with them without people looking at us as if we’re dating. it physically hurts for people to see that with me and my friends, especially as an aroallo. i wish we could normalize that sort of intimacy platonically, not just romantically.

#ok to rb #in fact youre encouraged to rb #aromantic #aroallo #cursed with the tisms in the brain #seths hall of fame

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m1d-45 · 9 months

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ik you dont play star rail but i was just going through the new story update and i switched languages to english (i usually play in chinese) because im too lazy to read everything and i heard luocha's english voice for the first time and i audibly laughed at this mans voice. not saying its bad or anything but my man has the most "im a hidden villain" voice ever. just thought to share this

- curse anon

you’re correct that i don’t play star rail (but am tangentially interested, if anybody wants to talk about it) but that is peak funny. i also don’t know the lord or who he is but if this guy turns out to be bad and they cast Villain McBadguy as his va then maybe mhy made a good decision for once. better if everyone’s like “oh yeah he sounds sinister but he’s trustworthy i swear :)” meanwhile he’s actively sabotaging the mission (or whatever the plot of star rail is)

#m1d : [chats]#blood curse anon #i have an ask about chinese zhongli but i’m delaying answering it #because i have Issues™️ and when i listen to something and don’t understand it my brain hits the self destruct #i mishear people so often irl i cannot stand not understanding what they are SAYING #i tried to switch to i think jp? for tighnari (nobody talk to me about his va change i’ll Die) but that was AWFUL #i’m so used to hearing my guys and KNOW it’s so #augh #a dash of the tism makes the voicelines go down yk #whatever. this is irrelevant. anyway.

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getoutofmytardis · 5 months

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uhhh

#turn me into soup actually i feel like such a dick cancelling on ppl #and yet here i am cancelling on ppl #its literally always bc i’m 1 pathetic thing away from having a meltdown #curse this tism addled brain😪#also like i rly should plan to be in places for extra time and not just while i’m working bc bruh yeah ofc ur overwhelmed already #but also rly did wanna meet them but like. that’s so embarrassing if i just have a breakdown first time meeting someone #also idk how to date. furthermore i do not know how to have the conversation of i don’t wanna be a in a relationship (bc i acc just. cannot)#(also i do not wanna burden them w my existence tbh lol)#which is 100% just me knowing that i’m not that great at relationships but not having the energy to. yanno. actually do smth about that #ah i’m a dickhead fr #but then again i’m genuinely not ready to be in a relationship lol got what a shit show that would be #first time in a while that i haven’t been thinking abt my ex all the time #but that happened before and went to shit again very unlikely to stay this way🫡#*grabbing my own little face and staring into my eyes* my brother in christ u got 4 hours sleep and worked longer than u thought u would #just got to sleep

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indecisive-dizzy · 8 months

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chapter 3 of dog's dream come true is underway but I keep getting distracted hhhhh

#curse my neurodivergent brain #the tism is tisming #and the ad is hding #cough also writng Poppy is hardd i love her but whyyy #omg i have to wrote howdy this ch. too howw #oh well here i go #back to procrastinating- i mean writing

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thatdemiboymess · 1 year

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Sorry to the handful of people who actually post about MSA on here for periodically going through your blogs desperately looking for MSA content so I don't lose my mind from the deprivation. I hope my spam liking and reblogging of what new content you have and reblogging all of the MSA content I see doesn't annoy you guys.

I love you MSA fans and I love your fanworks and I love this fandom--

#please never block me over this #i promise i dont mean to be annoying im just woefully deprived of MSA content asdfghjkll #thank you all for your contributions and work #kinda wish the tism could have picked a bigger fandom/series for me to spend the rest of my life endlessly rotating in my head #but alas #it picked msa #god im so not ready for the final video #i am not ready for it to end and im especially not ready for people to move on from it completely #as seems to happen in fandom these days #even more so because i know my brain isnt gonna move on from this silly little amv series and will instead focus on it forever #as is the curse #i love you msa #i love you msa fans #i love you arthur kingsmen #i love you lewis pepper #i love you vivi yukino #i love you mystery #i love you galahad #i love you uncle lance #i love you mrs pepper #i love you mr pepper #i love you--#*gets reported for spam because i wont stop listing all the msa characters and telling them i love them*#msa #mystery skulls animated

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the-arkaives · 2 months

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WELCOME TO THE ARKAIVES!

