#definitely not a bad deal

[topsyturvy-turtely]

AUCTION!!!

once a month for a whole week you can have my uterus!!!

exclusive offer, for free, use at your own risk.

#no trickery #definitely not a bad deal #no blood or cramps #nuh-uh #my tags are totally sincere #why do i need to die once a month WHY #period #menstruation #women #hating my life #menstruating #period cramps #people with periods

[ruporas]

in a mood (ID in alt)

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #doing straight up nothing with the bestie. really good activity of doing nothing #i mainly drew this just so i can test how itd be not drawing their faces bc i Love drawing their faces a little too much. #maybe ill throw them in a more intense situation next time i try it bc it just ended up focusing on wolfwood and his silly newspaper #he's reading the news... cruel happenings all around no mans land... have to keep up to know where to go next and where to avoid #but theres also some guy in the same room being distracting as hell. i think they can coexist without bothering each other but theyd #be so painfully aware of the other person... both of them usually have tended to their own space after all for years. ww especially i think #would be easily distracted with vash's presence bc he's spent 2 years thinking about him already (for his mission...) #and thinking about vash is a Little easier than dealing with his personal anguish #though it can definitely overlap too. and sometimes its not that bad. sometimes its just vash's hand feeling unexpectedly nice and gentle #ruporas art

[definitelynotrhi]

happy halloween!! and happy harfest :)

ive been messing around with polymer clay lately! its such a fun medium and im so excited to use it more. this is the only figure i made that can stand on its own haha

#i actually havent been drawing a ton lately #ive been dealing with pretty bad art block haha but polymer clay has definitely been helping with that #my art #nitw mae #nitw #nitw fanart #night in the woods #night in the woods mae #mae #mae borowski #indie games #polymer clay #polymer clay figure #clay

[ghost-bxrd]

The “my baby” tiktok sound plays in my head when I think about That Part TM in owl song when Dick and/or Bruce finds Jason (and that scene in general, tbh).

Gosh, that audio breaks my heart every time :((( and once Dick finds Jason gone… yeah I can totally picture him saying something like this. It’s going to utterly destroy him…

#or does it count as eldest daughter syndrome? #eh anyway #dick’s reaction… isn’t going to be pretty #it will definitely deserve a grief tag #you know how in TSOA Achilles first reaction to seeing Pat’s dead body was to slit his own throat? #yeah it’s going to be THAT bad #I feel for poor Bruce #and Tim #having to deal with the fallout of everything happening #owl song #talon dick grayson #jason todd #batfamily #dick grayson #batfam #bruce wayne #robin #tim drake #batman #jaybin #Nightwing #a death in the family

[foursaints]

i need to hear more about lucius and pandora. you are insane for coming up with this ship. it's amazing. did they ever actually date or was it just mutual obssession that never evolved in anything more, but they both knew and never got over it? did it affect his relationship with narcissa? did he see pandora in cissa?

okay i’ll take this as permission to yap because!! they’re always in my brain. i see the ludora thesis as: two characters who are entirely different, but who are both utterly convinced they’re Smarter Than Everyone Else Around Them. what conflict stems from that? what connection?

it was always just mutual obsession. sneaking around at the very most, but nothing publicly Real. to me, they end up married to narcissa & xeno respectively because narcissa & xeno are like… the socially acceptable versions of each other?

in my head xeno is a lot older than pandora (7-10 years), and he’s very kind, but too absentminded to be an attentive husband, and she likes him for a lot of reasons. but she’s also subconsciously like… Maybe this could resemble lu if i squint. meanwhile lucius has convinced himself that his rich lesbian wife is everything he’s ever wanted (she actually Obeys him!! unlike pan!!!) & it only takes him 3 years to realize he fucking hates this. they both got Exactly what they said they wanted, which is the opposite of each other. because they can’t stand each other. but they’re miserable.