NOW PLAYING: curses - the crane wives “OOH, LAY MY CURSES OUT TO REST! MAKE A MERCY OUT OF…”

WHAT ARE THE ARKAIVES?: so, I realized that suddenly, i was no longer the only person who had Miss Kai Drew rotating in my brain. now, I may be the only one with her doing so 24/7, BUT THERES OTHER PEOPLE NOW-

The Arkaives are your one stop shop for the small little Kai Drewniverse Fandom! you’ll get cannon posts from me, and then the other arckaivist’s fucking BANGER ass “fannon” posts (GUYS I AM EATING THAT SHIT UP KEEP IT COMING)! it’s just a way for this tiny ass community to thrive :]

HOW DO I BECOME AN ARKAIVIST?: simple! reach out to me, say you wanna become an arkaivist, and then BOOM! you’re in! but if you’re a fucking douchebag/asshole i am NOT afraid to kick you out. this is a silly funtime blog, and if you bring bad vibes i am kicking you out. also don’t argue with me about cannon. I’m the author i know what I’m talking about 🤨‼️

WHAT CAN I POST AS AN ARKAIVIST?: you’re allow to post anything as long as it is vaguely Kai related! like, saw something pink and yellow? KAI DREW REFERENCE POST IT‼️‼️‼️ (<- fun fact: actual way i make going out in public fun instead of nerve wracking) it doesn’t even have to be just Kai! got ideas about relationships between Kai and ‘x’ character? POST IT! that’d probably be helpful for me writing nmk/kai in hf stuff, as I’m always a biiiit afraid of mischaracterizing the people of Hatchetfield in the fanfics. But, like, Kai lore isn’t just Hatchetfield! believe me, i forget too, but she’s in a shit ton of fandoms! so, if you’re into one of the other fandoms she’s in? join! fair warning, though: the Kai in HF lore is ROTTING my brain, so there’s gonna be a lot of that shit-

ARKAIVIST ONE - @pastriibunz

NAME: Pastrii!! :D

PRONOUNS: she/her :]

the kai drew fan. literally. i made her!!! i made that guy!!!! the creator of miss drew, the writer of the fics, the artist of the cannon art, the admin of @shxwstxpper (and this blog too), and professional pokotho prophet (/j)! ive definetly got a better intro on my main, (and it does list what fandoms kai's in so do take a look!), but this is my little bio sooo yeah!!! :D

ARKAIVIST TWO - @skylines-turnstiles13

NAME: Max!! :]

PRONOUNS: he/him :D

MY SON!!!!! the admin of @laika-at-hatchetfield and the reason this blog exists! legit my brother in christ told me to do it and my ass was like "yes sir 🫡‼️" and now we're here! he makes some DELICIOUS ass art (seriously man eating that shit UP) and made it so our first posts were angst (all hail the boy!!!! doing what i couldnt <- was going to wait a bit for soul crushing angst- let yall get comfy b4 i fuck yall up). GO FOLLOW THEM THEY'RE COOL AF 🫵😡‼️

ARKAIVIST THREE - @chillibeanos

NAME: Chilli/Max :3

PRONOUNS: Any :D

MY (other) SON!!!! I lob them sm GAHEGEGEGVR THE SILLY!!! they also have a neato lil guy named Bean Sprout so GO CHECK THEM OUT 🫵😡‼️‼️‼️ GO FOLLOW MY BOY 🫵😡‼️‼️‼️‼️

ARKAIVIST FOUR - @raspberrysmoon

NAME: elliot/alice/(rasp)berry/ella/julian

PRONOUNS: he/him + she/her + fawn/fawns + star/stars + they/them + it/its

YET ANOTHER ONE OF MY SONS!!!! I feel like getting added to this account just means you become one of my sons- silly little guy!!! they’ve got a more in depth intro too- FOLLOW THEM RIGHT NEOW 🫵😡‼️

ARKAIVIST FIVE - @christianchasity

NAME: Kacie!! :>

PRONOUNS: she/they

im literally neuerodivergent and a minor? but ayways im the rp expert because i ave 12 different accounts and i have 3 years of expeirence.... but i also have the tism and adhd and i am the grace chasity fan okay tats it love you consually an platonically!!!!

#tkwdlm #kai drew #the kai who didn’t like musicals #tgwdlm #the arkaives #starlit songbird #the guy who didn't like musicals #kai drewniverse #kai in hatchetfield #hatchetfield #intro post #pinned post #other arkaivists feel free to send me your bios n shit!! :D

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illogarithmil · 2 months

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Rotes as Revision: Byzantine Kingship Rituals

So I am very TTRPG-brained and have a bad habit of letting it distract me from uni-work - as in "ah, the essay's due in tomorrow, I have time to make a 60x60 hexmap and populate it with encounters!" However, I'm also very 'tism-brained and so if I don't think about my beloved special interest I will simply Cease Being Productive Entirely.