like…. lucius should have been pandora’s ornery stay-at-home trophy husband she drags on expeditions for rare potion ingredients. they’re an Adventure Couple™️. him with his head wrapped in a mosquito net in a jungle wearing designer shoes, bitching at his beautiful wife at the top of his LUNGS, swinging a machete at vines (<- guy who has never been happier) (he is shouting: DO NOT TEST ME, WOMAN!!!!!, she is shouting: you are such AN INFANT !!!!!!!!, and they’re aggressively making out against a tree)

you have to imagine lucius at a posh ministry function being sooo smug about it too. he’s like “Ah yes, my wife, THE PROFESSOR, is publishing a book on MANDRAKES this month, arent you, darling?” while pandora is soooo thrilled to have a captive audience to subject to her rants about her publications. completely insufferable couple. united by thinking they’re better than everyone else (except? they are? i think they maybe actually are.)

+ remind yourself that this ship could ultimately result in Draco & Luna being brother and sister. so perfect. except none of this ever happened because they never let themselves be together.

#lucius definitely STARES evan down at every death eater meeting #evan is tugging on barty’s sleeve and whispering ‘what is his fucking deal’ into barty’s ear #i love them so bad & i’m tired of pretending i don’t. don draper husband x miss frizzle wife. #ludora #a #long post #THEYRE SO TTPD IM SICK

[hellishfig]

y'know, i really wanted gilear to have a better time in junior year

but now that he's getting these little kisses from fortune, i am... unnerved. and i think gilear is unnerved as well

#it's just creepy #very odd #i'm sure this won't come back to be bad in any way 👀👀👀 #and it DEFINITELY has nothing to do with fig's new deal 👀👀👀 #dimension 20 #d20 #fantasy high junior year #d20 fhjy #fhjy #gilear faeth #fhjy spoilers

[satans-no1fann]

seraphim christmas cards

listen. im not even gonna try posting them directly here. catbox as usual

Michael

Gabriel

Raphael

missing naked ver of michael

#whb #what in hell is bad #whb gabriel #whb michael #whb raphael #would post beel rn but im out and dont want to deal with it maybe getting flagged #love raphael ❤️ definitely my favorite seraph #update i tried to clean the icon in the corner or raphaels card but like. i couldnt get the normal version i have to line up w the naked on

[aroaessidhe]

2023 reads // twitter thread

To Shape A Dragon’s Breath

YA fantasy

a young Indigenous girl finds & bonds with a dragon hatchling - the first time in many generations for her people - and is required to go to the coloniser’s dragon academy in their mainland city, to learn how to raise her dragon and the science of its magic

historical inspired setting on the cusp of industrial revolution with steampunk vibes

bi polyamorous MC, Black lesbian SC, nonverbal autistic SC

#To Shape A Dragon’s Breath #aroaessidhe 2023 reads #this is really really good i loved it! #the chapter titles are all like snippets of a story. or like sentence fragments that match up. which is cool #it is definitely more about being indigenous in a coloniser institution than Dragon School - not Super dragon heavy if you want that #I suspect the subsequent books will get into that when she gets big enough to ride and stuff #t’s also def YA! i’ve seen a few ppl assume it’s adult and be like its very young :( but like. I mean its perfectly reasonable for a 15yo m #definitely a Lot of racism and colonialism which is not fun to read! though it's still through a YA lens. there was def a part of me that #was imagining consequences of the narrative as if it were an adult novel #on that line of thought - at the end a lot of it is kind of solved by them going to the king and he's is like. oh no racism is happening? #that's bad i'll deal with those people! which felt like. a little simplistic. but maybe the easiest way to end the narrative for book 1 - #I don't think the author ACTUALLY is going to portray the king as a Good Guy throughout the series - it just felt conveniently like - #a simple YA solution to some very big and complex elements? if that makes sense? (but again - it is YA so it's allowed I suppose!) #some of the worldbuilding (like all the science learning) is probably setup for next books - we don’t really see any practical application #the romances are also subtle and not Overbearing In Book One which i like - leave some space for the series! #also her getting fanmail from a 10yo mixed race girl who looks up to her 🥺 #anyway. i really loved it! #oh also it reminded me a little of leviathan. i guess just the steampunk/time period/european culture.... #To Shape A Dragon's Breath

[harvestmoth]

okay now for a bunch of scribbles im not finishing

#first three are from the fact that i just got blacksteeple castle and instead of playing the game i felt like scribbling #next one is just me trying to get used to drawing ariana shes a lot of fun to draw + tiny interceptor oc idea thingsidk #then what i like to call #leaving your shitty bird husband for his much hotter deer ex wife #which is from the fact that in the room you first meet braixen in theres a book anathea owned calling how to deal with domestic abuse. #wwhy is that there and wow i hate vitus so bad #then idk venilla (?) sleeping headcanon or something #the erin and melia hug from the library that definitely did not make me tear up seeing the first time #melia and her fucked up bird based on gold pokespe and her and patience taking a nap #and finally idk an idea of melia being a shiny hunter with insane luck always in a no pokemon au #which would take place in the normal guys with weird animals au from. i don’t remember when #okayvthere explained everything #anyways i love rhat loser glitter girl and her goofy pokemon

[corvidcall]

i very rarely get a sense of satisfaction from completing tasks. ive heard people say this is an ADHD thing, but idk. personally i think i might just be bad at being alive

#anime life #i wish i could do something for myself but it just feels so hollow. like why fucking bother yknow? #i wrote a lot of my fic Book of Red Murder and then started to lose steam #and i thought maybe posting it would encourage me to finish it #and it did at first #but then there wasn't a lot of readership or energy around it #which like. is fine and not weird. it's not a big deal and it's not like it's something im OWED #and also i had. a bit of a mental breakdown and had to stop being active in the fandom #so now DEFINITELY no one's gonna read it lol #idk i feel bad even posting about it because i don't want anyone to feel bad or like im trying to guilt anyone about it #i just have trouble articulating what i feel and why and it helps me to try to reason it out #no one did anything wrong but i think it's still understandable for me to say that i was discouraged #when it felt like people didn't really like my writing. or. to be honest. me as a person #i guess the lesson here (if there is one at all) is that if you like a fic you should probably tell the person writing it

[laugtherhyena]

Mao mini comic set right before hell breaks loose with the church and the fire devil contractors.

#I'm having a lot more fun thinking about Mao now that i have the basis of what she's up yo storywise :] #i haven't thought of all the changes like. i don't really know how her introduction/date with Denji plays out #DEFINITELY not as bad as it is with Fumiko in canon because Mao would never #she's pretty much using her deal with PS to get to know Denji/Chainsaw man #so she's not gonna spy or try to get a grip on him. Mao treats Denji in a pretty normal manner #which bothers Fumiko since she sees this as Mao not taking her job seriously #They live together. it's kinda like how Denji was sent to live at Aki's place in part 1 #she's not her work buddy it's more like Mao was sent to live with Fumiko so that she could keep a closer eye on her #Mao sleeps on the couch. she likes staying up late watching random stuff on the television. #csm #csm oc #chainsaw man #Mao Masashige #Fumiko Mifune #Katana man #Nail fiend #do we actually know what fiend they are?? #hyena scribbles

[aiura-stan]

I have so many thoughts about saiteru but they like all cancel each other out

does saiteru is canon? the answer is more complicated than you think!

…in all seriousness id love to see a really long thought out essay on the topic of Teruhashi & Saiki’s relationship and how it changes over the course of the series. And whether or not the romantic coding was intentional, or if it was an extension of the romance trope gag. Also, how they are supposed to foil each other, but also how many similarities they share in circumstance and how goshdarn differently they tend to handle said circumstances (of always being the object of attention regardless of whether or not they want it) and how similar their internal attitudes are towards interacting with people, and how this this tends to affect their actions towards others.