A way I have recently been testing of getting around this is making TTRPG content based on whatever I'm studying at the time! One significant example, a mage game set in Northern Ireland about a plot by gnostic paramilitaries to create a new Celtic realm by utilizing the awakened spirit of a long-dead Pharoah, is a WIP at the moment, but whilst I put down my dissertation on Loyalist groups in the Troubles to focus on some essays about the Late Antique middle east for a bit, I thought I'd knock out something quick for that.

I therefore present: a Mage rote inspired by the artistic and cultural displays of dominion made use of by Eastern Roman and Sasanian emperors in their interactions with each other, though definitely applicable to circumstances outside of that! This is all heavily inspired by Matthew P. Canepa's The Two Eyes of the Earth: Art and Ritual Kingship between Rome and Sasanian Iran, an excellent book you should read if you're remotely interested in the pre-Islamic Middle East, early Iranian or early Byzantine history from either a political or cultural perspective. There are two more I have ideas for (Ritual Humiliation [Entropy 5, with optional Prime 4/Time 4] and Prestige-Garnering Warfare [Prime 3 with optional Mind 2]), but also this post has been sitting in my drafts for three weeks with only the first written so I may never get to them. Alas, the fickle butterfly of inspiration settles but briefly!

Paradigms:

Iconographic Authority (Mind 5 [crude form] or Prime 4/Mind 2+ and 10+ points of Quintessence [standard form])

The representation of the ruler, given as a gift, seems to take on the aspect and dignity of the ruler themself, carrying the sense of their presence far beyond them. Though this might conjure images of paranoia-wracked cults of personality to some, its effects can also be highly desirable - for example, the sense that a neighbouring ruler is literally present in one's court projects an image of one's power and of mutual respect without the expense or stress of continuous visits.

Common Practices: Art of Desire, Craftwork, Dominion*, Faith*, Reality Hacking Common Instruments: As part of the crafting process: Artwork*, Management and HR*; As the object itself: Artwork*, Books and Periodicals, Cups and Vessels*, Gems and Stones, Money and Wealth, Sacred Iconography, Symbols*, Weapons; As part of the gifting ceremony: Blessings and curses*, Dances and movement, Drugs and poisons, Eye contact, Fashion*, Food and drink*, Group rites*, Money and wealth*, Music*, Offerings and sacrifices, Prayers and invocations*, Sacred iconography, Social domination*, True names (titles)*, Voice and vocalizations* * appropriate for the inspiring period of Byzantine-Sasanian interactions

The mage themselves or, more likely, some of their servants craft an item representing them - usually but not necessarily a literal depiction (if it is more abstract then the difficulty should increase by +1 to +3 depending on how directly and specifically the symbols used refer to the Mage). It is then handed over in a special ceremony to another individual, as part of which they are likely showered with other gifts and luxuries. This ceremony will usually be protracted, allowing for ritual casting, though of course extremely long castings risk wearing the target's patience thin.

For the crude form, four+ successes are required, with additional successes being used to extend duration (which means that in reality, 8 are probably the minimum to make the rote useful - see the Duration chart in the M20 core book). For the duration, the target's subconscious mind is altered so that they constantly feel as though the giver of the gift is physically present with them and behave appropriately - for example, avoiding acting against them in any way that would be obvious to somebody stood in the room alongside them.

In the standard form, the item is instead a Wonder - see the rules for crafting wonders - with Arete 2 (or more if more Quintessence is invested during crafting), imbued with a Mind 2 effect which it uses on every creature that observes it, beginning with the creature gifted it. This effect projects the mental impression of the presence of the giver quite directly - it is, for targets, as if the item were literally the giver. It will first roll arete after a minute of observation, then ten minutes, then once per hour a target is in its presence, beginning by accumulating nine successes against the target (at which point its effect on them is indefinite and automatic, taking effect whenever they are in its presence until the Wonder is destroyed) and then targeting other creatures, giving one creature the impression for one scene per three successes. It does not suffer the penalty for juggling multiple effects, being very specifically designed to do so.