#id like to pausit Teruhashis an introvert too #she just has realized she can’t afford to be one #and she’s also intrinsically a people pleaser which saiki by contrast is NOT #though he does feel bad if he treats people too harshly #he’s definitely not got the same ‘have to prove myself to everyone all the time’ bug #instead he’s trying to convince everyone else that he is something he is not and he doesn’t believe that he is either #so… #🍿 #like! #so much of Saiki and Teruhashis relationship dynamic gets to the heart of what the series is about #gags aside #of how we deal with the things beyond our control #how it affects our personalities #attitudes and everything #that’s what i like about them! #romance i can do with or without #it’s interesting if applied correctly but id like to think of their relationship as something that’s actually about something larger #draft dated Jan 17 2022

[ichthyorelationships]

only just processed that luca added the flames to the colander helmet...implicitly b/c of alberto’s “also i added flames” dream vespa design alteration...

#like evidence afterwards that someone was paying real attention even when at the time the other party felt ignored / tuned out....So sweet. #which also my audhd life experiences like. if i learn anyone ever absorbed anything i said it's like oh whoa living large lmao #anyways the point is it only occurred to me the other day lol. like i'd noticed the flames but just didn't piece anything else together #i Love how many like. threads & details you Can piece together like that but are just kind of quietly in the bg otherwise #and fun how everything luca needs for the race is definitely like Somewhere Underwater...colander fell in the sea...bike by the sunken boat #god knows what color situation i fumbled my way into here. so the classic spin of just like Also there's more stripped down versions #who knows if i'll like do more of a full color approach version. they can't stop you. nor stop you from just posting lineart #or stop me from going off the walls w/their tail lengths lol #luca #luberto #lucalberto #😚😚😚 #fish freckles you are everything to me... #eta not me forgetting to save the [solid bg color]less pngs as transparent....i was up all night #didn't help w/the color selecting that i'm bad at anytime lol #ok hopefully now they're actually transparent #smhhh now i've realized i forgot a little line to indicate webbing betwixt alberto's fingers there #not as big a deal as how i ALMOST forgot to include any of their arm/leg fins. i'll fix it if i do the [full coloring] deal lol. imagine it #yet another eta: occurs to me i could've made alberto purpler & the bg blue. well;

[kyouka-supremacy]

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#This is about the last thing I could have imagined happening to me but. #A girl just slid what pretty realistically is a love letter under my door and. I really don't know what to do about it #God. I like her a lot but I also really just love her as a friend?? #I don't. I have no idea what to reply because on one hand if I said something like #“yeah every second we spend together is precious to me too I love you <3 ” I would probably. Definitely come across wrong #But at the same time I can't just reply coldly I don't want to be rude. I do enjoy the time we spend together. #I just feel that if I don't reply with the same love and dedication I will come off as rude and make her sad and I really don't want to #But also I'm like. 100% sure I'm not into her romantically #It's just. The way she talks to me in the letter makes me feel... Odd in the bad way. #She spent words of admiration on me I really feel like I can't own you know. #She seems to look up to me a lot and I don't think I should be looked up to at all. #“You're a wonderful‚ very strong‚ and intelligent person” HOW DO YOU EVEN REPLY TO THAT. #“Uh I disagree but you're entitled to your opinion”... ? #Thank you? #This is. Ugh. I'm really not fit for this kind of stuff. #I LOVE exploring characters being in love and putting them in awkward ridiculous situations that make them miserable. #I HATE to be in such situations #As if exams weren't enough. How do I deal with that #Posting this just in case anyone has genuine advice btw. How do you reject a girl you actually like a lot #And how should I even write her back. Because she said to and I'm the WORST at writing back #Sis this is stressing me off so much. I want to dig a hole and disappear in it. I'm not getting out of my room for the next six months. #(For context we live in the same students dorm) #random rambles #I'm so distressed right now this is the absolute worst. #Like I was pretty fine with where we were at but now I feel like I really don't want to spend time with her again for a long time. #Deleting this soon hopefully

[mariemariemaria]

Does anybody else feel like mental health awareness has done very little to help them in material reality

#i was gonna say done nothing to help but that seemed too harsh #like there definitely is more knowledge about it now. maybe more people feel comfortable speaking about it which is good #but personally i don't feel that. like idk. workplaces will post about mental health awareness and then do nothing to help employees #the same w universities. my uni cut back the already meager mental health support #and then the government is doing absolutely fuck all as well #like idk im just back in a place i thought id gotten out of long ago and i still don't feel comfortable talking about it with people #maybe that's a me problem or maybe it's cultural or something idk. but in the 10 years ive been depressed (🫠) i don't think it's gotten a #whole lot better. teenagers are still dealing with the same shit i did and they're still not being taken seriously #women's mental health is not even spoken about.....anxiety depression sh eds etc are still ignored or seen as hysterical behaviour in women #or just normal esp with disordered eating. society hasn't changed people still want women to be stick thin and weak #like i know 10 years is a short time and there has been massive improvements in mh awareness if we look back over the past 50+ years #but idk i just think that it hasn't gotten better for a lot of people #i think specifically of belfast and like god. the amount of trauma there is the amount of homelessness the amount of substance abuse #drug abuse in particular that has gotten visibly worse over the past decade or so* #and i connect the dots n see the 2008 recession + a tory gov defunding the nhs + dehumanisation of homeless people & addicts + the troubles #+ ptsd + generational trauma + a negative peace + classism + paramilitary drug dealers + parties linked to those paramilitaries #and its like hmmmm i think we live in a society. and a mental health approach based on individual actions like journaling and meditation #isn't the way to go. or at least is not the be all and end all which is what a lot of mental health awareness raising seems to promote #*visibly worse on the streets. it was always a problem ofc but even a decade ago my parents never imagined it would be as bad as it is now #and it's become so normalised. i do think there's less individualism here than there seems to be elsewhere which can be good and can be bad #but i think we are becoming more and more individualistic. slowly. there's still a sense of community here but i do think it's changing #and callousness towards homeless people is one of the most obvious examples of this. #love when i put a wee asterisk in the tags of a post. like i have A Lot To Say lol

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Me, while manically cleaning my room at 3:27am: I should make several large, life-changing, irreversible decisions.

#so ive been in a bad mental state lately #because of many things. but the biggest being (yes i know ive complained about this in multiple other posts) #that my best friend and my ex gf were fucking. without even asking or telling me. i got no heads up. just figured it out on my own #which sucked and now im not speaking to either of them #and when i first found out i was in a bad place physically too #i had a terrible ear infection that was so fucking painful #and i realized i could concentrate on both things. so i focused on healing #and then i remembered ny family is coming to visit for Christmas #and thats a lot to deal with. so now im focusing on cleaning the apartment. specifically my bedroom #so im manically cleaning at 3:30am while angry and stressed and trying not to focus on this thing that makes me really upset #and in the middle of cleaning ill suddenly think 'should i quit my summer camp job?' or 'should i move states again?' #its not good. but i havent acted on anything #AND in the middle of cleaning i found all of my meds #i havent been taking them for months. but i decided im gonna start taking them again #i have a few refills left but then ill have to find a psychiatrist. i dont want to. but its definitely for the best #im trying to get my life back on track and build and better it #but then something hits me and completely derails everything and makes everything so hard #so anyway im gonna go do some more cleaning and try not to make life-altering decisions. and maybe build a desk #btw i have to get up at 9am to take out my puppy. and at 11:35 i have to get ready for work. again its 3:30am #and im full of manic energy #tomorrow is going to be very bad but at least I'll have a semi-clean room