The effect (and the effect of the Wonder in the standard case) is only vulgar in regions without a tradition of representative artwork, or at least without one of ruler-representation as a means of projecting authority. Both forms are somewhat difficult to detect as being alien impositions rather than natural reactions, requiring at least Mind 2 or (in the standard case) a Prime-based examination of the object itself.

#mage the ascension #world of darkness #ttrpg #mtas #mage rotes

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cherryhrat · 1 year

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just a little rant about my art alsdkjf

going through my art throughout last year and

its absolutely outlandish that I can draw like this but just don't have the fucking patience for it. gotta love adhd/s and If I drew like this enough Id get even better at it, can you imagine? imagine if I studied color theory like I studied anatomy, shit would be outstanding. sadly I hate studying and I actually don't even like drawing all that much, its just a way to make the silly little blorbo thoughts in my head not be in my head. I honestly don't even like anything but the sketching process. the rest is just so that it looks like how it looks in my head, but I don't really enjoy the process :/ Though the process is something for my brain to hyperfocus on, its a good coping mechanism for my adhd and I always like my creations, they make me happy, so Ill always keep doing it c: Also its fucking wild how just adding a few more lines can completely change how a piece looks like look at this???

then look at this

then fucking this??????

like how the hell did I do that. I don't even know man also fucking wild how Ive got this skill yet can only use it on fucking naruto and tmnt alidhfas the curse of the tism aklshdfas also also ignore how crunchy everything is its been copy and pasted like three times before it got here alkdhfa

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nightcoremoon · 5 years

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ok so I was watching dota stream on twitch because there tournament is coming up and they're doing qualifiers I figured ok cool I've not watched pro dota since last tourney so I go in and as expected chat fucking sucks and is full of spammers and degenerates and trolls and a few well meaning people who just like dota but that's the tiny minority

anyway it eventually comes up that someone says like "blah blah your tism is showing" because the other person defended the channel when there were frame drops. so I was gonna say "using autism as an insult in 2019? LUL" except I was auto timed out for "misusing medical terminology" im like U FOKKIN WOT M8. when I came back I make a joke like "wow mods I can't even say a*tism when I'm using it as medical definition that's dumb u silly" and "what, can I not say streptococcus either?" and prompted a few LULs

later someone missed 'triggered' when someone else was getting a little miffed at the casual racism against filipinos and koreans (because we're watching games form southeast asia) so I was like "wow mods you can say triggered but not a*tism? LUL"

and at the end I was like yeah I've had enough "bye chat" yadda yadda "oh and before I go I'll do one test to the mods to see what the rules are, I'm gonna say 'I have a*tism' because it's literelly true and see if they let me say it and GO" but THE MODS INSTANTLY DELETED THAT MESSAGE so I was like wow fuck it 100% "lmao mods deleted my comment about how their ban on using the word a*tism for its literal definition is silly and asinine"

then

some

fuckin

dickweed

says "maybe because they don't care about your tism because it has nothing to do with the game".

during a 6 minute break where no games were happening and the only thing anyone would be watching were ads

while a hundred people were spamming curse words and words for male genitalia in tagalog and indonesian

after my previous comments about the whole shebang and subsequent conversations with other people about it

I was like

u

dumb

mother fucker

YOU LITERALLY JUST PROVED MY POINT U DUMB MOTHER FUCKER

in nicer language of course... and I left the stream

I'm like

hOW the fUCK are you so stUPID and also so transparent with your clear obvious bigotry for the sake of being an asshole for no reason?

I'm not even offended as an autistic person, I am offended as an anarchist punk because are you literally such a blind brainwashed sheep that you'll lean back and open your mouth and take in the slurry of mandatory social order enforced upon you by society and just let it bend you over and fuck you in the ass, ARE YOU REALLY THAT SUBSERVIENT TO THE POWERS THAT SHOULDNT BE THAT YOULL UPHOLD THE PILLARS OF SOCIETY, is your brain seriously so small and easily amused that you just accept the world 4chan hands you on a silver platter at face value without bothering to do any searching for yourself to be a unique individual???

I'm not mad that you hate people like me. ok I am a little because hey fuck u buddy what'd I ever do to u other than exist? biiiitch. I'm more mad that you're stupid. and lazy. do you know how fucking hard it is to be nice to people even when they just won't shut the fuck up about shit you don't care about? ITS SO EASY TO BE A DICK. it takes a LOT of effort to be nice to people and that's why I don't talk much to the people I love.

how dare you exert minimum effort. how dare you be lazy. and how dare you be a bigoted hypocrite. fuck u buddy. perish in the dark.

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ranpd · 2 years

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